Crapola

[pingpongball34]

damn you a fat ass bitch

[cwb077]

chin up, girl!! =)

[H8rsGonaH8]

maybe you should WORK OUT, it will pay off...

[eepr0m]

U suk, fugly.

[HabboScamVids1]

why does everyone hate you? the question is why doesnt anyone know you

[panhandleFL]

hey ichbinkeinberkiner....my step son is 33 ywars old, and has had schizophrenia since a little kid but was offically diagnosed a few years ago. He was on meds, doing fine,and he decided to stop taking them and he is in denile. He thinks he is just fine. BUT he is NOT! He is now staying with us now. And he is clearly not well despite what he thinks. I wish he would realize his illness as you have done.

[Cwasserstrom]

Haters on youtube are people who dont feel good about themselves so they project it on some one else x

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thank you! It is nice to know I have awesome people like you in my corner! :)

[caseyburk]

K, the thing you need to realize is that probably 80-90% of those ppl leaving snotty remarks are either teenies who have no respect yet because of their ignorance to the world or else ppl who have bigger problems than those you experience.

Regardless, true friends encourage you to open up about yourself. Real friends do things to make you feel better--so I hope this comment does exactly that my dear! :.)

See ya around. Keep your chin up.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks so much Casey! This did make me feel better! :)

[ojewel]

Give Nami's Peer to Peer a chance! I feel like you do a lot! I just haven't started to make vidz yet. I get up early in the morning too.And my room is so cluttered. But, in spite of these nuisances try not to judge yourself. You are a wonderful person illness or not. Take care,Kristen. I hope the injection works if not move onto something that will.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks ojewel! I need to look into more NAMI stuff! Good idea! :)

[user244424]

I have been keeping up with you, hon, for over a year. I KNOW about the moods, the rapid cycling, AND what the holidays can trigger. Try to remember that it is part of the disease. That is what I try to do. Take my Cymbalta and try to also get out some. Even if it is just for a short, short walk. Me and so many others are thinking of you. God loves you, Kristen.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thank you! I did manage to take a short, short walk today. It was nice to see the sky!!! :) hehe

[reginad813]

when I feel depressed I put on some music and dance; I hope u feel better soon

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thank you! That is a good idea! I need my music! :)

[mandapop]

also, I bet you will feel better after your injection! that's probably what you need to keep the doubt away. then after the doctor, go treat yourself to something nice! a strawberry milkshake or a slurpee usually puts me in a proper mood. :)

[ichbinkeinberliner]

I do feel a lot better today! Thank you for the support....did you know I LOVE strawberry milkshakes!? hehe

[mandapop]

You gotta get yourself in a good ol' fashioned cleaning frenzy!! Then your room will be spotless and you won't be pissed off about it haha.

When I walk around not knowing anyone, I give a friendly smile just to make people feel better. So just smile back Kristin! Let it make you feel better. It's HARD to make yourself smile at strangers... So that person gave you a lot of energy that you kinda missed out on haha. Just try your hardest to smile back. :) Remember what it's like to be content!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

oh, I do smile at people...maybe that is why they were smiling back! haha! Yes! I need a cleaning frenzy for sure!

[williluvmycello]

kristin, we're thinking of you. Love the videos, don't worry about the length; it's nice to hear from you.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thank you! Okay, get ready for more long boring vids then! hahaha!

[spycop79]

Hi Kristin! I hope things get better. Hugs. :)

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks Sprucifer! I'm feeling better already! :) Hugs! :)

[NGC224orM31]

icbinkeinberliner, you are totally awesome! The sun will come out tomorrow. I think they say that in some song or another. But, anyway you rock!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

ahhh, thanks! hehe I love "Annie" songs! hehe

[SweetSamsara]

You should definitely listen to music- fun music! Some albums that always lift my spirits: Viva! La Woman and Stereotype A by Cibo Matto, Dressy Bessy by Dressy Bessy, The Tigers Have Spoken by Neko Case. Music really is a life saver.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

oooohhhh neat! thanks for the recommendations! :) Music does help a lot!!! You are right !!!! :)

[ILuvEire]

Maybe you could try something to sorta turn off the mind and chillax. I know it's a bit taboo, but tarot cards have helped me tremendously. I just take out my deck, lay out some spreads and study the cards, it's a great way to get your mind off of the crapola.

Something else you could do, try some artwork! Do some watercolors or pastel work, I've ended up with some beautiful abstract things. Anyway, whatever you decide to do, your subscribers still love you!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Those are great ideas! I don't know anything about tarot cards, but I think they are fun...I had a friend read mine once! I do love doing artwork! Why I never do it is beyond me!!! hehe Thank you for the ideas and support! :)

[Luv4Learning]

I get into down moods, too. Just hang in there. Try to focus on the positive when you feel yourself drifting to the negative. For example, I started a new position this month, and I had one nasty experience this week, but I had three helpful/positive experiences this week. I chose to focus on the three positives.

