I've been watching your videos for two days now and I'm falling in love with u!! Your like my Big Sis/Mom/Guidance Counselor that I've never had. I just want to say that your testamonies have been such a Blessing in my life! I hope that your healed now. I also want to tell you that the Devil is a lie!!!! Your such an amazing person and your always encouraging US to be POSITIVE and sprinkling us with wisdom. You'll be in my prayers BIG SIS. One more thing: GOD IS ABLE.
Tanya, I went thru a phase in my life where I had anxiety about traveling and even going to far from home when my nephew died. That was over 10 years ago. Let me say this, how I overcame was by God's strength and being will to take a few more steps than I really wanted to. Its ok to be frightened, but know that it will probably take a trip to help you overcome this fear. I'm praying for you dear heart. You can do it girlfriend.
I can tell by your personality that you are a strong women. I have said a prayer for you. I am sure you will make it thru as you always have. God bless You! You need to be on a talk show or something. Tyra or Oprah need to have you on cuz u r just awesome.
I think this video was made a while back, and it's so good to see how you have adjusted. I know from reading your present vlogs you are also going through something difficult now also, but be assured we care about you. Even though I have never met you, you are in my heart. Thanks for sharing and being so real.
Tonya as I'm randomly looking at your vids I ran into this one and it's so heart breaking. I'm not sure what the problem is with your health because I haven't moved on to find out yet, have faith in God and hold on to him always. Whatever it is notthing is impossible for God and he will help you. Hugs
i just 'met you' today but u r inspiring i know there is many more women like you out there we dont know about just likeyou.u are making good use of the internet in advancing the image of the BLACK WOMAN.people talk of michelle obama?gal u r up there wit her if only u were on national tv!
I wish you the best! You will be fine! My dad died in 1999 and my mom died in 2000 and my brother and I didn't want to move. We were forced to move in 2005 because of my car accident. I am much happier. My parents were never coming back and it was only a house. I went out to the mid west once and I couldn't live there. I felt trapped, but I was glad that I did check it out first before signing a contract with a hospital. We all have fears of change, but there's a reason for this move. God Bless
Sis, I have just today met you and your very charming videos, after watching your comment on the Black Woman Poem. I went though similar surgery this year. I can only say be strong, keep your head up and look to The One who Created you for all of your provisions and all of your healing. Don't lean on flesh. Sometimes we have to go through dramatic experiences to learn the wisdom of simple words to live by. Be strong! Blessings! Journey on!
L LOVE YPU GAL L LOVE U GAL .you know what u are fine u be juss fine there nothing u cant u do ...u are walking in glory of life, u are living ,feeling, experiencing the realms of life... go on gal u have made it....
I see why people gravitate towards you,you are so personable and easy to like,man you should live in CHICAGO so i could introduce you to alot of positive brothas and sistas!
I'm sure You will do well for yourself.I'm sorry that you have been hurt in the past,but streght is made perfect in weakness.I hope things work out for you iat your new locale Keep ya head up
Hello Tonya, I do understand how you feel. but God has taken care of you and I believe that you are on a road for big things. I live here in New York, NY and its not bad, very busy. Be encouraged and understand that your faith can bring forth so many open doors, as well as strength. I do believe in you, and if you ever need a friend. I am here! Peace and Blessings to you, Your Friend gopee21
After watching the video about 2007, it's very understandable that you are very emotional. But you must be a strong person. Take it all at your own pace, and take extra good care of yourself. Best wishes from Denmark - LuiWallentin
You don't have to refer to me in Third person. You know I read my comments. If you saw my Epic Year of Travel... from beginning to end, and you don't understand why I'm upset, then perhaps you should stop looking at me and spend a little while looking at yourself.
I explained why I am upset plainly, and if yu don't get it, then maybe you dont NEED to get it, and all you should concentrate on is the fact that I say I'm UPSET and that should be enough to garner some respect out of you.
You don't have to get all offensive Tonya just because I didn't understand what the problem was. After all did I get upset with you when you were not even trying understand where I was coming from in my videos you just started talking like I was some kind of woman disrespecting jerk which is not true.
Hunnie... it is YOU who keeps making YOURSELF look like "a woman disrespecting jerk." You're on my video, you see I'm crying, referring to a video where I ALMOST DIEDDDD!!!! and ur like "I don't get it!?" I'm CRYING! WHat MORE DO YOU NEED TO GET???! and then you say I AM THE ONE MAKING YOU LOOK LIKE A JERK?? No honey... you don't need my help for that. Then you have the NERVE to say I shouldnt be "offensive?"
First of all I did not see that video before now . So I was just asking what was the problem because obviously I was concerned about why you were upset because believe it or not which you probably won't I hate to see a woman cry it hurts me to. And , I never said you made me LOOK like anything I said you started TALKING to me like that you can't make me look like anything because you don't know me .
this has nothing to do with the coment but love your vids your pritty cool and i think its cool that u have been to alot of places keep up the good vibes and dont dispare if u love travaling mabey one day you will be back doing what u love good luck to u :)
my bad, sweetie. Its in baltimore if u need it; if you dont mind, may I receive a hug from you. I could need it cause of what I've been going through, and I would be honored. take care.
know that it's not God who is putting you through all of this, but rather it is Satan. James felt it important to tell us in verse 13 that God does not tempt anybody. God is on your side, so stay strong and strive to do what He would have you to do. Also, take encouragement in knowing that God may be allowing you to endure this because He has trust in you! This is why Job went through all he did. The Lord knew Job to be faithful and had confidence in Job to endure righteously. love ya viki
I don't know what all is going on Tonya, but your beautiful spirit shines through it all...Be encouraged and know that God promised that He would never leave nor forsake you and that HE would be with you through it all and until the end. God bless you sweetheart :-)
Remember: "Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning"...Look up! The sun is coming out! :-)
Sis anyone who has gone through any type of Transition knows how you feel. Sis walk in your LIBERATION! YOU ARE FREE! Your move is a testament to your LIBERTY. The Creatress of the Universe has walked with you and will continue to guide your steps. You are an inspiration to MANY! PEACE GODDESS!
