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  • lolz

  • I self harm :/

  • I am planning to do something slightly like this as a drama project. The conscience being alive and all. This was amazing and helpful, I hope your doing well :D x

  • That was a cute mini movie or it must be you as well. I see though you are making a serious point and can relate with the inner demon that lives within all of us.

  • Suicide is totally uncool.

  • @Rockguitarnow

    I agree

  • There is a flash game quite similar to this, called Air Pressure. Portrays it in a slightly different(and more vague) manner.

    Great video.

  • PLEASE THUMBS UP THIS COMMENT SO IT CAN BE MADE THE TOP COMMENT AND EVERYONE CAN SEE IT! Thank you. I am trying to spread self-injury awareness so if you want to be involved in a project that could benefit thousands of people, please go to my channel and subscribe! Thank you :)

  • Melissa I totally Love your mini movie I can watch it over and over and it will never get old. You act in it so good.

  • 1:43. Ummm did u get ur foot caught in a bear trap???

  • Your right this is Youtube not Hollywood, HOWEVER. I think you did a great job. it is a strong issue and I have friends who self harm and this is exactly how they describe it to me. All the best to you X

  • WOW Geeeeze I never seen such a cool mini movie, I mean Yeah I made on when I was 21, but man You did perfect in acting. plus You had a great story plot. My story plot was lame, it was about a house and how it posessed people and such. AND YES --> I understand the mini movie. I also feel the same way, in actual life, i always feel like i am being followed by a demon, or something. even though yes I want to be a good person and yet some how I mess up.

  • i dont get it

  • This is a really enlightening!

  • This is a really nice video.. It shows how self harm really is... I do cut and I an trying to stop and your videos are really helping :) Ps. I think your super pretty<3

  • i ♥ this! it amazes me how someone who has never met you can know exactly how you feel. thank you so much for taking the time to make this and for being bold enough to share it. I can never find the words to describe my "relationship" with SI, but this makes it a lot easier. Thanks again! ♥

  • I cut like 5 minutes ago then i watched thia

  • I think you're a great actress! You also really captured what it is like to self harm!

  • This is brilliant. You captured what it's like perfectly.

  • This really spoke to me, it's like watching a movie about myself.

    And you are a pretty good actress for a novice :)

  • i feel like that sometimes. like there is another me just yelling at me "just do it you know you want to who cares if people find out! just dig it into your arm it will be all better"

  • where did ya get the blades??

  • Oooh VERY powerful stuff. Intoduces anyone to the mind of the self harmer. Shit man must be HORRIBLE to feel that bad!!

  • good ending... :)

  • This movie is so... real and awesome, I love it :)

  • Great Movie!!! I Really Liked It! Tourettes is just like that room mate!

  • u remind me of lisa kudrow you really look like her, your really pretty :)

  • This is my favorite mini-movie that you made Melissa please keep making them.Ps where do you get the blades you used in this video

  • I think that this is my favorite mini movie that you made Melissa. PS. Where do you get the blades that you used in the video?

  • This video is so much like how it is....can't pass a mirror without hearing/thinking the negative thoughts...and it's always lurking around in there even if you've not "conversed" with it for a long while. There's like a gang of them, eating disorders and self-destructive monsters stalking everywhere you go, only no one else can see them. Thanks for making this video!

  • This is actually really really accurate. Good job. :)

  • Rofl, barbecue sause, love the idea xD

    Great video! :3

  • i love the part with the skull. and where do you get the arm cover things? i only have 1 pair and when i wear it my family knowes.

  • @ArtDidNotDie

    I made them

  • Its crazy how you captured this. even before i strated i felt like that. like there was always a side of me that would say anything possible to make me feel absolutly terrible about myself. i called her an evil twin...haha...or my left side....cuz really...sometimes i do think that she is the more rational one... thank you for all your videos. they are great

  • Great mini movie

  • Its like any other addiction. I wish someone intervened when I was younger. Now past those days, I have a reminder every day of it. Unlike other addictions it remains as nagging scars. Didn't care at the time, it was my only outlet in a VERY abusive relationship. I hate the scars. But They will always be that reminder of deeper things... However, they are a motivation in some ways 2. I finally got out of 9 yrs of abuse & ran. It reminds me of what I'm fighting for.

