Who defines normal anyhow? YOU DO!!! Not anyone else, just you. If you want to feel happy feel happy it's a fucking choice and it's easy. Soooo easy. I lived twenty five years of my life not knowing how easily I could just be whatever the fuck I wanted just by treating others as I wanted to be treated.... It's a pay it forward kind of service though. Give and ye shall receive, amen
Reality is your own creation man. And so is everything else. We all have our own little worlds and they can be shared or not. Hppd or whatever it is, be cancer aids religion politics, it is only real if you give it power and choose to believe it. Feel me? Just labels and boxes people use to put life into but life isn't describable. Be like water, as Bruce lee used to say.
For the most part nobody really knows what the fuck life is and drugs force to to realize that. So many people can't face chaos. And that's why drugs aren't recommended by the vast majority. Drugs bring you closer to the vail. And that's a scary spot to be if you use fear as a filter. Use love instead. Use love as your shield. Unconditional love.
Get more sunlight and breath slower. Confront your fears too, then you will realize there's nothing to be afraid of. Fear is FalseEvidenceApearringReal. Remember nobody is thinking or hearing your thoughts unless you verbalized it. Even then most people have their own filters and lens they look through and scew.
thankyou this does help alot :D and you're right acceptance is deffo the key! and i look at peoples mouths when they talk :P do you take any suppliments or anything?
@ingochild811 hey man just wanted to say Ive trying out your tip for looking down at the ground when Im walking around outside to avoid that sensory overload, and its really working out. thank you a lot, I hope everything is going well for you
I took 2c-e once.... Fucked my whole life pretty bad. I am afraid to talk to my doctor about whether I have hppd or derealization disorder. How would you suggest bringing it up with your doctor? Have you?
@McVannJr I agree. I need to jump through hoops to be capable of applying for coverage with my health insurance. That would mean getting tests run on me and such. After watching these videos, I regained hope anyways. I find due to the low intensity of my problems I can get through my days. I will probably try to see a psychiatrist if it doesn't get any better.
@yakuza941 Hey man thats my case too. Im not sure what to do, but I got prescribed prozac and it works well for me and my family, but i think the best thing that can be done is to literally become sober. I'm taking those steps and getting there but living a healthy lifestyle is key as well as surrounding yourself with people. talk to your doctor and be honest
@BCbound2011 It hasn't been too long, but I am starting to get better, bit by bit. My depersonalization is wearing down and i am practically rid of my depth perception inconsistencies. I find keeping a physically healthy lifestyle translates right into achieving mental health goals. Stay strong, man. Increase fruit/vege intake, vitamins, and a rigid workout schedule is a very effective tool.
@adrianbpj Same here man, it's gettin better but the fatigue is probably one of the most annoying symptoms for sureee, i find i feel better if i undersleep than if i oversleep though
i did legal high (black mamba) went completely overboard, then did lots of alcohol which fucked with my head, and smoked cannabis a lot, fucked my mind up, totally not worth it to anyone considering doing it
ps what does floaters mean? i have visual snow and my concentration is sooo bad, my memory isabout 5 seconds long
i did legal high (black mamba) went completely overboard, then did lots of alcohol which fucked with my head, and smoked cannabis a lot, fucked my mind up, totally not worth it to anyone considering doing it
my floaters are much worse with glasses than when I dont use them, impossible to read anything at all as my focus drops as they're almost completely black and in central vision and many in numbers.
I had what you call hppd but usually only temporary after trips.. 1-2-3 weeks after high dose trips I will see walls and floors moving etc. and usually as much as while tripping.
I got very annoying floaters in my right eye and that is much worse, I cannot see much due to them and very hard to read and I'm only 26.
Flashbacks are real too, I once saw infinite number of faces inside the left part of people's faces for half a day about 1-2 weeks after a high dose lsd trip, had more than this one
my heart goes out to ya man! For me its just hard to focus and i have visual snow. Makes everything look 2d and it seems like my periferals take up an excessive amount of my vision. It feels like a lack of psychedelia going on in my brain
@indigochild811 Are you saying it's not worth it to do shrooms at all because of the risk of HPPD? You simply weigh the risk vs. benefit of any drug and if the former outweighs the latter you dont take it hurr durr
Fuck now I'm insulting people in youtube comments >_<
yo maybe you could help me. i done acid proably five times. when i stare at anything for a second or two... after a while it starts to morph as if im trippin. whats that about?
Hello everyone.. are you ready to post your VS history on Dr. Oz's website all at one time by July 10th ?? We have 10 days in order to tell as much VS sufferers as we can to post their stories at that timing too =)
Please ALL let's give it a try.. don't forget or be lazy :P:D Set your cellphone reminders rt. now ;)
All it took was one LSD adventure and I can't even smoke weed anymore. I get flashbacks after one hit, and even when I'm sober I'll just start seeing shit breathe and don't even get me started on carpets patterns, lol.
A bit differnt HPPD is to everyone, but different or not, we r all still seein' shit that we shouldn't. This video made me feel a little better, thanx! Fuckin hate it, walls and the landscape will shift a bit, colors and just reallity become overprocessed in the, looks a bit too real, and I think I speak 4 everyone, but the dark DON'T HELP. Good luk 2 u and to everyone out there with this. & Fuk yall who think lsd dont do this and theres no evidence that it can, cause it damn well can!
I was cursed with HPPD in 2004, it's now 2011 and I still hallucinate... constantly. Things still move, sparkle, breath, spin and sometimes I'll randomly enter a full trip without warning. I can't remember the last time I looked at a wall and it was just a wall..
Every person can get HPPD. You can have it the first time you trip or when you take a LOT of hallucinogens.
I have a lot of floaters in both eyes. It's very hard to live with it. I do not have other symptomes of hppd (only some static when tired or did drugs).
I think the floaters are related to stress.
Tripping is beautiful, but it has some riscs. The chance of getting hppd is small but not unreal.
@FRod94 You can, but shrooms are still worth it. Take them in a spiritual setting, with many people around to help you cope if needed. This will lower your chances significantly. It also goes away after time, depending on the severity, from a few days to over a year. I had it once, but it lasted less than a month. If you think of hallucinogens as "drugs," in the classic sense, you will have a greater risk for HPPD. Treat these chemicals spiritually and you will probably be fine.
@MrBradshawbenjamin hell yeahh thanks dudee ima try em! ive been wanting to for the longest timee but i think ima slpit an 8th with someone than later sometime take the full 8th haha nd just trip
@FRod94 Theres a lot to be learned from psycadelics if used in the right manner bro. Dont hang out with dumb ass people if you do it. Go to a Music festival and have fun,
@FRod94 You need to now your family history before you take any drug really, especially hallucinogens cuz they will bring out any latent psychological problems. It doesn't always mean you have HPPD. Ask your parents if they have ever taken anything similar and had a psychological breakdown after. A lot of people talk about health and addiction with drugs but never really address this aspect of them.
If u get floaters from HPPD or start noticing them cuz HPPD, do they go away or become much less noticable if / when u get over ur HPPD or do they stay with you?
