The man has 4 degrees of self-preservation: 1 - save yourself 2 - procreation, including the sexual instinct and the care of children, 3 - to save the nation, patriotism, 4 - caring about humanity in general, and all living things.
hey erin im a 26 yo male and just wanted to say that you are a total inspiration to me, my lifes not that much diff to yours i too am surrounded by people that hate the gay and trans community and have finally decided to try. All my life ive HAD to be a guy or id cop a flogging from someone even if i just twease my eyebrows because i have a monno brow i like to look at least half normal and id cop it, going to see a therapist today and well see what they have to say
though my big(bi) sis would say its a waste of my boobs.(they arent really that big,are they?honestly,whats a d cup though?cause she says im gonna need one soon...)aaaanyway,i dont care bout boobs!
jesus i hate all the hate on this poor lady, She has had it rough, leave her alone yeah she was born in a guys body but she is a woman. She is confident in herself and you are sad confused people for hating on her. There is nothing wrong, ungodly, stupid or bad in any way about being transgender. As long as she is happy being her you all should leave her alone. I was born a girl in a girl body and i am in all aspects a girl, i was lucky to be born as i feel. POWER TO YOU lady <3
When I was young, I wanted to be a boy. I was a boy trapped in a girl's bidy. It was tortourous being put in the girls groups and being told I was a pretty girl. I was forced to be Kristin. Because of that, I was basically forced out of my gender dysporia. I'm not lesbian, I'm attracted to males, but for the longest time, I was a boy. Now, at 13, i feel it again. Like I shouldn't be a girl, like I should be a boy. Is this okay? Was it just a phase that I'm re-entering? please help.
I think i'll try to give you advice,i've been in the same condition but nobody forced me so much but myself.i was rigid at me, telling me my feeling male didn't exist, pushing me doing things to feel girl.look that's nonsense,and it ended up badly for me when i was over 13.if you wish to find out who you really are, look into yourself, into your deeper awareness of who you are.if you wake up in the morning and find the girl you should be missing from inside you, you may find out.
I'm moving to Utah probably in late July and I was wondering did you change your name there? Because I really want to legally change my name before school starts.
Also, you have any advice on living there as a Trans person like what to avoid when talking people there? Because I only know how people in religious states can be from what I've seen from the news.
Why are so many people convinced that they were born in the wrong body? Why are they convinced that their gender was a mistake? It would not surprise me one bit if people start claiming to be half pig or half goat and get whatever surgery needed to reflect their belief!!!
@MissWinner247 I have a female appearance and i am complely aware and happy to be a man, please do not think all people are so deluded into this silly thinking of been born in the wrong body. transgenderism is an option, transsexualism an invented illness to oppress people who make choices that do not please the bi-gender system in which we live in. This video should be named my transsexual live.
@MissWinner247 Lolz and if gay people got married that means people could marry animals!! This argument that if people want to change genders then maybe some will think they can be 'half pig or half goat'! Come one. Really? Why do trans people bother you so much? Maybe you should do some research on trans history before you start spouting uneducated and biased opinions.
@plarnful Are you serious? I am not going to do research on that madness!!!! I will not legitimize delusional disorders! I can understand and even sympathize with people born with both male and female genitalia, I can understand their CONFUSION, but others who are CLEARLY born either male or female, who QUESTION their gender or believe that their gender is a MISTAKE, or that they were born in the WRONG BODY ARE NUTS!!! THEY NEED PSYCHIATRIC HELP!
@MissWinner247 - No, they are not delusional. Perhaps if you were less close-minded and more open to understanding the complexities of human nature, you might realise there is more to life than your own simplistic beliefs.
These people actually are convinced in their minds that they were born the wrong gender and the media and society is accepting this as normal? When did all this crap start? This is so widespread that someone should be able to see that this type of thinking is wrong, but unfortunately, many believe that this is normal and acceptable! Wow, I never thought that so many people could be deceived on such a large scale, but they have been. They are convinced that their gender is/was a mistake!
Mental illness is running rampant, it seems so many people are unable to face the reality of what they are, and this is something that is happening to so many people like never before!!! When have we ever witnessed this type of delusional thinking on such a large scale before, people actually believing that they were born in the wrong body? Just the very fact that this is happening on such a large scale should cause people to see that this is a form of mental illness and nothing more!
@MissWinner247 "when did all this crap start" Um gee its been happening since society had some way of recording history. There are so many instances of transgendered people in so many different cultures and time periods. Gender is far more complicated then having different genitals, the hormones that govern gender are different for everyone. Even if you think its a 'mental illness' how the hell does it affect you if people wish to transition from one gender to another, or be ambiguous.
You're very brave, it takes a lot of courage to do what u did. U only have one life to live, and its important to LIVE and not exist. I'm not trangendered or gay, but I have had a lot of issues and a lot of people don't understand me, but I do draw a lot of inspiration from people like u who strive for happines, because I know sometimes it can feel very far away and unattainable.
This sounds a lot like my life. I threw out literaly $4000.00 worth of my girl clothes, make-up, breast forms etc. Each time I did, I thought that is it. I'm over it. But a little while later I would wish I had it all back. The internet was decades away when I was young. When it finally came about, I thought gee, I am to old to go through that. But, I'm doing it now age be damned.
Oh, sweetie, I also grew up mormon. By the time I was 17 I was pretty much convinced that I didn't believe in it anymore. It just doesn't make sense. A large part of it was because of their attitude towards the lgbtq community. Thye still don't know that I'm bisexual or that I don't believe anymore. I have some serious compassion with you here.
i am glad you did this i am going though the therpy and really going though a hard time but i am trying to keep it together i know it may not matter to you but you really are helping me out though it so thanks
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This boy is a FREAK!. HE WANTS TO BE A WOMAN TO BE WITH ANOTHER WOMAN???. How freakkish is that?. He thinks he looks like a "GIRL" now but to be honest he looks like a TRAVESTI, sorry, that's what I see. Now, many TRAVESTIS called themselves "TRANSGENDER", why?, because IT SOUNDS MORE INTERESTING. I am sure this guy didn't get enough attention from his parents. He doesn't know what he wants, go to therapy man. M.
@scottandmonica. Perhaps you can try and do some research before you make obnoxious comments. Also, you might want to consider learning how to format simple texts using basic grammar, spelling and punctuation. People who share their experiences on Youtube have more 'balls' than you will ever have.
@scottandmonica You need to do your research. Most people that identify as transgender have been through years and years of therapy and psychoanalysis. It has nothing to do with lack of attention from her parents or anyone else. I'm transgender as well and I can tell you if I had the choice to take a pill and make it go away I would do it in a second. Nobody wants to deal with the hardships of being trangender. Nobody wants to get all of this shit from douches like yourself.
@scottandmonica I actually find your comment rather expected and usual,what with the community I come from and all...and I understand your reaction in some way.Everyone must understand that things rare and uncommon most often elicit negative reactions automatically.However,as you go along,you'll realize that they are most often inappropriate and inadequate.How would you feel if you woke up every day feeling you're not who you appear to be?!These people really DO feel that way.
