Last year i skipped the Easter at my grandma´s for the first time, because i just couldn´t take it anymore- sit quietly and stressed out, when everybody else was having a lively chat. And yes the feeling of regret unfortunately took over. Voice in the back of my head telling, i should´ve gone anyway. It´s like being torn apart between two actions. Still this year i´ll probably skip it too. Don´t want to have even my own birthday anymore. Just bring the gifts and leave me alone!
aw that sucks, I have done things like that before, always reassuring myself, it'll be okay later.. then I suffer the regret. Why don't you call her and explain? Might make you feel better. especially if they know things are hard for you.
I think you are very brave by posting these videos, and you describe your situation very well. You seem to have a good heart and you are a person well worth listening to. Good luck in the future, there is hope, i know that personally :)
As social phobics we don't like ourselves and we feel very bad about ourselves. We are, we do and we have less than we expect to be, to do or to have. We become very negative about ourselves and year after year our negative ideas about ourselves become worse and worse to the point that we feel very bad to show ourselves in front of others because they remind us that we have not been able to be or to achieve. So we avoid people and become isolated full of fear from others.
Last year i skipped the Easter at my grandma´s for the first time, because i just couldn´t take it anymore- sit quietly and stressed out, when everybody else was having a lively chat. And yes the feeling of regret unfortunately took over. Voice in the back of my head telling, i should´ve gone anyway. It´s like being torn apart between two actions. Still this year i´ll probably skip it too. Don´t want to have even my own birthday anymore. Just bring the gifts and leave me alone!
youtuba87 2 years ago
I didnt go to my stepdaughters
birthday party today cause I knew Id be nervous and uncomfortable.
most of all I wish I went,its the regret that lingers...but I hate struggling. So I avoided it as usual...
im so sick of this sh*#
dragonslayered27 3 years ago 2
aw that sucks, I have done things like that before, always reassuring myself, it'll be okay later.. then I suffer the regret. Why don't you call her and explain? Might make you feel better. especially if they know things are hard for you.
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
depression is not forever it is broken up by normality and mania... I am 56 and still kicking
thecrackwalker 3 years ago
Iam 28 , i wonder if i can live to be 40 with all that depression.
huleemoo 3 years ago
I think you are very brave by posting these videos, and you describe your situation very well. You seem to have a good heart and you are a person well worth listening to. Good luck in the future, there is hope, i know that personally :)
ettminusett 4 years ago 4
I have turned a corner and need to share. Thank you for your kind words.
thecrackwalker 4 years ago
I hate myslef. I also have been dianosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder
thecrackwalker 4 years ago
As social phobics we don't like ourselves and we feel very bad about ourselves. We are, we do and we have less than we expect to be, to do or to have. We become very negative about ourselves and year after year our negative ideas about ourselves become worse and worse to the point that we feel very bad to show ourselves in front of others because they remind us that we have not been able to be or to achieve. So we avoid people and become isolated full of fear from others.
edewasseige 4 years ago 3