Thank you for all you went through to make this video. My husband has HPPD, or at least we think he does. He got alot of solutude knowing there is someone out there that has similar feelings.
@PemWCorgi theres a lot of us out here and its a scary thing im dealing with it alone at 17 and its not nice but thats life tell your husband goodluck and all the best im here if you wana chat
I use to drop acid all the time. I never had a bad trip once untill one day i had such a horrible trip i felt like killing myself and i had a direct experience with god.he told me to stop doing acid, weed,stealing etc. and he said if i did it again its not going to stop the next day, well me being a dumbass did it again and i have horrible hppd and i think im left behind and lost my chance in heaven. ive spoken to pastors and everything. i cant excape my thoughts. not for one fucking second.
ive accepted it. and like you im still scared and well kinda worried about my future. but i think it'd be the same. and yeah i wanted the drugs at first. but i changed my mind. i was actually happy that i got this not happy but iunno. i dont think its a bad thing. for me my symptoms are worse indoors than outdoors. i hate being inside. im glad i enjoy myself still. sometimes i get frustrated cause i see visuals in my peripherals but can't look directly at them and floaters are annoying as fuck.
Is it possible to have this without the visual component?
I had a bad trip 3 years ago and it made me wicked anxious. It kind of ruined hallucinogins for me so i didnt take them for awhile, but after some time passed i tried it again and had a good time. It really fluxuates though, somtimes i have a wicked bad trip, and sometimes its awsome. Usually i have a better time if im drunk first so im not as anxious.
Still feel like i never fully recovered from that first bad trip though. Advice?
I dont think i could ever permanantly quite drinking and smoking. Not even for the mental reasons, but it feels really good phsyically to smoke a fat spliff after a few beers. In fact just talking about this makes me want to burn one. I havent in a week though so i wont indulge.
Props to you for kicking the shit. Your a better man than I.
I dont know how you quit everything. I definatly have drug and alchohol problems but they are managable. Im smart enough not to let them effect other areas of my life but i periodiclly take breaks from them for weeks at a time. When i dont do them for awhile i get upset and really want to smoke and drink for the first week or so, but after that it gets easier.
Even with drugs that aren't that addicting, it becomes a habit when you do it every day and its hard to break the cycle. Plus all my friends love drugs and partying so it makes it difficult to to see that going on around me and not partake. I never used to do hard drugs but oncei got to college, people would offer me shit when i was drunk and i couldnt resist. Drinking makes me less anxious so i enjoy the other drugs more but i hardly do them anymore except for once in a while.
Its wider, I have gotten it. It takes the form of a constant distortion in my visual field, like the background is constantly breathing. It is a lot more minor than most and I can tune it out in situations if I can focus on something else.
@Leetsnugglage Why wouldn't you want to change it?It will change your life FOREVER!! It's managable, but there are no guarentees. The things I deal with 18 years later are such a pain in the ass all from one hit of acid!!!
Something as small as youtube videos and websites are so helpful because when I got this I assumed I would be in a mental institution at some point forever. Didn't even know there was a name for it until I quit drinking 4 and half years ago and started researching. I've only been taking the benzos for 3 years,but I'm on the same dose I was when I started and thank God I found a doc who knew what I was talking about.I don't understand how people are still using drugs after suffering with Hppd???
I applaud you for dealing with HPPD without any benzodiazepines!! I've had HPPD for 18 years. I got it when I was 17 from a hit of acid and I had only tripped like 2 or 3 times. I'm not sure why it happens to some people and not others. I drank most of my entire adult life to deal with it. Never could tell anyone and also went to every doc you can imagine. The Klonopin your talking about saved my life. The static, anxiety attacks, social anxiety, agoraphobia is so minor incomparison!!
also i would suggest trying 5-HTP. it's a naturally occurring chemical that can be bought over the counter without a prescription. it helps increase serotonin in your brain
@spatialaa I'm sorry I keep posting so many things. I just can't believe there are this many people out here with HPPD. Anything that effects the seretonin in your brain will make HPPD way worse.
i agree that quitting E and hallucinogens are a good idea for someone with HPPD but i don't think quitting THC is necessary. i think some people can use THC to work through deeper issues in order to find answers that make sense to them. i agree it's absolutely necessary to accept the changes and through acceptance you develop a non-hostile reaction to experiencing visuals or feelings of derealization which can greatly help you stop noticing them. it all returns to normal once you accept it.
i have HPPD, and i know exactly what your going through. exactly same thing with me. i just found out what it is that i have today. and i had it for a year now. you are very right. acceptance is key. its not as bad as it was before. but i still get major anxiety and other things. now i totally feel in not alone :) thanks
taking perscription drugs is stupid. usuing something that makes you half dead isnt going to help you. trying a phycoligy way is best. and as soon as i got into i wanted drugs too; they put me on soo many i stayed in my room for 2 months. im getting better; i hope you doo. my visualz are intense. still trying to except it.
Had HPPD for 2 years, watched this video a lot when i got it. I can't understate the importance of this video. It has been so crucial for me and other people to have this video on here, and see a young, intelligent, down-to-earth person address the issue of HPPD, instead of having it interpreted by one of the many new age pseudo-guruïst hippie rejects that seem to monopolize the topic of hallucinogenic drugs.
Two years of abstinence later I have massively improved and reclaimed my life. Thanks!
Ive tripped 4 times, each trip has been wonderful an a learning experience..
now its the time of the year where i take my annual journey with the help of LSD but have yet not taken it as now Im too scared about developing hppd..
Sometimes when i take a crap in the bathroom the tiles on the wall start expanding just as they do on LSD..
I am in a fix wheather to do it or not..
Is hppd caused because of adulterated substances mixed with Acid?
my first trip was at age 15. Noticing how exotic and vibrant my new pschedelic world was, i decided to take more and more. It wasn't until I was 17 that I realized every trip was becoming terrible. My emotions began running wild on and off the drug. I have now been sober for about 8 months and don't plan on using again. I Guess it wasn't until i saw this video that I realized I have HPPD. My whole life is a different reality now. But As you Said, It is my reality and I have to embrace it.
my first trip was at age 15. Noticing how exotic and vibrant my new pschedelic world was, i decided to take more and more. It wasn't until I was 17 that I realized every trip was becoming terrible. My emotions began running wild on and off the drug. I have now been sober for about 8 months and don't plan on using again. I Guess it wasn't until i saw this video that I realized I have HPPD. My whole life is a different reality now. But As you Said, It is my reality and I have to embrace it.
Actually, the mild mescaline trips gave me the impression of being able to think more clearly, but it was probably an illusion. It's only been a few months since I've slowed down (I plan to stop) with the weed, and I don't "see" shaking robotic assassins behind the doors anymore. The environment has partially gone back to normal (looked like an old train station, an old abandoned hospital, then a living slaughterhouse or meat locker). For nearly everyone, medications will not help long-term.
