once when really anorexic i went outside..hadnt been outside for months,,went over by some trees and sat,,there was three teen mexican guys showed up,,when i got up to walk away one yelled out that i didnt have an ass...i was devastated and though ..i turned around and flipped him off,,,and realized i needed to stand up for myself and also work on myself..that i would have to earn threw hard work to have a body again..
love the ending,,i had anorexia for 20 yrs looked like a stick...i started to heal myself with forcing myself to eat even when not hungry and using protein powder,,,told myself i loved myself everytime i ate..i knew i had to love myself..there was no one..i was from a alcoholic broken family that was poor there was no help from them..im normal weight today there is a way to healing...thanks for ya video dear
you look alot better when you dont see you bones. i want to lose weight thats because im 20pounds over weight. but i dont care what my weight is as long as i look and feel pretty.
I have a family member who is anorexic. She is very controlling, manipulative and verbally abusive. This person is not a teenager or 20 something but an adult. She is quick to call someone fat, and brag that she wears size double zero. At 5'3 and 80 lbs she thinks she looks ok. To anyone who has this disorder, I say take the help others offer, because their patience will run out as will their compassion.
@McDago100 I hope you realize that they are calling others names and being mean is a cry for help. They are doing that because they hate themselves, not you. I know it hurts you but know it is not about you, but them. They are calling you every word they feel about themself every minute of every day. ED's are an addiction and not many fully recover but it can be done with help and family support. I know it is hard on you but please do not give up on them. They need U so much!
@McDago100 I am a bulimic. I am in my late 40's and I no longer purge but I know both sides of this. What I put my family thru and put myself thru. I hated myself for what I did to them but I could not stop it. Finally I began to learn to love myself and find out why I started binging and purging. It took a long time but I did persevere, I got my life and my family back. Without them I could not have done it and I am so grateful they never gave up on me . So grateful.
@McDago100 Now I am not saying you have to stand there and take everything. Tell them you know they are saying to you what they feel about themselves. Tell them you know they are trying to stop you from saying anything about what they are doing to themselves, so they can just be free to continue without anyone stopping them. Tell them it is not okay for them to abuse you when all you want is for them to be happy and love themselves like you love them. I get what you are going thru.
You are not your eating disorder. You have an eating disorder, but it doesn't have to have you. You can get through this! What kind of treatment are you getting? I've seen that you've been receiving medical stabilization, but are you in therapy and all of that good (yet difficult) stuff?
I wish you will win this fight! I really wish you the best! You ARE STRONG, VERY STRONG, GIRL! I believe u won't let anorexia kill you! You are beautiful! Really! Keep on going, I know, you CAN recover. One day you'll be that happy, healthy girl from your past. I strongly believe in it! Ana won't take your life away! You'll leave her behind! <3 STAY STRONG :*
@candkatie11 oh lovely :( if u succeed and lose weight through an eating disorder you will ALWAYS end up putting weight on in hospitalisations... u will reach for recovery, but it will be harder the longer you put it off for. please dont talk about it like it is a diet forgetting all those who have lost their lives. xx:(xx
That thing you did with your leg and wrapping your fingers around it, my sister can do that with every limb of her body. Except she has marfans and scoliosis.
I feel like im tht skinny but ppl tell me im not tht im healthy but nobody knows how I feel I feel ugly skinny everyone keeps tellin me too eat and I do but no one feels my pain but me I want to be fstter and look healthy but I feel like im not and if I tell someone they tell me oh please as if it doesnt matter but to me thier opinons matter and oh please makes me feel as if they are ignoreing my feelinqs and they are the only people tht I know love me and it hurts
this made me cry so hard. my friend Rebecka anorexic got so bad that by the time she tried to get help, the doctors couldn't help her and she died from it. i had no clue she had been suffering i feel like a retard for not realizing it sooner. i could have made her get help. please if any of you are battling with eating disorders or any form of extreme wait loss diets, think about the people who love you and would die if they ever lost you.
I'm going to pray for you, it's horrible you go through something like this....I've gone 4 days with no food, and I realized what I was doing, and I didn't go anorexic, I didn't want it to be too late. Slowly eat more everyday, don't count calories, eat what you desire! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God made you you, don't let anorexia overpower you, turn to God, and pray...
Sweetheart I hope you're doing okay -3 I have anorexia too, the path is still rocky but I'm getting better slowly. You are absolutely gorgeous when you are well, I know you can get back to that one day. Don't ever give up hun, you are worth fighting for.
Sending you all the best wishes in the world and I hope you will finally be free of this and have the wonderful life you deserve.
