I'm sorry, but I'm slightly confused... Are you an FtM? Because most FtMs hate it when they're thought of as lesbians, since they think it makes people assume they're not "real" guys, just lesbians. Do you still identify as a trannsexual female who went on T but still feels comfortable with their birth sex? Sorry for the qusetion, I'm just confused. Thanks!
nice :) embracing socialisation is something we seem to think invalidates us but it makes us awesome, why not take from it what you what? two cents, being socialised a boy makes a marked impression on my identity as a lesbian, fact
(and it's only being on mones for 5months that i can be comfortable saying that, because my body doesn't frighten me as much, 5 months ago i'd have said "un garçon? moi?! jamais!")
I think this is utterly lovely! I know almost nothing about transgender stuff, I just happened upon this sort of video and can't stop because out of curiousity. Your self awareness is eye-opening. Know that you've helped one more person in the world understand (and thus have more respect and acceptance) a person different than herself. =)
Génial ! tu parles français, je prendrai beaucoup de plaisir à montrer ta vidéo à mes amis trans, je vais la traduire pour eux. Merci pour ton honnêté !
"Basically, looking masculine, I'm able to act feminine without being perceived as a woman."
I think this line is the best part of this video, hands down. I've been really clueless and curious about trans-guy mindsets that /weren't/ "Omg, I need to be as manly and as straight as possible," and this really opened my eyes! You are officially my new hero. <3
Even pre t people who figured I was a guy, figured I was a straight guy. Despite the fact I didn't appear in the typical 'hetero' fashion, so there was no way around it for me. You are definitely a very unique person. I try not to hold onto labels, which is why I don't like telling people I'm trans, but then I don't like them not knowing because I feel like I'm hiding it for a reason such as ;you can't be viewed as normal and trans. It sucks, too complicated. We all do our own thing. :)
"...if I hold my girlfriend's hand, I still look straight..."? Why does that matter? Then you say you're a lesbian and a transguy....so you don't really care if you look straight. Wanting to look straight seems fairly self-loathing. Embrace being queer. :) Also, judging other transmen seems counterproductive. Please support everyone who's trans. It's a struggle for everyone to find self-acceptance in a world that only accepts a strict binary. Love and respect to you. :)
@orangez Let me ask you something "real trans man," have you had bottom surgery? Top surgery isn't what makes you FTM, it's what's inside and that's all there is to it, end of story. I have been transgendered my whole life - since Feb 5, 1980. I've been saying I was a boy since 2 or 3. That's what makes me transgendered and I don't need ANY surgery or hormones to prove it. I'm more of a man than any biological man I've ever seen or met. Back off and grow up! It's not all black & white.
Abut men and how they talk (ie; your example) not all men talk like that. My husband doesn't and never did. Just to let you know. You don't have to be like the 'typical' male, because the 'typical' male is pretty much a douche-bag, lol!
when people watch this video and other morons like you other people will be able to give real trans guys shit and be like oh there isnt such a thing you are just a butch dyke or whatever nasty things they must say to make themselves feel better. TO ALL YOU REAL TRANS GUYS OUT THERE, I GIVE YOU MY FULL SUPPORT KEEP UP ALL YOUR HARD WORK AND DONT LET IDIOTS LIKE THIS GET YOU DOWN....
@orangenz Dude you need to chill. this guy already said he's no one spokesperson, if someone wants to use nasty blanket terms towards FTMs that is their own choice. You are not a spokesperson for FTMs either, so when you justify your asshole behavior by saying 'all "true" ftms shouldn't listen to this fellow because whatever' you are no better. Get over yourself, we don't need a cheerleader and we certainly don't need people thinking they speak for everyone. That goes for all trans*folks.
being a genuine trans male is a very big and hard thing to deal with especially how society views them. and you are kinda like making a joke out of it all. why do born males usually think there is no such thing as a real lesbian because there are girls out there who say oh im a lesbian and then end up married with kids, or cheating on their gfs with men and just say that for attention from people or guys. i feel this is what you are doing with saying oh im trans and trying t etc....so now
im very disappointed. myself and my brother who is FTM feels as though you arent taking the whole FTM seriously. in our country it is very hard to get on t. and you are taking advantage of a luxury that many actually would stay on. you are just playing around and being stupid. if you consider yourself a lesbian, then be a lesbian dont try and jump on other peoples self discoveries or body hassels for your own enjoyment.....arghhh you are just an attention seeker...
Apart of different XX & XY mix; sex characteristics and fertility.
A man has: stronger body; lower body fat, higher muscle percentage on total weight, and generally more body hair, all due to a higher level of the male sex hormone testosterone in the blood.
Everything else is trained by assigning gender roles dependent on dominant norms of a society!
I feel like I'm the opposite. I identify and live as a gay guy, but I look and sort of act like a straight one. I'm not on T yet, but I'm somehow living in stealth o.O
Im so confused lol i dnt even know how i got to this,but i like ur personality and wat u said in ur vid takes a lot of courage so good job =). I think you would be an awesome friend to hang wit lol just saying XD.
Dude, has anyone ever told you that you resemble Jordan Todosey, aka Adam Torres, of Degrassi? No joke and no bull, you seriously look like her/him. (I only say her/him since I'm not sure what to call you since you say you're in the middle. No disrespect).
Cross horomones can have some unhealthy risks and side effects anyway. In fact, if I'm ever going to start T then natural transition is the way to go. It's very slow and if you suddenly stop there isn't really much of a risk. Besides imo I think injections, though is relatively safe, kind of looks from the outside like one is shocking their system. I haven't done a whole lot of research on it, but NT just looks much gentler. Also bottom line: needles make my skin crawl hahah. :P
@Bae8707 Natural transiton is when you take supplements and kind of a strict diet to produce more testosterone in the body. Or estrogen for transwomen. I don't know all the details, but basically it makes your body produce more T naturally. If you're not careful though some of that T could be converted to estrogen or vice versa.
