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  • I love piano pieces it gives you a chance to make up your own lyrics and let your mind feel free <3

  • @Lexysings1 What a lovely thought. ^-^ I agree.

  • This is effing beautiful.

  • Very important to acknowledge depression My husband suffered from depression, and died young with much of what he wanted to do in life still undone.

    Depression is much misunderstood and there is still a stigma in society about it, which is quite sad.

    Kudos to the composer and the poster!

  • It's great that someone acknowledged depression enough to make a song about it.

  • AMAZING

  • This is my absolute favorite by you.

  • 11 heartless bastards disliked this....how?

  • @halorules1000 because they were suffering from depression

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  • yay! part from 4:50 to 5:30 is really nice!

  • why dose this music make me feel so happy and cheerful when its about the ups and downs of depression?! thumbs beez up if u feel the same - i dout it though 8P

  • did you write this yourself, paul?

  • i feel good listening to this music :)

    this is so emotional.. it makes me want to hug the whole universe and gives me pace of mind.. wish my ex was here with me now :(

  • you should release them all on a CD box set. ^_^ i would be one of you'r customers.

  • PAUL! your music is like no other, your music puts me in moods of deep thought, you make me want to relearn how to play the piano. thank you for the inspiration

  • from 5:40 to 6:04 i feel like im a terror movie and im about to get found my he evil/bad guy ... love the song btw (:♥

  • i dont have depression.. i went half insane after i saw my parents die rite in front of me.. their blood scent drove me mad listening to your music helped a bit but then.. what cleared up my scences was a bird, a crow.. my best friend a crow hehe.. but when he died.. i became obsessed with death.. i walked around graveyards.. i watched heeps of blood sceans.. but when i listen to this music i feel like a human again.. thank you paul.. ^.\} (im not emo/goth)

  • oh I like it . Its great, good for me

  • light, by 12gho12. there is no god above us, and below us there is only dirt. To a human once I gave my heart, Yet she replied with only hurt. Our minds are convoluted, scheming and dark, and my sleep is filled with dreaming, dreaming of only sharks. Brothers who onces walked arm in arm, fight now, in their minds, only harm. But in the darkest of these nights and storms, the middle of this dream, the convoluted scheme, something I liked? I might. I decided to call it. love. I called it light.
  • Taught his sons who went on to create the largest empire second only to the British, usually outnumbered, mastered psychological warfare, mastered logistics to suit his armies, honored pacts and treatises, master at building support from within conquered nations, respected all religions regardless of his own, respected rule of law, enforced a meritocracy, promoted the exchange of knowledge, the impetus for one of the longest lasting periods of peace the world has known, and on and on and on.

  • whoever named it depression, must realyy understand the flow of such different emotions of a depressed person. From overwhelming sadness to few short moment of inexplicable joy followed by even deeper sadness. Like this peace of music.

  • @leru75 Thats more like manic depression/bi-polar disorder. There are depressed people who are really just in despair for a great deal of the time, and their 'high' points are more average than happy. :/

  • @dommiesgrl Yes I know that too well and my heart goes out to them. This is something that no words can express. Only music.

  • move your legs

  • paul, ur music is my sleeping pill! i've been suffering insomnia for years, and i'v even resorted to pills just to be able to sleep well at night but still my sleeping problems were never lessened. then there came depression. i stumbled upon your music and finally, i was able to sleep well and had a nice dream as well. the soft rhythms especially has calmed my soul. thank you so much for this wonderful gift, even though i dont know you, you've given much

  • This is just the most beatiful sound I've heard in a long time, I don't deal with depression but I am often stressed and music helps me so much, thank you.

  • May i know where can i get paul collier's album.

  • @juuciway This music and about 80 others are available from my website, including some free downloads. Link in the more info section of this video or just click the banner at the top of my channel page. Paul :)

  • @PaulFromStokeUK

    j' very happy!!! enjoy!!!

  • @juuciway probably a torrent ?

