Reason why I thought self harm was going to solve anything was because, well, at first i don't remember, it was just, something i did naturally. then i realized that i was only doing it because the i thought it would distract me from my emotional pain. once i realized i wanted to stop, i just couldn't. I keep promising people I'll stop and every time i do it (and still doing it), i send a pic with the caption, "I'm sorry." to my best friend.. i lie to everyone else bout it, but not her.
I started self-harm when I was 12 and recently my family, friends and school knows and my mum won't let me near anything sharp, she took my blades, knifes and lighter away from me so I haven't been able to self-harm in 3 months and I just can't cope with it, ive tried to kill myself many times and I've ended up in hospital so I really need help. I really wish that I watched this video before I started self harming because its completely ruined my life.
I've been self injuring for 15 years, cutting for 9 years, and still have no intention of stopping. Don't want to stop, and have not thought about stopping.
When I was younger, I desperately wanted to after a while, but went out of that stage, into an acceptance of it....To put it simply - a love....
*Shrugs*
I went in, and left the 'Wanting to, but can't' and accept it as what it is, and not wanting to stop.
I just want to say that this video is what stopped me from starting cutting. I'd scratched (pretty badly, but never bled) for almost a year, and was thinking seriously about moving on to cutting. What you said that you started out thinking you'd only cut in one area, it hit me hard, because that's exactly what I'd been thinking. Thank you for saving me from what would have been a horrible addiction. I've been clean from scratching for two months now. :)
i self harmed once because i split up with my gf for a few days, thats all it took, one tiny scar. now i get in so much shit, people get dissapointed in me because i cut again, changing for pe is the worst because EVERYONE can see, and all the chavs feel it neccessary to comment on them, i tried to stop by throwing away compasses, sharpners and rulers and stuff, my maths teacher gives me detentions for being ill equipt. if you think you want to start, dont do it!!!!
@dennalilly You OBVOIUSLY didn't read the full comment. I self harm to and I was stating how I hate those comments... And I LOVE Lauras videos they are a great help and she is an enchanting person for posting them for the help. Everyone who self harms hates it. Ho back and read the full comment, please. Don't jump to conclusions :P x
One of the worst parts of self-harm is that once you really get into it, it BLINDS you to the fact that you're hurting the people that care about you. But when you're so deep in that pit, you can't see over the edges. So when you don't see the harm to others, it reinforces the thought that it's okay. Hence a vicious cycle. If that makes sense.
That was the worst mistake I made. I was going to cut my thigh and I thought about how I wouldn't be able to go swimming or wear shorts or skirts but I didn't care so I cut anyway. Now it's full of scars and I hate it. I want to go swimming so badly.
I really admire yu for being able to put all your videos on here..it was hard for me to even confess to my best friend, i cant even imagine how brave you have to be to put it out there to everyone like you do :) <3 your videos have really helped me. Im 4 months clean now :)
I dont know if you still vomment or anything. But i work at a resteraunt. My arms have alot of cuts and scars... I always where a longsleeve under my work shirt to cover them.
Ive self harmed since I was 12 i'm 15 now. I used to regret it but I dont anymore I mean, if I hadnt done it I wouldnt be who I am today. Im thankful that I decided to use SH as my way of coping because its made me a stronger person, and to me I feel as though my scars are a part of me now.
But I look at people who still cut and I feel so bad for them, they dont deserve the horrible scars they dont deserve to feel so bad that they feel they should cut
Seems to me like critics of self-injury miss the perverse beauty of cutting. The self induced injury itself is not often dangerous or shocking. It's the underlying reasons for cutting that should shock and terrify and enrapture the attention of observers as well as engender their sympathies.
What started my cutting is, I've been bullied about half my life and I couldn't take it! And my friend does it. When I found out what it was I was disappointed in her. Now I'm disappointed in myself. Hers SH gave me the idea to do it myself. And I regret the one night I snapped and did it sooo very much!
1st of all.. I love your accent and your hair. Pretty badass. xD
2nd of all.. I remember when I first started cutting.. really opened my eyes to the world.. prior to cutting, I thought self harmers were a bunch of idiotic fags who deserved to die.. now I really really regret thinking that. I understand em.
3rd of all.. You got some courage posting this stuff on here.. but i'm glad you did.
awwwhhh i still remember the first time i cut and i regret it more than everything cos i scar really easily so ive got disgusting arms hips and feet. i would never recomend it cos now ive started i cant stop when i started its cos i was depressed like severely where as now i still am depressed but do it for the addiction more than actually feeling something like you say dont start and stuff were proof it can get addicting!! your so inspirational laura <3 xx
@wisconsincountrygal i always get a horrible feeling in my stomach when i get a notification that somebody's commented on this videos because it's usually hate, so thankyou for being nice! :)
In all honesty, this whole cutting thing is stupid. you open doors to scar tissue build up which is a whole nother' ball game, infection, accidental exsanguination, they pose all these unnecessary threats or risk towards you health short term and long term. and you people always pose the argument we say this because we havent been through it, but you dont have to go through it to see people around you doing it and see it solves nothing.
@TheForrbidenFruit anyone can state the obvious, even you! congrats on that!..
nobody said that it was a good thing, and clearly i'm telling people not to do it.
but to call self harm 'stupid' just makes people feel worse, so instead of bitching about it why not just be a little more sympathetic instead of putting people down.