Thanks for the reply Tonya :} i replied before i finished watching the clip and i apologise as i was being selfish thinking how much i need your clips instead of you needing to rest and recover from moving from your palace. xxx
I tried the link to the other video b/c I don't know about what you went through last year. The link didn't work, however, whatever it was, I'm glad that you have made it this far and are still maintaining your strength! God bless you and keep your head up! :)
come back soon. we're all waiting for you.. you can do this. we're needy for your vlogs on the tube baby.. one love! cheers.. to good health, wealth and peace.
Hello Tonya. I definitely understand your trepidation. I felt the same way when I left Virginia for Chicago, and again when I left Chicago for Los Angeles. Consider this to be a new chapter in the book of life where you're the author. My gut tells me the finished product will be a good read. I'm a firm believer everything happens for a reason, and I'm sure you have a good reason for the relocation. I pray that you find peace and happiness in your new surroundings. Keep us posted.
hi! This is the first video I saw from you. NOw I don't know much about your surgery. But I had a similar experience. When I was 11 I had to go in for back surgery. Maybe it was becauseI was so young, and this was such a life-changing moment. BUt I too, do not feel like the same person that went into the operation. It was hard coming back to reality after it cuz I had suddenly become so different then my peers around me, who didn't understand, but being different, I realized who I was
YES ARIYA! You get it! Thank you... But what do we do? I guess I'll never be the same person... you either. But I guess the person coming out of it, doesnt have to be a worse person. We can be better. WE ARE BETTER! I went in as a person living in the moment becz it was the moment I was in. I came out a person living in the "present" bcz I know what a GIFT it is!
You are such a strong woman. you have overcame so many things in your life,you can get though this. Just be strong and keep your head up. you will be in my prayers.
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
So in feeling weak but strong enough to try and go on, you have more strength than you would have had if you had not feared moving on. Had you not had the fear, the power to go on would not be as strong as it is in weakness/fear. You will be protected by means of being carried through this journey. The bext example I can give you is the footprints prayer.
Baby girl you are taking a huge step and with every step comes accomplishment stay strong and take one day at a time.
Some Quotes for you:
• Because your own strength is unequal to the task, do not assume that it is beyond the powers of man; but if anything is within the powers and province of man, believe that it is within your own compass also.
I interpret it as when you are feeling weak and are trying to come out of that weakness into a certain light, the effort you put forward has more power to it. Whoever you pray to at night will walk with you because he knows that you need him most at this time in your life.
im not really sure if i can put encouraging words your way as impactive as others, but just seeing the other video and looking at this one understanding why its so hard I just give my heart out to you. Even though you are leaving home physically does not mean you left home spiritually. The strength and strong spirit you put forth in your videos show how much you came from that. A normal person probably wouldnt be able to do all what you done since then. Just stay faithful and dont forget.
Thanks Twan! I appreciate that... but yeah...in terms of "normal people" doing what I do... When ever I feel down about something happening to me, and whenever I think "WHY ME!?" I find inspiration in the quote from the movie malcolm X "WHY NOT YOU N!GGA!?" I know its a silly quote, but everytime I hear, WHY NOT YOU? I think well its me bcz I can handle it, and I guess for each person God gives them what they can handle according to their level of strength. Thank u for your words you reminded me
What you're going through is very normal ESPECIALLY considering the circumstances. Memories, symbols, associations, uncertainties - it all makes sense.
I LOVE LIVING IN MANHATTAN. Welcome to the island.
my moms went through the same surgery i believe in may of last year.. she's doing pretty good nowadays.. walking around and driving and what not.. all she needed was prayer and the faith that it will come to past.. you'll be fine as long as you keep the faith in god tonya.. you'll conquer whatever needs to be conquered..
1 Cor 7:32 (Amplified Bible)"My desire is to have you free from all anxiety and distressing care." This verse helps me when I feel stressed and overwhelmed. I know moving on to new grounds after something that traumatic can be very stressful, but if you beat those tumors, realize that you can beat anything. Be encouraged. You are a true survivor.
Hey Tonya, meant 2 hit u back but was busy..... When I said, "Anticipate the unknown," I meant anything could happen when you move, and that one should live for the best and plan for the worst, which you won't know about till U move. you'll never know where you're going til U get there.
Change is inevitable. I mean you have been through a hell of alot and you know you can get through anything. You are more courageous that I could ever be.
I never take a plain in all my life..and i'm 30..i'm terrified about fly..when i saw the video of your travel i thought about myself that i'm very stupid..because i have lost many possibilities to see the world..you are a grat woman..i'm sure u can accept this new challenge..i'with u!! Italian kiss!
Gratzi Bello! Do not fret, you are still young yet. Its not too late to travel, especially in Europe.... everything is soooo close. Thank you for the words.
Its okay!your moving on to a better life!looks like someone is under alot of stree!you need to relax and and eat some ice cream *never mind i mean corrots*and some lifetome movies!!and i love you too!
LOL! Video Babe! You are soooo funny! Yeah, I had Ice Cream... and last night I baked a pie. It was the BEST Apple Pie ever. The crust was golden and flaky, the inside was warm sweet and tender, and I covered it in a homemade granola butter drizzled crumble. I rolled my heart into that pie, and it came out DELISH! :p
You are suspose to be REJOICING, as hard as it may seem. You are a SURVIVOR and nothing less. Don't let that experience dictate your life or put limits on how GREAT your life can continue to be. You have to say DEVIL get behind me because i'm moving FORWARD!! LIVE, LIVE, LIVE and let God tackle the negative unknown.