@AJSSTUFF3 It just means being perceived how you would like to be. for example I want to be seen as a guy (because I am a guy) and I am seen as a guy, so i'm passing. sorry if i'm confusing in the way that i type
I'm so glad I found your vid, out just 7 days, 48 years young, and have no idea what I'm doing. I've watched a ton of videos and have learned a lot. So I just wanted to say that it was nice to hear one doesn't have to stay on T. I look at myself as a clean shaven guy, but I don't want to have to shave to look like it-LOL. I want to get the top surgery but keep wondering if I'm to old now and I know I'll never get the bottom done, just cause. So what is gender queer and am I or am I transgender?
chase! i love you. there are no labels involved with this statement. i respect you being visible and putting videos like this up on youtube because they are bound to help someone else. period. exclamation point.
We all have feminine and masculine spirits, no matter who you are or what you identify as. Jung called them the anima (fem) and animus (masc). A person needs both aspects of their spirit to be complete. Or else a man can't mature into a nuturing father, etc.
I am mtf and transitioned a long time ago. I found that as time goes on, gender has become less and less important to me. I can't say I understand the genderqueer thing but the world is big enough for all of us =)
I thought all of that about "labels" made perfect sense. And I'm a straight girl although maybe a bit on the "I love FTM trans men", but like you keep having to say (because people can't freaking listen) this is a personal choice and experience and screw labels.
And congrats on not caring what the hell other people think of your personal choices that reflect on YOUR body. <3 People need to lighten the hell up!
I totally understand what you're saying Like I total a guy I was trans and he's like I still see you as a female, you're always going to be a female and it's ok he sees me that way I know I'm a guy, my family knows, n my close friends know so that doesn't bother me I am on T if I become more masculine ok if not ok I've always been the one to open doors n pull out chairs n I always will be Keep be yourself, cause it's totally up to you
flipping good video, I feel like I really identify with the idea that being read as male makes one feel more able to be in touch with the feminine side, and staying visible is also good. yr videos always make me go 'yes yes indeed' which is nice :)
Very good video. It doesn't make sense to say that stopping t is wrong because it's a question of personal choice. There is no right or wrong way to transition. You go as far with it as you feel the need to. I think that any transguy who takes offense to stopping or reducing t is taking it personally, which is always a reflection of their own fear of stopping t. That's right, it's my body and I'll do what I want. Live and let live.
I think you are fabulous naked of all labels! Life is long and T or no T, your honesty is clear and you are in touch with who you are. My friend K is a transguy and a gay guy. And he's not "manly", he's unique. He's himself...like you. Keep changing to be who you are! As a lesbian, completely non trans, I slide a lot on the gender thing. Sometimes I catch myself wanting to be more femme or butch. Just be real.
It is excellent to hear different reasons for taking HRT and what journey you feel you are on. Thanks for sharing. There is a big need to hear from for those who are on T for different reasons. IT is lop-sided to only see the "transer-than-thou" folks who cannot tolerate anyone nor their journey because it is not "fitting into the tiny demarcations"...which is once again playing into the very thing that cause phobias against minorities: Exclusion from the whole because of non-conformity.
Hey, thanks for your video. I really appreciated your explanation of being able to identify with your female socialisation now that people tend to perceive you as male. I was trying to explain this to my partner and failing miserably! I kind of find that the more I try to pass the less likely i am to do so. I find I am overcompensating because I am so uncomfortable with people seeing me as female.
i like your bright plugs..but ya besides the voice and the masculine features , do you think being on t was a waste? i mean like.. the self assurance and becoming comfortable with your own femininity, do you think you couldve acquired that sometime in this year even without t?
sorry if it sounds naive but i was just wondering as a watched it.
1. You rock! 2. I hope you keep making videos about your life post-T because it would be really helpful for people (like me) who are considering similar transition paths to yours. 3. This thing that you said: "physically looking masculine, I am able to act feminine without being perceived as a woman" This is exactly what I want for myself and I've never heard anyone else say it, so that made my day. :D
dude, watching this video kind of makes me feel like i need to comment, being a transguy means transsexual male not transgender male which means it is impossible to be a transguy and a lesbian. Most transguys fight to not be called a lesbian not because its a "label" but because its not, nor was it ever really who we are. good uck with what you do and continue to do in your own life. but i do believe if you feel this way u r no long nore were u ever a transguy.
@cheghench dude what are you? the president of trans status? no seriously, why do you get to decide who is and isn't trans? good for you that you don't like the label of lesbian, but that doesn't mean chase can't be down with it. you need to reevaluate your definition of trans.
@cheghench so if being a trans guy means being a transsexual and NOT transgender, your saying that everyone needs to medically transition AND have surgery? and know one is allowed to be in the middle? and identify as genderqueer and still be trans? and you know what? i embrace that i was a lesbian before transition, and im embracing even more now because i STILL am a lesbian, identifying the way i do still makes me 100% transguy and 100% lesbian, you legit need to be more open minded.
@cheghench i don't think people can tell other peops how to define, even a transguy to another transguy. with respect to transmen who do not have multiple identifications, the straight-identified non-queer transmen should also respect & understand queer identities, people who identify as both transman, lesbian & gay man, transman & genderqueer, and all sorts of possibilities. there is also probably a big misunderstanding with what "lesbian" can mean; ex. for some it does not mean "woman".
Congrats, man. The whole idea of life (and transition) is to find YOU and be happy with yourself. I'm so happy for you that you've reached a level of clarity, comfort, and self-respect in your own life. So on that, a huge congratulations! Not that you need anyone to remind you, clearly, but keep doing you!
I love this video! This really answers a lot of questions for me. I've been going back and forth on whether I wanted to take T or not for similar reasons. Now I don't feel bad for not trying to become a 'man'. Thank you for posting this~
thank you so much for this. while debating t and surgery, having to act totally "guy" as well as being invisible in the queer community have been two of my hugest fears. it's so refreshing and inspiring to see someone with the courage to take an unconventional path that fits them.
