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  • Jesus Mary and fucking Joseph Brock... you've gotta be shitting... Brock is a detriment to his ideology he trolls the piss out of this strawatheism shit and then he gets his add handed to him over and over again

  • Brock says that "God" imprints on men that he is real but early humans didn't believe in him and the earliest religions didn't beleive in him in the christian form brock describes and when someone is born they don't beleive in a God until someone tells them there is

  • Did he say that atheists suppressed the true? Was it atheists then that banned books and imprisoned or killed scientists who disagree with their teaching?

  • Godless Atheist? ...A fine example of trying to use a complicated prose to impress, while looking like an idiot...

  • tooltime..what show was that from? home improvements? tim allen was in that. i believe he was busted with cocaine? tooltime9901=doing coke?

  • @Revolution2pointO He's a fan of TOOL.

  • after having witnessed the people who are morally correct and strawmen the hell out of everything i have decided to start strawmanning the bible. i am pretty sure that there was some part of the bible that said that after jesus died that you would be able to fly around and shoot lazers out of your eyes. if someone tells me this is not in the bible i will simply insist that it is in the bible and not offer where in the bible it is at. they have to prove it isn't in the bible without me reading it

  • Evangelic atheists are annoying - you are not that - so your tone and pace is refreshing. Will check out your other vids.

    Question - do you think people gravitate to atheism because the doctrines of religion are so convuloted [esp Christianity] or because they have a strong feeling that the proof for God [eg the fine tuning argument] is weak

    I can understand the first - but not the second

  • Ughh Brock is so arrogant....

  • and it hurts my eyes to look upon this Brock "atheist antidote" the black an white filming, what i sware is a lense flare behind it. it is like hes the: ***ULTIMATE DOUCHE*** his words are that of a smug douche too.

    i believe in god,but i don't demonize science or all manner of peoples as evil.

    I'd hope this Brock person is just a troll trying to piss off athiests for the sake of getting some lulz, As apposed to him actually being this stupid.

     but I'm not getting my hopes up

  • tooltime9901 you're fucking awesome!

  • 6:58 silent hill 3 menu sound?

  • I'll take the padded cell. It's working fine for me.

  • this is bull?

  • I appreciate his deconstruction of Brock, but when a person is as dishonest as Brock, they do not deserve logical rebuttal videos. The appropriate response is to grab Brock and punch his face over and over, say,"You like that?", "Not so snarky now with that stupid face and your lies are you?"...This face punching should continue until Brock is near death, followed by defecating on him.

  • As much as I enjoy Peter's videos, I was going to have to say something about him poisoning the well at the beginning of this video, and then I saw Brock... and had to facepalm. Unless these clips were taken terribly out of context (I haven't seen the original videos these clips were taken from), then I must say... Brock is a douche.

  • @TheBlackDeath3 Well, the links to the videos that are used in this are in the description. See for yourself if they are out of context.

  • I reject the padded cell of atheism

  • But I like the eye-liner, it goes great with my slave collar and gets me all the kinky bitches. Oh, yeah!

  • Did anybody else notice the double standard there in Brock's reasoning, isn't a padded cell the kind of thing that beliefs will give you sometimes? Isn't a padded cell something that prevents you from doing acts which others perceive as wrong? So... in Christianity, we're FREE to sin and do crazy shit while atheists are locking themselves up to prevent such things? I don't get it.

  • Isn't Brock wearing makeup in the same damn video...

    Shave your beard? Do we HAVE to shave our beards and cut our hair? I'm an atheist and I don't even have a beard and I need to shave more even though Jesus had a beard in how many of the depictions of Jesus? Hell all the depictions of god?

    Does mascara really piss off god? What if it's a woman atheist he's talking to, are all atheists males who want to get laid to him? Is he using a separate word for female atheists?

  • Wow! I am wondering who deserves the -logical fallacy- Award BROCK, or SHOCK?

  • Brock L, my bad I thought you were talking about the UFC fighter. But it was Lesnar. My bad.

  • Well I know I'm not an atheist to get laid... I was celebate for three years..... I'm not now and it's great! :-)

  • You forgot the most common excuse; "The Devil made me do it."

    If they make a mistake, it's always part of a mythological battle, and not their own fault.