  • it's so bitterly hilarious how similar this is to me. My worst enemy: Myself

  • very creative and another great video

  • great work with this:O:Dwowee

  • it really cool i like it

  • This is really creative, I like it. You did good!

  • wow, its really helpful to know that there is someone out there that seems to know how you feel and put it like that. well done

  • wow, you really captured it...

  • Wow…it's slightly scary how much this resembles my life :( but unfortunately I've never called a helpline or chased SI-girl away.

  • i actually loved every second of this!

  • Lol self harming is cool.

  • Wow, this is a really great mini movie.

    I have a question that is a bit unrelated to it though.

    Does anybody ever call you "emo", because you cut? And if they do how do you respond? Do you just ignore it? Because im 13 and all of my school just kind of assumes i cut, (which i do but i deny doing it to them) and they call me emo all the time, and 'reinact' me cutting myself by making moaning noises and pretending to slash their arms.

  • That was very well done! I really liked it. You did a very good job in looking from victim girl to the 'self injury roommate' girl. I loved the point of view. It was a good story with a good ending.

    Kudos =^-^=

  • This is exactly what it feels like for me...

    Keep up

  • if you suffer from self injury & want some help on recovering or just want to talk about it. there is a formspring set up to where you can freely & anonymously talk about you suffering. its helped many people & it can help you if you'll let it. just go to formspring . com & search with name "selfinjury101" it'll pop up & you can freely ask questions and advise.

  • I made it to 1:40. I am officially a wooos.

  • I've struggled with SI for 5 years and this is such an accurate portrayal of what it's like! Thank you for this movie! I commend all the hard work you put into your videos.

  • This is fantastic! I struggled with S.I. for 8 years and this is exactly how it feels sometimes. I wasn't able to live by myself for a little while because of what you portray here; S.I. was my room mate. Hang in there, you can ditch that room mate eventually. I did 21 months and 4 days ago today, trust me, you'll remember the day of your last cut too :)

  • A very good movie, it explains a lot and how it is. You should begin with acting youré really good at it!! xx

  • This is a TOTALLY MISREPRESENTATION of why a girl cuts due to your alter ego telling you that you're ugly!!!! If anything it's empowering and relieving!!!

  • haha these are actually pretty good...when u think about it..cuz its..like..how it rly kinda is.. and i think ur actually a good actress..esp the darker side. :)

  • I like your style.

    Pretty good for not being a 'practiced actress'.

    I wish I could gain the courage to talk about this stuff like you do.

    Maybe one day I will. Until then keep on keeping us informed.

    Thanks for all your efforts, idranktheseawater :)

  • lol i talk to myself in the mirror like that too.

  • AWESOME!!!!! U Rock keep it up! God Bless!!!! <3

  • this is really good and really powerful. your acting is spot on and i love this. It reminds me of David Lehre. check him out if you like this. he has a video called WITHDRAW with a similar feel to it. 

  • "I've said it once. I've said it twice. I've said it a thousand fucking times.

    That I'm ok, that I'm fine. That it's all just in my mind.

    But this has got the best of me. And I can't seem to sleep.

    It's not cause you're not with me. It's cause you never leave."

    -"It Never Ends", Bring Me The Horizon

    This quote reminded me of this video.

  • i love this, im so glad i found your videos.<3

  • This was such a haunting video.

    Beautiful and so true...

  • where did you get the blades i can only find blades in pencil sharpeners

  • @shiest4life

    Sorry, I'm not going to tell you where you can get blades that you'd use to hurt yourself.

  • @idranktheseawater wow your acting really sucks. Even for youtube.

  • @idranktheseawater u should delet shiest4life commet it showing people were they can find a blde

  • @2and2brook0josh

    You are right

    unfortunatly at the moment youtube wont let me delete coments, but when they do I will come back and take it down.

  • @idranktheseawater no, leave the comment. it's good for others to see that you don't approve and will say no to that. good for you =)

  • @idranktheseawater i say exactly the same thing when people ask me what gave me my worst scar, good for you!