I got HPPD and mild symptoms of psychosis, memory loss, and depression from taking a high dose of Dramamine when I was a newbie. The effects were nearly gone after two months, but then I began smoking a lot of strong weed. Boy, what WEED can do. It made the other side-effects worse and gave me extreme depression and severe paranoia. I also tried low doses of mescaline later on and enjoyed it, but I'm not going to do it again because I fear losing my sanity. Salvia didn't help either. Good video
DO NOT go to prescription drugs. They can cause psychotic attacks. they kill people. Natural helpers to check out: 5 htp, st johns wort, L-tyrisine. Remember the things your worried about probably arent real. If your mind can make its own realities, then your mind can create a reality of peace of mind.
@indigochild811 Very good video very true arguments have the same with the outdoors lately it's horrible. We are the same situation.. I have made a video called: "Hallucinogen Persistent Perception Disorder & Visual Snow: Eye OnVision Foundation & Media Attention " I don’t want to spam you but It might find your interest..let me know because it is might benefit our situation because it already in progress but need more people/attention..
@spazzymagey well good for you. you should never take acid unless your really ready for it. can cause bad trips and all sorta stuff apparently. never had a bad trip while actually tripping so idk.
I've had heavy HPPD (all symptoms including derealization, disociation) for over 2 years, and I used psychedelic drugs less than 5 times. It sucked for a long time, until I figured out ways to treat it, it doesn't bother me in the slightest now. Here's my pro tip: STOP browsing HPPD forums and youtube vids such as this one. Accept it and carry on with your life.
i've done lsd, mushrooms, 2ci, and the king of psychedelics DMT, smoked and in ayahusca form, and i've never had persisting visuals. i've put tripping behind me but this sounds really crazy.
lol ive had hppd for over a year now. i use to freak out thinking i was dieing cuz i did to many drugs but now im so used to it and i no wut it is that i would almost be kinda sad if it went away. it makes me look at life so much differently. i feel almost as if it were to go away i wouldnt be the same i would have lost something almost. somthing so great and so life changing. idk but to anybody who has it i no it gets frustrating but dont look at it as a bad thing look at it as a good thing
i have been coping with HPPD since July i thought i was losing my mind your video helped a lot i couldn't really go outside i still get panic attacks at night and it gets alot better with time especially if you talk about it with people who have experienced HPPD
hey i got this about a year ago...the first couple months were hell but i got tired of being scared and started living life. the best help i found was talking to people you might be surprised to what hey say
i think i have some sort of condition from weed (white widow) but i like feel high and get the trippy effects from when i was actually i highand i still feel like that now it worries me allot but i guess i'll just have to accept it
You could consider seeing a (neuro)psychologist if you want to. HPPD can apparently come only cannabis in rare cases, but there may also be another underlying disorder present contributing to the symptoms (ex:temporal lobe epilepsy).
thanks for your video :) ive been searching for a reason of what im going through....3 years its beens sinse i took loadsa lsd and developed hppd... only now i have realised im not going crazy... im nearly in tears of realisation. thank you so much xx
i've been reading alot of these peoples comments, and rememeber the time I was in the same position most of you are in now, if anyone needs a chat or anything im more than willing to help out.
Hey man, just watched this and I really hope you (and me) get over it. It's amazing how much HPPD sucks. I was basically just hoping if you could send me a message telling me your symptoms, I know it's rough to talk about, even more so to think about (since its in your nervous system and the anxiety) and all that but you seem like a cool guy and I was hoping to compare experiences. Anyway, good luck pal I really hope both our conditions will fade over time.
So I'm very very happy to have found your vid now after a year of chaos. And believe me I had sunken deep deep DEEP into the illusions. at a point it seemed like the only true selfrecognision I had was my psytrance..You get the picture i think. I could go on for hours about it... I hope you are doing better now man. And to the other sufferers out there reading this. Heads up. If you feel sick of it all, sway your arms like a madman or something. This self sends everybody much love and courage.
By the way till now I have been paranoid I really was this way. u know what I mean. I thought hppd was only visual disturbances etc. I accepted it and thought by myself like 'whatever, hallucinations that will eventually go away, WEEEJ!!' didn't read myself into it too much (very stupid I know..) and till now didn't realise that the rest that was/is going on, the dp/dr = also hppd.
Or you're trying to hide it, wich will cause awkwardness anyway OR you really try to point it all out but it seems there's really no way. My parents don't even want to believe I have hppd.. . I'm 17. All alone in my own chaos. I can't help getting mad at people for not understanding me while they are truly trying to and wanting to help me, people are getting sick of me..and the vs, fuck man, I can hardly read and i can't see ANYTHING in the dark. oh boy oh boy..
Right in the middle of all chaos here .. Locking myself up in my room for longer than a year now. Going outside like only two or three times a week and it's so hard...Having the eye-focus-awkwardness thing too and more... All this stupid ocd-like fears, they're killing me. I screwed up with a lot of girls. Totally freaked them out with my needyness and my helpless trying to explain myself. My reputation is worse than I could have ever imagined it to become. My self esteem is TOTALLY fucked up.
it doesn't make me feel so crazy. i suppose i've got to learn to accept it and flow with it--maybe consider it an exciting alteration of perception.
it is very much uncharted territory. i remember the first time it happened i thought i was going crazy; it was as if i was weaving in and out of reality. but i will go back to the place it happened and face my fears, have it happen all over again.
how, exactly, does it work to permanently give you a sense of being on a hallucinogen (in one way or another)? did the hallucinogen permanently disconnect or connect certain neurons in the brain?
I think they'd more readily be able to pinpoint someones anxiety caused by it, rather than some actual physical function of HPPD.
Because it's my suspicion, I have no idea for sure, but I suspect that, there is no physical change at all. In anyway. But that rather you've just got into the habit of noticing a new aspect thats always been there.
People can go around completely oblivious to things all around them, then point it out once and they will always notice it after that.
ah, i suffer from occasional dissociation with reality (as i have termed it).
it used to be frightening, but i suppose taking your view i can treat it as gaining access to a new dimension of my psyche.. hm.. =] that makes me feel a lot better, actually.
but really, it is like entering a temporary seperate reality. so cool . well, i used to smoke pot so these memories are all-too fresh in my mind (stopped smoking, though).
it always seemed to me that the subjective description of derealization and depersonalization are pretty much right along the lines of the subjective description of deep levels of meditation
i think its a case of people accidentally falling into states of mind, that are completely ok, but they don't have any preparation to understand it, deal with it, or respect it, so it scares them
I think for pretty much everyone it is. Coming to terms with how maleable your vision is, its not easy. The western, and Christian world have relied so heavily on the assumption of solidity, and single-layeredness of their vision for so long that having that change can break down alot. And it can be something that creates alot of friction. As where we are slipping into is uncharted territory.
omg i just wanna say the tips u gave helped me alot specaily the website. OMG there are many advices on that website and it helped me allot. This 2 days have been a blessing, I never felt this healty for a long time i dont even remember when i felt healthy !!
man always when im outside i just see this little dots flying everywere in view. But when im inside its not lol.But thats not the most anoying part, the anoying part is that it made u bit crazy
I can recall when it started... Halloween 08 1/8 of mush then 3 BUNK/TWEAK ass E pills then drank a bunch then smoked almost a dub through the night. A lot of crazy shit happened that night and every since then i trip out and get panicky more so when im fucked up but sometimes during sober days. After doing a bunch of coke because it gave me a clean high, i realized i had to stop everything. Been sober from drugs 2 months but now i realize i was having the same problem as you.thanks man
wow metaphysicslab, you clearly cannot understand what HPPD is when you say things like "they just give it a name so psychiatrists can make money off of you." Thats total bullshit. i hope you get hppd in the worst case scenario one day so you can know ten fold what hppd sufferers go through 24/7, all day, everyday, probably for the rest of our lives. You know nothing of what its like to walk outside everyday and be blinded by the glare of the suns reflection off payments.
