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  • Thats awsome, i'm glad you got out of that little setback, Jesus saves lives,

    you put you're trust in God and he helped

    you to pull you're self out of that mess,

    hope you gain the weight back, I know

    you can do it

  • "Relapse is expected but not required"...dont beat yourself up. Just figure out why you did it so you can prevent it next time that situation arises.

  • I really hope you get better and stay healthy.

    Your videos have really helped my recovery from my bulimia. Thanks for the support.

    =)

  • I love that strawberry blanket in the back ... can't stop staring, hah.

  • Your video has touched me. I often feel like life is my enemy and I'm trying to extinguish it, I love how you still seem to love life..it gives me hope that maybe continuing to live mightn't be such a bad thing... my best wishes to you x

  • love notes from the universe. the best one i have ever gotten was:

    "always keep in mind that no matter what has happened, you did the very best you could. and so did those you may have let you down."

  • Wow, Johnny. I noticed this video when I received an email telling me your new videos (since I subscribed to them) and the first thing I noticed was the video "4 day relapse". When I saw that I was like "Oh no, I hope he stays strong like he has been" And I am glad to have watched this video. If only I was as strong as you are.. I have relapsed for nearly two years now, and it still is a struggle. This was a wonderful video, Honey. Glad you're doing better.

    Many Hugs and Kisses,

    ~*Hope*~

  • I love your spirit and your spirituality. I am so happy that you were able to come out of this relapse. I pray for God's wisdom and love in your life!

  • ...being sure to get a little sunshine every day (when it is possible to do so weather-wise) can be helpful in the winter. Also upping any supplementation with amino acids, particularly L-phenylalanine can help, in small amounts and in those who do not have high blood pressure problems. It has a wonderfully antidepressant action in a restorative manner. involving neurotransmitters. Some of the other aminos are supportive in many other ways so a teaspoon of the "Amino Fuel" blend can be perfect

  • Thanks so much sweetie. I have heard that about that supplement but do not take them, I use whole foods to increase and for medicinal purposes when nessacary - the best for mood has been MACA. It's raw and comes from a root. I don't use it right now but have it at home. Anything I can't take in BULK, I don't use - only for medicinal purposed... Big hugs to you.

  • hey johnny keep strong, :)

    i miss talking to you.

  • I spent some time writing you some supportive comments but

    it was removed. I hope you got to see them. Take Care.

  • I did not get any of them and it really upsets me that YT is still eating comments. It happens to me all the time and I have learned that anytime I leave a long comment I must copy and paste it before hitting POST because it does not always post.

  • Like that one... had to copy and paste... I would really love to receive them, you may have to write them in multiple comments. I hope you are doing well. We will get rain this weekend, get out your umbrella!

  • how were u addicting?

  • eds honey

  • Sending you lots of positive beautiful energy hugs hugs and hugs xx

  • Good luck hun... <3

    We all suffer.. and we all have down falls...

    Time to just heal!

    xoxo.

  • i'm sorry you were struggling and so glad you're doing much better now

    it's not a step backwards though

    this is all still improvement and learning and you get stronger each time you pull yourself out

    i hope it gets easier and easier everytime

    i am so full of admirayion for your strength and your honesty and your faith

    i have all the faith in the world in you

    thinking of you

    with love

    always

    xxx

  • You know I admire you for being so honest and really trying to get out of negative situations. I'm always concerned for you, but I like hearing that you are making progress to get better.

    Many rainbows sent your way. xoxo

  • o my days! i was going thru a relapse and i just happened to check ur videos today! Ur right if i want to get out i have to do something about it rather than just say i want it to stop. Thanx!!!!

  • so great to hear you speak in such an honest manner; weight is such a scary thing; takes a lot of courage to say you are in a relapse. I am sorry and concerned to hear that you had health stuff scare you that badly. I do worry about you but I have confidence in you.

  • Hey dear,

    I really hope today is a better day for you!

    I understand how hard it is when you feel that youre going back on EDs again instead of doing the right steps. This week is being also very hard for me

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  • you re looking very sad :(

    hope you re fein :-*

  • PERFECT video for me to see this morning! I just had a 2-day relapse (no traditional binging but still eating more than I should, and purging) and I feel like I was using purging as a way to fill the void of boredom, sadness and loneliness. I have been feeling terribly lonely lately. And so after I purge, I feel so tired and I pop an opiate and I drift off to sleep... :(

  • join me on the recovery train then dear. the good news is you were able to look into your situation which will help you change it. sundays are ocd challenge days for me. monday came and i was sad about sunday, then tuesday and wed i had the days OFF with no plans and my therapist on wed vacation... so i totally chose to fall and remain stuck in the cycle, bs excuses. addictions love their space but thursday, had to clal it quits, getting back on track!

