So now you have discovered that there is more than one way to be trans.I did'nt always know that there was but I've learned alot during these few months.Ever since Cher's son made his transition.
Excellent video(s). I thought it was funny when you started to get all giggly when you were talking about penis' lol.
BTW, I'm glad you made the choice to transition, cuz you're a pretty awesome guy and I'd've missed hanging out with you and having you as a friend if anything had "happened" to you.
Oh and I don't even have a 10" penis! ...eep...nevermind!
Oh and now...you know a bunch of homo's!!! :P So you're good. :D
@MeepMarmoset I'm this many *holds up 9 fingers* as evidenced by the fact that my parents stopped giving us xmas stockings years ago and when Keags and I started dating, his mom started giving us xmas stockings and it made me giddy!
I just gotta say, I identify with a lot of what you said about your childhood, and had a lot of probably similar experiences. I haven't thought too much about internalised transphobia, though... I'll have to think about it some more. I was probably somewhat an unusual case in that when I realised I could be ftm I was very okay with it, like 'yip, that's me,' with no problems dealing with the identity part of it. I wonder how common that is.
Thank you so much for talking about this stuff. I have had a lot of similar experiences with internalized transphobia & not being aware of FTMs for much of my life. I haven't heard anyone else talk about that & some other things you mentioned so it is very comforting to hear I'm not alone. I think you did a great job expressing yourself. I hope you keep making videos like these. Thanks again :)
@lostqueer I'm very glad that my videos can give at least one person comfort or example to relate to. It's definitely hard to not see yourself reflected in anyone else, and I struggled with that for a long time until coming online and reaching out. Hope you can find your way in this who confusing gender mess =) And I definitely intend to make more videos soon. ^.^
I think that you're very articulate and I am glad that you made the brave decision to change your reality instead of ending your life. I've watched your videos for a while, and you have a ton of talent art-wise. I wish awesome things for you and applaud your candor.
@videokidsam Yessum. I'm hope to make it to pride and trans march before I move there.. and it looks like I'm gunna have to do some apartment/roommate hunting a few months before school. -PANIC ATTACK-
Hi! I relate a lot to your experience of feeling a certain way but not knowing what to do with the energy.
It's plausible (but not inevitable) that in another generation many folk will have more available to them in their lives re gender. I plan on living a long time in order to see that day if I can. :D
@NowLouie I hope to see that day as well. It really sucks to feel so helpless and alone. I'm glad I'm not the only one with this kind of experience, but of course, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
Ew. Burping. Fix that. :P NEEDLEDICKS. You were a bit uhm... confusing, haha I want to be taller... you said six two and it reminded me that I'm hella short. XD My friend is gay! I helped him come out trans. I feel proud. Gays win. :D OH GOD KNUCKLE CRACKING. Transtube. I think that'd be a win, eh? I'm amazed you're able to be open, even if it's to a camera, but it still amazes me.
@cyanidendsugar Confusing in what way? Haha. After seeing the kind of response I got on these videos I kind of think I was a little too honest. xD That people don't know what to do with it. But eh... whatev.
@MeepMarmoset You know, I don't even remember how you were confusing and I'm too lazy to go back and find out. haha. Well, it's over the internet, it's not like it matters all *that* much, eh?
one of my biggest issues was also that i would never be 100% a bio male no matter what the medical community can give me, actually its only recently that I have stopped trying to be someone im not, a typical bio-male, and just be the transguy I am.
@mrjryan44 That was such a huge issue for me too. I never really spoke about it in my earlier videos because I was just so ashamed of everything, and not even sure how I felt. I'm to a point now where I know that the whole wanting to be completely bio-male was because I didn't think there was a space for anyone who didn't identify as either male or female. I'm starting to feel more comfortable in the middle. =)
Very insightful. You expressed yourself very well. I'm sure this is the best presentation so far. Thanks for the update. Good luck in your future studies.
These 2 videos are great! You should be very proud that you are a role model for many of those FTMs now starting their journeys--especially to those (who I believe are the majority) who do not after transition really fit into the hetro-normalative sterotypes. (Of course, a large part of the cis-gender male population deal with some of the same issues, but they are usually afraid to say anything about it). I look forward to your insightful videos! Lloyd
@Johnson210000 Thanks man! I think you're right on when you mentioned that cis-gender guys deal with similar stuff too. I get the feeling everyone deals with some kind of dissatisfaction with our bodies. Probably just stems from our society which values youth and only specific types of beauty.
So now you have discovered that there is more than one way to be trans.I did'nt always know that there was but I've learned alot during these few months.Ever since Cher's son made his transition.
charlenemonique1 1 year ago
Excellent video(s). I thought it was funny when you started to get all giggly when you were talking about penis' lol.
BTW, I'm glad you made the choice to transition, cuz you're a pretty awesome guy and I'd've missed hanging out with you and having you as a friend if anything had "happened" to you.
Oh and I don't even have a 10" penis! ...eep...nevermind!
Oh and now...you know a bunch of homo's!!! :P So you're good. :D
neverlookback75 1 year ago
@neverlookback75 Aw, thanks Paul... =D And yeah, I giggle when I talk about penis' because I'm actually 12.