So I am very happy that you're being yourself. It must be nice to know that your friends will still accept you no matter what. :D
Also, I totally agree with what you were saying about how when you started to pass more, you became more comfortable with yourself and started not caring as much about it. I feel like that is excactly the same with me. Even not being on T, as I noticed I was always passing, I became more feminine and flamboyant, and yeah. I get read more as a gay guy now. hahah.
Congrats on becoming comfortable with yourself. I've had the exact same issue you had, and identify pretty much identify at the same spot you pointed out on your spectrum chart. I don't feel like being percieved 100% guy is me, however I absolutely hate being percieved as female. I think we freak when we realize there is no label for that, but when you finally realize the beauty of it, you embrace yourself for what you are. Good luck with your t-stoppage and thanks for sharing!
I think its so funny reading these negative comments. People in the community have fought so hard not to be labeled or judged and now people within the queer community are doing the exact same thing. "testosterone as some kind of image makeover" or "ugly person inside and out" really? I mean 50 years ago trans guys couldnt even take T and were outcasts. Now T becomes available and queers and trans guys are going to start telling each other how to use it and judging each other? Respect Choices
It's really worrying that so many young people seem to be taking you seriously. The fact that you see Testosterone as some kind of image makeover, where u can choose the effects you like and don't like is concerning. Your body is not a playground to test out your identity. All I can gather is that you started T before you had really thought through the long term implications and before u were psychologically ready.Transitioning requires consideration of risk & reward and weighing up necessity.
@CandidCity There is no one way to do anything. Ever. There is not just a black and a white. Gender is fluid and we can express it in different ways and this is what is helping him. This was his choice, his decision, so respect it.
Truth is Chase you can call yourself a Green Martian, Clint Eastwood, or a 'Lesbian Trans man', it doesn't mean anyone else is going to view you as such. Identity is a space you create from within. It's who you are, not some label you give yourself. Your explanation of what a Lesbian Trans man is made no sense and t's frankly insulting to both lesbians and trans men as it denies the truth and struggle of both those identities by combining them.
So if we are to follow Jakob's logic....if you transition and end up Liking men....you should just detransition. Feel free to go off on me about sexual identity and gender identity. It's almost as ridiculous as stating that hormones make the man. Everyone has a right to their own identity and just because you don't comprehend it, does not give you the right to judge.
@BonesDGAF021 who the FUCK are you to tell someone to de-transition?! Why dont you go put on your headset and sit in front of your shitty webcam and piss off. Your an ugly fuckin person inside and out. Go jump off a cliff asshole.
@BonesDGAF021 I'm sorry you aren't happy with your life, but if you did something about it like Chase did, your life could change too, and then you could also be happy! Just think of the possibilities! I find it hard to believe how someone who is on T is as not understanding as you are, especially with the community you like to associate yourself with. To you, T is something, to others, T is something else. He specifically said he isn't going to De-Transition. Why you h8in', bro'?
LOL that was so scientific with the charts and everything :P I think it was a wise video. You should do what's best for you and don't let haters get you down.
before my son was born, we had a friend cross stitch on a onesie "ready to be me." i feel like the same saying applies to you now. enjoy the journey my friend.
It seems like the confidence you’ve gained on T has helped you make your gender performance about how you feel, so you can choose labels for your identity rather than the other way around. That sounds like a great place to be. It was good to be reminded that there’s not one trans path but instead lots of individual journeys. Thanks for the honesty and inspiration.
I get what you're saying but a question hits me around every corner. If you get off T won't your estrogen (Dont think I spelled that right) take overand make you look more like a female if thats possible.
But besides the questions I think its great that you do what you want to, your happiness is all that matters.
I like your face, too! You should always go with what makes you comfortable. I don't understand people not understanding your reasons for doing this. I think you're going to be perfectly fine. As I always mean to mention in a video, but forget- gender is fluid! It's not blue or pink. You don't have to decide to be a man for the rest of your life. You can act one way on Monday and totally differently on Tuesday, Way to go, Chases, Props, brother!
It all makes perfect sense. I applaud you:) I'm not on T, but if I ever was this is exactly how I feel about everything. I want to look and be more masculine, but I don't want to give up my female socialization either. I couldn't and wouldn't ever consider myself a man. Or a woman at that. So for right now, I will identify as genderqueer. I am in between.
I feel a lot like you and all the points you made sure make sense to me. Even watching your earlier vids before you started T, I had a similar gender identity as you and really respected you making decisions about your life that are right for you, instead of just doing what the majority of transguys do. You're very brave, and good on you for doing what's right for you.
Really, though, I feel exactly how you do. I want to get back on T because I want a few more changes, but I'll never be extremely manly. I think transition should be to become YOU -- not to become a man who fits into all male stereotypes. To each their own, but I think that's ridiculous. You're awesome.
I LOVE THIS VIDEO!!!!!! so awesome, thank you thank you thank you
MrDreStarr 23 hours ago
This is random but you look exactly like my cousin. I almost thought you were him for a second (but he has more piercings and tattoos haha).
TheStarrysea 2 days ago
*SO* glad I watched this whole thing so I had the joy and priviledge of "I don't know you! That's my purse!" at the end! Love it! Yay Bobby Hill!
turtlefairy5 4 days ago
You are so lovely! I'm glad that you're so comfortable with yourself.
tangerinetreesx 1 week ago
I love your honesty. I struggle daily with who I am and seeing this made me realize, I don't need T to make me key into my masculine side.
toodie550 1 week ago
@1122ares
um yea he is FtM, he was just born in the wrong body.
itsmajda11 1 week ago
I choose to not put myself in a classification. I am me. That is my only label.
