i don't understand this collegestudent person's bashing, geez. And i'm a plain straight girl. How come i understand and accept what you're saying more than this person??? That's fucked up. Nyway
just curious, you want to be called "he" i guess? I mean, if yes then i don't see why more "proof" of your trans-ness (wee new words) is needed. If not, then, well i am a bit confused but still open-minded enough to want to understand (if you want to answer that)
I've just been watching some of your videos and I think it's really interesting how you dont necessarily conform and question what it means to be a trans man etc.. I also like that at the same time you are realistic about how yr views/preferences may in fact change in the future. It is always great to see someone just being themselves either way. Personally as a lesbian and feel I have both many 'stereotypical' qualities to myself and many which are just very much not! Confusing people is great.
You are so funny! Your honesty with yourself rocks. Can be hard when other people don't understand and even people in the trans community try to box you in. It's like 'really? We're going to do this to ourselves?!' lol. So anyway, thank you for sharing your experience.
"I want to be feminine. I don't want to look *that* masculine. I don't want to be on T. I don't want surgery." Ok, so what part is TRANS about you again? O.o Sorry, I think I'm missing something here. Sounds to me like you're comfortable in a FEMALE identity.
Wow. Could you be any more unsure of anything about yourself? "Lesbian transman"? Really? O.o Oh, go on and off T, pick and choose whatever effects you like and don't like. Hey, transition is all just a fun game, right!? Hey, let's all play! -___- Maybe the reason you're happier with yourself and have this sense of "calm", because you realized transition was a MISTAKE for you, and you're FEMALE. And yeah..you ARE "detransitioning". Actually, you probably should have never started.
This is cool. I can kind of relate to you, although I do not consider myself trans (I'm a lesbian). I pretty much have no 'gender identity', though I like masculinity and androgyny. I identify as female still, just because my body is female.
i think this is epic :) i LOVE the way you somehow by chance agree with everything i believe in xP you're awesome and i wanna watch all your videos now! xD
Hey man about the surgery wouldn't you want to get it just so u don't have to wear a binder? like me I'm not self conscious of my body at ALL but i can't wait to get top surgery so i never have to wear a stupid binder..and I'm like pretty much flat anyway..so you trans guys with a big chest i don't know how you to it!
ok is it possible 2 just take T or something 2 get ones voice low.and sideburns stuff or something...and like not get top surgery or a penis....also would it stop the once a month thing?
@smackdownvsrawrocks you cannot choose the effects of T that you want. If you go on T youll get all the effects eventually. Your voice will drop, you will get facial hair, your hairline MAY recede, your body fat will redistribute and your monthly thing will go away after a couple months. You do not need top surgery or a penis for this.... watch my "trans enough" video :)
I'm sorry but people considering themself a male when they aren't or vice versa doesn't make since...you either have a penis when you are born or you don't...male or female is describing someone who is either male or female not by whether they are masculine or feminine..just because you are a feminine male that likes men or women whichever, it does not mean that you are not male. Male or female is a BIOLOGICAL characteristic...it has nothing to do with the type of person you are.
@crabchick100 I'm sorry but people who choose to comment on this video negatively without the slightest idea of the difference between sex and gender have no business leaving comments like this.
Idk if you're familiar with this channel, but freshlycharles does a reflective piece on the topic of detransitioning and I think the more we can alleviate the vilification of people going through that process, the better.
I'd love to hear what you have to say about this. What do you think?
I'm a (fairly gay-to-pansexual) non-packing ftm and after I get chest surgery and am on t for a year or two, I feel comfortable about stopping and have experienced a bit of scare concerning the medical aspects of shifting back to naturally body-produced hormones.
I'm a gay-pan trannyboi-- That's how it is. LOL. Radical Fae shit to the /max/. Thanks for this video, dude. I hope, though, we later become more able to assess the "detransition" subject a little more positively! {-}
OMG, you're so so cutee! (: I'm happy that you're confident with your body now, good luck for everything. I hope my boyfriend will find peace just like you.
i felt weird being gay once i learned about transgender, i am a comfortable gay always have been, but trans made me think.. wait am i suppose to waant to be a boy bc i like girls?? bc i dont i dont feeeel like a boy at all! i am female hear me roar! lol i just learned that turns out im actually "straight" im a girl who loves boys, who are born girls(: lol try that one on for size(: lol enjoyed your videos!! continue to post(:
Dude! I think I'm in love! God I wish there were more guys around like you, Gavn and Charles a few years ago I probably would have transitioned in my late teens instead of stuffing myself back in the closet for six years. I only recently secretly realized that I would love to be mistaken for a homosexual flamboyant male, that idea just made me feel so...warm and fuzzy? I've never even been femme but I'd love to be a beautiful boy! Something about that just seems so appealing. Glad I'm not alone.
this is the most confusing think i have ever heard to be honest. But after hearing you talk about it more like the feelings you have and your point of view on labels and ect. I kinda got what you meant and it makes me realize that I am that kind of person too. I proud of being a lesbian but there are parts of me that want to be more of a man, to look more like man.
You have such a healthy way of looking at things! "I'll do it because it makes me feel good" - YES! That's how it ought to be.
Personally I can't wait for surgery, but as for T... I'm scared of needles. That is seriously the biggest draw-back ever. So going on it to change my voice, look a little manlier... then withdraw... that sounds good. Except the monthly thing.
@EnkiduPathos god im gonna sound like such a fucking ignoramous when i ask this (my bf is trans and i am always being like but...) how are you are straight guy if you like guys? no hate here obviously, i just am curious :)
You were saying it was no big deal to just go back on T for a few months to give you sort of a booster, but I'd caution you to go on and off testosterone. Hormones are potent, and putting varying levels of them in your body can have adverse effects.
Talk to your physician about it so they can monitor your health.