  • who goes around disliking stuff like this?? whats up with that, i'l never understand

  • This piece is absolutely beautiful. I'm writing a letter to my father whom I have a rather terrible relationship with, pouring my heart and soul out, and this letter has helped me along the path of it perfectly. It's helped me tune into my thoughts, both good and bad, and express them freely and comfortably. Your music has truly touched me, coming from somebody who is not usually a fan of classical or instrumental music. But it's downright beautiful. Never stop doing what you do. Ever.

  • soo amazing how music can reach your soul and tell you a stor y without any lyrics. wonderful piece...

  • the beginning sounded like a a theme from Naruto i don't know which one though??

  • From about 5:00 it really ROCKS :D

  • I love this song, because it just reminds of what a pathetic scumlike person i am, cheers me up, sort of a get away from my unworthy life, thank you, so much :)

  • 4:40 godlike x)

  • This is so touching. You can go really far with this talent. Keep it up, for everyone's sake! (: And good job on using this as an outlet for your depression: that's a huge step.

  • Great!

  • For three years now I've been suffering from heavy depression. It's been crushing. I wanted to tell you, Paul, that I listened to this for the first time a week or so ago.

    A week ago, I didn't take any anti-depressents. I haven't taken any pills since today. And, I have you to thank for healing me. Even though thank you is insignificant to what you have given back to me, THANK YOU.

  • @DemandingTheCure God Bless you my friend!

    

  • i have no words..

    im stuned

  • ok , "this was a fresh cool of air" . You' re absolutely amazing .

  • like your composition, very sensitive, but don`t arrange with depression! there`s a way out!

  • thank you so much for something so beautiful to relate to and to express how so many people feel. Music can say so much more than words..... thank you!

  • this is such a pritty song, I've listened to it over and over again, this deserves something special as a tribute, like an animation that encompasses the mood of the song

  • awesome composition, great pice of work!

  • Great transitions definitely sounds like it came from the heart. Great Job!

  • I always smile.. with my real heart,

    but I can't always Smile, even though I want to..

    I always cry.. with my soul hurts,

    but no one can make me Smile, if I don't want to..

    I found a series of Smile tonight,

    from your beautiful musics, that can always make me SMILE when I want to cry :)

    A PREsent for you, Paul

  • Incredible piece. Each movement of keys tells a specific part of a story. It beautifully paints a picture. An individual, alone, helpless, depressed. They try their hardest to fix their life, but every step they take forward, they're pushed back 2. You get a grip on your circumstances, but the grip isn't tight; and the happiness, short-lived. And even though some of us THINK our lives are perfect, we're all the same...we're all human. This song was brilliantly composed, for anyone, and everyone.

  • @TheSnakeEyes8 Well said.

  • Paul, I have no words left........to know that this piece was played JUST as is first time through with no edits...as a musician myself I am so humbled. Not just because of the technical element, but from your ability to take, IN the moment, how you are feeling and just put it out there on that keyboard in such an expressive, pure way. Ok, so I guess I did have some words left. :smile:

  • Please continue! You truly are gifted!

    And for some odd reason, this makes me think of Naruto.

  • @kdgreer0 Naruto...? How on earth did you make that connection? xD

  • this is amazing! not only are you an excellent pianist but i can feel your emotions in this song.... its people like you who inspire me everyday to run home and grab my keyboard, no matter how frustrated i get! just listening to this now is tempting me to practice on top of the 2 hours i played today. so i guess i am saying thank you so much and keep playing!

  • Pff, I agree with some users, we all have problems, several, some very young suffer much, as in my case

    Other larger, but that does not change much

    All are problems, both psychological as physical, mental, character and all other options

    But we all have something in common, we are all individuals and deserve to be treated as one

    We should not be discriminated against and we do not have to be intimidated, we are like us and we should be proud of it ..

    Thanks ..