Who defines normal anyhow? YOU DO!!! Not anyone else, just you. If you want to feel happy feel happy it's a fucking choice and it's easy. Soooo easy. I lived twenty five years of my life not knowing how easily I could just be whatever the fuck I wanted just by treating others as I wanted to be treated.... It's a pay it forward kind of service though. Give and ye shall receive, amen
inclinevillagenv 3 weeks ago
Reality is your own creation man. And so is everything else. We all have our own little worlds and they can be shared or not. Hppd or whatever it is, be cancer aids religion politics, it is only real if you give it power and choose to believe it. Feel me? Just labels and boxes people use to put life into but life isn't describable. Be like water, as Bruce lee used to say.
inclinevillagenv 3 weeks ago
For the most part nobody really knows what the fuck life is and drugs force to to realize that. So many people can't face chaos. And that's why drugs aren't recommended by the vast majority. Drugs bring you closer to the vail. And that's a scary spot to be if you use fear as a filter. Use love instead. Use love as your shield. Unconditional love.
inclinevillagenv 3 weeks ago
Get more sunlight and breath slower. Confront your fears too, then you will realize there's nothing to be afraid of. Fear is FalseEvidenceApearringReal. Remember nobody is thinking or hearing your thoughts unless you verbalized it. Even then most people have their own filters and lens they look through and scew.
inclinevillagenv 3 weeks ago
No way. I jsut learned about this today and ive done LSD and mdma in the past. What are the chances in getting this?
Fuckingflesheater 4 weeks ago
HPPD isn't a disorder, it's a feature.
TRIMAD9001 1 month ago
ive had this for four years now and ive came to terms that its just the way my perception is from now on..
1skeevie 1 month ago
Do you still have it? I've heard it's supposed to go away.
Rael0505 1 month ago
plz sumone reply i have hppd realy bad and does any one else feel like their in a dream when they go outside sumone please reply
jsTHRASHED 1 month ago
@jsTHRASHED I wrote on your channel
Rael0505 1 month ago
@Rael0505 ya i do still have it its been a year but do yoiu now if the dream like thing is normal
jsTHRASHED 1 month ago
if i stare at someone with out blinking for a bit everything will start to go wierd and morf
specialchannel 2 months ago
@indigochild811
thankyou this does help alot :D and you're right acceptance is deffo the key! and i look at peoples mouths when they talk :P do you take any suppliments or anything?
slurplesAlice 2 months ago
@ingochild811 hey man just wanted to say Ive trying out your tip for looking down at the ground when Im walking around outside to avoid that sensory overload, and its really working out. thank you a lot, I hope everything is going well for you
adrianbpj 2 months ago
I took 2c-e once.... Fucked my whole life pretty bad. I am afraid to talk to my doctor about whether I have hppd or derealization disorder. How would you suggest bringing it up with your doctor? Have you?
yakuza941 3 months ago
@yakuza941
I'd see a psychiatrist as opposed to a doctor.
McVannJr 2 months ago
@McVannJr I agree. I need to jump through hoops to be capable of applying for coverage with my health insurance. That would mean getting tests run on me and such. After watching these videos, I regained hope anyways. I find due to the low intensity of my problems I can get through my days. I will probably try to see a psychiatrist if it doesn't get any better.
yakuza941 2 months ago
@yakuza941
Hope things work out for you.
McVannJr 2 months ago
@yakuza941 Hey man thats my case too. Im not sure what to do, but I got prescribed prozac and it works well for me and my family, but i think the best thing that can be done is to literally become sober. I'm taking those steps and getting there but living a healthy lifestyle is key as well as surrounding yourself with people. talk to your doctor and be honest
BCbound2011 2 months ago
@BCbound2011 It hasn't been too long, but I am starting to get better, bit by bit. My depersonalization is wearing down and i am practically rid of my depth perception inconsistencies. I find keeping a physically healthy lifestyle translates right into achieving mental health goals. Stay strong, man. Increase fruit/vege intake, vitamins, and a rigid workout schedule is a very effective tool.
yakuza941 1 month ago
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suim2007 3 months ago
DPDR is the worstttt, hppd i could almost live with if the DP didnt make me feel so fried
suim2007 3 months ago
@suim2007 I know man, that shit is the worst. I feel like I can barely get out of bed Im exhausted all the time
adrianbpj 2 months ago
@adrianbpj Same here man, it's gettin better but the fatigue is probably one of the most annoying symptoms for sureee, i find i feel better if i undersleep than if i oversleep though
suim2007 4 weeks ago
Smoke weed, drink DXM, take MDMA!!!!
HaTeR545F76U6672C72K 3 months ago
i did legal high (black mamba) went completely overboard, then did lots of alcohol which fucked with my head, and smoked cannabis a lot, fucked my mind up, totally not worth it to anyone considering doing it
ps what does floaters mean? i have visual snow and my concentration is sooo bad, my memory isabout 5 seconds long
StoneProductionsUK 3 months ago
i did legal high (black mamba) went completely overboard, then did lots of alcohol which fucked with my head, and smoked cannabis a lot, fucked my mind up, totally not worth it to anyone considering doing it
StoneProductionsUK 3 months ago
my floaters are much worse with glasses than when I dont use them, impossible to read anything at all as my focus drops as they're almost completely black and in central vision and many in numbers.
mjk3367 4 months ago
after getting DOX as lsd once I had tracers for several months after everything moving, hands, cars etc. its mostly gone now
mjk3367 4 months ago
I had what you call hppd but usually only temporary after trips.. 1-2-3 weeks after high dose trips I will see walls and floors moving etc. and usually as much as while tripping.
I got very annoying floaters in my right eye and that is much worse, I cannot see much due to them and very hard to read and I'm only 26.
