I agree if someone is self harming dont freak them out on the esspicaly if they do have susidal thoughts bcuz that more you bug the higher the chance they will go through with it if u aproch them the wrong way
that is the most horrible thing ive ever heard.....i feel so sorry for you....what an awful experience....i live in australia and id like to think that they werent that intense about things like this.....like in regard to strapping people down and taking them to a psych ward....thats awful.....i admire your videos.....
Ohh my goodness...."Why don't you just go ahead and kill yourself?" that is horrible and makes me tear up....I would never kill myself....I am against suicide unless someone is in extreme pain physically of course.....I cut but I am not suicidal...it hurts when people write stuff like that.
thats happened to me befor they took me to the police station and locked me up over night and made me talk to a shrink, now i get really nervous around cops even tho im not depressed or self injuring or anything
Thank you so very much for posting this video! I am a self-injurer and i think it's great that you are letting people know the real deal about cutting. If ever you're interested you can check out the video I made on cutting. Once again thank you.
i cut because physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. im just going through a lot. and it is so so hard. but i dont wanna die. i just needed an outlet. its
for me, cutting is a substitute for suicide. everytime i cut i feel like i'm simulating my death, which placates me for a while. it is a huge relief even if hiding the scars is a bitch.
The sad thing is that the urge to cut nvr rly goes away permanently... I stopped like six mths ago after cutting bout seven times and I still get urges to when I get mad or upset... But at the same time I just couldn't stand to hide all mi cuts, I couldn't stand having to wry about wat other people would think. So I've found other ways to deal. Feel free to message me if you need support for this kinda thing or if u want help trying to quit :)
@Applemonkeyz congratz on quitting! I wouldn't know how hard it must be, but I imagine it's as bad as any other addiction, perhaps worse. I know you can pull through and not cut again, because resisting is going to make it easier and easier to not get urges to cut anymore. You are strong. You've made it this far, right?
@Applemonkeyz i used to cut abt a year back in college and now i started doing it again last week....i feel better when cutting and i kinda like the pain...but at the same time i want to stop but cant:(
Please talk to people who love you if you continue to feel this way. Suicide is not the answer even if you feel that it seems to be. There is help for depression and if one thing doesn't work, another will. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers, I too have struggled with depression, you can have a better life.
Talk to your Dr! The world will go on people will forget you. Things can and do change! Realize you are most likely not thinking clearly at the moment. This too shall pass. Provided you hang in there. Don't do it alone, seek help! You have value! You are loved.
I don't cut myself or have ever wanted to, nor have I ever been suicidal, but all the things you said there helped me to understand that there does exist a difference between wanting to commit suicide and self-harm, and that we should never judge others for it.
I hope this video helps a lot of other people to be more understanding to those who participate in self-injury.
He was being your friend, he didn't know. you can't really clarify what you mean over the internet. self injury is just as bad, and it can be completely life threatening. if you were mad at your friend, you're completely crazy. i'd be grateful that he cared so much.
My friend and i (we r both cutters) this about this alot and how we need to stop. we try so see how long we can go w/o cutting. mine is like 14 days! and i was so so proud. but then something bad happened and it made it my worst cuts yet. im really disapointed, because the scars were finally healing for good, and going away. now ive got to go back to school, with the ridicule and torrment.
Wow, your friend knew what you "used" to do, and he cared about you, he didn't want you to do anything stupid so he took the time to make sure you were okay, you were mad at him? Well fuck you then, he was being a good friend to you and you are being a bitch back you should have said " Well everything is straightened out and thank you for caring"....
i dont think she was particularly mad at him more like she was more disappointed i guess. i think she thought he understood her position which he obviously didn't so she's jst making it clear what the difference is for people who don't know
I've never cut before, nor has any close friends or family members. The closest I've been are the patients I've seen. I think alot of people can't wrap their head around why you cut, so they will wish you dead and think you can take a few deep breaths and it will be ok. But truth is those who do cut do it for reasons that run deeper than any bad day you can imagine. No cutters don't typically want to die, they cut to cope.
At the same time, you have to understand that those who do love you and care for you want to help. Sounds like your friend was worried about you, he was young and didnt understand and reported not for you to be judged but to keep you safe.
Well I really meant to kill myself six times and fucked up every attempt! Pills OD mainly and the last time shooting myself up with poison in the left chest. I just lost my chest along with my family , friends and home. Now more than ever I wish that I died on the operating table. Just taking depression pills and pain killers but something is in store for me a longer life in pergatory...that's why I made it through all this crap. Thanks for your video!
PPL u need 2 understand that afta a point Self Harm is not a choice it becomes your life. It takes over everything and you become so addicted it is crazy hard to stop. Help comes with exceptence and forgivness not panic and worry.
the same things happening 2 me at skool now. sum of my friends hav been telling teachers about me hurting myself...and now i hav 2 go through counciling and stuff (wich i dnt need) and pretty mch evry1at skool looks at me different now. my friends wnt evn leave me alone wit scissors in class, they stare at me until ive finished using them.
but im mostly worried about my parents finding out cos welfare and stuff r already involved.
it seems you get off on this self injury stuff please take up boxing or something get it out another way you are a nice person you can stop please be happy all the best.
I May not understand why someone would do that but, u can find another way for ur problems, anger. One thing I realize is that a lot of ppl do that and u need 2 stop, I know its not easy, but then once u start u cant stop so plz dont do it!!! You can GET HELP, DO SOMETHING, anything but this......please.
music was probably my only release. I never cut or harmed myself. Thankfully, during times of serious stress as an adult, I go off into delusion, which is so much better.
god it makes me so pissed off that people are so fucking dumb! just because we self harm does not mean we want to off ourselfs it just helps us deal with what is going on in our lifes.
ive cut an image into my arm cuz of course im a little psycho but it didnt give me any sensation that i will get addicred to it. i used a razor blade from a shaver and it hurt.
i use an blade from a pencil sharpner that i un screwed try not to dig it in tooo hard cuz that will leave a biger scare just a medium push will make you bleed
Poetry about suicide can stem from cutting, yes, but it doesnt mean that you want to commit suicide.
I was a cutter, who has relapsed from past situations. Ive found first hand, from my own experience (and the experience of friends) that writing it down keeps us from considering it.
its a way of open expression, if you write it (of course for some it is a cry for help) the writing that gives me (at least) that things will change.
life is important, reading those past poems help me
it is like a drug idiot! when you cut your brain releases chemicals and you get addicted to that fuckhead! its like smoking... it doesnt get you high does it? NO but is it addictive? YES! stop talking about shit you have no idea about!
Yes i was a cutter for over 2yrs and im not ashamed of it anymore... im glad im better. i beat it.. so go fuck yourself!