  • Pff, concuerdo con algunos usuarios, todos tenemos problemas, varios, algunos desde muy pequeños sufren mucho, como en mi caso

    Otros de mas grandes, pero eso no cambia mucho

    Todos son problemas, tanto psicologicos, como fisicos y todas las demas opciones.Pero, todos tenemos algo en comun, todos somos personas y merecemos ser tratados como una. No tenemos que ser discriminados y tampoco nos tenemos que dejar intimidar, somos como somos y tenemos que estar orgullosos de ello

  • can you bring you're Piano to my Room, and play for me every night? your Relaxing Music, your Depressive music, all of your artworks, plz mister ill even pay you my Kidney!!! awesome music :) like it VERY much :)

  • Also, I loved humming along to this...I don't know why, but it makes me want to hum along a melody...like lyrics to go with it....not a lot of pieces do that for me c:

  • I love how it sounded so peaceful in the beginning, then almost like suddenly the notes were twisting and getting more intense. It's definitely like depression goes. You really have a gift for putting emotions into a piece, I love it <3

  • :) que hermoso :)

  • que hermoso

  • Yes, I agree I Iost my only son as a result of Bpd if only he could listen to pieces like this it might have helped him,now with tears I too am being helped thank you Paul.

  • thank you so much for your beautiful music, Paul. i really really needed to hear this today...

  • thank you for your beautiful music, Paul. i really needed this today....

  • This is a beautiful piece, and does relate to some of my life. However i have little if any of the UP moments the music describes, so for myself that seems out of place. but it does make for an interesting composition. I enjoyed the melodic lines in certain sections the most, containing the powerful chords underneath. You have done well in expressing through music...I can only manage art, music is beyond me. So well done.

  • sweet, i myself am into Metal and such, but i realy like piano, and it is true, in soem periods depressed people can be happy, i`m speakign out of experinece, so the title is well picked!

  • @RoyLikesKMFDM I agree!

  • beautiful

  • Your music is incredibly beautiful and inspiring. This piece can be counted among the most soothing pieces I have heard and it is just what I needed right now as I was reflecting on the ups and downs of the past few years. Knowing that someone has produced something so beautiful out of something as negative as depression gives me hope that my own creative projects will come to fruition. Thank you for sharing! Regards, Nyx.

  • music like these actually help our minds be calm ; and help us better understand things. well it's close to something like what I've said. keep on keepin on

  • I absolutly love your music. Piano and Violin music speaks to me in a way I can yet explian. I'm on my way to playing piano, I have been through terrible times. I am 14 and dream to play as you do. :)

  • absolutely beautiful

  • How long have you been playing, just a random question.

    bte i love this "song"

  • wow, living with depression for several years (and only being 16 at the moment) i actually feel someones managed to represent my moods perfectly in a peace of music, especially since ive been warned going back to the doctors now i may get diagnosised with bipolar, i love your work tbh, and im not saying it like some weirdo that doesnt understand, id love to play piano like this, unfortunately im a bassist so :)

  • Paul: I'm thirteen and i would just like to say that i tink your music is beautiful, you are very talented.

    at my age i love modern music e.g taylor swift, justin bieber, pixie lott ect....

    i never thought i could enjoy musi like this as much as i do.

    i was hit in the head with a rounders ball today and have been feeling very dizzy, your music has calmed me downand my headache is gone.

    Thank you Paul

    holly

    :)

  • Lmao @ religious nonsense on here. I'm not upper class, I don't adhere to religious doctrine, but wow, I've gotten by in life without that.  "what?" you ask? "But that's impossible!". Maybe you guys should start taking credit for your own successes and attribute them to your hard word rather than saying it was all God. Through that maybe you'll gain the self-worth and independency to avoid this rabble.

  • nice

  • I like this song..

    however, I feel strength when i am listening..

    Not really depression.

  • Everyone gets depressed.

    But some have the power to move on, and push forward.

    That's what sets them apart from the rest.

  • Not a very encouraging comment to inspire the "weak" ones to move on....=_="

    Some are just not born with the "power" to look at things positively, and that's why there are so many institutions (the "strong" ones) out there trying to help these group of people to develop a different set of mentality. And this is what makes our lives meaningful, to be able to help each other and to understand that everyone has weaknesses, even the "strong" ones.

    Btw, I got depression before. So? Big deal.