  • So he thinks that we think that if we pretend God does not exist, we will escape punishment? So I guess if you pretend the law and police and all that does not exist you can get away with any crime?

    Why the *bleep* would I think I could get away with offending an all knowing God by just pretending it does not exist? Only an insane crazy person would think that makes sense.

  • @Nails077 Umm... The police can be seen. The police bang down doors, shoot people, and issue tickets. God- as far as anyone can tell- never did a thing. Is it crazy to not believe in something that literally has yet to show its presence in our universe? even in the smallest of places? Your claim that its crazy not to believe in god is silly. How do you even know you are believing in the right god? the right sect of christianity? you use Pascal's wager, and its really silly.

  • @creepyoldman2 Ok so I agree with everything you say. Did you intend to respond to someone else or did you misunderstand my point?

  • @Nails077 If you say that you agree with me, then I misunderstood what you are getting at. If you meant a sarcastic tone- i apologize, I'm drunk.

  • @creepyoldman2 No problem, it happens

  • Here's a quote from a famous deist: "We were convinced that the people needs and requires this faith. We have therefore undertaken the fight against the atheistic movement, and that not merely with a few theoretical declarations: we have stamped it out." A. Hitler 1933 speech

    That's why it's important to challenge deists such as TheAtheistAntidote publicly. You will probably not make much of an impact on him but he isn't the only one who will watch this. Thanks for making it.

  • Someone should put a laugh-track on Brocks videos.

  • Right, Brock, you got me! The only reason I don`t believe in God is because I`m trying to get layed tonight! Actually, Brock, I`m a VIRGIN! So obviously sex has nothing to do with the fact that I`m an Atheist. Gee, looks like you`re wrong, Brock. What a huge surprise. Not to mention there are kids who haven`t even reached puberty yet who don`t believe in God. What about them? Are they just too horny to believe in God? Or is it possible you`re just fucking stupid?

  • "-drop some of that post-modern stuff on him!" LMAO! Oh Brock, you`re such a cunt.

  • This dude should change his name to "TheChristianAnecdotes"

  • @JadedRockStar84 I know! He should be on Saturday Night Live! They could just have him do his videos live on stage in front of the audience like he would for YouTube. He sounds like he`s TRYING to do a satire! "-they`ve put all their rotten eggs in the same 'God-doesn`t-exist' basket" That`s how silly his ideas are! They sound like completely deliberate jokes! But he`s serious! And the best part is, he thinks people take him seriously! Hilarious!

  • Subscribed. Great vid.

  • God Cramps their style??? r u joking wtf kind of argument is that?

  • So why would you do so many videos making this guy more and more famous? You're a "package of assumptions". You poor tender, hurt, little boy with such a lot to say......but, I think that's it for me. Bye!

    p.s. You disapprove of what the Bilbe calls sin because it's an assault on the kind of man you are. Come to terms with it.

  • What is it with you guys and bum-fluff 'round your face? Of course! You talk shit. The general consensus from the adults 'round here, adivise that you wait 'til you grow-up before attempting a beard.

  • Based on the first minute and a half of this clip, "Brock" sounds like most xian debaters I've ever seen, heard, or read.

  • If I want to get laid, telling the girl that Im atheist is the least thing I want to do.

  • TheAtheistAntidote..... I can't even... LOL

  • What the fuck makes either of you think that by "debating" with each other online that you're actually accomplishing anything? Niether of you are going to convert anyone. Why don't you become a professor, or have some other occupation where you can be an intellectual and actually try to accomplish something of some substance? If you really think that by "debating" in youtube videos you can actually impact the world you are a fucking idiot. No one cares, stop pretending you're intelligent.

  • @tasteslikepuppies

    its actually because of many youtube videos that peopleve questioned their beliefs & promoted religious/atheist dialogue. Ive known a few thatve seen these & either helped change their views or helped them strengthen the arguments for their existing views. As to your comment "No one cares"... well the person who cares is the one taking time to watch the video, which leads to the questions as to why the fuck did you bother watching the video if you dont care? Ironic isnt it?

  • it's called trolling.

  • Brock is just a Bigot that burns atheists in effigy and then claims that we are evil... he is just a sad, sad little man that deserves pity more than anything...

  • Tool, I cannot tell you how relieved I was to see this (8 Part!) expose' on the "AtheistAntidote", a.k.a Brock Lawley!

