Depression thoughts (sorry so long)

[BEARTRAP037]

bipolar/depression is a love hate realationship,the meds keep me loopy,without them it gets worse,chronic pain as well,good days and bad days, I'm on seroquel,lamictal,zoloft for depr/bipolar,xanax as well for anxiety,hydrocodone7.5 x4 a day, and so we go fourth and live to see another day, thanks for the video,i can relate,i feel your pain,

[maximotion]

You sound like me the way you describe the depression and the chronic pain and fatigue etc. I was on Cymbalta for 6 months in 07 and I don't think it helped me at all. I did notice that when I came off my psych meds in Feb last year my feelings came back so I guess I had that numbing thing going on. Now I cry easily and every day is a struggle but I don't think psych meds are the answer. Actually I'm looking into Lyme disease as a cause for my physical and psych problems. That's scary! But...

[maximotion]

maybe if it is some kind of infection there will be a way to get rid of the problems. I'm not hopeful though. But - I did start therapy today - hurrah!!! I'm quite pleased with myself! I want to get back to vlogging now that I have something positive going on. You do a great job of explaining things and I certainly relate!

[Bikermom69]

I love you Lizzy!

[Lacybunny]

One more thing...you don't have to apologize for the video being long. Actually, I like long vids if the subject is interesting or pertains to my problems. Thx for making this vid. I'm a little shy in front of the cam. I've only made 3 vlogs. I need to get back into it.

[Lacybunny]

I totally get what you're saying. I've suffered with depression since 1990 and have been on many meds. They tried to put me on Cymbalta last month but I broke out in a sunburn rash all over my body. I was just starting to feel better when I lost my Dad in Oct. Emotional pain = physical pain. I also have fibro and severe arthrtis (3 kinds), back probs, etc. I'm in chronic pain and on stromg pain meds but been on them 4 yrs. and I've become used to them. Depression really sucks! Hugs...

[hartrose33]

My hubby was on 60 mg of cymbalta but they went up to 20 more mg and he said it was like turned on the lights. Just wanted you to know.

Always

Hartrose33

[GramsandPapi]

Depression is an incedious and difficult thing to deal with..This I know from experience. God bless you sweetie. I wish there was more that I could do than keep you in my prayers and be here if you want to talk. You are such a blessing to me. Love you, Ang

[GrannyMaesPlace]

Im BiPolar too, so I can relate to what your saying. Thanks for sharing.

[edenbainbridge]

hey lady ive been trying to call... are you ignoring me ;)

xoexo

[charlambe]

It's like your talking my life girl. I did the same thing I told my doctor at the time that I really loved that no I am not taking meds like that. Then the next week I was back. He tried me on something called Busbar and it was over the weekend. I just about went mad on that crap. So of course I went off of it. Then I went back to the doctor and told him never mind. Well it was another week and I was back in having a severe anxiety attack. That doctor had me in the room and I was crying

[charlambe]

it was so bad. So that day we both decided on takin Zoloft. It saved my life. Since then I have had to be increased but it helped my insanity I swear it did. My twin brother is on that stuff your on. I just got off the phone with him. He said that Cymbalta does him the exact same way you described where you can't cry. He said he wants to change too cause he doesn't like that factor.

[charlambe]

I have now been on Zoloft since 2001. I am so greatful for that. I hate it when people call it happy pill cause it's not that. It's a stable pill more like it. People do not understand do they? I wish my hubby understood fibro more than he does. He makes me upset sometimes cause it's like sometimes he understands and then other times he acts like it's a joke. I dont wish this pain on anyone.

I know what you mean about music that's a release for me.

The pain you described is just like me.

[charlambe]

youtube wont let me write a book here. lol ;)

My neck area is the worst for pain and nerve problems with my head. ugh. I do that too about the holding my fist tight, bitting my teeth together and all that tention in my shoulders and neck.

I love ya and you know I understand. hugs

[stonesfanatik]

Great video Lizzy, I take Cymbalta too. Luckily it is still working for me. Music helps me, especially when I need to cheer up and get going I listen to rock AC/DC, the Ramones, I know it sounds weird but it helps. Love ya hun!

[tushygalore]

Lizzy... it's like you climbed into my head and spoke for me on this topic... honestly you sound so much like me when it comes to mental and physical issues. I'm so awfully sorry that you too have had to live with all of this... no one should. It's amazing how far science has come in the last 20 years in terms of psychiatric meds, lets hope many new and more wonderful help will be there for us in coming years. Hang in there!

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[sugarandlance]

You would look perfect in a red wedding dress. :P And also, call me anytime you need to talk, you know i know what you're going through.

[RichochetTV]

Hugs sweetie xoxo Rich

[1DRock37167]

Yes, music helps alot!

[imperceptibleme]

Hugs Lizzy. I understand. I have terrible insomnia and it affects my entire life. Even when I do take an occasional sleeping pill I have trouble sleeping and staying asleep. I don't like taking them because like you I don't want to rely on a pill. But I do when I'm so exhausted I can't see straight. I still wake up 10 times a night, they allow me to go back to sleep sooner. Usually I have a hard time going to sleep and then when I do, I'm up every 15 minutes. It sucks. Hugs!

[ByHisStrypes]

sorry about what your going thru and thanks for sharing! i have a link on my profile to the piano music i write if you ever want to listen. I love 80s also!

[dreamer72fem]

*hugs*

[WackaDoodleFreeZone]

I love you Lizzy! I will be praying for you when you do get to change meds if you do. You know we are always here for you. It takes a lot of guts to talk to people about this kind of thing because some people just dont 'get it.' BIG HUGS xoxoox

[nerdfighter4]

I fricken Love your ring tones! I felt depressed after my second son was born. I felt like I couldn't do anything right. The baby wouldn't nurse, I didn't get any sleep. They told me there was nothing they could give me that wouldn't harm the baby and that I had to just wait til my hormones balanced out. That whole time in my life sucked. Sorry you are going thru this Lizzy.

[Bikermom69]

OMG Shannon the same thing happened to me after I had Makenna. I would start crying if someone even looked at me. I thought I was losing my mind. ((HUGS))

[RoyalHairdresser]

Lizzy I learned a lot from this video. you go girl!

love ya!

Brandie

[Lesli2]

omg i do that to i say music is my savor!!!!

[binsk]

Do you drink diet pop?

[Lesli2]

Hey Lizzy were both "L" s lol.

Huggies.