Anxiety, Manic Depression, Bi Polar and friends. Part 1

[augustsky1]

Someone once told me that if you are nervous about something that means you're just taking it seriously. I know that you freak out and is way bigger than just being nervous....just that when I'm reminded of that it helps me...reminds me to breathe...I was diagnosed bi-polar ....years ago....also I've found it helps me to help others...especially people that share similar problems so...keep doing this...you're on to something....and so am I.

[Subatomic1000]

There's no cure for this shit. I'm so fucking sick of living, so exhausted, people treat me like a crazy person....as they well should. Anything in my life is overshadowed by my condition which is very motherfucking real. It's ruined my life, my dreams and any hope for happiness. I'm going to fucking kill myself. It's the only way out. There is no hope so I'll abandon that too.

[iGetBackSmacked]

"dont worry, about athing,. . cause every little thing, is ganna be alright." lol

[Aloxic]

lol sometimes i do the first letter in capitals and another letter inside the word in a capitals. normally multiple words in the same sentence.. but i dont do it all the time. :P

[warsuron]

i dont know what i am. hyper hyper hyper then suicidal then normal then hyper then....... oh you get the point....

seems like euforia 1 min then hell the next. wierd thought running through my head . its fucking bizzare

[TuRdSandwitch18]

it's funny, whenever im depressed it feels like i hav every reason to but whenever i see anyone else they just look like an over dramatic idiot

[richyhowat]

just take millions of valllium everyday its amazin

[DiscoFerret5674]

you know what will help you? sunlight! go outside!!!!!

[iEmma1974]

I dont know what the f**ck is wrong with me I have depression taking tabs that dont work, i have suicidal thoughts daily, spending loads of money i dont have on rubbish, drinking too much and started taking drugs to get through the day. My doctor is unable to help me because she says there is no magic pill - anyone got any advice as i feel like i am going to explode soon.

[richyhowat]

@iEmma1974

stop drinkin strate away makes thins better at the time but wenever you come off the booze its so much worse drugs are bad aswell i just buy vallium friom a drug dealer n take few of them from time 2 time but alcohol i would say is your main problem

[tomkiblad]

couldnt help but notice you said one day youll be tony the goth the next tony the regular guy, well if you dont know who you are how can you one day be the regular guy? and if your a goth your being yourself = being regular, i dont get that your a goth but referd to being 1 day a goth and 1 day being regular.

[AllSeeingGoogle]

Manic depressive? Then Google this...

Lithium vs Lecithin

[XioJester]

I like bipolar ok except for the fact that I have a bad anxiety disorder along with it. if it wasn't for that, I just ride the mania, and when depression comes, I use adrenaline to get back into the mania...usually that works. go jam on guitar or drums, do something creative that builds up adrenaline...if you have an anger problem, maybe do boxing too.

[milindasw]

You Suck!!!!

[Sperrazzajel]

I totally get what you are saying. just yesterday i was watching his documentary and then today i found your video. his documentary literally gave language to everything i've been feeling and going through for the last 7 years.

[BoomSelekta]

Irish boyz are phuckin sexcee.

[smurfieboo]

nice teeth

[funguysmall]

You dont have bi polar

[mayaoo]

iv got bipolar... yea sure its crap and a horrible thing to go thrue but the manics are like a drug you get addicted to them and like in the movie i would never want to erase this 'brain illness' without it my life would be boring and pointless

[adamrocks2006]

same here it feels like your on the highway ............. Everything goes very fast and you feel gooooooddd

- manic depressant

[rhetoricalparadox]

to the point where at least one thing would have a semblance of sense attached to it.My odyssee as of now has lead me back living with my parents,bankrupt,friendless and suffering with oesophageal varices which are so severe that another drink could result in my bleeding to death.i will continue to seek in my pursuit of sense

[rhetoricalparadox]

The only reason i will continue to attempt to transcript the ineptitude of my existence is that at present i FEEL like it but i do hope it is not read by others as i am doing this for myself.Ten(or so)years ago i was a successful sportsperson who,on the face of it,lead an exciting,idyllic lifestyle;girlfriend,house,car­,money etc,but looking back i realise i have ALWAYS been depressed or whatever other name they call it.I subconsciously but deliberately set out to totally destroy myself

[rhetoricalparadox]

noone KNOWS how another person feels.I hate it when i am asked how i am and i say that i am down,everything is pointless,living means pain,i dont wish to talk to anyone,look at anyone or do anything.The response to my answer is either,I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL,or GO AND TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR.You dont know how i feel and every fucking doctor i have spoken with is too egotistical to admit that they dont REALLY know what is wrong or too saturated in self righteousness to confess to not giving a shit

[Aueneye]

You remind me a lot of a young Gary Numan. He turned out quite well.

[nicbournat]

I think that you like the idea of being BP as it makes you 'different' or artistic. If you really had it - you would know it! You are just a normal mixed up kid. Join a band or get a job.

[TwistedGrover]

I am 37 now, and was diagnosed as bipolar when I was 19. Then I developed OCD when I was about 25. It sounds to me like you have a generalized anxiety disorder, which in my opinion, your brain can produce all kinds of different symptoms because of it. But it should be noted that I have no medical training whatsoever! :)

And remember, "feelings are not facts" as much as they seem to be. Your brain can trick you with the different filters it chooses to use when perceiving situations..take care

[guarimn]

"Identity Issues"

My name is Kevin. I am often a little bit of everything/one and a little bit of nobody...Or perhaps a lot of both. I could be a different person every day or a goast. I don't know what this means. Am I Immature, ill, stupid...Why do I have no "clearly defined" identity? A friend once kindly told me: that your only problem, Kevin, is that you are not comfortable in your own skin.