Grishno, that first video blog you made was the first one like it I had every seen. It was literally the evening following my first therapy session were I first got the GID diagnosis. I cried tears of joy that night, your video's were like listening to someone describe me. The connection our community has built a crossed thousands of miles has brought us all closer, and galvanized one another with the one fact, that none of us are alone, and none of us shall ever have to suffer in silence.
I'm blown away by your courage to be the person you've always wanted to be. It's something that many of us (including myself) will never be able to do.
I'm currently 14 and thinking about having a sex change in the future. It's gone to the point where I've cut, and had thoughts of suicide because I can't accept myself for who I am now. This video helped me a lot even in the first part of understanding what it's like. I was a little scared of the idea, but now I feel more comfortable about it. Thank you. :')
It is impossible to even perceive what being trangender is like for someone who isnt. I've always wanted to switch gender from M to F, but when a girl transitions from girl to boy, I always wonder why a girl would wanna be a guy and simply dont understand it at all cause when you're a trans, the feeling is so inividually based and one transexuals feeling of being trans may be completely different from another trans person.
Wow thanks a lot for this (: i can relate a lot. I live in Utah, raised to thing gay people were bad and evil and that it could go away. They only thing that is different is I'm not trans. I'm just a lesbian. (: But I understand where your coming from with the hard switch with religion conflict.
Life truly is too short and too precious to waste a day of it being anything other than yourself....HAPPY! Beautiful video, thank you so much for letting me peek in and learn from you. I wish you much love, peace, and happiness in your life!! Hate and cruelty come from fear of the unknown, kuddos for the courage to try and teach us. I will have grown from this experience I hope. Don't be disheartened by the hateful ones, they are just louder in the crowd than others lol
This is beautifully and tastefully done. Thank you so much for sharing your story, and explaining things to me. (Not that I am your only audience), My best friend had gender identity issues and he took his life. Some of our greatest times together was when we would play dress up in my closet and he felt free from his strict Mormon binds as well. You are very brave for sharing your story so publicly, and I hope many others will continue to do so.
Ohhhh my Gosh. Did that idiot really post that to you. I need to quit being so nieve in thinking that there no bad people in this world. That guy was mean to you Grishno. Your sweet and funny and kind.
so you are a transgender lesbian? lol...explain please, call me dumb but WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???!! Ok i got that out of my system...I would like to beat you up really take all the shit out of your brain! damn you make m mad!
Then you've got some serious mental issues. Someone somewhere that you've never met who is doing something that has absolutely nothing to do with you in any way shape or form makes you that angry? Really? REALLY?
By the way, love how open minded you are... it's really inspiring.
@grishno If u take hormones , will ur voice change ? cause i really wanna be a girl .. hmmm i wish i could take hormones but how do u take it .. and my parents wouldnt allow me to take hormones and to do surgery is like really expensive.. Do u take hormones through injection or pills ? I fear pain xD
That's not weird. There are a lot of transgendered people, such as myself. Also, if I were you, I'd start researching how you'd go about getting a change, if you're really transgendered. It does cost a lot of money, in the longrun though. I'm gonna start hormones once i move out of my parent's house and go to college.
@SonicKyuubi i wonder how .. i decided to write a letter to my parents and leave it at home and i stay overnight at my friend house , and let them decide , and at least i wont get scolded
Beating the shit out of her will not make her think she's a guy and I bet she could take you. She likes girls and she feels like a girl so she is a lesbian.
Wow I'm reading the comments here. Pepole just don't get it, the whole TG thing. I love your vids Erin, keep posting them. Remember there will always be haters. The world needs conflict to exist, unfortunately.
I'm not quite sure how you can be transgender, and lesbian, but I am happy that you feel more comfortable in your body know, so who cares? =] I'm happy for you. =]
how can you be cisgender and a lesbian? It's the same thing. Being transgender isn't about who you're in bed with, it's about who your in bed as... sexuality is completely separate. But thanks!
@AbsolutRachel Gender idetity and sexual preference ae two separate issues. Someone who's bi 99.9% of the time hs no interest in changing their gender. Lesbians or gay guys don't want to change their gender/sex.
If people don't understand this, read up on it, or ask people like this about it. Ann Lawrence has a great medical transsexual website, look at it.
Secondly, you seem to doubt that my transition is the correct way of dealing with my Gender Identity Disorder, yet it is actually the medically recognized treatment for such. I haven't gotten this far with out countless doctors and therapists signing off on everything from hormones replacement therapy to changing my name and gender marker.
I understand being perplexed by something that is new, however the way to approach is correctly would be with an open mind, not with statements like this.
I suppose it's not being perplexed as much as being critical. Because I'm a skeptical person. It serves me well but maybe I am lacking in grace when it comes to these issues. How do you know for sure that you chose the right course of action (don't feel as if I'm attacking you more then picking your mind a little ... trying to figure out your side of the story) I don't think it's that I'm not open minded...
In closing... How can you ever be sure about something like this?
When you wake up in the morning you know you're a guy. You don't even have to think about it because you just know. I woke up and I didn't know that... in fact I felt very strongly that I wasn't a boy for my entire life. After 20 years of feeling that same thing I found out that I could change my body to match my mind, and for the last five years I have been an incredibly happy and fulfilled person. That is how I know.
@grishno In response to this comment "When you wake up in the morning you know you're a guy."
I don't wake up in the morning and know I'm a guy...and I'm a guy. There's nothing internal about my gender. Why I am so confused about this disease all reports back to this basic construct. My gender is my physical body. I am a man because I have a penis, not because my brain interjects "you're a man" into my internal dialogue. Can you shine any light on this thought for me -- thanks.
@rockynfl14 You don't know what it is, because your sexual identity and body match. You perceive them as being whole, as one. For transgendered people that's not the case. Due to hormones (in the womb) our body and brain developed into opposite genders. Try to imagine having been born in a female body. You have boobs, a vagina, periods, high voice, no facial hair.. etc. Your body is 100% female, but you are still you inside. So eventhough your entire body is female, you'd still feel like a guy.
@rockynfl14 What if you had been born with genitals from both sexes (Hermaphrodite) and your parents had decided to take away the penis and make you into a girl. You'd grow up in a girls body, but you'd still have the same interests, thoughts and all that.
Your mom wants you to wear a pink dress and gives you a barbie for your birthday. Do you think you would've enjoyed it? Probably not. You'd still want to play with cars, guns or whatever, because your sexual identity would be male.
@rockynfl14 What if you had been born with genitals from both sexes (Hermaphrodite) and your parents had decided to take away the penis and make you into a girl. You'd grow up in a girls body, but you'd still have the same interests, thoughts and all that.
Your mom wants you to wear a pink dress and gives you a barbie for your birthday. Do you think you would've enjoyed it? Probably not. You'd still want to play with cars, guns or whatever, because your sexual identity would be male.