I'm a straight girl, just turned 16, and i watch you're videos all the time now, and im not even trans but i love u!. my best friend is ftm transgender and we've been friends since we were 2 years old the whole time he had been a girl and within the last 6 months - a year he's been starting to transition. i dont know much about it or what he's thinking about becuz we dont talk about it alot but ur vids have helped me so much. ur really inspiring and make me feel better about myself. ur fantastic
@Maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxim Everyone is different, and testosterone and surgery isn't for everyone. Starting testosterone or undergoing surgeries are personal choices. I would, however, recommend therapy for everyone in the trans community. Talking to a professional can help you sort out any concerns that you have about testosterone/surgery/anything. They're there to help you figure this stuff out.
You pole for opinion the minute you put of videos on YouTube. So don't bitch about the community because they give those opinions. No one really cares about you. Most have to much of their own shit to worry about.
btw I think it's rad that you identify as an ftm lesbian, right now I'm really into politically sexuality and relationships across identity. I identify sexually as a dyke but I would totally date a queer man. It messes with people's heads. :)
Omg, I have had the exact same experience but like the other way around. :) HRT for M2F is so much slower so it's taken like 4 years for me to pass dressed as butch. It's the best feeling ever! I never loved wearing mens clothes ever in my life till it was gender nonconforming. *high five*
btw Where did you get that flag? I need one of those in my room. :)
Hey man, jumping off and on T constantly is not good for the body so maybe best to get professional opinion about that. You should watch a video a friend of mine did about this, I found it to be pretty informative. His channel is BillyBarnacle and the vid is 'Low dose testosterone for FTM's." Anyways, glad to hear you are happy and doing well. I wish my hair would stop falling out also! That's definately a bonus in stopping T!
I love that you're the kind of trans* person that needs to be out there; too many transsexual people are pressuring others who identify as trans* or genderqueer to transition fully and I think it makes people make decisions they don't want to, hence the fact that detransitioning even exists.
I want to more about your transition, and hence will watch more of your videos, because I sort of want to do something like you're doing; no surgery, some T, and maybe find myself a happy medium. :)
Just sort of stumbled onto this from trying to find the "Trans* enough" project a friend linked me to.
You are *crazy*. But kind of in a good way. I like you. You kind of sound a bit genderqueer, and it's a bit inspirational to see people happy in the middle, or happy with themselves. I see far too much of the high and mighty "unless you plan to go all the way you're not really trans" attitude. I much prefer the "I'm a girl with a penis/boy with a vagina" attitude.
@CBoyd101, even the WPATH standards mention and accept as a good idea for some people the idea of only using hormones up to the point that makes the person happy with their results. You're wrong.
as a trans woman who also understands that kind of transition pressure and the distorted concept of passing which i talk about in a video as well "man i feel like a woman so i am one".. This is a great video! <3 I think you're a wondrous role model, love to see this kind of thing!
I guess I never felt I had to conform in my transition. I didn't transition within any community or around other trans guys. Which maybe the difference here. I did what I was comfortable with. But this message is important for any young guy out there. It can be a confusing time.
Yay for being a lesbian trans guy and owning an incongruous-seeming identity proudly! I identify as a genderqueer pan dyke, and my partner is bigender and almost never passes as female, but our relationship has increasingly drawn me towards using the word lesbian to describe myself. I'm a little confused, but very happy. Keep on being awesome and making videos, I'm subscribing to you right now!
you should do whatever makes you happy! I was on T for 2 years, then stopped for good. I found my comfort zone and that was it. BUT I do urge you to dig for some info on the long term affects of going on and off hormones especially since (I assume) you have not had a hysterectomy. There may not even be any legitimate long term research yet. T is a roller coaster and every time you go on and off you are putting your body through what you already know to be not 1 but 2 challenging transitions.
I love this. I have a friend that started his hormone therapy in November. I'm afraid that he thinks that the T is going to change his world when, in fact, he just needs to learn to love himself for who he is. He wants to be a bio-boy so badly; it breaks my heart, really.
@ryamary Every one is different, but for me T did change my world. It changed the way I felt I was being received by society. T provides facial hair,and muscle mass and for those with body disforia these things help. He is doing what he feels will help him love himself. I know it did me.
also chase, you don't have to explain yourself or justify any of your decisions in regards to your transition to anybody. it's your body and your life. but you know that already! and anyone who is cool knows that the best thing about the trans community is that it is so diverse and there are so many different forms of self-expression. mad respect for sharing your story though - very brave.
The social pressure of assignment; TG or the diagnosis GIDNOS (Gender Identity Disorder Not Otherwise Specified)
The term transgender (TG) coined in the 1970s by the American Virginia Charles Prince. She invented the term because it was so far no suitable word for her lifestyle: she lived as a woman but was physically a man.
Today, the TG term is defined & applied in various ways.
Two examples:
1 commuters; standing between the sexes, neither of the two sexes (m/f) classifier.
2 an upper or collective term for people who are temporarily or permanently change the gender.
Especially the second example is violent rejection from the majority of transsexual people; since the majority of transsexual people don't classify themselves in a (trans-) gender community. They perceive themselves as women, respectively men, and live integrated into society as a woman, respectively man.
thank you for your honesty, chase. your videos about your stopping T have been really comforting to me. it's so uplifting and inspiring to see how you have created your own path. i agree that there is huge pressure in the trans community to limit our gender identities/presentations...it's exhausting and frustrating but it's so refreshing to see you just being yourself and being so happy. <3
Thank you SO MUCH for this video. I've just started T and it feels like I'm the only dude who intends for it to be a short-term thing. I just want to pass, feel comfortable enough to be my flamboyant self, and then stop. Knowing that you feel good about yourself after ~ a year is such a relief and super encouraging. WINNING AT LIFE, YES YOU ARE.
Hey Chase, I know u speak french (cause of the "eille, on vas-tu au dépanneur sti?" comment you said on the NY video....). So, try to speak french again, it's so funny:)
Looking and sounding awesome! I just have a question for you about stopping T and your voice. It sounds good but does it feel like it's stopped in limbo? How is singing, like does your voice feel hoarse? Thanks <3
I plan on having a similar transition trajectory as you: Being on T for about a year and then going off of it, with no intention to have any surgeries. I'm very happy with my body, and I am okay with the "monthly shit" too. I find it very encouraging that more and more FTM-spectrum people are willing to talk about stopping T.
