You are so clear in your explanations and descriptions, that makes it so much easier for me to understand and relate to. Also, I like your (self-) ironic comments and dry wit, you bring in from time to time in your vids, even if you seem not so cheered up. Great work!
I no longer agree. I see mania as a reaction against deeper depression. The more I compensate for depression the more of my life that just goes down the drain. In the end I am alone no matter how much I kid myself.
I am glad you were able to find help. I have never heard of Miralex and can only find information about a skin cream and shampoo for psoriasis by that name.
The slow movement and talking and eye closing is not an effect of the medication. That is all an effect of depression and mixed episodes. I don't talk like that anymore since my medication got adjusted.
Because I have textbook symptoms over a period of many years confirmed by medical doctors, psychiatric doctors, and other mental health care professionals. My symptoms are relieved when I take medication targeted to treat bipolar symptomns, such as lithium. My videos on why I chose medication will answer any questions you have-titled Decision to take meds.
symptoms like being hyperactive [wot's wrong with being hyperactive?] how do u know u're depressed? plus how can these psychiatrists etc prove u hav a 'chemical imbalance'? the reason i ask is cos i've heard a number of times that bipolar is bullshit! im not saying that 2 b aprick just 2 find out stuff
For me mania includes euphoria, hypergraphia, insomnia, physical restless, social intrusiveness, talkativeness, intrusive sexual-violent thoughts, delusions of grandeur, memory delusions, risky behavior that only occurs during those episodes, sometimes irritability, emotional volatility - throwing things, breaking things, swearing & lashing out without warning.
And racing thoughts, flight of ideas - so bad I can't finish a sentence, I interrupt & talk over people, and sometimes paranoid delusions and auditory hallucinations. Mixed episodes bring the physical restlessness, racing thoughts, insomnia of mania and the pessimistic thoughts and beliefs of depression OR mania & depression rapidly alternating over a period of weeks or months.
Depression brings slow talking, slow thinking, slow moving, apathy, lack of motivation, fatigue, hypersomnia OR pacing, worrying, sobbing fits, insomnia but most usually they alternate a few days blank a few days sobbing. I am often suicidal. I have been so slow I was pretty much catatonic. Did you watch the videos? I say all of this in them. I prefer the meds to being a danger to others & myself. I have none of these features when I am not in a mood episode. The disorder isn't my personality.
yeah but here's the thing, loads of people get depressed/irratble and wot's worng with euphoria or hyperactivity? There must be something that YOU do to create the depression, for example people become depressed wen they start saying 'y is life so fucked' in a really slow depressing voice to themselves, it's just that most people rnt consious of doing those things, and do u hav cycles? in which case how does ur neurology know wen to b manic etc?
It is obvious you do not understand much about bipolar disorder/manic depression. I can't force it on you. But I can assure you, my behavior is dangerous to myself & others when I do not have the medication I need to control my symptoms of bipolar disorder. I am responsible not just for myself, but for everyone else out there as well. I prefer to be NOT delusional, have NO hallucinations, sleep & be as independent as possible. That is why I take my medication for my bipolar disorder.
The depressions and manias of bipolar often come about without regard to life situations. I had everything going for me & was a-ok until depression changed my outlook-my situation did not change spurring a depression. Same for mania. There are triggers, of course. Not enough sleep, for example.
If you need more information I invite you to watch more of my videos and to look into current reading materials that are from a variety of viewpoints. I don't advise suggesting 'it's all in your head' & 'just think happy thoughts & you'll feel better'...
@PennyAnn25 I didn't sleep for 16 months. Finally was put on Miralex. Suicidal thoughts have ended. I'm finally feeling like things might in fact get better. It was my GP that helped me, not my shrink.
im 15 and also have bipolar disorder. Im a very creative person, and studies have shown a link between bipolar disorder and that. as far as being into the punk rock movement....i grew up around it because of my mom and LOVE it.....my thoughts are all over the place too....and it sometimes seems as if what im trying to get at in my brain is a bit out of reach....im told there is ALSO a link between information processing and the disorder ...so just a little tid bit of information for ya :]
Thanks. I know about studies and talk about a link between bipolar disorder and creativity. There is a little controversy on that topic, but I believe we can access some areas of the brain better or differently because of the disorder. The problems with information processing and memory, I have heard a lot of people who have had the disorder for a while talk about this getting worse over time. I'm 38 now & have found this out to be true for myself.
"...or talking in front of the camera to do a blog."
So have you been able to chart your baseline sense of humor? ;)
selffamily1 3 months ago
You are so clear in your explanations and descriptions, that makes it so much easier for me to understand and relate to. Also, I like your (self-) ironic comments and dry wit, you bring in from time to time in your vids, even if you seem not so cheered up. Great work!
Mishale1970 11 months ago
@Mishale1970 Thank you. It seems like I am doing even better than I thought.
PennyAnn25 11 months ago
I no longer agree. I see mania as a reaction against deeper depression. The more I compensate for depression the more of my life that just goes down the drain. In the end I am alone no matter how much I kid myself.