  • this was inspiring to anyone johnny. btw i was eating my breakfast of avacodos on toast with lovely tomatoes so thank you so much for being inspiring.

  • Hi Johnny, I'm so sorry about your relapse... these things do happen, so don't beat yourself up about it. After many years of ED our brains become 'hard wired' to default to ED behaviours when we're triggered in some way. Sometimes it's hard to stop. Sometimes we think 'so what'?

    I felt very triggered by significant others misunderstanding me a couple of weeks ago. My immediate reaction was to starve myself. But I didn't want to undo all the good work I had done in recovery (CONT).

  • It was very hard. I had a hell of a time. I felt suicidal, and it's terrible when I feel that I have only two choices of coping: restrict food or leave this planet for good. Obviously I didn't go through with the latter, but I did restrict food. Eventually I contacted my therapist and talked things through on the phone. It helped a lot and I could process my thoughts more effectively. I came out of the rut with time, but it was hellish while it lasted.

    Take care; you can beat this!

  • Hugs, thank you so much for the encouragement Cathy. I am so glad you were able to stop the downslide and revert your mentality and behaviors to that which is healthy for you. I joined you on the recovery train yesterday and have started to pick myself up! I actually ate 2 extra calorically dense snacks/mini meals outside of my general meal schedule!!! *and yes they stayed in of course* so woohoo for both of us and progress! hugs:

  • Glad you're doing better :) xxx

  • Stay strong and hang in there, Sweetpea. You have acknowledged what was going on and can take your power back from THIS MOMENT ON. *hugs*

  • hugs, i am so glad you contacted me and so happy to see you here again Monica! big hugs and much support and gratitude

  • *HUGE HUGS*

    I recently had a two week relapse. It was terrible.. I won't go into details, but basically about two weeks in, I just said "Why am I doing this to myself?" It's time to just get things back on track, and I'm doing much better now. Not perfect, but then, no recovery is. You're strong Johnny, and I know you can do it. *more hugs*

  • hugs, you are strong too my dear. very strong. i am proud of you for picking up! i did today as well. i reduced b/p and ate some extra avocado for kcals. guess what i watched over dinner??? the story of o - loved the book, actually enjoyed the movie. you seen?

  • That is so awesome Johnny, I am super glad you were able to pick it up today. :-)

    I've only recently discovered how delicious and wonderful avacados are. They always kind of scared me for some reason. Now I eat them all the time. :-) Avacado power! :-) And also: YAY for the story of o! :-)

  • Be Well Johnny.

  • you are blessed my love, as we all are by our father.

    love you baby doll.

    xoxo

    -amanda

  • yay for saying your truth.

    hope this isnt too personal, or irrelevant (relapse does not always have a rhyme or reason). but do you remember in the past week any emotional themes being stimulated?

    mine has often been feeling disrespected or alienated. other times a deep elusive existential fear that remains a mystery to me. sometimes retracing my "footprints" of the relapse can help me resolve it. and then hopefully i can act more skillfully next go around. i love you.

  • hi love, it was sunday and ocd. see i have to get up early for the farmer's market and it throws my body and eating schedule all off as well as ocd ed rituatls that i have been reducing but not abstinent from. well sunday was more than usual and then monday came and i was depressed about sunday, the cycle. sunday = challenge due to change of schedule. it was very minimal in reason compared to the deep ones. hugs n love back to you dear.

  • i rely on a regular schedule as well. at least im glad it wasn't caused by someone hurting your feelings. because if THAT ever happens, i'd have to come gangsta them.

  • whoo. yay for being easier! life needs to be made easier anyway...;P <3

  • I'm so sorry you were suffering - but am thinking of you, and as always, am inspired by your determination :) xxxxxxx

  • Those signs...wow!

    You really do have a deeper meaning to your life, as we all do, I'm so glad you're finding yours =]

    Just keep your chin up little lotus blossom, remember, that rainbow was there for you!!

  • im trying to say that 4 days is a long time to come out of a relapse. and its scary because i kno how you feel <3

  • I thought so but wasn't quite sure. OMG it use to take me WEEKS!!! four days is nothing but compared to my worst but compared to my improvement over the last year it's huge. I am glad we are both able to get out easier! hugs

  • keep your heart open always, and listen carefully.

  • it won't lead you astray

    ..... such as the ed does

  • Johnny, let God empower us to heal and find our paths again. We can do this.

  • Wow! I left my house and have gotten back on a better tract. I even ate some extra avocado for more kcals today. My mentality is so much brighter, lighter and better! this makes all the difference for change in behaviors. So I'm doing well today, Thank you all for the support, this is a group comment and hug::: Gratitude to all of you, you mean so much to me. I am glad I can be honest here yet still help people. You all help me too. XO

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  • Energy/chi/ life force follows intention.