  • @shiest4life i used a box cutter till i found blades in pencil sharpeners. if u can control cutting i can be a good way of coping, but if u get addicted to it like i did, it will be VERY BAD. i dont reccomend it but i wont tell you what to do

  • where did you get the blade!?!??!?!?!?

  • I just love the first 30 seconds :)

    I love hearing your voice lool

    x

  • i love this video

  • cool mini movie but i just wanted to note that a video i watched by XxXDarkEmoKittyXxX (Self Harm)

    contained many reasons that people cut and she had mentioned my cause: love and i just wanted to point it out to you so you could possibly find people i could talk to if not you (it would be best if you)............i appreciate you reading this if you did....

  • @TheSteelexpresso

    I'm not sure exactly what you mean by love as a reason, but you are welcome to PM me and I will respond.

  • @idranktheseawater

    Wow and I can see that you put a lot of time and effort into them good job hope yo see more. :)

  • Good mini movie you should of been an actress but all of yours are good anyway. How long does it take you to make them?

  • @MRTWOPINTS

    With both acting and editing, these movies take about a day. Like...10 hours

  • You're Really Good!

    You Can Act =)

    I Love You're Videos, And You're Pretty Cool. x

  • Yay! Are you going to make more mini movies? I like your mini movies.

  • @spagerbot

    I think I've made 4 mini movies so far, and yes, I plan on making more. ;)

  • Wow...this is on dead on. Amazing job! I look forward to seeing more vids 

  • Okay.. wtf.

  • Love this movie. Even though it makes me sad, just so true.

  • Awesome mini movie

  • I love your mini movies. They're so honest.

  • I love this video. I've watched it several times. You really capture what living with self injury is really like. :)

  • Great video :)

    Are you ever gonna make some new videos soon?

  • @brandonsean123

    Thank you

    I put one up 2 days ago. I plan on putting more, yes.

  • You have such pretty eyes :)

    Anyway, this is brilliant. It's all true. Anxiety and that urge are like a stalker that won't go away.

  • to make the blood look more realistic try mixing corn syrup, red food coloring, and a little bit of corn starch together

    but other than that you did a really good job with the video

  • Thanks so much Melissa! Your video's have been the best source of information to me as the mom of a wonderful young daughter who is going through this. Your courage in putting yourself out there to educate parents and people suffering with this illness is admirable. I see how strong you are! I see you fighting and beating this, God bless you!

  • @dennypup1

    Thanks for being so encouraging.

    I'm glad this is helpful.

  • This is absolutely amazing!!!!!! I love it...it's funny but also shows the things about self harm that people don't think about. Are you into making films because your film is a hec of a lot better than my film that i'm making for a class im taking lol! I only just found ur vids, but from what ive seen they're cool. I've subcribed to u x Sam x

  • This is absolutely amazing, thank-you for making this, it really does show how SI doesn't leave you alone. I've only just found your videos but I'm going to watch them all. Well done for making this, it must have took a lot of time and effort! Take care x

  • @xJusteen910x

    Thank you for saying so

    ps....your comment goes through every time, it's just that it has to be approved first. After you click post, it will say, "Comment pending approval." That means it went through.

  • @idranktheseawater eeeek! sorry, youtube told me there was an error! *embarrassed face*

  • @xJusteen910x

    :D

    Not a problem

    it was interesting to get so many comments. lol

    it wasnt a bother for me, but i figured you the comment bar must have been driving you crazy by having you repost and repost. Poor dear.

  • @xJusteen910x

    Oh, that's true. Youtube changed things. It will just be a green OK.

  • Hahaha

    Your aacting is funny

    (NOT IN A BAD WAY)

    Yet this movie helps

    :D

    I love your videos

  • Ok,I feel just like this.I 've been have a Bad-soulmate in my PC.

    There are two kind of hucker.Crucker and hucker???I don't get it.

    Hey! Hucking other peoples "life" is Illegal!

  • its a very good movie i love it

  • i relate to this, aside from being a hilarious movie it's also very touching cuz it's true. that bitch is in my head and keeps undermining me. all the time.

    you should go to film school.

  • Are you telling us you really have an annoying alter ego that follows you wherever you go only to bitch at you and tell you you're no good at anything? Is there anything that this girl says that is remotely positive?