@Downtownpatrol I never said you were telling people to do it? and self harm is stupid, the very words speak for them self. im not bitching, im sating my opinion about the idea and the facts of what can come from it. and lol no ones putting anyone down, im putting the idea of self harm down. try harder D;
@Downtownpatrol haha! I think you have great come backs to these "oh so lovely" comments! Lol! But seriously it annoys the hell out if me when people post comments like these. If they new the slightest about self harm, then I would probably understand... But from the way they say it, it can hurt peoples feeling. And thats not something you do to people (especially when the video is aimed at emotional people who feel the need to do this) :L <3
Self harm is stupid. Thumbs up if you agr... W w wait! What am I doing?! (rhetorical Q!) i am saying that people who leave comments like these have no idea why people self harm. It can be to cope, cause of depression etc. It is a horrible thing. Laura makes these videos to help others. Not for people to leave hate comments which don't help, or put people down. Now you can thumbs up if you agree with THAT!! :) mwaha
@Tybarlow18 Please don't say that self-harm is 'stupid'. That's very insulting. We who self-harm understand that is an illogical behavior. We don't need to be reminded of that, thank you very much.
things will get better i promise i'm like that although i have autism wich makes it worse youve been through alot of shit with him i'm sure you will make it through with him. you not lonely if you ever wanna talk im always here i swear whats ur skype ill add you:)xx
@batwings112009 i don't have anyone right now if i'm honest with you..
my anxiety got quite bad and i stopped seeing my friends over a year ago and i find it hard to talk to new people, me and my boyfriend aren't sure if we're good together anymore, things are changing :( he was all i had and now he's leaving
honestly? i'm an extremely lonely person.
i don't talk at college, only time i actually open my mouth to speak is in videos.
making videos makes me happy :) but that's really sad!
I Never Thought I Would Get BAd Either And Then One Day I Found Myself Trying To Kill Myself And Sitting In School With A Pair Of Scissors And Burning My Self With Lighters
i never thought id touch me legs, i never thought id cut deep. but it happend. Ive gone further than cutting too. Threw myself in front of a car just to get hurt, when i was unscathed i took an overdose and was very sick.
i got a little depressed, so I scratched my skin with a needle till it bled...now Im getting into worse stuff...its getting addictive...and i don't know what to do!
I am so glad that I've found some one EXACTLY like me...I started with a compass, then got to scissors and then a razor blade and I only do it now for the blood a compass hurt way more than the blade and yet now i use the blade...I find it's an addiction now and I can't stop no matter how hard I try :// The longest I've gone without it is about a month and I even got rid of all my blades but it's just always on my mind :/ Thumb this up so she can see please? <3<3
I wish I saw this video before I cut for the first time.. I still see my cuts and hate it, but I still do it. and my parents found out this year. after a full year of self harm. I sent this video to my friends...
@s16penser you should cover your cuts up, if you want to show old scars then thats up to you but there's not really an excuse to be walking around showing cuts off.
and you shouldn't keep it a secret :P tell them x
:50 look at the black thing behind her o-o was that a ghost (i know video was important but i just noticed it when she was speaking it distacted me xD)
I'm glad there are some people who want to help. If it wasn't for people like this I would have never realized what could happen to me. My strong family and friends are what have kept the minimally scarred and beautiful person I am today
Selfharm isnt easy to stop with.. but as long as you staystrong anything is possible! Look at me.. ive been cutting for years.. and i stopped with help of some friends and ofcourse my rolemodel demi lovato! don´t be afraid to speak up! and if you feel alone.. message one of us.. cuz we will be there for you <3
you are all beautiful.. Right Laura? Everybody is having a good reason to live
You´re so sexy :o your hear and you´re eyes :o wodamn i would get drawing in them... sounds really weird cuz imma girl :p but im just telling you what i think
@Downtownpatrol i relate to what you been going thru except i used heroin to deal with my emotions as opposed to cutting, still kinda the same considering i was stabbing myself with a needle everyday lol.
@9fuckOfEmo9 haha, taa, na pewno. Dla twojej informacji, wiem o co chodzi bo przeczytałam całą tą "konwersacje". Naucz się angielskiego debilu, bo aż mi się chce śmiać jak widze te twoje żałosne komentarze.
@KassuaZybus phahaha. chyba to kurwo do siebie kierujesz i get a life. bo najwyrazniej nie cala . szkida ze ci wypierdolic w ryj teraz nie moge wogule ile ty dziecko masz lat 14.?
I'm in to deep a few friends now two out of three keep helpin and trying to get me to go get help the other one tells me what could happen if I cut to deep I have 12 on my wrist from the past 3 days
I'm trying to control how much I self harm each time; no more than two wounds per day. But I know that sooner or later I'll be too addicted to limit the number of cuts. And then there'll be no turning back.
So I wanna stop. Just stop before I cross the line...
Cutting - or ocassionaly burning - helps me think and calm down when my emotions get out of hand. I'm not the sort of person who'll cry or get really angry often. But at the rare times I feel like I'm about to snap either to one side or the other, I just have to feel the pain...
@Downtownpatrol scars hurt. because your looking at them and you hate yourself for every single moment when u did it. and why u did it. you ve hurted yourself . and now you know how stiupid it was.
