Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

[Lanedude08]

I think I have this, but I don't know yet, I just now discover it.

In social situations, mainly with people I barely know, I feel like I'm drowning. It literally hurts me when I smile, even if I'm doing it for real. I feel like everything I'm doing in my life is wrong, no matter how much praise I get. And there are times I feel that I need an addiction just to cope with life. But I never show it. I put on this mask and deal with the world through the pain.

[Lanedude08]

@Lanedude08

*discovered

[spiritwoman45]

Thank You. I too am the quiet bpd that rages inward as it was beaten into me at a very young age to keep All that in but it really is killing me!! Keep lookin up My ppl!!

[xindigOstarkx]

This is one of the few videos about BPD that has made me cry... Thank you.

[KnightAngel13]

This video is a mirror in which I can see many hurting faces.. Many people that are so abused.. But I cant keep my eyes on it.. I know there are less fortunate people than me but I can still see my face among the crowd of tears.. I would give away whatever this world could consume to get away.. I dont want to say I am a BPD victim, but I can see myself everywhere in this video, beginning to end, but I've long forgotten how to trust people to get help.. Is it normal to not have a place to turn..?

[jeanlad1]

For those who treat BPD's thank you for not giving up.

[selmyers5]

Hey think i found your vid, not sure tho. Misssarah89

[jbm32345]

I am an LPC who has counseled BPD clients for years. I learned of the quiet or "as if" type while working through my own quiet Borderline issues. I've encountered major resistance from mental health professionals (including psychiatrists) who are unaware of this classification. Sometimes, clients get caught in the middle, which makes it even more problematic. Works like your video can help educate both the public and the profession. Thanks for publishing this amazing & poignant presentation.

[broadpete]

One of the most powerful descriptions I've seen, and set to my favourite ever music. For me, you particularly hit me with:

"All I ever wanted was to be loved and taken care of. Because I couldn’t get that, I didn’t think I deserved it”

And

“For the most part I feel utterly alone, empty and scared. However, I am terrified of people and avoid being around them”

Thanks you.

[Dodger718]

alot of people fit into this now...

[UnitedQuietLeague]

forest gump lol?

[spookykaat]

Yes, 99% of time I'm a quiet borderline!! feels nice to see this video ^^ good to people talk about our "silent pain", cause most of times people thing its ok, you're just weird..but we suffer A LOT..nice video!!

[MizMizzy]

I can relate.

[LittleBlueStar13]

You've pretty much described me in this video...

[Pppuuma]

I started crying at: I just wanted to be loved and cared for...

[Karolin66]

Thanks

[Nouri8885]

Many terms are given for many states of mind. Everyone to some extent keeps things inside, but everyone needs to learn the social skill to be able to control our emotions not let them get out of hand, display them in an appropriate manner, be assertive if someone treats us bad but not aggressive. we need to socialise or else we will feel lonelly, everyone wants to be loved and cared for, turning to God is the way to feel happy:)

[murmur5555]

Men with Borderline Personality Disorder like Alan P. Brown MD are highly dangerous. Stop the abusive BPDs from getting jobs, please.

[springrain0128]

This describes me exactly.can`t act out either.This help me a lot.

[2012GreenGhost420]

I act out all the time, you need anger, anger is a positive thing, it will make you stronger... as long as you don't RAGE... I'm still having trouble with Rage but i'm pretty good with somewhat controlling my anger.. If you hide and block off your anger you will enter a dark place.... this place is the quite borderline... The reason we have this disorder is because everyone else are selfish, fake using assholes.. Borderlines are not, we are real and better, remember that! Don't stay silent!!

[spookykaat]

@2012GreenGhost420 anger do helps me, is the only way i can put limits to people and protect myself..i just need to learn not doing it "too much"

[pickwick89]

Nicely done..!

What's the title and artist of this beautiful song? 

[BeatlesFetish09]

other than the rare outburst, i think i have quiet borderline personlity. i don't like to fight and i don't want to hurt people with my anger but instead i'm fuming. sometimes it gets to the point where i'm so angry and frustrated with a situation that i start shaking, which probably looks just as pyscho than if i were to scream and throw things

[TashaRichardsonFan1]

Beautiful music. I always act normal when i am around people, but on the inside i am falling apart slowly.

[hellothereitsjustme]

nice to see a BPD video from this angle. Most others give the wrong impression - I am not like what they describe. For me this is more accurate.

[tube9012]

This describes my borderline too.  I don't act out my rage but it is aimed internally. I wish the professionals were more aware. The only way to be treated these days is to threaten suicide, cut yourself very badly or get arrested and sectioned. That isn't me.

[K123St]

Thanks for this. It seems like no one will recognize BPD unless it is in acting out.

[BenForTheWin67]

i know exactly how you feel, its nice to know im not the only one.

[fairy18475]

this was good, sounds like me xx

[blackiscooler1]

Thankyou so much for uploading this!! I know exactly how this feels. Stay strong x

[imnotlikeyou87]

love your video