I really applaud you for the courage to make and actually post this video. It's incredibly sad as well as inspiring to watch. I do hope you will get the future that you do deserve and be that stronger than ever because of the hardship and happy girl! Prayer from Mongolia.
i really hope that u r recovering, this video breaks my heart. try ur hardest to ignore ed bc u know all he does his lie..i wish you the best of luck n stay strong, never give up. recovery is the best thing you will ever do!
It's bad i know but i think your body is beautiful but your mind has lost it. Its such a horrible curse that to obtain once form on perceived beauty we lose the one that truly matters. I hope you have the strength to carry on :) xx lolly
I am so sorry for all the pain that anorexia has caused you!!!! The pictures of your tiny body in the hospital(s) reminded me of my own experiences with anorexia. I really hope you get better and reach a healthier state of mind!! =] It does happen!!!!! It can for you!<333
Seeing such videos give me always the feeling of being to fat, give me the feelings to lose more weight, not to recover. I really have to learn not to look for such videos on youtube. They are not helping me through recovery.
stay strong, i know you can fight this battle! I too fine myself rewinding the clock to look at all the moments in my life that i have been robbed of. Finishing my sr. year of high school on school, going to college, vacations,prom...but i always tell myself, things can always change and tomorrow is a brand new day.
Most of the people who comment do not have an ED nor have they known anyone that does. So do not listen to their uneducated comments. I understand what you are saying. And I hope you find peace. I posted a video myself, about how I finally started the road to recovery. It is on my page if you want to watch it. :)
sorry i do not take it out on other ppl, im sorry if seems like that i really dont- honestly i blame myself but i really want others to never have 2 suffer! that all, i again am sorry i dont wanna seem selfish like that. i only take things out on myself and my ed well i try too- noone deserves to hurt cause of me.
I feel bad for you but just by reading your description and the thing it says at 3:00, it kinda seems like you take it out on other people which isnt fair. Maybe not, idk just sayin
*hug* Recovery is possible. It sounds like you want it and if you want it enough, it really is possible. I promise. It may seem like a long and difficult journey, but when you're out the other side and able to do the things you used to enjoy to do, when you feel that buzz of life-energy inside you, when you're able to smile from the heart and love your friends and family from the soul - then you realise all the hard work towards recovery is worth it. I know you can do it. You deserve it xxx
Hey sweety, i hope you are ok today? You look extremly underweigth, try to gain a bit. Anorexic girls are beautiful, but you are in a dangerous level, so please eat a bit more...<3
@skytrain11 Anorexic girls are not beautiful! They deserve so so much more than being stuck in such an evil world of torture. There is a massive difference between being slim and being anorexic. Anorexia is a mental illness not a lifestyle choice.
Damn. I hope youre doing well girl, even though it probably doesn't mean much too u, you're beautiful especially at a healthy weight :)
maddoggydizzle 2 days ago
how old are u ?=)))
yannberthou 4 days ago in playlist Favorite videos
once when really anorexic i went outside..hadnt been outside for months,,went over by some trees and sat,,there was three teen mexican guys showed up,,when i got up to walk away one yelled out that i didnt have an ass...i was devastated and though ..i turned around and flipped him off,,,and realized i needed to stand up for myself and also work on myself..that i would have to earn threw hard work to have a body again..
ThePropheticfire 6 days ago
love the ending,,i had anorexia for 20 yrs looked like a stick...i started to heal myself with forcing myself to eat even when not hungry and using protein powder,,,told myself i loved myself everytime i ate..i knew i had to love myself..there was no one..i was from a alcoholic broken family that was poor there was no help from them..im normal weight today there is a way to healing...thanks for ya video dear
ThePropheticfire 6 days ago
So nice face :******
yannberthou 1 week ago
you look alot better when you dont see you bones. i want to lose weight thats because im 20pounds over weight. but i dont care what my weight is as long as i look and feel pretty.
whitneymariecampbell 2 weeks ago
I like this film, and i believe, i search a anorexic girl friend.
Kuhstreichler 2 weeks ago
I have a family member who is anorexic. She is very controlling, manipulative and verbally abusive. This person is not a teenager or 20 something but an adult. She is quick to call someone fat, and brag that she wears size double zero. At 5'3 and 80 lbs she thinks she looks ok. To anyone who has this disorder, I say take the help others offer, because their patience will run out as will their compassion.
