I am burns victims... I dont have friends... I dont have girl... No one like me... So I am going to kill my self... But i dont know the best way.. is helium the best way...?? Not sure...
Hey baby cakes. Man- I totally realte to this. I hate those episodes of depression- though this one for you seems to have lasted so long so i can only imagine how desperate you felt. I've totally been there with the not wanting to die but just not wanting to live anymore and have to face this battle day in day out. Its so hard. Please know you are NEVER alone, even when it feels like you are. Don't feel ashamed- its not anyones fault to feel like that. You are so strong for pulling through it.xx
Wow, I totally know what you're talking about. The scary part about depression for me is that it can just hit me out of nowhere, so I get what you mean about looking over your shoulder for it to come. Just remember that you don't have to be ashamed about it and it's not your fault. It's an illness and I'm proud of you for persevering through it and speaking out. It helps so many!
@MsScarredSoul Also I know where you are coming from with the depression front. I suffer with it related to my ED and not related. Maybe get some counselling and perhaps anti depressants to see you through until you finish your exams xx
You really shouldn't feel guilty about having any kind of suicidal thoughts, it's not selfish, when you are feeling that low that is just what the mind turns to. It's nothing to be ashamed of, but I think talking some professional and telling them how you are feeling now would be a great idea. Hope things getter beet sooner than soon for you. x
Just hang on Jaycee. I know it doesn't seem like it but the depression will lift. You mentioned going back into counselling. I know you're super busy right now but maybe this would be a good time to go back. You need some support from somewhere!! No one can deal with what you're dealing with alone. i hope the sun shines brighter on you soon.((hugs))
Depression is a parasite, it sucks the want for life out of you, you should not feel guilty. The main thing is that you can come back stronger. That is great you didn't self harm, I am really proud of you.
I am giving you a cuddle right now, can you feel it? xxx
Sweetheart :( I really hope you get get rid of this feeling! I feel the same recently, you are not alone, I kind of feel like a burden so ive not spoken to anyone about this episode, im hoping it passes, I totally agree with how debilitating it can be. I really admire you for being so strong xxx
You're absolutely NOT alone. Sometimes just having those thoughts and being able to daydream about it is makes it almost easier to resist the urge to actually do anything. Academic work is SO draining - all that brain work and all the emotions...I've likened my major projects for my degrees as pregnancies, which include really bad "pre/post-partum" depression that sets in when I'm about to hand something in. Glad you're doing a bit better. xo - Lucy
Precious I am so glad you are feeling a little better. I know exactly how you feel, during the worst stages of my depression I literally felt consumed, nothing lifted me anymore and nothing made me feel as if life was worth it. It's only now I realise it is, life is so important and precious, I really love you Jaycee and you have all of our support! <3
Oh sweetie. You are not alone. Those lonely nights, lonely feelings -- they are all putting lies in your head. When family worries and they feel like they can't help you they start reacting in a wrong way -- with anger, etc.
I've also learned that sometimes family sees members in certain roles. If you've always been there for others sometimes they view you as the strong one and they don't know how to help because you've always been strong! I hope they will learn to be compassionate. Big hugs!
i feel the same way all the time and i just want it to end, the reason i don't end it is because i always think want if i end it today, the big want if poops up. what happens if it change's tomorrow. lol and i know how it feel to be f-ing lonely it a real bitch lol. but i have social anxiety really bad so that doesn't really help. i hope you feel batter, and by the your very beautiful:)
My prayer for you is that you will find friends who can support you and just give to you, not expecting anything in return,,,, just to love on you until you are swimming in hearts. - x0x Tom
I wish someone had told me what you said about not having to feeling guilty about, well I can't remember. I even got a hate message about it after i wrote about it in one of my blogs.
I know what you mean. I've gotten told that I should snap out of it and that they're other people worse than me. People just need to be educated about stuff.
I'm glad you didn't too and that you're still around. Man I was worried and you're video is not awful or hideous! xx <3
I am burns victims... I dont have friends... I dont have girl... No one like me... So I am going to kill my self... But i dont know the best way.. is helium the best way...?? Not sure...
timemastro 7 months ago
Hey baby cakes. Man- I totally realte to this. I hate those episodes of depression- though this one for you seems to have lasted so long so i can only imagine how desperate you felt. I've totally been there with the not wanting to die but just not wanting to live anymore and have to face this battle day in day out. Its so hard. Please know you are NEVER alone, even when it feels like you are. Don't feel ashamed- its not anyones fault to feel like that. You are so strong for pulling through it.xx
diaryofabulimic 10 months ago
Wow, I totally know what you're talking about. The scary part about depression for me is that it can just hit me out of nowhere, so I get what you mean about looking over your shoulder for it to come. Just remember that you don't have to be ashamed about it and it's not your fault. It's an illness and I'm proud of you for persevering through it and speaking out. It helps so many!
