Our World - DID Style

[thepeoplearecrazy101]

stay strong... ive been there

[multiversedancer]

Thank you for sharing. I'm about to work on a video myself.  Many blessings in your healing. Please look into "Waking The Tiger" by Peter Levine if you haven't done so already. Somatic Experiencing is a life saver!

[Jheysoda]

The one that I'm the most aware of, 'takes over' in times of great stress and grief. Therefore I don't actually remember the feelings of tremendous loss. The pain is still there but she/him/they erase people for me. When someone close to me dies, _______ makes it seem like they never existed. I have to ask myself if they ever did. This may not be healthy, but it helps me go on. Thanks for the video!

[lovetowatchable]

Thank you for putting to video and music what it is like for those of us who have DID. It made me/us feel very validated. We're here, we're real, and we survived whatever caused our DID.

Thank you so much for sharing DID in such a positive light!

[ltlchipmunk]

Spot on, baby. Have an antisocial miself, her name's Lydia and she drags Lyla w/ her.

[secretoompaa]

thank you. i have problems with my antisocial one. i hope everything is okay for lydia and lyla and yourself.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa Hi. I hope all is well for you. I'm hoping you can answer a question for me about an anti-social alter. Do you find that this facet of you scares others including potentially even your therapist? And do you have another personality that keeps the anti-social one from harming others?

Or did you mean anti-social as meaning withdrawn from socializing with is different than anti-social meaning psychopathic when threats are perceived.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos my anti-social part is a protector but also an internalized abuser. A protects me against other people being mean, but A can be as mean as it wants to be to me or the others in the system. But A wouldn't actually hurt someone on the outside unless it was a dangerous situation. a real dangerous situation not a perceived threat. now granted A will go off on someone if A feels threatened, but not actually physically hurt someone.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa That sounds like me but I fear that part of me because of the intense rage that I sometimes can't control. I feel really bad about things I said or did and I wrestle against this. Tell me about the internalized abuser. Does A say mean things at times to hurt you? Or say things about your loved ones to distress you?

I wouldn't normally hurt anyone. I hurt myself way more. I'm unable to get any help because I'm sick of dealing with the abuses of the system. They try to give me drugs.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos what's important is finding a way to release that rage in a more constructive non-abusive way. for us sometimes it helps to just color. for A red is anger and A will color a whole sheet of paper in red then sometimes covers the red with black which i don't suggest because that is as if you are covering your anger when really you need to work co-conciously with your angry part/parts to feel that anger. it's an overwhelming feeling, but can be felt.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa Yeah I already do that. I keep a mood journal. I paint, write songs, and break things if I must. I always direct my anger away from my loved ones. I'm the one who gets hurt.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos internalized abuser means more like self harm and self destruction.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa Yeah I really good at that one. I have many scars. I've also overdosed unknowingly, had a two day black out where I was told I drove my car and road my bike around the neighborhood. My daughter gave me a gift I knew nothing about so I was double surprised. I still can't believe it. I have my husband lock any dangerous pills away now cause I'm afraid I'll overdose when I wouldn't want to do that.

[secretoompaa]

@anamasteos i'm glad your trying to do things to redirect the anger. communication is a big thing. finding out why they are angry and doing something that will ease that anger.

[anamasteos]

@secretoompaa The anger is because I'm married to my abuser and have been for 20 years. He was a friend of my uncle and is 17 years older than me. I can't get away no matter how hard I try. I spend my days in my bedroom alone but lucky to have internet, otherwise, I'd have no outlets at all. My anti social alter wants to do him in but I keep it check. Sounds weird I know.

[IGFanAlways]

Very nice.

[secretoompaa]

thank you very much

[SexyRaww]

So DID is like multiple personality disorder? Do you actually feel like all these people live inside of you or do you just hear and see them in your vision talking to you? Or do you feel like you are all these people, but always changing back and forth from one to the other?

i'm asking cause maybe i have DID. I'm sure I have something but i don't know what it is yet. What i keep doing is picturing the same 3-4 people that i've known before, seeing them in my vision and me talking to them.

[secretoompaa]

chris05ful - i'm so glad you like the videos and that you see them as being accurate. i really appreciate your comment. i did work very hard on them (this one specifically). thank you and nice to meet you.

[chris05ful]

I really like your video's, its the closest to the truth of DID. I am a very high functioning person with DID. I can't possibly share my thoughts and feelings with people but your posts really capture how it really really is for me everyday! I could never begin to express it like you have but it is right on the money! I just hope that most people are spared the day to day confusion that comes with the disorder - its not easy! Thank you for being so brave - you have helped me alot.

[secretoompaa]

thank you all for your kind comments. means the most to me!!!!! glad you like the video.

[juoodls]

Hi I really loved your vidio I also have DID and it was great to see that you have a alter called littleone as well as that is the name of one of my alters. I love it that you can use your talent to experss what it is like for DID's

[mirrorofmanyfaces]

THANK YOU SECRETOOPMAA!!!

[Elysium3006]

Thank you for this video...it's beautiful. Thank you for speaking out....All of you!!

After being in therapy for the last 5 years and being diagnosed with major depressive disorder & complex PTSD, it looks like I may have DID. I am pretty certain about it, but I haven't had an official diagnosis yet.

As alone as I feel in this world, it helps to know of others who are experiencing similar situations as myself. This video is very inspiring.

Take care,

Tam

[wellthatsnotenough]

Thank You for speaking out,that was pretty

fantastic!

[johndanielwood]

Oompa awesome video...

John :)

[landofhealth]

thanks for sharing.. i have DID but cant get an official diagnosis cos my town wont fund it.. i have 5 alters.. and we're struggling. hugs, blue and crew xx

[SeverinaQFormina]

Thank you for speaking out. Beautiful video.

[annika217]

i love it! Good to see you on youtube...

nika

[jules50309]

I hope you keep posting your videos. this is beatiful.

[kjane74]

do you not have a protector?

[Lunaintheclouds]

OH wow! I was really moved by this video, and then at the end...surprise! It means so much that my work was able to inspire someone. Thank you for sharing that. Beautiful demonstration of the many parts of the puzzle, and I really liked the togetherness!

[wolfofdarkness27]

now that is we think the best video we have seen on here so far for DID/MPD thank you so much for sharing.

TandCrew

[ManyMults]

Hey guys. We just hpped to click on yours. :) (Supose to be doing home work LOL.) Wel, I am... So, cool. At the innerworld scene when it started, someone said, "Holy crap, how can he put himself out like this?" Question still stands. :). Cya. Send you a PM with other stuff ok?  Whoever

[secretoompaa]

thank you both. the puzzle seems to ring true to me because we all make up one person.

[smilesalot31]

Your videos are very touching. Thanks.

[velvetbat]

We like the idea of the puzzle. The video is very nice!

[secretoompaa]

thank you jesmalu.

[jesmalu]

love the pictures & the song is nice with it too :)

[secretoompaa]

thank you dessy. that means a lot.

[JadedLabyrinth]

nicely done : ) and i like the song

dessy