Sexual Abuse & Eating disorders - my story

[BitchxSplapped]

@fastinggurl31 I totally understand what you mean when you say "I found protection in food" because when you've be hurt or traumatized you need something that calms you and becomes like a 'comfort object'. I also want to ask did you ever wet the bed? Because my friend was sexually abused by her biological mother and she would wet herself to keep her mother away or to atleast make her not want to touch her.

[mambotap3]

Dear fastinggirl & all ED sufferers - I am an Australian Actress and I am a recovered sufferer of bulimia & BED. It has been a long journey and I never thought I would get to this point, let me say it feels amazing which is why I want to help as many victims as I can. I am currently writing a Drama Feature Film about ED's. I cannot share too much info but I would LOVE to hear from everyone who wants to get involved and share their stories. Ed's are so misunderstood & we need to inform the publi

[mambotap3]

Dear MrZzr12 AKA insensitive prick. Although you don't deserve a response to your VERY incorrect comment, anyone who was offended by it does. Unless you have or have had an ED, which obviously you haven't because your theories are completely arrogant, I suggest you keep your opinions to yourself instead of making accusations on this young woman's page who is very brave and helping many people. Having an ED is a mental illness used as a coping mechanism which usually starts unconsciously and it

[MrZzr12]

I feel sorry for you in regards to sexual abuse but people who say they eat for comfort and protection in food is a crock of shit. I have had major health issues in my life and am struggling with my weight but for one reason only that is I eat because food tastes fantastic especially the major three Salt, sugar and the worst of all Fat. So if you have an eating disorder and have to eat then eat salads but we know the real reason you eat is the same as mine so harden up and stop the blame game

[flying0flautist012]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have also been abused (still working through hazy memories) and I have anorexia. I definitely did it to desexualize my body and to feel some sort of control over my own body. I wish you all the best in recovery and healing. You deserve to treat yourself with love and care :)

[ilovemazzystar]

Thank you for sharing, I am my self a victim of this same matter. I have never told anyone, i guess i feel dirty and ashamed. I am now bi sexual I have trouble knowing my own sexual identity. I guess dating a woman makes me feel safe. Thank you again your very beautiful by the way, your courage really inspires me :)

[Floodlezoot]

Although I was never sexually abused, I suffer from depression and alcohol abuse. I wonder what caused it.

[zolumpus]

Sadly it goes on all too much.My quilt forum I belong to,has many who were abused as a child even 50 yrs ago.I was horrified how many chimed in on that thread and today have eating problems even at 60+ yrs later.One even has psychological issues and has a dark spot she calls it.Horrible what goes on behind closed doors,even 50 yrs ago.May god help us,we're a sick society.These guys are doing it still probably,so should be turned in or looked at to see.Bet they have tho.Should be in jail.

[zolumpus]

That's right,I think of poor Jessie Dugard.Philip Dorito was a monster.But like the psychologist told her,Bad things happen to good people,but it doesn't DEFINE who they are.And Jessie herself says,she refuses to give into rage,as he'd win.And she refuses to.She instead has a smile on her face and is helping others and living her life and starting over and intent on being happy.Not looking back,but to her children she so adores,n moving forward looking ahead.Good for you too for doing the same.

[AlyssaGoesToItaly]

You are so honest and beautiful. I hope you find the peace that you seek :)

[MrLandlubba]

You are as correct as you are beautiful. I sincerely hope you find the normality you crave so much. No sarcasm intended, a stunning woman with a stunning story

[spartemiou]

much respect for being able to be so honest about your past. it's not an easy thing to do.

[pointtop123]

You´re awesome! I adore you talking about all that so freely. Hope you´ll be "reconnected" with yourself soon.

[oscaedo]

Hi cristhina thanks for sharing your story, Im totally agree with you Im 37 old man, who was sexually abused by the age of 7 , consequences on me are depression, anxiety disorder ,suicidal thoughts social phobia, and addictions (alcohol and sex ), But why addictions? Because is a copying mechanism that i find to calm pain . Food could be a copying mechanism because diminish this pain too.

the sad part is people still doubt sexual abuse brings devastate consequences in adult  life.

[fastinggurl31]

@oscaedo I saw a abuser interviewed once. He admitted that he knew he had "ruined" the child he abused and knew he would cause her much pain in her adult life...and continued to do it anyway.