Durknurr 1 week ago
I'm sorry, but I'm slightly confused... Are you an FtM? Because most FtMs hate it when they're thought of as lesbians, since they think it makes people assume they're not "real" guys, just lesbians. Do you still identify as a trannsexual female who went on T but still feels comfortable with their birth sex? Sorry for the qusetion, I'm just confused. Thanks!
1122ares 1 week ago
I totally get what you mean by queer visibility. When I go out, I want to be able to be recognized by other gay people as queer.
anjfermor 2 weeks ago
Awesome! You're an inspiration!
megablast16 2 weeks ago
nice :) embracing socialisation is something we seem to think invalidates us but it makes us awesome, why not take from it what you what? two cents, being socialised a boy makes a marked impression on my identity as a lesbian, fact
(and it's only being on mones for 5months that i can be comfortable saying that, because my body doesn't frighten me as much, 5 months ago i'd have said "un garçon? moi?! jamais!")
PoorElbe 3 weeks ago
you do know when you stop t. you will slowly go back to being more like a girl, your body will naturally start to produce estrogen again.
bryandapogi23 3 weeks ago
I think this is utterly lovely! I know almost nothing about transgender stuff, I just happened upon this sort of video and can't stop because out of curiousity. Your self awareness is eye-opening. Know that you've helped one more person in the world understand (and thus have more respect and acceptance) a person different than herself. =)
lidiluvu 3 weeks ago
Génial ! tu parles français, je prendrai beaucoup de plaisir à montrer ta vidéo à mes amis trans, je vais la traduire pour eux. Merci pour ton honnêté !
BlackTransGuyParis 3 weeks ago
It's lovely to hear you so satisfied with your changes. Congrats on being who you are :) Don't let anyone change you :)
luckyhorseshoe22 3 weeks ago
i enjoyed this.
RitchandFamous 3 weeks ago
No disrespect, but you're beautiful.
Don't inject your body with shit to make yourself look different.
You were perfect the way you were.
But nonetheless, I respect your opinion.
SirTrollface 3 weeks ago
"Basically, looking masculine, I'm able to act feminine without being perceived as a woman."
I think this line is the best part of this video, hands down. I've been really clueless and curious about trans-guy mindsets that /weren't/ "Omg, I need to be as manly and as straight as possible," and this really opened my eyes! You are officially my new hero. <3
SpottyJaguar 1 month ago 3
Lol, also I completely understand your chart! Cool.
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Even pre t people who figured I was a guy, figured I was a straight guy. Despite the fact I didn't appear in the typical 'hetero' fashion, so there was no way around it for me. You are definitely a very unique person. I try not to hold onto labels, which is why I don't like telling people I'm trans, but then I don't like them not knowing because I feel like I'm hiding it for a reason such as ;you can't be viewed as normal and trans. It sucks, too complicated. We all do our own thing. :)
PandaValentine 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
just stay natural for fuck sakes...
IH8Asparagus 1 month ago
Wait... won't all the changes just reverse?
feeditbeans 1 month ago
@feeditbeans No
UrMomWatchesThis 4 weeks ago
"...if I hold my girlfriend's hand, I still look straight..."? Why does that matter? Then you say you're a lesbian and a transguy....so you don't really care if you look straight. Wanting to look straight seems fairly self-loathing. Embrace being queer. :) Also, judging other transmen seems counterproductive. Please support everyone who's trans. It's a struggle for everyone to find self-acceptance in a world that only accepts a strict binary. Love and respect to you. :)
JamesLM2006 1 month ago
/get up, go put on tighter binder. you are so flat. i am so scared of going into surgery that it makes me sick.
mushroomonthemoon 1 month ago
@mushroomonthemoon im confused by this comment?
uppercaseCHASE1 1 month ago 28
@uppercaseCHASE1 i'm jealous of you chest
mushroomonthemoon 1 month ago
@uppercaseCHASE1 I think they said this: Get up, put on tighter bindings (on your chest). You are so flat (chested).
Lol dunno.
kbs1212 4 weeks ago
You have a beautiful voice :)
profesoralola 1 month ago
@orangez Let me ask you something "real trans man," have you had bottom surgery? Top surgery isn't what makes you FTM, it's what's inside and that's all there is to it, end of story. I have been transgendered my whole life - since Feb 5, 1980. I've been saying I was a boy since 2 or 3. That's what makes me transgendered and I don't need ANY surgery or hormones to prove it. I'm more of a man than any biological man I've ever seen or met. Back off and grow up! It's not all black & white.
spykenij 1 month ago
Instead of stuffing people into a binary model, we're creating a model that fits and honors everyone. Hooray for that!
meglion424 1 month ago
just wondering, what do you mean you're a trans boy who's a lesbian?
ShoutingSilently 1 month ago
Thanks for the vid. I don't wanna loose my hair either, geez! Hahahah
SuperHikiko 1 month ago
Abut men and how they talk (ie; your example) not all men talk like that. My husband doesn't and never did. Just to let you know. You don't have to be like the 'typical' male, because the 'typical' male is pretty much a douche-bag, lol!
dennilane 1 month ago
you are awesome.
solangelaranjeira 1 month ago
when people watch this video and other morons like you other people will be able to give real trans guys shit and be like oh there isnt such a thing you are just a butch dyke or whatever nasty things they must say to make themselves feel better. TO ALL YOU REAL TRANS GUYS OUT THERE, I GIVE YOU MY FULL SUPPORT KEEP UP ALL YOUR HARD WORK AND DONT LET IDIOTS LIKE THIS GET YOU DOWN....
orangenz 1 month ago
@orangenz Dude you need to chill. this guy already said he's no one spokesperson, if someone wants to use nasty blanket terms towards FTMs that is their own choice. You are not a spokesperson for FTMs either, so when you justify your asshole behavior by saying 'all "true" ftms shouldn't listen to this fellow because whatever' you are no better. Get over yourself, we don't need a cheerleader and we certainly don't need people thinking they speak for everyone. That goes for all trans*folks.