@9fuckOfEmo3 if anything, i feel proud when i look at my scars because self harm was something i was able to overcome and it's a thing of the past. they show a journey, a huge part of my life that's no longer there.
i certainly don't hate myself because i have scars, they make me realize how strong of a person i've become.
@Downtownpatrol people who are self harming because they need it not to show how hard or emo they are do it because they suffer and cant cope with everything inside of them they are doing it when they are on the edge of breakdown. and every look at scars reminds them of how hurt they have been.
@9fuckOfEmo3 oh my fucking god. I AM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. ugh, i was completely ashamed but now i a proud!!!! there's no point in crying about something you done to yourself, get over it and stop winging. the scars are there, now you have to learn to deal with them
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it took me 4 years. but stop acting like 'wah wah poor cutters'
no! think...we can do this, we CAN get through this. winging gets you nowhere in life so stop being so negative on my video, i'm here to support recovery.
@Downtownpatrol now your swearing like 'RAGING BITCH' and thats what im talking about stop shitting how proud u are because it takes shit loads of time to deal with your head.! and some people can take it in that way aswell .. ' IM GONNA CUT TO LEARN HOW TO CONTROL MY BODY AND OVERCOME PAIN' stop saying something like that because NOBODY is proud of fact that he might now can say that he overcame pain but true iis he couldnt cope withy his mind!
ahh, this reminds me o me, im fifteen and i have alot of selfharm scars, deeper ones on my legs because i always thought that i could hide it, i have only been swimming once since then, but someone noticed and i was lucky to be able to divert attension, its very noticable. i have almost invisible scars up my arm, but i notice them every day :/
i turned to drugs
i'll be the first to admit that it was a mistake, yet every few months i give up and go into deep depression, not good :(
i wish all the time tht i could go back and tell myself when i was yunger to not do it.tht i never made tht first cut.i cant stop now its gotten to the piont tht ive tried to stop multiple time but my body physically starts to hurt i cant see strate and my head hurts and im scratching myself in my sleep and its scary and hurts and i wanna stop but its so hard.just dont do tht first cut ull regret it later i cant stop i dont think i ever will be able to i dont remeber not cuting just dont do it
Sometimes i wish i could go back to my younger self and tell myself it wasnt woth it to chuck the razor away and not to think about it ever again because cutting is my biggest habbet
Only God's love can fill that emptiness. That's how He made us. We need Him. It is truth no matter whether you believe it or not. Just ask God to come to your life, help you, rescue you and show the meaning and purpose for your life. Then your life will be full of joy and you will be able to really enjoy every minute of it. He really cares for each of us. Each scar you have is not only on the skin but in your heart. And God is the only one who can heal those. God bless you and keep you safe!
To all. We have desires in our heart that no one can fulfill only God. We can't find satisfaction in education, career, friendship, romantic or sexual relationships, marriage, kids, money, etc. There's always something missing no matter how successful we are even when everything seems ok.
I just wanna say self harm is hard and i have to say plz anyone just remember that it leaves scars!!! I have scars all over my left arm...... anyway i hope that this video stops ppl starting to cut or self harm. Im sorry to say that im self harmer and i wish i had never started and it is hard to stop.
Yeah, I'm the same. I thought I'd be fine as the cuts didn't scar and I mainly did it for the pain at the start. But about 3 weeks along they started to scar but by then I couldn't stop. It's really weird though 'cos before I started just a little graze would hurt like hell but now a kind of deep cut that bleeds for about 15-20 mins doesn't even hurt the slightest. It's like it's not even there until you clean it xD That stings like hell (I mainly cut 4 blood now) I don't like pain at all. XP
i cut but there just small little marks on my forearm and they only bleed little pecks cuz i just started and i only cut when im mad or depressed or something .
Hi! I spoke to you a while ago about self harming. I actually did tell my teacher and he says that I've solved half the problem because I've told somebody. He says that he's going to tell my mum soon, which I'm nervous about but he says that I'm a wise girl and I shouldn't be worried by the way, your videos helped me a lot. xx
I just started about a week ago, I don't want to stop...I was born with good self-control, I guess I could if I wanted to. It's not like I can't live without it, the pain in just kind of a good kind of pain? Either way, it works in getting my emotional pain out.
I'm 12 and I cut myself. I actually do it as I pray because of all the bad things I do in the day. I also bite myself very hard to make myself bleed. I just feel so upset and alone... Is it strange, that the only person that I would talk to about this would be my Technology teacher? Should I talk to him? I'm just scared that he wouldn't listen.... xx
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Reason why I thought self harm was going to solve anything was because, well, at first i don't remember, it was just, something i did naturally. then i realized that i was only doing it because the i thought it would distract me from my emotional pain. once i realized i wanted to stop, i just couldn't. I keep promising people I'll stop and every time i do it (and still doing it), i send a pic with the caption, "I'm sorry." to my best friend.. i lie to everyone else bout it, but not her.
kyLewiLsOn1351 4 weeks ago
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kyLewiLsOn1351 4 weeks ago
Does your fam/friends know you cut?
XoXoMidoXoXo 1 month ago in playlist More videos from Downtownpatrol
@XoXoMidoXoXo yep
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago
My friend, age 12, has cut herself on her arm and both legs...She can't stop what should she do?
