im deppred and have been but i hide and people cant tell i just pick my dself up in every situation im on for some reason some people look up to idk why im an ass clown a fuckin loser with a retarded friend 3 gangs want me dead haha i cant keep a girl for more than 3 weeks but i just pick my self up and get through one way or another
i kno exacly how u feel u shuld see my wrist i hide everything i act happ in my vids but im not at all i wish i could end it eveyday of mylife......i loved him so mutch and he broke my heart its been 6 years sence we broke up and im still crying for him i just want to end it all
ive lost 33 people in my life that were extremely close to me friends and family. when we layed my cousin to rest on my birthday when i was 16 i didnt shed a tear because my heart was so cold by that time. i can feel it all coming back now 6 yrs later and im an alcoholic i find it hard not to cry when i just think about it. i want it all to be over, but i want help to not think that way at the same time. its so hard some times
I know how you feel. The feeling of constantly hiding from the ones you love. feeling alone because no one knows and then feeling guilty because there are some people out there that love you. My father left me before I was born and my step dad abused me. it went on for 12 years before my mom finally ended it. I just wear a mask and hide the fact that I'm dying inside. Every cut kills me a little more but it's the only reason why I'm alive. Hope that makes sense. i've reached over 300 cuts :(
When churchhill said "if your going through hell keep goin" i don't think he meant for that to apply too a hell that never ends....and that savior that you are talking about derickb2? were is it....i have yet to see one...
have been in the arms of an angel and lost her and got her back and lost her again nver give up on true love always fight for waht u want and no matter what anyone says keep ur own heart and mind and never let anyone break u always trust in who u r and what u belive in
i have seen hell i have seen people fall down and start dieing but i have helped them and picked them up and carryed them past and out of hell but i still stay thier so that one day i can be saved also not doing the saving but i have seen people go into hell and come into somthing worse
this brought hope to people during world war 2 when they was in pain and mourning and i think it may apply to any of you, no matter what keep your self alive and stay strong for your own sakes,
iv bin there before cutting and attempting sucide over a bad part in my life, those days have past now and i promise for every dark night theres a brighter day, i have thoughts bt ther only in my head and no actions i havn't done anything in 3years and im happy, thismay sound like its a tale but i'll tell all u people that your gunna get on well in life your stronger then most ffort just simply living with your pain, keep your head up, you have a purpose and your deserve happyness
You can't just give up. There are people out there willing to help you, wanting to help you. But you can't just expect them to show up one day. You have to look for those people and believe they're out there waiting for you.
I know because I was one of those people for my friend. She was a cutter for several years before she met me and had tried to commit suicide on multiple occasions. She tells me on a regular basis that, because of me, she's alive and well today.
I'm a cutter since 4 years but nobody cares they all just pretend to be happy because nobody's allowed to know how you really feel. But I want to end up in suicide because one day I wanna listen to all the people nobody wants to listen to!
if any of you want to talk about any problems messege me ill listen.. if u believe i wont.. i ask that you trust me and i will i have always felt the need to help people my whole life and when i hear that people are hurting it saddens me all should know happiness.. so if you want to talk messege me i promise i will listen to all who write
STOP HARMING YOURSELF ARE YOU INSANE?? this is no way to deal with your problems, you are being unthankfull to gods gift of life and your body. Thank god for every day you live no matter how miserably it is be thankfull you have the previlege to exsist. Non exsistance is a fate worse than hell be glad you have life, Make the best out of it. If you have pain or problems seek help dont hurt yourself!
no i am not insane, why should i be thankful for what i have gone through. I told my mom about it and that i need help and she told me that i am just an emotional teenager and refuses to get me help
I have never cut myself to harm myself on purpose but I do sometimes have thoughts that I would go and get a sharp knife and cut my throat and put a machine gun or just a regular gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. I haven´t told anyone that I know IRL that I have these thoughts. I don´t really have big reason to have these thoughts. Sometimes I am almost happy or even happy and at some moments I get the suicide thoughts. Don´t write about this on my channel.
