Contact PTSD

[TheRebelpreacher]

i wake up with the cold center block wall

against my face.there are time i have dreams so bad , i scream aloud. there times i see bright lights flashing to music. there are moments i don'know where i am. when i was young after being release

from hosp.-i disapear a year,no one new where i was, i didn't ethier.I TRY TO REMEMBER WHAT HAPPEN -I have flashbacks. I think the Dealer put the drugs in my food. After I ate I got sick and

don't recall how I got home. I'm 54 ,the ghost hasn't left

[marquisdejolie]

Spooky stuff!!

[TheRebelpreacher]

I was not in Nam, they say i have Post traumatic stress disorder. I was just 13. My father was station in flordia.

This warm summer day change my life and trust of others.I spent 2 years in hosp. Recovering from a drug over dose.That

day in the lunch line -i heard and saw a drug deal go down. I act like I didn't know what was going on. The stuff was white powder in foil-the call it white lighting. I got my lunch and set down away from them. I notice I forgot my silverware.

[TheRebelpreacher]

My friend you will never be the same.I have no childhood memories-(I was told this and that,but who can you belive.) I have no relationship with my family.Both of my parents are still alive.Mom is stll in

deni. I was lead to God and have a wonderful wife.We are both disable,life

blance out for us. Some say our marriage

last.- now we be together 22years.when i get down I lean on and when she get down she lean me.

[Brennna]

Very good.

[marquisdejolie]

Thanks :)

[chevkoch]

Great audio, well done.

[marquisdejolie]

Thanks! Holey moley, you've been on a Marquisdejolie video quest, haven't you!?

[chevkoch]

Hahaha, I had about a four month break and now I'm committed to catching up. With you posting new videos all the time, it feels somewhat like a race :)

[marquisdejolie]

Between shooting, editing, compressing and uploading, each video burns about 4 to 8 hours of my time.... so this is a race I can't win!!

:)

[chevkoch]

Hm, seems like I'm making good progress right now. But you might have more stamina producing in the end, than me visiting YT consistently. :)

[marquisdejolie]

YouTube is my daily burden :)

[fehquig]

I guess it doesn't work if you're not a veteran, eh?

[marquisdejolie]

No, you could get it from driving cabs or meeting one of my sisters, but who would you sue?

[fehquig]

I guess I'd be really SOL if both of them climbed into my cab together one night...

[marquisdejolie]

Hahaha!

[53124box]

Great!

[marquisdejolie]

Thanks! Tell your friends. I'll make more.

:)

[kiashamed]

Hello. This was interesting. Did you fight in a war and what branch of service were you in?

[marquisdejolie]

I'm a Vietnam era veteran, RA (Regular Army, non-drafted).

[colinchloe2229]

I really appreciate your viewpoint. You are able to express your ideas and experiences with thought and intelligence. When will Hollywood be knocking at your Piney Woods door for a chance to film your life story? Keep up the good work!

[marquisdejolie]

Hollywood called once, but when I took a 59-hour train trip to go meet them, they'd moved.

Thanks

:)

[JimmerSD]

Interesting (snaps fingers)

[marquisdejolie]

Thanks

:)

[katalina2007]

Do you have PTSD?

[marquisdejolie]

I have PTLASD: Post Traumatic Los Angeles Stress Disorder. More people shot at and attacked me in L.A. than in all of my military service.

[katalina2007]

Oh yeah--Los Angeles will do that to ya!

[marquisdejolie]

Ahyup, hand to hand combat, small arms fire, recons behind enemy lines: L.A.'s got it all!

[katalina2007]

Not to mention, the freeway shootings :( Dangerous just to be IN a car!

[marquisdejolie]

I drove a heavily Detroit-armored Pontiac Catalina there for 10 years. Came in handy during the riots!

[katalina2007]

Oh yes, I can see where a Pontiac would make a good "urban-assault vehicle"--you need RUGGED when you are in the Jungle known as Los Angeles, CA!

[marquisdejolie]

Ahyup. That 400 cubic inch engine could push my Detroit tank through any ambush!

:)

[katalina2007]

LOL!

[achampag]

neat comp.

you think men come home normal after killing ppl?

[marquisdejolie]

Most do.