I lost my uncle to suicide when I was 4, he also left a 3 year old daughter behind. I almost lost my mother also to suicide a few years ago. I remember getting a phone call in my class in high school... I answered the phone to my sister saying mom was in the hospital. My world just stopped, I fell to my knees in front of my whole class. Everything felt unreal. Please don't commit suicide, get help please. Cuz when you leave, someone's else's world ends...
I listen to this while i write my suicide letters. I don't want to Die but I get scared that one day I might act out my impulse and leave my family torn apart and my children Motherless. I feel one day I will end my life so the letters need to be written but like I said...I do not want to die? Yes call me selfish! No body understands what's going on in my head and when I tell ppl they say i am being daft (only makes it worse) Now I tell nobody anything, I write it down in my letters
@XQueenieXBX Please keep being strong and get through whats going on in your head, someday you will get through it. If writing helps keep writing, and when you have that feeling again think of your kids and what you would do to them if you left...
I found Concrete Blonde when I was 15 years old, and Johnette has been one of the strongest secret guiding voices (and saving graces) in my life for the past 17 years. No current female vocalist can compare for me. Thank you girl for doing what you do, for people like me ♥
I'm sorry that some of you are suffering so deeply. Even as a believing Christian I was also several years ago. Please, please, please go to a doctor or psychiatrist that can help you - even if it takes medication. You can feel better.
Her voice is so haunting. Listening to her sing songs like this, Joey, or Tomorrow, Wendy makes it almost impossible to not get a tear in your eye or goosebumps. She is a true artist. She can make you cry in one song then have you dancing around like a fool in songs like Ride! and Still in Hollywood. Truly one of the best ever.
This song made me cry out of nowhere. Johnette, may you live forever (even though we both know full well that won't happen and that is sad, and beautiful).
I so understand this, because I have almost been there before, and sometimes that is what it is about, people do not understand. Johnette has been personally affected, obviously, and for me, anyway, that was the thing that changed---- just realizing how someone else would have been affected. Bravo, Johnette, your music is heartfelt and hurts sometimes, but that is why we love you,
@HolyDragonSword Me too. I was just saying that today, right before I found this song. I really agree with your comment and you know, I met her once. It's not that I am so proud and graced (though I am) but I just want to tell you she is incredibly gracious and funny in person. Despite her nerves and after show jitters she let me interrupt her story and shook my hand, introduced me to everyone, (Jim wears leather gloves) and for some reason told me her mom went to college in Portland. Love her.
Wow I have been listening to Concrete blonde for years, I just stumbled onto this video. Man this hit me like a heat wave, I am stunned and enchanted all at once. I always loved Johnette's voice but this song makes me love her as an artist.
Powerful. Bounce around the Musical chair too much, had not heard this one till today. Makes me think of a young friend and something she once said, that I do not understand. Couldn't get her to understand that I did. At least she's still in therapy, that I know of.
this song reminds me of a family friend i had who had attempted suicide by slitting her wrists, setting her house on fire with her kid in it, drinking antifreeze, and a bunch of other crap. she was normal for a few years, but she went crazy and was put in a mental hospital. her friend bailed her out and she dived in front of a semi.. she didn't die, just broke her leg, so after that she layed on train tracks in san clemente. my dad always said he wishes he would have played this song for her.
This song is from a different world and once you go there you leave this one behind. Your body is here, but your mind is there and you can't really smile or think about anything but being miserable. *laughs* War of the worlds.
I completely agree with robkapp77. same with me. I am a recovered alcoholic of almost 10 years and would listen to this song over and over again everytime i would drink...drink til i could drink no more and no longer have my mobile skills. sometimes i would wake up 3 days later and be so angry that i was alive i would break everything in my entire house and do it all over again.
@orangesandpears ME TOO SO DOES A PERFECT CIRCLE AND MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN HIS MUSIC MAKES ME BALL WHAT ABOUT ASHES DIVIDE WE CALL IT SLIT YOUR WRIST MUSIC GENRE LUCYFUER :)
@lucyfuer i love perfect circle and maynard has an amazing voice i never heard of ashes divide but most songs have that type of glumy feel to them..but i guess its wahtever way you look at it thats decides how you feel....
