TTC Vlog #32 cycle update and dealing with infertility

[Doorhitterbeauti]

Thank you for helping me feel a little less alone today <3

[123dietdrpepper]

I'm sittinghere sobbing 4 u as I still hurt after never being able to conceive & I have 2 adopted children who r 13 & 17. I luv them & would not trade anything 4 them. However, my dream to have a child will never be fulfilled. I'm sharing this with u not for sympathy but to say u r doing the right thing by telling others so they can't be sensitive to ur feelings & who knows they may even be able to provide u some much needed comfort. It is also good for the soul to get these feelings out. Hugs

[TexasMickLoz]

I can honestly say this vid made me tear up. You expressed all the emotions that I have been feeling lately when it comes to my unexplained infertility. I know there are plenty of other ladies on here that thank you and can relate. (((HUGS)))

[Dukes2189]

Thank you for posting this video! I can relate so very much and it is important to have these "real" struggle videos out there! This has helped me feel not alone as well as I'm sure it is helping others!

[babybue100]

Thanks for posting this video, it really helped me today. ((hugs))

[ashleycsal1]

I can totally relate - you are so right about how challenging each BFN is. I believe that everyone in the infertility boat can attest to how hard some of the waves of grief can be to ride. I love the part where you recognize that the only opportunity for others to be more supportive is when you're willing to be vulnerable. This was the same conclusion I came to. What I wasn't expecting was that some people still couldn't be sensitive lol....so I said see ya later to those and reached out here xo

[pinkdahlia4]

I haven't really been around lately...life has gotten in the way but I just wanted to say that even though I don't post much I am rooting for you and sending you all the positive baby dust I can and virtual hugs for those days when you need a little bit of love. Glad to see you back. P.S You are not an ugly cried. You cry with grace and dignity.

[pinkdahlia4]

First off I want to say I'm so sorry for your the loss of your uncle. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I want to say thank you for posting this very. It is so courageous to be so raw and emotional. Even though I can't really imagine how hard infertility is I just want you to know that my heart goes out to you. I hope you are your husband find the strength and right time to share your struggles with your small group and they are nothing but supportive of the two of you.

[heath2Babigbrother]

I am so sorry for your loss over the holidays, thinking of you and your family! Also sending you tones of love, support, strength and of course super sticky baby dust!

[heath2Babigbrother]

I know how hard it is to be joyful for others when you have the yearning for a pregnancy and healthy baby of your very own.! It's not that you're not happy for them, it's that you're so desperate to be blessed with a healthy pregnancy and baby yourself!

It will happen, I know it's hard to not think that way, Infertility leaves you with those thoughts, you have you support here & we know where your coming from, I just wish I could give you a hug & put the kettle on! 2bcont...

[WithGodsGrace]

Thank you so much for your rawness and honesty! It does help to know that the feelings that go along with this tough journey through TTC are not just mine, but that all of us feel this way at some point or another. I truly feel a renewed sense of hope for this new year and I think that we'll both get our BFPs in 2012!

[FreeUpYourMind]

I so admire your honesty in this video. I can relate to those tears for sure! Thank you for sharing your struggles because it does help to know that others go through the things you do. You're going to be such a grateful Mama when your time comes. <3

[dw123ish]

I am praying for you <3

[ttcalittleangel2007]

do u watch videos from danielle? (daniellebabybliss) she just got her BFP for xmas..and she uploaded a video on what they used this time to get pregnant...it's really interesting...I know it may not be easy to watch..it wasn't for me...but I luv watching her videos...and this one she did about the moon cup that they used is very helpful :) Hugs to you sweetheart and loads of bb dust, and prayers

[ttcalittleangel2007]

I was getting teary eyed watching this...I feel the same way as u, since we received the bad results from my laparoscopy...I feel that since my one fallopian tube is done for, and that' ovary would be taken out if the tube gets removed..then my chances are nothing....thank God she didnt remove the tube and ovary since she doesn't know what the other side looks like...but I still really feel like the pregnancy thing wont happen for me..and we won't have children...its all in Gods hands

[ttcalittleangel2007]

I am sooo sorry that things are rough for your right now :( I know that things like this aren't easy to go thru, and you need all the support you can get :) I will surely be lifting u up in my prayers, and asking God to watch over you and your husband, and give you piece about the situation :) I sooo wish I could jump thru the computer screen and give u a HUGE HUG :) sending u hugs, prayers, and lots and lots of sticky baby dust :)

[owlpwr]

I feel for you more than you know...I have had two second trimester losses, my last one was with twins in june and have been ttc ever since with no luck and I'm so scared it won't happen again, and you know once you have experienced being pregnant and have it taken away, you want that feeling back again so badly. You have every right to feel the way you do and cry and be angry...I wish you the best of luck and am sending loads of baby dust :)

[ourjourney11]

Lots of virtual hugs to you!!! xxx And you are NOT an ugly cryer !!

[ttctexasstar]

I really appreciate this vlog and thank you for posting as I know it was difficult.

[MrsMacNaughton]

I'm so so sorry hun! You are amazing and so strong. I am PRAYING and PRAYING for you. I just posted a video that may help...I don't know if it would but it might. You are so sweet and beautiful. I'm giving you a big hug

[SubfertileFrugalista]

Afraid I was running out of room! Anyway, I also can tell you, sort of selfishly and from experience, when you share this vulnerability, you will only have THAT many more ppl praying for you guys, people will be so over the moon for you when it does happen and they will love that baby soooo much! It's a really amazing feeling and I can't wait for you to experience it!

[SubfertileFrugalista]

I'm really glad you posted this. You are going to help a lot of people, maybe even many months down the road who find it. I really hope you do share with your small group. I think they should know because it's such a big part of your life. And I would hate for it to have an impact on friendships if it could actually help them to better support you. You are such a sweetheart and I know they will just wrap you in love.

[MyTTCjournal]

You're right, you shouldn't be sorry. (And you're not ugly when you cry)

I know you don't want ppl to be sorry for you but I do sympathize/empathize with you.

You're so strong! Never forget that. There are so many ups and downs in life, marriage, parenthood and TTC and it's okay to have rough days. You're strong because you recognize how you feel, you allow yourself to be vulnerable and you pick yourself back up.

I admire you so much, girl!! *HUGS*

~Jessica~

MommyMakingHome

[Malibustacy1982]

You are not an ugly cryer! You are beautiful! I am so sorry you are feeling this way today. I wish i had magic words to make you feel better and make you believe in yourself the way i believe in you! You will get your rainbow baby, because you deserve it! And please know that YOU are not alone either!!! You and your husband will be amazing parents! Love and hugs to you!