SuperHikiko 1 month ago
@orangenz I'm the definition of a "real" trans* guy and I think you're disgusting. This guy is inspirational, and he didn't have me down at all.
UrMomWatchesThis 4 weeks ago
being a genuine trans male is a very big and hard thing to deal with especially how society views them. and you are kinda like making a joke out of it all. why do born males usually think there is no such thing as a real lesbian because there are girls out there who say oh im a lesbian and then end up married with kids, or cheating on their gfs with men and just say that for attention from people or guys. i feel this is what you are doing with saying oh im trans and trying t etc....so now
orangenz 1 month ago
im very disappointed. myself and my brother who is FTM feels as though you arent taking the whole FTM seriously. in our country it is very hard to get on t. and you are taking advantage of a luxury that many actually would stay on. you are just playing around and being stupid. if you consider yourself a lesbian, then be a lesbian dont try and jump on other peoples self discoveries or body hassels for your own enjoyment.....arghhh you are just an attention seeker...
orangenz 1 month ago
RESPECT for your honesty.
That's what makes for me a person likable!
Love yourself as you wish to be loved by others.
What makes a girl or a boy?
Apart of different XX & XY mix; sex characteristics and fertility.
A man has: stronger body; lower body fat, higher muscle percentage on total weight, and generally more body hair, all due to a higher level of the male sex hormone testosterone in the blood.
Everything else is trained by assigning gender roles dependent on dominant norms of a society!
Ilkamy 1 month ago 17
Are you and FtM?
1122ares 1 month ago
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Pieces of shit like you should be put on an asylum.Fuck off from the net and block me if you want,thats all pieces of shit can do.
RuledByMetalMusic 1 month ago
@RuledByMetalMusic yay! i LOVEEE getting hate!! :)
uppercaseCHASE1 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
You look really femmy. IDK if that's what you want or not but yeah...
servingthealiens 1 month ago
I feel like I'm the opposite. I identify and live as a gay guy, but I look and sort of act like a straight one. I'm not on T yet, but I'm somehow living in stealth o.O
alectorejoice 1 month ago
great video, thanks for sharing this
kcarlisle85 1 month ago
Im so confused lol i dnt even know how i got to this,but i like ur personality and wat u said in ur vid takes a lot of courage so good job =). I think you would be an awesome friend to hang wit lol just saying XD.
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It would mean the WORLD to me if you checked out my channel. This is my story.
JustinCaseyFTW 1 month ago
thank you! soooooo nice to hear fluidity. rigidity has been bringing me down!
cc80211 1 month ago
Just find your own comfort space... good stuff.
switcherx 1 month ago
You have an awesome personality.
deadfawn 1 month ago
Dude, has anyone ever told you that you resemble Jordan Todosey, aka Adam Torres, of Degrassi? No joke and no bull, you seriously look like her/him. (I only say her/him since I'm not sure what to call you since you say you're in the middle. No disrespect).
Bae8707 2 months ago
I also like your hair, voice, and face.
hannahlovesification 2 months ago
Cross horomones can have some unhealthy risks and side effects anyway. In fact, if I'm ever going to start T then natural transition is the way to go. It's very slow and if you suddenly stop there isn't really much of a risk. Besides imo I think injections, though is relatively safe, kind of looks from the outside like one is shocking their system. I haven't done a whole lot of research on it, but NT just looks much gentler. Also bottom line: needles make my skin crawl hahah. :P
RobotnikHotCakes9000 2 months ago
@RobotnikHotCakes9000 FMI, exactly what is natural transition? I'm trans, pre-transition, so I like to research all sides.
Bae8707 2 months ago
@Bae8707 Natural transiton is when you take supplements and kind of a strict diet to produce more testosterone in the body. Or estrogen for transwomen. I don't know all the details, but basically it makes your body produce more T naturally. If you're not careful though some of that T could be converted to estrogen or vice versa.
RobotnikHotCakes9000 1 month ago
i also like your face
oxygenlung 2 months ago
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l0l0l faggots, blocking me is gonna make you feel better LOLOLOL!!!
TheRunescapeBot2010 2 months ago
@TheRunescapeBot2010 who blocked you?
uppercaseCHASE1 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@uppercaseCHASE1 that was a quick reply
TheRunescapeBot2010 2 months ago
Oh ya... and what does it mean when everyone says they were "Passing"? Thanks for any input, it's much appreciated.
AJSSTUFF3 2 months ago
@AJSSTUFF3 It just means being perceived how you would like to be. for example I want to be seen as a guy (because I am a guy) and I am seen as a guy, so i'm passing. sorry if i'm confusing in the way that i type
TransWarrior33 2 months ago
@TransWarrior33 Ohhhhh ok, I kind of thought that's what it meant-thanks
AJSSTUFF3 2 months ago
I'm so glad I found your vid, out just 7 days, 48 years young, and have no idea what I'm doing. I've watched a ton of videos and have learned a lot. So I just wanted to say that it was nice to hear one doesn't have to stay on T. I look at myself as a clean shaven guy, but I don't want to have to shave to look like it-LOL. I want to get the top surgery but keep wondering if I'm to old now and I know I'll never get the bottom done, just cause. So what is gender queer and am I or am I transgender?
AJSSTUFF3 2 months ago
Chase! I feel you. Hit me up man!
krytoxic122 2 months ago
chase! i love you. there are no labels involved with this statement. i respect you being visible and putting videos like this up on youtube because they are bound to help someone else. period. exclamation point.
emQism 2 months ago
"Transguy" by definiton includes transgender and transsexual men. Had to put that out there.
MrDividingbyzero 2 months ago in playlist Liked videos
AMEN.
Jayeski33 3 months ago
We all have feminine and masculine spirits, no matter who you are or what you identify as. Jung called them the anima (fem) and animus (masc). A person needs both aspects of their spirit to be complete. Or else a man can't mature into a nuturing father, etc.