You will be fine babe , you`re like me a lot Ive travelled to more than 100 countries eventually you will settle somewhere I live in London but will retire to Ghana because I know thats where I will be happy - and thats the main thing - BE HAPPY
Hey Tonya, sorry didnt realise wot shit you'd been through, so sorry, but on a selfish note, you've certainly cheered my year up! Hope everything goes OK for you... :0)
Why is it that I always connect with people just when they are leaving....I went through and watched a bunch of your videos they are really good...Hope that you are Vlogging again soon I can't wait to connect with you more
You are forgetting one thing...YOU GOT THROUGH IT! You have to keep note of the successes as well as the down periods. Not only are you surviving sweetness but you are doing it live and in color. I am sure there have been a few of people inspired but your humor and your struggles. So you keep on trucking. All of us have a purpose. Everything that has happens in life helps to reveal that. Remember to focus on your purpose not the stupid stuff that gets in the way. So Stay Cool and Keep Smiling!
Oh Tonya, I am so sorry hun, I cried right along with you and totally understand what you mean. I too am afraid because of what I have told you in the Email. We don't have the money for me to be sick right now and I got two lil ones to take care of. You take care girl, WE LOVE YOU TOO!
NO ONE, that has meant so much in strangers lives should have to ask for words of encouragemant when you have doe that so many times without demand. you are the cocoon that has spawned from youtube, now is just the time to blossom into a more beautiful butterfly then before. everyone see and understand the change. weight toning, spiritual leading and a strong following !
we will be here like barney, to the end!
shit, you have more followers then our present president anyhow!
evry thing is going to be alright. Jus know god is with u and he will always be with u no matter what. I cant say i fully know wat your going through but every one has there trials and tribulations. Just know no matter how bad your situation might be somebodies situation out there is even worst! Just know god luvs u and u have my support. I luv u
Dont worry too much about it, sweetie. You are a very positive, attractive, and strong black woman with a bright future ahead. I know it can be a culture shock to move on and everyone's different about travel, but as long as you keep god in your heart and ask for him to guide you in your new transition,
I believe that you will definitely make it. Tell you what, if you need a shoulder to cry on, mine is always available. Stay strong & hang in there!
mann if i ever leave home...ill die...cuz i been here since BIRTH..i mean no i said that wrong. ive moved out but came back but then...i am ready to move again..but im just saying.. if this house ever gets SOLD like..cuz my family has bene here over 25 years...then.........i will die!
Leaving "home" is hard. It's good to leave and come back to home, so establishing a new home can be tough. I have had a struggle with thinking about me moving in a few months. I hope that you bounce back and do it big with all that you're doing. I'm definitely gonna check out the vids, & I will be posting more myself. Anyways, talk to you soon.
Tonya, Wow, Im moved! This is not you at all. I don't know you, but from what I do know your a strong chick! You can do this! FEAR( False Evidence Appearing Real)God has not giving you this spirit! You have power over everything.Its going to be great. Everythings going to be fine! Your TONYA TKO! Go and BE!
I'm mad cuz you just brought a tear to my eye, and I don't even get emotional like that DAMMIT!
Tonya, you're awesome. Just think of what you've been able to overcome. Take the position that if you can make it through that, you can make it through anything! Change, new and different are just synonyms for opportunity and with opportunity comes fulfillment! Just do it like you've been doing it! And remember that you're loved.
Hi baby from angie in the uk. you have to be strong and i know you are a strong person because i have seen all your posts, baby i think you should carry on posting clips and stuff here as it will help you to be strong and we all love you, 252 comments already shows how much love is flowing to you and if you decide to leave us i will always remeber you how you were in the nakedvlog and weighin clips so funny and full of smiles laughter and love... peace angelina
You'll be ok baby girl.Your home will always be in your heart and your memories of there will always bring you peace.Whenever you feel lonely or out of sorts remember that peace and remember that our surroundings are an illusion.You are strong now,and something in your spirit knows its time to move on to something new,bigger, bolder more beautiful and it will give you comfort knowing that you came out of one of your biggest challenges with power,strength and humility.Much love
With this you are just ending one journey and beginning a new one. I know it may be difficult to leave your sanctuary but your kind heart and soul with always be that sanctuary for you.
and that's what it's all about putting yourself to the test! Nobody wants to live in fear when you don't have to. I've gotten my packing boxes last year I've looked at apts in different cities and damn I'm getting out of here god willing. Stay strong Ms T. we all know you can do this and you will succeed in what ever move you decide to make. and damnit put a smile on your face think about the good things that will come your way when you leave.
I'm not moving across the world but I'm moving from New York to somewhere. Because it's what I want to do. People sometimes say oh you don't know anyone there or there so why are u leaving? And these same people know that I've never really been anywhere and they want to keep my in one spot even though they know I'm unhappy.But the hell with them they're scared and I'm trying my best to get over my fear or falling on my face when I do decide to leave. I want to test myself to see If I can make it
you are a wonderful, powerful, beautiful woman that can do anything. anything. so just ignore the fears and say this is my moment in life. I live for the now.
Hi ms T. yea moving on is hard and it takes guts and courage to test yourself by stepping out of your comfort zone because you know it's safe there it's familiar it's what you know. Yes ms T. I've been afraid myself of the unknown that's why I haven't moved on. I'm 25 I've been in a unhappy relationship and I've been living in a raggedy apt that I'm paying too much for overall unhappy. But I still haven't done anything about it lol. But I have decided that I have to get it together and just move
You are an inspiration. Change always brings out all sorts of emotions but it is good and it means you are everchanging and ever-improving, etc. I look forward to your videos to come. We love you!
i didnt know u have been sick......i will make sure i get u the info u need, that we talked about. Would u mind telling me the nature of your illness? That would help me to help you.
aww , it's sad to see you so upset.But I'm sure things will workout if you just beliebe and relax taking things as they come to you. You have the support of so many people family,friends and your subs of course :).
