@Blingblong20 theres many things that can cause bipolars disorder, anything from the doctors having to use forceps at your birth, your mother not wanting you, to it simply being passed down from person to person throughout the family. it's not our fault, and we aren't crazy.
I don't mean to offend anyone on here by asking the following question, but I need to know because someone I really love has manic depressive disorder. Are manics more likely to murder people, especially those nearest to them? A friend told me that they were and that I should get out of the relationship before the woman I love kills someone.
@AndrewRaimonSavage i'm bipolar, and only once had the actual urge to kill, i was very young, 15 or 16, being tourmented and bullied on the bus, and the boy i was being bullied by turned back around, and i came about a cm away from stabbing him in the neck with a pencil, but i turned my hand, and punched him in the back of the head instead. i've always wondered about that because it wasnt just something that clicked and happened, it progressed from years of torment.
@AndrewRaimonSavage dont listen to everybody else, listen to your intuition, if things are getting too intense, and you can't handle it, and its effecting your every day life maybe you need to back off, but as someone with bipolars, the one thing i need, that keeps me level, is love and at least an attempt to understand. bipolar people push, we push people away to find out who's going to really stick around through the bad, not too many have so i've accepted being alone.
@AndrewRaimonSavage I am bipolar, and I have never had the feeling of wanting to kill anyone while manic. Manic episodes are more about euphoria and grandiose thinking. But that doesn't mean that some people with bipolar might murder someone. I agree strongly with what xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx said about us needing love and to trust your intuition. I wish you the best! Feel free to message me anytime if you have any more questions.
Wow reading this i think my friend has bipolar disorder, i lover but she is driving me mad and i'm not always in good mental shape myself. I'm gonner do some reading up on this, thank you so much for shareing your experances, i now have a better understanding of bi polar.
And you have no idea what Tony or I have been through. Perhaps you didn't mean for your first comment to sound so negative? Did I misread it? I apologize if that is the case.
In a way I meant to seem negative because once one gets legally commited to the mental health system (in America and I bet probably Britain and other Western countries too) it doesn't see you as a human being, it sees you as another specimen to keep their pharmo-capitalism going. Once you are institutionalized all feel guilty and embarassed you are a nice client and addict for their medications, and you so no see no way out except by playing the object of pity for much of the your life.
Oh, my gosh, you nailed it! That's the sad truth and it's completely unacceptable. And God forbid your insurance runs out, because then you're useless to them. On top of that, many institutions don't do thorough background checks on their staff, so patients are at risk for abuse, theft, you name it. Just sickening.
Like I said, once you are institutionalized and feel all guilty and embarassed, you are a reliable client and addict for their medications, and you see no way out except by playing the object of pity for much of the rest of your life. Glad you see through my ignorance.
my manic goes from rages that are soo bad that police get involved from hopeless feelings , then energy that is like cocain, i could working out for hours and not be tired . over the past year somehow i became i great artist (drawings,guitars and such) but its getting worse and worse and im still in my teens
Very interesting how you thought (or believed is a better word?) that the game started late since you were late. I like the word "divorced" from reality.
I'm not sure if I have bipolar disorder, but Ive been feeling very strange lately. Sometimes when I'm with friends or around other people, my heart starts to beat really fast and I start hearing them talk about me behind my back, I get really anxious, paranoid and self-concious... that usually lasts a day or two... (The first time this happened i thought I was going crazy, it was a very unsettling experience) Then I get lathargic and severley depressed. Do you think I'm bipolar?
Yeah buddy, I went through that SOCIAL ANXIETY too....and yes i assume you were never like that before and out of the blue it came....truth is thats how it starts....the paranoia creating high anxiety levels just by hearing someone laugh or think they are talking about you....the panic attacks are worse....If you endure too much anxiety, your bound to get one.... find someone to talk to that understands you
you may just have a severe problem with social anxiety disorder and a mix of anxiety/depression. Or, you may have bipolar disorder but your episodes are so short and you don't have enough symptoms either way to tell.
I know a guy that is clinically depressed, he's a really bad case, (as a matter of fact he's in treatment right now).
I have another friend who is bipolar, he gets wildly maniacal but also severely depressed (crashes).
