Self Harm - The Sharp Truth Part 4

[forsety2]

I've only been cutting since March, and I didn't cut for about 2 full months in that time, and I already have 550+ visible scars, not counting superficial cuts... I'm almost 2 weeks clean right now, let's see how long I last this time :-/

[thekenziegreenshow]

Plz tell me thers part six so I know there alive :'(

[sirprancealot22]

None of you are alone. I myself have cut myself.... A lot. I haven't even been doing it for a year yet and already have 400 cuts. I counted the other day.

If any of you need to talk. I'm here

And so I Jesus-3

[anjilovesedward]

:(, check out Samaritans :(

[shredingme]

wow, so you did all this cause of a girl?

[katiedarlinnx3]

Sometimes knowing your not alone just helps. Good luck

[TheTahmores]

I think it's a nice song-choice, if attention is payed to what you say... :)

You posted this 2 years ago, but as you see, it still affects people, doesn't it?

I myself have been clean for 2½ months, but it's a struggle, since I stopped so suddenly - I didn't want to hurt the feelings of someone very dear to me anymore.

[bleedingheart51]

(2/2) I want to help! And i dont care when other people say im too young or that i dont know much, but i dont care!!! let me help!! if the people at the GP? arent helping, please give me a chance! i want to help and im not afraid to. I LOVE YOU!!! (i hope you dont think thats creepy...but i really do love everyone and i refuse to hate people) JESUS LOVES YOU!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[bleedingheart51]

(1/2) I am bleedingheart51's best budd. I am 14 years old, and i also have benn cutting, but not nearly as long or as bad as you or my friend. I have recently stopped...sorta... The reason my best friend is still alive, is because i will NOT let her die. (she wont let me die either....) I want you to know that I LOVE YOU! JESUS LOVES YOU TOO!!!!!!! And if you EVER have suicidal thoughts EVER again, or think of cutting, PLEASE TEXT ME!!!!!! i hate seeing people in this much pain. my #-9788063569

[mastermickg]

I think you all need to grow some balls!! Cutting yourself doesnt help anyone..you or family..Deal with your issues like everyone else without self harm! Find something else to do with your time spent!

[emochich23]

@mastermickg stop hateing if your going to hate on "him" then your going to have to hate on me too because i am just the same and no not every one handles there problems without self harm 1 in 10 "teens"self harm so he is not the only one i do it so that makes 2. 3 of my friends do it soo thats makes 5 and how many more ppl do you think do it ? so stop hating of differnce and help us change.

[burningmoonpw]

@mastermickg It's an addiction, just like being an alcoholic or a drug addict. It's not easy to just quit. Unless there is something THAT WORKS to take the place of the cutting, stopping can do more harm than good.

[bleedingheart51]

the person who makes these videos im 13 and im kinda like u and evreything uve said ive tried. ive been trying to stop 4 a while. 5 years ago is when i started n ended up in the hospital 5 imes because of it and my parents dnt knw. i hope u the best at getting help and not cut or have suicidal thoughts any longer. so ppl (like me) look up to cutters tht have cut for many years and beat the olds.

- a hoping teenager

[hyeagooo]

The fact of the matter is... is that people cut to AVOID SUICIDE!!! hear me out. they use cutting to get rid of the depression and emotional pain in their minds... but if one were to commit suicide, then they would want that and just to permanantly make the pain go away. i know that was a bad explanation.. but think about it like this.. cutting takes off the edge of those thoughts so that you dont commit suicide.. i know this as fact, well in my life. thank you very much for making these vidoes.

[Miranda96Paige]

thats sad :(...i cut myself really bad to..to where i had to go to the E.R. and i was on anti depresents but they never helped me so i stopped... i had also stopped eating for a long time because there is so much stress in my family and all around my hometown..i had also tried to kill myself i had slit my throat and thats y i went to the E.R. so i have to go to counsiling which ive been going for 2 months

[lostandlonely25]

i here you say you have nothing left to live for.but then i look at all the comments and all the people who support you.i'm 16 and i've selfharmed since i was 5. up until this point only a select few have known about it.i know that i will have to live for the rest of my life with my scars. I'm desprately trying to quit, and hearing your story is helping realise that i do need help you say you have nothing left yet you've helped so many, and havent even realised it

[fobserenade]

im 15 nd ive self harmed for 3 yrs nd until recently no1 knew they say the will help but ive given up on people now im fed up if trustin people nd it nt gttin to nything they dnt realise how much it toke for me to tell some1 so ive decided to go cold turkey and i havent cut for bout 2 weeks now but it was my way of handling my emoctions ive done this before an im scared ive become really angry due to not doin it but i was like this last time nd iknow wen i give in it will be really vicious help!