I think that what the cops did to you is total bull shit! I have never cut or burned but have strangeled myself (dont try very dangerous) and have found that it distracts me from my mutiple sorces of emotional pain, i share almost the same story as you (excluding the cops) and have had a very acward conversation w/my parents after i had made the huge mistake of talking to the school theripist about suicidel thoughts that i have had.
people who try to explain why people SI sound like the videos, like the experts, and i no its really hard to put into words.. but different people put it into different words, i say its like energy, a rush that just exhilarates.. if that makes sense, its not always a releases.. or whatever. you know what i mean? i agreew ith everything you say in the video. X
Personally, I think that self injury is wrong. That is just my opinion. I just feel uncomfortable with people hurting themselves. I don't want to hurt anyones feelings. Sorry if I did! BTW why do people intentionally harm themselves?
beacuse SI is a way to releace everything. it makes things so much eaiser to handle. like an emotional releace, and i know that from personal experence. but some also do for reasons like they think that they deserve it. that they did something wrong and that is the punishment that they deserve. while other might for the reason that they are affrade that is they dont do it, that they will eventually not be able to feel anything at all. i hope that this helps you to understand.
ppl harm thereselve because... well it helps them feel better i ges ok its hard putting it into words. i do cut...it helps ok thats about all i can think of.
but after u do start it is like an addiction its sooo hard to stop!
I sooo agree, its like a drug. I used to cut for years. the only reason i've managed to stop cutting is the threats of going back to the mental hospitals and now im an alcoholic. it still took me about a year to stop tho.
I never cut or burned myself, but I used to stand in front of the mirror and pick every zit I had into a flaming infected mess. It hurt enough to distract me from the pain of my parents' divorce....Don't know about other people, but that's my guess as to why. Physical pain can override emotional pain. And it's not about right or wrong (though I would agree that it's wrong)--you just aren't thinking about morality and ethics, when you're trying to get through the day without screaming.
yeah but nobody care anyway if you self harm you just get egnored it dosent matter how u help them if they have problems they can always cum back you cnt wave a magic wand n everything ll be okayy
I agree with the whole cutters/suicidal need help thing. But I don't agree with them all being serious. I know people that cut themself for the pure attention storm they're going to get. The problem with this is too many kids have resorted to self-harm to get attention. What happened to the days when kids got F's in school to get mommy and daddy to pay attention? This is a sad state of affairs this generation has fallen into.
You are so right, i remember 7th grade i was in history class and everyone was making fun of me for some reason. And the teacher did nothing to stop it.. So i proceeded to snap my pencil in half i stabed it in my arm and drug up.. and omg did ppl shut up. so like u said u live u learn ^_^
hey, i don't know you, and you don't know me, but i have attempted suicide and still think about it and i do self injure also. if you need to talk, i'll be glad to listen. it's nice to have someone to understand. just send me a msg if you want.
I know, but the injury isn't good, it can cause problems. I've had a lot of long talks with my bigger brother, who's an EMT, and honestly, i think it's genuinely a bad thing... that doesn't mean that it leads to suicide...
xsullengirlx: I fully approve of this video, and I really appreciate it that people such as yourself are trying to get the real message through. You're an inspiration to us all. I've gone through suicidal phases, and I know that there's a massive difference between suicide and self-injury. To everyone who thinks that people who self-harm are crazy or suicidal, please forget your ignorance and listen to us: We're not.
UberDommi i think that tho its only fair that you can voice your opinion i think that you have not paid much attention to the video because if you had you might have heard how saying things like that will increase the lightly hood that a harmer will harm them self in the next few moments after reading you comment, i know i considered it and if i had watched a different video with your comment on it then would have.
With all due respect, do you speak from experience? You can't genuinely say that something is "bad" unless you've gained that knowledge from a first-hand source, and I think that a lot of people would appreciate it if you would be less blunt when expressing your thoughts on the subject. I've self-harmed since I was eight years old, and it sucks. While I wish that people wouldn't do such things, I say that out of sympathy, and I understand that it can be quite necessary to cope properly. =]
thx for helping me not fell like a freak... i used to cut my thumb with a pocket knife and i used to lie about it and say i just played my friends guitar but i stopped and many people told me to just kill my self .. and i felt like a freak... thank you so much for making me not fell like a freak :)
i wrote i suicide letter when i was depressed and i lost it in one of my classes and next thing i knew i was crying my eyes out in the counseling office
I cut myself once 2 try it & it felt good. Ive thought about suicide w/ 1 attempt. Wenever i fight w/ friends or finish an anime i feel so depressed. Now i only scratch so hard it leaves red marks & poke w/ sharp objects. faking smiles is now my forte. IDK.anymore.........
i think about killing myself , i only i cut my self one time win im really sad, i just dream about killing myself , i think im depressed but i don't know? i just been puting on a happy face for so long that i dont know ?
I really enjoyed your video and other videos, this helps me to understand somewhat how self injurers feel and what people go thru....I personally am not a self injurer, but I think that everyone can relate to feelings of sadness and depression....and everyone deals with it in ways that make them feel "better" thanks for the vid :)
Thanks for the compliment! I appreciate the fact that as a non self-injurer, you would still take the time to try and understand the issues we face and open your mind to what other people struggle with. There needs to be a lot more people like you in the world.
i have thought about killing myself..but then i always think. who or what is worth my giving up my life for..and the answer is easy...NO FUCKING BODY! no one and nothing is worth you losing yourself over or harming yourself to release the pain..
you're so beautiful. i envey you! lol you're videos really help me, i've been cutting since i was six... 3 suicide attempts and a shit load of over-dosing. but i'm getting better!
hey I know this video is old but when I watched it I had to laugh (not because it is funny because it is not) but because like 3 months ago my friend told the school counsler that I was self harming! So they called me to the office called my parents and asked if they could search me and I had to strip down to my under garments while they searched me! They then conclued that I was to have random checks throughout the year but they soon stoped
So you were self-harming and they found out? That's crazy, I was searched too once, but I don't think it's exactly legal for them to strip search you! Wow, I am sorry you had to go through that, it must have been hard.
i wus in school and i wus having a real bad day and i self harm at school and a frend of mine saw ma and wentt to a teacher and that day i went to the meantle word for a 6 weeks it wus allfull !!!! i wus 13 , and they tought i wus gowing to killmy self but i wus not >>> yuo right people do tack it to be sucide !!! thanks
when i was 14 my mom found out i cut then called my dad he came they questioned me and then brought me to the hospital where i stayed the night as i was there my room was being torn apart and doctors are asking me if i hear voices and am i plannign to kill myself i said no and they said you need to go to 6 weeks of counciling and get cleared of your goign to the pysch. i pretended i was an angle tho 6 wks. that day was the only time i thought about killing myself . now i wish i never started.
i think your amazing for making these videos, they helped me a lot...but recently ive been self injuring more n more...it scares me bc i thought i was over it, but then now im scared im going 2 get addicted to it again..idk wut 2 do : /
yeah i bodily harm myself. and i agree with you. yes alot of people want to kill themselves. but some people use "cutting" for a type of coping in depression! but i do agree with you we need help. and i don't want to kill myself. life isn't worth ruining for something bad.
i think its nice for you to have a friend who cares about you that much that they would call the police to come and check on you even though they live miles and miles away from you
i wish i can do suicide but i never can go through with it.. i tried in juvinile hall couple times..and on the outs, all alone no one around but i just end up crying then gettin a beer. ..