Flashbacks are real too, I once saw infinite number of faces inside the left part of people's faces for half a day about 1-2 weeks after a high dose lsd trip, had more than this one
mjk3367 4 months ago
how long have you had hppd for?
alovingfrenchmen 4 months ago
i have some HPPD and I think its awesome. I can watch stuff morph and bend whenever I want.
sbarring1 4 months ago
Keep going ya'll.... things get better... soul survivor right here * <3 - live your reality / believe in love
dgatewoodkc 4 months ago
my heart goes out to ya man! For me its just hard to focus and i have visual snow. Makes everything look 2d and it seems like my periferals take up an excessive amount of my vision. It feels like a lack of psychedelia going on in my brain
TheGncGuru 5 months ago
@indigochild811 Are you saying it's not worth it to do shrooms at all because of the risk of HPPD? You simply weigh the risk vs. benefit of any drug and if the former outweighs the latter you dont take it hurr durr
Fuck now I'm insulting people in youtube comments >_<
m3nt1a 6 months ago
yo maybe you could help me. i done acid proably five times. when i stare at anything for a second or two... after a while it starts to morph as if im trippin. whats that about?
taylorcharlie36 6 months ago
@taylorcharlie36 I hear ya man like the toilet bowl when your taking a leak sorta fades at the sides? your not alone my friend
coatsy5 5 months ago
The only cure is more battery Acid
Gfunk420X 6 months ago
Sun Glasses help for me !
specialchannel 7 months ago
Dude you look really stressed man get some rest bro.
RayRox17 7 months ago
getting to sleep is the hardest part for me along with talking to strangers.
I even had a time that i didn't trust my best friend anymore.
But as this is selfinflicted due to my own choice, i'll go live with it
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VisualSnow1 8 months ago
All it took was one LSD adventure and I can't even smoke weed anymore. I get flashbacks after one hit, and even when I'm sober I'll just start seeing shit breathe and don't even get me started on carpets patterns, lol.
Subatomic1000 8 months ago
@Subatomic1000 you have a sensitive mind, don't blame the chemical blame your lack of knowledge.
FadedConceptz 7 months ago
@FadedConceptz I'll say whatever the fuck I want. Get used to it.
Subatomic1000 7 months ago
A bit differnt HPPD is to everyone, but different or not, we r all still seein' shit that we shouldn't. This video made me feel a little better, thanx! Fuckin hate it, walls and the landscape will shift a bit, colors and just reallity become overprocessed in the, looks a bit too real, and I think I speak 4 everyone, but the dark DON'T HELP. Good luk 2 u and to everyone out there with this. & Fuk yall who think lsd dont do this and theres no evidence that it can, cause it damn well can!
Metaldominance4 9 months ago
I was cursed with HPPD in 2004, it's now 2011 and I still hallucinate... constantly. Things still move, sparkle, breath, spin and sometimes I'll randomly enter a full trip without warning. I can't remember the last time I looked at a wall and it was just a wall..
Nicholasursino 9 months ago
Every person can get HPPD. You can have it the first time you trip or when you take a LOT of hallucinogens.
I have a lot of floaters in both eyes. It's very hard to live with it. I do not have other symptomes of hppd (only some static when tired or did drugs).
I think the floaters are related to stress.
Tripping is beautiful, but it has some riscs. The chance of getting hppd is small but not unreal.
TriallByFire 9 months ago
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Could you get it from trying shrooms for your first time?
FRod94 9 months ago
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Could you get it from trying shrooms for your first time?
FRod94 9 months ago
Could you get it from trying shrooms for your first time?
FRod94 9 months ago
Could you get this from trying shrooms for your first time?
FRod94 9 months ago
@FRod94 yeah dude, it only takes one time, not to freak you out or anything but its not worth it
indigochild811 9 months ago
@indigochild811 damnn nd i wanted to try that shitt!
FRod94 9 months ago
@FRod94 You can, but shrooms are still worth it. Take them in a spiritual setting, with many people around to help you cope if needed. This will lower your chances significantly. It also goes away after time, depending on the severity, from a few days to over a year. I had it once, but it lasted less than a month. If you think of hallucinogens as "drugs," in the classic sense, you will have a greater risk for HPPD. Treat these chemicals spiritually and you will probably be fine.
MrBradshawbenjamin 9 months ago
@MrBradshawbenjamin hell yeahh thanks dudee ima try em! ive been wanting to for the longest timee but i think ima slpit an 8th with someone than later sometime take the full 8th haha nd just trip
FRod94 9 months ago
@FRod94 Theres a lot to be learned from psycadelics if used in the right manner bro. Dont hang out with dumb ass people if you do it. Go to a Music festival and have fun,
ChadwickMichaelWill 2 months ago
@FRod94 You need to now your family history before you take any drug really, especially hallucinogens cuz they will bring out any latent psychological problems. It doesn't always mean you have HPPD. Ask your parents if they have ever taken anything similar and had a psychological breakdown after. A lot of people talk about health and addiction with drugs but never really address this aspect of them.
Mr420Panda 2 months ago
@FRod94 If that's your situation, how is it now?
easrth 1 week ago
If u get floaters from HPPD or start noticing them cuz HPPD, do they go away or become much less noticable if / when u get over ur HPPD or do they stay with you?
Wallychans 10 months ago
@Wallychans ithink thye become more noticeable until you get used to them. they're annoying as fuck
StykTV 10 months ago
Thank you for all you went through to make this video. My husband has HPPD, or at least we think he does. He got alot of solutude knowing there is someone out there that has similar feelings.
PemWCorgi 10 months ago
@PemWCorgi theres a lot of us out here and its a scary thing im dealing with it alone at 17 and its not nice but thats life tell your husband goodluck and all the best im here if you wana chat
coatsy5 5 months ago
I use to drop acid all the time. I never had a bad trip once untill one day i had such a horrible trip i felt like killing myself and i had a direct experience with god.he told me to stop doing acid, weed,stealing etc. and he said if i did it again its not going to stop the next day, well me being a dumbass did it again and i have horrible hppd and i think im left behind and lost my chance in heaven. ive spoken to pastors and everything. i cant excape my thoughts. not for one fucking second.
PurpleElement 10 months ago
ive accepted it. and like you im still scared and well kinda worried about my future. but i think it'd be the same. and yeah i wanted the drugs at first. but i changed my mind. i was actually happy that i got this not happy but iunno. i dont think its a bad thing. for me my symptoms are worse indoors than outdoors. i hate being inside. im glad i enjoy myself still. sometimes i get frustrated cause i see visuals in my peripherals but can't look directly at them and floaters are annoying as fuck.
StykTV 10 months ago
Is it possible to have this without the visual component?
I had a bad trip 3 years ago and it made me wicked anxious. It kind of ruined hallucinogins for me so i didnt take them for awhile, but after some time passed i tried it again and had a good time. It really fluxuates though, somtimes i have a wicked bad trip, and sometimes its awsome. Usually i have a better time if im drunk first so im not as anxious.
Still feel like i never fully recovered from that first bad trip though. Advice?
cheezmo722 11 months ago
I dont think i could ever permanantly quite drinking and smoking. Not even for the mental reasons, but it feels really good phsyically to smoke a fat spliff after a few beers. In fact just talking about this makes me want to burn one. I havent in a week though so i wont indulge.