[bubblybeccabear]

Ohh honey please stopD,: this isnt good. trust me i know, i've been doing it for 2 years. i know what its like to want to die everyday, but it gets better(: trust me(:

[Christina51892]

They're getting worse, deeper, and wider. PLEASE stop. I can understand your situation about losing the only one you were living for, but I promise you, life goes on. I know from experience. I can relate. I used to cut and still do occasionally. My psychiatrist said it's a sign that I was molested though and people will know that. However, people are not smart enough and never have asked me that. But, I guess she's just trying to help. Regardless, please talk to someone, even me if you want. <3

[Christina51892]

Wow. I have a few of those wide, puffy, purple scars, but mine are definitely not that big. Thank God. That's awful. Those will never go away and neither will mine. People always ask about mine. You need to stop. I watched all your videos and now I'm crying. D': Fuck waiting for the psychologist. I'll be your psychologist. I can't prescribe you medicine or be there for you in real life, but you can talk to me whenever and I'll try to help :'( I'm glad I didn't get that bad and keep getting worse

[Christina51892]

omg. I feel the same way. The walking around like a zombie, just living, and living to die feeling. I call it being numb. I told my psychiatrist a few years back to try to get help for it, but he didn't understand what I meant. I didn't bother to try to really explain because I felt so weird for feeling it. I still feel it. It's the worst feeling in the world. But I guess it coincides with depression.I just feel like I don't exist...like my life is just a dream.Well,more like a nightmare,but ya

[MrRocketpowerG]

im so sorry baby. i ccut to. its hard can we help eachother through it? say yes to mrrocketpowerg's friend request. ill be here for you no madder what i promise:)

[daiseylover101]

thanks for reminding me why i stopped. i think i was very close to ending up dead a few times. not ever on purpose though.... i only have a few scars like the big ones that you have, but i regret all of them, even the ones that have faded...in 6 days i will have gone 27 weeks without cutting or harming myself on purpose. after 4 years, it was hard to do.

i have faith in you that you can stop if you find the right proccess i know that finding it is extremely hard but if i can do it, so can you.

[pegasusmarsters]

I hope you're okay. You can always inbox me if you want to talk. I've been there, I've cut, I've tried to kill myself. You're not alone.

[xmcflyxxx]

It's true telling your folks about it does make you feel better I know cos I did and my mum was okay with it

[Strawburry01]

0.45 is what my cut looks like.

[ImInTheMCRmy2468]

when my parents found out, i was checked on every 5 seconds. i hated it at the time, well i was only 12-13 years old. now i realize that they only wanted the best for me. at the time, i just shut myself out. i always wanted to die, anything, but eventually i opened up. i still self harm occasionally, but not a lot anymore. i found a really happy medium in my life, even if it is far from perfect. i wish you the best outcome out of this. really, i do. it sucks so bad to be like this. hang in there

[mu9se]

I hope you keep on fighting. For everyone who's heard your name and everyone who's watched one of your videos. For everyone who's said 'If you can keep fighting, so can I'. Good luck!

[TheUnknownWonder]

if you are truly done with life and are sure that you don't want to live anymore, like just want to die no matter what, not considering the feelings your family, your friends and everyone else around you, and are 110% sure you want to die, send me a PM, ill tell you a way to do exactly what you want without killing yourself (yeah, basically you'll be dead yet you'll be alive)

[TheUnknownWonder]

@TheUnknownWonder PS i'd know that it works because of personal experience ;)

[TheUnknownWonder]

0:25, 0:43, 0:50, 0:55, how'd you give yourself such cuts? like what tool did you use? just curious... cuz they seem too fat to be a razor

[daiseylover101]

@TheUnknownWonder

its not that hard to get cuts like that from razor blades. if you go deep enough, that's what happens. i am speaking from experience on that. it sucks, but its true.