I think it's awesome that you feel comfortable coming off of t. I agree that there's a lot of pressure as a trans person to transition (I know that at times, because i'm a genderqueer person who at times is very comfortable with my body, that I feel "less trans" but that is bogus, identities aren't clubs!). This video was therapeutic and super cute as well and helps me and others keep in mind that we should love and own are own bodies, despite what others think. <3
Hey, what was permanent for you and if anything is better than before you started T or did it all go back to being how it was? I assume your voice was one of the things which is awesome, it sounds great! And can you talk more about your hair from when you started and stopped? Because I don't want to be on T long either especially because of the hair losing....
That was a very good video, but i didn’t get the “I still identify as a lesbian transguy” part like, i don’t know, the labels don’t go together ? I might have misunderstood this part though so more explanations would be more than welcome !
do what's best for you chase! im so happy that you feel really comfortable with yourself right now and transitioning doesnt have to be the only focus in your life! :)
I'm really glad that you're at a good place in your process! I've heard of a number of folks (mainly in the US) who cycle on and off T every so often so you're certainly not alone in that regard! I'd really encourage you to seek some medical advice on how this on/off might affect your body though, particularly your bones! I've found a counsellor who has helped me enormously with my sense of being transgender as well!
Totally agree on the trans heirachy pressure stuff too! Gross! Great vid!
You are so unbelievably awesome!! Good for you, man. Good for you. I am so glad you are happy. Hell you deserve to be, we all do. Keep posting vids because you are 100000% my favorite trans person on here!!
Chase, you're fab and you're so entertaining. As long as you're happy it does not matter what you do regarding hormones etc. Change your mind as much as you like. Have a trans liberation! Lol! Your sweater is superb! :)
i've read about someone who has transitioned from male to female to male to female. yeah three times. but it's like a big fuck you to people; the point is that gender is fluid right? anyway, another thing which i know has stopped a lot of periods- albeit unintentionally- is the mirena intrauterine birth control device for about 5 years. so that's an option i guess. ps: LOVE YOU CHASE.
I just watched a video almost right before this about a guy who's been on T for about 9 years and he feels that getting off T for an extended amount of time is a good thing for the body (or atleast if you're going to be on T for that long.) like a detox. I can understand that, but I'm not sure if that's something I may do, but anyway... I can understand why you went off T - at least based on the comfortability level you feel, which is awesome. Not everyone is the same, so I appreciate your POV.
have you thought about a uterine ablation? i had one done and although the monthly shit is still there it's BARELY perceptible and much easier to tolerate.
im sooo jealous that youre soo comfortable with your body. hopefully ill get there soon lol. also, love the trans flag in the background. ive been trying to get my hands on one but i cant find them ANYWHERE.
Power to you, Chase. So refreshing to see someone who is at peace with themselves and their body without having followed the typical trans prescription.
awesome video! i'm so glad you are happy with who you are. i love seeing that within people, i wish everyone could be. in the end of the day that's where everyone should be going. <3 much love
I am SOOOO happy that you are happy with yourself! That is all that any of us are trying to gain! You have found it and you don't need T for it- that's great! I love hearing that you feel comfortable with your body (and I'm kind of jealous.)
A topic that you've probably covered, but I still don't fully understand (note* I accept it, just don't personally get it) is the male lesbian thing. I know there are guys out there who identify as that, but it doesn't make sense to me. Can you explain???
I'd like to know if you've thought about estrogen-blockers. I'm at a point where I would feel comfortable without T (I've taken a few month-long breaks, but gone right back on after monthly-shit starts happening) but if I had any medical care providers to back me up, I'd totally stop taking T and just take estrogen-blockers, so monthly-shit would not happen but for the most part I'd stay physically the same. Thoughts/experiences?
I've got to agree with the comments from Mr Racked below. I think you'd benefit from talking to a professional counsellor about all of this. It appears from your videos from way back that u have a great deal of confusion where your gender is concerned. Frankly when one is as confused as you have been I would recommend doing nothing, not playing around with T. Long term effects of cycling on and off T can be serious and may not b immediately apparent, i.e bone fractures and osteoporosis in later
Have u been 2 counseling? I'm really surprised that any health care practitioner is allowing u 2 waffle back & forth between hormones. I totally get that it's ur body, ur choice, but it's really not healthy 4 u. Essentially hormones r 4 someone who feels they r in the wrong body, not an experiment for someone who thinks their face is slightly 2 feminine, or doesn't like their period. Honestly, show me one cis girl who does like it. What's the long term effects? Sounds like u r messing w/ fire.
Transitioning is not about staying on hormones for the rest of your life, it's to get to a point where you are comfortable with your body so much that it does not hinder your life. Some people only need to feminize/masculize themselves to where they are comfortable or able to pass, and others need to go all the way. Some people don't medically transition at all, but socially transition. It isn't all about results, but the journey itself to find the end.
@MrRacked Agree 100%. This is both alarming and disturbing that people buy this. This degree of naiveté is dangerous for the impressionable (this person included). Any proud lesbian (a woman who is sexually, physically, romantically attracted to other women) would feel appropriated that someone who identifies as a..."transMAN" is ("re")claiming that identity. It makes no sense what so ever. This is identity appropriation at its worst.
@CBoyd101 Dangerous combination. Hormones are not a toy for you kids for some sort of image make over. They are all we have to LIVE. To freaking live...I can't support this because it is both dangerous and nonsensical. Attempting to embody some sort of "special radicool oxymoron" does not make this okay. There are impressionable kids who are watching this who would feel it is alright to go on and off of hormones as they please...that's not the way it works. Not medically or logically.
I'm glad you're sharing your perspective and adding to the diversity. Keep it up. I'm glad to hear you are so comfortable with yourself now. Enjoy those vacations.
I think you should do what makes you feel comfortable and happy =], It nice to hear another way of feeling going through transition. Chances are some one else feels the same way and dosent know if anyone else feels that way and needs to hear it. It also shows theirs other options out there and still be considered transitioned.