@orangesandpears ashes divide is a perfect circle without maynard. billy howerdel is the lead singer of ashes divide and he was the guitarist and singer in a perfect circle the members of ashes divide are all connected to maynard . if you love a perfect circle than you should love ashes divide. billy howerdell apc =ashes divide
"And I wanted to believe you'd win the war in your head that I did not understand"
Just speechless, this screams MENTAL ILLNESS at me b/c I went through years of hell with depression and I never thought I'd win the war in my head that know one knew I was going through and who didn't understand why I felt like sh!t for so long.
What a song, lyrics are pure brilliance, nothing less
Absolutely! I've been fighting depression my entire life, and this song is...well, there aren't really any words to describe. I suspect that she understands the war in our heads all too well.
It's extraordinary pieces like this that make me sit and realize the power and emotion music can hold over you. I would love nothing more than to find an interview or discussion with Johnette about this song. What thoughts/emotions brought this extraordinary song to fruition, if she indeed did write it. The voice and the beat are fantastic but for me it's the piano that's mesmerizing.
My father was an alcoholic who commited suicide ..this song really hits the nail on the head. I use to beg him to realize he was worthy of love. I just couldnt get through to him. Sometimes I think Johnette has been inside my head. Im grateful her songs are there for me and help me express my deepest feelings. Shes the best!
My cousin was an alcoholic who commited suicide as well. It reminds me of him because he suffered from depression for years and years and he finally had enough...
My Brother died at age 35..Seizure from chronic headaches...Hed died with his head in his hands...He was on his knees and hips never hit the foor. I wanted to believe everything was ok.... He lived 3 states away... I did not understand the war in his head...He also was in AA and had a great job and beautiful young boy who I held up to show him to Daddy at the wake....God Bless Toby... Wish I could have been there...He was a nurse...I am a nurse...I am his brother. age 33...
it was news to me that Johnette Napolitano is actually a female. i thought it was a guy at first, but then i wiki'd the name. one of the best songs i have ever heard. it makes me cry, but in a good way. it makes me think of my friends and how much i would miss them if i lost them :(
First heard this on the Underworld soundtrack as well, also thought it was a guy, rather "The Guy" from the Cult.....man was I wrong....
It's one of the most brilliantly written pieces of music I've EVER heard and it's affected me in so many ways....I think of good friends lost, good times and depression that most of us live with....
@Krookcatcher OH YES - I'VE NOTICED THAT SONG THERE TOOOOO! BUT I'VE WROTE DOWN LYRICS - ONE QUOTE - AND FOUND IT FROM FIRST TRY !!! IT'S COOL THAT WE FOUND ABOUT THAT GREAT SONG ON THE SAME WAY! DON'T YA THINK???
Rest In Peace, Badger, we will so miss you and never understand. HEY BROTHER!
HAHAHAHA! Chris Arthur Badger 8/26/58-2/10/12.
GarnetSandy 3 weeks ago
This song is so beautifully written.
nicoleca0427 1 month ago
I lost my uncle to suicide when I was 4, he also left a 3 year old daughter behind. I almost lost my mother also to suicide a few years ago. I remember getting a phone call in my class in high school... I answered the phone to my sister saying mom was in the hospital. My world just stopped, I fell to my knees in front of my whole class. Everything felt unreal. Please don't commit suicide, get help please. Cuz when you leave, someone's else's world ends...
