In no way should you blame yourself for any of this, you have done so much to make this work but at the end of the day he never felt the same, but just never told you which he should of been straight with you, man I feel your pain it must feel just like another blow, hopefully you can get over this. I see this video was made in November and I just hope you have moved on with your life after this heartache....
@WayneInPain I don't want to say too much as I know he spies,but I still miss him sometimes..Well no, that isn't right. I don't miss him, but I'm sad...because our wedding was supposed to be at the end of this month and he was supposed to have arrived 12 days ago. Right now we were supposed to be together, finally, after 4 years. He made up a lot of lies though, like I was forcing him to marry me and forcing him to b a house husband and other stupid shit. HE proposed to ME.He doesn't deserve me
@RavenStarbl00d of course you miss him you love him I can totally see how gut wrenching this is for you, maybe before the month is out he will have figured out that actually he really loves you too and wants to take the next step which is a big one for him obviously moving to another country, but if he really wants to and still wants to marry you he will move to you if not it really is hard to come to terms with but somehow you will have to find a way to breathe again without him.....
@WayneInPain No, it's too late.He's dating one of my ex good friends-one who said was like a sister to me. I've cancelled the ticket, and would never take him back, not that he would come. I put my trust in the wrong person
I watched this last month but I couldn't respond cus I couldn't log into my account. I really wanted to tell you that these videos made me cry so hard when I watched them in November. You deserve so much to be happy, you've been hurt way too much for one lifetime. I hope you know that there are so many people who have come across you on YouTube who genuinely want to see you and your son happy. I live in NZ too. In time you will forget about him, just try to cut off all contact with that idiot.
@droogzombie thank you so much...I'm not talking to the jerkoff at all-I'm so sick of his lies and always trying to cause me pain...his newest low of dating one of my friends only served to show me what a loser he really is. Where in nz are you?
@RavenStarbl00d I'm in Auckland. I used to watch you back when your username was Starbl0od, I don't think I ever commented before though. I'm glad you're not talking to him, that'll just give his manipulating self emotional control over you again. As time passes you'll think less and less about him and eventually he won't mean shit to you anymore. It was so brave of you to let your outer shell down and share such raw emotions. No guy is worth everything you sacrificed!
well thats bs all those guys have no idea how stupid and ignorent they are for even thinking of hurting someone as amazing as you are, youre a human and should be treated with respect this is why people make me angry cause they hurt the good people and worship the bad ones :\
Sorry for what happen to you but that asshole doesn't deserve your tears. Seeing you cry and any other girl crying about someone left her or hit her makes me want to kill the motherfucker. Also sorry for the late comment have problems with my family.
@13cruelty Whats wrong with your family? :-( Hope youre ok...
And I wish he would have...an accident..of some sort, lol...him and his new girlfriend, who was one of my best friends and who swore didnt want him! Betrayals left and right!
Killing yourself won't solve anything. I used to be like this before I met Phill.It's a general concept of feeling empty like the world has turned it's back on you and it seems you won't be able escape.It's suffocating. My mom taught me "you can't cry about your problems all the time.It won't solve anything."She was right.Be diligent and have courage to mend broken bonds through apology to those who warned you.I find that helps when people know you take responsibility for your actions.message me
i watched all of the videos and the true story videos and i use to watch you A LOT back when you had your old account starbl00d. i dont know you personally but what i can say is you do not need a piece of shit like tthat in your life. from watching your videos for a while,your life doesnt not seem easy at all and that asshole will get what he deserves. you will find someone again. hopefully that person will be good,loyal, and honest to you because you're generous, nice, pretty and deseve it! =]
@RavenStarbl00d someone who inflicts so much pain on a person who doesnt deserve it will be punished. wtf. it sickens me that there are people in this world like that. i hope one day he finds a person he loves, that person will be a dumb inconsiderate lying coward (like he was to you), and that person will leave him. that shit he pulled was not okay. anyone who sides with that asswipe is delusional! if he keeps taking people for granted, he will end up in a nursing home alone. what a disgrace.