[TheUnknownWonder]

@daiseylover101 yeah, my latest cuts have become similar to the one in the video, but what i still don't get is that the blade is so thin, but if u measure the thickness of the cuts, its way to big, so it sorta baffles me to see that, at the same time, its sorta amazing how such thin blade can produce a wound of such width

[daiseylover101]

@TheUnknownWonder

it doesn't matter if the blade is thin. if you go deep enough the skin pulls apart and the wound gapes open...

[emjay1357]

Im a self harmer Have been for going on seven years now.thank you, truly. I know im not alone.I too have O'Ded. 4 times, twice ending up in the ICU.I still find it hard, its still a struggle. And it always will be,The pain and cravings will lessen, and you may still think about it. BUT hopefully by then you can flick them off your shoulder knowing that people care, understand and believe in you &maybe have better stragagies. And whether you believe it or not, i wish the absolute best for you xx

[TirzaDidden]

be strong! I did it for years and I almost completely stopt! in the last halve year, I only did it twice and not even deep.. the urge is still there, but it is so much lighter.. so it's really possible to stop..

[Cutiter]

SoLostinYou, Are you still with us? You are i know, surviving as you do, plod along but quite active aren't ya, in self harm, Its wearing your emotions on the outside, its punishing yourself instead of punishing others

Its very commendable of you, your heart is in the right place, but torn

[Sha1Nick2R3Random]

I know exactly how you feel.. the one thing i had that kept me going is gone.. and everything isgetting worse, but we all have to remmeber, we have to fight togehter, so if you ever need a buddy to fight along your side, and can understand a little bit of what youve been through. im here

[TheSchizophrenicPsyc]

just find that one thought that makes you happiest and try to but the blade (or whatever you use) down. it is all that works for me, and i still end up returning to my blade. your video helped me realize that i am not alone, even though i have friends who cut i still felt out of place. i hope you are still with us and that you will find the one thing that helps, even if it is only for a little while.

[survar]

wat did u use to cut with. i see little cut and gashes. wat did u use for the gashes?

[RachCharproduction]

I'm in the same place as you I've just been put on the waiting list :( not a fun place to be.

[XxDeathlyTearsxX]

This vid was just amazing. It made just start to cry... And just think everything over about life. Don't give in.

[RealLoveNeverEnds1]

thank you for this vid! hope you're better, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, let me know<3

[imanmjfanforever]

the only thing that helps my need to stop....is when i think of my mum, she was beaten, abused, mentally, physically, sexually, by her father, she was poor, same with my dad, lived in a non-blood related family who threw him around like trash and had to live each day with a smile, my parents are the strongest people i ever knew...when i think of it that way, my problems don't seem so big, i mean if my parents cope that without self harm, i can do anything, i'm trying to stop....i am.

[livi11elmo]

wow great video!!! watching this video i actually told my parents......they werent happy but now i am getting help after 6 years with self injury

[CaillaWWJD]

I have a friend who cuts. She said a wasn't supposed to tell anybody, but I'm worried about her! What can I say that would help?

[JustxAnotherxCut]

@CaillaWWJD

Just be there for her and listen to her if she wants to talk. Encourage her to tell someone and get help like a Dr or something. Just let her know you care about her and u r there

[CaillaWWJD]

@JustxAnotherxCut

I've been doing that ever since I found out (minus the Dr thing), and I'm happy to say that she hasn't cut in over a month!

[SoLostInYou]

Thanks for the comments everyone. :)

[fourtywpm]

Hi, I came by the video by random chance.I don't know of anyone that has this issue but I just thought I'd take a look out of curiosity.Anyway, meds are in my opinion a bad solution for depression.One of the best things I've ever learned was that excercise(cardiovascular,anaer­obic exercise) is used to treat depression.I'm not depressed myself but ever since I started intense excercise everything's been brighter, more uplifting of couse except when I get into work ;) Research it, it's good stuff.

[kaciecharise2]

@SoLostInYou Hello. it's almost been a year since my last cut.My left arm is severely scarred.My advice is to find your own safe alternatives to cutting.I made my own coping skills.Keep in mind that one thing wasn't always the answer for each episode.Different things worked different times. I am still in therapy, but I am doing better.I have lived through 30+ OD's, and 5 ICU visits. So keep in mind that it can be done. On December 9th, it will be 8 months since I've been hospitalized.