I'm asking this because I had a talk to a friend last night where she said I wasn't accepting what you guys are and that I was being judgeful but when I look at a person I see a sex and when they tell me that that's not the gender they were born with I automatically see both genders on them which is a bit weird for me but I do respect their choice and I do treat them as the gender they identify with it's just that I can't help but see the past and the present there, do you find it ofensive?
Hi, I have a question for you: 1st off I'm not against any of this, I do support the whole sex changing thing and I do respect transgenders as I would any other person, my question is do you feel ofended if I treat you like a girl, I refer to you as a girl to everyone but still when I look at you I see a girl and just because I know you were a boy I still see a boy there too?
Erin, your comment and life parallels my life. I went through the exact fillings being raised as a Mormon as you did. Your are so much braver than I am. You made it to be a real woman. I still have to be a man at times.
lol cute vids girl but there's somthign overpowering your soft voice when you where in tah room (Basement?) sounsd like air conditioning, if vids near it reccomend turning it off while taping
Good use of punctuation and grammar there. Also it looks as though you haven't paid attention to anybody form the transgendered community at all. Grow up, I'm quite sure your prejudice is not wanted.
i feel the exact same way! i always wished i was born a boy... i would dress like a boy and i would take my brothers clothes and put them on wishing that i could wear them everyday but my parents would give me hell
the only reason any one should get an operation is if they have wrong parts to begin with, But getting one cuz u "feel" u are in the wrong body is a ridicoulous claim and sounds like a spoiled child would ask for something liek that. "hey donate a bunch of money to me cuz i want attention" lol what a bunch o ffags
I suppose that you'd also dismiss that Gender Identity is a recognized, diagnosable and treatable condition in the DSM... treatment being therapy and if warranted, surgery.
They DO have wrong parts to begin with. They have the wrong body for their brain. It's unfortunate that there are no concrete tests for it, but then there are no tests for depression either and that is a fully recognised condition. Also, not all gender dysphoria requires surgery. It's like any other medical condition - intervention has several levels, from counselling and living 24/7 in correct gender, to hormones, to various levels of surgery. I suggest you do some research. :-)
You sound like an idiot and are obviously very ill informed. But if your opinions aren't due to ignorance, it's also possible that you are just an asshole.
Go watch some more Fox news. Also, by "u" did you mean "you"? That's all.
my friend laura is biologically is male. he going thru the process of being operated. she just had her nose done and her breasts. its quite sad how she talks about being trapped in the wrong body. she has a son and was married, she even served in the army as a man. i find it interesting that she still wants her son to know she still is his daddy but wants him to call her laura at all times.
My dad is a transwoman too and the way we have dealt with it is that my brother and I still call her Dad and she doesn't mind that. I am glad that it worked out this way for us - Dad has always been Dad to us, and so it would be very hard for us to call her anything else. It may well be different for yougner ones though - a 4 or 5 year old might be alright with the change because they are so young. My brother and I were 18 and 22 when our dad came out as trans and it would have made it harder.
We always hear about the psychological side of the transgender person, which is quite understandable, but being the child of the transgender person is never really talked about. It must have been really hard for you . Were you embarrassed to be walking down the street with the person? What was the hardest thing for you to come to terms with or put up with socially?
I would say that the person is ignorant, not the religion. Religion can make it worse though, certainly. It's all in your attitude. The fundie Christian would say that god created male and female and that's it and god does not make mistakes, ever. The more open-minded Christian observes all the diverse problems that people are born with and concludes that either things start out perfect and go wrong in the womb, or that god creates all these things, including gender dysphoria, for a reason.
@lizichell only religions that preach ignorance breed it... there are plenty of spiritual ideals out there that would embrace this as part of the beauty of life. research american indian original attitudes towards homosexuality and transgender, as well as how hindu and buddhist approach would go towards this
Very interesting. I've only recently, since this past December, come to accept that I'm trans-gender - Male to Female - so I'm coming to terms with the feelings instead of repressing as I did all through my life, and I'm 30.
Trans-gender is definitely not a choice, it's just there. Trying to be the person that people demand and trying to be the person you are within that doesn't match the external appearance is never easy.
you're a very beautiful woman, dont let anyone or anything make your life miserable, you can be what you want to be :) I hope you have a happy life and god loves you.
Your story sounds so much like my own, i must have tossed hundreds if not thousands of dollars worth of clothing away because of my guilt. also what i am clashes with my christian up bringing. Preachers have looked on me with disdain but few have try to understand. I will never toss my female clothing again, like me or hate me it's up to you. I no longer care. I want to be happy as a male i don't think that will ever happen. it has not yet and i am in my mid 40's
if u click on my profile babe, u can see my documentary bout my life... hope we can be friends babe, and if u were living here in sydney, i'd love to sing with u, and have u join my shows
hey girl, wow, interesting documentary bout ur life... i completely understand what YOU are going thru, i guess only someone who's been in ur shoes will 100% understand how it feels, anyone else will just see us as anything but someone negative n insensitive, weird and a freak, and that someone is IGNORANT!...
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If you're a good person than more power to ya but that's a big fuck you to your parents. "The life you gave me isn't enough". Saying you were born in the wrong body doesn't make any since cause what is the right body? Is it the body that you difine as femanine? If so then why do not all women especially butch lesbians have that body but are ok with being the gender they were born with and being masculine? I'm not preaching or hating but just answer me those questions please.
Gender identity is so much more complicated than just your sexuality or attitude. When you think about it, what you find physically attractive in another person doesn't have to have any correlation to the sort of person you are. It's a matter of comfort, and as such is harder to explain than that. Some people's personal space bubbles are different. I have no idea why someone doesn't like me being too close to them, and I don't try to understand. I just respect it. I think you should do the same.
Grishno, thank you for putting these videos up, unfortunatly the haters are loud and in your face, and those of us that really need these videosare usually a bit more quiet and shy...
what important is that you realize that your videos serve one hell of a purpose for those of us that feel completely ALONE.
...you're our light at the end of the tunnel, thank you :-)
Tomahawk1999 was alittle insulting but he/she has a point, a trans got killed for tricking a man and though that was fucked up, you can't be surprised. That realy isn't fair to the unsuspecting.
There is nothing wrong with being gay, transgendered, or just being yourself. I am getting really pissed off at people trying to dictate through things like religion and expectations to attack or judge others. I really feel sorry for transgendered people and it seems the more I learn about psychology and sociology the more open minded I become. Ah yes I am a Latter-day Saint. Keep it real sister, great video!
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sorry but you cant grow up as the "wrong gender" that's impossible, if your a girl your a girl if your a guy your a guy, obviously you were made a guy you are a guy, you weren't made a girl. there is no accident, you were made a certain way, some people are good athletes others aren't, does this mean they are a accident because they aren't good at sports? I mean give me a break honestly. Get real
You're the fucking moron in this situation. He wasn't bashing transgenders, or anything like that, he was just saying, if you choose to change your gender, that's fine, but there's no "wrong gender". Not to mention, his 6 thumbs down are totally biased. I watched this video because I was curious, wanting to hear the real experience about transgenders, but all I'm getting from this is self-consolation. Myself, and I don't think anyone, watched this video with an anti-transgender view in mind.