You've probably already mentioned this in another video, but just as a reminder, I suppose - Any particular reason(s) as to why you personally identify as a lesbian transguy rather than just a transguy?
i think your videos great, good to hear a different perception of what trans means to the individual. I admire your confidence in yourself, keep it up!
dude you are the best. you are a role model to the entire community and I really appreciate you and look up to you a lot. <3 keep on rocking and doing it your way. you rock!!
Very interesting that you've decided to stop T! I haven't heard of any one doing that before, but I have been thinking about doing the same myself. I have not started my treatment yet, I am currently on a waiting list for my first meeting the psycologist (I live in Sweden) and my plan at the moment is to be on T for two years and have top surgery, then stop the T. Cuz just like you, I am super paranoid about losing my hair! How long after stopping did it take for the fat to redistribute(?) ? :)
you can change your mind every day for the rest of your life. it's yours so do with it what is best and truest to you. T seems like it was a good way to bring yourself out from your shy little shell. as long as you're being monitored, going on and off of hormones has been shown to be safe. the weight loss is likely loss of muscle mass. eat more - you're too thin! :) i feel like there's been a huge surge in emphasizing body image and sex appeal in the ftm community lately. it really sucks!
i don't understand this collegestudent person's bashing, geez. And i'm a plain straight girl. How come i understand and accept what you're saying more than this person??? That's fucked up. Nyway
just curious, you want to be called "he" i guess? I mean, if yes then i don't see why more "proof" of your trans-ness (wee new words) is needed. If not, then, well i am a bit confused but still open-minded enough to want to understand (if you want to answer that)
Tsuta86 35 minutes ago
I've just been watching some of your videos and I think it's really interesting how you dont necessarily conform and question what it means to be a trans man etc.. I also like that at the same time you are realistic about how yr views/preferences may in fact change in the future. It is always great to see someone just being themselves either way. Personally as a lesbian and feel I have both many 'stereotypical' qualities to myself and many which are just very much not! Confusing people is great.
cuppachar201 2 days ago
Thank you so much for being true to yourself and inspiring not just the lgbtq community, but everyone! It's great that you love the way that you are!
jessizrollin089 3 days ago
I want that flag.
Keldnark 3 days ago
You are so funny! Your honesty with yourself rocks. Can be hard when other people don't understand and even people in the trans community try to box you in. It's like 'really? We're going to do this to ourselves?!' lol. So anyway, thank you for sharing your experience.
couilluvdoc2b 4 days ago
I think you are so awesome! What a refreshing take on the usual. Thank you for sharing your confidence and experience! A true role model!
stefarino38 5 days ago
"I want to be feminine. I don't want to look *that* masculine. I don't want to be on T. I don't want surgery." Ok, so what part is TRANS about you again? O.o Sorry, I think I'm missing something here. Sounds to me like you're comfortable in a FEMALE identity.
collegestudent4peace 6 days ago
Wow. Could you be any more unsure of anything about yourself? "Lesbian transman"? Really? O.o Oh, go on and off T, pick and choose whatever effects you like and don't like. Hey, transition is all just a fun game, right!? Hey, let's all play! -___- Maybe the reason you're happier with yourself and have this sense of "calm", because you realized transition was a MISTAKE for you, and you're FEMALE. And yeah..you ARE "detransitioning". Actually, you probably should have never started.
collegestudent4peace 6 days ago
@collegestudent4peace geez i saw your comments on another video and i can't help wondering.. what the fuck do you know? are you in his head?
Tsuta86 33 minutes ago
Your personality is so chill haha you are really funny :)
Oxx3rinxxO 6 days ago
This is cool. I can kind of relate to you, although I do not consider myself trans (I'm a lesbian). I pretty much have no 'gender identity', though I like masculinity and androgyny. I identify as female still, just because my body is female.
SyKmGl 6 days ago
i think this is epic :) i LOVE the way you somehow by chance agree with everything i believe in xP you're awesome and i wanna watch all your videos now! xD
KasuganoAkira 1 week ago
Hey man about the surgery wouldn't you want to get it just so u don't have to wear a binder? like me I'm not self conscious of my body at ALL but i can't wait to get top surgery so i never have to wear a stupid binder..and I'm like pretty much flat anyway..so you trans guys with a big chest i don't know how you to it!
becomingdustin 1 week ago
ok is it possible 2 just take T or something 2 get ones voice low.and sideburns stuff or something...and like not get top surgery or a penis....also would it stop the once a month thing?
smackdownvsrawrocks 1 week ago
@smackdownvsrawrocks you cannot choose the effects of T that you want. If you go on T youll get all the effects eventually. Your voice will drop, you will get facial hair, your hairline MAY recede, your body fat will redistribute and your monthly thing will go away after a couple months. You do not need top surgery or a penis for this.... watch my "trans enough" video :)
uppercaseCHASE1 1 week ago
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Thanks a lot for this. I'm about where you are re: T and top surgery and your video pulled me out of a bummer of a night.
boschly 1 week ago
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Thanks a lot for this. I'm about where you are re: T and top surgery and your video pulled me out of a bummer of a night.
boschly 1 week ago
Thanks a lot for this. I'm about where you are re: T and top surgery and your video pulled me out of a bummer of a night.
boschly 1 week ago
I'm sorry but people considering themself a male when they aren't or vice versa doesn't make since...you either have a penis when you are born or you don't...male or female is describing someone who is either male or female not by whether they are masculine or feminine..just because you are a feminine male that likes men or women whichever, it does not mean that you are not male. Male or female is a BIOLOGICAL characteristic...it has nothing to do with the type of person you are.
crabchick100 2 weeks ago
@crabchick100 I'm sorry but people who choose to comment on this video negatively without the slightest idea of the difference between sex and gender have no business leaving comments like this.
uppercaseCHASE1 1 week ago 9
I totally get what you mean about being masculine enough to enjoy doing stereotypically feminine things. Thanks for posting this video
purplefrog42 2 weeks ago
You are so cool!!! <3 <3 <3
MaxMichelle18 2 weeks ago
Oh my goodness. XD You're adorable.
Cool video!
TTFAA 2 weeks ago
(Also:)
Idk if you're familiar with this channel, but freshlycharles does a reflective piece on the topic of detransitioning and I think the more we can alleviate the vilification of people going through that process, the better.
