What I've been going through: Depersonalization

[8i8fly]

Hi,

i feel like i might have this disorder but havent been to sure. But when you said about feeling like different parts of your body control different areas and you said not feeling whole.. thats when i felt like it hit exactly how i feel. You also mentioned feeling like people aren't real and not connecting with them at times.

I found your video insightful

[HMGen14]

I just need someone to talk too.... I want to tell my mom, but I know I CAN'T... We don't really have a family as it is.... If I tell her what happened, the family we have left she'll kick out of our life... for Good.

[HMGen14]

My mom does not know about it, nobody does. I was living with my aunt for about 3 months, then on January 27, 2012, two days before I was moving back in with my mom, my aunt and my two neighbors wanted to smoke some Weed as a "Going Away" thing. Well, I feel like I went away and never came back... I wonder if I died that night and then....

If I tell my mom it would cause so many problems, I feel fine during the day when everyone is awake even though I'm in my room alone on my Xbox 360 a lot.

[HMGen14]

I don't know if I have Depersonalization or Derealization.... I smoked Weed on January 27, 2012 and it is now February 10, 2012.... I still feel like I don't have control over my body. Everything is real, I just feel like everything I do or say isn't ME. I do what I want, but then I wonder if it was really me doing it.

I've gotten REALLY depressed over it, but only at night when my body stops and thinks.

My mom doesn't know, no one knows.

[PumpkinSamm]

I'm going through exactly the same thing. I just made a video about it and said everything you said in less detail. Wish I'd seen this before I made the video.

[StuckInTheSky0]

This is a spiritual awakening, you are transitioning, you are ungrounded, that is why you get dizzy, its okay, dude, its order out of chaos, i hope all of your dreams come true, pace

[supervonzipper]

Is there anyway I can contact you by phone? I really need to some one about this. Hope you reply

[iblackops520]

i've also had too stop driving my car for about 3 months i barely started driving again 3 weeks ago and i know what it's like not being able too drive it really sucks, makes you feel like your disabled.

[iblackops520]

derealization is one of the most horrible things a person can go through, sometimes i feel like i would rather go through physical pain then this dissociative bs..but with exercise, vitamins, and being productive everyday you can get over this (:

[kyliekissesxoxo]

i've been going through this too, i wouldn't wish this upon anyone !

[Audiofreund2]

in buddhism they say: there is no ego. there is no "me".

[Aaronthegreatest]

I had to deal with all the stress that comes with being gay as well; that's what I think triggered my first panic attack and then it all just snowballed from there.

[Aaronthegreatest]

DPD and panic attacks screwed up my life =_= I wasn't really able to function in school anymore...it's just way too much of a distraction. I hope you are able to cope better with it.

[kenakaren]

You look so different from a year ago. Looks like you went through a lot. Take care.

[Angel28luv]

I think early trauma/ stress could be the root and drugs and other things are triggers not causes. I understand the car thing. I get it if I'm not driving, cuz I feel trapped. Anxiety seems to be the main thing. Idk if ur spiritual/ religious but I pray hard when it happens and it has helped. Just saying jesus out loud calms me down.

[Dread10101]

click the CC for captions, select "Transcribe Audio", go to 2:50 and he says "give peope that are suffering from the personal as asian fish out of hope"

[FibroBarbie]

Please DM me!

[mendez22100]

i had this the first time when i was 10, so...this cant be caused with drugs i think...

[mendez22100]

Dp is so bad :( i just wanna be normal again.

I wanna be "a me" :(

[emilecloutier]

I hope you get better soon! I know this type of thing can be scary because it's omnipresent and you're always thinking about it, but keep a positive attitude (which you seem to have!), don't obsess over it and you'll get rid of it. As always, I'm looking forward to a new video update from you. :)

-hugs-

[noraasworld]

I'm 18. I've never used drugs either. It just came out of nowhere about 2-3 months ago (end of may 2011), after massive anxiety / panic attacks. I graduated, turned 18, mom got a new job, the weather was 90+ degrees. And my brain couldn't take it. I still have problems with dp/dr. It's irritating.

[sprtsluvrr]

I am so sorry to hear that you have not been well. You are a very nice guy and seem to have a good understanding that it takes time to recover. Keep up the positive thoughts! All the best to you and I hope you are much better soon. Take care.

[news89]

I had a panic attack at Walmart back in October. Been moderate depression and high anxiety for years... I think yesterday was one of my low days... I never heard of Depersonalization till now... thanks for the video and heads up.. hang in there Taylor.

[sone5000]

You kinda look weird in a beard ! ! ! anyways i hope you get better , best of luck and wish you a speedy recovery . take care love ! ! !

[krigel75]

Best of luck to you, and it will get better. You sound very positive, and that is key to recovery. Hang in there Taylor.

[33883307]

hope you will be fine and better :D