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
@MeepMarmoset I'm this many *holds up 9 fingers* as evidenced by the fact that my parents stopped giving us xmas stockings years ago and when Keags and I started dating, his mom started giving us xmas stockings and it made me giddy!
neverlookback75 1 year ago
You sound like me
damian32694 1 year ago
I just gotta say, I identify with a lot of what you said about your childhood, and had a lot of probably similar experiences. I haven't thought too much about internalised transphobia, though... I'll have to think about it some more. I was probably somewhat an unusual case in that when I realised I could be ftm I was very okay with it, like 'yip, that's me,' with no problems dealing with the identity part of it. I wonder how common that is.
RoryFTM 1 year ago
Thank you so much for talking about this stuff. I have had a lot of similar experiences with internalized transphobia & not being aware of FTMs for much of my life. I haven't heard anyone else talk about that & some other things you mentioned so it is very comforting to hear I'm not alone. I think you did a great job expressing yourself. I hope you keep making videos like these. Thanks again :)
lostqueer 1 year ago
@lostqueer I'm very glad that my videos can give at least one person comfort or example to relate to. It's definitely hard to not see yourself reflected in anyone else, and I struggled with that for a long time until coming online and reaching out. Hope you can find your way in this who confusing gender mess =) And I definitely intend to make more videos soon. ^.^
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
@MeepMarmoset Yes, exactly. So thankful that this community exists. I'm looking forward to watching! Cheers :)
lostqueer 1 year ago
I think that you're very articulate and I am glad that you made the brave decision to change your reality instead of ending your life. I've watched your videos for a while, and you have a ton of talent art-wise. I wish awesome things for you and applaud your candor.
alrightythen1979 1 year ago
@alrightythen1979 <3
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
Trying to get thoughts (and feelings) into words can be so difficult, but I think you express yourself very well here.
I dont know how relaxed you feel when recording your videos, but theyve always been a pleasure to watch; honest, informative and interesting.
StressedTechnician 1 year ago
@StressedTechnician Thanks man, it's good to know that I don't sound like an idiot when I try to talk about these things. =)
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
Very interesting. Thanks for sharing :)
boredgurl24 1 year ago
hey good to see you again, dude. thank you for sharing your path. random question, are you still coming out to sf? :)
videokidsam 1 year ago
@videokidsam Yessum. I'm hope to make it to pride and trans march before I move there.. and it looks like I'm gunna have to do some apartment/roommate hunting a few months before school. -PANIC ATTACK-
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
@MeepMarmoset cool! let me know when you are headed out this way if you need a tour guide or a buddy for pride. :)
videokidsam 1 year ago
Hi! I relate a lot to your experience of feeling a certain way but not knowing what to do with the energy.
It's plausible (but not inevitable) that in another generation many folk will have more available to them in their lives re gender. I plan on living a long time in order to see that day if I can. :D
NowLouie 1 year ago
@NowLouie I hope to see that day as well. It really sucks to feel so helpless and alone. I'm glad I'm not the only one with this kind of experience, but of course, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
Hey :) These two videos are brilliant! Thanks for posting them.
deaddogx 1 year ago
Ew. Burping. Fix that. :P NEEDLEDICKS. You were a bit uhm... confusing, haha I want to be taller... you said six two and it reminded me that I'm hella short. XD My friend is gay! I helped him come out trans. I feel proud. Gays win. :D OH GOD KNUCKLE CRACKING. Transtube. I think that'd be a win, eh? I'm amazed you're able to be open, even if it's to a camera, but it still amazes me.
cyanidendsugar 1 year ago
@cyanidendsugar Confusing in what way? Haha. After seeing the kind of response I got on these videos I kind of think I was a little too honest. xD That people don't know what to do with it. But eh... whatev.
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
@MeepMarmoset You know, I don't even remember how you were confusing and I'm too lazy to go back and find out. haha. Well, it's over the internet, it's not like it matters all *that* much, eh?
cyanidendsugar 1 year ago
one of my biggest issues was also that i would never be 100% a bio male no matter what the medical community can give me, actually its only recently that I have stopped trying to be someone im not, a typical bio-male, and just be the transguy I am.
mrjryan44 1 year ago
@mrjryan44 That was such a huge issue for me too. I never really spoke about it in my earlier videos because I was just so ashamed of everything, and not even sure how I felt. I'm to a point now where I know that the whole wanting to be completely bio-male was because I didn't think there was a space for anyone who didn't identify as either male or female. I'm starting to feel more comfortable in the middle. =)
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
keep making videos man, youre great.
Maiku2010 1 year ago
your hot even though your a trangender but i dont care cuase i have a friend who is trangender im gay so you rock
gclord14 1 year ago
@gclord14 Lol, thanks.
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago
Thanks for being so open about things kudos :)
freeride297 1 year ago
Very insightful. You expressed yourself very well. I'm sure this is the best presentation so far. Thanks for the update. Good luck in your future studies.
tobyr3 1 year ago
J.R.
These 2 videos are great! You should be very proud that you are a role model for many of those FTMs now starting their journeys--especially to those (who I believe are the majority) who do not after transition really fit into the hetro-normalative sterotypes. (Of course, a large part of the cis-gender male population deal with some of the same issues, but they are usually afraid to say anything about it). I look forward to your insightful videos! Lloyd
Johnson210000 1 year ago 6
@Johnson210000 Thanks man! I think you're right on when you mentioned that cis-gender guys deal with similar stuff too. I get the feeling everyone deals with some kind of dissatisfaction with our bodies. Probably just stems from our society which values youth and only specific types of beauty.
MeepMarmoset 1 year ago