I understand why people SI but, i dont understand how.. doesnt it hurt - a lot , how can u guys stand that pain? also, im not being critical or anything im just wondering. :)
It's different for every person, I can't comment for everyone - some people do it for the pain alone, but for me I am numb at the point I want to self injure, the internal/mental pain is bad enough that I don't feel anything when I self harm. It hurts afterward, though usually. It's hard to explain, but sometimes people just want to feel real pain instead of internal pain. Hope that helps!
i do it to feel real.... and to take anger out, to cause pain, feel it, without harming another person, i do it on myself instead....
i think doing this on youtube was a very brave and a very selfless thing to do. your helping self harmers and the family and friends of them by doing this.
Sullengirl, I have a question. Most people say that self injurers do what they do because they want to "control their pain." I however feel that I self injure because I need to take out my anger on something and the easiest place is myself. Also, sometimes i self injure because I feel it is a way of punishing myself. But, in my life outside cutting I'm usually happy. Do you think that this is typical self-injurer behavior or something different?
i feel the same way you do. i self-injure to punish myself also. if someone tells me im shit, thn i come home saying "wuts wrong with me? how can i be shit??", bcuz of these rude comments made torward me, i punish myself for being "bad". but, at school or around my parents, im happy. but i think my happieness is just a mask. you know? like im just hideing what i'm really feeling. maybe that could be your reason too. im not saying it is, but that is a posible reason. but that's how i feel too.
No, I understand. There's loads of reasons, 1 of my main reasons was to take it out on myself. People hurt me which was amongst reasons for me to SI, but then I didn't want to get mad or upset or worry someone I cared about, so I took it out on myself. While others may talk to someone/yell at someone or be moody etc
Self-injury is said to help "control pain" because it is a (poor) coping method for one's problems. You feel awful about yourself for some reason, then you cut and it brings relief because you punished yourself and now you can move on (even resume happiness). Cutters will often say they immediately feel better afterward, this included me. This is why it becomes so habitual. It becomes a quick fix to increasingly trivial problems. A huge part of recovery for me was learning better coping methods.
I have a question about self injury...is it possible to be psychologically healthy but still self injure because it "feels good"? I don't know how to explain myself, because I don't do it obsessively but on occasion...
I'm not an expert, but I would say no. Anyone who harms themselves on purpose is mentally ill in some way, that's just not normal, healthy behavior. Even if it's on occasion. It can be as simple as not knowing how to cope with some things - just like some people drink or do drugs, etc. It doesn't make you a crazy person. Take care.
:l i am not suisidal but i still wish i was died but i don't think i could do it my self. i opened up to one person how i felt and she laffed as though it was all an act. and it just makes me think how can someone of the same spesiees could have such diferant views on life
Some people do not know how to react when people confide in them about difficult things like that, even when you feel like you can trust them. Please do not let this discourage you from seeking help for the problems you have. Suffering in silence will make things worse. Please speak to a professional who is trained to listen to difficult problems and can help you understand the pain you are feeling/how to cope. Take care.
=i cut and im not suicidal or depressed ima happy person who love life alot i just cut just because i like the way it feels and how it just is like a vice that ive made for myself......its kinda an addiction for me i cant stop and i do it alot
I have been cutting for 6 years now, and I have never thought about suicide. I'm not emo and I'm not seeking attention. It has become a habit to me. I can be completely happy and I will cut just to see the blood. Everyone who sees my cuts thinks I'm emo or depressed. My mom even wanted me to talk to a shrink. But there was no point. I'm not suicidal, I'm not emo, I'm not asking for your attention, and I'm not depressed. I have a nasty habit, like smoking or drugs, that is hard to break.
you're video is really good. You're really brave to tell other people what you went through. I'm sorry that happend to you, that guy had no right to do that. If that happend to me, I'd be so pissed at him. My situation is kinda similar to yours, i mean with the cutting. It's been just over a year since i've done it. I've found other ways to deal with my anger.
some times i will beat my face in due to my stupidity and low self esteem. i hate myself but i dont think i hate myself enough to kill myself. i think low self esteem actually helps some folks improve more on their personality and intelligence so they can fit in with equally intelligent and likeable folks
First i just wanted to say that you videos help A TON. You inspired me to start a blog about my struggle. Im trying so hard to stop cutting, but yeah. Thanks :)
i cut my self on a daily basis. probably the only thing keeping me going at this point...i dont really understand how i find it so easy to live by day doing little more then surviving...it has become so easy so live like this, i cant tell if im dangerously depressed or not. ive actually forgotten what it feels like to be happy....surviving is what i do i guess, its my only option for the time being :(
Oh my. If that had happened to me I would of been so ashamed! No one knows about my SI and what happened to you is one of the reasons that I haven't told anyone! I'm to worried about what people will say and do! I totally agree with you, people should stop assuming and judging because it makes it so hard for the self harmer to open up which could probably lead to things just getting worse.
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Jesus can change your heart, accept his love and his gift of Salvation, it will be the best decision you ever made. Lord I pray for this dear girl that she would come to a place where she has to look to you , in the name of Jesus i rebuke those spirits of depression and self harm, Lord, let her see that through you see has the power to overcome these things. in Jesus Name amen!
I really appreciate what you are doing her. But simply put Actions have Consequences. Self Injury frightens people. My scars are few fait and old. i got over it . But people see serious self inflicted scars and they think Youre dangerous. If youre willing to torture yourself what might you do to others? I have suffered the angher and humiliation of being put on a Suicide watch unneeded. But what we are doing is unhealthy. The powers that be are handling an insane situation as best they can
When I was at university I spent a night in a psych ward in England (where I live) after I told the doctor about my self harm and that I had considered suicide, the doctor gave me a choice of going home to my parents (who didn't know I had been depressed for 4 years and certainly has NO IDEA I was self harming) or being admitted. It was the worst night of my life and it changed my life forever (I left uni then), but it was the beginning of my recovery and I haven't self harmed in 3 years now.
I've been there just about a year ago... Except they DID take me in to put me on watch because I wasn't underage and nothing I said made any difference. I have scars. And that negated my words. And what you say about having not thought of suicide before then that night- I felt the same. I wasn't suicidal. But I sure as hell was after that ordeal. It was the most humiliating situation I've ever been through. And I'm still not sure I'm over it. And it makes me sick to know that it happens often.
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look i think at one point in time everybody feels depressed i think demons are behind it if you dont accept jesus in your life you are pretty much demon pupets demons know if you kill yourself you go to hell. think about it twice, before you do it jesus is real, you will go to hell. talk to him he will understand you.he loves us he will bring happiness and peace we are his creation we just need to invite him into our hearts he is just waiting. give him a chance we got nothing to loose,but GAIN
you need to stop cutting & be a counselor or psychiatrist...however u spell that!! your smart...& beautiful....girl go with your life...you got the WHOLE world at your fingertips!!
awe! im tellin ya..she should definately be a counselor of some sort!! she would be awesome at it!! ill be here for you sweetie...i dont know much about self injury but i can be your biggest fan :) so if you ever need to talk ...im here...dont forget that! im a good listener :)
couple nights ago I cut my self with a knife 14 times.. because my husband was talking to other people about how bad our relationship is, and he was ignoring my feelings for two days.. anyway it was stupid.. i just wanted his goddamned attention.. and i had been drinking.
you're as right as me when I said it snowed yesterday. XD
Okay that didn't make sence. ^^''
Anyways...you're totaly right.