    Thanks for taking the time and making the effort to counter his parade of well produced bullshit.

    5 stars and a sub out of gratitude.

  • I find the assumption that god would have apparently plastered his existence into the mind of everyone to be completely ridiculous. One way we could find out: raising a kid since birth without ever mentionning any religion to him or her and then check what his religion is. If he has no religion (which will logically be the case), then the argument is invalid.

  • There have been cases of children who've gone pretty much feral due to isolation. One case I saw a short clip about showed a young girl on all fours and barking. I sincerely doubt she was barking about "God".

  • what I said didn't really imply that you need the child to be isolated from any human contact, just that religion never gets mentionned. Of course, complete isolatoin would mean there's virtually no error in the ''experiment'' but there's obviously ethical problems with that...

  • I never meant to imply such a cruelty be used in any experiment, I merely wanted to point out that, in a sense, the isolation experiment you propose has already been run.

    Here's a documentary (although not the one I was familiar with and referring to) about feral children: youtube . com/watch?v=IRRLvsg9cXA

    It's both intriguing and scary to contemplate what the typical fundamental Christian's take on these children would be.. sadly, my guess is most would immediately posit demonic possession.

  • I didn't know such an expiriment had already been done, thx for the info.

    In any case, I think we both understand what the other meant on the matter, correct?

  • Well of course this guy plagiarises. After all he follows a religion that has plagiarised most of it's ideas and holidays.

  • @DeeDemonwitch You've been sucking on too much 'zeitgeisty' youtube. You're not supposed to swallow.

  • @MandoMohan Oh, so all Christian ideas and holy days are completely original are they? The Christian religion has not taken a single idea from any other religion that came before it? I don't need youtube to tell me about the solstices and equinoxes. People have always taken ideas from one place and used them as their own.

  • Is it just me, or did Brock blatantly rip off Green Lantern and Synestro for his 'characters' in the comic of his? (Isn't that violating the commandment "Thou shalt no steal"?)

  • Mascara?!

    Do you think Brock's father is embarrassed that he wears that hat?

    I dunno, just a thought.

  • Is everyone sure that Athiest antidote isn't joking? Cuz it would be hilarious if he was playing a role. His material is really funny.

  • Wow. Brock of Shit has awfully low standards as far as winning debates is concerned. He doesn't need facts or evidence or logic...in his mind (and I use the term loosely), if he has pissed you off, he's won.

  • TAA sounds so bloody arrogant!  I really hope his is just a bad prank.

  • I wonder if that guy is really for real.

  • Jesus: "I am the way, the truth and the life."

    Brock: "Brush your teeth and shave your beard, hippy!"

    Jesus: "Okay..."

  • So this guy thinks all Atheist wear black eye make up. hahaha. That is his way of calling us names.

  • 9:33 actually he is almost right there.

    There may exist quite a lot of atheists with similar beliefs.

    I mean, in addition to not believing in God, the people going to his channel have lots of other cultural influences that could also influence their "world views".

    Nobody exists in a vacuum.

    What's cool is the world view of a christian and an atheist are rarely much different, once u ignore sex and god belief.

  • The fact that many outpsoken atheists agree with each other on many points isn't because of some doctrine of Atheism that requires these beliefs of adherents, it is because the thought processes that lead many people to atheism also lead to other similar understandings.

    In truth, atheists often disagree on a great many things, and there are also people out there who are atheists for really quite bad reasons who may not agree even on almost anything with other atheists.

  • antidote to good reason.

  • Brock looks like he is wearing eyeliner in his video.

  • i think we have a new venomfangx

  • Adventfred, that's exactly what I was thinking. I see many smug pricks trying to take over VenomFangX's throne, and Brock seems to be the rightful heir to that throne because he shares many of the same characteristics with VenomFangX - namely irrationality, bigotry, hubris, and sanctimony.

  • We should call him venomfangZ lol

  • @Adventfred

    No, that title was passed to Geerup, who now runs the venomfangx channel...that dude is so friggin nuts its almost not even funny. but for a good laugh check you geerups video entitled Atheist Parasites...utter ridiculousness

  • Oh no a bunch of venomfangx's and Z's running around on yutube

  • Isn't this stuff from the same man who says he doesn't insult atheists? I guess calling all atheists liars who only act the way they do in order to get laid isn't considered an insult to him.