that is something that you NEVER want to do god gave us this life because he knew we were strong enough to handle it even not knowing you i seem to care and this is not normal but it just breaks my heart about all this self harm because god would say "why are you doing this cant you see i put you here for a reason and that reason was to help each other" that is what i think he would say but please never go through with this that you are thinking of it is all lies and fake you just need to trust
@Alli930 You say "he", and "it is all fake" and "you just need to trust".... Don't you know that religion is one of the most frequent causes of abuse, denial, personality disorders, shame, guilt and... I could go on and on. Telling a person in pain not to be in pain or act out on that pain because of "god" this, or "god" that is absurd! Secrets were born out of the womb of religion...don't you know that?? Secrets started the sicknesses generations ago, we are now dealing with its manifestations.
you have made some truley beautiful slideshows. i started self harming for the same reasons you did. my story is pretty depressing but i want to tell someone who would get it. are you willing to talk to me about our self harm and pain and the guys? if not that's ok i just want to talk to someone about it.
you and I have a lot in common, both sad and feeling unwanted. If you weren't a Twilight fan I think we could've been good to talk to each other. Though the tears I cry, though the cuts I make; I will never find the one that makes me happy; never find my angel... god is a false... religion is a false... but I like the slideshow.
im 18 a have depression! i cover up n hide away dont want ne1 to c the real me! ive often thought about suicide but in the long run think of who were leaving behind n causeing to have the same pain as we do!!
i no hw u feel , im alwaiis hidin alwaiis scard coz i dont know wen im guna get crshed again next , wts a point in this life if u have no belonging in it ? sorry if peple fink im perfectic about this but its not easy for people like me , peple lyk us , peple hu go thru hell evryday try 2 find one wai out n there seemingly is only one option , self harming helps me sometimes , yeh fnk im stupid for sayin tht , people say suicide is a permanent solution 2 a tempory probelm , but wt if its prmanent
OMG this video just touches the heart. I can completely relate and understand. I love it. I always wear a mask, a suit, everyday, a smile, so no one knows how I feel. Only the people that choose to tell. I wish I didn't have to do that. I wish I wasn't here to have to.
use to still do sometimes i cover them up by wearing my arm warmers but people can still see my scars i used to only wear sweatshirts but it was summer and my mom got suspicious
@xhibuddypoox i have the same thoughts about a year ago....and trust me its no worth it....please meg me back...i would love to talk to u..and i promis i will never leave!
I can relate to your video. It's very emotional and fragile, but I'm sure one day you'll find happiness, it can take time I know because I haven't found it yet either... Please message me or something, if you ever want to talk or just chat:) Looking forward to hear from you
i feel angry,sad,insecure,worthless when im around those who i know love me. when im at home, alone in my room...is when i feel safe, happy, and finally feel gravity take hold as im pulled back to reality. is this how you feel? i thought i was the only one
im very sorry that you have to live that way. i always thought if some one could feel my pain, that they couldnt survive. you and me are living proof. but hey, we look alive to others...but they are only seeing our outer shells. no one will truly know whats underneath our masks.
you will someday find love again, just need some time for you to heal. i understand the way you feel because i was once there. i truly hope you find something that will put a smile on your face, again! take care :)
hey beautiful,
although i'm a total hypocrite, i need you to know i value your life, please don't loose it
charlottedragonpetal 3 months ago
im deppred and have been but i hide and people cant tell i just pick my dself up in every situation im on for some reason some people look up to idk why im an ass clown a fuckin loser with a retarded friend 3 gangs want me dead haha i cant keep a girl for more than 3 weeks but i just pick my self up and get through one way or another
jumpman424 1 year ago
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Naww i feel yur pain!!