    Aside from her obvious Debby Downer attitude, she seems poised, confident, commands respect, and seems ready to whoop ass. Why doesn't the girl in white exhibit more of these qualities? Why isn't she able to rock it and whoop ass back?

  • She started fighting in the end by asking for help.

    I think that in most circumstances we don't start off by knowing how to kick SI in the ass.

  • Love the mini-movie's! Pretty accurate.

  • Wow! Pretty good video! It`s not only the well-describing situation in which most of us live,but the solution! Thanx! :-)

  • ps. You look like Anna Sophia Robb :)

  • Hi!

    Thank you for posting this video. It describes well the feelings that you get when there is a chance to cut.

    It helps to see that i´m not alone, that someone might even understand. Thank you.

    -7991Dude

  • I really liked this because it is so true.

  • God this video so my life it shows how human we really are. This video shows a poweful message. I know what it like to deal with that everyday. Thank you so much for making this video thank you

  • wow that is so true! Well done, and good acting, nice job, and well said, this is how alot of people who self injure feel, I know its how I feel...

  • That's just awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

    Like u know?!

    cos like, u got me with the "what am i doing? oh well.." and this video probably will make a lot of people think before doing those things!

    Everyone can stop...

    we just need to help eachother!!!

  • this is so accurate. the phone part really got me. :'/

    please keep doing what youre doing.

  • wow. i hated it. not causze of the bad acting. but cause of the fact that i am sum1 that cuts there self. it sucked cause the problems were unrealistic, and it made no sence. drop your youtube account and fall off a clif. bye. and have a great day!!!!!!!

  • A video doesnt suck because you fail to understand.

    It's symbolism. Personification. Dont u know what that is?

    This is based on my experiences and its realistic because that's my life....and that is real.

    You have a right to not like it. That's fine. But please dont be rude. It doesnt become you.

  • @SleepiiBabbii27 WTF is worng with you how hard is it to understand this.. The last thing she need to do is del her youtube account... Im grad full that she's post her video her

  • Haha the barbeque sauce thing was awesome funny. The video was ecxellent the intrepretation and how u did it. I've been watching u'r vids for a bit (found them all smooshed together on a playlist) and I think u'r amazing. I love u'r voice and how u speak. The topics u talk about arn't easy and I know I could never talk about them on here just for fear of who might c them so kudos to u. I think u'r doing great regardless of how long it's been (crap out of chars) Thanx 4 the vids.

    ~Sarah O.

  • this is so true.

  • Hello Melissa, Well done I found it funny it a good way, I am proud you done it because to show people out there what it is like in our head etc, I found the blooper better as well because good to see you muck it up at time, Hugs Kisses Love Gizmo xox

  • lol your funny

  • this took alot of work i know i did one similar and i think you deserve kudos and cool points

  • Thanks

    Did you upload the vid you made to youtube?

  • Hey this was pretty good!!

    I think you should send this into a film festival :)

  • this is youtube not hollywood

    hahah your awesome!!

  • well I think this vid is awesome!!!!

    I can relate to having that type of "roommate"

  • that was beautiful!! exactly what i'm thinking all the time..it's time to tell that girl (SI) to get out of my life for good

  • not to be a anoying or anything, I just figured something funny about your video :) in the scene where you stand in front of the closet with your doll, the doll is also lying on the bed, were the SI-person sits :) I have seen this movie a lot of times and I first saw it now :D

  • yes indeed

    there are a lot of inconsistencies in this movie.

    Like when SI is talking to me on the bed, the door is closed, but when I chase her away with a pillow, the door is open.

    Those are some of what I was referring to in the description.

    I was too lazy to fix it.

    :)

    Thankfully it doesnt take away from the story.

    Im glad you like it enough to watch it lots of times.

  • yeah but it doesnt matter. for first of that kind of vid its pretty good. I dont know if you seen a lot of my vids, but I have so many spelling mistakes in the first vids, because I am to lazy to look through them hard enough. but as you say: this is youtube not hollywood :)

  • nice vid !!

  • This is great love! Fabulous video. And soooo very true! If you ever need anything I'm here if you need to chat. I SI as well...

  • i love this really great job...oh aand you have the same bed covers as me hihilol go walmart!!