misscoffee97 10 months ago
I dont think your a dummy printing off yourself a copy, I know I did and the people I knew did themselves one as well :D x
MsScarredSoul 10 months ago
@MsScarredSoul Also I know where you are coming from with the depression front. I suffer with it related to my ED and not related. Maybe get some counselling and perhaps anti depressants to see you through until you finish your exams xx
MsScarredSoul 10 months ago
*long distance cuddle* xoxo
TheMakeupPixie 10 months ago
'When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on' x
sackboymoore 10 months ago
lots of love dude, hang in there xxx
sackboymoore 10 months ago
You really shouldn't feel guilty about having any kind of suicidal thoughts, it's not selfish, when you are feeling that low that is just what the mind turns to. It's nothing to be ashamed of, but I think talking some professional and telling them how you are feeling now would be a great idea. Hope things getter beet sooner than soon for you. x
AnnaHasNoMiddleName 10 months ago
hugs Jayce.... <3 I wish I could give you a really big hug right now. xox sorry I have not been online lately as much as I normally would. xox
FaerieJayne 10 months ago
Incredible vlog, hope you continue to walk free, forget about guilt it just hold's you back, best wishes and thank's
flomartoo 10 months ago
hang in there. its been rough for me too. just got to go one day at a time. im here if u wanna chat
jesmalu 10 months ago
Just hang on Jaycee. I know it doesn't seem like it but the depression will lift. You mentioned going back into counselling. I know you're super busy right now but maybe this would be a good time to go back. You need some support from somewhere!! No one can deal with what you're dealing with alone. i hope the sun shines brighter on you soon.((hugs))
debb10 10 months ago
Depression is a parasite, it sucks the want for life out of you, you should not feel guilty. The main thing is that you can come back stronger. That is great you didn't self harm, I am really proud of you.
I am giving you a cuddle right now, can you feel it? xxx
Ilovebobbetty 10 months ago
Sweetheart :( I really hope you get get rid of this feeling! I feel the same recently, you are not alone, I kind of feel like a burden so ive not spoken to anyone about this episode, im hoping it passes, I totally agree with how debilitating it can be. I really admire you for being so strong xxx
Hanziepanzieness 10 months ago
You're absolutely NOT alone. Sometimes just having those thoughts and being able to daydream about it is makes it almost easier to resist the urge to actually do anything. Academic work is SO draining - all that brain work and all the emotions...I've likened my major projects for my degrees as pregnancies, which include really bad "pre/post-partum" depression that sets in when I'm about to hand something in. Glad you're doing a bit better. xo - Lucy
pantheonpedant 10 months ago
Precious I am so glad you are feeling a little better. I know exactly how you feel, during the worst stages of my depression I literally felt consumed, nothing lifted me anymore and nothing made me feel as if life was worth it. It's only now I realise it is, life is so important and precious, I really love you Jaycee and you have all of our support! <3
xbornindiex 10 months ago
Oh sweetie. You are not alone. Those lonely nights, lonely feelings -- they are all putting lies in your head. When family worries and they feel like they can't help you they start reacting in a wrong way -- with anger, etc.
I've also learned that sometimes family sees members in certain roles. If you've always been there for others sometimes they view you as the strong one and they don't know how to help because you've always been strong! I hope they will learn to be compassionate. Big hugs!
candicherry1987 10 months ago
i feel the same way all the time and i just want it to end, the reason i don't end it is because i always think want if i end it today, the big want if poops up. what happens if it change's tomorrow. lol and i know how it feel to be f-ing lonely it a real bitch lol. but i have social anxiety really bad so that doesn't really help. i hope you feel batter, and by the your very beautiful:)
travisg336 10 months ago
My prayer for you is that you will find friends who can support you and just give to you, not expecting anything in return,,,, just to love on you until you are swimming in hearts. - x0x Tom
tommax26 10 months ago
I wish someone had told me what you said about not having to feeling guilty about, well I can't remember. I even got a hate message about it after i wrote about it in one of my blogs.
I know what you mean. I've gotten told that I should snap out of it and that they're other people worse than me. People just need to be educated about stuff.
I'm glad you didn't too and that you're still around. Man I was worried and you're video is not awful or hideous! xx <3
Donnyboy1984 10 months ago