All MY scars are telling people stories about how I felt and how I still feel. Every scar of mine reminds me not to do thing like falling in love with the wrong person again.
They remind me of bad memories, which makes me use my brain for once. -____-''
you should make videos on other ways to cope besides self injury ,cutting,and suicide and be there for the people who do these things and not talk to them about how you do it i understand that your trying to help them have someone to relate to but these people need help and if your going to make videos about things like this you should at least make them to help people and not to where your okay with it.
I am most DEFINITELY not okay with self harm, but I do support people who do it in the sense that I understand them, and the pain they go through. I have made videos on other coping mechanisms - both on ones that WORK and ones that DON'T work. You have the wrong perception of this video, I am not PRO self injury, but I am PRO awareness about mental illness of all kinds.
I agree if someone is self harming dont freak them out on the esspicaly if they do have susidal thoughts bcuz that more you bug the higher the chance they will go through with it if u aproch them the wrong way
dragonmunch 3 weeks ago
This one dude called me gay for wearing tighter clothing. Up untill then I was happy
xtrickedxoutxbeltx 1 month ago
I've cut myself before. It made me feel like I could cut the pain out of my
body. I had thought of suicide before but my friend got me back on track
iloveyou' Sophie i owe you my life.
UsedBandages 1 year ago
that is the most horrible thing ive ever heard.....i feel so sorry for you....what an awful experience....i live in australia and id like to think that they werent that intense about things like this.....like in regard to strapping people down and taking them to a psych ward....thats awful.....i admire your videos.....
THERENEGADEKILLERBEE 1 year ago
Ohh my goodness...."Why don't you just go ahead and kill yourself?" that is horrible and makes me tear up....I would never kill myself....I am against suicide unless someone is in extreme pain physically of course.....I cut but I am not suicidal...it hurts when people write stuff like that.
KoRnXOwnsXMeXForever 1 year ago
I cut because of my emotional problems. I'm trying to stop, but it is an addiction.
I've been to a mental institution, it is awful. I thought of suicide after I came back from that place. I almost did comite suicide about 5 times.
And I'm embarased of all my scars on my arms, legs, and neck. Every one judges me for them, it makes me feel like a freak.
xemomuffinsXX 1 year ago
I cut because of my emotional problems. I'm trying to stop, but it is an addiction.
I've been to a mental institution, it is awful. I thought of suicide after I came back from that place. I almost did comite suicide about 5 times.
And I'm embarased of all my scars on my arms, legs, and neck. Every one judges me for them, it makes me feel like a freak.
xemomuffinsXX 1 year ago
I cut when I eat junk food or too lazy to work out.
I'm trying so hard to eat strictly to look as best I can before I take a vacation this summer, I hate myself so much when I screw up.
CarolsVideos 1 year ago
Your comment did post FYI, they're just on approval only so you don't need to post it anymore :) Ive approved the first one.
xsullengirlx 1 year ago
thats happened to me befor they took me to the police station and locked me up over night and made me talk to a shrink, now i get really nervous around cops even tho im not depressed or self injuring or anything
IDontDoDrumCovers 2 years ago
Thank you so very much for posting this video! I am a self-injurer and i think it's great that you are letting people know the real deal about cutting. If ever you're interested you can check out the video I made on cutting. Once again thank you.
robbycristiano 2 years ago
i cut because physical pain is easier to deal with than emotional pain. im just going through a lot. and it is so so hard. but i dont wanna die. i just needed an outlet. its
sarahbelloriginal 2 years ago
for me, cutting is a substitute for suicide. everytime i cut i feel like i'm simulating my death, which placates me for a while. it is a huge relief even if hiding the scars is a bitch.
lollol737 2 years ago
i had a kid in school, that saw my scars and said i would probably end up killing myself...........
blackscarlet512 2 years ago
The sad thing is that the urge to cut nvr rly goes away permanently... I stopped like six mths ago after cutting bout seven times and I still get urges to when I get mad or upset... But at the same time I just couldn't stand to hide all mi cuts, I couldn't stand having to wry about wat other people would think. So I've found other ways to deal. Feel free to message me if you need support for this kinda thing or if u want help trying to quit :)
Applemonkeyz 2 years ago 8
@Applemonkeyz congratz on quitting! I wouldn't know how hard it must be, but I imagine it's as bad as any other addiction, perhaps worse. I know you can pull through and not cut again, because resisting is going to make it easier and easier to not get urges to cut anymore. You are strong. You've made it this far, right?
omshaka2000 2 years ago
@Applemonkeyz i used to cut abt a year back in college and now i started doing it again last week....i feel better when cutting and i kinda like the pain...but at the same time i want to stop but cant:(
2005blackhawkmatt 1 year ago
This is my current problem:
I've been seriously depressed for several months now & have been suicidal this entire time
It's getting to the point now where I'm starting to plan my suicide
I've talked to a few people about it but I don't think they take it seriously enough
So I'm just really sad & I don't know what to do
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FunkyColumbia89 2 years ago
Please talk to people who love you if you continue to feel this way. Suicide is not the answer even if you feel that it seems to be. There is help for depression and if one thing doesn't work, another will. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers, I too have struggled with depression, you can have a better life.
tweetyli1 2 years ago 3
Talk to your Dr! The world will go on people will forget you. Things can and do change! Realize you are most likely not thinking clearly at the moment. This too shall pass. Provided you hang in there. Don't do it alone, seek help! You have value! You are loved.
plalelal 2 years ago
Thank you for putting this up. People do need to understand the difference.also Love your hair!
KaliG7 2 years ago 2
nice hair!
sherrieTeh8 2 years ago
I don't cut myself or have ever wanted to, nor have I ever been suicidal, but all the things you said there helped me to understand that there does exist a difference between wanting to commit suicide and self-harm, and that we should never judge others for it.
I hope this video helps a lot of other people to be more understanding to those who participate in self-injury.
radioswan90 2 years ago 2
He was being your friend, he didn't know. you can't really clarify what you mean over the internet. self injury is just as bad, and it can be completely life threatening. if you were mad at your friend, you're completely crazy. i'd be grateful that he cared so much.
sunnymushroom 2 years ago
My friend and i (we r both cutters) this about this alot and how we need to stop. we try so see how long we can go w/o cutting. mine is like 14 days! and i was so so proud. but then something bad happened and it made it my worst cuts yet. im really disapointed, because the scars were finally healing for good, and going away. now ive got to go back to school, with the ridicule and torrment.
dancerwannabee303 2 years ago
Wow, your friend knew what you "used" to do, and he cared about you, he didn't want you to do anything stupid so he took the time to make sure you were okay, you were mad at him? Well fuck you then, he was being a good friend to you and you are being a bitch back you should have said " Well everything is straightened out and thank you for caring"....
MasterYoda59 2 years ago
i dont think she was particularly mad at him more like she was more disappointed i guess. i think she thought he understood her position which he obviously didn't so she's jst making it clear what the difference is for people who don't know
shunnagay 2 years ago
so agree
2and2brook0josh 1 year ago
I must say, I couldn't agree with you more!!! I am glad that there are people out there that understand this issue.