    What an insane, sad man.

  • I have yet to see a male atheist wearing eyeliner...

  • Strawmanantidote shouldnt be so jealous. My ability to see that invisible men in the sky and rewritten Jewish history are both false coupled with my ability to rock eyeliner only make picking up adorable art students who are mad at their dads a fraction easier... ;-)

  • TheStrawmanAnti- I mean TheAthiestAntidote looks like he has the eyebrows of the freakin' devils.

  • it's funny, he even plagiarizes the comic book bits in his intros... those are tracings from Green Lanterns comics.

  • It's Bible Man.

  • You have the workings of a fine beard... Take the time to trim and maintain it more properly and your facial hair shall send but the most devout of dissidents running...

    Even a bred warrior must be trained.

  • I agree... regardless of these videos Brock (being the roach he is) will not go away.

  • OMG. That guy is soo retarded is HILARIOUS! :D I hope he continues with his videos. I've been missing PCS, and his autistic dribble for a while now. More entertainment for us! :D

  • theatheistantidote is nothing more than red meat for conservative theists. nothing more, and nothing less.

  • I cannot believe how incredibly smug and full of shit this Atheistantidote is.

  • @Lpoolboy

    Me neither. I've met people like that in person and I normally don't debate them because they are not interested in true argumentation and sticking to those basic tenets. The "You know god exists" isn't a real assertion, it's an opinion and an annoying one that is pushy and presumptuous.

  • Exactly. Another annoying one is 'I hope you find out the truth before you die! You're not gonna like where you're going.'

    Just makes you wanna smack them in the face.

  • @Lpoolboy

    It's a scare tactic, and sometimes I wonder if it's a passive aggressive way of wishing ill on someone else. Not cool.

  • OH. MY. GOD.

    that guy is so full of himself AND so full of shit.

  • Your beard is made of mist and whispers o.O

  • I think everyone was right tooltime9901. You didn't have to waste your time with this one. I'm still glad you made this video.

    The only way he can retain that same arrogant smirk is to strawman atheists and never actually confront any of their arguments.

  • @FreePrometheus

    Tooltime is more patient than I am. But it gives budding skeptics more clue-batting against the usual logical fallacies fundies employ and does help the groundwork greatly.

  • Brock Lawley?

    More like Brock Lulzy.

  • Funky that the AA speaks of the truth of christianity without presenting it =p

  • I don't take Brock seriously, much in the same way I don't take Veritas seriously or TogetherForPeace seriously.

    Anyone who uses the term "atheist worldview" has already lost my interest. If you expect me to listen to your arguments, you need to do away with your preconceptions. I'm really rather bored with Christian "philosophers" who spend all their time trying to pigeonhole people who have never seen a reason to hold faith as a value.

  • so the whole country of sweden is populated by a bunch of guys with mascera? HAHAH this guy is so funny! where did u find him? antidote... lawl

  • Why is it that most Christian channels on youtube put more effort into their presentation then their actual content.....

  • Because they don't have content.

  • @xzenogear1984

    It's a conscious, or subconcious effort to hide the fact that they're superficial.

    What I find most amusing about Brock's presentation is that he adopts a comic book style, yet I cannot think of a single popular comic that isn't highly critical of his method of thinking.

  • The problem with Brock is that he is literally making statements without even attempting to back them up with any supporting facts. It's just mindless waffle.

  • The video stops playing for me at 06:54. Anyone else experiencing this?

  • AtheistAntidote is a fucking troll, Peter. Stop talking to this douchebag.

  • "brush your teeth, shave your beard, wipe that eye-liner off your face that embarrasses your father, and find another way to pick up bitter girls."

    Is it just me or is there something telling that out of all the things Brock listed, it was wearing makeup that he chose to add the "that embarrasses your father" afterward? Why doesn't picking up bitter girls or bad breath embarrass my father, Brock? Why the eyeliner?

  • I also think its worth noting, and not just with Brock, that Christians seem to ALWAYS strawman atheists as being male.

    I mean, look at all the atheist villains in Brock's videos. They're all guys. What's with that?

  • Anyone else having a problem viewing the whole video? I can only get about halfway through before the video freezes eventhough the loader bar is full. Tried refreshing and other videos work just fine so I'm not sure what's wrong.