Tonya Baby keep your head up sometimes God moves us out of our comfort zone because he wants to take us to knew heights. Everything is going to be ok because your strong and the one things that your story tells me is that your a surviver baby and nothing can keep you down. Know in your spirit and your mind that growth is good and better days are coming. I haven't been through what you've been through but know that God has us all in the palm of his hand. much luv Tonya Tko see ya in the new place
I've been watching your videos for two days now and I'm falling in love with u!! Your like my Big Sis/Mom/Guidance Counselor that I've never had. I just want to say that your testamonies have been such a Blessing in my life! I hope that your healed now. I also want to tell you that the Devil is a lie!!!! Your such an amazing person and your always encouraging US to be POSITIVE and sprinkling us with wisdom. You'll be in my prayers BIG SIS. One more thing: GOD IS ABLE.
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Tanya, I went thru a phase in my life where I had anxiety about traveling and even going to far from home when my nephew died. That was over 10 years ago. Let me say this, how I overcame was by God's strength and being will to take a few more steps than I really wanted to. Its ok to be frightened, but know that it will probably take a trip to help you overcome this fear. I'm praying for you dear heart. You can do it girlfriend.
KayKay37122 2 years ago
I can tell by your personality that you are a strong women. I have said a prayer for you. I am sure you will make it thru as you always have. God bless You! You need to be on a talk show or something. Tyra or Oprah need to have you on cuz u r just awesome.
patrondracula 2 years ago
I think this video was made a while back, and it's so good to see how you have adjusted. I know from reading your present vlogs you are also going through something difficult now also, but be assured we care about you. Even though I have never met you, you are in my heart. Thanks for sharing and being so real.
2hot2trot 2 years ago
Tonya as I'm randomly looking at your vids I ran into this one and it's so heart breaking. I'm not sure what the problem is with your health because I haven't moved on to find out yet, have faith in God and hold on to him always. Whatever it is notthing is impossible for God and he will help you. Hugs
LatinSoulLady 2 years ago
i love this video. i love how u show your emotions. i was the same way when i had to move.
i have to save this as a favorite.
thank you
Love2View 2 years ago
i just 'met you' today but u r inspiring i know there is many more women like you out there we dont know about just likeyou.u are making good use of the internet in advancing the image of the BLACK WOMAN.people talk of michelle obama?gal u r up there wit her if only u were on national tv!
raspeople77 3 years ago
oh your welcome
lelebug8 3 years ago
Your welcome darling,peace!!!
GOLDENDIIVA 3 years ago
I wish you the best! You will be fine! My dad died in 1999 and my mom died in 2000 and my brother and I didn't want to move. We were forced to move in 2005 because of my car accident. I am much happier. My parents were never coming back and it was only a house. I went out to the mid west once and I couldn't live there. I felt trapped, but I was glad that I did check it out first before signing a contract with a hospital. We all have fears of change, but there's a reason for this move. God Bless
mia0899cs 3 years ago
Sis, I have just today met you and your very charming videos, after watching your comment on the Black Woman Poem. I went though similar surgery this year. I can only say be strong, keep your head up and look to The One who Created you for all of your provisions and all of your healing. Don't lean on flesh. Sometimes we have to go through dramatic experiences to learn the wisdom of simple words to live by. Be strong! Blessings! Journey on!
eyes2wealth 3 years ago
Tonya my beautiful lady, You are God's child, in His hand. A whole new world is waiting you and God is already there.
You are in my prayers my sister.
God bless you, and remember "Hakuna Matata!"
blaine
sloopy312 3 years ago
L LOVE YPU GAL L LOVE U GAL .you know what u are fine u be juss fine there nothing u cant u do ...u are walking in glory of life, u are living ,feeling, experiencing the realms of life... go on gal u have made it....
blackwombman 3 years ago
I see why people gravitate towards you,you are so personable and easy to like,man you should live in CHICAGO so i could introduce you to alot of positive brothas and sistas!
globalsbc 3 years ago
don't fear Tonya you're an Israelite! god is with you! trust me don't worry thing will go smooothly.
BlackTut 3 years ago
Wsup Sister,
I'm sure You will do well for yourself.I'm sorry that you have been hurt in the past,but streght is made perfect in weakness.I hope things work out for you iat your new locale Keep ya head up
peace and hair grease;)
darkryder2008 3 years ago
Hello Tonya, I do understand how you feel. but God has taken care of you and I believe that you are on a road for big things. I live here in New York, NY and its not bad, very busy. Be encouraged and understand that your faith can bring forth so many open doors, as well as strength. I do believe in you, and if you ever need a friend. I am here! Peace and Blessings to you, Your Friend gopee21
gopee21 3 years ago
After watching the video about 2007, it's very understandable that you are very emotional. But you must be a strong person. Take it all at your own pace, and take extra good care of yourself. Best wishes from Denmark - LuiWallentin
LuiWallentin 3 years ago
so are you leaving youtube?
bffalcon 3 years ago
I'm confused what is going on
blacktigerwu 3 years ago
I think Tonya is moving to a new place in Manhattan, but if you watch the other video she mentioned, it may make more sense as to what is going on.
syckindahead 3 years ago
I did and I still don't get why she is crying about it.
blacktigerwu 3 years ago
You don't have to refer to me in Third person. You know I read my comments. If you saw my Epic Year of Travel... from beginning to end, and you don't understand why I'm upset, then perhaps you should stop looking at me and spend a little while looking at yourself.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
I explained why I am upset plainly, and if yu don't get it, then maybe you dont NEED to get it, and all you should concentrate on is the fact that I say I'm UPSET and that should be enough to garner some respect out of you.
TKO
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You don't have to get all offensive Tonya just because I didn't understand what the problem was. After all did I get upset with you when you were not even trying understand where I was coming from in my videos you just started talking like I was some kind of woman disrespecting jerk which is not true.
blacktigerwu 3 years ago
Hunnie... it is YOU who keeps making YOURSELF look like "a woman disrespecting jerk." You're on my video, you see I'm crying, referring to a video where I ALMOST DIEDDDD!!!! and ur like "I don't get it!?" I'm CRYING! WHat MORE DO YOU NEED TO GET???! and then you say I AM THE ONE MAKING YOU LOOK LIKE A JERK?? No honey... you don't need my help for that. Then you have the NERVE to say I shouldnt be "offensive?"