wudnt mind taking my life right now!!! really wanna die and go away from here =[
but my heart goes out to all that are hurting! hope yur pain goes away
lexxibabbi 1 year ago
Naww i feel yur pain!!
wudnt mind taking my life right now!!! really wanna die and go away from here =[
but my heart goes out to all that are hurting! hope yur pain goes away
lexxibabbi 1 year ago
i kno exacly how u feel u shuld see my wrist i hide everything i act happ in my vids but im not at all i wish i could end it eveyday of mylife......i loved him so mutch and he broke my heart its been 6 years sence we broke up and im still crying for him i just want to end it all
breyerrosenthal033 1 year ago
Life will always get better just remember that, you think noone is listening to you but as you see we are. Live your life to the fullest.
lolribrktt8 1 year ago
thats sad
brookespaige40 1 year ago
It's the same trough my eyes.
bluh654 1 year ago
ive lost 33 people in my life that were extremely close to me friends and family. when we layed my cousin to rest on my birthday when i was 16 i didnt shed a tear because my heart was so cold by that time. i can feel it all coming back now 6 yrs later and im an alcoholic i find it hard not to cry when i just think about it. i want it all to be over, but i want help to not think that way at the same time. its so hard some times
C00chieSmash 1 year ago
I know how you feel. The feeling of constantly hiding from the ones you love. feeling alone because no one knows and then feeling guilty because there are some people out there that love you. My father left me before I was born and my step dad abused me. it went on for 12 years before my mom finally ended it. I just wear a mask and hide the fact that I'm dying inside. Every cut kills me a little more but it's the only reason why I'm alive. Hope that makes sense. i've reached over 300 cuts :(
shanmannon 1 year ago
When churchhill said "if your going through hell keep goin" i don't think he meant for that to apply too a hell that never ends....and that savior that you are talking about derickb2? were is it....i have yet to see one...
NYWTBW 1 year ago
have been in the arms of an angel and lost her and got her back and lost her again nver give up on true love always fight for waht u want and no matter what anyone says keep ur own heart and mind and never let anyone break u always trust in who u r and what u belive in
princeofair999 2 years ago
i have seen hell i have seen people fall down and start dieing but i have helped them and picked them up and carryed them past and out of hell but i still stay thier so that one day i can be saved also not doing the saving but i have seen people go into hell and come into somthing worse
derickb2 2 years ago
winston churchill quotes
"we shall never give up"
or
"if your going through hell keep goin"
this brought hope to people during world war 2 when they was in pain and mourning and i think it may apply to any of you, no matter what keep your self alive and stay strong for your own sakes,
nelton1991 2 years ago
iv bin there before cutting and attempting sucide over a bad part in my life, those days have past now and i promise for every dark night theres a brighter day, i have thoughts bt ther only in my head and no actions i havn't done anything in 3years and im happy, thismay sound like its a tale but i'll tell all u people that your gunna get on well in life your stronger then most ffort just simply living with your pain, keep your head up, you have a purpose and your deserve happyness
nelton1991 2 years ago
You can't just give up. There are people out there willing to help you, wanting to help you. But you can't just expect them to show up one day. You have to look for those people and believe they're out there waiting for you.
I know because I was one of those people for my friend. She was a cutter for several years before she met me and had tried to commit suicide on multiple occasions. She tells me on a regular basis that, because of me, she's alive and well today.
SandKyuubi 2 years ago
I'm a cutter since 4 years but nobody cares they all just pretend to be happy because nobody's allowed to know how you really feel. But I want to end up in suicide because one day I wanna listen to all the people nobody wants to listen to!
blond93winnieh 2 years ago
if any of you want to talk about any problems messege me ill listen.. if u believe i wont.. i ask that you trust me and i will i have always felt the need to help people my whole life and when i hear that people are hurting it saddens me all should know happiness.. so if you want to talk messege me i promise i will listen to all who write
TheTallestirish 2 years ago
i have been cutting myself since i was 8.... no one cares.... my mom wont get me help.... i cry so much!'
i'm pretty sure my life will end in suicide!!
