If you really knew me, you would know I've had suicidal thoughts many, many times. If you really knew me, you would know I got my girlfriend pregnant a while ago, but she had a miscarriage, and it tears me up every day to think about it.
If you really knew me, you would know I've been told I will never amount to anything.
If you really knew me, you would know my dad was almost never in my life, and I've always wanted someone like a father to me.
If you really knew me, you'd kno. I cry every day. I'm sick of life. I'm seriously depressed, I got told ''If I die, it aint know big deal. I'll just get rid of you, only retards kill themselves, your mom don't care either'' by my dad. I was about to kill myself a couple times. I'd rather be back into the past then the future. I smile alot, just so my real feelings aint showen. Inside I'm dying. And idk how much more I can take it. I feel like no one cares about me, that I'm not that important.
if u really knew me, youd know that i suffer inside alot. i pretend that everything is okay, that nothing affects me. but it's so overpowering that when i do start talking about it...i burts. you'd know that im literally not comfortable in my own skin. i feel like i have this huge responsibility of taking me family from the gutter that it's in. i feel like theyre all depending on me, & it scares me. im afraid i'll fail them...fail at life. you would know my dad is the main reason of my tears. :c
Continued and proud for and at my school its really strict for which clique ur in and will change you for the rest of your life. I feel like i'm not happy to be able to succeed as much in my life and i want to be better for me
If you really knew me, you'd know that i get picked on a lot for not talking to people and i'm afraid that i will be judged badly to where everyone in my school spreads rumors about me being a loser and don't talk to this kid you know it really sucks. I had Autism when i was 5, im 14 right now and i go to Arden and everyday i don't want to go there because everybody will pick on me and thats not what i want. I want to be noticed more i want to be remembered for what i did was so famous
If you really knew me youd know that the reason i feel like im not worth it is that my dad calls only when he drunks and he tells me he loves me and thats the only time he calls it makes me feel im not worth it, If you really knew me the boy i loved died the summer of 2009 at the age of 15 bc of his moms abuse if u knew me youd know i have a hard time getting close to people if you knew me youd know the person im truly afraid of is myself
Challenge Day comes to my school twice a year. It's such an overwhelming experience, even more so than the show. Definitely something I'll cherish forever, and I cannot wait to go again this year. (:
if you really knew me you'd know that before my mom died we had an arguement and I never said I love her you'd know that I'm insecure about everything, that I try so hard to be perfect in my fathers eye and still lying to myself when I Know, that he doesnt, and well never except me for who I am and my gender, and well never accept any of the things I do and I always get the thoughts of hurting myself because I cant live up to anyones expectations anymore just to not have anyone there for me
if you really knew me, i pretend to sleep earlier, but actualy i hid under my sheets and cry. if you really knew me.im 13 and i hid behind my own shadow
if you really knew me... you would know that i was bullyed when i moved to baltimore .. and because of that i asked my parents to get me into fighting after watching a ufc fight for the first time so that i can fight off anyone that tries to mess with me again, but if you really knew me you would understand that it is hard for me to stand up for myself, and that i have a slight fear of standing up for myself, and that i wish someone could stand up for me or atleast help me out.
If you really knew me, you'd know that I've got depression issues, loneliness issues, and that I like being alone too; away from my family. I'm too young to have depression issues, nothing suicidal, I promise, but sometimes I hate myself for not saying something or doing something or I just hate myself because I've got zits, and because I have had zits and pimples since I was in 1st grade. Do I get over it? Yea, you have to realize life goes on. You'd know I'm hyper and quiet as can be. You'd k
if you really knew me, you'd know that i am actually really insecure. you'd know that even though i come off as daring and outgoing, i'm terrified of screwing up and you'd know that even though i'm popular now, i've been bullied in my past. and if you really knew me, you'd know that my biggest fear is letting my loved ones down. even if i have to lie and put a smile on my face or sit there and cry with you, if i can't make you happy in your lowest moments, i feel like i've failed.
I made a "If You Really Knew Me" video, but it's in words because I don't have a camera... Anyway, cool video! :)
CrystalHeart800 1 year ago
If you really knew me, you would know I've had suicidal thoughts many, many times. If you really knew me, you would know I got my girlfriend pregnant a while ago, but she had a miscarriage, and it tears me up every day to think about it.
If you really knew me, you would know I've been told I will never amount to anything.
If you really knew me, you would know my dad was almost never in my life, and I've always wanted someone like a father to me.
angelfrank620 1 year ago
This is wonderful-- you seem like a really great guy!
natashayard96000 1 year ago
If you really knew me, you'd know that...
I feel unconfortable in my body.
I think I'm too skinny and not pretty either.
I've had a depression for almost 2 years and had suicidal thoughts. The only thing that stopped me was the thought of the reaction of my loved ones.
I change myself to fit in a certain group in school.
I love laughing but I hate my laugh, so I try not to.