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Check yo-self Son. As you can (clearly) see, I am sensitive about this topic.
TKO
TonyaTko 3 years ago
First of all I did not see that video before now . So I was just asking what was the problem because obviously I was concerned about why you were upset because believe it or not which you probably won't I hate to see a woman cry it hurts me to. And , I never said you made me LOOK like anything I said you started TALKING to me like that you can't make me look like anything because you don't know me .
blacktigerwu 3 years ago
this has nothing to do with the coment but love your vids your pritty cool and i think its cool that u have been to alot of places keep up the good vibes and dont dispare if u love travaling mabey one day you will be back doing what u love good luck to u :)
hayitscurtis 3 years ago
my bad, sweetie. Its in baltimore if u need it; if you dont mind, may I receive a hug from you. I could need it cause of what I've been going through, and I would be honored. take care.
grenkuts 3 years ago
know that it's not God who is putting you through all of this, but rather it is Satan. James felt it important to tell us in verse 13 that God does not tempt anybody. God is on your side, so stay strong and strive to do what He would have you to do. Also, take encouragement in knowing that God may be allowing you to endure this because He has trust in you! This is why Job went through all he did. The Lord knew Job to be faithful and had confidence in Job to endure righteously. love ya viki
springerv 3 years ago
I don't know what all is going on Tonya, but your beautiful spirit shines through it all...Be encouraged and know that God promised that He would never leave nor forsake you and that HE would be with you through it all and until the end. God bless you sweetheart :-)
Remember: "Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning"...Look up! The sun is coming out! :-)
messenger333 3 years ago
I hope you always have home to go to.
TrippinwithAlexis 3 years ago
i know this might sound a little wierd becuz i dont kno you all that well but your video makes me feel proud & proud of you keep going strong
-Desmond
t0opr3ppi3 3 years ago
Sis anyone who has gone through any type of Transition knows how you feel. Sis walk in your LIBERATION! YOU ARE FREE! Your move is a testament to your LIBERTY. The Creatress of the Universe has walked with you and will continue to guide your steps. You are an inspiration to MANY! PEACE GODDESS!
nosugarcoatn 3 years ago
awh come back soon
u seem really nicee
Demilovatofan1234 3 years ago
Tonya, seems you have touched a nerve in youtube viewers with this video. I looked at many of the comment and your replys, Thank You, YarOLD
hquillin 3 years ago
Thanks for the reply Tonya :} i replied before i finished watching the clip and i apologise as i was being selfish thinking how much i need your clips instead of you needing to rest and recover from moving from your palace. xxx
angiekane 3 years ago
I tried the link to the other video b/c I don't know about what you went through last year. The link didn't work, however, whatever it was, I'm glad that you have made it this far and are still maintaining your strength! God bless you and keep your head up! :)
momodani7 3 years ago
come back soon. we're all waiting for you.. you can do this. we're needy for your vlogs on the tube baby.. one love! cheers.. to good health, wealth and peace.
kajumabir 3 years ago
Hey, sistah, come back real soon. Check my shoutout to you and what you do on my latest from KMET2 NEWZ. Stay strong! Many paths, One love.
kemet2 3 years ago
Hello Tonya. I definitely understand your trepidation. I felt the same way when I left Virginia for Chicago, and again when I left Chicago for Los Angeles. Consider this to be a new chapter in the book of life where you're the author. My gut tells me the finished product will be a good read. I'm a firm believer everything happens for a reason, and I'm sure you have a good reason for the relocation. I pray that you find peace and happiness in your new surroundings. Keep us posted.
chadej 3 years ago
Wow I love this "Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present."
~Bil Keane
chadej 3 years ago
i still dont understand why you are moving, even after watching the video enclosed in the description.
dachampishea 3 years ago
thats so sad. Goodbye!! It fills me up wit so much emotion watchin this.
dubba20 3 years ago
hi! This is the first video I saw from you. NOw I don't know much about your surgery. But I had a similar experience. When I was 11 I had to go in for back surgery. Maybe it was becauseI was so young, and this was such a life-changing moment. BUt I too, do not feel like the same person that went into the operation. It was hard coming back to reality after it cuz I had suddenly become so different then my peers around me, who didn't understand, but being different, I realized who I was
Ariya 3 years ago
YES ARIYA! You get it! Thank you... But what do we do? I guess I'll never be the same person... you either. But I guess the person coming out of it, doesnt have to be a worse person. We can be better. WE ARE BETTER! I went in as a person living in the moment becz it was the moment I was in. I came out a person living in the "present" bcz I know what a GIFT it is!
Thank you for your note it inspired me.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You are such a strong woman. you have overcame so many things in your life,you can get though this. Just be strong and keep your head up. you will be in my prayers.
eensha6242001 3 years ago
Hey Eensha! Thank you so much!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.
iamthaone08 3 years ago
So in feeling weak but strong enough to try and go on, you have more strength than you would have had if you had not feared moving on. Had you not had the fear, the power to go on would not be as strong as it is in weakness/fear. You will be protected by means of being carried through this journey. The bext example I can give you is the footprints prayer.
iamthaone08 3 years ago
AHHHHH Got it! Thanks! That IS nice.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Vielen Dank mein Freund. Wenn irgendjemand ungefähr kennt, triumphieren Sie es ist Sie! Ich schätze Ihre Wörter.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
both my left and right shoulder. you can take a pick, beautiful. :)
grenkuts 3 years ago
Yeahh... I said WHERE is it? Not WHICH :p
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Baby girl you are taking a huge step and with every step comes accomplishment stay strong and take one day at a time.