Well I'd hope that my videos don't come off as self serving or self consoling, especially since one of my big goals with them is to help people understand a little more about what transgender means.
That being sure I'm sure that there is some bias at time from myself and especially the people who watch and comment. Some transfolk get very defensive about this in the same way some religious folks get defensive about their god. But that's not everyone... and that's the point.
Oh no, I wasn't at all talking about your videos, just about every fifth comment. I like your videos quite a bit actually, but ignorant pro-transgender commenters are nearly as bad as ignorant anti-transgender commenters imo. Particularly, it was at ASecretToEveryone for his ignorant comment that got a thumbs up, while turkyman's comment, which he even explained somewhat, got 6 thumbs down.
The man has 4 degrees of self-preservation: 1 - save yourself 2 - procreation, including the sexual instinct and the care of children, 3 - to save the nation, patriotism, 4 - caring about humanity in general, and all living things.
From Russia with love.
anotherfolksilence 1 week ago
irregardless isn't a word
nadrepadre 1 month ago
hey erin im a 26 yo male and just wanted to say that you are a total inspiration to me, my lifes not that much diff to yours i too am surrounded by people that hate the gay and trans community and have finally decided to try. All my life ive HAD to be a guy or id cop a flogging from someone even if i just twease my eyebrows because i have a monno brow i like to look at least half normal and id cop it, going to see a therapist today and well see what they have to say
taylor1985ify 1 month ago
i love your song :)
PathieVEZ 2 months ago
you rock girl
SuperJenniferdiaz 2 months ago
and wow,your tran AND gay?i feel so not weird anymore!
LightningAndHarold 5 months ago in playlist My Transgender Life (Documentary)
though my big(bi) sis would say its a waste of my boobs.(they arent really that big,are they?honestly,whats a d cup though?cause she says im gonna need one soon...)aaaanyway,i dont care bout boobs!
LightningAndHarold 5 months ago in playlist My Transgender Life (Documentary)
i really wish we werent so poor...then maybe i could afford transgender surgery! XD but first i would have tot ell my mom.
LightningAndHarold 5 months ago in playlist My Transgender Life (Documentary)
You are now a beautiful woman but I have to say you were a pretty hot guy, just saying!
silverstorm1000 5 months ago
i need help i dont know how to tell my mom that i want to be a Transgender and i dont feel like a boy anymore
tirgerwong2013 5 months ago in playlist My Transgender Life (Documentary)
ur my hero
3MCboi028 5 months ago
How the hell did I get here?
JessiOrdinary 6 months ago
@JessiOrdinary Welcome to youtube!
grishno 6 months ago 22
@JessiOrdinary lol thats exactly what i was thinking!!!!
ShortyMcShortNerd 2 months ago
jesus i hate all the hate on this poor lady, She has had it rough, leave her alone yeah she was born in a guys body but she is a woman. She is confident in herself and you are sad confused people for hating on her. There is nothing wrong, ungodly, stupid or bad in any way about being transgender. As long as she is happy being her you all should leave her alone. I was born a girl in a girl body and i am in all aspects a girl, i was lucky to be born as i feel. POWER TO YOU lady <3
svsie1234456789 6 months ago 10
When I was young, I wanted to be a boy. I was a boy trapped in a girl's bidy. It was tortourous being put in the girls groups and being told I was a pretty girl. I was forced to be Kristin. Because of that, I was basically forced out of my gender dysporia. I'm not lesbian, I'm attracted to males, but for the longest time, I was a boy. Now, at 13, i feel it again. Like I shouldn't be a girl, like I should be a boy. Is this okay? Was it just a phase that I'm re-entering? please help.
AbbyReidMcGee 8 months ago
@AbbyReidMcGee
I think i'll try to give you advice,i've been in the same condition but nobody forced me so much but myself.i was rigid at me, telling me my feeling male didn't exist, pushing me doing things to feel girl.look that's nonsense,and it ended up badly for me when i was over 13.if you wish to find out who you really are, look into yourself, into your deeper awareness of who you are.if you wake up in the morning and find the girl you should be missing from inside you, you may find out.
theSoul000guarD 8 months ago in playlist My Transgender Life (Documentary)
I am sorry you are from Utah... what a hideous place!
AstridBerglund 8 months ago
I'm moving to Utah probably in late July and I was wondering did you change your name there? Because I really want to legally change my name before school starts.
Also, you have any advice on living there as a Trans person like what to avoid when talking people there? Because I only know how people in religious states can be from what I've seen from the news.
zoe041 9 months ago
you can be transgender all you want, but please stop singing. :)
webkinzgirl142 9 months ago
your beautiful person!!! :)
mexperex 9 months ago
LGBT or hetero, we are all the same! Love is love!
DJacqu8351 10 months ago
You're so beautiful <3
UrMomWatchesThis 10 months ago
do you still have your penis?
xzaxx 11 months ago
What a beautiful production! !
rhonda94026 1 year ago
peter crouch
abbynady 1 year ago
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clubglam00 1 year ago
I totally admire you for ur courage! keep being urself!! thank u for educating us on a subject that nobody talks about!
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clubglam00 1 year ago
You are beautiful. Keep up your bravery and educating others to be okay with who they are. I wish you greatness in everything!
violashutters 1 year ago
you are awsome and i respect u as a person and i know i will be a fan of u and i hope u continue making videos . u should make a wedsite
TheNinja4321 1 year ago
omg why you make the transition if you are lesbian now....
ghoticipy 1 year ago
Why are so many people convinced that they were born in the wrong body? Why are they convinced that their gender was a mistake? It would not surprise me one bit if people start claiming to be half pig or half goat and get whatever surgery needed to reflect their belief!!!
MissWinner247 1 year ago
@MissWinner247 I have a female appearance and i am complely aware and happy to be a man, please do not think all people are so deluded into this silly thinking of been born in the wrong body. transgenderism is an option, transsexualism an invented illness to oppress people who make choices that do not please the bi-gender system in which we live in. This video should be named my transsexual live.
Thebiggestfarceever 1 year ago
@MissWinner247 Lolz and if gay people got married that means people could marry animals!! This argument that if people want to change genders then maybe some will think they can be 'half pig or half goat'! Come one. Really? Why do trans people bother you so much? Maybe you should do some research on trans history before you start spouting uneducated and biased opinions.
plarnful 1 year ago
@plarnful Are you serious? I am not going to do research on that madness!!!! I will not legitimize delusional disorders! I can understand and even sympathize with people born with both male and female genitalia, I can understand their CONFUSION, but others who are CLEARLY born either male or female, who QUESTION their gender or believe that their gender is a MISTAKE, or that they were born in the WRONG BODY ARE NUTS!!! THEY NEED PSYCHIATRIC HELP!
MissWinner247 1 year ago
@MissWinner247 - No, they are not delusional. Perhaps if you were less close-minded and more open to understanding the complexities of human nature, you might realise there is more to life than your own simplistic beliefs.