[earthling1984]

Just wanted to post that I watched your vids and hope your still with us!

[1TreeHGirl]

Please don't give up,don't ever give up in fighting for your life,no one should ever give up.Its a gift,no matter how bad it is just remember it will be fine one day you just have to believe. <3 Please stay safe,all Self injurers <3

[siobhannugent]

hang in there u will make it though stay postive think of things that make u feel better all the good times u had all the great people you have met chin up keep fighting :)

you will get though this dont give up

[daphna18]

I used to self harm. it ended 2 years ago. i used to watch these pictures and be.. relieved. i can't explain it, but it felt right, seeing wounds and blood. now, though, it feels disgusting. now i know i'm over it completely. i can't bare looking at it, it makes me sick to my stomach. those of you who self harm themselves- seek help.. seek help before it's too late and before you'll have too many scars to be wearing short sleeves. good luck.

[icantbefcuked]

i told my parents but all the seem to do is smother me with things i dont want from them, i just want them to show they care not try a cover it up by givin me money or lettin me go out and get pissed or what ever

your vids have really made me stop and think what i could turn out like in 3 years time . thankyou for your time to make nd post these vids

[batmanjwb]

nice work. I si I have been since I was 9 I'm 29 now. I have no intention of stopping but if you do thats cool. you will always have your beauty marks.

[IdaSonic93]

Ah. I remember the days I used to cut. I mutilated my right leg like crazy. I had posted my suicide note on my blog and a view called the police. I got sent to a mental hospital.. I do miss cutting SO MUCH. I'm addicted to pain. Oh I love it so much. I not pull off scabs. Not very satistfying, though. I have faith in you, Dan. I really do. Every night I pray that you get well.

[alicialovehate]

frist off i would like to say your the stragest prosen i have ever seen that says alot i have seen alot i am all so a self hamer well kind of 5 months good the last 3 been unbaerable but i well try to stay go as you should to in a wired way i need you you give me hope you insper me if you can go be that bad a still have hope will i should to stay in there and thank you soo very much :)

[MaddyIsHere69]

it made me cry i feel very depressed latly and often hav suicidle thoughts in my head but after watching ur videos its made me realise even if the thoughts are there but to never act upon them

[christiechloroform]

I know things are really hard for you right now, but you just have to remind yourself that everything will get better, you will recover one day. I used to be a self harmer too, I cut and burned myself all the time. I was addicted to it, but I haven't self harmed in 4 months now. I believe in you, and I'm proud of you for trying to recover. I believe you can do it. [:

[webbyyork77]

hey man i dont self harm or burn by i do know someone who does and he reall needs help and so do you... I know its hard to stop but you are cutting to dee, any deeper i thing that you may losse to much blood.... dont wory you will find help. hang in there bro!!!!!!!

[Azinoskateteam]

wow thats wierd chase lol

[XxBabiiShazxX]

i self harm and lost of my friends do to.(i am trying to stop) I think ur vids are great. thanks so much . x

[DravenErica]

crying

[kellyneedsausername]

hey .. i've been following your videos for a while now and only just caught up with this one cause i have been trying to "re-intergrate into society" and begin university

im sat here with tears in my eyes..

i've been cutting as you have been cutting

i also burn and scratch

but i have been learning from you too, learning how to recover.

thank you.

please live. i want you too and i dont even know you.

i've been 'clean' now for 74 days(feb 11 '09)

writing a song dedicted to you...

-silent one

[illalwayslovedogs]

i really do hope you get better my heart does out to you to have the courage to make these vids and post them on here, and you are so strong to even take the horrable comments on here but i am hoping that you stay strong and you do get the help you get. and you are saving peoples lives from posting these vids. stay strong and hang in there, there is a point in living even though it doesnt seem it at the moment there is a reason. stay strong *hug* xx

[kingadalou]

your description says you have no reason to live,well think about it for a sec,you only get to live once,no matter how bad it can be,it can alwayz get better,but its your choice

[V4MP1R3H34RT]

Hang in there.

You mean a lot to many more people than you know.