Some Quotes for you:
• Because your own strength is unequal to the task, do not assume that it is beyond the powers of man; but if anything is within the powers and province of man, believe that it is within your own compass also.
o Marcus Aurelius, Meditations, VI, 19
• Strength is made perfect in weakness.
o 2 Corinthians 12:9
iamthaone08 3 years ago
Thank you Iamthe1. I got the first quote... thank you! But can you explain the second one "Strength is made perfect in weakness?"
Thank you
TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
I interpret it as when you are feeling weak and are trying to come out of that weakness into a certain light, the effort you put forward has more power to it. Whoever you pray to at night will walk with you because he knows that you need him most at this time in your life.
iamthaone08 3 years ago
im not really sure if i can put encouraging words your way as impactive as others, but just seeing the other video and looking at this one understanding why its so hard I just give my heart out to you. Even though you are leaving home physically does not mean you left home spiritually. The strength and strong spirit you put forth in your videos show how much you came from that. A normal person probably wouldnt be able to do all what you done since then. Just stay faithful and dont forget.
bigtwan83 3 years ago
Thanks Twan! I appreciate that... but yeah...in terms of "normal people" doing what I do... When ever I feel down about something happening to me, and whenever I think "WHY ME!?" I find inspiration in the quote from the movie malcolm X "WHY NOT YOU N!GGA!?" I know its a silly quote, but everytime I hear, WHY NOT YOU? I think well its me bcz I can handle it, and I guess for each person God gives them what they can handle according to their level of strength. Thank u for your words you reminded me
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Thanks Saiyan! I appreciate it
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
What you're going through is very normal ESPECIALLY considering the circumstances. Memories, symbols, associations, uncertainties - it all makes sense.
I LOVE LIVING IN MANHATTAN. Welcome to the island.
KnightOverEgypt 3 years ago
Oh you're in Manhattan too? Cool Beans... where? and this means you are coming to my birtday party next month right?
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
never worry. we're all looking out for you. be blessed.ANDRE.
warcry5150 3 years ago
Thanks Dre! I appreciate it.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
my moms went through the same surgery i believe in may of last year.. she's doing pretty good nowadays.. walking around and driving and what not.. all she needed was prayer and the faith that it will come to past.. you'll be fine as long as you keep the faith in god tonya.. you'll conquer whatever needs to be conquered..
big81drew 3 years ago
Thanks Drew, I appreciate it.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
1 Cor 7:32 (Amplified Bible)"My desire is to have you free from all anxiety and distressing care." This verse helps me when I feel stressed and overwhelmed. I know moving on to new grounds after something that traumatic can be very stressful, but if you beat those tumors, realize that you can beat anything. Be encouraged. You are a true survivor.
tysian03 3 years ago
Thanks Tysian...
Is that the entire verse? Its so short.
and thanks for the encouraging words. I appreciate it.
-TonyaTKo
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Hey Tonya, meant 2 hit u back but was busy..... When I said, "Anticipate the unknown," I meant anything could happen when you move, and that one should live for the best and plan for the worst, which you won't know about till U move. you'll never know where you're going til U get there.
fatdaddyb28 3 years ago
Change is inevitable. I mean you have been through a hell of alot and you know you can get through anything. You are more courageous that I could ever be.
Raddeh 3 years ago
Thanks Raddeh. This is soooo true! Thank you.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
I never take a plain in all my life..and i'm 30..i'm terrified about fly..when i saw the video of your travel i thought about myself that i'm very stupid..because i have lost many possibilities to see the world..you are a grat woman..i'm sure u can accept this new challenge..i'with u!! Italian kiss!
miracleblade112 3 years ago
Gratzi Bello! Do not fret, you are still young yet. Its not too late to travel, especially in Europe.... everything is soooo close. Thank you for the words.
Be strong!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Its okay!your moving on to a better life!looks like someone is under alot of stree!you need to relax and and eat some ice cream *never mind i mean corrots*and some lifetome movies!!and i love you too!
videobabe25 3 years ago
LOL! Video Babe! You are soooo funny! Yeah, I had Ice Cream... and last night I baked a pie. It was the BEST Apple Pie ever. The crust was golden and flaky, the inside was warm sweet and tender, and I covered it in a homemade granola butter drizzled crumble. I rolled my heart into that pie, and it came out DELISH! :p
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You need deliverance from a PHOBIA, fear got it somehow. Message me if you want help or a referral. Stress can bring it in as well as other things.
God bless you and know that God is ABLE!!!
BobbieJeanEndZone 3 years ago
Thanks BobbieJean!!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You are suspose to be REJOICING, as hard as it may seem. You are a SURVIVOR and nothing less. Don't let that experience dictate your life or put limits on how GREAT your life can continue to be. You have to say DEVIL get behind me because i'm moving FORWARD!! LIVE, LIVE, LIVE and let God tackle the negative unknown.
tranchance 3 years ago
Thank You TRAN!!! I really appreciate that.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Good luck Tonya! I'll be praying for you!
missuswilliams 3 years ago
Thanks Miss Wiliams
Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You will be fine babe , you`re like me a lot Ive travelled to more than 100 countries eventually you will settle somewhere I live in London but will retire to Ghana because I know thats where I will be happy - and thats the main thing - BE HAPPY
garycordell 3 years ago
Thanks Gary :)
100 countries? Wow!
Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Take care babes - we ALL LOVE U
garycordell 3 years ago
TonyaTko- I can feel your a strong woman you'll surpass this phase/episode in your life. Your friends in Youtube(we)are all here for you.
gpalma 3 years ago
Thanks Palma! I appreciate that.
Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Ms.Tonya your a strong woman believe me you'll be just fine YOU GOT THIS!
dakingofhearts 3 years ago
Thanks King! I appreciate that. Keep in touch okay? Long times no hear.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
i will dont worry
dakingofhearts 3 years ago
Hey Tonya, sorry didnt realise wot shit you'd been through, so sorry, but on a selfish note, you've certainly cheered my year up! Hope everything goes OK for you... :0)
jezzquiggley 3 years ago
Thanks Jezz. Glad I helped. I'll be back soon.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Please keep us posted. We love you.