@amiex21 I'm pretty pissed off, he wrote a status today pretty much calling me psychotic and petty, thinking my only issue was trying to get friends and fans on my side...whatever
@RavenStarbl00d i think its so dumb that he is trying to defend himself in the situation in which he is the asshole. he probably is doing it because he wants you to seem bad which justifies why he treated you so poorly but nothing justifies what he did because you were good to him. it really sucks that he was a guy you sacrificed a lot for but it will get better. you definitely deserve to be happy and i really hope its getting better everyday <3
Hey Raven, I also watched all 3 videos, Im 19 and know what your going thru. I spent tons of money on this guy i was with for a year, between buying him bus tickets here and home multiple times or just random stuff. Your a GORGEOUS woman and you deserve a guy or girl (to each's own) who would treat you like you deserve the world, because this video proves you have a big heart and when you love something very impotent to you. I wont say forget about him cause ive been there its easier said, <3
thank you means alot to hear somthing other then move on and forget him cause its really not that easy, for the people talking about you trying to hurt you are just ignorent, reminds me of a quote "That's Why They're Called Haters If They Were Ment To Be LOVED They Would Be Called Life Enhancers " keep your chin up hun there is someone out there who would die to be your anything and everything <3 @RavenStarbl00d
@RomanticUNDEADx oh, that sounds nice. to find a guy who can give to me what i give to others...the problem is- and i'll be the first to admit this- is i'm horribly shallow. i do have people willing to take me...but i want that certain gothy, pierced, skinny guy. i want romance. i want to be that matching couple, you know? and youre right- its nearly impossible to get over someone who has hurt you. in fact, it makes you think of them even more!
yes indeed! and im not afraid to agree with you i am as well i like my guys tall lanky peirced tattooed and all their long haired glory! its hard to find but when you know what you want you have to go for it and i hope you find your nightmare in shining armor <3 @RavenStarbl00d
@RomanticUNDEADx Yeah and you see all these gorgeous matching couples- these alt girls with their alt guys, and yet no alt guys actually like me! I've only been with 3 in my life. One was my 2nd husband , who left me after 5 years to be with someone else...had me arrested and all that so he could move into our apt with her, the 2nd was just a non serious bf who got mad when I caught him trying to cheat on me, and he attacked me and choked me, and Cj was the 3rd
I really hope you're feeling better... relieved after recorded all this... it's not nothing... I made the same mistake, manipulated by my first boyfriend... :( so I recognize what you're going through... the only advice I can give you is, never ever let you down, he isn't worth it...
In no way should you blame yourself for any of this, you have done so much to make this work but at the end of the day he never felt the same, but just never told you which he should of been straight with you, man I feel your pain it must feel just like another blow, hopefully you can get over this. I see this video was made in November and I just hope you have moved on with your life after this heartache....
WayneInPain 3 weeks ago
@WayneInPain I don't want to say too much as I know he spies,but I still miss him sometimes..Well no, that isn't right. I don't miss him, but I'm sad...because our wedding was supposed to be at the end of this month and he was supposed to have arrived 12 days ago. Right now we were supposed to be together, finally, after 4 years. He made up a lot of lies though, like I was forcing him to marry me and forcing him to b a house husband and other stupid shit. HE proposed to ME.He doesn't deserve me
RavenStarbl00d 3 weeks ago
@RavenStarbl00d of course you miss him you love him I can totally see how gut wrenching this is for you, maybe before the month is out he will have figured out that actually he really loves you too and wants to take the next step which is a big one for him obviously moving to another country, but if he really wants to and still wants to marry you he will move to you if not it really is hard to come to terms with but somehow you will have to find a way to breathe again without him.....
WayneInPain 3 weeks ago
@WayneInPain No, it's too late.He's dating one of my ex good friends-one who said was like a sister to me. I've cancelled the ticket, and would never take him back, not that he would come. I put my trust in the wrong person
RavenStarbl00d 3 weeks ago
I watched this last month but I couldn't respond cus I couldn't log into my account. I really wanted to tell you that these videos made me cry so hard when I watched them in November. You deserve so much to be happy, you've been hurt way too much for one lifetime. I hope you know that there are so many people who have come across you on YouTube who genuinely want to see you and your son happy. I live in NZ too. In time you will forget about him, just try to cut off all contact with that idiot.
droogzombie 2 months ago in playlist Uploaded videos
@droogzombie thank you so much...I'm not talking to the jerkoff at all-I'm so sick of his lies and always trying to cause me pain...his newest low of dating one of my friends only served to show me what a loser he really is. Where in nz are you?
RavenStarbl00d 2 months ago
@RavenStarbl00d I'm in Auckland. I used to watch you back when your username was Starbl0od, I don't think I ever commented before though. I'm glad you're not talking to him, that'll just give his manipulating self emotional control over you again. As time passes you'll think less and less about him and eventually he won't mean shit to you anymore. It was so brave of you to let your outer shell down and share such raw emotions. No guy is worth everything you sacrificed!
droogzombie 2 months ago
well thats bs all those guys have no idea how stupid and ignorent they are for even thinking of hurting someone as amazing as you are, youre a human and should be treated with respect this is why people make me angry cause they hurt the good people and worship the bad ones :\
RomanticUNDEADx 2 months ago
Sorry for what happen to you but that asshole doesn't deserve your tears. Seeing you cry and any other girl crying about someone left her or hit her makes me want to kill the motherfucker. Also sorry for the late comment have problems with my family.