But my closest friend has bouts of full-on mania... with absolutely no depression. I admit he is a tall handsome fellow, but he knows that too. Without being in an episode, he's a pretty arrogant SOB, he thinks all the girls are in love with him and he also has the answers to...
every & all problems. (I tell him he's grandfathered-in, I'm only his friend now b/c I knew him b4 he 'changed') Anyway..
His episodes are truly painful to watch; he talks to himself, he constantly (mis)-quotes scripture, he stares intently at people (likes he's joking with them, but he isn't). He sees demons & angels etc.
My bipolar friend was the one that really opened my eyes to the disease, he has explained it thoroughly and accurately to the point where NOW I too can spot an episode
I don't doubt that episodes are painful to watch, they can be pretty embarrassing to look back on. Well done for sticking with your friend, not everyone does.
I mentioned somewhere else, how my wife was manic for 3 days and I got her put in the hospital. Then I said I felt bad about it. Well, onight is the 2nd night shes there, I went to see her today, and she was crashing into the depressed state. Well, here I am, and I honestly feel a surge of energy fullfilling my body. Im hearing music, Im seeing colors brightly, and I am up all night making up sentences with 23 words.
the more i think about bipolar, the more i analyze my behavior, the more i realize its such a hypochondriac disorder. Some people talk about it others hide it. everyone has it to some degree.
I know what you're saying in some respects suseflooze but I think delusional thoughts are quite unusual. I know that the way I feel when I have an intense episode is different from how I ever felt before I was diagnosed. Thanks for commenting
i feel as if other people are allowed to drink smoke and have sex. but if i over eat then i am greedy, if i have a fat belly then thats wrong, since i have buck teeth thats wrong, its like im not good enough, even though i dont drink and i try to be a goody goody two shows all the people around me that are doing worse things its like they are the good people, and i feel like a criminal and i have to be super good in order to .
Thanks for commenting Grapejuice. I understand what you are saying, sometimes I feel that people look up to me and that I have to judge myself by very high standards because if I behave badly everyone else will. Take care Tony
Well I am confused I think I'm not a confident person coz i constantly think im crazy and bad or a criminal, but even crazy people dont know that they are crazy so then im not cazy or else i wouldnt know that i was.
Tony, i need to thank you for posting that video. I've recently gone through my first manic episode. It was strikingly like the one you just described; completely different events, but the irrational thought patterns were the same. Hearing the story of your episode helps me to relate and understand my own disorder, so thanks.
Do you think people are after you? I think that all the time! Sometimes I find myself standing at my front door with a baseball bat or waking up from a noise outside!
I think people are watching me rather than thinking they are after me. These days I feel they are helping me to deal with these thoughts and that once I can handle being observed 24/7 the surveillance will gradually decrease.
There are thoughts I had and I can remember how I felt and I can see now that they were false thoughts. However there are some thoughts that my psychiatrist sees as being unrealistic and therefore delusional which I still believe once the episode has ended. I hope that answers your question.
Just wondering, you refer to these "strange ideas" or "things you got into your head" - do you now perceive these things in their actual state with the awareness that you were seeing them differently at that time or does your memory only remember the way you were thinking without having the reality of the situation as part of that? I hope this makes sense. Sorry if it doesn't.
TresGuineas, I last had suicidal feelings in 2002. I don't think medication has changed my personality though for years I thought it made me numb. I get sleepy sometimes but the meds are not as strong as your question suggests.
I had a friend who was bipolar. He killed himself (sorry for telling u this) so I have 3 questions to ask: Have u had sucidal thoughts since taking meds and has medication change ur personality? Does it feel like being put asleep when u're taking the meds?
Thanks for your support Harvband, that could have happened to me a few years ago and even very recently I've been nervous as cars have passed but the difference now is that even when I'm going through hell I can see good things happening in the world. Even if I never discover personal happiness I'll enjoy seeing Tony Blair bring about peace in the middle east or Africa being lifted out of poverty.
I once read a man's diary who had some of the same feelings. It was a shame.. it really got out of control - he left audio tapes in his car that were to be sent to the leaders of all of the big industrialized countries, explaining his impending death, and the conspiracy to discredit his name. To the reader it seemed quite fantazmic, but it was clearly hell for this man.
