The Bipolar House

[updownjunkie]

P.S.- Make more videos. This one was very good.

[updownjunkie]

I can really identify with this. I am in a bipolar extreme depressed phase right now and I understand the incredible effort it took you to make this video. I too had a Koi Pond with waterfall and a beautiful garden. All of my fish are dead and the garden has gone wild. The waterfall is as dead as the fish. I wake up and wonder what the hell happened to me?

[blackplastic420]

if i give you my adress will you send me a vaccum?

[daninohio]

really good video. very well done. thanks for posting

[Addydawn]

I identify 110%. The depression is a living suicidal hell with no joy in anything (anhedonia). The hopomanic phase with its expansive, ingenious thoughts are wonderful. The iritable, hostile, rageful manic side is horrific. Oh, I do very much relate to exactly what you are talking about. I found lamictal is phenomenal. No, I am not a drug rep, I am apsych prescriber, who knows lamictal all to well.

[bipolarsurvivorback]

over your marriage. Are you two in counseling of any sort? Your wife's distancing from you could very well be related to your depression and how your OCD has flipped from ordering things to having heaps of clothing and other things messed up around the house. I can understand why she feels so hopeless right now, and how this affects your communications with each other.

[ohnotsowell]

Hey, I got us into marriage counseling years ago, however; everything is on hold until I stabalize.  I am stuggling just getting to my IOP group 4 days per week.

You like my OCD?? What a mess!!

[bipolarsurvivorback]

This was such an insightful video. I learned a lot. Your house is amazing. I'm sorry about the Koi and your dog. You seem to be doing better these days though. I know you can do it. I know how horribly distressing the OCD aspects, especially with depression, can take over your life. I'm really moved by this video.My OCD seems to be much worse when emotionally unstable and perhaps your ordering thing to the point of "hoarding" is a manifestation of both your depression and distress

[ohnotsowell]

Thank you so much Kim(berly)!

You are the sole reason that I am even here, and the inspiration for this video.

I could show you so much more regarding my OCD, my entire life revolves around it.

Thanks for the encouragement, advice, insight, and drive you have given me! You are the reason I am still around!!

[teresasmoon]

I think this must have taken alot of courage to be this vulnerable with us. I know the depression part of our illness way too well, my friend. So too have done this video was a tremendous feat. What people may not realize is that you have a spouse to help you clean, or it would have been soo much worst...am I right? Thank you for this.

[ohnotsowell]

Hey Teresasmoon,

My wife does help with the cleaning matters, but she is out of her element. I hope to stabalize so I can help things along. It sucks not being able to take care of yourself, let alone your household!

Thanks Again!

[Pat12H34]

I applaud you so much! I can tell you were nervous and very down. This is a very positive step for not only but to smash that stigma. I'll look for your hypo vidoe when it's posted, an amazing difference between the 2 poles huh? I wish I had one of me when I was really hypo, it is always hard for me to believe I was talking and acting the way people tell me...*LOL* Pat

[ohnotsowell]

Thanks so much Pat for the encouragement, this was pretty nerve racking!!

I am getting closer to BP House 2, will email you when it's done!!

Thanks

[Lex7984]

I give you a lot of credit to post this. It must have been very nerve-raking to do that. I'm sure it will get easier the next time you do it. Don't worry about it. And if someone does say something negative, f*ck them.

[ohnotsowell]

Hey Lex,

Thanks for the positive reply, I was feeling pretty down that day and this video made me even more depressed. You picked me up just a little!

Thanks

[ohnotsowell]

It sucked, full of negativity and depression, I will make another when I am hypo,

Thanks for the positive response Bestrong

[ohnotsowell]

You all need to realize that this was my "ice breaker" video and is in no way indicative of my true personallity. I was very nervous and, quite frankly, scared to death.

I can now speak more freely after getting this one out of the way.

[Bestrong4]

Great video