Props to you for kicking the shit. Your a better man than I.
cheezmo722 11 months ago
I dont know how you quit everything. I definatly have drug and alchohol problems but they are managable. Im smart enough not to let them effect other areas of my life but i periodiclly take breaks from them for weeks at a time. When i dont do them for awhile i get upset and really want to smoke and drink for the first week or so, but after that it gets easier.
cheezmo722 11 months ago
@cheezmo722
Even with drugs that aren't that addicting, it becomes a habit when you do it every day and its hard to break the cycle. Plus all my friends love drugs and partying so it makes it difficult to to see that going on around me and not partake. I never used to do hard drugs but oncei got to college, people would offer me shit when i was drunk and i couldnt resist. Drinking makes me less anxious so i enjoy the other drugs more but i hardly do them anymore except for once in a while.
cheezmo722 11 months ago
Please go check out my video and post it everywhere. We need media attention on this. People are mentally dying.. We need help please.
VisualSnow1 11 months ago
this doesnt sound pleasant but i bet having auditory hallucinations is worse.
jimmyshitbags 1 year ago
Does HPPD mean Visual Snow? Or is HPPD more wider?
Ben1987X 1 year ago
@Ben1987X
Its wider, I have gotten it. It takes the form of a constant distortion in my visual field, like the background is constantly breathing. It is a lot more minor than most and I can tune it out in situations if I can focus on something else.
Br0k3nS41nt 1 year ago
@Leetsnugglage Why wouldn't you want to change it?It will change your life FOREVER!! It's managable, but there are no guarentees. The things I deal with 18 years later are such a pain in the ass all from one hit of acid!!!
MrTonga92 1 year ago
Something as small as youtube videos and websites are so helpful because when I got this I assumed I would be in a mental institution at some point forever. Didn't even know there was a name for it until I quit drinking 4 and half years ago and started researching. I've only been taking the benzos for 3 years,but I'm on the same dose I was when I started and thank God I found a doc who knew what I was talking about.I don't understand how people are still using drugs after suffering with Hppd???
MrTonga92 1 year ago
I applaud you for dealing with HPPD without any benzodiazepines!! I've had HPPD for 18 years. I got it when I was 17 from a hit of acid and I had only tripped like 2 or 3 times. I'm not sure why it happens to some people and not others. I drank most of my entire adult life to deal with it. Never could tell anyone and also went to every doc you can imagine. The Klonopin your talking about saved my life. The static, anxiety attacks, social anxiety, agoraphobia is so minor incomparison!!
MrTonga92 1 year ago
i have a lot of floaters since i got Lyme Disease. This is aj interesting symptom, wonder where it comes from.
maciejwrotek 1 year ago
which drug do u think got u to this state ?
maciejwrotek 1 year ago
also i would suggest trying 5-HTP. it's a naturally occurring chemical that can be bought over the counter without a prescription. it helps increase serotonin in your brain
spatialaa 1 year ago
@spatialaa I'm sorry I keep posting so many things. I just can't believe there are this many people out here with HPPD. Anything that effects the seretonin in your brain will make HPPD way worse.
MrTonga92 1 year ago
i agree that quitting E and hallucinogens are a good idea for someone with HPPD but i don't think quitting THC is necessary. i think some people can use THC to work through deeper issues in order to find answers that make sense to them. i agree it's absolutely necessary to accept the changes and through acceptance you develop a non-hostile reaction to experiencing visuals or feelings of derealization which can greatly help you stop noticing them. it all returns to normal once you accept it.
spatialaa 1 year ago
i have HPPD, and i know exactly what your going through. exactly same thing with me. i just found out what it is that i have today. and i had it for a year now. you are very right. acceptance is key. its not as bad as it was before. but i still get major anxiety and other things. now i totally feel in not alone :) thanks
TheSnow1028 1 year ago
taking perscription drugs is stupid. usuing something that makes you half dead isnt going to help you. trying a phycoligy way is best. and as soon as i got into i wanted drugs too; they put me on soo many i stayed in my room for 2 months. im getting better; i hope you doo. my visualz are intense. still trying to except it.
juliaZombE 1 year ago
yep your bang on, take the good and bad but focus on the advantages. youll be fine
Bluewo1f 1 year ago
damn dude, how many hits have you had all together?
jwallace911 1 year ago
raw and confronting. alot more detiring than any shit government add. good luck man.
mrckb 1 year ago
Had HPPD for 2 years, watched this video a lot when i got it. I can't understate the importance of this video. It has been so crucial for me and other people to have this video on here, and see a young, intelligent, down-to-earth person address the issue of HPPD, instead of having it interpreted by one of the many new age pseudo-guruïst hippie rejects that seem to monopolize the topic of hallucinogenic drugs.
Two years of abstinence later I have massively improved and reclaimed my life. Thanks!
goatslayer 1 year ago
I need help...
Ive tripped 4 times, each trip has been wonderful an a learning experience..
now its the time of the year where i take my annual journey with the help of LSD but have yet not taken it as now Im too scared about developing hppd..
Sometimes when i take a crap in the bathroom the tiles on the wall start expanding just as they do on LSD..
I am in a fix wheather to do it or not..
Is hppd caused because of adulterated substances mixed with Acid?
Really need help on this..Thankss.!
jeffhardy077 1 year ago
my first trip was at age 15. Noticing how exotic and vibrant my new pschedelic world was, i decided to take more and more. It wasn't until I was 17 that I realized every trip was becoming terrible. My emotions began running wild on and off the drug. I have now been sober for about 8 months and don't plan on using again. I Guess it wasn't until i saw this video that I realized I have HPPD. My whole life is a different reality now. But As you Said, It is my reality and I have to embrace it.
MrErgotamine 1 year ago
my first trip was at age 15. Noticing how exotic and vibrant my new pschedelic world was, i decided to take more and more. It wasn't until I was 17 that I realized every trip was becoming terrible. My emotions began running wild on and off the drug. I have now been sober for about 8 months and don't plan on using again. I Guess it wasn't until i saw this video that I realized I have HPPD. My whole life is a different reality now. But As you Said, It is my reality and I have to embrace it.
MrErgotamine 1 year ago
Actually, the mild mescaline trips gave me the impression of being able to think more clearly, but it was probably an illusion. It's only been a few months since I've slowed down (I plan to stop) with the weed, and I don't "see" shaking robotic assassins behind the doors anymore. The environment has partially gone back to normal (looked like an old train station, an old abandoned hospital, then a living slaughterhouse or meat locker). For nearly everyone, medications will not help long-term.
Cubicle0 1 year ago
I got HPPD and mild symptoms of psychosis, memory loss, and depression from taking a high dose of Dramamine when I was a newbie. The effects were nearly gone after two months, but then I began smoking a lot of strong weed. Boy, what WEED can do. It made the other side-effects worse and gave me extreme depression and severe paranoia. I also tried low doses of mescaline later on and enjoyed it, but I'm not going to do it again because I fear losing my sanity. Salvia didn't help either. Good video
Cubicle0 1 year ago
i've recently developed this from RC's, had it for 7 weeks, fucking annoying, fun and shit scary.......i regret it now
TheRNP93 1 year ago
DO NOT go to prescription drugs. They can cause psychotic attacks. they kill people. Natural helpers to check out: 5 htp, st johns wort, L-tyrisine. Remember the things your worried about probably arent real. If your mind can make its own realities, then your mind can create a reality of peace of mind.
