i had a seizure and i saw god army and satins army fighting for me, gods army protected me but some times satins army broke free but i got away and i would end up in some different world where all i could do is gag,throw up and not breath.. it was savage and i was alone,scared, but luckily my brother came and started to try to wake me up. i saw his face in the sky and reached for it. but when i woke up it was like forces were trying to pull me back and it was so hard to fight them off..
@lilspanky414 and it felt like i was talking in a different language when it happened... i dont feel like im in reality anymore and it happened yesterday night.. the seizure felt like months.(literally)
Um... I'd be schizophrenic, not schizophrenia, and schizophrenics can still do normal activities, depending on the severity and also medication helps a lot. People with mental disorders aren't like the mainstream view of someone sitting in the corner of a padded room rocking back and forth, mumbling to themselves about effervescent flowers or something. I can hold down a job and everything. It's just more difficult. And sitting at a computer isn't hard...
Meh, I mean it's kinda distracting. >.< At least right now, it hurts... and so then I'll take some pain meds and THAT won't help my inspiration. :P Or my leg might make me want to not move from my desk in which case I'll be more likely to make something...
Nyurgh it never showed my reply to you.... (nyurgh is a legitimate sound, I swear.) I'm not that brave, I just wanted people to know what's up. And... I have enough support now to do it. Now I'm just less inspired to make movies becuase of my broken leg... but anyway.. it's fine.. erm.. until the pain meds wear off...
You sharing your conditions was why I felt comfortable enough to share. Interestingly, the first comment I got not only accused me of lying about my disorders but not being Jewish. Fortunately he didn't sway me to take this down... I appreciate the support, thank you!
When I was trying to get help for my emotional problems the doctor wasn't sure if I had schizophrenia or bipolar disorder but after a while he figured out it was bipolar disorder because of my ups and downs. I get hallucination's and paranoia but it is very random and often don't interfere with my life but I think that may be part of my OCD.
Thanks for moving my video up into #17 Most Discussed! :P I thought 75 degress would be like the perfect tempurature.. Anyhow, I'm going to start taking medication for it, but there's side effects and they might not work perfectly... so I might still have issues. If the epilepsy continues to be bad I might get the part of my brain whch causes the seizures.. Schizophrenia if the medication doesn't fix it I'll just have to deal with it.
Ja, I was born with it, I don't think you can develop epilepsy. The schizophrenia I think I was born with too but it's gotten worse as I've gotten older.. Figures. People can develop schizophrenia later... :P Thanks guys I've got an honor on this video!
Hm... what does a seizure feel like...? They're disorienting, so I'm not quite sure. I have two types. One type I can feel coming, it feels like electricity building in my brain, and then my body starts twitching and moving about like you would expect if you're being electrocuted. It doesn't really hurt though, and I guess I do have moments of clarity during them sometimes.
So, after the electricity wad is expended, I rest, wait for my body and mind to recover a bit, and then I can go about my business.
The second kind is worse, and scarier. I have a harder time predicting them, and even if I start to think one is coming, it happens so quickly and so violently there's little I can do about it.
I move much, much more violently, and go in and out of conciousness, and when I am concious I fear for my life because of how brutal it is and any second I could end up dying because of it. And of course it's longer... I don't have any moments of clarity then, just terror..
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i had a seizure and i saw god army and satins army fighting for me, gods army protected me but some times satins army broke free but i got away and i would end up in some different world where all i could do is gag,throw up and not breath.. it was savage and i was alone,scared, but luckily my brother came and started to try to wake me up. i saw his face in the sky and reached for it. but when i woke up it was like forces were trying to pull me back and it was so hard to fight them off..
lilspanky414 4 months ago
@lilspanky414 and it felt like i was talking in a different language when it happened... i dont feel like im in reality anymore and it happened yesterday night.. the seizure felt like months.(literally)
lilspanky414 4 months ago
if you are schizophrenia , how could you bee on computer?
ibenxD 5 years ago
Um... I'd be schizophrenic, not schizophrenia, and schizophrenics can still do normal activities, depending on the severity and also medication helps a lot. People with mental disorders aren't like the mainstream view of someone sitting in the corner of a padded room rocking back and forth, mumbling to themselves about effervescent flowers or something. I can hold down a job and everything. It's just more difficult. And sitting at a computer isn't hard...
IceJew 5 years ago
Do you practice Judaism or is it just your ethnicity? If you do, is it more reform or orthodox judaism?
psykulor 5 years ago
Err I practice it but I'm more Reform, but I'm learning about Orthodox and considering going that direction.