LoverGirlLoveAway101 1 month ago
@LoverGirlLoveAway101 not something you can control, just be there for her
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago
I started self-harm when I was 12 and recently my family, friends and school knows and my mum won't let me near anything sharp, she took my blades, knifes and lighter away from me so I haven't been able to self-harm in 3 months and I just can't cope with it, ive tried to kill myself many times and I've ended up in hospital so I really need help. I really wish that I watched this video before I started self harming because its completely ruined my life.
DjFlameTolox 1 month ago
I agree with this, hon...
Though, I suppose I'm different in my thinking..
I've been self injuring for 15 years, cutting for 9 years, and still have no intention of stopping. Don't want to stop, and have not thought about stopping.
When I was younger, I desperately wanted to after a while, but went out of that stage, into an acceptance of it....To put it simply - a love....
*Shrugs*
I went in, and left the 'Wanting to, but can't' and accept it as what it is, and not wanting to stop.
RhayvenBlood 1 month ago
I just want to say that this video is what stopped me from starting cutting. I'd scratched (pretty badly, but never bled) for almost a year, and was thinking seriously about moving on to cutting. What you said that you started out thinking you'd only cut in one area, it hit me hard, because that's exactly what I'd been thinking. Thank you for saving me from what would have been a horrible addiction. I've been clean from scratching for two months now. :)
americanidolgal 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos
I cut myself for the first time today :(
unixmanagement 1 month ago
@unixmanagement You shouldn't ): I feel as if, every time i make a cut, I'm letting someone down.. </3
kyLewiLsOn1351 4 weeks ago
i self harmed once because i split up with my gf for a few days, thats all it took, one tiny scar. now i get in so much shit, people get dissapointed in me because i cut again, changing for pe is the worst because EVERYONE can see, and all the chavs feel it neccessary to comment on them, i tried to stop by throwing away compasses, sharpners and rulers and stuff, my maths teacher gives me detentions for being ill equipt. if you think you want to start, dont do it!!!!
avv3s0m3 1 month ago
@dennalilly You OBVOIUSLY didn't read the full comment. I self harm to and I was stating how I hate those comments... And I LOVE Lauras videos they are a great help and she is an enchanting person for posting them for the help. Everyone who self harms hates it. Ho back and read the full comment, please. Don't jump to conclusions :P x
Tybarlow18 1 month ago
Are you Irish or Scottish? I love your accent. :D
XBitingxxxThexxxSkyX 1 month ago
@XBitingxxxThexxxSkyX neither, i'm english! thanks
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago 4
@Downtownpatrol leeds?
TheImmortalityFilms 1 month ago
i use foundation to cover my scars.
evilxokitty 1 month ago
One of the worst parts of self-harm is that once you really get into it, it BLINDS you to the fact that you're hurting the people that care about you. But when you're so deep in that pit, you can't see over the edges. So when you don't see the harm to others, it reinforces the thought that it's okay. Hence a vicious cycle. If that makes sense.
dennalilly 1 month ago in playlist Uploaded videos 3
@dennalilly makes perfect sense x
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago
yeah I know about the long sleeves
If you wear them it the heat
It can make you sick
It's happened to me
xxvampireyukkixx 1 month ago
YOUR SO SO SO SO PRETTY
officertoucher 1 month ago
@officertoucher thank you :)
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago
You really opened my eyes thank you so much.! I regret cutting myself! it gets addicting!
zCherishLovesYouz 1 month ago
That was the worst mistake I made. I was going to cut my thigh and I thought about how I wouldn't be able to go swimming or wear shorts or skirts but I didn't care so I cut anyway. Now it's full of scars and I hate it. I want to go swimming so badly.
lexinicole015 2 months ago
i cut like last month, not even deeply and ive got 3 bright scars on my arm. I regret it, and bio oil isnt working!
HaNNahIzAUnic0rN 2 months ago
@HaNNahIzAUnic0rN don't have regrets, it's pointless
bio oil takes at least 3 months to work if you apply it twice daily
try lemon juice instead, it's a natural lightener and will remove the colour from your scars.
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
@Downtownpatrol but my arms are quite tanned, will the lemon juice make them whiter?
HaNNahIzAUnic0rN 2 months ago
@Downtownpatrol
hahahha you just trolled him way to go!!!
lemon juice is a genius way to troll a cutter xDDD
IronXXXMaiden1 1 month ago
@IronXXXMaiden1 no actually, i was being serious. lemon juice lightens scars.
'trolling' is for low lives and nobody in the right mind would make fun of self harm
Downtownpatrol 1 month ago 5
I really admire yu for being able to put all your videos on here..it was hard for me to even confess to my best friend, i cant even imagine how brave you have to be to put it out there to everyone like you do :) <3 your videos have really helped me. Im 4 months clean now :)
caryssafuggingrox 2 months ago
@caryssafuggingrox It's actually a lot easier to tell YouTube than people in real life!
I don't care about the opinions of strangers, just the people that i'm close to.
It's much braver to talk to a person about it, and well done on the 4 months! :) x
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
I dont know if you still vomment or anything. But i work at a resteraunt. My arms have alot of cuts and scars... I always where a longsleeve under my work shirt to cover them.
scooterairsoft 2 months ago
@scooterairsoft good idea :)
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
Ive self harmed since I was 12 i'm 15 now. I used to regret it but I dont anymore I mean, if I hadnt done it I wouldnt be who I am today. Im thankful that I decided to use SH as my way of coping because its made me a stronger person, and to me I feel as though my scars are a part of me now.