MrDjt33 1 year ago
lsd isnt a pill
systemv7 1 year ago
Can somebody help me out? I didn't catch or find the site he recommended?
Ben1987X 1 year ago
I have visuel snow what's HPPD? What does that mean is it visuel snow? Or is it something different?
Ben1987X 1 year ago
anybody that has hppd can pm and i will tell you how to stop the sympthoms in just 6 months
loganpete11 1 year ago
@loganpete11 I have visuel Snow? Can you help me please?
Ben1987X 1 year ago
ive gotten HPPD from a horrible LSA trip, a single trip
worst mistake of my life
legbrakemasta17 1 year ago
@legbrakemasta17
Same
MissAndDie96 1 year ago
do you ever have a pressure in your head? cuz i do..
MrXZodiacInfinitY 1 year ago
i have hppd now. from brownies and weed. it sucks so much ass. i hate it. i feel your pain man.
juuuulian 1 year ago
This sounds pretty terrible- like schizophrenia with an awareness of what's happening
anhedonia47 1 year ago
can you get HPPD from taking 1 single LSD pill?
im doing LSD for the first time this saturday with my friends, were only taking 1 pill and im exited!.... just a lil unsure
I HAVE UNTIL TOMORROW!! PLEASE REPLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
spazzymagey 2 years ago
yes you can
indigochild811 2 years ago 3
@indigochild811 thank you :)
spazzymagey 2 years ago
@indigochild811 Very good video very true arguments have the same with the outdoors lately it's horrible. We are the same situation.. I have made a video called: "Hallucinogen Persistent Perception Disorder & Visual Snow: Eye OnVision Foundation & Media Attention " I don’t want to spam you but It might find your interest..let me know because it is might benefit our situation because it already in progress but need more people/attention..
VisualSnow1 9 months ago
@spazzymagey How did your trip go?
billyisballing 1 year ago
@billyisballing
i didnt do it :)
m not cool with eating horse tranqulisers lol xD
i might try shrooms when im older, probably wont tho.
i also dont smoke weed anymore :)
spazzymagey 1 year ago
@spazzymagey never heard of anyone taking a pill of acid. strange. but yeah you can if its in your genes. only happens to certain ppl.
StykTV 10 months ago
@StykTV acid tab* lol
I didnt do it in the end :)
spazzymagey 10 months ago
@spazzymagey well good for you. you should never take acid unless your really ready for it. can cause bad trips and all sorta stuff apparently. never had a bad trip while actually tripping so idk.
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FadedConceptz 7 months ago
@FadedConceptz Your not the first person to call me retarded for that...
Im going to be honest and say that it was retarded.... even though i meant to say tab....
If your trying to make yourself look smart for your own self-gain, then fuck you.
If you think im retarded by being offered dodgy, random drugs that im clueless about, then fair enough and well played.
btw I didn't take the tab in the end.
spazzymagey 7 months ago
@FadedConceptz MICROdots are pill form-ish stfu dude
oORitalinOo 6 months ago
I've had heavy HPPD (all symptoms including derealization, disociation) for over 2 years, and I used psychedelic drugs less than 5 times. It sucked for a long time, until I figured out ways to treat it, it doesn't bother me in the slightest now. Here's my pro tip: STOP browsing HPPD forums and youtube vids such as this one. Accept it and carry on with your life.
Docus254 2 years ago
keep in mind that it is not a very known about condition.
There may be a cure in our life time
(Not an HPPD sufferer) But I have GAD which gives you very close symptoms.
I came across hppd while researching GAD.
LimeGreenFever 2 years ago
I have HPPD symptomes whithout ever taking drugs.
Sucks to be me.
Boljarin 2 years ago
no.
TheChroniclesOHO 2 years ago
@Boljarin I have visuel snow, I got it also whitout drugs....Beter to have it all of the suden then have done it yourself... I think...
Ben1987X 1 year ago
I quite enjoy HPPD, just light trails and snow in normal vision, not too obvious but i see it sometimes, all the time if i look for it.
Meevinman 2 years ago
what do people get hppd from?
i've done lsd, mushrooms, 2ci, and the king of psychedelics DMT, smoked and in ayahusca form, and i've never had persisting visuals. i've put tripping behind me but this sounds really crazy.
ffhk1 2 years ago
@ffhk1 People get it from taking entheogenic drugs like shrooms, lsd, and using em a lil too much
mellowmushroomer00 2 years ago
I have been Coping with HPPD for 4 years,
CartmanLandZ 2 years ago
lol ive had hppd for over a year now. i use to freak out thinking i was dieing cuz i did to many drugs but now im so used to it and i no wut it is that i would almost be kinda sad if it went away. it makes me look at life so much differently. i feel almost as if it were to go away i wouldnt be the same i would have lost something almost. somthing so great and so life changing. idk but to anybody who has it i no it gets frustrating but dont look at it as a bad thing look at it as a good thing
traceurshorty 2 years ago
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chareyhorse 2 years ago
i have been coping with HPPD since July i thought i was losing my mind your video helped a lot i couldn't really go outside i still get panic attacks at night and it gets alot better with time especially if you talk about it with people who have experienced HPPD
datTrippyMan 2 years ago
hey i got this about a year ago...the first couple months were hell but i got tired of being scared and started living life. the best help i found was talking to people you might be surprised to what hey say
chadddahc 2 years ago
Can i ask what drug got you into it?
GauntyCanJump 2 years ago
Most common cause of HPPD is LSD, but any hallucinogen (ex: MDMA) can also cause it.
racehorse87 2 years ago
i think i have some sort of condition from weed (white widow) but i like feel high and get the trippy effects from when i was actually i highand i still feel like that now it worries me allot but i guess i'll just have to accept it
GauntyCanJump 2 years ago
You could consider seeing a (neuro)psychologist if you want to. HPPD can apparently come only cannabis in rare cases, but there may also be another underlying disorder present contributing to the symptoms (ex:temporal lobe epilepsy).
racehorse87 2 years ago
Your Videos have helped me so much!! thank you very much for posting these !!
xiiizexion 2 years ago
thanks for your video :) ive been searching for a reason of what im going through....3 years its beens sinse i took loadsa lsd and developed hppd... only now i have realised im not going crazy... im nearly in tears of realisation. thank you so much xx
StellaRose1990 2 years ago
i've been reading alot of these peoples comments, and rememeber the time I was in the same position most of you are in now, if anyone needs a chat or anything im more than willing to help out.
h4nk0 2 years ago
you don't know how much your words mean to me. my heart goes out to you. thank you for this video bro.
groupxarab 2 years ago
Hey man, just watched this and I really hope you (and me) get over it. It's amazing how much HPPD sucks. I was basically just hoping if you could send me a message telling me your symptoms, I know it's rough to talk about, even more so to think about (since its in your nervous system and the anxiety) and all that but you seem like a cool guy and I was hoping to compare experiences. Anyway, good luck pal I really hope both our conditions will fade over time.