[staceyenn]

you're brave man. im 15 now ive been doing it since i was 13 i know it doesnt seem long but its long enough to understand how hard it is sometimes to handle things.

self harm isnt an illness no matter what anyone says.

hang in there man. they look pretty deep to me. just think about how many people you are helping just through your videos. you're saving live. i'm not going to say you have to stop because i know that doesnt work. but han in there mate.

im routing for you x

oh and thank you

[cemetrywalker]

=[ hugs hang in there xx im feeling like you atm and that video will help me through the night by tellnig me im not alone i only hope you can stay strong x your videos are one of the few things givin me hope of help xx

[usucks101]

i think you are scared to die!

bcoz if you really want to have suicide. Youre already dead. But your still here alive.

And stop telling people to go and get therapy bcoz you yourself disdnt even finish that therapy.

If you want to die. cut your carotyid vein in your neck that will finish your life. Bcoz thats the one you like.

[SoLostInYou]

I didn't finish the CBT, as the psychiactric nurse came to the conclusion that she couldn't help me. I am currently undergoing therapy with a Psychologist. And whilst it hasn't solved a lot thus far, it has helped with quite a bit.

I want to die, all the time. I self harm to subdue those feelings. I do it for the people I love and care about. I am well aware of where my arteries are. So if I ever want to end it, I know where they are, thanks for that. ;)

[TheChel555]

@usucks101 shut the fuck up you disgusting human being and get an education you are sick

[Speedy1319]

@usucks101 y would u say that u stupid fuk he needs help and i bet doctors will be happy to help him but u ur going to hell for just saying that

[blue1bubbles]

@usucks101

biatch!

dont say you have no one to talk to. a lot of people here offered to help you

[burningmoonpw]

@usucks101 Wow, really helpful comment there (sarcasm). I, too, feel like I want to die. All the time. But I know that's the disease talking. I know that there are great things out there that just haven't come my way yet. No one really wants to die. Even the ones that succeed at killing themselves. They just want the pain to stop and sometimes the only way that seems possible is to die. People like you make it hard to see the beauty in the world.

[Handgun126]

*sigh* i recently started cutting to...i try to be discrete cuz i know how my mom would react...she would just use it as a reason to send me away...im lost, idk why i wake up or who the hell even needs me...

[realbluemeanie]

I cannot put into words how much I want you to get well.

Please be strong. Please.

x

[lollydaniels]

Wow... Just seeing your previous scars reduce me to tears, it upsets me to see how someone can hate themselves so much... please talk to someone.. talk to me... stay safe.x

[EyeOfArtemis]

Cheers mate. I am a veteran of the Iraq War and I wanted to let you know that I did things over there that I regret.

I too suffer from depression although Im

not a cutter Im constantly having suicidal

thoughts and ideation.

I feel so bad for you though.

You really are doing terrible

things to yourself but youre aware of this. I Genuinely hope youll seek help and find someone who will listen to your story and identify with your pain and suffering.

Whatever your beliefs God be with you.

[Caliwannabe08]

I want to back you up in saying that SI is not an illness in itself. Again I am 35 and have done this since I was 16 or so. I suffer from Panic Disorder, OCD, Depression... These are the illnesses that cause me to cut. The panic disorder I believe is the one that is the most responsible. I am going to, again, plead with you to admit yourself to a hospital. Your cuts seem to be getting deeper & deeper. PLEASE, my dear one, PLEASE... admit yourself to a hospital. My words are desperate & with love

[Hoopybluefood]

I relate , watching and reading this is like looking into a mirror, I hope it gets better for you mate , thanks for the list of websites at the end of the vid .

[al1511]

what exactly triggers you to think about your cutting? i dont want to intrude but have you ever tried removing yourself from the situations that out you in that state of mind? something to try might be spending a few says strait with a good friend. ask him to help you stop.. i know if a m8 came 2 me for help i wouldnt hesitate to say no.. id put my life on hold for a friend. im sure yours would do the same

[Sammiiee02]

I wish i could over come this feeling, i can't really explain it, but somehow even in a croud of people, i still feel alone. i don't know what to do anymore, i cant take the pain,

[soundtrackiwalkto]

You're beautiful, cuts and all. I'm a 22yr old guy somewhere in brooklyn, and I can relate to your pain. Sometimes a cold steel blade listens better than a person. I've cut before. I've attempted suicide before. As of late, I'm actually thinking of going into a self-induced coma. I don't know exactly how though. Ill speak to you if you'd let me listen. I hope you find happiness, I can relate to you.