Sscopee lol I know what you mean I've been feeling manic for 9 days and 90% of the time it's the best I've felt in ages. I just hope I can stay out of hospital, I think I can
Thatnk you Tessie, I think clinical depression is worse than bipolar though. When my mood goes high it can lift me out of depression. manic episodes put me in hospital but it is depression that I fear the most. Take care, Tony
That was so informative. I knew a little about Manic episodes as I have a friend who suffers from it. I had no idea the extent of it. I commend you for keeping on top of it. It must be a difficult cross to bear. I suffer from clinical depression and have for years, and I thought that was bad enough. Puts things into prospective. Take Care Tony
MrLuvus, I don't have a wife or children but I live in the same town as my parents and I have a brother, a sister and uncles and aunties, nephews and nieces. I feel I have a lot of support, thank you for asking.
Thanks. I and my wife paying a heavy price-- our son in the throes as you describe. Thanks again for documenting. ....
sirlordmongus 7 months ago
@Blingblong20 theres many things that can cause bipolars disorder, anything from the doctors having to use forceps at your birth, your mother not wanting you, to it simply being passed down from person to person throughout the family. it's not our fault, and we aren't crazy.
xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx 11 months ago
i dont understand anything of what ur saying
biggvice187 1 year ago
I don't mean to offend anyone on here by asking the following question, but I need to know because someone I really love has manic depressive disorder. Are manics more likely to murder people, especially those nearest to them? A friend told me that they were and that I should get out of the relationship before the woman I love kills someone.
AndrewRaimonSavage 1 year ago
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kucherenko74 1 year ago
@AndrewRaimonSavage i'm bipolar, and only once had the actual urge to kill, i was very young, 15 or 16, being tourmented and bullied on the bus, and the boy i was being bullied by turned back around, and i came about a cm away from stabbing him in the neck with a pencil, but i turned my hand, and punched him in the back of the head instead. i've always wondered about that because it wasnt just something that clicked and happened, it progressed from years of torment.
xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx 11 months ago
@xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx
Well I think you did the right thing. You didn't kill anyone and you did the world a service.
AndrewRaimonSavage 11 months ago
@AndrewRaimonSavage dont listen to everybody else, listen to your intuition, if things are getting too intense, and you can't handle it, and its effecting your every day life maybe you need to back off, but as someone with bipolars, the one thing i need, that keeps me level, is love and at least an attempt to understand. bipolar people push, we push people away to find out who's going to really stick around through the bad, not too many have so i've accepted being alone.
xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx 11 months ago
@AndrewRaimonSavage I am bipolar, and I have never had the feeling of wanting to kill anyone while manic. Manic episodes are more about euphoria and grandiose thinking. But that doesn't mean that some people with bipolar might murder someone. I agree strongly with what xXxXBleedPurpleXxXx said about us needing love and to trust your intuition. I wish you the best! Feel free to message me anytime if you have any more questions.
lebenimteufel 11 months ago
Wow reading this i think my friend has bipolar disorder, i lover but she is driving me mad and i'm not always in good mental shape myself. I'm gonner do some reading up on this, thank you so much for shareing your experances, i now have a better understanding of bi polar.
thekatie40 1 year ago
who knows who fucks with one's head or why
sk9utube 2 years ago
Manic episode? It's simply a series of bad luck that pushes one to his breaking point!
sk9utube 2 years ago
@sk9utube: Your ignorance is showing. You have no idea what it's like to be that paranoid.
@ Tony: These videos are incredible. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
lautanner 2 years ago
@lautanner. You have no idea what I've been through.
sk9utube 2 years ago
And you have no idea what Tony or I have been through. Perhaps you didn't mean for your first comment to sound so negative? Did I misread it? I apologize if that is the case.
lautanner 2 years ago
In a way I meant to seem negative because once one gets legally commited to the mental health system (in America and I bet probably Britain and other Western countries too) it doesn't see you as a human being, it sees you as another specimen to keep their pharmo-capitalism going. Once you are institutionalized all feel guilty and embarassed you are a nice client and addict for their medications, and you so no see no way out except by playing the object of pity for much of the your life.
sk9utube 2 years ago
my grammar sucked in that last paragraph but you get my point.
sk9utube 2 years ago
Oh, my gosh, you nailed it! That's the sad truth and it's completely unacceptable. And God forbid your insurance runs out, because then you're useless to them. On top of that, many institutions don't do thorough background checks on their staff, so patients are at risk for abuse, theft, you name it. Just sickening.