IZZYnVK 2 years ago
I cut myself since seven years, what should i say? :(
omju9 2 years ago
I like this video, good job making it
MichelleMoody15 2 years ago
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Alli930 2 years ago
i do it on my hips, as long as you dont wear a string bikini no one will see it <3
blondechic69 2 years ago
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Alli930 2 years ago
STOP HARMING YOURSELF ARE YOU INSANE?? this is no way to deal with your problems, you are being unthankfull to gods gift of life and your body. Thank god for every day you live no matter how miserably it is be thankfull you have the previlege to exsist. Non exsistance is a fate worse than hell be glad you have life, Make the best out of it. If you have pain or problems seek help dont hurt yourself!
M19A91S 2 years ago
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Alli930 2 years ago
no i am not insane, why should i be thankful for what i have gone through. I told my mom about it and that i need help and she told me that i am just an emotional teenager and refuses to get me help
blondechic69 2 years ago 2
I have never cut myself to harm myself on purpose but I do sometimes have thoughts that I would go and get a sharp knife and cut my throat and put a machine gun or just a regular gun in my mouth and pull the trigger. I haven´t told anyone that I know IRL that I have these thoughts. I don´t really have big reason to have these thoughts. Sometimes I am almost happy or even happy and at some moments I get the suicide thoughts. Don´t write about this on my channel.
83Mysterio 2 years ago
that is something that you NEVER want to do god gave us this life because he knew we were strong enough to handle it even not knowing you i seem to care and this is not normal but it just breaks my heart about all this self harm because god would say "why are you doing this cant you see i put you here for a reason and that reason was to help each other" that is what i think he would say but please never go through with this that you are thinking of it is all lies and fake you just need to trust
Alli930 2 years ago 4
in god
Alli930 2 years ago
@Alli930 You say "he", and "it is all fake" and "you just need to trust".... Don't you know that religion is one of the most frequent causes of abuse, denial, personality disorders, shame, guilt and... I could go on and on. Telling a person in pain not to be in pain or act out on that pain because of "god" this, or "god" that is absurd! Secrets were born out of the womb of religion...don't you know that?? Secrets started the sicknesses generations ago, we are now dealing with its manifestations.
mafdetcat 1 year ago
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mafdetcat 1 year ago
@mafdetcat I removed it cause it posted twice, sorry.
mafdetcat 1 year ago
wooooow <3
tiff6t9 2 years ago
i like being depressed. i dont know what will i turn into without being depressed
idunnosia 2 years ago 6
1. Put your hand over your mouth
2. Make a wish into your hand
3. Pull your hand away and put it over your heart for 5 seconds
4. Put this on a comment for 3 more videos
5. If you do you will have the best day of your life tomorrow
igaya121 2 years ago
you have made some truley beautiful slideshows. i started self harming for the same reasons you did. my story is pretty depressing but i want to tell someone who would get it. are you willing to talk to me about our self harm and pain and the guys? if not that's ok i just want to talk to someone about it.
MidnightTears89 2 years ago
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Alli930 2 years ago
you and I have a lot in common, both sad and feeling unwanted. If you weren't a Twilight fan I think we could've been good to talk to each other. Though the tears I cry, though the cuts I make; I will never find the one that makes me happy; never find my angel... god is a false... religion is a false... but I like the slideshow.
Doomed2Darkness 2 years ago
im 18 a have depression! i cover up n hide away dont want ne1 to c the real me! ive often thought about suicide but in the long run think of who were leaving behind n causeing to have the same pain as we do!!
mandyloswifey 2 years ago 3
THIS SONG IS MY DADDYS SONG! he died when i was 9 from suiced! it still hurts the pain ! i cant bare it!