[nobodysXsecret]

OMG you are so stupid why do you want to do this get up heal and maybe get a job and do somthing with your life

[SoLostInYou]

I have a social life, and a full time job, thanks for the comment though. :)

[mysticalmagick]

let the ppl who cut, cut, it's our way of coping. It is not a sickness

[ThatllBeTheDay]

Actually, it is a sickness, but as someone who has been cutting on and off for four years, I know that it's not something that's easy to stop, no matter how much you want to.

[mysticalmagick]

It's really considered sickness now? wow, didn't know that.  I've been cutting for 3 years and it's gone from needing to, to now i just want to bleed.

[ThatllBeTheDay]

It's the same for me, my self esteem is a lot higher than it was when I was cutting on a regular basis, but it's an addiction now, I've come to like the way it feels and sometimes the way it looks.

[mysticalmagick]

i've fallen in love with the sight of blood after i started, and with scars.

[ThatllBeTheDay]

Same here. I'm also fascinated with the way scars look and heal on different parts of the body, so I've taken to cutting in places that are visible but are easy to make excuses for, like on my forehead.

[SoLostInYou]

Self harm in itself isn't a sickness, It's the by product of an illness, IE, Bi Polar/Borderline Personality Disorder/Depression/Anorexia etc, there are a number of different illnesses that can cause someone to self harm, I don't use the word "Sickness" though, but I do see myself as mentally ill.

[ThatllBeTheDay]

Maybe it's the product of an illness for you, but I don't have any sort of illness like that.

[SoLostInYou]

Self harm in itself, is not an illness, look it up in any medical book.

Self harm is the physical manifestation of a mental illness.

I really don't want to make it seem like I'm arguing, but, a lot of people are actually in denial, or, do not know of any mental illness, but people don't just self harm for no reason, or, having that reason as "I have the self harm illness."

See how silly that sounds? Hope I clarified what I meant. Take care.

[Caliwannabe08]

ThatllBeTheDay... Maybe in your circumstance you don't have a mental illness. It is possible that you are looking for attention and this is the way you receive what you cannot otherwise get. As you said, you tend to do it on your body in places that are clearly visible, that screams I need attention. Whatever the reason for cutting... it is not something that a person with a completely rational mind does. Odd question... but, does it turn you on? Could it be a fetish type of cutting?

[massimobestpalylol]

like you i was given anti-depressants for my cutting... when i was told i had improved enough to stop taking them i started cutting again to have them re-subscribed. the happiness is incredible in my opinion. kills off the fact that i cant talk to anyone about my bad day at school. about the my best friend that doesnt see me anymore because hes moved out of the country to live with his girlfriend.

[XxXEm0bunnayzXxX]

- I still may be hurt inside. But i still know that I have hope in the future. I put removed the thorns and brought roses into my life. I always thought that suicide was the answer. But you can hang in there. For you can talk to me. I'm the one that really "understands" the situation your in. :) I understand your pain. If i were next to you i would give u a rose....... BTW those are beautiful cuts

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

##!~Chris~!##

[XxXEm0bunnayzXxX]

For I know how you feel. well i feel your pain. I did not cut myself.....well myabe once or twice. All that i felt was pain....misery. One night i was about to kill myself. But one of my friends came to keep me company. He told me that there is hope. just Don't give up on yourself. Your friends are with you always. They will help you get out of the darkness that surrounds you. And in to the light. This may sound weird coming from a 13 year old. But age is just a number. :) Now look at me. -

[SinOfYesterd]

why is my only question.

Why do this to your self?

[keffro]

Die please : )

[SoLostInYou]

What a great, and thought provoking response, I'm sure your parents are proud. Go you! :)

[hardrockerdave94]

"Die please" ???? If you knew some of the shit self harmers go through (me included) you wouldn't be such a cunt.

[SoLostInYou]

Oh, and yes, I feel bad off the anti depressants, and maybe taking myself off one of the highest doses wasn't smart, but, I did what I did, I was feeling bad then, too. Comparing if I felt worse then, to now, is a waste of time, as it all kinda blurs into one big mess. Hope you're doing okay. and I'm sorry to hear you went through a bad patch, but really glad to hear you overcame it, stronger than ever. Thanks for reading, take care.