CuteSunYe15 2 months ago 4
This was one of my depression songs, along with Radiohead- how to completely disappear
LautnerLovely 3 months ago
I listen to this while i write my suicide letters. I don't want to Die but I get scared that one day I might act out my impulse and leave my family torn apart and my children Motherless. I feel one day I will end my life so the letters need to be written but like I said...I do not want to die? Yes call me selfish! No body understands what's going on in my head and when I tell ppl they say i am being daft (only makes it worse) Now I tell nobody anything, I write it down in my letters
XQueenieXBX 4 months ago
@XQueenieXBX Please keep being strong and get through whats going on in your head, someday you will get through it. If writing helps keep writing, and when you have that feeling again think of your kids and what you would do to them if you left...
nicoleca0427 1 month ago in playlist Liked videos
I found Concrete Blonde when I was 15 years old, and Johnette has been one of the strongest secret guiding voices (and saving graces) in my life for the past 17 years. No current female vocalist can compare for me. Thank you girl for doing what you do, for people like me ♥
glewcifer 5 months ago 5
I'm sorry that some of you are suffering so deeply. Even as a believing Christian I was also several years ago. Please, please, please go to a doctor or psychiatrist that can help you - even if it takes medication. You can feel better.
edwrdhnsn 5 months ago
@xxxlexixxx3 His???
TheJoanna26ish 6 months ago
I love her voice.
BellaLatinaful 7 months ago
Her voice is so haunting. Listening to her sing songs like this, Joey, or Tomorrow, Wendy makes it almost impossible to not get a tear in your eye or goosebumps. She is a true artist. She can make you cry in one song then have you dancing around like a fool in songs like Ride! and Still in Hollywood. Truly one of the best ever.
Pale062693 7 months ago
and this is why bananas are yellow
TechnoStickmen 8 months ago
Beautiful. Thank you, for uploading this.
Safia1117 8 months ago
nice video.
MrSaudigirl1 8 months ago
its also on the Underworld sountrac.
honeybearism 10 months ago
nice...
MsGra94 11 months ago
Such a powerful song. Johnette is a powerful singer... Beautiful.
dawnofthedeadling 11 months ago
This song made me cry out of nowhere. Johnette, may you live forever (even though we both know full well that won't happen and that is sad, and beautiful).
Novadrome 1 year ago
I so understand this, because I have almost been there before, and sometimes that is what it is about, people do not understand. Johnette has been personally affected, obviously, and for me, anyway, that was the thing that changed---- just realizing how someone else would have been affected. Bravo, Johnette, your music is heartfelt and hurts sometimes, but that is why we love you,
fubar50cat 1 year ago 3
Sometimes I just can't resist. *sighs*
When you make the same mistake over and over you get torn between action and inaction, and that's exactly where this song lives for me.
kscopi 1 year ago
mm. when i listened to this i could actually feel my heart beat harder. just soaking it in maybe.
xpaintedxXxwingsx 1 year ago 3
So beautiful... I can actually believe the passion and emotion in it.... something that modern music is missing. It's one of my favorite songs.
CelticMoonDust 1 year ago
This song has so much emotion, and it's sad, but so beautiful at the same time. Absolutely love it.
kathylu001 1 year ago
Johnette has a voice that can peel paint. She is a musical genius. Dark, angry, sad, and deep. Her voice makes me cry.....
HolyDragonSword 1 year ago
@HolyDragonSword Me too. I was just saying that today, right before I found this song. I really agree with your comment and you know, I met her once. It's not that I am so proud and graced (though I am) but I just want to tell you she is incredibly gracious and funny in person. Despite her nerves and after show jitters she let me interrupt her story and shook my hand, introduced me to everyone, (Jim wears leather gloves) and for some reason told me her mom went to college in Portland. Love her.
AnimalAzar 3 months ago
Epic beyond words
cd97peace 1 year ago
Wow I have been listening to Concrete blonde for years, I just stumbled onto this video. Man this hit me like a heat wave, I am stunned and enchanted all at once. I always loved Johnette's voice but this song makes me love her as an artist.
jimmyjoeh2o 1 year ago
So dam good. This is so close to sugar and butter - sweet and smooth and melting.
nice
MolecularPort 1 year ago
Powerful. Bounce around the Musical chair too much, had not heard this one till today. Makes me think of a young friend and something she once said, that I do not understand. Couldn't get her to understand that I did. At least she's still in therapy, that I know of.
