Your barely clinging, I can tell. But your still clinging & thats all that matters. We're all clinging. And like you said you're not alone. You have a lot of support here... even if its just through a computer screen. I feel your pain. I've absorbed it. Its pretty intense. But talking about it... will help it get better. Let it out. I admire you so much for your ability to be yourself in the moment and not let pretense keep you from expressing what you really feel. You've got this.
i'm going through an extremely rough time as well, but i know things will turn around, even though everything fucking sucks right now. well, not everything, but some things. i'm very sorry for your losses. thank you for the videos you put up and for being so encouraging <3333 keep hangin in there ok *sending lots of hugs your way
Your second video is very sad. Sometimes you need to get some help, because it sounds like you're depressed. That's a medical condition and if it affects you (even when you may also have reasons to be down) sometimes you need a doctor's help to get out of it. You have way too much good to do, and good life to enjoy, to let things drive you down. For one thing get out of New Jersey ;-) Seriously though, take care of yourself and know there are others who understand and wish you well.
- Put them God damn repulsive cigarettes down and stop smokin that shit.
- If you're drinking then stop that too.
-Sounds like you're severely depressed. Yes, you have a lot of reasons to be depressed but you may also need mental help and maybe medication. Have you tried this before? I know it can be tough or impossible to find qualified help but maybe it's something you need (?).
-Moving South doesn't sound helpful... maybe just a temporary escape from things. Good luck with everything.
You're a great guy, just follow your own advice and you'll pull through. You have your health, you're a hot looking guy, you have a skill/trade. If you only knew what other people go through, you'd realize what a lucky person you are. Just by your posts you've already helped others, the world needs you.
Hey buddy, busy working.. I'm missing our chats,. Sorry I haven't texted you, I've been keeping odd hours, sleeping only when the sun come up after 4am then getting at most 3-4 hours. Hope you're well and not busting ur arse too much. I hope you had a chat to your friend and know where you're standing. HAve you thoguht about the trip? I meant it, I have used the possible idea of it to get my own butt into gear and started selling my tools. Either way take care JT, write me back EMAIL Plz.:)
I used to be a skinhead then my house burned down and I got run over by an oil truck. When I was in the hospital (for three months) I started to fall in love with my doctor who was another guy. I never had a gay thought in my life prior to this . I got out of the hospital and went to live at his house. We're together now three years. His x-wife is having my child and she has one with him so our kids will be blood brothers. She's gay too. Life can be so bad and then get so good.
Broken hearts mend in their own time, but it never seems soon enough. Keep moving forward as best you can, even if it feels like baby steps. And you are so right to never give up hope.
hey dude - your last video was a year ago? Fuck!, and you're still sat around focusing on all you lost. Man, get out the house, quit living in a small town where all the narrow mindedness is. Get a place nearer the city where other guys move to when they come out. Make new friends and go out and recreate your life. You're a sexy-ass dude. There's loads of hot guys nearer the cities that will be interested in a fit guy like you. Another 1 of these videos in a year will be very uncool.
Life has a fantastic way of making you feel shitty at different points of your life. 2011 has been the worst year for me: Moved, divorced my husband, lost everything, no job....
But I have to believe it gets better because it just has to. Life cannot be that awful...right?
I'm sorry for everything you are going through. I wish that I could make it better for you. But you're right...no one is alone. Every place in this world things are happening to people that make them miserable..
You are not alone. Do cheer up, I know things may be bad but positive thoughts does wonders. You are a good looking guy with a good heart who is going through a rough patch. Keep YOUR chin up and have hope man. If you ever find yourself visiting the upstate of SC hit me up I can be a tour guide for free lol
Hang in there, man! All this bad sh*t... just makes the sweet stuff even sweeter. Maryland isn't too far away from Jersey (in case you need to get back home) and we have one of the lowest rates of unemployment. Come on down!
Man, you need to CHEER UP!! It's ok to be depressed, but you need to focus on things that could change that situation. If you can succeed at being happy with yourself, on your own, everything else will come easy. Start with little things. Try to meet new people, not necessarely looking for a partner. Sometimes we need a change. Maybe your mother could come in the south with you, that could make her feel better too.
This is an incredible video. It's the first time I've felt so easily connected with those emotions. It's so inspiring that even though you feel you have nothing left, you know it will get better and you have it so deep in your head that it will. Its something I can only wish I can do if I'm ever in that position. It really is the most inspiring thing I've witnessed. This video could not have come at a better time. Thank you so much for that.
Wish I was there to give you a big hug! Sometimes, all of us gotta fake it till we make it, but if we hold on to the fact that we are worthwhile people going through a bad time not bad people getting what we deserve, then it really does get better! Take good care of yourself...
Hey budd, you got me worried after your last msg, I hope you are doing ok, If you're no up for a chat, thats cool. Just send us a quick msg so I know you're still there, please, cos I"m concerned.