But I look at people who still cut and I feel so bad for them, they dont deserve the horrible scars they dont deserve to feel so bad that they feel they should cut
So thankyou, you inspired me to help them<3
EmmerrrKilledBunnyy 2 months ago in playlist More videos from Downtownpatrol
Seems to me like critics of self-injury miss the perverse beauty of cutting. The self induced injury itself is not often dangerous or shocking. It's the underlying reasons for cutting that should shock and terrify and enrapture the attention of observers as well as engender their sympathies.
Ieatutube 2 months ago
@Ieatutube i'm not a critic. and cutting is not beautiful.
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
What started my cutting is, I've been bullied about half my life and I couldn't take it! And my friend does it. When I found out what it was I was disappointed in her. Now I'm disappointed in myself. Hers SH gave me the idea to do it myself. And I regret the one night I snapped and did it sooo very much!
Yoshibear1998 2 months ago
1st of all.. I love your accent and your hair. Pretty badass. xD
2nd of all.. I remember when I first started cutting.. really opened my eyes to the world.. prior to cutting, I thought self harmers were a bunch of idiotic fags who deserved to die.. now I really really regret thinking that. I understand em.
3rd of all.. You got some courage posting this stuff on here.. but i'm glad you did.
iesaee 2 months ago
awwwhhh i still remember the first time i cut and i regret it more than everything cos i scar really easily so ive got disgusting arms hips and feet. i would never recomend it cos now ive started i cant stop when i started its cos i was depressed like severely where as now i still am depressed but do it for the addiction more than actually feeling something like you say dont start and stuff were proof it can get addicting!! your so inspirational laura <3 xx
emzyere12345 2 months ago
you're really brave for putting this on here. Thanks for putting this video up
wisconsincountrygal 2 months ago
@wisconsincountrygal i always get a horrible feeling in my stomach when i get a notification that somebody's commented on this videos because it's usually hate, so thankyou for being nice! :)
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago 3
@Downtownpatrol no prob, and i think it's cool that you're putting these vids up here i just subscribed to you
wisconsincountrygal 2 months ago
@cuttergirl100 haha thats fine ;)
Tybarlow18 2 months ago
whats the colour of your hair dye? i know my school wont let me but that didnt stop the purple dye..:D
Muezza25 2 months ago 3
@Muezza25 directions poppy red
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
thankyou so much this helped me alot
Alexismay13 2 months ago
In all honesty, this whole cutting thing is stupid. you open doors to scar tissue build up which is a whole nother' ball game, infection, accidental exsanguination, they pose all these unnecessary threats or risk towards you health short term and long term. and you people always pose the argument we say this because we havent been through it, but you dont have to go through it to see people around you doing it and see it solves nothing.
TheForrbidenFruit 2 months ago
@TheForrbidenFruit anyone can state the obvious, even you! congrats on that!..
nobody said that it was a good thing, and clearly i'm telling people not to do it.
but to call self harm 'stupid' just makes people feel worse, so instead of bitching about it why not just be a little more sympathetic instead of putting people down.
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago
@Downtownpatrol I never said you were telling people to do it? and self harm is stupid, the very words speak for them self. im not bitching, im sating my opinion about the idea and the facts of what can come from it. and lol no ones putting anyone down, im putting the idea of self harm down. try harder D;
TheForrbidenFruit 2 months ago
who the fuck disliked?
cuttergirl100 2 months ago
@Downtownpatrol haha! I think you have great come backs to these "oh so lovely" comments! Lol! But seriously it annoys the hell out if me when people post comments like these. If they new the slightest about self harm, then I would probably understand... But from the way they say it, it can hurt peoples feeling. And thats not something you do to people (especially when the video is aimed at emotional people who feel the need to do this) :L <3
Tybarlow18 2 months ago
Self harm is stupid. Thumbs up if you agr... W w wait! What am I doing?! (rhetorical Q!) i am saying that people who leave comments like these have no idea why people self harm. It can be to cope, cause of depression etc. It is a horrible thing. Laura makes these videos to help others. Not for people to leave hate comments which don't help, or put people down. Now you can thumbs up if you agree with THAT!! :) mwaha
Tybarlow18 2 months ago 13
@Tybarlow18 was getting myself ready to come at you there! haha
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago 4
@Tybarlow18 lol if you get a nasty inbox message sorry :[
cuttergirl100 2 months ago
@Tybarlow18 Please don't say that self-harm is 'stupid'. That's very insulting. We who self-harm understand that is an illogical behavior. We don't need to be reminded of that, thank you very much.
dennalilly 1 month ago
I love this video I can relate so much
heyDay23 2 months ago
I just needed to see SOME blood, no matter if it was mine or who-ever-the-hell else I hated.