  • wow this is an awesome mini movie!!!!

    you did an amazing job on this!!

  • I thought the blood on the wall and on the floor was really clever. This was an amazing video.

  • wow!! this is soo awesome!!!! sounds kinda like the voice in my head (ocd) !!!

  • haha its bbq sauce dont freak out, no i will not!! maybe..i dunno o.o awesome video^^ really good. i watched some others about the hospital and it doesnt sound like fun, but i hope it does help somewhat..or more. ya know.

  • This was really well done. :]

  • Thats a realy good point if u cant take it out on the person take it out on urself thanks

  • that was a great vid it really shows that people can't just forget about SI and it's not just something you can quit whenever. she was so right when you said you're afraid to live without me. :p great video and yeah that was good acting what are you talking about ;P ^^

  • YOU DID A GOOD JOB keep acting!! :D

  • That was great.

    Showing SI as a person that is always there really shows that it isn't easy to stop.

    Thank you. By the way, barbeque sauce was a great substitute for real blood. lol

  • You have made an amazing video

    Bravo

  • This was excellent. You did a great job of distinguishing the two by facial expression and stance. But the blood should have looked more realistic, and we shouldn't have seen the plastic box. What's more, I didn't understand why the doppelgaenger smeared blood at the seam between the wall and the ceiling. Wasn't she the one who wanted to hide it?

  • I didnt make the blood more realistic cuz I didnt want it to be too triggering. I dont want to post that stuff.

    She smeared blood to represent the fact that when I want to cut, I see blood everywhere. Dripping from trees or leaking down the wall. She was creating the things that I Imagine.

  • wow! this was really good. I like. I like.

  • This is a really great video. This is exactly how I feel too. And your acting's not as bad as you made us expect it would be. :p

    Amazing job! ^_^

  • another great video very good illustration of the intrusive nature of SI

  • i think you did a really amazing job showing how SI follows you around and torments you, and for the record,you were a good actor! i know in your confession you mentioned making an ED video roommate type thing but i feel like my ED follows me around like the way you showed the SI. just thought i would say that. i loved it!

  • i fucking love this. Well done x

  • lol "this is YouTube, not Hollywood!". I like your warning, I commend you for that. Wow, this acting wasn't lame, I can't imagine the time and effort this took to prepare and execute, it was a VERY accurate portrayal of how SI can follow you around, it's a beet eerie at times how spot on this was. Anyway, thanks for making this, it's great.

  • This was awesome. i loved it.

  • I am seriously impressed! That was so good!

  • amazing job... it really captures what its like to live with self injury.

    nice work :)

  • Amazing interpretation on what living with self injury is like, To say the least I'm not going too hot on the road to recovery so this helped alot, thank you x

  • i love the emo girl. shes soo funyy. lol

  • its good to know im not the only person who feels worthless all the time you did a great job on this video i think you are helping alot of people this way too, good job

  • nice visualisation of the inner critic all people have.its so important to be positive about yourself.nice portrayal of the enemy within and selftalk.i can relate to it.how about if we stop believing the negative inner voyce?!

  • I like this, and I can relate to this.

    You did a great job showing what it's like so SI, and the acting wasn't horrible. (:

    5 stars for chu. :D

  • Tra la la la.

    Thanks so much

    Im glad you guys liked it. It makes me really happy.

  • Holy S! This was brilliant! All hail the new queen of youtube!!!

  • wow... That was really great! Don't underestimate your abilities.

  • Hey, i loved the video.

    Please Take care.

    Hugs and Kisses.

    Luv. xxxxx

  • Wow, thank you so much for this video. It's very honest to the daily struggles of self-injurers. I think it's great that you're putting this sort of representation of our experience out there. Thank you.

    Also, the bloopers ending was really cool. :)

    Matt

  • awesome mini movie!

  • Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive. It's you guys that make my work worth while.

    take care and I hope you guys can stay safe.

  • amazing !!! and i have a letters i never sent to my dad to !!!! lol

  • Thanks

    lol...Im glad im not alone.

  • that was really great ;) good story and good ideas. would be amazing for a big budget movie actually :) its actually quiet inspirational too. nice work! and its a really good title