I'd love to hear what you have to say about this. What do you think?
Namaste,
Sabien.
StitchxHare 3 weeks ago
I'm a (fairly gay-to-pansexual) non-packing ftm and after I get chest surgery and am on t for a year or two, I feel comfortable about stopping and have experienced a bit of scare concerning the medical aspects of shifting back to naturally body-produced hormones.
I'm a gay-pan trannyboi-- That's how it is. LOL. Radical Fae shit to the /max/. Thanks for this video, dude. I hope, though, we later become more able to assess the "detransition" subject a little more positively! {-}
StitchxHare 3 weeks ago
OMG, you're so so cutee! (: I'm happy that you're confident with your body now, good luck for everything. I hope my boyfriend will find peace just like you.
love from Italy
annietwilight 3 weeks ago
i felt weird being gay once i learned about transgender, i am a comfortable gay always have been, but trans made me think.. wait am i suppose to waant to be a boy bc i like girls?? bc i dont i dont feeeel like a boy at all! i am female hear me roar! lol i just learned that turns out im actually "straight" im a girl who loves boys, who are born girls(: lol try that one on for size(: lol enjoyed your videos!! continue to post(:
tracimarieshannon 3 weeks ago
as an admirer, i really appreciate your videos bc its informative&& positive feedback about transitioning!!!!
i am a femme lesbian AND PROUD (: but i date transgender men, FTM only(: so the trans commuinty is important to me even though im not a trapped soul.
tracimarieshannon 3 weeks ago
Way to be, man. Way to be.
mrsguerrera 3 weeks ago
I love that you can be who you are and not be ashamed. You're inspirational :)
itsBA44 3 weeks ago
Dude! I think I'm in love! God I wish there were more guys around like you, Gavn and Charles a few years ago I probably would have transitioned in my late teens instead of stuffing myself back in the closet for six years. I only recently secretly realized that I would love to be mistaken for a homosexual flamboyant male, that idea just made me feel so...warm and fuzzy? I've never even been femme but I'd love to be a beautiful boy! Something about that just seems so appealing. Glad I'm not alone.
dorkofchops 3 weeks ago
Where did you get that jumper from? It's gorgeous!!
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I love the Oregon mug!
Fetrianne 1 month ago
this is the most confusing think i have ever heard to be honest. But after hearing you talk about it more like the feelings you have and your point of view on labels and ect. I kinda got what you meant and it makes me realize that I am that kind of person too. I proud of being a lesbian but there are parts of me that want to be more of a man, to look more like man.
Very inspiring thanks for making you videos <3
MonteyRoo 1 month ago
so helpful and informative! i also think i'm in love with you
spiceforce5 1 month ago
You have such a healthy way of looking at things! "I'll do it because it makes me feel good" - YES! That's how it ought to be.
Personally I can't wait for surgery, but as for T... I'm scared of needles. That is seriously the biggest draw-back ever. So going on it to change my voice, look a little manlier... then withdraw... that sounds good. Except the monthly thing.
chamaeleont 1 month ago
@EnkiduPathos god im gonna sound like such a fucking ignoramous when i ask this (my bf is trans and i am always being like but...) how are you are straight guy if you like guys? no hate here obviously, i just am curious :)
summerfae 1 month ago in playlist More videos from uppercaseCHASE1
what do you mean you are a lesbian trans guy? do you date woman or man?
amnieris 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
You were saying it was no big deal to just go back on T for a few months to give you sort of a booster, but I'd caution you to go on and off testosterone. Hormones are potent, and putting varying levels of them in your body can have adverse effects.
Talk to your physician about it so they can monitor your health.
NickSparkss 1 month ago
Hurray for guys who don't pack!
rahrahryn 1 month ago
I'm a straight girl, just turned 16, and i watch you're videos all the time now, and im not even trans but i love u!. my best friend is ftm transgender and we've been friends since we were 2 years old the whole time he had been a girl and within the last 6 months - a year he's been starting to transition. i dont know much about it or what he's thinking about becuz we dont talk about it alot but ur vids have helped me so much. ur really inspiring and make me feel better about myself. ur fantastic
anamaliams 1 month ago
I know you're off T now, but is it worth it to start? I want an honest opinion from someone in the trans community.
Maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxim 1 month ago
@Maxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxim Everyone is different, and testosterone and surgery isn't for everyone. Starting testosterone or undergoing surgeries are personal choices. I would, however, recommend therapy for everyone in the trans community. Talking to a professional can help you sort out any concerns that you have about testosterone/surgery/anything. They're there to help you figure this stuff out.
NickSparkss 1 month ago
you're cool. go you
burnedbythemoon 1 month ago
You are a role model. Be who you fucking want to be is what i got from this and i admire your attitude! :)
Sniper711 1 month ago
I want to take you out for brunch.
sailormoonxvx 1 month ago
YOU ARE FUCKING HOT!
sailormoonxvx 1 month ago
i really like your voice and personality.
alexandramegan 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
You pole for opinion the minute you put of videos on YouTube. So don't bitch about the community because they give those opinions. No one really cares about you. Most have to much of their own shit to worry about.
Hayleydippity 1 month ago
btw I think it's rad that you identify as an ftm lesbian, right now I'm really into politically sexuality and relationships across identity. I identify sexually as a dyke but I would totally date a queer man. It messes with people's heads. :)
blickblocks 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Omg, I have had the exact same experience but like the other way around. :) HRT for M2F is so much slower so it's taken like 4 years for me to pass dressed as butch. It's the best feeling ever! I never loved wearing mens clothes ever in my life till it was gender nonconforming. *high five*
btw Where did you get that flag? I need one of those in my room. :)
blickblocks 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Hey man, jumping off and on T constantly is not good for the body so maybe best to get professional opinion about that. You should watch a video a friend of mine did about this, I found it to be pretty informative. His channel is BillyBarnacle and the vid is 'Low dose testosterone for FTM's." Anyways, glad to hear you are happy and doing well. I wish my hair would stop falling out also! That's definately a bonus in stopping T!