PresidentSnow205 2 months ago
you inspire me, laura, you are amazing and beautiful(: best wishes
xElectricRaiinbowz 2 months ago
things will get better i promise i'm like that although i have autism wich makes it worse youve been through alot of shit with him i'm sure you will make it through with him. you not lonely if you ever wanna talk im always here i swear whats ur skype ill add you:)xx
batwings112009 2 months ago 2
ur soo lucky to have someone to love you xx
batwings112009 2 months ago
@batwings112009 i don't have anyone right now if i'm honest with you..
my anxiety got quite bad and i stopped seeing my friends over a year ago and i find it hard to talk to new people, me and my boyfriend aren't sure if we're good together anymore, things are changing :( he was all i had and now he's leaving
honestly? i'm an extremely lonely person.
i don't talk at college, only time i actually open my mouth to speak is in videos.
making videos makes me happy :) but that's really sad!
Downtownpatrol 2 months ago 3
I love your videos <3 If only I'd seen this one before I made my first cut.
TheSnappyv 2 months ago
I Never Thought I Would Get BAd Either And Then One Day I Found Myself Trying To Kill Myself And Sitting In School With A Pair Of Scissors And Burning My Self With Lighters
amberlover1000 3 months ago
Yu Really Convince To Stop But I Can Never Pull Myself To Stop!
amberlover1000 3 months ago
Heart
harrypotterfreaknerd 3 months ago
Thank you. You've kept me from cutting for at least now. I really appreciate it. -3
harrypotterfreaknerd 3 months ago
i never thought id touch me legs, i never thought id cut deep. but it happend. Ive gone further than cutting too. Threw myself in front of a car just to get hurt, when i was unscathed i took an overdose and was very sick.
LoveHugsAndKissesx 3 months ago
I really really relate to you. I love these videos. Im so glad u made them. Thankyou x
LoveHugsAndKissesx 3 months ago
i got a little depressed, so I scratched my skin with a needle till it bled...now Im getting into worse stuff...its getting addictive...and i don't know what to do!
Carlalikestosing 3 months ago
Do you mind if i ask what you use to cut now?
piggybank234 3 months ago
@piggybank234 yes, i do mind.
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 14
@piggybank234 and i don't cut anymore!!!!!
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 7
@Downtownpatrol Thats fantastic :) I am happy for you that you don't do it anymore :3 I wish it were easier though
piggybank234 3 months ago
Where and why was your first cut?
paperwhiterose 3 months ago
I am so glad that I've found some one EXACTLY like me...I started with a compass, then got to scissors and then a razor blade and I only do it now for the blood a compass hurt way more than the blade and yet now i use the blade...I find it's an addiction now and I can't stop no matter how hard I try :// The longest I've gone without it is about a month and I even got rid of all my blades but it's just always on my mind :/ Thumb this up so she can see please? <3<3
TwilightIsSoCoolxx 3 months ago 2
I wish I saw this video before I cut for the first time.. I still see my cuts and hate it, but I still do it. and my parents found out this year. after a full year of self harm. I sent this video to my friends...
j0rdandd1223 3 months ago
I cut for exactly one week, and the last time was 31 days ago...
I didn't, and still don't, feel like I NEED to cut...
i don't even know what i'm trying to say...
Wednesday13Lost 3 months ago
Question what kind of excuses can you tell your parents for cuts ? Ps love the hair...;)
s16penser 3 months ago 3
@s16penser you should cover your cuts up, if you want to show old scars then thats up to you but there's not really an excuse to be walking around showing cuts off.
and you shouldn't keep it a secret :P tell them x
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 4
@Downtownpatrol I tried to tell my parents about my cutting, and that I have a bipolar disorder, and they just laughed at me. =|
DrJetzy 2 months ago
you really help me but i didnt have the strength to stop yet my left arms full of scars and i also have some on my chest
ilove ur vids X3
robofreak21 3 months ago
:50 look at the black thing behind her o-o was that a ghost (i know video was important but i just noticed it when she was speaking it distacted me xD)
lawlessbeast 3 months ago
@lawlessbeast oh fuck that was scary xD
doodleorme 3 months ago
@doodleorme haha for some reason i pay attion to that kinda stuff xD
lawlessbeast 3 months ago
@lawlessbeast ahah, people like you are sort of awesome then xD
doodleorme 3 months ago
@doodleorme naaaah bro ima huge ass loser haha
lawlessbeast 3 months ago
@lawlessbeast not to me at least xD
doodleorme 3 months ago
@lawlessbeast t'was a car :)
senoraleigh 3 months ago
If you only have scars on your wrists then you can wear bracelets :)
Tygerlily179 3 months ago
I'm glad there are some people who want to help. If it wasn't for people like this I would have never realized what could happen to me. My strong family and friends are what have kept the minimally scarred and beautiful person I am today
amber233ify 3 months ago
@shorteejmtrecords thankyou :)
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
can i have ur phone #
J0HN1011 3 months ago
Thank you.