IceJew 5 years ago
kool
psykulor 5 years ago
You are very couragous to be so emotionaly available.I am enjoying getting to know you through your artistic expression.
Ishshahchava 5 years ago
*gives five star* pretty good my friend
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
wow sounds very hard *nods*
i hope that things will improve for the better for you *thumbs up* take kare!
MaggieMui 5 years ago
you get less inspired when u break ur leg???
your inspired with ur mind and heart not with ur leg!!lol
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Meh, I mean it's kinda distracting. >.< At least right now, it hurts... and so then I'll take some pain meds and THAT won't help my inspiration. :P Or my leg might make me want to not move from my desk in which case I'll be more likely to make something...
IceJew 5 years ago
si very very brave like festerius2 said...not everyone would do this... but jou jou have the guts that make my skin get goosebumps...
lol
very brave
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Nyurgh it never showed my reply to you.... (nyurgh is a legitimate sound, I swear.) I'm not that brave, I just wanted people to know what's up. And... I have enough support now to do it. Now I'm just less inspired to make movies becuase of my broken leg... but anyway.. it's fine.. erm.. until the pain meds wear off...
IceJew 5 years ago
I'm glad you made this movie... Thanks for being brave enough to share this part of your life with us and let us all know what it is like.
Festerius2 5 years ago
You sharing your conditions was why I felt comfortable enough to share. Interestingly, the first comment I got not only accused me of lying about my disorders but not being Jewish. Fortunately he didn't sway me to take this down... I appreciate the support, thank you!
IceJew 5 years ago
When I was trying to get help for my emotional problems the doctor wasn't sure if I had schizophrenia or bipolar disorder but after a while he figured out it was bipolar disorder because of my ups and downs. I get hallucination's and paranoia but it is very random and often don't interfere with my life but I think that may be part of my OCD.
Festerius2 5 years ago
sorry if u don't want to u DON"t have to answer
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
if u don't want u have to answer it
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
im from florida..i don't like very much cause its very ho and i like the cold!!!! its like 75 deegres here... cool music i like it...
im sorry i ask soooo many questions but here is another on
do u think u will get better?
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Thanks for moving my video up into #17 Most Discussed! :P I thought 75 degress would be like the perfect tempurature.. Anyhow, I'm going to start taking medication for it, but there's side effects and they might not work perfectly... so I might still have issues. If the epilepsy continues to be bad I might get the part of my brain whch causes the seizures.. Schizophrenia if the medication doesn't fix it I'll just have to deal with it.
IceJew 5 years ago
beacause of me!!!!1
lol
mmm
where r u from?
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Washington right now, but originally from New York. :P
IceJew 5 years ago
how does this happens? i mean was it with u when u were born or somethin
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Ja, I was born with it, I don't think you can develop epilepsy. The schizophrenia I think I was born with too but it's gotten worse as I've gotten older.. Figures. People can develop schizophrenia later... :P Thanks guys I've got an honor on this video!
IceJew 5 years ago
kittens!!!!yay!!!!
question
does a seizure feel good for like one second or how would u describe like being punched and knocked out??
dude it is amazing how many movies and good movies u make uring this!!!
i really like it
santiagofotbal 5 years ago
Hm... what does a seizure feel like...? They're disorienting, so I'm not quite sure. I have two types. One type I can feel coming, it feels like electricity building in my brain, and then my body starts twitching and moving about like you would expect if you're being electrocuted. It doesn't really hurt though, and I guess I do have moments of clarity during them sometimes.
IceJew 5 years ago
So, after the electricity wad is expended, I rest, wait for my body and mind to recover a bit, and then I can go about my business.
The second kind is worse, and scarier. I have a harder time predicting them, and even if I start to think one is coming, it happens so quickly and so violently there's little I can do about it.
IceJew 5 years ago
I move much, much more violently, and go in and out of conciousness, and when I am concious I fear for my life because of how brutal it is and any second I could end up dying because of it. And of course it's longer... I don't have any moments of clarity then, just terror..
IceJew 5 years ago
good to know the surgery went well, great video!
imantinazi 5 years ago
Okay Kai...This is NOT a crappy video. I really enjoyed watchin it.
DarknessxFollows 5 years ago
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet random and really cooooooool!!
naota5647 5 years ago
I love you, Kai! Great job on another video! It's been rough, but I know you'll continue getting through it... <3 Manda
FallenAngelYuna 5 years ago