In MY OWN SKIN, i do not fit. I enjoyed your rant and look forward to part two.

[guarimn]

"It's anogher video, I don't know why... Usually I never ever resorted to using the word numb to describe the way I feel"

Hi Tony, I saw your cover of bequiet and drive. The feeling there is of desolation, of complete barreness, numbness. That song hit such a strong cord(in me) when I first heard it and some level that song must'v been what I needed/wanted to hear:instant recognigion.

[baalyezidi]

yeah... i get that alot.. the part where i start to imagine that i know EXACTLY what people are thinking.. and why they are doing what they are doing... ect ect.. dont try weed than man.. cuz ur going to be too paranoid... or maybe instead of indica u should try sativa..

[seejanefly]

My dear Boy,

You are so terribly hard on yourself! You are clearly a deep thinker, very intelligent and philosphical. Cute, too. Panic and anxiety are hell. I'm Bipolar and I have an Anxiety Disorder as well. Sometimes, all I can do is take some tranquilizers and hide under the covers till it's gone. I'm sorry you go through this too. I really understand. You should try some talk therapy. You worry me when you say you're a waste of space, and that you hate yourself. Please think about it...

[cactus57]

Well, i don't know about the cute part, but i guess i am kinda hard on myself at times. Such is the way of low self esteem i guess. Latley i've been ok, but i'm so damned touchy, if something sets me off latley i get so depressed so quickly. Panic attacks have been a pain too. But oh well, they come and they go, as does everything :)

[mystee4u]

I would try to have a good vaction but, my anxiety about having to give a book report was to much to endure. This happened all the way through school. I started using drugs, alcohol to help elevate the anxiety of course pot. I ate so much from worring that I ate so much so I started taking speed to lose weight. I lost a lot of weight. I ended up dropping out of school, ended up in a drug program. I did graduate but, I started using again.

[mystee4u]

When ever I smoke weed I swear I think I totally get manic. It makes me so anxious it's unreal. I feel like everybody can sense what I think. I feel like I know what everybody else is thinking. I hallucinate. I know I spelled it wrong I believe. Anyway, I feel like my heart is racing so fast, that everyone knows I just smoked weather or not they do or not or if it even matters. What's up with that? I take 6 pills a day too.

[baalyezidi]

do u smoke weed??? i have bipolar ll.. and also anxiety, social anxiety.. and let me tell u.. it helps a lot.. when i feel that i cannot talk to anyone and that im going to explode with anger i smoke a bowl.. and calm down very good... before i was taking six pills a day.. SIX PILLS EVERY FUCKIGN DAY..

[cactus57]

I sometimes do, yeah. To be honest, it takes away my paranoia. I can't understand at all how anyone could be paranoid on it, because to me it just takes away all of that completley! It definatly helps me calm down too.

I definatly think that if i took it when i was stressed orpanicy that it could help me alot with managing it. I might have to try that out.

[Marinaske]

@cactus57 Smoking weed gave me paranoia/anxiety only little cases but i was doing it for so long it got to my head.. Sometimes I dont feel real. I'm a generally happy person but whenever I smoke it now it isnt the same.

[xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx]

@baalyezidi i got stick of pills and started smoking and it did help, until i needed to find a steady job, so i cant anymore.

[MrCartoonguy]

I bet you there are many things in life that you could focus on that will make you feel amazement and awe.

Seek lifes secrets and knowledge.

I do not mean to sound like a dictator but I would like you to find life outside the confines of your anxiety and fear.

I believe you can do it as you are brave for posting on u tube and sharing your thoughts.

It is hard to enjoy when you are inhibited and afraid of how to behave or function. You'll win.

[MrCartoonguy]

Try not to self analyse too much...it can make you feel worse even though you think it helps. You may find yourself focusing on the label.

You are a person with a human condition.

I'm bipolar too....I have struggled with it but I've noticed that when I focused on the condition I then became withdrawn and anxious of others because I saw myself as different to the norm and sensitive to the stigma that I was re-enforcing.I became withdrawn and timid. We need to be accepted. We need to be natural.

[cactus57]

Thanks for the nice comments :) I guess yeah, when it all comes down to it most of my issues are to do with my opinion of myself. Which is bad, and i need to learn to ignore that opinion. Sure is hard though. I dunno, i think i'll get better one day, i just don't know when.

[MrCartoonguy]

I do not think there is a cure because we may always be sensitive to depresseion and anxiety.You can certainly learn to cope and reduce the symptoms quite a lot. It's best to start one step at a time and try to correct the perception and look at a more positive model of inspiration that fits you as a person. It is hard and I suffer bad at times. The depression and anxiety is our worst enemy.

We just live with an ongoing war and must do what ever is possible to win and keep on the better side.

[ladyreign21]

Cactus i know exactly how u feel. I perform with a Legendary,famous, well known group all over the world while we are performing I know that people came to see the group but I am the one that goes into a panic attack i just start sweating because I feel like all eyes r on me. It can be quite frightening actually. At times I feel like I'm fighting a war inside my head.

[quarknimble]

sucks going from suicidal in the morning to numb or happy in the evening and back again every day almost. mornings suck

[realitybitssoluagh]

I know how you feel.

[xsilencefallsx]

You say you like to express yourself differently each day. There's nothing wrong with a fluidity of expression. If it's who you are just try to relax with it. I've been through a lot of identity based anxiety myself. I think the best thing is to see your expression as fluidity rather than a multiplicity of expressions. Society's values are falsely heteronormative. You are by contrast wonderfully unique.

[Striyfe07]

Nice cross dude. We seem to have some similar problems like with thinking people hate us. Good to know its not just me.

Peace out.