13cruelty 3 months ago in playlist More videos from RavenStarbl00d 3
@13cruelty Whats wrong with your family? :-( Hope youre ok...
And I wish he would have...an accident..of some sort, lol...him and his new girlfriend, who was one of my best friends and who swore didnt want him! Betrayals left and right!
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago 3
Killing yourself won't solve anything. I used to be like this before I met Phill.It's a general concept of feeling empty like the world has turned it's back on you and it seems you won't be able escape.It's suffocating. My mom taught me "you can't cry about your problems all the time.It won't solve anything."She was right.Be diligent and have courage to mend broken bonds through apology to those who warned you.I find that helps when people know you take responsibility for your actions.message me
Casshern1100 3 months ago
i watched all of the videos and the true story videos and i use to watch you A LOT back when you had your old account starbl00d. i dont know you personally but what i can say is you do not need a piece of shit like tthat in your life. from watching your videos for a while,your life doesnt not seem easy at all and that asshole will get what he deserves. you will find someone again. hopefully that person will be good,loyal, and honest to you because you're generous, nice, pretty and deseve it! =]
amiex21 3 months ago
@amiex21 Aww thats very sweet of you...thank you for that. I hope he gets his in the end, and I hope I'm around to see it
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
@RavenStarbl00d someone who inflicts so much pain on a person who doesnt deserve it will be punished. wtf. it sickens me that there are people in this world like that. i hope one day he finds a person he loves, that person will be a dumb inconsiderate lying coward (like he was to you), and that person will leave him. that shit he pulled was not okay. anyone who sides with that asswipe is delusional! if he keeps taking people for granted, he will end up in a nursing home alone. what a disgrace.
amiex21 3 months ago
@amiex21 I'm pretty pissed off, he wrote a status today pretty much calling me psychotic and petty, thinking my only issue was trying to get friends and fans on my side...whatever
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
@RavenStarbl00d i think its so dumb that he is trying to defend himself in the situation in which he is the asshole. he probably is doing it because he wants you to seem bad which justifies why he treated you so poorly but nothing justifies what he did because you were good to him. it really sucks that he was a guy you sacrificed a lot for but it will get better. you definitely deserve to be happy and i really hope its getting better everyday <3
amiex21 3 months ago
Hey Raven, I also watched all 3 videos, Im 19 and know what your going thru. I spent tons of money on this guy i was with for a year, between buying him bus tickets here and home multiple times or just random stuff. Your a GORGEOUS woman and you deserve a guy or girl (to each's own) who would treat you like you deserve the world, because this video proves you have a big heart and when you love something very impotent to you. I wont say forget about him cause ive been there its easier said, <3
RomanticUNDEADx 3 months ago
@RomanticUNDEADx Wow...it seems like the world is full of assholes :-(
Shame really, that so many good people are willing to move the world for those they love, and all they get is trampled.I'm sorry it happened to you
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
thank you means alot to hear somthing other then move on and forget him cause its really not that easy, for the people talking about you trying to hurt you are just ignorent, reminds me of a quote "That's Why They're Called Haters If They Were Ment To Be LOVED They Would Be Called Life Enhancers " keep your chin up hun there is someone out there who would die to be your anything and everything <3 @RavenStarbl00d
RomanticUNDEADx 3 months ago
@RomanticUNDEADx oh, that sounds nice. to find a guy who can give to me what i give to others...the problem is- and i'll be the first to admit this- is i'm horribly shallow. i do have people willing to take me...but i want that certain gothy, pierced, skinny guy. i want romance. i want to be that matching couple, you know? and youre right- its nearly impossible to get over someone who has hurt you. in fact, it makes you think of them even more!
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
yes indeed! and im not afraid to agree with you i am as well i like my guys tall lanky peirced tattooed and all their long haired glory! its hard to find but when you know what you want you have to go for it and i hope you find your nightmare in shining armor <3 @RavenStarbl00d
RomanticUNDEADx 3 months ago
@RomanticUNDEADx Yeah and you see all these gorgeous matching couples- these alt girls with their alt guys, and yet no alt guys actually like me! I've only been with 3 in my life. One was my 2nd husband , who left me after 5 years to be with someone else...had me arrested and all that so he could move into our apt with her, the 2nd was just a non serious bf who got mad when I caught him trying to cheat on me, and he attacked me and choked me, and Cj was the 3rd
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
@Charriiful Thank you for that... I'm trying, I really am
RavenStarbl00d 3 months ago
I really hope you're feeling better... relieved after recorded all this... it's not nothing... I made the same mistake, manipulated by my first boyfriend... :( so I recognize what you're going through... the only advice I can give you is, never ever let you down, he isn't worth it...
epicafan911 3 months ago