Hey, Been there, done that and you gotta expect to feel bad, in fact, you probably feel like your stomach is being yanked out through your mouth..But believe me, my friend..It just takes time...Even if you have to slow up and just concentrate on putting one foot in front of the other each day, you MUST not stop going on! Don't give up...realize that it is gonna hurt real bad for now, and that it WILL get better...Something bad aften opens the door for something better....Hugs Mantrue48@aol.com
@Mantrue48 Maybe you should think about renting a room out in someones house if you think you're gonna have to give up your place...Damn, man, and DON'T feel like a failure...there's more people than ever out there going thru the same financial thing. It is no shame in this economy...I moved from South Jersey (Atlantic City area) 15 years ago after my 'big breakup'...and I made the mistake of carrying a grudge for years...I will tell you NOT to do that...Just forgive and try to forget...
@Mantrue48 I subscribed to you when I first saw your video where you confessed to once being a bully...I thought it took a big man to go public with that...You got a lot of good in you....and you're way too good to let things get the best of you to the extent where it will immobilize you or make you feel less than what you really are inside...Don't go doing anything crazy (which sometimes is tempting when this happens)...Just be the man you are and hang in for time to heal..People are with ya!!
PS. your idea of moving south WILL get you away from the situation...I did it...But I have to tell you that the economy ain't so great here either...(but the warmth and sun helps with depression) ... Take care, buddy..Be good to yourself and take good care of yourself...NEVER give up...I feel ya...take baby steps for awhile...
you'll be in my prayers..(I know how it feels)...and it WILL GET BETTER....Ray J, Central Florida
Make another vid when you're able and let us who care about you know how you're doing.
costernocht 1 week ago
I know this all to well. I hope you find strenght for youself. Thank you for making this video.
GnosticAtheist 2 weeks ago
Your barely clinging, I can tell. But your still clinging & thats all that matters. We're all clinging. And like you said you're not alone. You have a lot of support here... even if its just through a computer screen. I feel your pain. I've absorbed it. Its pretty intense. But talking about it... will help it get better. Let it out. I admire you so much for your ability to be yourself in the moment and not let pretense keep you from expressing what you really feel. You've got this.
plankboi 3 weeks ago
i'm going through an extremely rough time as well, but i know things will turn around, even though everything fucking sucks right now. well, not everything, but some things. i'm very sorry for your losses. thank you for the videos you put up and for being so encouraging <3333 keep hangin in there ok *sending lots of hugs your way
likewoalol 3 weeks ago
Your second video is very sad. Sometimes you need to get some help, because it sounds like you're depressed. That's a medical condition and if it affects you (even when you may also have reasons to be down) sometimes you need a doctor's help to get out of it. You have way too much good to do, and good life to enjoy, to let things drive you down. For one thing get out of New Jersey ;-) Seriously though, take care of yourself and know there are others who understand and wish you well.
StigmochelysPardalis 1 month ago
I've been there. I just want to give you a big hug.
Happy new year!
rockubabe 1 month ago
- Put them God damn repulsive cigarettes down and stop smokin that shit.
- If you're drinking then stop that too.
-Sounds like you're severely depressed. Yes, you have a lot of reasons to be depressed but you may also need mental help and maybe medication. Have you tried this before? I know it can be tough or impossible to find qualified help but maybe it's something you need (?).
-Moving South doesn't sound helpful... maybe just a temporary escape from things. Good luck with everything.
brama1969 2 months ago
You're a great guy, just follow your own advice and you'll pull through. You have your health, you're a hot looking guy, you have a skill/trade. If you only knew what other people go through, you'd realize what a lucky person you are. Just by your posts you've already helped others, the world needs you.
TheRamrod100 2 months ago in playlist More videos from guyzack327
Hang in there. 4 years no work for me. But things are hopefully turning around. Love yourself... Someone will come along and appreciate you for that!
wildeman2222 2 months ago
You are awesome .....hang in there buddy...stay strong....a huge fan in Los Angeles....for some reason you inspire me ...Thank You for being You...
WilliamShoMerFilms 2 months ago in playlist More videos from guyzack327
Hey buddy, busy working.. I'm missing our chats,. Sorry I haven't texted you, I've been keeping odd hours, sleeping only when the sun come up after 4am then getting at most 3-4 hours. Hope you're well and not busting ur arse too much. I hope you had a chat to your friend and know where you're standing. HAve you thoguht about the trip? I meant it, I have used the possible idea of it to get my own butt into gear and started selling my tools. Either way take care JT, write me back EMAIL Plz.:)
Stormieboi 2 months ago
I used to be a skinhead then my house burned down and I got run over by an oil truck. When I was in the hospital (for three months) I started to fall in love with my doctor who was another guy. I never had a gay thought in my life prior to this . I got out of the hospital and went to live at his house. We're together now three years. His x-wife is having my child and she has one with him so our kids will be blood brothers. She's gay too. Life can be so bad and then get so good.
OxenHandler 2 months ago in playlist More videos from guyzack327 4
@OxenHandler wow!
thrashdouche21 2 months ago
Good luck. You're not alone.