Don't be so judgemental.
Kiwifrank 1 year ago
@Kiwifrank THEY ARE DELUSIONAL! btw my simplistic beliefs cinincides with the BIBLE!:)
MissWinner247 1 year ago
@MissWinner247
Its has been proven.. So that means it cant be made up. You should really look some stuff up before you say things you dont know about
Jewel7685 10 months ago
These people actually are convinced in their minds that they were born the wrong gender and the media and society is accepting this as normal? When did all this crap start? This is so widespread that someone should be able to see that this type of thinking is wrong, but unfortunately, many believe that this is normal and acceptable! Wow, I never thought that so many people could be deceived on such a large scale, but they have been. They are convinced that their gender is/was a mistake!
MissWinner247 1 year ago
Mental illness is running rampant, it seems so many people are unable to face the reality of what they are, and this is something that is happening to so many people like never before!!! When have we ever witnessed this type of delusional thinking on such a large scale before, people actually believing that they were born in the wrong body? Just the very fact that this is happening on such a large scale should cause people to see that this is a form of mental illness and nothing more!
MissWinner247 1 year ago
@MissWinner247 "when did all this crap start" Um gee its been happening since society had some way of recording history. There are so many instances of transgendered people in so many different cultures and time periods. Gender is far more complicated then having different genitals, the hormones that govern gender are different for everyone. Even if you think its a 'mental illness' how the hell does it affect you if people wish to transition from one gender to another, or be ambiguous.
plarnful 1 year ago
trnsgender and from utah?? tough, ...that requires guts, balls and plenty of atitude that super macho men lack.
best wishes..
odinmp5 1 year ago
Oh man, I'M FROM UTAH and you packing up and moving to NY is my dream. I am so inspired by you! You are so strong and amazing!
ChippedPrism 1 year ago
I have been following your videos, and I think you are incredible.
elvis3700 1 year ago 2
You're very brave, it takes a lot of courage to do what u did. U only have one life to live, and its important to LIVE and not exist. I'm not trangendered or gay, but I have had a lot of issues and a lot of people don't understand me, but I do draw a lot of inspiration from people like u who strive for happines, because I know sometimes it can feel very far away and unattainable.
bjesgirl 1 year ago
This is realy interesting, thanks for posting! Ha, I remember dressing up as a girl many times as a child. XD
squigoo 1 year ago
This sounds a lot like my life. I threw out literaly $4000.00 worth of my girl clothes, make-up, breast forms etc. Each time I did, I thought that is it. I'm over it. But a little while later I would wish I had it all back. The internet was decades away when I was young. When it finally came about, I thought gee, I am to old to go through that. But, I'm doing it now age be damned.
MsKaren1961 1 year ago
SO cool cute outfits
TheSophie36 1 year ago
Oh, sweetie, I also grew up mormon. By the time I was 17 I was pretty much convinced that I didn't believe in it anymore. It just doesn't make sense. A large part of it was because of their attitude towards the lgbtq community. Thye still don't know that I'm bisexual or that I don't believe anymore. I have some serious compassion with you here.
roadsideflowers 1 year ago
i am glad you did this i am going though the therpy and really going though a hard time but i am trying to keep it together i know it may not matter to you but you really are helping me out though it so thanks
ITOVER900012 1 year ago
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This boy is a FREAK!. HE WANTS TO BE A WOMAN TO BE WITH ANOTHER WOMAN???. How freakkish is that?. He thinks he looks like a "GIRL" now but to be honest he looks like a TRAVESTI, sorry, that's what I see. Now, many TRAVESTIS called themselves "TRANSGENDER", why?, because IT SOUNDS MORE INTERESTING. I am sure this guy didn't get enough attention from his parents. He doesn't know what he wants, go to therapy man. M.
scottandmonica 1 year ago
@scottandmonica Your an idiot. It's not a mental disorder. Read up on it would ya?
nyses 1 year ago
@scottandmonica Why don't you try thinking reasonably? You might find it hard at first, but with help you might eventually qualify as sentient.
FriendlyShadow1 1 year ago
@scottandmonica. Perhaps you can try and do some research before you make obnoxious comments. Also, you might want to consider learning how to format simple texts using basic grammar, spelling and punctuation. People who share their experiences on Youtube have more 'balls' than you will ever have.
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SNIDERDC 1 year ago
@scottandmonica You need to do your research. Most people that identify as transgender have been through years and years of therapy and psychoanalysis. It has nothing to do with lack of attention from her parents or anyone else. I'm transgender as well and I can tell you if I had the choice to take a pill and make it go away I would do it in a second. Nobody wants to deal with the hardships of being trangender. Nobody wants to get all of this shit from douches like yourself.
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SNIDERDC 1 year ago
@scottandmonica I actually find your comment rather expected and usual,what with the community I come from and all...and I understand your reaction in some way.Everyone must understand that things rare and uncommon most often elicit negative reactions automatically.However,as you go along,you'll realize that they are most often inappropriate and inadequate.How would you feel if you woke up every day feeling you're not who you appear to be?!These people really DO feel that way.
Tearjerker88 1 year ago
Grishno, that first video blog you made was the first one like it I had every seen. It was literally the evening following my first therapy session were I first got the GID diagnosis. I cried tears of joy that night, your video's were like listening to someone describe me. The connection our community has built a crossed thousands of miles has brought us all closer, and galvanized one another with the one fact, that none of us are alone, and none of us shall ever have to suffer in silence.
ZoeyTG 1 year ago
why is that man dressed like a woman?
woo2fly21 1 year ago
@woo2fly21 She is a woman. She's transgendered.
jcac1023 1 year ago
@woo2fly21 you're an imbecile.
9Micah 1 year ago
I luv ur video thnx!!!!!!!!!
candycane520 1 year ago
Youre a pretty woman
sjoelund1 1 year ago
I'm blown away by your courage to be the person you've always wanted to be. It's something that many of us (including myself) will never be able to do.
ebbonorden 1 year ago
I'm currently 14 and thinking about having a sex change in the future. It's gone to the point where I've cut, and had thoughts of suicide because I can't accept myself for who I am now. This video helped me a lot even in the first part of understanding what it's like. I was a little scared of the idea, but now I feel more comfortable about it. Thank you. :')
casey321b 1 year ago
this is so sad
folsomtiefighter 1 year ago
It is impossible to even perceive what being trangender is like for someone who isnt. I've always wanted to switch gender from M to F, but when a girl transitions from girl to boy, I always wonder why a girl would wanna be a guy and simply dont understand it at all cause when you're a trans, the feeling is so inividually based and one transexuals feeling of being trans may be completely different from another trans person.
1000sidney 1 year ago
Wow thanks a lot for this (: i can relate a lot. I live in Utah, raised to thing gay people were bad and evil and that it could go away. They only thing that is different is I'm not trans. I'm just a lesbian. (: But I understand where your coming from with the hard switch with religion conflict.
sammythesexysquirrel 1 year ago
That song about Utah was hilarious.