McDago100 1 month ago
@McDago100 I hope you realize that they are calling others names and being mean is a cry for help. They are doing that because they hate themselves, not you. I know it hurts you but know it is not about you, but them. They are calling you every word they feel about themself every minute of every day. ED's are an addiction and not many fully recover but it can be done with help and family support. I know it is hard on you but please do not give up on them. They need U so much!
imnotlookinganyway 2 weeks ago
@McDago100 I am a bulimic. I am in my late 40's and I no longer purge but I know both sides of this. What I put my family thru and put myself thru. I hated myself for what I did to them but I could not stop it. Finally I began to learn to love myself and find out why I started binging and purging. It took a long time but I did persevere, I got my life and my family back. Without them I could not have done it and I am so grateful they never gave up on me . So grateful.
imnotlookinganyway 2 weeks ago
@McDago100 Now I am not saying you have to stand there and take everything. Tell them you know they are saying to you what they feel about themselves. Tell them you know they are trying to stop you from saying anything about what they are doing to themselves, so they can just be free to continue without anyone stopping them. Tell them it is not okay for them to abuse you when all you want is for them to be happy and love themselves like you love them. I get what you are going thru.
imnotlookinganyway 2 weeks ago
I wish you all the best and hope you are in the process of recovery since posting this xxx
pasiphae99 1 month ago
i cryed so hard while watching this... i can't imagine what u have gone trough and sincerely hope u r doing better now<3
123eppe 2 months ago
are you okay now , hope you okay ;]
cheszly 2 months ago
You are not your eating disorder. You have an eating disorder, but it doesn't have to have you. You can get through this! What kind of treatment are you getting? I've seen that you've been receiving medical stabilization, but are you in therapy and all of that good (yet difficult) stuff?
MandaT1980 2 months ago
I wish you will win this fight! I really wish you the best! You ARE STRONG, VERY STRONG, GIRL! I believe u won't let anorexia kill you! You are beautiful! Really! Keep on going, I know, you CAN recover. One day you'll be that happy, healthy girl from your past. I strongly believe in it! Ana won't take your life away! You'll leave her behind! <3 STAY STRONG :*
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kerriekaterina 3 months ago
what is the name of this
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Princessscee 4 months ago
you are very right. you do deserve life. you deserve to be free.
21kayjayy 4 months ago
You need to get help!! It's not healthy to say "I am anorexia" you are a PERSON not a DISEASE.
beautifulnstrange 4 months ago
I just started Anorexia.. and lost some weight already but food temps me.. which is why im FAT FAT FAT!!!
candkatie11 5 months ago
@candkatie11 oh lovely :( if u succeed and lose weight through an eating disorder you will ALWAYS end up putting weight on in hospitalisations... u will reach for recovery, but it will be harder the longer you put it off for. please dont talk about it like it is a diet forgetting all those who have lost their lives. xx:(xx
theuniqueRKWvlog 2 months ago
That thing you did with your leg and wrapping your fingers around it, my sister can do that with every limb of her body. Except she has marfans and scoliosis.
spiritgal102 5 months ago
I feel like im tht skinny but ppl tell me im not tht im healthy but nobody knows how I feel I feel ugly skinny everyone keeps tellin me too eat and I do but no one feels my pain but me I want to be fstter and look healthy but I feel like im not and if I tell someone they tell me oh please as if it doesnt matter but to me thier opinons matter and oh please makes me feel as if they are ignoreing my feelinqs and they are the only people tht I know love me and it hurts
joselynpaul3308 6 months ago
this made me cry so hard. my friend Rebecka anorexic got so bad that by the time she tried to get help, the doctors couldn't help her and she died from it. i had no clue she had been suffering i feel like a retard for not realizing it sooner. i could have made her get help. please if any of you are battling with eating disorders or any form of extreme wait loss diets, think about the people who love you and would die if they ever lost you.
121314151617181993 6 months ago
My god how heartbreaking :( REACH FOR RECOVERY! You can get YOU back <3
justagirl166 6 months ago
I hope your doing better now sweetheart. my thoughts are with you.
HLHS62 6 months ago
I'm going to pray for you, it's horrible you go through something like this....I've gone 4 days with no food, and I realized what I was doing, and I didn't go anorexic, I didn't want it to be too late. Slowly eat more everyday, don't count calories, eat what you desire! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God made you you, don't let anorexia overpower you, turn to God, and pray...
IWasBornStupid 6 months ago
will you do an update
wwhitney30 7 months ago
Your very strong for admitting you have aneroxia! I kept it secret and never admitted to myself i had it either! I Hope you stay better!
zoeyqazwsx 7 months ago
Beautiful Girl xxx
abrukhaukasu 7 months ago
I hope from the bottom of my heart that U get better!! and get to live a normal life!! dont loose ur Faith and Hopeee!! Loveee... Afsar :D
30AKKA 7 months ago
stay strong, you're anoerexia does not define you! And you are beautiful <3
smileforever121 7 months ago
keep holding on<3
xxmoonflamexx 8 months ago
Sweetheart I hope you're doing okay -3 I have anorexia too, the path is still rocky but I'm getting better slowly. You are absolutely gorgeous when you are well, I know you can get back to that one day. Don't ever give up hun, you are worth fighting for.
Sending you all the best wishes in the world and I hope you will finally be free of this and have the wonderful life you deserve.