[RhiannonGoesRawr]

I can relate to what your saying so much, I was sexually abused as well but by my brother! I have an eating disorder now and I cant stop

[Sunu06]

wow, i can relate so much to what you are saying...i was also sexually abused by my biological father...thank you so much...

you are an inspiration :)

[LovelyLoper]

Thank you so much for your beautiful bravery....you have put the words online that took me 12 years to figure out for myself. I am someone who struggles with food, weight, and surviving sexual abuse by a priest.

[fastinggurl31]

@LovelyLoper My heart goes out you. I am Catholic & can imagine how painful your past must be. Being violated by someone you turst is such a heart wrenching expierience. If you ever need to talk feel free to private mesage me.

[redbutterflynine]

hugs - i went thru similar when i was very young - we need to pray for each other all the time

[fastinggurl31]

@redbutterflynine much love to you!

[laurixtumix]

Hii thanks for sharing.

Take a look at this youtube channel:

Desteni Productions

REALLY COOL AND SUpportive.

[bigfatleech123]

hmm, what's the probability that she got abused by her dad, step dad, and neighbor, all while in her childhood?

[fastinggurl31]

@bigfatleech123 Very high since it happened! THis is not a story you share If I could have had another past

[1UnbreakableAngel]

@bigfatleech123 I think you will find that someone who has been a victim of sexual abuse once, is actually very likely to be a victim of abuse again. They are more vulnerable and easier targets. Its like abusers can sense that you have already been through it, and they use it to their advantage. Its sick, but its true.

[megaflaminheart]

@bigfatleech123 VERY HIGH, since abusers are predatory, the abused injured and easy "prey." Thus, MANY ppl who have been abused (in any way) tend to be abused more than once and are at high risk of entering into abusive relationships, getting with an abusive partner (dating or married). Educate yourself a bit. Open your heart a bit. Most certainly open your eyes, since what she experienced is by far more the norm than a one-time/one-perp abused person.

[fastinggurl31]

@bigfatleech123 DO not question my truth. I took me many many years to be able to share this story w/o having a total break down. It is not Glamorous to share these type of details about ones life. It has not made me popular with my family that's for sure. You will never be able to find one motive for anyone to share a story like this once they are a adult. There is NO payoff.

[JohnnyHorton]

thanks for sharing this with us. i am sure it will help someone. take care and best of luck.

[rgdvm93]

I feel like a piece of meat and thats not how a teen should feel . . .

[fastinggurl31]

@rgdvm93 You are a human being. You are not what happened to you. You are not your past. You can heal from your past trust me.

[oklahomasweetheart27]

OMG! I can not say how horrible this is. I can relate to the feelings that you feel. I have been molested as well. EVERYTHING that you said was sooooo true. You are so strong to even talk about this with the people that YOU do trust, but to post this video on youtube. You are so amazing. I wish you nothing but the best girl. You are so beautiful and my prayer for you is that you see that and most of all BELIEVE it. I really admire you and look up to you. We need more women like you in the world.

[fastinggurl31]

@oklahomasweetheart27 Thank you for your kind comment. Much love! 

[multiversedancer]

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[mydogGuppy]

im very sorry that u were sexually abuse at a very young age i am also sorry for your eating disorder alot of people go threw those time alot of kids r being sexually abused latley im very sorry

[GirlLately]

Thanks - i agree that it doesn't matter how little you are molested, or just once, because if you are betrayed by a close person, you think, how trustworthy can others be ? i've just started a video blog about sexual abuse - I've been able to become whole, unfragmented and to de-program most of the negative beliefs that were deeply anchored in me. Hope you watch it and would love your feedback.

[Jesusismyfriend2006]

I agree. I was abused as well and I have gone through phases of almost starving myself to phases of overeating.

[mojitobanana]

Please can you show me a vid i pictures of you when you were skinny?

[MissNatalyaEstrada]

you are such a inspriaationnnn!

[wavepsychic]

OMG! Where do you live in redneck ville?

[Lizzie0120]

I have had an eating disorder from a young age. I was also sexually molested but by my babysitter's son. Thanks for posting this!

[julieswahn]

You are so beautiful.. take it easy on yourself. I'm with you, gal.

[sweetcandykane1]

I thank you sooo much for being so honest, at the age of 15 a close friend who was like a sister, set me up to get raped by her boyfriends friend. After that I packed on a lot of weight so that no one would desire me as well so I know how you feel.

[RockandRoller918]

I am sorry that you had to suffer from such terrable abuse from people that you trusted.All i see is a beautiful and attractive women.Your a great lady with so much good to give in life!!.