lautanner 2 years ago
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Like I said, once you are institutionalized and feel all guilty and embarassed, you are a reliable client and addict for their medications, and you see no way out except by playing the object of pity for much of the rest of your life. Glad you see through my ignorance.
sk9utube 2 years ago
my manic goes from rages that are soo bad that police get involved from hopeless feelings , then energy that is like cocain, i could working out for hours and not be tired . over the past year somehow i became i great artist (drawings,guitars and such) but its getting worse and worse and im still in my teens
demo6989 2 years ago
Very interesting how you thought (or believed is a better word?) that the game started late since you were late. I like the word "divorced" from reality.
sandbar3000 2 years ago
I'm not sure if I have bipolar disorder, but Ive been feeling very strange lately. Sometimes when I'm with friends or around other people, my heart starts to beat really fast and I start hearing them talk about me behind my back, I get really anxious, paranoid and self-concious... that usually lasts a day or two... (The first time this happened i thought I was going crazy, it was a very unsettling experience) Then I get lathargic and severley depressed. Do you think I'm bipolar?
ImPotatoes 3 years ago
Impotatoes, I can't diagnose you, you might have bipolar, it might be schizophrenia. I would seek help and I wish you well.
Tony63efc 3 years ago
Yeah buddy, I went through that SOCIAL ANXIETY too....and yes i assume you were never like that before and out of the blue it came....truth is thats how it starts....the paranoia creating high anxiety levels just by hearing someone laugh or think they are talking about you....the panic attacks are worse....If you endure too much anxiety, your bound to get one.... find someone to talk to that understands you
KevGG5 3 years ago
you may just have a severe problem with social anxiety disorder and a mix of anxiety/depression. Or, you may have bipolar disorder but your episodes are so short and you don't have enough symptoms either way to tell.
BuryMeInBlack105 2 years ago
I know a guy that is clinically depressed, he's a really bad case, (as a matter of fact he's in treatment right now).
I have another friend who is bipolar, he gets wildly maniacal but also severely depressed (crashes).
But my closest friend has bouts of full-on mania... with absolutely no depression. I admit he is a tall handsome fellow, but he knows that too. Without being in an episode, he's a pretty arrogant SOB, he thinks all the girls are in love with him and he also has the answers to...
blightsmite 3 years ago
every & all problems. (I tell him he's grandfathered-in, I'm only his friend now b/c I knew him b4 he 'changed') Anyway..
His episodes are truly painful to watch; he talks to himself, he constantly (mis)-quotes scripture, he stares intently at people (likes he's joking with them, but he isn't). He sees demons & angels etc.
My bipolar friend was the one that really opened my eyes to the disease, he has explained it thoroughly and accurately to the point where NOW I too can spot an episode
blightsmite 3 years ago
I don't doubt that episodes are painful to watch, they can be pretty embarrassing to look back on. Well done for sticking with your friend, not everyone does.
Tony63efc 3 years ago
why 23? I have a slight obsession for that number myself...
Chabraneke 3 years ago
I mentioned somewhere else, how my wife was manic for 3 days and I got her put in the hospital. Then I said I felt bad about it. Well, onight is the 2nd night shes there, I went to see her today, and she was crashing into the depressed state. Well, here I am, and I honestly feel a surge of energy fullfilling my body. Im hearing music, Im seeing colors brightly, and I am up all night making up sentences with 23 words.
GrecoAlbo68 4 years ago
That sounds very bad for both of you, I hope you seek help because it sounds as though you're not well either. Good luck
Tony63efc 4 years ago
the more i think about bipolar, the more i analyze my behavior, the more i realize its such a hypochondriac disorder. Some people talk about it others hide it. everyone has it to some degree.
suseflooze 4 years ago
I know what you're saying in some respects suseflooze but I think delusional thoughts are quite unusual. I know that the way I feel when I have an intense episode is different from how I ever felt before I was diagnosed. Thanks for commenting
Tony63efc 4 years ago
i feel as if other people are allowed to drink smoke and have sex. but if i over eat then i am greedy, if i have a fat belly then thats wrong, since i have buck teeth thats wrong, its like im not good enough, even though i dont drink and i try to be a goody goody two shows all the people around me that are doing worse things its like they are the good people, and i feel like a criminal and i have to be super good in order to .
Grapejuice22 4 years ago
Thanks for commenting Grapejuice. I understand what you are saying, sometimes I feel that people look up to me and that I have to judge myself by very high standards because if I behave badly everyone else will. Take care Tony
Tony63efc 4 years ago
I still live with my mum and she always tells me off that i made a mistake even if its over a silly little thing.