  • @inv3rt3dm0n0chr0me i Agreee with this compleatly. And to those who read this who are thinking of ending it. if u know u are, amagin what you can do in life :)

  • Thank you. This music is perfect x

  • Insanely great music

  • we all got problems,

    physical, mentality & psychologically.

    whenever dat's drugs usage or drug abuse,

    (prescription or illegal drugs)

    traumatic events

    (killings, molestations, kidnappings & etc)

    mental issues

    (bipolar, delayed developments or mentality ill)

    yet its ALL free,

    cause we can relate 2 something dat WE all humans can SEE.

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  • @UltraDOG17 I have Alexithymia, I can't explain it but theres one video on here of it

  • ich find das lieb so schön weiter so

  • It's a beautiful peace Paul,thanks for sharing...so many are going through depression but few are brave enough to face it or get help.....You are one of the brave people who not just faces it but try to help others through your music.......anyone who doesn't like it should go to another page!!!!.....

    As well as try composing before criticizing you

  • that was beautiful. it touched me.

  • Oh, what a wonderful wonderful song. Absolutely wonderful. This is definately one of my favourites.

  • why are all of ur songs about depression

  • because a lot of people are under going in it.

  • i liked it until u started going like jazz in the middle kinda threw the mood off

  • Very Tori Amos

  • it's amazing.. how can i get the sheets? or could you send them to me?

    would be great!

  • beautiful song....

    im suffering of colitis, acid reflux, bad relationship,

    fake and cowardly bastards,

    who run away or use me 4 what I got and etc....

    keep it up...

  • As the gem cannot be polished without friction, so cannot the men be perfected without trials... ;)

    Enjoy it... :)

  • thats one beautiful quote!

  • I really wish the best for you... I have a friend very dear to me who has ulcerative colitis and other chronic diseases, so I can understand a little of the struggles you must be going through. Take good care and I very much hope things get better for you.

  • thank u kindly and truly appreciate it...

    it seem like kindness, humbleness & respect dont exist anymore...

    at least u got a terrific soul and beautiful personality.

    i prayed 2 God, dat i aint got no diseases of my blood or tummy...

    if i do, should i go 2 an nuthouse or commit suicide?

    sorry 4 my pity, im gettin nervous @ the age of 20...

  • The nuthouse as you put it does help a lot of people with emotiona problems but who are not "nuts".....I tried to commit suicide too at 23....after being in a coma for about 4 days,I was given another shot at life....guess by whom?.....God....Kindness,humb­leness and respect does exist....When you turn to God,He begins a long ,patient process of make your personality like His.....No,it not an easy journey but it is rewarding.....I've been walking with Him for 6 years,and He's changed me

  • Also,it's God,not church that saves you....before you go running to find the right church,get on your knees and cry out to Him with all your heart....He always hears the cry of the broken, ask Him to lead you to the right place.I did that and He's always done so...not because I'm special....but because His son died so I can become His,the door is open,just run into His arms..just try it, it does sound better than going to a pyschiatrist first or depriving yourself of His love by taking your life

  • how can i do better, if it repeating itself. got baptized in Oct. '08. ever since then its like its gettin worse instead of better. i cant understand most of this at all (4give me 4 nagging) im listen this as it calm down. its like an sick cycle. yet i been blessing my food, my dad (my brotha dat actually care) the house on a "Rock" (only an fool builds house) & me gettin outta bed. True, who wanna pay $300 or more 2 an Quack with an degree. if i can talked sumbody 4 FREE, u dig?
  • WELCOME to the boat....He that endures to the end the same shall be saved..DO NOT GIVE UP....BE STRONG, YEA BE STRONG...Read Romans 8:28.

  • You're delusional. Im sorry, but creating a life of unreality to solve your problems is not the answer.

  • Your not alone, keep your head up solider.

  • so beautiful, ur music has helped me when i've had writer's block in the past, so thank you :)

  • 0:40 - 0.50 I just keep Repeting it :D

  • how can i repent

  • so beautiful ...............so true

  • i had some depressed moments these week,this song makes me feel a bit strong,you are an amazing composer paul,keep up the good work =)

  • aww its so hypnotic and calming! (:

  • This is a wonderful piece. It is obvious that you care deeply for people in need by the depth in which you play. You are an amazing composer.