MindlessErr0r 2 years ago
i<3 your hair x
and this is true =/ x
SpiceMelonX 2 years ago
your story in that vid.
hapened to me two years ago :/
xxx
BethanoryBitACupcake 2 years ago
I've never cut before, nor has any close friends or family members. The closest I've been are the patients I've seen. I think alot of people can't wrap their head around why you cut, so they will wish you dead and think you can take a few deep breaths and it will be ok. But truth is those who do cut do it for reasons that run deeper than any bad day you can imagine. No cutters don't typically want to die, they cut to cope.
DrLadyL 2 years ago 2
At the same time, you have to understand that those who do love you and care for you want to help. Sounds like your friend was worried about you, he was young and didnt understand and reported not for you to be judged but to keep you safe.
DrLadyL 2 years ago 2
ugh lucky me my mom doesnt know i cut >.>
codylyoko 2 years ago
i cut myself and if u hate that u can go die and im writing poetry right now so fuck u!!!!!!!!!!!
jaredtheavenger 2 years ago
Well I really meant to kill myself six times and fucked up every attempt! Pills OD mainly and the last time shooting myself up with poison in the left chest. I just lost my chest along with my family , friends and home. Now more than ever I wish that I died on the operating table. Just taking depression pills and pain killers but something is in store for me a longer life in pergatory...that's why I made it through all this crap. Thanks for your video!
FCalcara 2 years ago
PPL u need 2 understand that afta a point Self Harm is not a choice it becomes your life. It takes over everything and you become so addicted it is crazy hard to stop. Help comes with exceptence and forgivness not panic and worry.
TKDrocks15 2 years ago 4
If you get depressed or sad, you should listen to the Mortal Kombat theme song and destroy some shit!
MarkNull 2 years ago 2
exactly the same thing happend to me
AntiStupidGirl 2 years ago
I like your hair
nuriumzzzzzzzz 2 years ago 3
the same things happening 2 me at skool now. sum of my friends hav been telling teachers about me hurting myself...and now i hav 2 go through counciling and stuff (wich i dnt need) and pretty mch evry1at skool looks at me different now. my friends wnt evn leave me alone wit scissors in class, they stare at me until ive finished using them.
but im mostly worried about my parents finding out cos welfare and stuff r already involved.
skytlss 2 years ago
it seems you get off on this self injury stuff please take up boxing or something get it out another way you are a nice person you can stop please be happy all the best.
djassimilator 2 years ago
I May not understand why someone would do that but, u can find another way for ur problems, anger. One thing I realize is that a lot of ppl do that and u need 2 stop, I know its not easy, but then once u start u cant stop so plz dont do it!!! You can GET HELP, DO SOMETHING, anything but this......please.
Aly3334 2 years ago
at least he cared about you :))
SelfHarmJournel 2 years ago
i cut myself and its not that bad
emojessica4ever 2 years ago 3
Yes, but it can get much much worse. I never thought it would get as bad as it did for me.
JetRyanTaylor 2 years ago
i've cut myself once. im never doing it again it did nothing but harm.
rvbc004 2 years ago 2
same here. =)
valtttu 2 years ago
music was probably my only release. I never cut or harmed myself. Thankfully, during times of serious stress as an adult, I go off into delusion, which is so much better.
interestingramble 2 years ago
i really hate cops they ruin everythin n i wish they could jus fuk of n let pple do wat they want unless it involved hurtin other pple
nelcrow213 2 years ago
god it makes me so pissed off that people are so fucking dumb! just because we self harm does not mean we want to off ourselfs it just helps us deal with what is going on in our lifes.
sugarpopdroop 2 years ago
ive cut an image into my arm cuz of course im a little psycho but it didnt give me any sensation that i will get addicred to it. i used a razor blade from a shaver and it hurt.
TearsOfWar1 2 years ago
i use an blade from a pencil sharpner that i un screwed try not to dig it in tooo hard cuz that will leave a biger scare just a medium push will make you bleed
SelfHarmJournel 2 years ago 4
Poetry about suicide can stem from cutting, yes, but it doesnt mean that you want to commit suicide.
I was a cutter, who has relapsed from past situations. Ive found first hand, from my own experience (and the experience of friends) that writing it down keeps us from considering it.
its a way of open expression, if you write it (of course for some it is a cry for help) the writing that gives me (at least) that things will change.
life is important, reading those past poems help me
UnlaceMe 2 years ago
it is like a drug idiot! when you cut your brain releases chemicals and you get addicted to that fuckhead! its like smoking... it doesnt get you high does it? NO but is it addictive? YES! stop talking about shit you have no idea about!
Yes i was a cutter for over 2yrs and im not ashamed of it anymore... im glad im better. i beat it.. so go fuck yourself!
xxx00sam00xxx 2 years ago 10
thank u sweetheart it is good 2 see people like u on the internet
TuRdSandwitch18 2 years ago
I agree with mushimushi100
xxEmoChick112xx 2 years ago
I think that what the cops did to you is total bull shit! I have never cut or burned but have strangeled myself (dont try very dangerous) and have found that it distracts me from my mutiple sorces of emotional pain, i share almost the same story as you (excluding the cops) and have had a very acward conversation w/my parents after i had made the huge mistake of talking to the school theripist about suicidel thoughts that i have had.
MrArmyRanger 2 years ago
people who try to explain why people SI sound like the videos, like the experts, and i no its really hard to put into words.. but different people put it into different words, i say its like energy, a rush that just exhilarates.. if that makes sense, its not always a releases.. or whatever. you know what i mean? i agreew ith everything you say in the video. X
pureObloodObeauty 2 years ago
sometimes i think i would have killed myself if i hadnt started cutting myself
oT1eMoRoKProductions 2 years ago
thank you !
my friend didnt understand why i kept cutting and i told her just what you said." to save myself" cutting is what keeps me alive.
makingmecry911 2 years ago
dont sterotype people who selfinjure!!!!!!!! emo simply means emotional. not cutting.
MushiMushi100 2 years ago 5
Personally, I think that self injury is wrong. That is just my opinion. I just feel uncomfortable with people hurting themselves. I don't want to hurt anyones feelings. Sorry if I did! BTW why do people intentionally harm themselves?
Sucker4Horses 2 years ago 3
beacuse SI is a way to releace everything. it makes things so much eaiser to handle. like an emotional releace, and i know that from personal experence. but some also do for reasons like they think that they deserve it. that they did something wrong and that is the punishment that they deserve. while other might for the reason that they are affrade that is they dont do it, that they will eventually not be able to feel anything at all. i hope that this helps you to understand.
MushiMushi100 2 years ago
ppl harm thereselve because... well it helps them feel better i ges ok its hard putting it into words. i do cut...it helps ok thats about all i can think of.
but after u do start it is like an addiction its sooo hard to stop!
jamgoskat334 2 years ago
I sooo agree, its like a drug. I used to cut for years. the only reason i've managed to stop cutting is the threats of going back to the mental hospitals and now im an alcoholic. it still took me about a year to stop tho.
crowbird 2 years ago
I never cut or burned myself, but I used to stand in front of the mirror and pick every zit I had into a flaming infected mess. It hurt enough to distract me from the pain of my parents' divorce....Don't know about other people, but that's my guess as to why. Physical pain can override emotional pain. And it's not about right or wrong (though I would agree that it's wrong)--you just aren't thinking about morality and ethics, when you're trying to get through the day without screaming.
mab0440 2 years ago
LMAO!