  • What a brain dumbing dingbat. Thanks for the pointer to this mongol. I'll visit this jack-off's site and poke some fun at him.

    StrawmanAntidote- ha ha. Love that!

  • Awesome! Thanks for the song mention.

  • Wow tooltime, how do you find these lunatics

  • lulz, did you see the video Brock posted as a response to this?

  • I watched it until 3:55... then I had to stop. How can one person be so full of crap?

  • (@ brutus149 that was)

  • I recently met a young woman from the south, I found pretending to believe in Jesus made her vagina much more accessible.

  • HAHAHAHA I love how he attacks people with beards? What a fucking douche

  • That dude kind of looks like Mike Birbiglia to me.

  • I am a Christian and I have disliked Brock for some time. I one-star almost every video of his. I just cant stand him.

  • @longhornman99001 haha your a christian

  • christian schools= loosest women of all time.

  • lol the intro reminds me of the bullshit added to the front of origin of species by ray comfort and kirk cameron... it's useless and pointless, just show him where he's wrong, and leave him i the gutter.

  • Brock seems to me like nothing more than a troll.

  • 945♥5

  • I must say he's quite a hilarious individual.

  • at 7:10 that fucking homo is wearing makeup

  • I see what you mean, like he said atheist believe matter came from nothing and what not... Not to mention HE FAILED TO PROVE MATTER CAME FROM NOTHING!!! He just scoffed at it, didn't provide one shred of evidence to the contrary. Didn't even quote the conversation principle like most theists do when attempting to disprove this straw man argument.

  • Did he just use Hal Jordan and Sinestro as to portray evil Atheists!? That fucker.

  • brock can eat shit and die.

  • So according to AA the reason we all got offended at 9/11 is because Islam is true and the terrorists are up in heaven raping their 72 virgins. What logic.

  • His argument about wanting to "pretend" to be an atheist to pick up chicks could easily apply to Christians too. I have a religious "friend" who meets women all the time at church functions. It's like an exclusive little circle; he can weed out the bad seeds who don't share his beliefs. Groups of young Christians seem to be very keen to build their lifestyle around the church, so I don't see where he gets off criticizing atheists for this tendency, which is inaccurate anyway.

  • This theatheistantidote is just offensive. I can't even listen to guys like this.  Irrational fallacy pumping Christians.

  • 5:25 - 5:40

    Man, talk about projection!!!

  • I know I said earlier that I thought you wouldn't be doing any good addressing Brock, and while this might give him a slightly bigger audience, I think you're right to do it. At this point he deserves it, and it'll be good to have the record out there for that. I'm looking forward to this series Tooltime.

  • RAGE.

  • Hey brock, not all Atheists are men you know!!

  • I watched this Brock guy once and I don't need to again. You get nowhere arguing with a charlatan. In fact you just feed him. My guess is that the only people who watch him are atheists anyway. If you want to counter him, I think you do that best by ignoring him.

  • Brock is a joke. His videos should be laughed at and dismissed like VFX.

    He's not even worth our time.

  • He may be a Christian but damn his eyeliner and scruffy beard have a strangely homo-erotic quality. And his choice of spandex superheroes shows a definite latent tendency.

  • Indeed.

  • Good video, Brock is just a typical arrogant asshole, despite him being a christian or not.

    Was like an artpeice I saw, where the indlucded Jesus holding the US Consitution, and surrounded with many people, including the founding fathers and some great presidents.

    Buut many of these famous people have written allot of negative things about religion and christianity. But thats the typical "USA founded in Judeo-Christian morality" or how that now goes.

  • Brock is a dumbass. I have taken speech twice and if you make a statement like "Christianity provides and open door." you need to prove it with logos and sources to back it up, ethos.

  • You make some good points here.

    Some of my earlier videos were misguided and in bad taste.

    This does not escape me, although I dont know how this separates me from nearly every other user on YouTube. Trace the video bread crumbs of any user and youre sure to find folly.

    Needless to say, you are being quite loose with your accusations, however, this is a first-class production video and has succeeded in giving me perspective.

  • Strangely tooltime I have addressed you in debate and you never reply after the preliminary video. I have been looking forward to your promised rejoinder addressing the admitted hypocrisy found in much of the new atheist movement. I have waited in vain to find this series veer its head instead. Nonetheless, I would like to address it once you are done.