T191032 1 year ago
this song reminds me of a family friend i had who had attempted suicide by slitting her wrists, setting her house on fire with her kid in it, drinking antifreeze, and a bunch of other crap. she was normal for a few years, but she went crazy and was put in a mental hospital. her friend bailed her out and she dived in front of a semi.. she didn't die, just broke her leg, so after that she layed on train tracks in san clemente. my dad always said he wishes he would have played this song for her.
claudiapachecoiscool 1 year ago
Wow
greatwhitepolarbear 1 year ago
Wow
greatwhitepolarbear 1 year ago
This song is from a different world and once you go there you leave this one behind. Your body is here, but your mind is there and you can't really smile or think about anything but being miserable. *laughs* War of the worlds.
kscopi 1 year ago
I completely agree with robkapp77. same with me. I am a recovered alcoholic of almost 10 years and would listen to this song over and over again everytime i would drink...drink til i could drink no more and no longer have my mobile skills. sometimes i would wake up 3 days later and be so angry that i was alive i would break everything in my entire house and do it all over again.
kami1love 1 year ago
@kami1love well done be proud of yourself im an addict myself glad your sober
i use opium and its a killer hosw did you do it , i have a freind whos trying to get me see im killing myself i think i may let her.
theblob34 1 year ago
i love this song but its very hard for me to listin to...makes me cry everytime i hear
it,,,,
powerful song....
orangesandpears 1 year ago
@orangesandpears ME TOO SO DOES A PERFECT CIRCLE AND MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN HIS MUSIC MAKES ME BALL WHAT ABOUT ASHES DIVIDE WE CALL IT SLIT YOUR WRIST MUSIC GENRE LUCYFUER :)
lucyfuer 1 year ago
@lucyfuer i love perfect circle and maynard has an amazing voice i never heard of ashes divide but most songs have that type of glumy feel to them..but i guess its wahtever way you look at it thats decides how you feel....
orangesandpears 1 year ago
@orangesandpears ashes divide is a perfect circle without maynard. billy howerdel is the lead singer of ashes divide and he was the guitarist and singer in a perfect circle the members of ashes divide are all connected to maynard . if you love a perfect circle than you should love ashes divide. billy howerdell apc =ashes divide
lucyfuer 1 year ago
"And I wanted to believe you'd win the war in your head that I did not understand"
Just speechless, this screams MENTAL ILLNESS at me b/c I went through years of hell with depression and I never thought I'd win the war in my head that know one knew I was going through and who didn't understand why I felt like sh!t for so long.
What a song, lyrics are pure brilliance, nothing less
Bazzer239 1 year ago
Absolutely! I've been fighting depression my entire life, and this song is...well, there aren't really any words to describe. I suspect that she understands the war in our heads all too well.
robkapp77 1 year ago 7
It's amazing how powerful some songs can be........
EsotericOpinion 2 years ago
One of my most favourite songs ever! Beautiful <3
PuzzlePrincess86 2 years ago
"I wanted to believe".......that says it all.
mconionhead 2 years ago
Thankyou for this video. I used this video on one of my bulletins on myspace. Wish you all could read it.
kewlips27 2 years ago
It's extraordinary pieces like this that make me sit and realize the power and emotion music can hold over you. I would love nothing more than to find an interview or discussion with Johnette about this song. What thoughts/emotions brought this extraordinary song to fruition, if she indeed did write it. The voice and the beat are fantastic but for me it's the piano that's mesmerizing.
Fulcrumshift 2 years ago 15
My father was an alcoholic who commited suicide ..this song really hits the nail on the head. I use to beg him to realize he was worthy of love. I just couldnt get through to him. Sometimes I think Johnette has been inside my head. Im grateful her songs are there for me and help me express my deepest feelings. Shes the best!
kalikitty2000 2 years ago 7
My cousin was an alcoholic who commited suicide as well. It reminds me of him because he suffered from depression for years and years and he finally had enough...
weirdo090 2 years ago
My Brother died at age 35..Seizure from chronic headaches...Hed died with his head in his hands...He was on his knees and hips never hit the foor. I wanted to believe everything was ok.... He lived 3 states away... I did not understand the war in his head...He also was in AA and had a great job and beautiful young boy who I held up to show him to Daddy at the wake....God Bless Toby... Wish I could have been there...He was a nurse...I am a nurse...I am his brother. age 33...