Your story sounds a lot like mine. Thank you for sharing!
Zelfamoromni 2 years ago
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You're a sick perverted fuck.
WhaleFriend 2 years ago
Life truly is too short and too precious to waste a day of it being anything other than yourself....HAPPY! Beautiful video, thank you so much for letting me peek in and learn from you. I wish you much love, peace, and happiness in your life!! Hate and cruelty come from fear of the unknown, kuddos for the courage to try and teach us. I will have grown from this experience I hope. Don't be disheartened by the hateful ones, they are just louder in the crowd than others lol
andreaburnett 2 years ago 7
This is beautifully and tastefully done. Thank you so much for sharing your story, and explaining things to me. (Not that I am your only audience), My best friend had gender identity issues and he took his life. Some of our greatest times together was when we would play dress up in my closet and he felt free from his strict Mormon binds as well. You are very brave for sharing your story so publicly, and I hope many others will continue to do so.
andreaburnett 2 years ago
Noooooooo! "Irregardless."
1Camille2 2 years ago 3
I noticed that too XD
dvergabondi 1 year ago
Ohhhh my Gosh. Did that idiot really post that to you. I need to quit being so nieve in thinking that there no bad people in this world. That guy was mean to you Grishno. Your sweet and funny and kind.
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so you are a transgender lesbian? lol...explain please, call me dumb but WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???!! Ok i got that out of my system...I would like to beat you up really take all the shit out of your brain! damn you make m mad!
Xiskinho 2 years ago
Then you've got some serious mental issues. Someone somewhere that you've never met who is doing something that has absolutely nothing to do with you in any way shape or form makes you that angry? Really? REALLY?
By the way, love how open minded you are... it's really inspiring.
grishno 2 years ago 3
@grishno why do u hate ureself so? i just don't get it
1080portal 1 year ago
@grishno It's not a mental disorder. Stop believing everything you read.
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@grishno If u take hormones , will ur voice change ? cause i really wanna be a girl .. hmmm i wish i could take hormones but how do u take it .. and my parents wouldnt allow me to take hormones and to do surgery is like really expensive.. Do u take hormones through injection or pills ? I fear pain xD
d3vilnaruto 1 year ago
@grishno and will u get boobs ?
d3vilnaruto 1 year ago
@d3vilnaruto
Yeah if you're on female hormones, you do grow breasts, just like any girl undergoing puberty.
SonicKyuubi 1 year ago
@SonicKyuubi hmmmm weird.. but hmmm i always wanted to be a girl..
d3vilnaruto 1 year ago
@d3vilnaruto
That's not weird. There are a lot of transgendered people, such as myself. Also, if I were you, I'd start researching how you'd go about getting a change, if you're really transgendered. It does cost a lot of money, in the longrun though. I'm gonna start hormones once i move out of my parent's house and go to college.
SonicKyuubi 1 year ago
@SonicKyuubi i wonder how .. i decided to write a letter to my parents and leave it at home and i stay overnight at my friend house , and let them decide , and at least i wont get scolded
d3vilnaruto 1 year ago
@Xiskinho
Beating the shit out of her will not make her think she's a guy and I bet she could take you. She likes girls and she feels like a girl so she is a lesbian.
damian32694 1 year ago
I also hate bad spelling. I meant to say "people" don't get it.
TheCheatingBastard 2 years ago
Wow I'm reading the comments here. Pepole just don't get it, the whole TG thing. I love your vids Erin, keep posting them. Remember there will always be haters. The world needs conflict to exist, unfortunately.
TheCheatingBastard 2 years ago
I'm not quite sure how you can be transgender, and lesbian, but I am happy that you feel more comfortable in your body know, so who cares? =] I'm happy for you. =]
AbsolutRachel 2 years ago
how can you be cisgender and a lesbian? It's the same thing. Being transgender isn't about who you're in bed with, it's about who your in bed as... sexuality is completely separate. But thanks!
grishno 2 years ago 35
@AbsolutRachel Gender idetity and sexual preference ae two separate issues. Someone who's bi 99.9% of the time hs no interest in changing their gender. Lesbians or gay guys don't want to change their gender/sex.
If people don't understand this, read up on it, or ask people like this about it. Ann Lawrence has a great medical transsexual website, look at it.
workstrength 1 year ago
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wait a transgendered lesbian? That seems almost too complicated to come up with on your own.
Wait, why not just be a dude and like women, that's so much simpler. You have a mental disorder.
thenaj88 2 years ago
You've commented on several of my videos in the past hour, so obviously you have some kind of interest in the topic.
I've said it all over the place, but I'll say it again... being transgender isn't about who you're in bed with, it's about who you're in bed as.
grishno 2 years ago
Secondly, you seem to doubt that my transition is the correct way of dealing with my Gender Identity Disorder, yet it is actually the medically recognized treatment for such. I haven't gotten this far with out countless doctors and therapists signing off on everything from hormones replacement therapy to changing my name and gender marker.
I understand being perplexed by something that is new, however the way to approach is correctly would be with an open mind, not with statements like this.
grishno 2 years ago
I suppose it's not being perplexed as much as being critical. Because I'm a skeptical person. It serves me well but maybe I am lacking in grace when it comes to these issues. How do you know for sure that you chose the right course of action (don't feel as if I'm attacking you more then picking your mind a little ... trying to figure out your side of the story) I don't think it's that I'm not open minded...
In closing... How can you ever be sure about something like this?
thenaj88 2 years ago
When you wake up in the morning you know you're a guy. You don't even have to think about it because you just know. I woke up and I didn't know that... in fact I felt very strongly that I wasn't a boy for my entire life. After 20 years of feeling that same thing I found out that I could change my body to match my mind, and for the last five years I have been an incredibly happy and fulfilled person. That is how I know.
grishno 2 years ago 27
fair enough.
thenaj88 2 years ago
@grishno In response to this comment "When you wake up in the morning you know you're a guy."
I don't wake up in the morning and know I'm a guy...and I'm a guy. There's nothing internal about my gender. Why I am so confused about this disease all reports back to this basic construct. My gender is my physical body. I am a man because I have a penis, not because my brain interjects "you're a man" into my internal dialogue. Can you shine any light on this thought for me -- thanks.
rockynfl14 1 year ago
@rockynfl14 You don't know what it is, because your sexual identity and body match. You perceive them as being whole, as one. For transgendered people that's not the case. Due to hormones (in the womb) our body and brain developed into opposite genders. Try to imagine having been born in a female body. You have boobs, a vagina, periods, high voice, no facial hair.. etc. Your body is 100% female, but you are still you inside. So eventhough your entire body is female, you'd still feel like a guy.
DutchJake 11 months ago
@rockynfl14 What if you had been born with genitals from both sexes (Hermaphrodite) and your parents had decided to take away the penis and make you into a girl. You'd grow up in a girls body, but you'd still have the same interests, thoughts and all that.