GaryInMilwaukee 2 months ago
Broken hearts mend in their own time, but it never seems soon enough. Keep moving forward as best you can, even if it feels like baby steps. And you are so right to never give up hope.
SnooksHiggins 3 months ago
hey dude - your last video was a year ago? Fuck!, and you're still sat around focusing on all you lost. Man, get out the house, quit living in a small town where all the narrow mindedness is. Get a place nearer the city where other guys move to when they come out. Make new friends and go out and recreate your life. You're a sexy-ass dude. There's loads of hot guys nearer the cities that will be interested in a fit guy like you. Another 1 of these videos in a year will be very uncool.
noelnollyd2 3 months ago
Life has a fantastic way of making you feel shitty at different points of your life. 2011 has been the worst year for me: Moved, divorced my husband, lost everything, no job....
But I have to believe it gets better because it just has to. Life cannot be that awful...right?
I'm sorry for everything you are going through. I wish that I could make it better for you. But you're right...no one is alone. Every place in this world things are happening to people that make them miserable..
iamglory 3 months ago
You are not alone. Do cheer up, I know things may be bad but positive thoughts does wonders. You are a good looking guy with a good heart who is going through a rough patch. Keep YOUR chin up and have hope man. If you ever find yourself visiting the upstate of SC hit me up I can be a tour guide for free lol
nemesis2525 3 months ago in playlist More videos from guyzack327
Hang in there, man! All this bad sh*t... just makes the sweet stuff even sweeter. Maryland isn't too far away from Jersey (in case you need to get back home) and we have one of the lowest rates of unemployment. Come on down!
wolfman2228 3 months ago
Man, you need to CHEER UP!! It's ok to be depressed, but you need to focus on things that could change that situation. If you can succeed at being happy with yourself, on your own, everything else will come easy. Start with little things. Try to meet new people, not necessarely looking for a partner. Sometimes we need a change. Maybe your mother could come in the south with you, that could make her feel better too.
Neurozumim 3 months ago
You've said it so well: "Hold on to the hope" !
dali2194 3 months ago
This is an incredible video. It's the first time I've felt so easily connected with those emotions. It's so inspiring that even though you feel you have nothing left, you know it will get better and you have it so deep in your head that it will. Its something I can only wish I can do if I'm ever in that position. It really is the most inspiring thing I've witnessed. This video could not have come at a better time. Thank you so much for that.
TheTopixx 3 months ago in playlist More videos from guyzack327 7
Wish I was there to give you a big hug! Sometimes, all of us gotta fake it till we make it, but if we hold on to the fact that we are worthwhile people going through a bad time not bad people getting what we deserve, then it really does get better! Take good care of yourself...
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caviecub 4 months ago
Hey budd, you got me worried after your last msg, I hope you are doing ok, If you're no up for a chat, thats cool. Just send us a quick msg so I know you're still there, please, cos I"m concerned.
Stormieboi 4 months ago
Know how you feel at the minute..was there myself a while back but now life is brighter..stay strong xx
robertgtaylor 4 months ago
The world will always be against you, but if it wasn't, what would it be worth if everything was given to you? Stay strong man.
5hape5ter 4 months ago
Hey, Been there, done that and you gotta expect to feel bad, in fact, you probably feel like your stomach is being yanked out through your mouth..But believe me, my friend..It just takes time...Even if you have to slow up and just concentrate on putting one foot in front of the other each day, you MUST not stop going on! Don't give up...realize that it is gonna hurt real bad for now, and that it WILL get better...Something bad aften opens the door for something better....Hugs Mantrue48@aol.com
Mantrue48 4 months ago
@Mantrue48 Maybe you should think about renting a room out in someones house if you think you're gonna have to give up your place...Damn, man, and DON'T feel like a failure...there's more people than ever out there going thru the same financial thing. It is no shame in this economy...I moved from South Jersey (Atlantic City area) 15 years ago after my 'big breakup'...and I made the mistake of carrying a grudge for years...I will tell you NOT to do that...Just forgive and try to forget...
Mantrue48 4 months ago
@Mantrue48 I subscribed to you when I first saw your video where you confessed to once being a bully...I thought it took a big man to go public with that...You got a lot of good in you....and you're way too good to let things get the best of you to the extent where it will immobilize you or make you feel less than what you really are inside...Don't go doing anything crazy (which sometimes is tempting when this happens)...Just be the man you are and hang in for time to heal..People are with ya!!
Mantrue48 4 months ago
PS. your idea of moving south WILL get you away from the situation...I did it...But I have to tell you that the economy ain't so great here either...(but the warmth and sun helps with depression) ... Take care, buddy..Be good to yourself and take good care of yourself...NEVER give up...I feel ya...take baby steps for awhile...
you'll be in my prayers..(I know how it feels)...and it WILL GET BETTER....Ray J, Central Florida
Mantrue48 4 months ago