People used to bully me and I took it very hard. Even calling me a freak makes me feel truely bad inside.
PS: I'm 18, male
grinmaster1 1 year ago
If you really knew me, you'd kno. I cry every day. I'm sick of life. I'm seriously depressed, I got told ''If I die, it aint know big deal. I'll just get rid of you, only retards kill themselves, your mom don't care either'' by my dad. I was about to kill myself a couple times. I'd rather be back into the past then the future. I smile alot, just so my real feelings aint showen. Inside I'm dying. And idk how much more I can take it. I feel like no one cares about me, that I'm not that important.
xXxBlah01xXx 1 year ago
if u really knew me, youd know that i suffer inside alot. i pretend that everything is okay, that nothing affects me. but it's so overpowering that when i do start talking about it...i burts. you'd know that im literally not comfortable in my own skin. i feel like i have this huge responsibility of taking me family from the gutter that it's in. i feel like theyre all depending on me, & it scares me. im afraid i'll fail them...fail at life. you would know my dad is the main reason of my tears. :c
WhatGirlNow 1 year ago
Continued and proud for and at my school its really strict for which clique ur in and will change you for the rest of your life. I feel like i'm not happy to be able to succeed as much in my life and i want to be better for me
rtc1755 1 year ago
If you really knew me, you'd know that i get picked on a lot for not talking to people and i'm afraid that i will be judged badly to where everyone in my school spreads rumors about me being a loser and don't talk to this kid you know it really sucks. I had Autism when i was 5, im 14 right now and i go to Arden and everyday i don't want to go there because everybody will pick on me and thats not what i want. I want to be noticed more i want to be remembered for what i did was so famous
rtc1755 1 year ago
If you really knew me youd know that the reason i feel like im not worth it is that my dad calls only when he drunks and he tells me he loves me and thats the only time he calls it makes me feel im not worth it, If you really knew me the boy i loved died the summer of 2009 at the age of 15 bc of his moms abuse if u knew me youd know i have a hard time getting close to people if you knew me youd know the person im truly afraid of is myself
xXkaseyKaseXx 1 year ago
Challenge Day comes to my school twice a year. It's such an overwhelming experience, even more so than the show. Definitely something I'll cherish forever, and I cannot wait to go again this year. (:
OxEmmaxx3 1 year ago
universal sign language for "i love YOU"
if you really knew me.... you would know that i cry every time my dad doesn't say "i love you" back.
flyaway3860 1 year ago
if you really knew me you'd know that before my mom died we had an arguement and I never said I love her you'd know that I'm insecure about everything, that I try so hard to be perfect in my fathers eye and still lying to myself when I Know, that he doesnt, and well never except me for who I am and my gender, and well never accept any of the things I do and I always get the thoughts of hurting myself because I cant live up to anyones expectations anymore just to not have anyone there for me
XLifeisOverratedX 1 year ago
if you really knew me, i pretend to sleep earlier, but actualy i hid under my sheets and cry. if you really knew me.im 13 and i hid behind my own shadow
dougyy177 1 year ago
if you really knew me... you would know that i was bullyed when i moved to baltimore .. and because of that i asked my parents to get me into fighting after watching a ufc fight for the first time so that i can fight off anyone that tries to mess with me again, but if you really knew me you would understand that it is hard for me to stand up for myself, and that i have a slight fear of standing up for myself, and that i wish someone could stand up for me or atleast help me out.
DanaWhiteLOL 1 year ago
If you really knew me, you'd know that I've got depression issues, loneliness issues, and that I like being alone too; away from my family. I'm too young to have depression issues, nothing suicidal, I promise, but sometimes I hate myself for not saying something or doing something or I just hate myself because I've got zits, and because I have had zits and pimples since I was in 1st grade. Do I get over it? Yea, you have to realize life goes on. You'd know I'm hyper and quiet as can be. You'd k
nysocal10 1 year ago
if you really knew me, you'd know that i am actually really insecure. you'd know that even though i come off as daring and outgoing, i'm terrified of screwing up and you'd know that even though i'm popular now, i've been bullied in my past. and if you really knew me, you'd know that my biggest fear is letting my loved ones down. even if i have to lie and put a smile on my face or sit there and cry with you, if i can't make you happy in your lowest moments, i feel like i've failed.
cutiepieluvshim 1 year ago
@cutiepieluvshim im being bullied right now also i feel how u feel
runedarkwarrior 1 year ago
@cutiepieluvshim it's posts like this that truely inspire me. I plan to do more of the "if you really knew me" type videos
cementfrog 1 year ago
omggg! i feel the EXACT same way.! i have an obsession with getting to know people and having a connection with random strangers.! amazing ... (:
AZNation10011 1 year ago 2
@AZNation10011 Sometimes a true connection can only happen with someone that you don't know. a non-biased person
cementfrog 1 year ago
you seem like an interesting person.
donttsstop 1 year ago
@donttsstop thank you, I try :)
cementfrog 1 year ago