4605103 2 years ago
yeah but nobody care anyway if you self harm you just get egnored it dosent matter how u help them if they have problems they can always cum back you cnt wave a magic wand n everything ll be okayy
childish14chloe 2 years ago 2
Ur a pretty cool person keep up the good work the ppl with bad comments can piss off
darklorddrummer 2 years ago
I agree with the whole cutters/suicidal need help thing. But I don't agree with them all being serious. I know people that cut themself for the pure attention storm they're going to get. The problem with this is too many kids have resorted to self-harm to get attention. What happened to the days when kids got F's in school to get mommy and daddy to pay attention? This is a sad state of affairs this generation has fallen into.
Hah. I tried to kill myself once.
But hey, you ive, you learn.
InBowieWeTrust 2 years ago
cheers. i tried too. age 14 and 15. two failed attempts. and occasional self harm. :/
EasyBakeSmiles 2 years ago
You are so right, i remember 7th grade i was in history class and everyone was making fun of me for some reason. And the teacher did nothing to stop it.. So i proceeded to snap my pencil in half i stabed it in my arm and drug up.. and omg did ppl shut up. so like u said u live u learn ^_^
Catz7890 2 years ago
lol. just by posting one little comment, i've started a shitstorm.
UberDoomi 2 years ago
Did you enjoy your 15 minutes of fame?
xsullengirlx 2 years ago 6
I hate how they treated you like a criminal.
I'm so sorry:(
MrCoinoperatedboy 2 years ago
people like them just dont get prople like us
we cant help it
"help" just makes it worse
rockstar49068 2 years ago
wow youre beautiful
WakeUp3210 2 years ago
I think about suicide;
i cut myself.
and i wantto die ritenow
kaylalovestightpants 2 years ago
hey, i don't know you, and you don't know me, but i have attempted suicide and still think about it and i do self injure also. if you need to talk, i'll be glad to listen. it's nice to have someone to understand. just send me a msg if you want.
xradiantstarx 2 years ago 4
I know, but the injury isn't good, it can cause problems. I've had a lot of long talks with my bigger brother, who's an EMT, and honestly, i think it's genuinely a bad thing... that doesn't mean that it leads to suicide...
UberDoomi 2 years ago
xsullengirlx: I fully approve of this video, and I really appreciate it that people such as yourself are trying to get the real message through. You're an inspiration to us all. I've gone through suicidal phases, and I know that there's a massive difference between suicide and self-injury. To everyone who thinks that people who self-harm are crazy or suicidal, please forget your ignorance and listen to us: We're not.
Gimph24 2 years ago
UberDommi i think that tho its only fair that you can voice your opinion i think that you have not paid much attention to the video because if you had you might have heard how saying things like that will increase the lightly hood that a harmer will harm them self in the next few moments after reading you comment, i know i considered it and if i had watched a different video with your comment on it then would have.
Yours Blood.X
BlackEyesSlitWrists 2 years ago
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don't fucking support this! it's not healthy. self mutilation is BAD! it's not healthy, and the scars are just ugly.
UberDoomi 2 years ago
With all due respect, do you speak from experience? You can't genuinely say that something is "bad" unless you've gained that knowledge from a first-hand source, and I think that a lot of people would appreciate it if you would be less blunt when expressing your thoughts on the subject. I've self-harmed since I was eight years old, and it sucks. While I wish that people wouldn't do such things, I say that out of sympathy, and I understand that it can be quite necessary to cope properly. =]
Gimph24 2 years ago 2
Shutup!
she is just trying to help and she is right everything that comes outta her mouth IS SO TRUE
kaylalovestightpants 2 years ago
The scars represent pain and pain is beauty.
Selfmutilation saved my life and I haveno regrets.
I don't care what i look like or what jerks like you think anyways.
MrCoinoperatedboy 2 years ago
thx for helping me not fell like a freak... i used to cut my thumb with a pocket knife and i used to lie about it and say i just played my friends guitar but i stopped and many people told me to just kill my self .. and i felt like a freak... thank you so much for making me not fell like a freak :)
masterdk29 2 years ago
she has a good point
bigpapa431 2 years ago
i wrote i suicide letter when i was depressed and i lost it in one of my classes and next thing i knew i was crying my eyes out in the counseling office
tenneji 2 years ago
i think about suicide all the time.
and i cut myself..
jmAkaMcBam 2 years ago 3
i think about it too,, i dunno what would actually push me though!!!
xcx
charliebobxx 2 years ago 2
sAME
kaylalovestightpants 2 years ago
I cut myself once 2 try it & it felt good. Ive thought about suicide w/ 1 attempt. Wenever i fight w/ friends or finish an anime i feel so depressed. Now i only scratch so hard it leaves red marks & poke w/ sharp objects. faking smiles is now my forte. IDK.anymore.........
moonprincesslexie 2 years ago
i think about killing myself , i only i cut my self one time win im really sad, i just dream about killing myself , i think im depressed but i don't know? i just been puting on a happy face for so long that i dont know ?
naruto7000 2 years ago
I really enjoyed your video and other videos, this helps me to understand somewhat how self injurers feel and what people go thru....I personally am not a self injurer, but I think that everyone can relate to feelings of sadness and depression....and everyone deals with it in ways that make them feel "better" thanks for the vid :)
brambleport 2 years ago
Thanks for the compliment! I appreciate the fact that as a non self-injurer, you would still take the time to try and understand the issues we face and open your mind to what other people struggle with. There needs to be a lot more people like you in the world.
xsullengirlx 2 years ago
i have thought about killing myself..but then i always think. who or what is worth my giving up my life for..and the answer is easy...NO FUCKING BODY! no one and nothing is worth you losing yourself over or harming yourself to release the pain..
8bitknigts 2 years ago
you're so beautiful. i envey you! lol you're videos really help me, i've been cutting since i was six... 3 suicide attempts and a shit load of over-dosing. but i'm getting better!
Chiara4JD 2 years ago
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hey I know this video is old but when I watched it I had to laugh (not because it is funny because it is not) but because like 3 months ago my friend told the school counsler that I was self harming! So they called me to the office called my parents and asked if they could search me and I had to strip down to my under garments while they searched me! They then conclued that I was to have random checks throughout the year but they soon stoped
krisgallia99 2 years ago
and I just wanted to say I know how you feel and that is something I will NEVER forget! Love always kristen
krisgallia99 2 years ago
So you were self-harming and they found out? That's crazy, I was searched too once, but I don't think it's exactly legal for them to strip search you! Wow, I am sorry you had to go through that, it must have been hard.
xsullengirlx 2 years ago
Vilift gave me calmness and happiness that i've never had for the longest time. it's really great.
swastedcat 2 years ago
i wus in school and i wus having a real bad day and i self harm at school and a frend of mine saw ma and wentt to a teacher and that day i went to the meantle word for a 6 weeks it wus allfull !!!! i wus 13 , and they tought i wus gowing to killmy self but i wus not >>> yuo right people do tack it to be sucide !!! thanks
goober1234100 2 years ago
when i was 14 my mom found out i cut then called my dad he came they questioned me and then brought me to the hospital where i stayed the night as i was there my room was being torn apart and doctors are asking me if i hear voices and am i plannign to kill myself i said no and they said you need to go to 6 weeks of counciling and get cleared of your goign to the pysch. i pretended i was an angle tho 6 wks. that day was the only time i thought about killing myself . now i wish i never started.