I am mtf and transitioned a long time ago. I found that as time goes on, gender has become less and less important to me. I can't say I understand the genderqueer thing but the world is big enough for all of us =)
KellyBellyAnn 3 months ago
totally totally dig it.
smittyschair 3 months ago
I thought all of that about "labels" made perfect sense. And I'm a straight girl although maybe a bit on the "I love FTM trans men", but like you keep having to say (because people can't freaking listen) this is a personal choice and experience and screw labels.
And congrats on not caring what the hell other people think of your personal choices that reflect on YOUR body. <3 People need to lighten the hell up!
Karaisoke 3 months ago
I totally understand what you're saying Like I total a guy I was trans and he's like I still see you as a female, you're always going to be a female and it's ok he sees me that way I know I'm a guy, my family knows, n my close friends know so that doesn't bother me I am on T if I become more masculine ok if not ok I've always been the one to open doors n pull out chairs n I always will be Keep be yourself, cause it's totally up to you
NlineSk8er 3 months ago
ARMPIT HURR!!!
clairannette 3 months ago
You finally put into words for me what I want: to act feminine without being seen as a woman.
Thank you :D
Elanor2001 4 months ago
I like my face.. haha that made me smile :)
hottathenwasabi 4 months ago
"fuck that...you know what i'm sayin?" made me LOL. thank you.
vivalapaola 4 months ago
aw, you seem so nice. glad you're happy with where you are!
JasonlVlraz 4 months ago
What does wanting to be a guy gay make me then?
Vandorianna 4 months ago
flipping good video, I feel like I really identify with the idea that being read as male makes one feel more able to be in touch with the feminine side, and staying visible is also good. yr videos always make me go 'yes yes indeed' which is nice :)
felixislucky 5 months ago
I Love You<3
micheleredding 5 months ago
HELL YEA A CHART YOU JUST MADE MY DAY WITH THIS VIDEO
chinofiend 5 months ago
LOL HERES A LABLE YOU TAKE IT LOFL
chinofiend 5 months ago
Very good video. It doesn't make sense to say that stopping t is wrong because it's a question of personal choice. There is no right or wrong way to transition. You go as far with it as you feel the need to. I think that any transguy who takes offense to stopping or reducing t is taking it personally, which is always a reflection of their own fear of stopping t. That's right, it's my body and I'll do what I want. Live and let live.
LeonardoNasir 5 months ago
you do it correctly :)
shawtygethot 5 months ago
I think you are fabulous naked of all labels! Life is long and T or no T, your honesty is clear and you are in touch with who you are. My friend K is a transguy and a gay guy. And he's not "manly", he's unique. He's himself...like you. Keep changing to be who you are! As a lesbian, completely non trans, I slide a lot on the gender thing. Sometimes I catch myself wanting to be more femme or butch. Just be real.
poonamsvideoblogs 5 months ago
It is excellent to hear different reasons for taking HRT and what journey you feel you are on. Thanks for sharing. There is a big need to hear from for those who are on T for different reasons. IT is lop-sided to only see the "transer-than-thou" folks who cannot tolerate anyone nor their journey because it is not "fitting into the tiny demarcations"...which is once again playing into the very thing that cause phobias against minorities: Exclusion from the whole because of non-conformity.
GunsNRosesTrans 5 months ago
Also, I love being queer. I dont want to be seen as straight. When I am relaxed I feel that I am as camp as hell and I really like it! :)
TheAlexanderOscar 5 months ago
Hey, thanks for your video. I really appreciated your explanation of being able to identify with your female socialisation now that people tend to perceive you as male. I was trying to explain this to my partner and failing miserably! I kind of find that the more I try to pass the less likely i am to do so. I find I am overcompensating because I am so uncomfortable with people seeing me as female.
TheAlexanderOscar 5 months ago
I don't know if this was intentional, but I find you hilarious XD.
ScottScott12345 5 months ago
LOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU!
tenetime 6 months ago
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So now that your stopping testosterone FOR GOOD!!!!!! When are you using estrogen? YES!!!!!
Clobberk112 6 months ago
@Clobberk112 um whats your problem?
uppercaseCHASE1 6 months ago 30
@uppercaseCHASE1 Stop using testosterone.
Clobberk112 6 months ago
i like your bright plugs..but ya besides the voice and the masculine features , do you think being on t was a waste? i mean like.. the self assurance and becoming comfortable with your own femininity, do you think you couldve acquired that sometime in this year even without t?
sorry if it sounds naive but i was just wondering as a watched it.
angstyDarko 6 months ago
Yes, your stopping testosterone for good. YES!!!
Clobberk112 6 months ago
1. You rock! 2. I hope you keep making videos about your life post-T because it would be really helpful for people (like me) who are considering similar transition paths to yours. 3. This thing that you said: "physically looking masculine, I am able to act feminine without being perceived as a woman" This is exactly what I want for myself and I've never heard anyone else say it, so that made my day. :D
SockMonster713 7 months ago
i dont understand but good on you for doing whats right for you and being proud, good luck in your journey
ljuze 7 months ago
Fair enough. Hell, don't have a label if YOU don't want one!
slablilseb2 7 months ago
do you man! always do you being trans is dif for each and every dude
billbill219 7 months ago
Respect and love homes.
Ravenboi22 7 months ago
Wow...this is actually a very clear explanation. Just do what makes you happy, mate!