Blendre 3 years ago
Thanks Blendre
Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Why is it that I always connect with people just when they are leaving....I went through and watched a bunch of your videos they are really good...Hope that you are Vlogging again soon I can't wait to connect with you more
Grimace 3 years ago
Oh Grimace, I'm not leaving youtube... just my old residence.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You are forgetting one thing...YOU GOT THROUGH IT! You have to keep note of the successes as well as the down periods. Not only are you surviving sweetness but you are doing it live and in color. I am sure there have been a few of people inspired but your humor and your struggles. So you keep on trucking. All of us have a purpose. Everything that has happens in life helps to reveal that. Remember to focus on your purpose not the stupid stuff that gets in the way. So Stay Cool and Keep Smiling!
majixone77 3 years ago
Thanks Majix! You are so right! Thank yu. I needed to hear that.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Oh Tonya, I am so sorry hun, I cried right along with you and totally understand what you mean. I too am afraid because of what I have told you in the Email. We don't have the money for me to be sick right now and I got two lil ones to take care of. You take care girl, WE LOVE YOU TOO!
spring1978ukma 3 years ago
(((BBIIGGG HUGGZZZ)))
Thank you chile... You be strong as well.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Thanks Ebonia
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
NO ONE, that has meant so much in strangers lives should have to ask for words of encouragemant when you have doe that so many times without demand. you are the cocoon that has spawned from youtube, now is just the time to blossom into a more beautiful butterfly then before. everyone see and understand the change. weight toning, spiritual leading and a strong following !
we will be here like barney, to the end!
shit, you have more followers then our present president anyhow!
madfran6 3 years ago
LOL! Fran, you are soooo silly! Thank you
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Your TonyaTKO!!! You can make it through anything!!! Don't even worry about it. Your an insperation to the rest of us :D
CaptainRuro 3 years ago
Gracias Ruro! I appreciate it.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
evry thing is going to be alright. Jus know god is with u and he will always be with u no matter what. I cant say i fully know wat your going through but every one has there trials and tribulations. Just know no matter how bad your situation might be somebodies situation out there is even worst! Just know god luvs u and u have my support. I luv u
hmoss1 3 years ago
Thnaks Moss. You're right!
-TonyaTKo
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Dont worry too much about it, sweetie. You are a very positive, attractive, and strong black woman with a bright future ahead. I know it can be a culture shock to move on and everyone's different about travel, but as long as you keep god in your heart and ask for him to guide you in your new transition,
I believe that you will definitely make it. Tell you what, if you need a shoulder to cry on, mine is always available. Stay strong & hang in there!
grenkuts 3 years ago
Thanks Gren!
Where is your shoulder located? :)
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Everything will be alright. U seem like a very strong person...just hang in there and let God guide u thru!!!
misswynn23 3 years ago
Thanks Wynn! I appreciate it.
-TonyaTKo
TonyaTko 3 years ago
mann if i ever leave home...ill die...cuz i been here since BIRTH..i mean no i said that wrong. ive moved out but came back but then...i am ready to move again..but im just saying.. if this house ever gets SOLD like..cuz my family has bene here over 25 years...then.........i will die!
JerZLove973 3 years ago
LOL! Thanks Jersey Love!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Cool Vid:D:D
MarsDarinder 3 years ago
Leaving "home" is hard. It's good to leave and come back to home, so establishing a new home can be tough. I have had a struggle with thinking about me moving in a few months. I hope that you bounce back and do it big with all that you're doing. I'm definitely gonna check out the vids, & I will be posting more myself. Anyways, talk to you soon.
btaylor21 3 years ago
Thanks Taylor! Good luck with your move too.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Tonya, Wow, Im moved! This is not you at all. I don't know you, but from what I do know your a strong chick! You can do this! FEAR( False Evidence Appearing Real)God has not giving you this spirit! You have power over everything.Its going to be great. Everythings going to be fine! Your TONYA TKO! Go and BE!
bleusol 3 years ago
Thank you Bleu,
I appreciate the slap back to reality!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You can do it ^^
seanu64 3 years ago
Thanks Sean
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Ahh Hun you are in my prayers. I hope that everything goes well for you :) I know that you will be OK.
crystalrspencer 3 years ago
Thanks Crystal!
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Good luck on your new venture.
TheArtistWill 3 years ago
Thanks Will
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
I'm mad cuz you just brought a tear to my eye, and I don't even get emotional like that DAMMIT!
Tonya, you're awesome. Just think of what you've been able to overcome. Take the position that if you can make it through that, you can make it through anything! Change, new and different are just synonyms for opportunity and with opportunity comes fulfillment! Just do it like you've been doing it! And remember that you're loved.
Peace
vixxa 3 years ago
Awweee Vixxa, Thank you. Sorry about your tear, and thanks for the encouraging words!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Hi baby from angie in the uk. you have to be strong and i know you are a strong person because i have seen all your posts, baby i think you should carry on posting clips and stuff here as it will help you to be strong and we all love you, 252 comments already shows how much love is flowing to you and if you decide to leave us i will always remeber you how you were in the nakedvlog and weighin clips so funny and full of smiles laughter and love... peace angelina
angiekane 3 years ago
Hi Angie, I'm moving residences, not leaving youtube... But thank you for wishing I stay either way! Lol :)
I appreciate it
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You'll be Aight. You looked Death in the face and told him, "Nah, buddy NOT YET, NOT BY A LONG SHOT!!!! BACK OFF!!!!" You can get thru it Home Gurl!!
mrpostman730 3 years ago
Thanks Postman!
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
"Invictus" by William Earnest Henley.
Go back and watch your Invictus video.
Peace and Blessings :-)
PositiveDarkness 3 years ago
This is sooooo tru +Darkness, let me go do that.