  • Because he has to make a living just as you do. Be silent, hypocrite.

  • good reiki music :)

  • Thank you so much for posting this. Well done for dealing with your depression in such a soothing way, you've done a great job. I myself suffer bi-polar disorder, so wholeheartedly sympathise with what you're going through, but keep up the piano, you're a rare talent! :)

  • @Glitterbladejester Very true

  • This is me If I were music. It is my life's experiences with major depression exactly, thankyou Paul Collier xox

  • Simply the best song ever made damn

  • This gives me shivers :')

    Thank you

  • This is amazing, fits my life perfectly. If I had a personal theme this would be it. The peice moves me, and compels me to do my best. I just want to embrace the music, and lose myself with in it. The music understands how someone in this feeling can go from perfectly happy to sad, while living with depression.

  • es casi algo nuevo por descubrir pero en lo profundo de mi soledad y en la compañia de mi esposa encontramos en esta musica una tranquilidad inmensa,solos los dos volvemos a ver este presente diario que nos toca vivir,agradecemos a los creadores de esta piezas musicales

  • wow...this song is very atmospheric...So sad, beautiful at the same time..This is really a great work! I love it, I really do! a great composition!

    I surfed through youtube, looking for some piano pieces..I found a song called "time changed everything..." by Nyctalgia..Such a sad but beautiful, amazing song..I'm sure some of you would like it..you also find it on youtube...

  • echt super mooi

  • Fuck the world.

  • i hope that you enjoyed writing this music because it is really wonderful to listen to...

  • I'm timeless like a broken watch And make money like Fred Astaire I see that you've come to resist me I'm a pitbull in time The pretence is not what restricts me It's the circles inside An anatomy of kisses And a teacher who tries And knows how we'll disappear Would you like to be my Missus And a future with child You know we can't get back from here We can get away
  • Wow, you make that up?

  • that song stressing me GRRRRRRRR

  • its relaxing...love the music very much!!!

  • i pray that you might overcome this trail in your life...Peace!

  • This music made me write this. If it consumes the whole page, I'm sorry and I will get rid of it if requested. ... .... .....

    I sloshed through the murky puddles in the forest. Rain spattered onto my head, dribbling down my spine and into my shoes.

  • Feeling something slippery under my shoe I peeled it off and dropped it back onto the mud. I gazed out at myself, my ink running and pinkish streaks joining my eyes and mouth together. My hand pressed against the glass and there was a little hurr where my breath fogged up. In my mothers quiet scrawl it whispered Missing Girl followed by numbers and the reward. I squeezed it into the dirt and mud oozed over my face, obscuring my features.

  • I relinquished my hold, pulling my boot out of the mud with a sucking sound. My sad face smiled up as I stepped over the ruined bit of paper. Stumping deeper leaves I looked around, appreciating the forests earthy beauty and I had to blink to keep tears from joining the rain on the ground.

    I wasn't crying because I missed my mother, though a piece of me felt cold without her. Freedom took my breath away and sometimes my hunger, though never for long.

  • The canopy opened out again and rain fell from my lashes into my eyes, stinging them so that tears tumbled as I rubbed my eyes. 5:00 am brought beautiful, hidden birdsong and the sun streamed from behind a cloud. The rain lightened, a near invisible mist fell over the forest. I smiled tiredly at the sky and the sun bravely showing its face and trudged on.

  • this is truly amazing. Wow. :) I cant explain how good this is! You have some skill! Amazing...

  • why is it so hard to take thing when they live u and go...

    this music is so beautiful!

  • Wow.....=o

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  • I think what morrisribadeo says is so true. Sometimes life dishes up bad things to us that we have no control over, but what we do have control over is how we act and re-act to the bad things. We all have a choice - Hold on to the Anger, Pain and Resentment of the past or Give it up and try and Move Forward. Beautiful Music btw.

  • P.S. Another thing - We all have the capability to turn a negative situation into a positive one - Sometimes its as simple as reaching out and asking for help, or just simply being able to Forgive. Forgiveness isn't about being nice - its about being Spiritualy Intelligent.