[i0mikey0i]

one last thing if you reckon i dont understand i do, when i was 8 i did the same stuff for a few years but i stopped cos i realised bleeding aint gonna bring back the family members that died less than a metre from me. I moved on and now nothing can break me, look at it this way if you can get yourself out of this your a stronger person than the people who dont do it at all and not much will phase you afterwards.

[SoLostInYou]

I understand what you're saying, but as they say, everyone is different.

As it happens, I actually stopped trying to get her back, stopped obsessing, and we're basically back together again, but, I'm stronger in the fact that I don't feel as if I "Need" her, to live, or feel even remotley 'Happy'.

You could say, it made me better, being apart, and, as for attention seeking, it is human nature to seek attention, but I assure you, this is not attention seeking.

[i0mikey0i]

seriously mate this is attention seeking, no offence but it is, how does it help to post this and you pointed out yourself that when you got off the anti-depressants you got worse and anyways just stop sulking and either move on or try your hardest to get her back if you loved her that much why not.

[gracypoo89]

Well it is helpful in several ways. First, it helps educate people about the thoughts (however ridiculous and unsupported the may be) self injurers are having, and what they are doing to themselves. For me, It is triggering. It's kinda like porn to the intended audience.  You fall in the last category; the people who enjoy criticizing something they don't understand. Go online and do some research, though I doubt you actually want an answer to your question.

[gracypoo89]

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[thorns13]

I first have to say you're very brave for creating a video and telling your events that have triggered you as well as posting pictures. I have been a self-injurer for the past 6 years, and I also encourage you to hang on and genuinely hope things will begin to look up for you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. =]

Best Wishes.

[scottishladdy91]

i understand what you are going through. i was dumped by my one true love not that long ago and since i have had to keep all sharp objects far away from me. if you want to talk to someone who understands and will not just call you an attention wanter or an idiot send me a message and i will reply to it

[gracypoo89]

Hey, good video, beautiful cuts. If you need to talk to someone who actually understands and can hold a decently intelligent conversation shoot me a message. I recognize that you more than likely think that I'm just another person who "understands", so don't take my word for it, check out my video; I do understand.  Hope things turn around for you even though I'm sure they won't. Message me : P

[CradleOfRottingFlesh]

You do it because it helps,people deal with things differently,and sadly for some ppl self mutilation is the only way of release but sometimes all it does is encourage.

I am 13 and have been self harming since i was 8

Its not something im proud of but unfortunatley i developed mental health problems at a young age and thats how it happend

Im here if you ever need to talk and that goes for anybody,i may only be young but i know alot about self harm and mental health issues

You have my love

XxxxxX

[Tom0185]

Ok really, are you such a fag that you need to show your cuts on youtube. Like I can accept the fact (although not understand it) that cutting makes some people feel better, but are you really such a fucking attention whore that you need to put pics of it on youtube. All you are doing is starving for attention, try making something of your life, thats gets you attention and normally isnt nearly as painful.

[SoLostInYou]

I'm not starving attention, if I was, I'd show my face, and tell everyone who I was.

In real life, very few know, and they're always hidden. Please keep your rude comments to yourself, they're just really uneducated, and stupid.

[AlyssaBaby4280]

OH MYY GAWDDD

thts soo deep AAAHHHH

ew ew ew how the hell can u stand makn em deep like tht AHHH!!!

[pinkxsuicide420]

i have been cuttin since i was 12 i have lost all hope even got so bad that i dont think i cant be loved that i am to broken...yoour life sounds so much like mine and i hope your life gets better im here if you need to talk.take care<3

[XxRebelxX917]

My life has been terrible this year.

I thought i found the love of my life, but it was fake. This happened to me 3 times.

I don't get it...why me?

My best friend, katie.. has always been there for me. Shes the last real friend i will ever have.

I love her so very much, she tries tohelp me.

But i still think...why me?

Why does all of this have to happen to me?

I have been cutting for 9 months now, and i've been trying very hard to stop.

[litravis]

hang in there babe.

[smokexme]

Hey, great vid!