MonacoBlast 2 years ago
@MonacoBlast
I am glad you were able to find help. I have never heard of Miralex and can only find information about a skin cream and shampoo for psoriasis by that name.
PennyAnn25 1 year ago
wtf is up with u? u seriously need to stop taking the medication
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
WTF is up with you? Maybe you should watch my videos where I explain why I choose to take medication before you start typing.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
The slow movement and talking and eye closing is not an effect of the medication. That is all an effect of depression and mixed episodes. I don't talk like that anymore since my medication got adjusted.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
alright then here's a simple question - how do u know that u r bipolar?
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
Because I have textbook symptoms over a period of many years confirmed by medical doctors, psychiatric doctors, and other mental health care professionals. My symptoms are relieved when I take medication targeted to treat bipolar symptomns, such as lithium. My videos on why I chose medication will answer any questions you have-titled Decision to take meds.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
symptoms like being hyperactive [wot's wrong with being hyperactive?] how do u know u're depressed? plus how can these psychiatrists etc prove u hav a 'chemical imbalance'? the reason i ask is cos i've heard a number of times that bipolar is bullshit! im not saying that 2 b aprick just 2 find out stuff
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
For me mania includes euphoria, hypergraphia, insomnia, physical restless, social intrusiveness, talkativeness, intrusive sexual-violent thoughts, delusions of grandeur, memory delusions, risky behavior that only occurs during those episodes, sometimes irritability, emotional volatility - throwing things, breaking things, swearing & lashing out without warning.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
And racing thoughts, flight of ideas - so bad I can't finish a sentence, I interrupt & talk over people, and sometimes paranoid delusions and auditory hallucinations. Mixed episodes bring the physical restlessness, racing thoughts, insomnia of mania and the pessimistic thoughts and beliefs of depression OR mania & depression rapidly alternating over a period of weeks or months.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
Depression brings slow talking, slow thinking, slow moving, apathy, lack of motivation, fatigue, hypersomnia OR pacing, worrying, sobbing fits, insomnia but most usually they alternate a few days blank a few days sobbing. I am often suicidal. I have been so slow I was pretty much catatonic. Did you watch the videos? I say all of this in them. I prefer the meds to being a danger to others & myself. I have none of these features when I am not in a mood episode. The disorder isn't my personality.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
yeah but here's the thing, loads of people get depressed/irratble and wot's worng with euphoria or hyperactivity? There must be something that YOU do to create the depression, for example people become depressed wen they start saying 'y is life so fucked' in a really slow depressing voice to themselves, it's just that most people rnt consious of doing those things, and do u hav cycles? in which case how does ur neurology know wen to b manic etc?
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
It is obvious you do not understand much about bipolar disorder/manic depression. I can't force it on you. But I can assure you, my behavior is dangerous to myself & others when I do not have the medication I need to control my symptoms of bipolar disorder. I am responsible not just for myself, but for everyone else out there as well. I prefer to be NOT delusional, have NO hallucinations, sleep & be as independent as possible. That is why I take my medication for my bipolar disorder.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
The depressions and manias of bipolar often come about without regard to life situations. I had everything going for me & was a-ok until depression changed my outlook-my situation did not change spurring a depression. Same for mania. There are triggers, of course. Not enough sleep, for example.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
If you need more information I invite you to watch more of my videos and to look into current reading materials that are from a variety of viewpoints. I don't advise suggesting 'it's all in your head' & 'just think happy thoughts & you'll feel better'...
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
@PennyAnn25 I didn't sleep for 16 months. Finally was put on Miralex. Suicidal thoughts have ended. I'm finally feeling like things might in fact get better. It was my GP that helped me, not my shrink.
MonacoBlast 1 year ago
this brave woman is coming out of the closet about manic depression.. literally.. I see coats!
itzjamiex 2 years ago
im 15 and also have bipolar disorder. Im a very creative person, and studies have shown a link between bipolar disorder and that. as far as being into the punk rock movement....i grew up around it because of my mom and LOVE it.....my thoughts are all over the place too....and it sometimes seems as if what im trying to get at in my brain is a bit out of reach....im told there is ALSO a link between information processing and the disorder ...so just a little tid bit of information for ya :]
sharpieexo 2 years ago
Thanks. I know about studies and talk about a link between bipolar disorder and creativity. There is a little controversy on that topic, but I believe we can access some areas of the brain better or differently because of the disorder. The problems with information processing and memory, I have heard a lot of people who have had the disorder for a while talk about this getting worse over time. I'm 38 now & have found this out to be true for myself.
PennyAnn25 2 years ago
Brilliant! 5*****Favorite! Thank you for explaining something I've gone through and which keeps me isolated.
saltyeggs71 2 years ago
This makes me feel better, Thanks again 5 stars
ben666wraith 2 years ago
Thank You, I Understand, our minds really plays tricks on us dont they? Do we just ignore it to go back to normality?
ben666wraith 2 years ago
This is a terrific video well done! Very well done.
shoegalsho 2 years ago 4
Thank you!
PennyAnn25 2 years ago