Shyanneily 3 months ago
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TinyMustaine 3 months ago
@TinyMustaine aw, how lovely of you to stop by and leave me such a lovely comment hun, you really didn't have to go to such an effort! mwah! <3 xoxo
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 32
@TinyMustaine wtf is wrong with u seriously
MegaHotie911 3 months ago
Selfharm isnt easy to stop with.. but as long as you staystrong anything is possible! Look at me.. ive been cutting for years.. and i stopped with help of some friends and ofcourse my rolemodel demi lovato! don´t be afraid to speak up! and if you feel alone.. message one of us.. cuz we will be there for you <3
you are all beautiful.. Right Laura? Everybody is having a good reason to live
#LoveIsLouderThanAnythingElse -Shanna-
5hAnNa17 3 months ago
@kushRo0ms by 'used to' i'm hoping that means you don't do it anymore? good for you x
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 5
Your accent, is G and your hair is awesome I agree with you tottaly in this
MoDeRnxWarfare2Roxx 3 months ago
@MoDeRnxWarfare2Roxx thanks a lot (:
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
You´re so sexy :o your hear and you´re eyes :o wodamn i would get drawing in them... sounds really weird cuz imma girl :p but im just telling you what i think
5hAnNa17 3 months ago
@5hAnNa17 haha, thanks! xD
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
ur hot :)
kushRo0ms 3 months ago 7
@kushRo0ms D:
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 4
@Downtownpatrol i relate to what you been going thru except i used heroin to deal with my emotions as opposed to cutting, still kinda the same considering i was stabbing myself with a needle everyday lol.
kushRo0ms 3 months ago
tits or gtfo
Hardspade55 3 months ago
@Hardspade55 gtfo it is then
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 2
@9fuckOfEmo9 haha, taa, na pewno. Dla twojej informacji, wiem o co chodzi bo przeczytałam całą tą "konwersacje". Naucz się angielskiego debilu, bo aż mi się chce śmiać jak widze te twoje żałosne komentarze.
KassuaZybus 3 months ago
@KassuaZybus phahaha. chyba to kurwo do siebie kierujesz i get a life. bo najwyrazniej nie cala . szkida ze ci wypierdolic w ryj teraz nie moge wogule ile ty dziecko masz lat 14.?
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 *o
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 jak masz jakiś problem, to wypierdalaj z tąd. Nikt cie nie zmusza do oglądania.
KassuaZybus 3 months ago
@KassuaZybus sama wypierdalaj krolewno. nie wiesz o co poszlo to stul ryj.
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@KassuaZybus thank you!
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
i just cut my entire arm......i honestly cant stop listen to her dont start because you cant stop
frostbite889 3 months ago
I'm in to deep a few friends now two out of three keep helpin and trying to get me to go get help the other one tells me what could happen if I cut to deep I have 12 on my wrist from the past 3 days
livelaughride1000 3 months ago
I'm trying to control how much I self harm each time; no more than two wounds per day. But I know that sooner or later I'll be too addicted to limit the number of cuts. And then there'll be no turning back.
So I wanna stop. Just stop before I cross the line...
KassuaZybus 3 months ago
Cutting - or ocassionaly burning - helps me think and calm down when my emotions get out of hand. I'm not the sort of person who'll cry or get really angry often. But at the rare times I feel like I'm about to snap either to one side or the other, I just have to feel the pain...
KassuaZybus 3 months ago
feel like u need to harm yourself.? GO FOR A FU CKING RUN.! it helps
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
yes, running helps. but there's no need to FUCKING SWEAR LIKE A RAGING BITCH! calm down dear
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago 24
@Downtownpatrol haha ok <3
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@Downtownpatrol trolololo just like you .
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 nice user name wow fuck off man i meen really
JaredPiper23 3 months ago
@JaredPiper23 i was thinking that too..
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
@JaredPiper23 dude this acconut is fucking old and go choke on your own dick.
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 + anyway on first place it was created just to diss someone .
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
self harm takes mental pain for 30 seconds ... scars hurt for much longer.
9fuckOfEmo3 4 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 scars don't hurt.
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
@Downtownpatrol scars hurt. because your looking at them and you hate yourself for every single moment when u did it. and why u did it. you ve hurted yourself . and now you know how stiupid it was.
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 if anything, i feel proud when i look at my scars because self harm was something i was able to overcome and it's a thing of the past. they show a journey, a huge part of my life that's no longer there.
i certainly don't hate myself because i have scars, they make me realize how strong of a person i've become.
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
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9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
Skomentuj ten film... aww + they are doing it in impulse .
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
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9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@Downtownpatrol people who are self harming because they need it not to show how hard or emo they are do it because they suffer and cant cope with everything inside of them they are doing it when they are on the edge of breakdown. and every look at scars reminds them of how hurt they have been.
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 oh my fucking god. I AM ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. ugh, i was completely ashamed but now i a proud!!!! there's no point in crying about something you done to yourself, get over it and stop winging. the scars are there, now you have to learn to deal with them
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it took me 4 years. but stop acting like 'wah wah poor cutters'
no! think...we can do this, we CAN get through this. winging gets you nowhere in life so stop being so negative on my video, i'm here to support recovery.
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
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9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
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9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
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@Downtownpatrol now your swearing like 'RAGING BITCH' and thats what im talking about stop shitting how proud u are because it takes shit loads of time to deal with your head.! and some people can take it in that way aswell .. ' IM GONNA CUT TO LEARN HOW TO CONTROL MY BODY AND OVERCOME PAIN' stop saying something like that because NOBODY is proud of fact that he might now can say that he overcame pain but true iis he couldnt cope withy his mind!
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
@9fuckOfEmo3 learn when to stop talking.
Downtownpatrol 3 months ago
@Downtownpatrol maybe u should.