Be strong. Im a self-harmer too. i have been for almost 7 years now. im here if u wanna talk!

[pranksters2009]

hang in there

[firestarter661x]

dude, hang in there

theres always something to live for just around the corner, even if your mind keeps throwing up roadblocks

maybe theres something that can take your mind off the pain, like sports (sorry, thats not the most genius of suggestions but i really want to help you - i want to be a psychiatrist when im older)

be strong

:) xx

[xxsaraabaraaxx]

whatever you do dont kill yourself! you have a reason for living even though you might not see it there are people around you who care about you.(:

[hanbaybexxx]

what the hell!?WHY DO YOU DO TI,doesnt it hurt you,it looks so painfull,yes im depressed and i dojnt do that.

[MonaGritch]

In life, pain is inevitable. The more we endure it, the stronger we become.

You have the strength to stop, I know that you do, you just need to figure out how to use it. You have a lot of people that care about you.

There is a girl out there for you-be it this one or not-and when you meet her, I'm sure she'll have been worth the wait.

Please try to take care of yourself as best as you can. Just because you can't feel your significance in life doesn't mean it's not there.

Love and care, always

[mybuddyme]

wow your life sounds just like mine. I'm in like exactly the same hole. Thank god for YouTube cuz at least I know that there are other people out there who do this. Even tho most si are female. It's hard to find help with this being male and getting past all the stigma and so on. Hope your broken heart, like mine, will soon mend. Hope this year doesn't suck so bad.

[ameliasmith88]

Even though im feeling pretty down at the moment I like to think that there is still hope. Hope that living is better than dying. Please visit my blog at 'reach4themoon' dot 'tk' and comment on my self harm posts?? Take care x

[ameliasmith88]

I cant say I know how you feel but i think im getting there. Ive been self harming for 3 years now and it just seems to be getting worse. But watching your video has helped me fight the cravings, it forces me to remember the mess, the scars and the guilt for having succumbed.

[iamacrazychic]

im not going to say i know how you feel because i don't. plz don't atempt suicide. they're always always help even though you don't feel like it. im sorry about you & your girl but they're more things in life to live for. i hope someday u get better & be happy & get all the good shit u deserve. hang in there everything is going to get better.

[LovEmbers]

the world is unkind but yet we can find kindness. Seek the light when the darkness surronds you. Kindness is the reassuring hand to help guide the times you may need it most so find it and give it and you will feel pure.

The world may be harsh and it may feel heavy on you but you affect the world in so many ways the pain and anguish can disapate. Help others and help them know that you can be healed of the pain. Give them hope and survive

[SoLostInYou]

What a beautiful comment.

Thanks a lot.

[xlexylushx]

i know what its like to have scars and to hurt. i am yearning so badly for someone to notice and to like me for who i am. i just want to be able to love someone again. but i am so afraid of getting hurt, again. i have seen all of your videos and am constantly keeping an eye out for more. i want someone to coincidentally notice my scars and how new they are, but i am also so scared of someone finding out my secret. if you ever, ever wanna talk. im here.

xlexylushx

[Tigger6965]

i just want to say that i think ur vids are great i aint taken da piss cuz i few people might take that the wrong way but this may seem strange but when i have watched ur vids it has stopped me from cutting up n i just want to say thank you but not just from me from my lil girl aswell

[addictedtocutting]

hun takin ur self off antidepressants is the worst thing especially if ur gp doesnt know i ended up doing tht myself i went from being really happy then really low so quickly an i end3ed up taking an overdose wish u the best of luck for recovery

[fontario4]

I know exactly how you feel, i was ready to kill myself last night but for some reason i didn't and had a friend come over so i wouldn't be alone, i still want to i'm always thinking about it, i mostly won't because i'm scared, od's make you sick and may take you days to die, hanging hurts, any way you kill yourself will basically hurt, so that's keeping me from it, and maybe some other things i'm not sure, you can message me if you need anyone to talk to, i'm sure we have plenty in common

[Chelseaxo376]

just think of the future.

your future, a future fullof happiness.

someday, you'll get married, maybe have kids and think of all the possibilities that the future holds. imagine a better life, a happy life. that's the only thing that is keeping me still here..

[Chelseaxo376]

i want you to get better.

i blame the world.

i will pray for you

just dont give up.