Your mom wants you to wear a pink dress and gives you a barbie for your birthday. Do you think you would've enjoyed it? Probably not. You'd still want to play with cars, guns or whatever, because your sexual identity would be male.
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@rockynfl14 What if you had been born with genitals from both sexes (Hermaphrodite) and your parents had decided to take away the penis and make you into a girl. You'd grow up in a girls body, but you'd still have the same interests, thoughts and all that.
Your mom wants you to wear a pink dress and gives you a barbie for your birthday. Do you think you would've enjoyed it? Probably not. You'd still want to play with cars, guns or whatever, because your sexual identity would be male.
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semaj552 1 year ago
@thenaj88
Sexual orientation has nothing to do with gender identity dumbass.
damian32694 1 year ago
I'm asking this because I had a talk to a friend last night where she said I wasn't accepting what you guys are and that I was being judgeful but when I look at a person I see a sex and when they tell me that that's not the gender they were born with I automatically see both genders on them which is a bit weird for me but I do respect their choice and I do treat them as the gender they identify with it's just that I can't help but see the past and the present there, do you find it ofensive?
sergeinikolx 2 years ago
Hi, I have a question for you: 1st off I'm not against any of this, I do support the whole sex changing thing and I do respect transgenders as I would any other person, my question is do you feel ofended if I treat you like a girl, I refer to you as a girl to everyone but still when I look at you I see a girl and just because I know you were a boy I still see a boy there too?
sergeinikolx 2 years ago
Do you have any videos which specifically address the conflict between your Mormon upbringing and being transgendered?
Doliath 2 years ago
Erin, your comment and life parallels my life. I went through the exact fillings being raised as a Mormon as you did. Your are so much braver than I am. You made it to be a real woman. I still have to be a man at times.
cathy308308 2 years ago
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I'd fuck it hard!
OBLIZOX 2 years ago
bahahahahahaha.....
ARandomTranny 2 years ago
i love the way u sing and play
gracefullcorn 2 years ago
lol cute vids girl but there's somthign overpowering your soft voice when you where in tah room (Basement?) sounsd like air conditioning, if vids near it reccomend turning it off while taping
sephirothtx 2 years ago
You....thought... it was photoshopped? hehehe.... a little research milady?
TradingGenders 2 years ago
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I find this sickening the trauma you caused to you're father for this.
And you better go and screw up a straight normal dudes life by confessing you're a tranni, that is the most sickening ever...
whitehiphop1 2 years ago
better not*
whitehiphop1 2 years ago
i find u sickening for being so ignorant.
desibabii1 2 years ago
Good use of punctuation and grammar there. Also it looks as though you haven't paid attention to anybody form the transgendered community at all. Grow up, I'm quite sure your prejudice is not wanted.
Slasher9641 2 years ago
i feel the exact same way! i always wished i was born a boy... i would dress like a boy and i would take my brothers clothes and put them on wishing that i could wear them everyday but my parents would give me hell
shirleysfrog91 2 years ago
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the only surgery you need, ya twisted human, is a swift shotgun to the face. stop proliferating your weird ass bullshit.
settlefornothink 2 years ago
@settlefornothink
You need to stop being an idiot and realize no one is the same.
damian32694 1 year ago
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the only reason any one should get an operation is if they have wrong parts to begin with, But getting one cuz u "feel" u are in the wrong body is a ridicoulous claim and sounds like a spoiled child would ask for something liek that. "hey donate a bunch of money to me cuz i want attention" lol what a bunch o ffags
anuls 2 years ago
I suppose that you'd also dismiss that Gender Identity is a recognized, diagnosable and treatable condition in the DSM... treatment being therapy and if warranted, surgery.
grishno 2 years ago
They DO have wrong parts to begin with. They have the wrong body for their brain. It's unfortunate that there are no concrete tests for it, but then there are no tests for depression either and that is a fully recognised condition. Also, not all gender dysphoria requires surgery. It's like any other medical condition - intervention has several levels, from counselling and living 24/7 in correct gender, to hormones, to various levels of surgery. I suggest you do some research. :-)
hazelangus 2 years ago
You're a fantastic therapist, Anuls. That must be the case, if you're so easily able to dismiss established neurology and psychology research.
Surely, your Nobel prize is just waiting for you.
Makyui 2 years ago
You sound like an idiot and are obviously very ill informed. But if your opinions aren't due to ignorance, it's also possible that you are just an asshole.
Go watch some more Fox news. Also, by "u" did you mean "you"? That's all.
LillyDunkel 2 years ago
@anuls
She does have the wrong parts.
damian32694 1 year ago
my friend laura is biologically is male. he going thru the process of being operated. she just had her nose done and her breasts. its quite sad how she talks about being trapped in the wrong body. she has a son and was married, she even served in the army as a man. i find it interesting that she still wants her son to know she still is his daddy but wants him to call her laura at all times.
TheCharleycat 2 years ago
My dad is a transwoman too and the way we have dealt with it is that my brother and I still call her Dad and she doesn't mind that. I am glad that it worked out this way for us - Dad has always been Dad to us, and so it would be very hard for us to call her anything else. It may well be different for yougner ones though - a 4 or 5 year old might be alright with the change because they are so young. My brother and I were 18 and 22 when our dad came out as trans and it would have made it harder.
hazelangus 2 years ago
We always hear about the psychological side of the transgender person, which is quite understandable, but being the child of the transgender person is never really talked about. It must have been really hard for you . Were you embarrassed to be walking down the street with the person? What was the hardest thing for you to come to terms with or put up with socially?
TheCharleycat 2 years ago
The outfit you're wearing with the hat and the pink and grey shirt is really cute on you.
Imagirlk 2 years ago
Hi you are so hot. :p
Liquidicespace 2 years ago
Religion breeds ignorance
lizichell 2 years ago 27
I would say that the person is ignorant, not the religion. Religion can make it worse though, certainly. It's all in your attitude. The fundie Christian would say that god created male and female and that's it and god does not make mistakes, ever. The more open-minded Christian observes all the diverse problems that people are born with and concludes that either things start out perfect and go wrong in the womb, or that god creates all these things, including gender dysphoria, for a reason.
hazelangus 2 years ago
@lizichell For real
nyses 1 year ago
@lizichell only religions that preach ignorance breed it... there are plenty of spiritual ideals out there that would embrace this as part of the beauty of life. research american indian original attitudes towards homosexuality and transgender, as well as how hindu and buddhist approach would go towards this
moocowtoyou 1 year ago
but its fun shopping lol
Onaca420 2 years ago
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lesbians are sooo hot.
TheJulie295 2 years ago
Very interesting. I've only recently, since this past December, come to accept that I'm trans-gender - Male to Female - so I'm coming to terms with the feelings instead of repressing as I did all through my life, and I'm 30.
Trans-gender is definitely not a choice, it's just there. Trying to be the person that people demand and trying to be the person you are within that doesn't match the external appearance is never easy.
ReinaHW 2 years ago
im mormon & im gay. liek omfg.