[AutumnGrace10]

I love how directly you approach this subject.

[99lennon]

poor kid........ love from ireland its pissing here

[officesecrets]

fasting slows down ur metabolism and will not help u deal with your eating disorder.

[curlyylox]

That is so awful! I'm sorry that happened to you. You remember things from when you were two? My mother died when I was three and father left a little later and I don't remember either of them at all. I thought it was normal not to remember your toddler years.

[mrsblue82]

been there, done that and won't go back, get your power back girl and live your life like its golden

[dolphinkillerwhale]

Thanks so much for posting this video! Your bravery and honesty will be a blessing to many I'm sure. It was for me! Take care. :0)

[morsesito]

I understand ho wyou feel, i have a similar problem, that i am dealing with now. You are brave and i hope you get over this, you deserve it.

[misstiggykins]

This is an excellent video - thanks for explaining all of this so clearly. I developed severe anorexia nervosa after childhood sexual abuse. I can identify with the feelings you describe. People often associate anorexia with a desire to be 'thin and pretty'. I knew that my thin body was unattractive to men and that felt safe. I starved myself as self punishment.

[browneyedlatinax]

Wow i didn't no this video was that old...lol

I have to completely agree with you!...on being

sexually molested because im 17 yrs old right

now and i was molested at a young age and

i dont trust boiiz at all. i act completely different

when im around a guy or what not . & They think im weird or something. but when im with a girl im normal...

[wannabeserpento99]

all the boys aint retards. go with those who u trully trust. and i dont mean go to bed. do something fun

[pUraVidaNY87]

wow u talk about it like ur so over wat happened so mature .i like that. and y did this happen till 6th grade?

[VickiRDH]

Oh mama... I'm so sorry. You are such a strong woman. Stronger than any of us could dream of being under those circumstances. I bet you help alot of people by doing these videos. I had NO idea! I love you.

[fastinggurl31]

Girlfriend...good thing you saw this AFTER the wedding =)you might not have wanted to deal with my crazy self....JUST kidding Thank you for watching!

[hollystar87]

Wow am so sorry that happened to you but your a wonderful inpiration to so many that have been thou that thank you for sharig that for us it must of been hard to.

[soniche]

dam u are so ugly fattie

[EvasivePerfection]

Although this video is nearly a year old, I still had to make a comment...You are a truly brave & magnificent soul. Your excess weight was/is a defence mechanism, it became your armour, your defense, necessary for your survival. The abuse you sustained is clearly not your fault & from my observations thus far, I see a beautiful, passionate, sincere, well spoken, and very motivating, strong woman! So, Thank you for sharing your story, and Congatualtions on Refusing To Be A Victim!

[fastinggurl31]

Thank you!

[sophiegirl1]

We will be on the phone for HOURS! I might just drive down to visit your ass!

[sophiegirl1]

OMG! Huge difference in your face from this video and your most recent. Love the makeup btw, but your face is definitely thinner. TTYL! I will call you soon! PROMISE!

[buffychick22]

hon guys are assholes. Pigs. I hate them. I know your pain girl. I know it! Everything has changed from what has happend to me.

I lost my childhood and i miss it like crap.

Love you

Paige

[12Project]

I don't see how this addresses anything I said in my video, so I left you a comment on your page.

[Lalachicki]

wow...thanks for the story...you really are a hero

[Iluvcristian]

I think u are exremely self aware and u will heal from this. you go girl, I wish u luck

[echelonkim]

thats right, i was molested and i have a diorder. i cna relate

[alyssatrousdale]

i was molested too...i can relate, alot of ppl with eating disorders have been molested

[jaz0188]

grr it keeps saying 500 words per comment I'll send it to u in a message

[jaz0188]

WE are so much alike I was sexually molested as a child too around 5. It was my mom's best friend's boyfriend when we stayed there for a weekend and then he tried again when I was 8 and I didn't know why at the time but I cried and freaked out and I couldn't even go into their house.

[7rosememories]

Keep being strong! I'd love to see what your daughter looks like,I bet gorgeous just like you! How old is your daughter?

[sophiegirl1]

OMG, you are so strong to be able to deal with this. Thanks for sharing, I know it is hard.

[adorableklutz]

U really do know what ur talking about. I know what ur saying.

[kasiunia21]

:-( I know wat ur talkin bout I have been thru that too but at the age of seven. I wud tell u who it was but I dont wanna put it on here in a lil white box...but I feel you