BlueZephyrTG 7 months ago
dude, watching this video kind of makes me feel like i need to comment, being a transguy means transsexual male not transgender male which means it is impossible to be a transguy and a lesbian. Most transguys fight to not be called a lesbian not because its a "label" but because its not, nor was it ever really who we are. good uck with what you do and continue to do in your own life. but i do believe if you feel this way u r no long nore were u ever a transguy.
cheghench 7 months ago 5
@cheghench dude what are you? the president of trans status? no seriously, why do you get to decide who is and isn't trans? good for you that you don't like the label of lesbian, but that doesn't mean chase can't be down with it. you need to reevaluate your definition of trans.
iwanttopanic 7 months ago
@cheghench so if being a trans guy means being a transsexual and NOT transgender, your saying that everyone needs to medically transition AND have surgery? and know one is allowed to be in the middle? and identify as genderqueer and still be trans? and you know what? i embrace that i was a lesbian before transition, and im embracing even more now because i STILL am a lesbian, identifying the way i do still makes me 100% transguy and 100% lesbian, you legit need to be more open minded.
uppercaseCHASE1 7 months ago 15
@cheghench i don't think people can tell other peops how to define, even a transguy to another transguy. with respect to transmen who do not have multiple identifications, the straight-identified non-queer transmen should also respect & understand queer identities, people who identify as both transman, lesbian & gay man, transman & genderqueer, and all sorts of possibilities. there is also probably a big misunderstanding with what "lesbian" can mean; ex. for some it does not mean "woman".
ArWx 6 months ago
Good on you!! Do what you got to do!! I'm looking forward to hearing about the changes that happen now your not on T.
BOYcott8 7 months ago
yr language is, often times, really binary and linear as far as gender and it kind of bothers me :/
TinyVessels00 7 months ago
@TinyVessels00 I love your username! Death Cab?
UrMomWatchesThis 4 weeks ago
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Clobberk112 7 months ago
Congrats, man. The whole idea of life (and transition) is to find YOU and be happy with yourself. I'm so happy for you that you've reached a level of clarity, comfort, and self-respect in your own life. So on that, a huge congratulations! Not that you need anyone to remind you, clearly, but keep doing you!
aaryntalks 7 months ago
Thankyou for making this video, I can relate a lot to it :)
Makki246 7 months ago
I love this video! This really answers a lot of questions for me. I've been going back and forth on whether I wanted to take T or not for similar reasons. Now I don't feel bad for not trying to become a 'man'. Thank you for posting this~
tmtsa 7 months ago
thank you so much for this. while debating t and surgery, having to act totally "guy" as well as being invisible in the queer community have been two of my hugest fears. it's so refreshing and inspiring to see someone with the courage to take an unconventional path that fits them.
22weirdo22 7 months ago
be happy with who you are my baby and i will always support and love you.
Mommee
snausages22 7 months ago 2
you help me a lot!!!!! thanks, now Im happy with my condision
Imthepanthom 7 months ago
oye, pero no te regresa el periodo? o te feminizas?
Imthepanthom 7 months ago
@Imthepanthom yes it will return
uppercaseCHASE1 7 months ago
im pre t pre op & I thank you for this
TheSexmashane 7 months ago
Go you!
VeganBattleBot 7 months ago
So I am very happy that you're being yourself. It must be nice to know that your friends will still accept you no matter what. :D
Also, I totally agree with what you were saying about how when you started to pass more, you became more comfortable with yourself and started not caring as much about it. I feel like that is excactly the same with me. Even not being on T, as I noticed I was always passing, I became more feminine and flamboyant, and yeah. I get read more as a gay guy now. hahah.
uhmmidkkk 7 months ago
Congrats on becoming comfortable with yourself. I've had the exact same issue you had, and identify pretty much identify at the same spot you pointed out on your spectrum chart. I don't feel like being percieved 100% guy is me, however I absolutely hate being percieved as female. I think we freak when we realize there is no label for that, but when you finally realize the beauty of it, you embrace yourself for what you are. Good luck with your t-stoppage and thanks for sharing!
TheAndrogynist 7 months ago
I think its so funny reading these negative comments. People in the community have fought so hard not to be labeled or judged and now people within the queer community are doing the exact same thing. "testosterone as some kind of image makeover" or "ugly person inside and out" really? I mean 50 years ago trans guys couldnt even take T and were outcasts. Now T becomes available and queers and trans guys are going to start telling each other how to use it and judging each other? Respect Choices
ducky2u18 7 months ago 5
It's really worrying that so many young people seem to be taking you seriously. The fact that you see Testosterone as some kind of image makeover, where u can choose the effects you like and don't like is concerning. Your body is not a playground to test out your identity. All I can gather is that you started T before you had really thought through the long term implications and before u were psychologically ready.Transitioning requires consideration of risk & reward and weighing up necessity.
CandidCity 7 months ago 3
@CandidCity There is no one way to do anything. Ever. There is not just a black and a white. Gender is fluid and we can express it in different ways and this is what is helping him. This was his choice, his decision, so respect it.
kirst43 7 months ago 2
Truth is Chase you can call yourself a Green Martian, Clint Eastwood, or a 'Lesbian Trans man', it doesn't mean anyone else is going to view you as such. Identity is a space you create from within. It's who you are, not some label you give yourself. Your explanation of what a Lesbian Trans man is made no sense and t's frankly insulting to both lesbians and trans men as it denies the truth and struggle of both those identities by combining them.
CandidCity 7 months ago
Um holla at the guy talking mad shit.. Chase is what he is. And he sure as hell isn't "de transitioning" soooo gett to stepping OR accept that.
molliekaylarson 7 months ago
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So... I watch the video and then I watch it again... on mute. >_>' -ashamed-
Erioas 7 months ago
@Erioas ashamed?
uppercaseCHASE1 7 months ago
love this video!!!!
SkinninMacKinnon 7 months ago
Haha, I like my hair too, and I don't know if I'm going to go on T when I'm older, because health risks (and I want my hair..)