  • your a great musician and composer, i only just found your stuff but i love it!!!!!

  • one of the most intelligent person in human history said

    PAIN IS UNAVOIDABLE

    SUFFERING IS OPTIONAL

    BUDA

  • So amazing...i could sit her and cry,cause there are a much of feelings in this song!!!!I love it...

  • i wonder whats the phisical,process in the brain to provocate to make a person to feel so bad in a depression state

  • Clinical depression is caused by a lack of a certain enzyme that usually resides inbetween the receptors of the synapses.

    Thats what I can remember anyway, do correct me if Im wrong

  • this one is so beautiful ,also

    thanks

  • Oh this is more than marvelous!

    I lost my girlfriend a few weeks ago and was struck by depression, and your music has partially helped me through it!

    I love piano, and your music! This is great beyond compare! The only thing I Could compare this to would be opera...

    Great!

  • All the videos of yours i've seen of have affected me so much ..especially this one since i have known the pain of depression

    Depression is Anger without enthuiaism

  • i was nearly crying and drunk when my girlfriiend break me up, so i start listen to this i soft me down i was 21

  • Yuo know, people here are saying it's easy to get out of depression.

    Just go on, forget the past.

    I have bi-polar disorder. Quite severe I think (Personally) and lately..I've been finding it so damn hard to 'forget the past'.. Because im constantly forced to remember it!

    The song is brilliant. I adore the piano.

    But as for taking me away. :'( It didn't work.

  • can completely relate to this and was wondering if you can send me the sheet music?

    :)

    thanks

  • this hits home on so many levels. only just found ur music. an im glad i did

  • wonderful sir Paul live life forget the past!

  • believe me i got so damn stressed and relaxed and scared and pleased at the same time

  • U know u are a real artist when u can transport people to another place and make em forget everything but just be in the music. I just dicovered ur music today and i wished id had earlier. Just keep it up you are great!

  • thanks to everyone who commented here, im a little inspired now @_@ and thanks to this music I was so relax and gain some energy to do something new... ^^

  • just look a life.u only have 1 life to live so dont end it in sadnis people say i have no love to give i lost it a long time ago.its just pust down so low u just have to forgit what hapend in the past and move foeward and never look back u all have some thing to do in this world thats y we r hear

  • i have something differnt but sad like this it actually on my youtube page but this is great !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • have to say, this really shook me.very very amazing. Very impressed with this! ^^ i play piano so i know to appriciate this a lot.

  • This melody is simply... perfect... while listening to it all I want to do is dance a beautiful classical ballet piece, I see sooo much potential of it becoming possibly the next piece I do! Thank you for this beautiful piece!

  • simply amazing! =] i wanna have this in my itunes xDD (Y)

  • Wow... This is amazingly good and stuff...

    The mood switches so much from gloomy and hopeless to cheerful and vibrant...

    If a mirror is made to reflect the face, then perchance music was made to reflect the heart...

    And as I had said this is amazing &D

    So peaceful yet tormenting

    Saddening yet uplifting

    Very very good &D

    Without a doubt 10/10

  • This song kind of describes just how depression feels!

  • Thank you for the beautiful music. I'm 12 years old and some people would say I don't understand life. But I had a really rough time. And I'm still very sad and depressed about that. Your music helped me in this times. Your music makes me happy. Thank you. Ps: Sorry for the bad english, I'm german. But I understand everything that the others say.

  • Hello my friend, first of all, your English is very good! To have gone through rough times at your young age saddens me, and yet I know that you will come through this and be stronger than you thought possible. Have faith that something good is just around the corner for you. You will be amazed at what is possible. I am glad my music has offered a little help. I wish you the very best my friend. You will get through this! you will! you might enjoy my "the man who chose to smile" Paul :)

  • Hello Paul,

    I just wanted to let you know how amazing your music is. I dont listen to this kind of music at all, infact i lisen to hardcore and heavy metal. But even though, your music has truly moved me, brought back memories and created emotions that i havnt felt in a long time,

    what im trying to say is Thank you!

    Thanks for making my day!

    yours truly,

    Dillon G

  • wow love this!