Grapejuice22 4 years ago
Thanks for sharing your experiance with us.
Hopefully things are good for you.
Well I am confused I think I'm not a confident person coz i constantly think im crazy and bad or a criminal, but even crazy people dont know that they are crazy so then im not cazy or else i wouldnt know that i was.
Grapejuice22 4 years ago
You're welcome dschrenz, I hope you're getting help now.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
Tony, i need to thank you for posting that video. I've recently gone through my first manic episode. It was strikingly like the one you just described; completely different events, but the irrational thought patterns were the same. Hearing the story of your episode helps me to relate and understand my own disorder, so thanks.
dschrenz 4 years ago
Do you think people are after you? I think that all the time! Sometimes I find myself standing at my front door with a baseball bat or waking up from a noise outside!
mnpap4 4 years ago
I think people are watching me rather than thinking they are after me. These days I feel they are helping me to deal with these thoughts and that once I can handle being observed 24/7 the surveillance will gradually decrease.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
There are thoughts I had and I can remember how I felt and I can see now that they were false thoughts. However there are some thoughts that my psychiatrist sees as being unrealistic and therefore delusional which I still believe once the episode has ended. I hope that answers your question.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
Just wondering, you refer to these "strange ideas" or "things you got into your head" - do you now perceive these things in their actual state with the awareness that you were seeing them differently at that time or does your memory only remember the way you were thinking without having the reality of the situation as part of that? I hope this makes sense. Sorry if it doesn't.
kmcveagh 4 years ago
TresGuineas, I last had suicidal feelings in 2002. I don't think medication has changed my personality though for years I thought it made me numb. I get sleepy sometimes but the meds are not as strong as your question suggests.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
I had a friend who was bipolar. He killed himself (sorry for telling u this) so I have 3 questions to ask: Have u had sucidal thoughts since taking meds and has medication change ur personality? Does it feel like being put asleep when u're taking the meds?
TresGuineas 4 years ago
Thanks for your support Harvband, that could have happened to me a few years ago and even very recently I've been nervous as cars have passed but the difference now is that even when I'm going through hell I can see good things happening in the world. Even if I never discover personal happiness I'll enjoy seeing Tony Blair bring about peace in the middle east or Africa being lifted out of poverty.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
I once read a man's diary who had some of the same feelings. It was a shame.. it really got out of control - he left audio tapes in his car that were to be sent to the leaders of all of the big industrialized countries, explaining his impending death, and the conspiracy to discredit his name. To the reader it seemed quite fantazmic, but it was clearly hell for this man.
I sure hope your situation resolves itself.
Good Luck
HarvBand 4 years ago
fascinating
HarvBand 4 years ago
Thank you,I'll be talking less about this from now on though because I am more and more convinced that my strange beliefs are true.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
Sscopee lol I know what you mean I've been feeling manic for 9 days and 90% of the time it's the best I've felt in ages. I just hope I can stay out of hospital, I think I can
Tony63efc 4 years ago
Sweet god... the only thing that keeps me going ( in my disorder) is looking foreward to another MANIC EPISODE
sscopee 4 years ago
Thatnk you Tessie, I think clinical depression is worse than bipolar though. When my mood goes high it can lift me out of depression. manic episodes put me in hospital but it is depression that I fear the most. Take care, Tony
Tony63efc 4 years ago
That was so informative. I knew a little about Manic episodes as I have a friend who suffers from it. I had no idea the extent of it. I commend you for keeping on top of it. It must be a difficult cross to bear. I suffer from clinical depression and have for years, and I thought that was bad enough. Puts things into prospective. Take Care Tony
Tessietots 4 years ago
MrLuvus, I don't have a wife or children but I live in the same town as my parents and I have a brother, a sister and uncles and aunties, nephews and nieces. I feel I have a lot of support, thank you for asking.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
tony, if you don't mind i'm asking, do you have any close family,children and relatives for emotional support, they could help alot..
mrluvus07 4 years ago
Thanks Mr Luvus, I'm going to talk about it in front of an audience this morning.
Tony63efc 4 years ago
"when the going gets tough, the tough got over it", you faced the life altering experience and conquered.. congrat.
mrluvus07 4 years ago