FatalToxin 2 years ago
All mormons are gay
Nextstopearth 2 years ago
Nice song... lol :P
kafcin 2 years ago
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a guy pretending to be a chick whos a lesbian..?
mrmudkip9000 2 years ago
lol
woOoOow17 2 years ago
you're a very beautiful woman, dont let anyone or anything make your life miserable, you can be what you want to be :) I hope you have a happy life and god loves you.
generationxyz 2 years ago 5
Zeus only loves her if she gives decent hecatombs.
Nextstopearth 2 years ago
Thank you
Your story sounds so much like my own, i must have tossed hundreds if not thousands of dollars worth of clothing away because of my guilt. also what i am clashes with my christian up bringing. Preachers have looked on me with disdain but few have try to understand. I will never toss my female clothing again, like me or hate me it's up to you. I no longer care. I want to be happy as a male i don't think that will ever happen. it has not yet and i am in my mid 40's
smokestack45 2 years ago 3
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smokestack45 2 years ago
marry me
priscijojo 2 years ago
if u click on my profile babe, u can see my documentary bout my life... hope we can be friends babe, and if u were living here in sydney, i'd love to sing with u, and have u join my shows
lovesexydarlene 2 years ago
hey girl, wow, interesting documentary bout ur life... i completely understand what YOU are going thru, i guess only someone who's been in ur shoes will 100% understand how it feels, anyone else will just see us as anything but someone negative n insensitive, weird and a freak, and that someone is IGNORANT!...
lovesexydarlene 2 years ago
im a transgender nd i tell ppl what i am....if i plan on talkin to dem if not ..then its none of their bizniss
blaquebarbee08 2 years ago
you are, u live, you is one, you start, u star, u are of you , live living about u thinking u life u likers, u mind heart love, live you with out worry or ideas or thinking about outher asks great u in video of you friend luna from brasil..
lunatostar 2 years ago
everething i need to say to you dear, is keep u force, no look no make importancy to eye, ask, to nothing of words next you why, well we been of part of world, and u live u are of one start too, keep your life good fine, live living of all minuts with of last one,no worry about outher if no, we no liveof we lifes , and yes will live of lifes person think or like of we yes or no, live of you, great song,,hugss luna from brasil
lunatostar 2 years ago
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If you're a good person than more power to ya but that's a big fuck you to your parents. "The life you gave me isn't enough". Saying you were born in the wrong body doesn't make any since cause what is the right body? Is it the body that you difine as femanine? If so then why do not all women especially butch lesbians have that body but are ok with being the gender they were born with and being masculine? I'm not preaching or hating but just answer me those questions please.
clipsryan 2 years ago
I think it could be a different number of things... Like just as simple as the woman is comfortable with herself as a girl.
It could be like its easier for a boy to be turned into a girl then a girl turning into a boy. (the operation isn't as rough?)
But yeah...
Like I know what your asking, but i'm not exactly sure why you're asking it if it doesn't have anything to do with your life...
Riotramsey 2 years ago
Gender identity is so much more complicated than just your sexuality or attitude. When you think about it, what you find physically attractive in another person doesn't have to have any correlation to the sort of person you are. It's a matter of comfort, and as such is harder to explain than that. Some people's personal space bubbles are different. I have no idea why someone doesn't like me being too close to them, and I don't try to understand. I just respect it. I think you should do the same.
ZizooMoDaI 2 years ago
@clipsryan
I'm a FTM, that means I was born a girl but I'm going to change my sex.
damian32694 1 year ago
i'm glad that there is more awareness about transgender people, everyone should have the right to live their life in whatever body they want.
XhezthecrazymetalerX 2 years ago
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I find it amusing when people hold and talk abt these transidiots with high standards, like they saved the world or something.
all they did was gave their parents something to be ashamed about, and in the future fooling some unsuspecting nice guy in marrying a guy...
Tomahawk1999 2 years ago
you're a fucking dumbass, eat shit and die!
Grishno, thank you for putting these videos up, unfortunatly the haters are loud and in your face, and those of us that really need these videosare usually a bit more quiet and shy...
what important is that you realize that your videos serve one hell of a purpose for those of us that feel completely ALONE.
...you're our light at the end of the tunnel, thank you :-)
Jade1003 2 years ago
Tomahawk1999 was alittle insulting but he/she has a point, a trans got killed for tricking a man and though that was fucked up, you can't be surprised. That realy isn't fair to the unsuspecting.
clipsryan 2 years ago
@Tomahawk1999
Shut up, no one likes you. Just because your parents hate you doesn't mean other peoples parents do.
damian32694 1 year ago
There is nothing wrong with being gay, transgendered, or just being yourself. I am getting really pissed off at people trying to dictate through things like religion and expectations to attack or judge others. I really feel sorry for transgendered people and it seems the more I learn about psychology and sociology the more open minded I become. Ah yes I am a Latter-day Saint. Keep it real sister, great video!
ldsbrothernick 2 years ago 2
great video
steelerful 2 years ago
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Hm, its a shame. The world is becoming too messed up. Sicknesses are growing, murder, gayy. its becoming more common.
The world truly is falling apart, beyond repair.
jekCQC 2 years ago
@jekCQC
You're going to be a part of a murder if you don't shut your snobby ass up.
damian32694 1 year ago
you're so brave. well done, darling. =]
balloonlady886 2 years ago 7
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sorry but you cant grow up as the "wrong gender" that's impossible, if your a girl your a girl if your a guy your a guy, obviously you were made a guy you are a guy, you weren't made a girl. there is no accident, you were made a certain way, some people are good athletes others aren't, does this mean they are a accident because they aren't good at sports? I mean give me a break honestly. Get real
turkyman 2 years ago
I'm sorry you had to grow up as a moron then.
ASecretToEveryone 2 years ago 3
You're the fucking moron in this situation. He wasn't bashing transgenders, or anything like that, he was just saying, if you choose to change your gender, that's fine, but there's no "wrong gender". Not to mention, his 6 thumbs down are totally biased. I watched this video because I was curious, wanting to hear the real experience about transgenders, but all I'm getting from this is self-consolation. Myself, and I don't think anyone, watched this video with an anti-transgender view in mind.
rohiogerv22 2 years ago
Well I'd hope that my videos don't come off as self serving or self consoling, especially since one of my big goals with them is to help people understand a little more about what transgender means.
That being sure I'm sure that there is some bias at time from myself and especially the people who watch and comment. Some transfolk get very defensive about this in the same way some religious folks get defensive about their god. But that's not everyone... and that's the point.
~E
grishno 2 years ago
Oh no, I wasn't at all talking about your videos, just about every fifth comment. I like your videos quite a bit actually, but ignorant pro-transgender commenters are nearly as bad as ignorant anti-transgender commenters imo. Particularly, it was at ASecretToEveryone for his ignorant comment that got a thumbs up, while turkyman's comment, which he even explained somewhat, got 6 thumbs down.
rohiogerv22 2 years ago
No, I think you're just misinterpreting it. Horribly.
ASecretToEveryone 2 years ago