AussieFTM 1 month ago
I love that you're the kind of trans* person that needs to be out there; too many transsexual people are pressuring others who identify as trans* or genderqueer to transition fully and I think it makes people make decisions they don't want to, hence the fact that detransitioning even exists.
I want to more about your transition, and hence will watch more of your videos, because I sort of want to do something like you're doing; no surgery, some T, and maybe find myself a happy medium. :)
XCastillejo 1 month ago
Just sort of stumbled onto this from trying to find the "Trans* enough" project a friend linked me to.
You are *crazy*. But kind of in a good way. I like you. You kind of sound a bit genderqueer, and it's a bit inspirational to see people happy in the middle, or happy with themselves. I see far too much of the high and mighty "unless you plan to go all the way you're not really trans" attitude. I much prefer the "I'm a girl with a penis/boy with a vagina" attitude.
EdwardAspel 1 month ago
You're a cool person, its really uplifting to see someone be so happy with who they are. Rock on!
BetNoire 1 month ago
@EnkiduPathos What do you mean by "straight"?
SANTARII 1 month ago in playlist More videos from uppercaseCHASE1
omg I loved listening to you talk so much
Wilixer 1 month ago
@CBoyd101, even the WPATH standards mention and accept as a good idea for some people the idea of only using hormones up to the point that makes the person happy with their results. You're wrong.
cherryJ0lt 1 month ago
as a trans woman who also understands that kind of transition pressure and the distorted concept of passing which i talk about in a video as well "man i feel like a woman so i am one".. This is a great video! <3 I think you're a wondrous role model, love to see this kind of thing!
PaperStory 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos 4
@PaperStory thank youu :)
uppercaseCHASE1 1 month ago
I guess I never felt I had to conform in my transition. I didn't transition within any community or around other trans guys. Which maybe the difference here. I did what I was comfortable with. But this message is important for any young guy out there. It can be a confusing time.
johnnyblues777 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Yay!
jaloopy2000 1 month ago
Yay for being a lesbian trans guy and owning an incongruous-seeming identity proudly! I identify as a genderqueer pan dyke, and my partner is bigender and almost never passes as female, but our relationship has increasingly drawn me towards using the word lesbian to describe myself. I'm a little confused, but very happy. Keep on being awesome and making videos, I'm subscribing to you right now!
beatingthebinary 1 month ago
You are so funny and make a lot of sense. Nice.
markangeloc 1 month ago
You make me feel so much better in the fact that I'm a lesbian who sometimes likes boys. Thank you for being so nice and open <3
maya9312 1 month ago
Have you thought about starting hormone blockers to stop the cycle?
bewarethefire13 1 month ago
you should do whatever makes you happy! I was on T for 2 years, then stopped for good. I found my comfort zone and that was it. BUT I do urge you to dig for some info on the long term affects of going on and off hormones especially since (I assume) you have not had a hysterectomy. There may not even be any legitimate long term research yet. T is a roller coaster and every time you go on and off you are putting your body through what you already know to be not 1 but 2 challenging transitions.
buttercupfrancis 1 month ago
You should do whatever makes you happy, dude. You look happy ;D
basilsunshine 1 month ago
Thumbs up to you for not bending to peer pressure. Its your body and your life. Do you what you need to make yourself happy.
kelleyroo2 1 month ago
I love this. I have a friend that started his hormone therapy in November. I'm afraid that he thinks that the T is going to change his world when, in fact, he just needs to learn to love himself for who he is. He wants to be a bio-boy so badly; it breaks my heart, really.
ryamary 1 month ago
@ryamary Every one is different, but for me T did change my world. It changed the way I felt I was being received by society. T provides facial hair,and muscle mass and for those with body disforia these things help. He is doing what he feels will help him love himself. I know it did me.
kelleyroo2 1 month ago
also chase, you don't have to explain yourself or justify any of your decisions in regards to your transition to anybody. it's your body and your life. but you know that already! and anyone who is cool knows that the best thing about the trans community is that it is so diverse and there are so many different forms of self-expression. mad respect for sharing your story though - very brave.
jaysmithcool 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
The social pressure of assignment; TG or the diagnosis GIDNOS (Gender Identity Disorder Not Otherwise Specified)
The term transgender (TG) coined in the 1970s by the American Virginia Charles Prince. She invented the term because it was so far no suitable word for her lifestyle: she lived as a woman but was physically a man.
Today, the TG term is defined & applied in various ways.
Two examples:
1 commuters; standing between the sexes, neither of the two sexes (m/f) classifier.
1/2 be continued
Ilkamy 1 month ago in playlist More videos from uppercaseCHASE1 8
2/2 continuation of the story... second example:
2 an upper or collective term for people who are temporarily or permanently change the gender.
Especially the second example is violent rejection from the majority of transsexual people; since the majority of transsexual people don't classify themselves in a (trans-) gender community. They perceive themselves as women, respectively men, and live integrated into society as a woman, respectively man.
To make sure we talk about the same theme! ;-)
Ilkamy 1 month ago in playlist More videos from uppercaseCHASE1 8
thank you for your honesty, chase. your videos about your stopping T have been really comforting to me. it's so uplifting and inspiring to see how you have created your own path. i agree that there is huge pressure in the trans community to limit our gender identities/presentations...it's exhausting and frustrating but it's so refreshing to see you just being yourself and being so happy. <3
jaysmithcool 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Brave and awesome
KingsNJazz 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
You've spoken to my soul, man. I'm so glad I found you and your videos. Please keep making these and inspiring trans* people everywhere.
VizardTayra 1 month ago
Thank you SO MUCH for this video. I've just started T and it feels like I'm the only dude who intends for it to be a short-term thing. I just want to pass, feel comfortable enough to be my flamboyant self, and then stop. Knowing that you feel good about yourself after ~ a year is such a relief and super encouraging. WINNING AT LIFE, YES YOU ARE.
jamesalexander1111 2 months ago
Hey Chase, I know u speak french (cause of the "eille, on vas-tu au dépanneur sti?" comment you said on the NY video....). So, try to speak french again, it's so funny:)
evoune100 2 months ago
I .. like you.. alot <3
KirstieMcAwesome 2 months ago
You're so great! <3
Doridantoni 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Looking and sounding awesome! I just have a question for you about stopping T and your voice. It sounds good but does it feel like it's stopped in limbo? How is singing, like does your voice feel hoarse? Thanks <3
queerpan 2 months ago
@EnkiduPathos thats amazing <333
uppercaseCHASE1 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Eep, I think you're wonderful and incredibly cute! I'm glad you're okay with yourself :)
andwebecamesunshine 2 months ago
I love your label for yourself: "lesbian trans guy." Be happy with who you are.