DBARNZY805 2 years ago
So I'm very very happy to have found your vid now after a year of chaos. And believe me I had sunken deep deep DEEP into the illusions. at a point it seemed like the only true selfrecognision I had was my psytrance..You get the picture i think. I could go on for hours about it... I hope you are doing better now man. And to the other sufferers out there reading this. Heads up. If you feel sick of it all, sway your arms like a madman or something. This self sends everybody much love and courage.
rruuppoo 2 years ago
By the way till now I have been paranoid I really was this way. u know what I mean. I thought hppd was only visual disturbances etc. I accepted it and thought by myself like 'whatever, hallucinations that will eventually go away, WEEEJ!!' didn't read myself into it too much (very stupid I know..) and till now didn't realise that the rest that was/is going on, the dp/dr = also hppd.
rruuppoo 2 years ago
Or you're trying to hide it, wich will cause awkwardness anyway OR you really try to point it all out but it seems there's really no way. My parents don't even want to believe I have hppd.. . I'm 17. All alone in my own chaos. I can't help getting mad at people for not understanding me while they are truly trying to and wanting to help me, people are getting sick of me..and the vs, fuck man, I can hardly read and i can't see ANYTHING in the dark. oh boy oh boy..
rruuppoo 2 years ago
Right in the middle of all chaos here .. Locking myself up in my room for longer than a year now. Going outside like only two or three times a week and it's so hard...Having the eye-focus-awkwardness thing too and more... All this stupid ocd-like fears, they're killing me. I screwed up with a lot of girls. Totally freaked them out with my needyness and my helpless trying to explain myself. My reputation is worse than I could have ever imagined it to become. My self esteem is TOTALLY fucked up.
rruuppoo 2 years ago
hmm.. i really like your view =]
it doesn't make me feel so crazy. i suppose i've got to learn to accept it and flow with it--maybe consider it an exciting alteration of perception.
it is very much uncharted territory. i remember the first time it happened i thought i was going crazy; it was as if i was weaving in and out of reality. but i will go back to the place it happened and face my fears, have it happen all over again.
thank you =)
b1nphk66 2 years ago
i'm very interested in this disorder.
how, exactly, does it work to permanently give you a sense of being on a hallucinogen (in one way or another)? did the hallucinogen permanently disconnect or connect certain neurons in the brain?
b1nphk66 2 years ago
neurons are just a metaphor
people would like to say what is happening by whatever metaphorical system they've bought into, but albeit, these are only metaphors
What exactly has occured to cause, no one really knows
But whatever it is, it is MORE, not less. It's not a losing, a disconnecting, it is rather a gaining, it is new.
metaphysicslab 2 years ago
but would a scientist physically be able to pinpoint specific abnormalities (or rather, differences) in the brain of an HPPD sufferer?
b1nphk66 2 years ago
I think they'd more readily be able to pinpoint someones anxiety caused by it, rather than some actual physical function of HPPD.
Because it's my suspicion, I have no idea for sure, but I suspect that, there is no physical change at all. In anyway. But that rather you've just got into the habit of noticing a new aspect thats always been there.
People can go around completely oblivious to things all around them, then point it out once and they will always notice it after that.
metaphysicslab 2 years ago
ah, i suffer from occasional dissociation with reality (as i have termed it).
it used to be frightening, but i suppose taking your view i can treat it as gaining access to a new dimension of my psyche.. hm.. =] that makes me feel a lot better, actually.
but really, it is like entering a temporary seperate reality. so cool . well, i used to smoke pot so these memories are all-too fresh in my mind (stopped smoking, though).
b1nphk66 2 years ago
it always seemed to me that the subjective description of derealization and depersonalization are pretty much right along the lines of the subjective description of deep levels of meditation
i think its a case of people accidentally falling into states of mind, that are completely ok, but they don't have any preparation to understand it, deal with it, or respect it, so it scares them
metaphysicslab 2 years ago
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b1nphk66 2 years ago
in my case it was accompanied by a lot of anxiety.
b1nphk66 2 years ago
I think for pretty much everyone it is. Coming to terms with how maleable your vision is, its not easy. The western, and Christian world have relied so heavily on the assumption of solidity, and single-layeredness of their vision for so long that having that change can break down alot. And it can be something that creates alot of friction. As where we are slipping into is uncharted territory.
metaphysicslab 2 years ago
HPPD SUCKS
I hear ya man. some people laugh it off but it's the worst... keep hangin in there bro
punkrockdrummer 2 years ago
Oh, Try EFT the anxiety and all that??? See if that works.
It looks daft, but it worked for my PTSD.
May help you chill out a bit
CuteBadger 2 years ago
omg i just wanna say the tips u gave helped me alot specaily the website. OMG there are many advices on that website and it helped me allot. This 2 days have been a blessing, I never felt this healty for a long time i dont even remember when i felt healthy !!
CartmanLandZ 2 years ago
man always when im outside i just see this little dots flying everywere in view. But when im inside its not lol.But thats not the most anoying part, the anoying part is that it made u bit crazy
CartmanLandZ 2 years ago
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i have this shit......
420TOK3R 2 years ago
dude, it might just be cataracs, little dots that fly in your vision are perfectly natural for lots of people. Don't sweat!
YoungNubb 2 years ago
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jleerun5 2 years ago
Eh?
CuteBadger 2 years ago
Amen brother.
ig249 2 years ago
i have taken lots of lsd and e and have this, but i kinda like it actually
MrThiz 2 years ago
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llvllyles 2 years ago
I can recall when it started... Halloween 08 1/8 of mush then 3 BUNK/TWEAK ass E pills then drank a bunch then smoked almost a dub through the night. A lot of crazy shit happened that night and every since then i trip out and get panicky more so when im fucked up but sometimes during sober days. After doing a bunch of coke because it gave me a clean high, i realized i had to stop everything. Been sober from drugs 2 months but now i realize i was having the same problem as you.thanks man
fallen504 2 years ago
i tried posting a bunch of other symptoms but its not worth my time to type it out again.
shareyourvideosworld 2 years ago
wow metaphysicslab, you clearly cannot understand what HPPD is when you say things like "they just give it a name so psychiatrists can make money off of you." Thats total bullshit. i hope you get hppd in the worst case scenario one day so you can know ten fold what hppd sufferers go through 24/7, all day, everyday, probably for the rest of our lives. You know nothing of what its like to walk outside everyday and be blinded by the glare of the suns reflection off payments.
shareyourvideosworld 2 years ago
I'd just like to apologize everything that was said here.
I've been acting like a dick a bit.
Everyone has different opinions, I've just been having a bad week. Sorry if I flipped out a little.
I respect everyone who has taken the time to watch these videos and I urge you to make your own interoperation of them.
I just wanted to help some people that were suffering, and for the most part, I think I've accomplished that
indigochild811 2 years ago
although something I cant agree with is this notion of marijuana or psilocybe cubensis being comparable to posinous plants
Caffeine is more toxic than psilocybe cubensis.
It is not the same shit.
Yes they are HIGHLY psychoactive, but posinous? Not in the slightest.
marijuana, obviously very un-toxic, but everyone knows that
If you want an example of toxic and posinous, look at alcohol.
metaphysicslab 2 years ago