Xxxxx
CryingRedTears15 8 months ago
What is the song called?
47ilyShania 9 months ago
you are so pretty with the weight on :)
luv4cascy 9 months ago
you are so pretty with the weight on :)
luv4cascy 9 months ago
I really applaud you for the courage to make and actually post this video. It's incredibly sad as well as inspiring to watch. I do hope you will get the future that you do deserve and be that stronger than ever because of the hardship and happy girl! Prayer from Mongolia.
Tunteg332 10 months ago
keep chasing after recovery. it is the best thing and the hardest thing you will ever do.
but know you are not alone in the journey.
i'm praying for you :)
germanygurly 10 months ago
=( I hope you are doing better now. I know the struggle Im anorexic and bulimic and it is def hard to let go of.
stffelix09 10 months ago
Update us if you can! Hope you're doing better.
MissLysreign 10 months ago
i really hope that u r recovering, this video breaks my heart. try ur hardest to ignore ed bc u know all he does his lie..i wish you the best of luck n stay strong, never give up. recovery is the best thing you will ever do!
<3
sawah88 10 months ago 14
It's bad i know but i think your body is beautiful but your mind has lost it. Its such a horrible curse that to obtain once form on perceived beauty we lose the one that truly matters. I hope you have the strength to carry on :) xx lolly
Phone192grams 11 months ago
I am so sorry for all the pain that anorexia has caused you!!!! The pictures of your tiny body in the hospital(s) reminded me of my own experiences with anorexia. I really hope you get better and reach a healthier state of mind!! =] It does happen!!!!! It can for you!<333
somanystories 1 year ago
How are you now?
xx
xxmoonflamexx 1 year ago
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1rekydn 1 year ago
@1rekydn hey yes i do - samantha barber on facebook
samiam22051991 1 year ago
@samiam22051991
hi could you send me the url of your facebook? thank you
maibufashionista 9 months ago
please get better :(
TheEMILY6832 1 year ago
Seeing such videos give me always the feeling of being to fat, give me the feelings to lose more weight, not to recover. I really have to learn not to look for such videos on youtube. They are not helping me through recovery.
luticia 1 year ago
I hope you can get free and leave anorexia behind you. I wish you can recover xx
perlenschein 1 year ago 16
Hehehehe lots of heavy bracelets and stuff for weigh in huh? Glad you got help, how are you coping with recovery? Thats the hard part. Beautiful. xo
carniekatie 1 year ago
Beautifull and that's my opinion!
Thinisbeautyfull 1 year ago
stay strong, i know you can fight this battle! I too fine myself rewinding the clock to look at all the moments in my life that i have been robbed of. Finishing my sr. year of high school on school, going to college, vacations,prom...but i always tell myself, things can always change and tomorrow is a brand new day.
slmercer08 1 year ago
How are you now?
Are things getting better?
Please don't give up!
misjoliepitt 1 year ago
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Most of the people who comment do not have an ED nor have they known anyone that does. So do not listen to their uneducated comments. I understand what you are saying. And I hope you find peace. I posted a video myself, about how I finally started the road to recovery. It is on my page if you want to watch it. :)
truthstillfree 1 year ago
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truthstillfree 1 year ago
where you find the original pictures?
who is that girl ?
kiszoltan28 1 year ago
@kiszoltan28 y? the original pic?
samiam22051991 1 year ago 2
@kiszoltan28 that girl is me y?
samiam22051991 1 year ago 3
sorry i do not take it out on other ppl, im sorry if seems like that i really dont- honestly i blame myself but i really want others to never have 2 suffer! that all, i again am sorry i dont wanna seem selfish like that. i only take things out on myself and my ed well i try too- noone deserves to hurt cause of me.
samiam22051991 1 year ago 3
I feel bad for you but just by reading your description and the thing it says at 3:00, it kinda seems like you take it out on other people which isnt fair. Maybe not, idk just sayin
ballsdeep69420 1 year ago
*hug* Recovery is possible. It sounds like you want it and if you want it enough, it really is possible. I promise. It may seem like a long and difficult journey, but when you're out the other side and able to do the things you used to enjoy to do, when you feel that buzz of life-energy inside you, when you're able to smile from the heart and love your friends and family from the soul - then you realise all the hard work towards recovery is worth it. I know you can do it. You deserve it xxx
EdieAlyss 1 year ago
Hey sweety, i hope you are ok today? You look extremly underweigth, try to gain a bit. Anorexic girls are beautiful, but you are in a dangerous level, so please eat a bit more...<3
skytrain11 1 year ago
@skytrain11 Anorexic girls are not beautiful! They deserve so so much more than being stuck in such an evil world of torture. There is a massive difference between being slim and being anorexic. Anorexia is a mental illness not a lifestyle choice.
cluckycluck009 11 months ago