Trevisbachmann 2 years ago 3
such beautiful sadness, takes me to a different time and place......
lzrdkng19 2 years ago 8
What a bittersweet song <3
PuzzlePrincess86 2 years ago 3
Johnette is the poet laureate of Wounded People.
mattokc 2 years ago 7
"i wanted to belive that you would win the war in your head that i did not understand" ugh that gives me nightmares.....
photolemon 2 years ago 4
Wow, this is like the only sad song that doesn't make me feel better when I'm sad myself. Still really awesome, though.
EnigmaticMoogle 2 years ago 2
R.I.P JK miss u dude hope ur at peace now.
im sorry i didnt listen
theoutlaw1100 2 years ago
it was news to me that Johnette Napolitano is actually a female. i thought it was a guy at first, but then i wiki'd the name. one of the best songs i have ever heard. it makes me cry, but in a good way. it makes me think of my friends and how much i would miss them if i lost them :(
brilliant song XD
BrackenwoodAirsack 2 years ago
Third Watch #105 Family Ties2 song. very good
oasis200802 2 years ago
watching third watch is where i first heard this song.. it went perfect with the sene
photolemon 2 years ago 2
I agree, it was beautifully mixed
akilleus12 2 years ago
yes i rember that 1
Jimi3379 2 years ago
First heard this on the Underworld soundtrack as well, also thought it was a guy, rather "The Guy" from the Cult.....man was I wrong....
It's one of the most brilliantly written pieces of music I've EVER heard and it's affected me in so many ways....I think of good friends lost, good times and depression that most of us live with....
Cheers!
rockboytyler 2 years ago 9
She sings this song perfectly. It's one of my favorite. Very real and well done.
LadyCrimson 2 years ago 4
J'ai découvert aussi cette musique dans New York 911 ( Third Watch ) et elle est vraiment excellente !
lemaxforum 2 years ago 2
i thougt it was a guy first time i heard it
albanmaster 2 years ago 4
I heard this song in Third Watch too :) This is beautiful, and touching. I'm happy to find it...
AmyAslade 2 years ago 5
She let us hear how sad the world can be.
giovanni0909 2 years ago 5
hahah i came here because of third watch too, they used song perfectly. beautiful piece of music.
SunLargeinc 2 years ago 5
I heard this song on the underworld soundtrack. very somber and elegant.
Fulcrumshift 2 years ago 14
i almost thought this was Jeff Buckley.......but this is definitely....HER. so beautiful and dark.
Drew978 2 years ago 4
omg for many years I was convinced this is a man singing this song.
how can a woman have this kind of voice? but i like it a lot
yoursicknessBLYA 2 years ago
SAME
pistolkissing 2 years ago
OMG what? LMAO! This is news to me.
sadaffair 2 years ago
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holy shit this fukkin titke scared the shit out of me !!!!!!!!!!!
alandale1973 3 years ago
this song was on a very exciting episode of Third Watch and it sounded great, but it took me forever to find this.
Thanks so much!!
Krookcatcher 3 years ago 32
yep it was hard to find this song but finally i got it :)
this song makes that episode EPIC!
Anjunabosco 3 years ago 4
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dorothy2356 1 year ago
@Krookcatcher OH YES - I'VE NOTICED THAT SONG THERE TOOOOO! BUT I'VE WROTE DOWN LYRICS - ONE QUOTE - AND FOUND IT FROM FIRST TRY !!! IT'S COOL THAT WE FOUND ABOUT THAT GREAT SONG ON THE SAME WAY! DON'T YA THINK???
dorothy2356 1 year ago
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@Krookcatcher ...it can also be found on the Underworld soundtrac :-)
honeybearism 10 months ago
love this song
purecrystal86 3 years ago 11
Johnette's voice is divine...
Khrystene 3 years ago 42
@Khrystene Yes is is, so much emotion!
bluebrett70 1 year ago