Good for you Chase! :D
Also: am I the only one who thought of Maury when the girl wanted a baby and said she does what she wants? O__O
xDangerousDisasterx 7 months ago
So if we are to follow Jakob's logic....if you transition and end up Liking men....you should just detransition. Feel free to go off on me about sexual identity and gender identity. It's almost as ridiculous as stating that hormones make the man. Everyone has a right to their own identity and just because you don't comprehend it, does not give you the right to judge.
xhollywood8 7 months ago
why you stopped T, cuz ur gay and a girl. might as well de-transition.
BonesDGAF021 7 months ago
@BonesDGAF021 please, do everybody a favour, and go and crawl back under the rock from whence you came? kthx
felixtalks 7 months ago 2
@BonesDGAF021 who the FUCK are you to tell someone to de-transition?! Why dont you go put on your headset and sit in front of your shitty webcam and piss off. Your an ugly fuckin person inside and out. Go jump off a cliff asshole.
signoffs 7 months ago
@BonesDGAF021 I'm sorry you aren't happy with your life, but if you did something about it like Chase did, your life could change too, and then you could also be happy! Just think of the possibilities! I find it hard to believe how someone who is on T is as not understanding as you are, especially with the community you like to associate yourself with. To you, T is something, to others, T is something else. He specifically said he isn't going to De-Transition. Why you h8in', bro'?
drgnballz 7 months ago
good video man interesting concepts...good luck to you
ThatPunkBrent 7 months ago
This was one of your best videos by far
GayInsite 7 months ago
LOL that was so scientific with the charts and everything :P I think it was a wise video. You should do what's best for you and don't let haters get you down.
brynjartuck 7 months ago 2
Very brave to post this! I enjoyed it very much. You are your own person and I can appreciate that. :D
KingsNJazz 7 months ago
awesome. thanks for posting this.
pibbby 7 months ago
I hope those dislikes weren't trans people. If they were, shame on them.
ArashiTheBrave 7 months ago 28
i love this, and you! (great explanation btw!) this is so interesting though :D
FrkFockMuah 7 months ago
before my son was born, we had a friend cross stitch on a onesie "ready to be me." i feel like the same saying applies to you now. enjoy the journey my friend.
Zedie36 7 months ago 4
good vid
NEKKyD 7 months ago
!! KING OF THE HILL!! "I don't know you!" ::kicks crotch::
combatbaby80 7 months ago
you crack me up. I thought that was a great explanation... perhaps a bigger chart lol. and I feel a lot like you.
combatbaby80 7 months ago
AH!! So confusing! But it's all quite fine ;) T makes people change a lot :O I get why you stop it :O (Well you explained haha)
IiOnna222 7 months ago
you like the best example of "being who you are" and I totally look up to you. :)
sionv2009 7 months ago 2
It seems like the confidence you’ve gained on T has helped you make your gender performance about how you feel, so you can choose labels for your identity rather than the other way around. That sounds like a great place to be. It was good to be reminded that there’s not one trans path but instead lots of individual journeys. Thanks for the honesty and inspiration.
psyche144 7 months ago 2
great video chase good luck :)
PARKhereANYTIME11 7 months ago
I get what you're saying but a question hits me around every corner. If you get off T won't your estrogen (Dont think I spelled that right) take overand make you look more like a female if thats possible.
But besides the questions I think its great that you do what you want to, your happiness is all that matters.
THAT'S MY PURSE!!!
SigmaSky33 7 months ago 9
I like your face, too! You should always go with what makes you comfortable. I don't understand people not understanding your reasons for doing this. I think you're going to be perfectly fine. As I always mean to mention in a video, but forget- gender is fluid! It's not blue or pink. You don't have to decide to be a man for the rest of your life. You can act one way on Monday and totally differently on Tuesday, Way to go, Chases, Props, brother!
shadowbeing3 7 months ago
I also accidentally disliked this by accident lol ignore that one dislike.
kirst43 7 months ago 2
@kirst43 BUT THERE ARE 2 DISLIKES!! WHAT IS THIS!! hahahaa
uppercaseCHASE1 7 months ago 3
@uppercaseCHASE1 hahah people are stupid. and i just noticed my redundancy.. whoops.
kirst43 7 months ago
It all makes perfect sense. I applaud you:) I'm not on T, but if I ever was this is exactly how I feel about everything. I want to look and be more masculine, but I don't want to give up my female socialization either. I couldn't and wouldn't ever consider myself a man. Or a woman at that. So for right now, I will identify as genderqueer. I am in between.
kirst43 7 months ago
Love.
goochchp33 7 months ago
you were in toronto!!! i wish i saw you!
wollybalooza 7 months ago
"Shit like that ya know? Which is ridiculous."
starrly 7 months ago
you are such an inspiration, Chase.
StormGoesBOOM 7 months ago
I feel a lot like you and all the points you made sure make sense to me. Even watching your earlier vids before you started T, I had a similar gender identity as you and really respected you making decisions about your life that are right for you, instead of just doing what the majority of transguys do. You're very brave, and good on you for doing what's right for you.
12thLeveIWizardKing 7 months ago
I commend you for being yourself and standing up for how you feel.
One question: how do you reconcile the very definition of "lesbian", being a woman who is attracted to women, with your identity as a trans*man*?
-Miles
mediumdietcoke 7 months ago 2
It's good that you live in such a trans-supportive country - heck, you have the TRANS-Canada Highway!
ProFriend 7 months ago 4
I applaud you for embracing and standing up fo your identity. Good luck with everything
JasonKodyB 7 months ago
good for you bro in being confident and comfortable with who you are :] and it's awesome to hear you're happy with just being you :]
RethinkReality 7 months ago
There's a reason the flag is a rainbow. Rock on, Chase.
iagoarchangel 7 months ago 4
Really, though, I feel exactly how you do. I want to get back on T because I want a few more changes, but I'll never be extremely manly. I think transition should be to become YOU -- not to become a man who fits into all male stereotypes. To each their own, but I think that's ridiculous. You're awesome.
ThisIsRyansLife 7 months ago
Cool story, bro.
ThisIsRyansLife 7 months ago