CourtneyRyan88 2 years ago
i think your amazing for making these videos, they helped me a lot...but recently ive been self injuring more n more...it scares me bc i thought i was over it, but then now im scared im going 2 get addicted to it again..idk wut 2 do : /
grrrwtf 2 years ago
yeah i bodily harm myself. and i agree with you. yes alot of people want to kill themselves. but some people use "cutting" for a type of coping in depression! but i do agree with you we need help. and i don't want to kill myself. life isn't worth ruining for something bad.
1Rukia1230 2 years ago
i think its nice for you to have a friend who cares about you that much that they would call the police to come and check on you even though they live miles and miles away from you
cadburyismylife 2 years ago
i wish i can do suicide but i never can go through with it.. i tried in juvinile hall couple times..and on the outs, all alone no one around but i just end up crying then gettin a beer. ..
ryanmare1 2 years ago
dude wtf just smoke a bowl and get over it
ramons14 2 years ago
yeah,, i am over it .. i dont give a fuk bout it any more wit out bud
ryanmare1 2 years ago
I take meds for depression. But they make me feel like a shell. Neither happy nor sad. A walking corpse. So I keep wondering if there is a solution.
aryonas 2 years ago
This is so hard, I have been cutting myself for a long time and I want to stop but I can't... I hate myself so much
NeedToBeThin 2 years ago
i know how u feel ,we sound very similar
gabi97clark 2 years ago
something kinda like this happened to me..
i was texting my BESTFRIEND about how bad
i felt,& how i had harmed myself...
well i got tired & stopped texting him and went
to bed..
well it was like 3am ..he called my house
phone and told my mom that i was trying to
kill myself...
his heart was in the right place,but he wasnt thinking..
katlynXXmisfit 2 years ago
I understand why people SI but, i dont understand how.. doesnt it hurt - a lot , how can u guys stand that pain? also, im not being critical or anything im just wondering. :)
elyka0me 2 years ago
well,,
in a way..it takes away the
pain that your already feeling..(the reason
that you cutt yourself)
katlynXXmisfit 2 years ago
It's different for every person, I can't comment for everyone - some people do it for the pain alone, but for me I am numb at the point I want to self injure, the internal/mental pain is bad enough that I don't feel anything when I self harm. It hurts afterward, though usually. It's hard to explain, but sometimes people just want to feel real pain instead of internal pain. Hope that helps!
xsullengirlx 2 years ago
why is such a big deal to do it... i have for.... along time... people should get over it... they need to mind there own bissunessss... ok... k
Superlindsey13 2 years ago
i do it to feel real.... and to take anger out, to cause pain, feel it, without harming another person, i do it on myself instead....
i think doing this on youtube was a very brave and a very selfless thing to do. your helping self harmers and the family and friends of them by doing this.
HypedFreak 2 years ago
my parents also made me go to the institue but i begged and cried for them to let me stay home. now i just go to counciling.....
xxextacyxisxcandyxx 2 years ago
Sullengirl, I have a question. Most people say that self injurers do what they do because they want to "control their pain." I however feel that I self injure because I need to take out my anger on something and the easiest place is myself. Also, sometimes i self injure because I feel it is a way of punishing myself. But, in my life outside cutting I'm usually happy. Do you think that this is typical self-injurer behavior or something different?
ktar007 2 years ago 4
i feel the same way you do. i self-injure to punish myself also. if someone tells me im shit, thn i come home saying "wuts wrong with me? how can i be shit??", bcuz of these rude comments made torward me, i punish myself for being "bad". but, at school or around my parents, im happy. but i think my happieness is just a mask. you know? like im just hideing what i'm really feeling. maybe that could be your reason too. im not saying it is, but that is a posible reason. but that's how i feel too.
xxextacyxisxcandyxx 2 years ago
No, I understand. There's loads of reasons, 1 of my main reasons was to take it out on myself. People hurt me which was amongst reasons for me to SI, but then I didn't want to get mad or upset or worry someone I cared about, so I took it out on myself. While others may talk to someone/yell at someone or be moody etc
COBHCBloodJunkie666 2 years ago
Self-injury is said to help "control pain" because it is a (poor) coping method for one's problems. You feel awful about yourself for some reason, then you cut and it brings relief because you punished yourself and now you can move on (even resume happiness). Cutters will often say they immediately feel better afterward, this included me. This is why it becomes so habitual. It becomes a quick fix to increasingly trivial problems. A huge part of recovery for me was learning better coping methods.
SealNSeal 2 years ago 2
I have a question about self injury...is it possible to be psychologically healthy but still self injure because it "feels good"? I don't know how to explain myself, because I don't do it obsessively but on occasion...
gitchydam 2 years ago 2
I'm not an expert, but I would say no. Anyone who harms themselves on purpose is mentally ill in some way, that's just not normal, healthy behavior. Even if it's on occasion. It can be as simple as not knowing how to cope with some things - just like some people drink or do drugs, etc. It doesn't make you a crazy person. Take care.
xsullengirlx 2 years ago
your hair looks amazing. you're gorgeous.
haetherette 2 years ago 2
:l i am not suisidal but i still wish i was died but i don't think i could do it my self. i opened up to one person how i felt and she laffed as though it was all an act. and it just makes me think how can someone of the same spesiees could have such diferant views on life
deadyeeeyyy 2 years ago
Some people do not know how to react when people confide in them about difficult things like that, even when you feel like you can trust them. Please do not let this discourage you from seeking help for the problems you have. Suffering in silence will make things worse. Please speak to a professional who is trained to listen to difficult problems and can help you understand the pain you are feeling/how to cope. Take care.