As for normal, what the heck is normal? I don't know. I just figure I'm myself, and that's a pretty darn good thing to be :)

Hugs,

Colleen

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks Colleen! You are right. I do need to focus on the positive...it helps a bit to do that. Hope your new job keeps getting better every day! :)

[ojosdelaluna313]

hang in there Kristin. there's always an upswing. it's going to be ok.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

thank you so much :) hugs :)

[RelaxxKiller]

Hey Kristen, First off, it was'nt boring. This past June/July I stayed depreesed or anxious to the panic pint for so ling I thought it was going to be a permenent part of my life, it was so so hard. misery and anguish. What helped me? Self talk, making vids, art journaling (im not much for writing, i get even more depressed may I suggest vloggn a bit more, even if it is for some sort of selfhelp turn on the cam and clean your room??! share it with us, show us your junk drawer.stuff like that!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

okay, I took your advice and showed some junk in my next video...now I am having trouble uploading it, but I'll try again later! I really appreciate the ideas and understanding! I think I might flood my channel with videos about my junk!!! hahaha :)

[ozjthomas]

Do what you can, Kristin, we know you're a good person. I get frustrated too at times but remember the good things, too. Depressed feelings can show you things, pain, it can also make one frustrated and hopeles.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

yah, I tend toward the frustrated and hopeless side...lol...thanks for always understanding oz! :) hugs :)

[Julsinmaine101]

Please dont feel bad for sharing how you feel...thats why you have friends here on youtube..I totally understand you have different feelings,moods,ect. everyody does,thats what makes us who we are.I have days I dont want to get out of bed...somedays like today I wake up all happy and looking forward to the future:)vitamin D helps my moods alot...I take a multivitamin..those days yu feel blue put on some fun music and dance! Thats what I said...Dance girl!Have fun with it~maybe even show us a few

[ichbinkeinberliner]

hehe....I'm taking a vitamin D supplement now, because my vitamin D was so low! I'm also adding Flintstones vitamins! hahaha. I just might dance on cam one of these days! hehe :) Thanks! :)

[BattlefieldDoktor]

I am currently something like depressed since I lost my job. Sadness, worry and all that stuff is taking away the most of my motivation for every day since the thing I usually did at almost every day was taken away from me - my work. I think everyone can have such moments for different reasons. As you also say some days you feel like to have friends ... I think it matters about our emotions how we feel - if something pushs us up like a nice warm sunshine when getting up then it's a happy day.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

oh...I am so sorry about your job loss. :( Thanks for your nice comments. I hope you find a better job soon! :) Just think how nice it might be if it snows!!! heh :) Perhaps a snowy day with sunshine???

[andadorsag]

Keep the faith Lady, we're all in this Human Experiment together.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

okay, I'll keep on truckin' :) Thank you! :)

[Maiyanna]

Don't worry Kristin, we love you. Why do you have to live so far away!

I think everyone feels this way at times, don't they?

There are so many haters on YT. They really can spoil what would otherwise be a positive experience. I get tired of dealing with them.

I hope you feel better soon. Hugs!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks maryann! I love you too! I don't know why I have to live so far away from everyone!!! GRRRRR!!! I'm feeling a bit better since I got my shot. I'm trying to upload a video now, but it isn't uploading...soon I hope! :)

[PuffyCatTail]

Lady, you are much loved. If you were here in my town, I would be your friend- no doubt. It will get better. Hang in there. :)

I was so abused in high school that I know that feeling of why is this person being nice to me. It took me years to get over it. I missed out on opportunities to have more friends because of it. so, I can really relate to how you feel.

Thanks for mentioning me.

Much love and hugs. :)

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Ahh, well, thanks so much for your great vids and for being a friend! :) All of us awesome people have to hang together!!! :) Hugs :)

[lolipopPrincess]

I can totally relate to how you feel. There are days when I feel like "crapola" too. Some days are better then others. I really love watching your videos and it's nice to watch a person who I can relate too. You seem like such a sweet honest person and I really have a lot of respect for you and posting all your wonderful videos. :) hehe! Cute hello kitty in the background btw! ^_^

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Ahhh, thanks! That is great to know! Glad you like Hello Kitty too! hehe. I'm sorry about the days you feel like crapola! :( It sucks. I guess we just have to hang in there until things get better, eh? :)

[nervousneuron]

I have been in a pretty good mood lately, and when thinking back about my depressive episodes, its like they were not a big deal, and almost amusing. But reading back on what I wrote and talked about on youtube back then, it was all I think I have been depressed my whole life and Ill always be like this, which reminded me of this video. Mood really strongly impacts on your life. (cont)

[nervousneuron]

Depression skews memories to make it seem like youve always been depressed and to make you think you will never get better. It screws up the way you interpret things, like your example of people smiling at you. You notice the negative things more, and the positive things dont make you feel positive if you notice them in the first place. Its the worst feeling and it sucks. I hope you get out of it as fast as possible.

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks my Nervous Friend! :) I'm feeling a bit better already! Seriously, your smoking video had me laughing out loud too!!! hehe :) Thanks! :)

[whisperingdragon33]

hi Kristin, I totally can relate to how you feel. OMG, so many people have been feeling the same way lately that its kinda creepy actually.. I think it might be in the water we drink.. just kidding!! lol! a couple of nights ago I cleaned out my room and gave the salvation army alot of my stuff. my room looks better and I feel better. Put that on your to do list, you will feel much better once you've accomplished that. Then make a plan to do something else.. I have faith in you!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks for having faith in me...I lose faith in myself sometimes, you know? Yah, I need to get on with the cleaning!!! Good for you for managing it! Thanks for the support! :)

[HarrySackthatsme]

i kinda know how you feel, people call me crazy just because i was in a mental ward

but dont let things bring you down, just say fuck it and do what you like doing

i have those feelings too, a lot of people do,you're not alone

btw that work about schizophrenia is changed now my partner changed it to autism -.-

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thanks! I don't know what else to say, but I want to say thank you! :)

[fever103]

Oh, Madam Banana! I HEART YOU! :)

You're my BFF!

I shall call you tomorrow. HUGS!!!

[ichbinkeinberliner]

Thank you so much for being my friend banana pajamas! :) Thanks for calling too! :) Your calls cheer me up! :) Hugs :)