    Brock

  • "hypocrisy found in much of the new atheist movement."

    Brock, please consider this.

    I'm an atheist. Two of my friends are atheists. None of us have ever heard of a "new atheist movement", let alone an old one.

    To address atheists as a collective under a banner of anything other than lack of belief in God is to fail at addressing atheists.

  • @TheAtheistAntidote

    Atheism is a vaccuous leap of faith?

    So religious faith doesn't require faith but secular scientific fact does?

    Have any proof whatsoever?

  • yep, totally agree with you, the antidote is a moron, I can't even wrap my head around how stupid he is

  • Brock LOLley! He speaks, we laugh.

  • Oh, also, great video. And Brock already engaged in a discussion/debate with "DasAmericanAtheist."

  • Yea I was gonna say, "don't waste your time with that clown, Brock." He doesn't care, and he won't respond unless he thinks it will get him some ratings.

  • AA's eyes always look too close together to me. I'm I crazy?

  • he looks like a full grown version of VFX

  • Check out his page, reckons he used to be a model, explains the shaped eyebrows :P

  • I think Brock brushed off that eyeliner in his life.

  • It's all about perspective. Those of us who have converted to atheism have a wider platform to view the facts from.  Theatheistantidote has obviously been Christian his whole life, and thus his perspective narrows his views. How can one claim the better perspective when they have no conflicting perspective to weigh against?

  • there's a certain uncomfortable, unintentional humour in the smug cretinous musings of people like TheAtheistAntidote. That vacuous smile and those greasy selfsatisfied mannerisms that he and VenX have that reminds me of a hyper-Tom Cruise. Can't help but think this type of douche is character type that Larry David or Ricky Gervais could use really well, if only they were a litle more believeable in and of themselves

  • What Brock does, I call it strawmangling.

    Strawmangle: When someone "strawmans" your argument to the extent that it becomes practically unrecognizable, the argument has been strawmangled.

  • @Bobbiethejean LOL, great term there

  • That guy is very high on my list of "most annoying people on Youtube" lol

  • That guy's a smug wanker

  • great vid, keep up the good work

  • Freaking awesome video. Totally psyched for this video series.

  • Man, just when you thought nobody could possibly be more obnoxious than venomfangX was, this guy comes along. Where I think Shaun just sort of distanced himself from other people in order to protect his views, Brock seems to just totally live in a world devoid of anyone but himself, that's the impression I get anyway. It's obvious at any rate that he's only interested in convincing himself, and his videos are an outward expression of this inner struggle for the dominance of his own mind.

  • This ought to be good too!

  • I've only seen a hand full of his videos and they were enough to disgust me to the point of never watching his videos again.

    It's not because I'm an Atheist and he's a Theist, it's not even because he's a Christian, it's because he's an ignorant buffoon who like some Theists can't argue the points at hand. He's dishonest and quite frankly an embarrassment to his faith.

  • Good! We have a hard hitting adversary! We needed one since Yokeup has gone to seed at least a year to go

  • I've seen more Christians with makeup on than Atheists. VFX dressed like the Joker comes to mind...

  • what a mascara wearing braindead moron.

    what a slimey douchebag

  • I hate it when people try to complicate atheism or say it's a religion and has a specific agenda. >:| RAGE!!!!

  • atheism has an agenda? HOLY SHIT!

  • DAMN! you didn't get the latest memo?!?! =o)

  • Hey Peter, thanks for including my footage in your video. As a person that I admire, I find that to be a true compliment. Respect bro. Respect.

  • Wow.....great start, I can't wait to see the rest.

  • Does the video stop at 6:54 for anybody else? I've tried watching this twice now and it's done that both times.

  • Yeah, same.

  • Great video man, my main objection is that you kept saying what he'd think, never attempt that, it always ends badly.

  • brock lawley makes me lol... what an idiot he is...

  • true. I just hear "duh" alot from him and whenever he says he's not going to hell because he believes in god, I can probably swap that with "I'm special!"

  • Send Brock to Sweden. We have free health care and he'll be institutionalized in a sec.

  • How has this Brock fuckwit made it this far in life without getting his face smashed in by even theists. This is one thing that drove me away from the church, the air of