(I found your vids via facebook's Love Throughout Transition group.)
hpnlotrfan 2 months ago 2
Ever thought about quitting sugar? You're moving so fast that the video gets blurry :)
sole0soleo 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
Really pleased for you mate!
drummerstarboy 2 months ago
I never thought of doing this. I think I will now, I'll talk to my therapist tomorrow. Thanks man :)
TheyJustCallMeEm 2 months ago
Do you lose muscle if you stop T?
iscaylis 2 months ago
I plan on having a similar transition trajectory as you: Being on T for about a year and then going off of it, with no intention to have any surgeries. I'm very happy with my body, and I am okay with the "monthly shit" too. I find it very encouraging that more and more FTM-spectrum people are willing to talk about stopping T.
HezaaZee 2 months ago
you're a babe
iamsavvyy 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@iamsavvyy <333
uppercaseCHASE1 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
I think it's awesome that you feel comfortable coming off of t. I agree that there's a lot of pressure as a trans person to transition (I know that at times, because i'm a genderqueer person who at times is very comfortable with my body, that I feel "less trans" but that is bogus, identities aren't clubs!). This video was therapeutic and super cute as well and helps me and others keep in mind that we should love and own are own bodies, despite what others think. <3
mjjaster 2 months ago
Hey, what was permanent for you and if anything is better than before you started T or did it all go back to being how it was? I assume your voice was one of the things which is awesome, it sounds great! And can you talk more about your hair from when you started and stopped? Because I don't want to be on T long either especially because of the hair losing....
mightymouse666 2 months ago
That was a very good video, but i didn’t get the “I still identify as a lesbian transguy” part like, i don’t know, the labels don’t go together ? I might have misunderstood this part though so more explanations would be more than welcome !
misslee94 2 months ago
do what's best for you chase! im so happy that you feel really comfortable with yourself right now and transitioning doesnt have to be the only focus in your life! :)
Sponger500 2 months ago
Chase Chase Chase. I've loved your video's from day one, thanks for being different and " whatever" People need to be less uptight about transition
HaydenShyBoi 2 months ago
I like your sweater!
TheAlliemason 2 months ago
I'm really glad that you're at a good place in your process! I've heard of a number of folks (mainly in the US) who cycle on and off T every so often so you're certainly not alone in that regard! I'd really encourage you to seek some medical advice on how this on/off might affect your body though, particularly your bones! I've found a counsellor who has helped me enormously with my sense of being transgender as well!
Totally agree on the trans heirachy pressure stuff too! Gross! Great vid!
ateddyont 2 months ago
Do you know how much it hurts to receive an arrow to the knee?
WitheredAnge1 2 months ago
You are so unbelievably awesome!! Good for you, man. Good for you. I am so glad you are happy. Hell you deserve to be, we all do. Keep posting vids because you are 100000% my favorite trans person on here!!
Kade8will8not8fade 2 months ago in playlist More videos from uppercaseCHASE1
Chase, you're fab and you're so entertaining. As long as you're happy it does not matter what you do regarding hormones etc. Change your mind as much as you like. Have a trans liberation! Lol! Your sweater is superb! :)
TheAlexanderOscar 2 months ago
You are a fanfuckingtastic human being. Also, your sweater rocks.
mmmCAcheese 2 months ago
Good for you!! I'm happy your okay with yourself.
Ryanmintz74 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
ur so cute
where are u from
-Tara xxoxox
ShaneCounts 2 months ago
love your sweater!
sionv2009 2 months ago
i've read about someone who has transitioned from male to female to male to female. yeah three times. but it's like a big fuck you to people; the point is that gender is fluid right? anyway, another thing which i know has stopped a lot of periods- albeit unintentionally- is the mirena intrauterine birth control device for about 5 years. so that's an option i guess. ps: LOVE YOU CHASE.
lewxw 2 months ago
What an interesting person that I was lucky to meet on the street. Mad love for you chase! - Nick
Ravenboi22 2 months ago
You are awesome Chase :D
- Brandon
xtheoneandonly0511x 2 months ago
I just watched a video almost right before this about a guy who's been on T for about 9 years and he feels that getting off T for an extended amount of time is a good thing for the body (or atleast if you're going to be on T for that long.) like a detox. I can understand that, but I'm not sure if that's something I may do, but anyway... I can understand why you went off T - at least based on the comfortability level you feel, which is awesome. Not everyone is the same, so I appreciate your POV.
groovearmani 2 months ago
have you thought about a uterine ablation? i had one done and although the monthly shit is still there it's BARELY perceptible and much easier to tolerate.
eawass 2 months ago
you are beyond entertaining!
eawass 2 months ago
im sooo jealous that youre soo comfortable with your body. hopefully ill get there soon lol. also, love the trans flag in the background. ive been trying to get my hands on one but i cant find them ANYWHERE.
ZaraHarley 2 months ago
Power to you, Chase. So refreshing to see someone who is at peace with themselves and their body without having followed the typical trans prescription.
alexhaney100 2 months ago
You're just precious. haha
postgender 2 months ago
perfect :)
anotherloaner 2 months ago
awesome video! i'm so glad you are happy with who you are. i love seeing that within people, i wish everyone could be. in the end of the day that's where everyone should be going. <3 much love
FtmShifty 2 months ago
I am SOOOO happy that you are happy with yourself! That is all that any of us are trying to gain! You have found it and you don't need T for it- that's great! I love hearing that you feel comfortable with your body (and I'm kind of jealous.)