SealNSeal 2 years ago
=i cut and im not suicidal or depressed ima happy person who love life alot i just cut just because i like the way it feels and how it just is like a vice that ive made for myself......its kinda an addiction for me i cant stop and i do it alot
darthsasuke554 2 years ago
I have been cutting for 6 years now, and I have never thought about suicide. I'm not emo and I'm not seeking attention. It has become a habit to me. I can be completely happy and I will cut just to see the blood. Everyone who sees my cuts thinks I'm emo or depressed. My mom even wanted me to talk to a shrink. But there was no point. I'm not suicidal, I'm not emo, I'm not asking for your attention, and I'm not depressed. I have a nasty habit, like smoking or drugs, that is hard to break.
darkfox0501 2 years ago
you're video is really good. You're really brave to tell other people what you went through. I'm sorry that happend to you, that guy had no right to do that. If that happend to me, I'd be so pissed at him. My situation is kinda similar to yours, i mean with the cutting. It's been just over a year since i've done it. I've found other ways to deal with my anger.
italianabella16 3 years ago
congradulations (:
you have become my idol because you speak for what's right and you speak for people like "you"
although i do not self injure myself, i can understand how you must feel. [5starts (:]
myaddicti0nX10 3 years ago
trust me, i have a friend who's going through that right now!
ste14493 3 years ago
wow i cant beleive some one told you to kill yourself just because peole cut uggh this is why i hate people
KRISTENAM2 3 years ago
low self esteem = sado masochism
some times i will beat my face in due to my stupidity and low self esteem. i hate myself but i dont think i hate myself enough to kill myself. i think low self esteem actually helps some folks improve more on their personality and intelligence so they can fit in with equally intelligent and likeable folks
scatcoitus 3 years ago
Too bad this guy ended up doing more damage than help, His heart was in the right place, but he didn't use his head. I'm sorry you went through this.
RedCrayonFace 3 years ago
i think your internet friend is a really good person, although he misunderstood your situation.
good video
iibroot 3 years ago
you're amaizng
you make me feel better and more informed
:]
keep up the good work!
RachaelsEyesSparkle 3 years ago
First i just wanted to say that you videos help A TON. You inspired me to start a blog about my struggle. Im trying so hard to stop cutting, but yeah. Thanks :)
blahgo27 3 years ago
i cut my self on a daily basis. probably the only thing keeping me going at this point...i dont really understand how i find it so easy to live by day doing little more then surviving...it has become so easy so live like this, i cant tell if im dangerously depressed or not. ive actually forgotten what it feels like to be happy....surviving is what i do i guess, its my only option for the time being :(
Aaron3465 3 years ago
Life here on earth is more about survival. No doubt about it! :}
FreeMindWill 3 years ago
Oh my. If that had happened to me I would of been so ashamed! No one knows about my SI and what happened to you is one of the reasons that I haven't told anyone! I'm to worried about what people will say and do! I totally agree with you, people should stop assuming and judging because it makes it so hard for the self harmer to open up which could probably lead to things just getting worse.
brokenxwhispersx 3 years ago
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Jesus can change your heart, accept his love and his gift of Salvation, it will be the best decision you ever made. Lord I pray for this dear girl that she would come to a place where she has to look to you , in the name of Jesus i rebuke those spirits of depression and self harm, Lord, let her see that through you see has the power to overcome these things. in Jesus Name amen!
OrbitalAngel 3 years ago
I really appreciate what you are doing her. But simply put Actions have Consequences. Self Injury frightens people. My scars are few fait and old. i got over it . But people see serious self inflicted scars and they think Youre dangerous. If youre willing to torture yourself what might you do to others? I have suffered the angher and humiliation of being put on a Suicide watch unneeded. But what we are doing is unhealthy. The powers that be are handling an insane situation as best they can
TrueDavebucket 3 years ago
In your situation i'd have liked to go to the psych ward. You know... to look around.
Is that weird?
reelnigel 3 years ago
No it's not weird, I have had that thought many times... almost a wishing that I had gone, at least to see what it'd be like.
xsullengirlx 3 years ago
When I was at university I spent a night in a psych ward in England (where I live) after I told the doctor about my self harm and that I had considered suicide, the doctor gave me a choice of going home to my parents (who didn't know I had been depressed for 4 years and certainly has NO IDEA I was self harming) or being admitted. It was the worst night of my life and it changed my life forever (I left uni then), but it was the beginning of my recovery and I haven't self harmed in 3 years now.
WADTD 3 years ago
I've been there just about a year ago... Except they DID take me in to put me on watch because I wasn't underage and nothing I said made any difference. I have scars. And that negated my words. And what you say about having not thought of suicide before then that night- I felt the same. I wasn't suicidal. But I sure as hell was after that ordeal. It was the most humiliating situation I've ever been through. And I'm still not sure I'm over it. And it makes me sick to know that it happens often.
MaliciousAngelwolf 3 years ago
People that think abiut suicide just needs to be alone and think about everything, dont stick them in a nut-house it'll make everything orse.
B3happeh 3 years ago
pretty much. :-]
SuffocatexMe 3 years ago
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look i think at one point in time everybody feels depressed i think demons are behind it if you dont accept jesus in your life you are pretty much demon pupets demons know if you kill yourself you go to hell. think about it twice, before you do it jesus is real, you will go to hell. talk to him he will understand you.he loves us he will bring happiness and peace we are his creation we just need to invite him into our hearts he is just waiting. give him a chance we got nothing to loose,but GAIN
micosuni 3 years ago
Good, non-triggering video. Richard x
imacuttertoo 3 years ago
15 minutes to explain the difference?
It's simple. Suicide is a form of SI, but SI itself is not aimed at killing oneself.
Sold.
finalalert13 3 years ago
you need to stop cutting & be a counselor or psychiatrist...however u spell that!! your smart...& beautiful....girl go with your life...you got the WHOLE world at your fingertips!!
leungbabe 3 years ago 4
I wish she could be a school councelor at my shcool then I could have someone to talk to
lalaladoom 3 years ago
awe! im tellin ya..she should definately be a counselor of some sort!! she would be awesome at it!! ill be here for you sweetie...i dont know much about self injury but i can be your biggest fan :) so if you ever need to talk ...im here...dont forget that! im a good listener :)
XOOX
leungbabe 3 years ago
couple nights ago I cut my self with a knife 14 times.. because my husband was talking to other people about how bad our relationship is, and he was ignoring my feelings for two days.. anyway it was stupid.. i just wanted his goddamned attention.. and i had been drinking.
Moms4zombies 3 years ago
Scars are
Words , stories , history
Written on skin
brumyk26 3 years ago 8
and i agree. some people do have intentions of killing themselves, but I like to have scars.. just like tattoos.. but those are expensive. ..
Moms4zombies 3 years ago
you're right...
you're as right as me when I said it snowed yesterday. XD
Okay that didn't make sence. ^^''
Anyways...you're totaly right.
All MY scars are telling people stories about how I felt and how I still feel. Every scar of mine reminds me not to do thing like falling in love with the wrong person again.
They remind me of bad memories, which makes me use my brain for once. -____-''
DeadLikeMe1234 3 years ago
you should make videos on other ways to cope besides self injury ,cutting,and suicide and be there for the people who do these things and not talk to them about how you do it i understand that your trying to help them have someone to relate to but these people need help and if your going to make videos about things like this you should at least make them to help people and not to where your okay with it.
skatrrgurl1406 3 years ago 2
I am most DEFINITELY not okay with self harm, but I do support people who do it in the sense that I understand them, and the pain they go through. I have made videos on other coping mechanisms - both on ones that WORK and ones that DON'T work. You have the wrong perception of this video, I am not PRO self injury, but I am PRO awareness about mental illness of all kinds.
xsullengirlx 3 years ago
I dont know what i would do if that would happen to me.
spx105 3 years ago
I really love your hair! its super nice.
spx105 3 years ago
omg id be absorlutely terrified if that happened to me.
RutterDarling13 3 years ago