9fuckOfEmo3 3 months ago
ahh, this reminds me o me, im fifteen and i have alot of selfharm scars, deeper ones on my legs because i always thought that i could hide it, i have only been swimming once since then, but someone noticed and i was lucky to be able to divert attension, its very noticable. i have almost invisible scars up my arm, but i notice them every day :/
i turned to drugs
i'll be the first to admit that it was a mistake, yet every few months i give up and go into deep depression, not good :(
britishgirl181 4 months ago
I'm to week to cut.
But if I wasn't so weak I would have started.
Thanks ur helping me not want to do it more
cow29777 4 months ago
@YTFnation You can go get real help like a counsellor, I used to cut but I got help and Im now getting over it : )
shanimusic1 4 months ago
i wish all the time tht i could go back and tell myself when i was yunger to not do it.tht i never made tht first cut.i cant stop now its gotten to the piont tht ive tried to stop multiple time but my body physically starts to hurt i cant see strate and my head hurts and im scratching myself in my sleep and its scary and hurts and i wanna stop but its so hard.just dont do tht first cut ull regret it later i cant stop i dont think i ever will be able to i dont remeber not cuting just dont do it
sweetdestiny42 4 months ago
Sometimes i wish i could go back to my younger self and tell myself it wasnt woth it to chuck the razor away and not to think about it ever again because cutting is my biggest habbet
brokenjessikah 4 months ago
@brokenjessikah it's never too late to change. it's pointless wishing things that can't happen...
Downtownpatrol 4 months ago
@YTFnation sorry for the short answer but exercise is great for helping you feel better
and work on your eating, i know it's hard, i have an ed too but it only causes more depression
Downtownpatrol 4 months ago
@YTFnation no. it doesn't help.
Downtownpatrol 4 months ago
Only God's love can fill that emptiness. That's how He made us. We need Him. It is truth no matter whether you believe it or not. Just ask God to come to your life, help you, rescue you and show the meaning and purpose for your life. Then your life will be full of joy and you will be able to really enjoy every minute of it. He really cares for each of us. Each scar you have is not only on the skin but in your heart. And God is the only one who can heal those. God bless you and keep you safe!
TheEpisteOfTruth 4 months ago
To all. We have desires in our heart that no one can fulfill only God. We can't find satisfaction in education, career, friendship, romantic or sexual relationships, marriage, kids, money, etc. There's always something missing no matter how successful we are even when everything seems ok.
TheEpisteOfTruth 4 months ago
Please do search on: self harm healing testimony. Testimony share website.
TheEpisteOfTruth 4 months ago
I just wanna say self harm is hard and i have to say plz anyone just remember that it leaves scars!!! I have scars all over my left arm...... anyway i hope that this video stops ppl starting to cut or self harm. Im sorry to say that im self harmer and i wish i had never started and it is hard to stop.
tammytmmj 4 months ago
Yeah, I'm the same. I thought I'd be fine as the cuts didn't scar and I mainly did it for the pain at the start. But about 3 weeks along they started to scar but by then I couldn't stop. It's really weird though 'cos before I started just a little graze would hurt like hell but now a kind of deep cut that bleeds for about 15-20 mins doesn't even hurt the slightest. It's like it's not even there until you clean it xD That stings like hell (I mainly cut 4 blood now) I don't like pain at all. XP
RandomRamenSaviours 4 months ago
i cut but there just small little marks on my forearm and they only bleed little pecks cuz i just started and i only cut when im mad or depressed or something .
nidyar3 4 months ago
cut is bad
LeifAlexander87 4 months ago
I really wish I'd seen this a year ago..
lordloss121 5 months ago
@lordloss121 me too.
LagoonaH2O 5 months ago
Thank you so much I was struggling with this so much and also was my friend we watched this video and we r getting better thank you
mackandmck 5 months ago
Hi! I spoke to you a while ago about self harming. I actually did tell my teacher and he says that I've solved half the problem because I've told somebody. He says that he's going to tell my mum soon, which I'm nervous about but he says that I'm a wise girl and I shouldn't be worried by the way, your videos helped me a lot. xx
LeSackgirl 5 months ago
is there anyway to get rid of the scars or at least make them fade?
tosen9 5 months ago
@tosen9 i've just made a video about how to get scars to fade/reduce, go look on my channel :) xx
Downtownpatrol 5 months ago
@tosen9
Bio Oil.
jawbreakerjulie 5 months ago
uhm advice how can i stop the urges come evrytime its making me go crazy help?!?!
jaz3emo 5 months ago
I just started about a week ago, I don't want to stop...I was born with good self-control, I guess I could if I wanted to. It's not like I can't live without it, the pain in just kind of a good kind of pain? Either way, it works in getting my emotional pain out.
Katniss012 5 months ago
I'm 12 and I cut myself. I actually do it as I pray because of all the bad things I do in the day. I also bite myself very hard to make myself bleed. I just feel so upset and alone... Is it strange, that the only person that I would talk to about this would be my Technology teacher? Should I talk to him? I'm just scared that he wouldn't listen.... xx
LeSackgirl 5 months ago
How do I stop? :'(
charliebxxxxx 6 months ago
@charliebxxxxx resist the urges :)
Downtownpatrol 6 months ago
@Downtownpatrol I am trying but it's too hard... Its starting to feel nice when I do it, it doesn't hurt... Thats what scares me the most :'(
charliebxxxxx 6 months ago
@charliebxxxxx you're in control of your body.
Downtownpatrol 5 months ago 4