What self-harm has done to me

[AngelicaHuston]

the first part of this video is the same as me i first did it when i was 13 and i have only just started seeing a counsellor now at 18 because i told mum and dad and i knew i was getting worse and know i need help

[nelliesixx]

I promised myself I'd never do it, but I guess I lied. The last two times I tried to stop I relapsed. This is round 3 and I'm more determined then ever. It's only been a week, and I know I still have a long way to go.

[caygirl13]

I got arid of all my sharp objects at school,home...anywhere I went...or I would avoid things like that...it still didnt stop me... Its sad about what it does to you...

[RadioAKTiveJerkin]

August 30th... My birthday... August 30th 2007... The day i started cutting

[recoveredcutter]

@RadioAKTiveJerkin i'm sorry to hear that. what made you start cutting?

[AkkefiaXBakku]

You reallya re right about that the first cut will change you "life"...

I made my first cut when I was 11 (I'm 13, sometimes I do cut...:/ ), before that, I was like most(?) girls are; Happy, A littel crazy, loved by her "family"

But now that shit is gone. Now I see everything in a different way....

But your video gave me a little.... Hope? That there really are peple that are like me.... or well, understands why we are doing it....

Thanks for this video, I understand you... in some ways

[raventhepoet]

I know what its like to relapse i was 7 years free but now have started to cut. Stay strong and hope things are better now.

[MusicHasMeAddicted]

i found it had to read your story

because its exactly like mine

except my mom found out by seeing the cuts

and talking to her about it was the hardest thing

because i was also scared of her reaction

im sorry you had to suffer

[recoveredcutter]

@MusicHasMeAddicted thank you, how did your mom handle it?

[MusicHasMeAddicted]

she freaked out

tried to force me to go to counselling

then said no

because she didnt want to pay

then she kinda just stopped talking too me

and so has my dad

yeh they werent exactly helpful, so i turned to my best friend

[recoveredcutter]

@MusicHasMeAddicted talking to a friend is always the best thing. they will seem more understanding then a parent

[MusicHasMeAddicted]

i know :]

it helped heaps

and if you ever need to talk

i'm here for you :D

[recoveredcutter]

@MusicHasMeAddicted thanks, and if ou need to talk feel free to message me

[MusicHasMeAddicted]

thanks :)

that means alot

xx

[thetruthishiding]

your story amazes me. i started SI at 12. im now 14. im alot better than i was in the middle of my 8th grade year. i still do it, but im working my way out of it. but this proves that even if your clean for over 2 yrs you can relapse at any time. i think that once you SI you spend your whole life in recovery.

[recoveredcutter]

that i agree with, i taked with a friend on myspace and she has a friend that went 4 years with out cutting and had relapse... hope you recovery soon *hugs*

[Misalanaious]

if you ever need to talk, i know what youre going through. congrats on going so long without giving in

the razor is as addictive as nicotine

[recoveredcutter]

that it is, i some times see myself turning back to it and it being worse

[Gnomeregan]

Nice vid, it's strange how familiar some of the things sound. Congrats on the 1 year and 6 months free, hold on, take care & stay strong, you can do this. It doesn't have to keep hurting, someday the scars will just be old memories.

[recoveredcutter]

yeah, but some memories still hurt

[Gnomeregan]

I know what you mean, no matter how many magic bio oil or vitamin e you rub into them - the scars don't fade, even after time; because you know it's there, the white lines, the ones that seem to stay pink/purple for an eternity.. *sigh* I can only hope time will ease that pain, the urges goes down and we will recover (I'll say a pryer for that if noone minds).

Someday it will just be part of the distant past, maybe you should consider getting some help so those memories don't return?

[FallingxGold]

Congratulations on recovering on your own; I know it isn't easy even when you do have help.

I was in one of those hospitals. Maybe they help some, but in truth they make many others worse; there is no help, only judgement.

Good job again, and stay strong.

[LoserPunkQueen]

Great Video.And im so sorry you like many others had to suffer. I'm really proud of you that you tried stopping. =]