Promises that will probably be broken.

[PeteLogan101]

I'm yelling at you! I can't sub your channel and you've not made a new vid for the longest time.

End of Rant. I hope you're okay! :]

[shutupjessica]

@PeteLogan101 D'aw you care. No my camera killed itself and I moved a bunch of times and blleeehhhh.... I'm alright though! This year has just been weird and whatnot. Thanks for stopping by though. XD

[guywithcurlyhair]

awww, don't be down :/ I like your videos, and I hope you enjoy making them as much as your audience does watching them :)

you know what brightens my day? Having subscribed to a youtuber calles wheezywaiter! He makes really funny scripted videos and never gets boring to watch :D

... and I just realized this video was uploaded a year ago -.-

[shutupjessica]

@guywithcurlyhair Oh hai der.

I'm subscribed to wheezywaiter to but he's so scripted! I dunno. He's hilarious though!

Haha. Try two months. XD

[guywithcurlyhair]

@shutupjessica oh. you're right xD Well, that's still a long time! I hope you're better now :)

[shutupjessica]

@Megaquip Bloody brilliant? There is no blood in my vids! :O

Hehe. Thank you for watching and being all sunshiny!

:]

[BilliLovesMargot]

i should adopt? :/

[shutupjessica]

@BilliLovesMargot yes. Short little asian babies that spea chinese, ancient mayan, and english.

[Fensterplaetzchen]

keep it up.

[HKurck]

I am not 12 and not 30, so I can't have babies? :O

Stuffed animals are cool 8) Though funny because I actually found you looking more mature in this vid.

[shutupjessica]

@HKurck NO! NO BABIES FOR YOU!

Unless you really want them and are financially stable enough for one. Also... why are you pregnant?!

Hahaha. Well I ruined that vibe didn't I? XD

[HKurck]

@shutupjessica Yeah, you did. Some day you have to grow up. *hides Teddy*

Financially stable and being a student, hmm, sounds like a contradiction xD

Why I am pregnant? That's a loooong story :P

[lemonfacee]

There's nothing wrong with stuffed animals girl. Also, your eyes are amazing.

[shutupjessica]

@lemonfacee Stuffed animals are one of the highlights of life.

Aw, these old things? Thanks! :3

I've had them for years.

[goodnightbirdie]

....I DONT DRUG MY DOGS

...much

[shutupjessica]

@goodnightbirdie Lies.

[ZachMaccc]

Just had auditions today. They wen't really good, but FUCK you would seriously be perfect for most of the characters. WHY AREN'T YOU HERE! Anyway, nice to know you are going to be making videos more frequently now. I kinda failed in that regard...hm

[shutupjessica]

@ZachMaccc YOU DIDNT SEND THE FUCKING TICKET YOU DOUCHE D:<

And you don't fail. It's okay Zach you're gonna make a MOVIE! A MOVIE I TELL YOU!

[DrakeSizzle]

I plan on making more videos someday but who knows.

[shutupjessica]

@DrakeSizzle You're alive!

Even though I suck at commenting I miss your vids. :)

[Rockstarsean]

I look forward to the videos, that is all.

yes.

so cool.

[shutupjessica]

@Rockstarsean So cool. So smooth. So blunt.

...that sounds like a cigarette campaign ad.

Um... well this is awkward

[TheNakedAtheist]

I'm almost 51, and when I go home for Christmas the stuffed tiger I had as a child is STILL in my bed, and you know what? (shhh don't tell anyone) It makes me happy to see him. :p

[shutupjessica]

@TheNakedAtheist What's the tiger's name? Is it something cool and original?

That horse has no name but my teddy bear's name is "Querwid". Yeah... I was a weird two year old.

Why are stuffed animals so close to us as friends? XD

[eenish]

Jessica! I missed you. I'm sorry to hear you're not doing great :( Your videos don't have to be bouncy, and full of rainbows, you just make them how you want. Honestly, most of the time when you talk about stuff, it makes me laugh because you're hilarious without even trying :) enjoy doing your vloggies, and take your camera with you places and film bullshit <3 I managed to make videos every day for a month, and I mean that is mental. I'm sure you'll manage to do your goal :) Good luck!

[shutupjessica]

@eenish My videos could have been full of rainbows. There was a day there was a triple rainbow outside my window. Then I couldn't find my camera. Rainbows just aren't destined to be in my vids.

You're so sweet it's ridiculous. I loved your everyday vids though. I mean when you didn't have anything to say you showed your bunnies and my face looked like ":3". Then when you did have something to say it was funny. You just have skillz yo.

[aneep80]

Recently I felt the same way, like "is this all that life has got to offer?", but life is interesting again, so yeah, its all good now.

hope your "life is so boring" will pass soon too, cheers!

[shutupjessica]

@aneep80 When it does we'll have a party. A big one. With guacamole. And a piñata.

[Triwood1973]

Me no doctor but I'm going to send you some free medicine...love and hugs, and plenty of them!

Hope this will only be a brief blip in your life...

[shutupjessica]

@Triwood1973 I GET HUGS?! :3

Me too.

How you be?!

[cameronm82]

i recently broke my video-making hiatus and said that i would make videos again. i still havent made another one.

also, dont worry about the stuffed animals... I'm 28 and still sleep with my blanky. its normal. i think

[shutupjessica]

@cameronm82 Get on that. If you like to make them. If you don't well then... dont. XD

My blankey was the shiz. It's somewhere in storage now because it got torn up last time it was in the wash. I still have the same teddy bear from when I was 2 though! It looks like an alien.

[Castaa]

Interesting. What is behind the idea that vlog would help you?

[shutupjessica]

@Castaa Cause I liked doing it? Then I just stopped. SO if I can find shit I can enjoy it can distract me from the other stuff? Then maybe I'll stop thinking about the other stuff? Then i can concentrate on other more productive things? I DUNNO! I'm trying here. XD Haha

OH! OH AND YOU thanks for the advice last week I think it was? I never said thanks.

[Castaa]

@shutupjessica That's great. Crush it.

[ranchy888]

You’re seeing a shrink because you don’t find things so interesting anymore? lol I thought shrinks were for people with serious issues. What you are experiencing is VERY common! I felt the same way when I was 19. Now I am 27 and things are better since I have more control over my life. I just think you are being too hard on yourself. When you get to be my age, part of the freedom you have now will be taken away from you, so just enjoy it while you still can. Take care. :)

[shutupjessica]

@ranchy888 That's not the only this. Haha. I've been diagnosed with depression, bipolar 2, and supposedly have remnants of PTSD? But that's whole other boat that I thought sailed -shrugs-. I'm not trying to be like "RAWR YOU WRONG" I'm just saying that I am going there for a reason.

But I realize this feeling could just be a phase and I'm doing things to kind of push myself out of it so that I can deal with the other stuff. That way I can function better as a human. Haha. :)

[TheZarbodShow]

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling rather blah. Anhedonia isn't uncommon in situations like this. Sometimes it helps to make sure the basics are on track, like diet and exercise, but therapy sounds like a good idea. Seems like you're doing the right things. Hang in there.

[shutupjessica]

@TheZarbodShow Yeah yeah yeah. I know. I'll get there.

But how are you?! :D