KITTY94CUTSY 3 years ago 2
i know what your going through my dad also died when i was nine and it was from suiced and it was my fault
courtney23xx 3 years ago
it wasnt ur fault most likly it wasnt so dont blame ur self in less u know 4 sure it was but most likely it wasnt k? :)
xxsaulalover4everxx 2 years ago
i no hw u feel , im alwaiis hidin alwaiis scard coz i dont know wen im guna get crshed again next , wts a point in this life if u have no belonging in it ? sorry if peple fink im perfectic about this but its not easy for people like me , peple lyk us , peple hu go thru hell evryday try 2 find one wai out n there seemingly is only one option , self harming helps me sometimes , yeh fnk im stupid for sayin tht , people say suicide is a permanent solution 2 a tempory probelm , but wt if its prmanent
xChaoticTragediesx 3 years ago
What a gorgeous song.
To BaileyR93: Its so sad to see such a young person in emotional pain. Are you getting help for this?
powerkitemad 3 years ago
OMG this video just touches the heart. I can completely relate and understand. I love it. I always wear a mask, a suit, everyday, a smile, so no one knows how I feel. Only the people that choose to tell. I wish I didn't have to do that. I wish I wasn't here to have to.
urlilapes 3 years ago
i know :[ do you cut? and if so... how do you cover it up? :[
xhibuddypoox 3 years ago
use to still do sometimes i cover them up by wearing my arm warmers but people can still see my scars i used to only wear sweatshirts but it was summer and my mom got suspicious
baileyR93 3 years ago
@baileyR93 i wear sweat shirts...... if it's really hot i wear a bunch of braclets to cover them all.
SadieRox1020 1 year ago
i hate living. :[ i wish i would get the fucking guts and just end it. im sick of crying. infact, its almost hard to cry now.
everyone whom i have ever loved, has left me and moved on to someone else. :[ ugh. wow, listen to ramble on about worthless shit.
xhibuddypoox 3 years ago 10
i know how u feel thats the same my life is i don't cry anymore it doesn't help
baileyR93 3 years ago 2
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no, it doesn't at all. just makes you more pathetic. :/
xhibuddypoox 3 years ago
@xhibuddypoox dont give up i know its hard but life may turn around and when u die u will never find out
thebigvas 1 year ago
@xhibuddypoox i have the same thoughts about a year ago....and trust me its no worth it....please meg me back...i would love to talk to u..and i promis i will never leave!
k87260 11 months ago
where did u get all the pics ? i want every thing plz
jerwin100 3 years ago
from photobucket and google
baileyR93 3 years ago
i no how u feel my friend i also wish u peace and happyness 4 all of us who cant feel it i hope u can
emohearts1002 3 years ago
ah hun, im sending you an air hug and thoughts of peace.
adenalilly 3 years ago
thanks
baileyR93 3 years ago
I can relate to your video. It's very emotional and fragile, but I'm sure one day you'll find happiness, it can take time I know because I haven't found it yet either... Please message me or something, if you ever want to talk or just chat:) Looking forward to hear from you
bigworldlittlegirl 3 years ago
the thing is im happy but its only with my friends any other time im sad but im starting to be happy at home
baileyR93 3 years ago
i feel angry,sad,insecure,worthless when im around those who i know love me. when im at home, alone in my room...is when i feel safe, happy, and finally feel gravity take hold as im pulled back to reality. is this how you feel? i thought i was the only one
leiaXsky 3 years ago
ya i feel like that alot lately i feel like that almost everyday
baileyR93 3 years ago
im very sorry that you have to live that way. i always thought if some one could feel my pain, that they couldnt survive. you and me are living proof. but hey, we look alive to others...but they are only seeing our outer shells. no one will truly know whats underneath our masks.
leiaXsky 3 years ago
you will someday find love again, just need some time for you to heal. i understand the way you feel because i was once there. i truly hope you find something that will put a smile on your face, again! take care :)
dysfunkionalsixx 4 years ago