A topic that you've probably covered, but I still don't fully understand (note* I accept it, just don't personally get it) is the male lesbian thing. I know there are guys out there who identify as that, but it doesn't make sense to me. Can you explain???
shadowbeing3 2 months ago
You're the best! You do you, fuck da haters!
DrunkenLullaby52 2 months ago 2
perfection
FTMvegan 2 months ago
I'd like to know if you've thought about estrogen-blockers. I'm at a point where I would feel comfortable without T (I've taken a few month-long breaks, but gone right back on after monthly-shit starts happening) but if I had any medical care providers to back me up, I'd totally stop taking T and just take estrogen-blockers, so monthly-shit would not happen but for the most part I'd stay physically the same. Thoughts/experiences?
Thanks for your honesty, btw.
-Miles
mediumdietcoke 2 months ago
I love this video.
boy0boi 2 months ago
I've got to agree with the comments from Mr Racked below. I think you'd benefit from talking to a professional counsellor about all of this. It appears from your videos from way back that u have a great deal of confusion where your gender is concerned. Frankly when one is as confused as you have been I would recommend doing nothing, not playing around with T. Long term effects of cycling on and off T can be serious and may not b immediately apparent, i.e bone fractures and osteoporosis in later
BillyBarnacle 2 months ago
Have u been 2 counseling? I'm really surprised that any health care practitioner is allowing u 2 waffle back & forth between hormones. I totally get that it's ur body, ur choice, but it's really not healthy 4 u. Essentially hormones r 4 someone who feels they r in the wrong body, not an experiment for someone who thinks their face is slightly 2 feminine, or doesn't like their period. Honestly, show me one cis girl who does like it. What's the long term effects? Sounds like u r messing w/ fire.
MrRacked 2 months ago
@MrRacked
Transitioning is not about staying on hormones for the rest of your life, it's to get to a point where you are comfortable with your body so much that it does not hinder your life. Some people only need to feminize/masculize themselves to where they are comfortable or able to pass, and others need to go all the way. Some people don't medically transition at all, but socially transition. It isn't all about results, but the journey itself to find the end.
EnkiduPathos 2 months ago
@MrRacked Agree 100%. This is both alarming and disturbing that people buy this. This degree of naiveté is dangerous for the impressionable (this person included). Any proud lesbian (a woman who is sexually, physically, romantically attracted to other women) would feel appropriated that someone who identifies as a..."transMAN" is ("re")claiming that identity. It makes no sense what so ever. This is identity appropriation at its worst.
CBoyd101 1 month ago
@CBoyd101 Dangerous combination. Hormones are not a toy for you kids for some sort of image make over. They are all we have to LIVE. To freaking live...I can't support this because it is both dangerous and nonsensical. Attempting to embody some sort of "special radicool oxymoron" does not make this okay. There are impressionable kids who are watching this who would feel it is alright to go on and off of hormones as they please...that's not the way it works. Not medically or logically.
CBoyd101 1 month ago
I'm glad you're sharing your perspective and adding to the diversity. Keep it up. I'm glad to hear you are so comfortable with yourself now. Enjoy those vacations.
tobyr3 2 months ago
I think you should do what makes you feel comfortable and happy =], It nice to hear another way of feeling going through transition. Chances are some one else feels the same way and dosent know if anyone else feels that way and needs to hear it. It also shows theirs other options out there and still be considered transitioned.
TrulyMe11588 2 months ago
you're like my hero.
ofshoesandships 2 months ago 11
@ofshoesandships <3
uppercaseCHASE1 2 months ago 2
You've probably already mentioned this in another video, but just as a reminder, I suppose - Any particular reason(s) as to why you personally identify as a lesbian transguy rather than just a transguy?
WyldFire777 2 months ago
i wanna spend mu surgery money on hot shoes
SkinninMacKinnon 2 months ago
i think your videos great, good to hear a different perception of what trans means to the individual. I admire your confidence in yourself, keep it up!
micahscevenseas 2 months ago 3
i just subscribed and can't wait to watch more videos of you, i like how you express yourself and the confidence that you embrace, take care : )
XxHeavellxX 2 months ago 2
Sounds great to me.
moomintroll8 2 months ago
i love you
MrGenderfucked 2 months ago
haha, i love you!
FrkFockMuah 2 months ago
dude you are the best. you are a role model to the entire community and I really appreciate you and look up to you a lot. <3 keep on rocking and doing it your way. you rock!!
xQUEERKIDx 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos 21
I admire your strength! It's wonderful that you do what makes you feel good about yourself, regardless of how other people feel about it.
TheSLOfox 2 months ago
youre amazing no matter what you do! love & miss you xx
gypsyhicks 2 months ago
Very interesting that you've decided to stop T! I haven't heard of any one doing that before, but I have been thinking about doing the same myself. I have not started my treatment yet, I am currently on a waiting list for my first meeting the psycologist (I live in Sweden) and my plan at the moment is to be on T for two years and have top surgery, then stop the T. Cuz just like you, I am super paranoid about losing my hair! How long after stopping did it take for the fat to redistribute(?) ? :)
ThePandapaint 2 months ago
Bro, Im sorry ppl are so lame to think "T" or even surgery makes you a man.
You know your body better than any1 and guess what "T" isnt healthy. Next time you are in NYC look me up
;p Damn right happy with yourself and tht cant come from "T".
My question is do you feel the new media exposure helps the trans community or makes things harder, passing and such?
xo Sophie
urbangeek007 2 months ago
P.s.-where did you get that flag? I can't find any in store or available to order online
thegaymaker 2 months ago
As long as YOU are satisfied, do itttt! I tend to have a more feminine way of talking as well. But it's just how I am. Kudos!
thegaymaker 2 months ago
you can change your mind every day for the rest of your life. it's yours so do with it what is best and truest to you. T seems like it was a good way to bring yourself out from your shy little shell. as long as you're being monitored, going on and off of hormones has been shown to be safe. the weight loss is likely loss of muscle mass. eat more - you're too thin! :) i feel like there's been a huge surge in emphasizing body image and sex appeal in the ftm community lately. it really sucks!
Zedie36 2 months ago
you're cuuuute :)
cojast87 2 months ago