    You cant grow an apple tree by planting orange seeds. Do not say you are relapsing. When you say you are something then it becomes reality. It is called a mantra. If you keep saying negative mantras then replace them with the opposite of what you were saying.

  • Steve omg how creepy - i was going to say the exact same thing about how identifying it as a relapse will make it one - towards the end of the video I was thinking these thoughts. In recovery we learn this about affirmations, say it - even if you don't believe it, say it and it will happen.

  • Then here you come, my Hallmark wonder and CONFIRM this for me. I love healing mantras. Thank you, I think you were yet another sign for me today - of comfirmation and wisdom.

  • ps I just left you a channel comment. Will you ever make videos? You have so much insight. I am touched. You have powerful abilities to reach people and would love to see you make videos as you are led. I think you could help a lot of people, I know you help me.

  • Thanks again. I needed this reminder - you name it, you create it and it becomes... chose wise. Ah, life force follows.

  • I do make videos, but it seems no one watches them or comments on them which makes me sad :(

  • Steve when I go to your page there are no videos? why can't I see them? are they private?

  • No, they are just hidden. If you go to the flute video in the middle then go to the 'more from this user' you should see them.

  • Love from Italy: always keeping on watching you and listening to your message.

    Thank you: I'm looking for His help, also.

    -gemma-

  • Hey Johnny, you're always such an inspiration. I don't know who else says such precious things.

    It gives me hope to see you and see that even though you relapse you get out of it, to see how much one can learn.

    I hope your next days will be fine and I will find out what makes me relapse and stuff me right know and why the hell I just ripped out almost all of my lashes.. it's crazy! Instead of doing such things I should rather be willing to find out why I do it. Oh well, over and over again.

  • I'm sending lots and lots of love your way. You can overcome anything you put your mind to. Warm wishes to you. :]

  • 1. happy belated birthday!

    2. very inspiring video. best of luck :)

    3. you have such such such pretty eyes!

  • i'm so happy to be welcomed into your world! i think you you are such a sweet special person! i am addicted to food but, i've never experienced recovery but, i pray i some day do! it is so good to know that there is hope and if God can work the miracle in you he can work it in me and oneday i'll here telling you all about it! Blessings!

  • Hey!

    First, good job on NOT letting it go any further. It's easy to let old behaviors consume us. Kudos for taking control of your life and getting out of your rut.

    Hope you're feeling better,

    <3

  • P.S. -- Happy belated birthday!! :)

  • I hope this day has gotten better with every minute till before you even realize it,you're having a great day!!! I luv you and I'm thinking about you and wishing you all the best in the world myy friend. xoxo Luv Morgan

  • johnny, thank you so much. your videos are wonderful. i have been having a really hard time the past couple of days and i needed to hear your words. thinking of you...

    xoxo

  • I can tell that you are a strong person, and as such you can overcome this. Be sure to remind yourself of that. BTW I also get Messages from the Universe in my email, and it's great. Love ya! :-)

  • johnny honey keep your chin up, you are strong you can overcome this, please take care of yourself today and everyday. do have the best day swettie

  • i hope that you have better luck avoiding more relapses.

  • I'm sorry relapsed, I'm sending lots of love and peace your way! We are all on your side, and if you feel down please make a video or go walking! I don't even know you but I do care about your health.

    <3

    Be well

  • It seems like a lot of people are addicting this week...maybe it's something in the Universe.

  • You can and you will get out of this relapse Johnny, I know you have the strength to overcome this because you are relying on God; through him you can overcome anything.

    Did you ever end up watching my story?

  • thats kinda scary when you say that thats been the longest it took you O^O <3

  • sorry sweetie, you lost me on this one, what are you referring to?

  • your videos have really inspired me to try and get better and be healthy. Although I am not underweight my behaviors are hurting my body and mind. I've been really thinking a lot and trying to figure out whats going on in my mind. I hope you are doing well :)

  • You can do it! I have faith in you. Remember that we all believe in you and love you.

    You have my prayers!!

  • I love you all the ways you are

  • this is just another obstacle your gonna have to get over. stay strong. just believe that everyone's here for you and that you'll make it!!

    stay stong

    hugs

  • Breakfast went well. I brought it out into the sunshine to my "secret garden" patio set next to spring blossoms, lots of pink... and was able to keep it in. I am now off to do errands and spend some time with my dog. I hope you all find whatever it takes to help you - HELP YOU - too today : ) Blessings my friends xoxo

  • it's not easy but you can get out and get back on track.. looks like that's what you are doing right now :)

    you are going to make it, God is always there when we need him.. we only have to listen.big hug...

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