Thank you
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
everything will fall into place you'll see
drock285 3 years ago
Thanks Drock! (you wrote the exact same thing as Texas Sunset right before you...) Is that your alias? :)
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
tonya, everything will fall into place you'll see
best of luck to you :)
texassunset 3 years ago
Thanks Sunset!
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
God Bless you and may your new surroundings bring you peace and enjoyment! You are a strong person....this is a hurdle you will stride with agility!
Peace
mtamorphis 3 years ago
Thanks Metamorphosis!
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You'll be ok baby girl.Your home will always be in your heart and your memories of there will always bring you peace.Whenever you feel lonely or out of sorts remember that peace and remember that our surroundings are an illusion.You are strong now,and something in your spirit knows its time to move on to something new,bigger, bolder more beautiful and it will give you comfort knowing that you came out of one of your biggest challenges with power,strength and humility.Much love
curlmebella 3 years ago
Another HOME RUN! Thank you Bella! You are the greatest!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Are you finally moving to Manhattan babe?
VayLoc310 3 years ago
Yes VayLoc.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
With this you are just ending one journey and beginning a new one. I know it may be difficult to leave your sanctuary but your kind heart and soul with always be that sanctuary for you.
God Bless,
D. Dexter
sneeky7997 3 years ago
Thanks D! I appreciate that!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
goodluck an much love to you girl stay strong
ShinAhkuma 3 years ago
Thanks Shin
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Hello Ms TonyaTko,
i just discovered you this morning. Your story is very interesting. I wish you well in all you do. Thanks for sharing.
reggaeone 3 years ago
Thanks ReggaeOne, and welcome aboard! I'm not always like this. PROMISE! :)
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
and that's what it's all about putting yourself to the test! Nobody wants to live in fear when you don't have to. I've gotten my packing boxes last year I've looked at apts in different cities and damn I'm getting out of here god willing. Stay strong Ms T. we all know you can do this and you will succeed in what ever move you decide to make. and damnit put a smile on your face think about the good things that will come your way when you leave.
MSGINA2330 3 years ago
I'm not moving across the world but I'm moving from New York to somewhere. Because it's what I want to do. People sometimes say oh you don't know anyone there or there so why are u leaving? And these same people know that I've never really been anywhere and they want to keep my in one spot even though they know I'm unhappy.But the hell with them they're scared and I'm trying my best to get over my fear or falling on my face when I do decide to leave. I want to test myself to see If I can make it
MSGINA2330 3 years ago
you are a wonderful, powerful, beautiful woman that can do anything. anything. so just ignore the fears and say this is my moment in life. I live for the now.
dwljk 3 years ago
Thank you DW!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Hi ms T. yea moving on is hard and it takes guts and courage to test yourself by stepping out of your comfort zone because you know it's safe there it's familiar it's what you know. Yes ms T. I've been afraid myself of the unknown that's why I haven't moved on. I'm 25 I've been in a unhappy relationship and I've been living in a raggedy apt that I'm paying too much for overall unhappy. But I still haven't done anything about it lol. But I have decided that I have to get it together and just move
MSGINA2330 3 years ago
Yeah... well I wish you luck as well... sometimes theres nothing to it but to do it! :)
Keep me posted.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You are an inspiration. Change always brings out all sorts of emotions but it is good and it means you are everchanging and ever-improving, etc. I look forward to your videos to come. We love you!
DearNadia 3 years ago
Thanks Nad! I appreciate that so much. How are things with you?
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
Good luck with the move, and hope you feel better.
expressomax 3 years ago
Thanks Expresso.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
i didnt know u have been sick......i will make sure i get u the info u need, that we talked about. Would u mind telling me the nature of your illness? That would help me to help you.
By the way, u seem so kind and loving.
((((((BIG HUGS))))) to you.
Terri
TerrisRacePlace 3 years ago
Thanks for stopping by Terri, video in the sidelink explains more.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
huuugs ^^
wish you the best hun ^^
take care
God bless you <3
ilovejacko68 3 years ago
Mz TonyaTko,
I thank you for the vid post.
I hope you can hear those words and know that you have been charged... continue as you do, to make the world go round.... Stay strong...
luv ya!!!
MzMiot
MzMiot 3 years ago
Thanks Mz Miot! 'ppreciate it
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
aww , it's sad to see you so upset.But I'm sure things will workout if you just beliebe and relax taking things as they come to you. You have the support of so many people family,friends and your subs of course :).
RainaDragonfire 3 years ago
Thanks Raini. I will try.
-Tko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
You got it babe, don't you worry a thing.
catfishriches 3 years ago
Hey Catfish! How are you? long time no hear. Thank you very much!
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
I am doing well! Let me know how you are faring throughout this!
catfishriches 3 years ago
Oh I think his page was hacked.
chocara1 3 years ago
Hey fagmuthafuka find your ass a hobby and stop spamming.
chocara1 3 years ago
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you do any thing for subs bitch.
fagmuthafuka 3 years ago
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bitch you are a prostitute! so what just die bitch.
fagmuthafuka 3 years ago
Hey Sweetie
it is really sad to see you like taht but hey i must say :
MOVING OUT IS TO LOOSE SOMETHING of course but IT IS NEW START , A NEW WIN AS WELL ^^
so give it a go and keep on smiling .... :) you will go your way , i am sure about that
Big hug and lots of love from GERMANY ^^
SliceofBread88 3 years ago
Danke my friend! I appreciate that.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago
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just leave bitch!
fagmuthafuka 3 years ago
Tonya Baby keep your head up sometimes God moves us out of our comfort zone because he wants to take us to knew heights. Everything is going to be ok because your strong and the one things that your story tells me is that your a surviver baby and nothing can keep you down. Know in your spirit and your mind that growth is good and better days are coming. I haven't been through what you've been through but know that God has us all in the palm of his hand. much luv Tonya Tko see ya in the new place
tobusha08 3 years ago
Thanks Tobu! I appreicate it. I'm feelin a little better already.
-TonyaTko
TonyaTko 3 years ago