MPD/DID The MoM Series The Misunderstanding of Multiplicity~ Tara,Trains,Trials, Abuse

[lmollot]

kids do tell-nonverbally-i remember non-verbal threats such as being brought to the edge of roof of his office building-as a threat-i had repeated daily nightmare of fall/hitting the ground in pain- btw lets not say "when parent "having sex with "the child)- i believe its sex assault-or "performing oral sex"-itsbetter say "after being orally raped

[lmollot]

kids DO always tell-but nothing is done except get beat up -1 woman i know got locked from 8yo - 12 years old in mental hospital/drugged out of her memories for telling her mom-the man had enormous power over mother/children-"if u tell ill hurt/kill your lil sister" etc- like in court case book "deadly silence"-judge blamed the victim for not telling-well she showed up at school w black eyes etc-all were terrified of the father-neighbors know that if child speaks they get "accidented"

[lmollot]

kids do tell-like me not so much in words-but even when doctors know(but have no video of the event)-when kids belong to a couple(parents or foster/orphanages) 4 shelter/food or got hit,then there is no solution-telling does nothing-ive seen court cases in my support group where 2 sisters & 19 counts of assaults were not enuf to prove a rich educated man guilty- out of 100 victims-only 1 had her offender go to jail-2yrs-but hes unemployed alcoholic-he cd not buy judge/jury) prevention=matriarchy

[secretoompaa]

it is dangerous. really hope that one day we can come out more. and i agree with your thoughts on us of tara. they were so on board with doing things and while as radical as they could be with certain things, they just took if off the chart and it was so sad to see. i sat and let episode 11 and 12 play but both of them i could not watch fully. i got half way through and was ignoring the rest.

[awesomeastrid]

@secretoompaa Hi agreed off rails, huge flip and even tho they ended the Season again Tara going off to get well and Love and understanding winning, just how much craziness truly bizarre were folks to take. Yeah I barely could look and walked away allot The Show just drew more attention to folks who disclose as CRAZY. I am very disgusted with it, some folks are still fighting to get Season 4 I say WHY? it could never recover or do any good now Amazing after all that expert"research":(

[yolandasplace]

this was a great video, i found that it took a while for me to remember what had happened, and your right, there was always a threat, it is very sad whaat can happen to us. i have found a co existance is my safe place, i am not interested in theraapy until i can be what the "normal" population can understand it, even working with a therapist that is working towards my goals with me is difficult at times, i find most people really couldnt understand me really, even my siblings. its sad, they try

[awesomeastrid]

@yolandasplace Hi there Thank you, yes it is sad that many people do not see how memory can be halted with abuse. For meI always knew "of my life" but never felt connected to things that happened.I put it aside a long while too. Co existence is safe Therapy is still useful here , if for nothing else support , a objective opinion with some one that knows all our history I've come to the conclusion whats considered the normal,may never be grasped and agreed upon by some..onward we go! :)

[aniledoddi]

EXCELLENT video! and I love your word "wonky" I had not heard that one before! :~)

[awesomeastrid]

@aniledoddi ha ha "wonky" Yup its a fun kinda "duh" word, I use when things are not lining up making sense:) Im glad you like the video. So many thoughts about abusive households and well also Tara, what a mess ey? How are ya doing? Let me know if ya upload more music:) Peace Blessings

[awesomeastrid]

@KimiGoesNya Your not rambling your fine,it can takes alot out of anyone to speak up and it does bring the pain back but is empowering! If you cannot speak of it continue to write in paper journals even of you rip them up toss them away .I wrote tons of letters to my abusers, shredded them till I could finally say some out loud to them. Much of the therapy years ago was of it all and it still crops up even in 50's but now I'm able to put it in its place, part of my past not a threat:)

[awesomeastrid]

Kim Hi, ur one of channels out here that I speak of with similar dx as groups in UK I think UK has much better acceptance of DID .A place called" MINDS dx many," Have you heard of this place in UK?.They do a DES test and Interview and are dx and offer service daily like out pt day programs if needed.

I understand thinking its too late to speak about abuse and it is hard 4 sure yet it is freeing that is a promise. soon as ya feel safe talk as your comfortable U will know when. 4 U:)

[thepaintedface]

I was wondering why no response on offline msgs?? Now I know LOL. I'll e-mail from now on till you get that end going right. Also sent a response post did ya get that? I'm trying to get back to writing a bi there myself but? Ya know me. Still isolating so much. Hey I can hardly hear you on these videos? What's up as I have my speakers full blast and still can barely hear. Is it your mike? Can you check. Maybe I'm going deaf I don't know LOLHappens at my age ya know. thepaintedface may call LOL

[thepaintedface]

@thepaintedface cont... agree on this case no matter the outcome it's horrific for that little girl. Breaks my heart so much just a baby. I don't believe in the death sentence either but do believe in solitary confinement and never seeing the light of day nor another person if that was the out come of that crime against that child. Oh so sad. I will never understand as you know just never will how people can do such things to precious children. Well headiing off to Dr's yet again thepaintedface

[awesomeastrid]

@thepaintedface I know , I do not think Casey is guilty. We shall see or NOT! I cant imagine a Grandfather going thru so much to cover and all and do what was done to Caylee then again if he abused Casey as alleged , well Yup, so sad.:( I know you are a stickler about "toss them away throw away the key," death is too easy ey? I been praying for Anthony family this is so sad..Okay off with ya to millionth Dr appt be a good pt and bring water, & eat ake it easy okay Love Ya :)Talk soon(hugs)

[thepaintedface]

Respond to this video...ok this is backwards again LOL

[awesomeastrid]

@thepaintedface o O I can hear it fine here? checking..You better not be going deaf. Yup Im uninstalling .messg, doing adobe update NOW, so t will freeze up and doing a defraud, aya yeah I got ur messages which is why Jade mentioned it. AStrid here, Ghah USOT went too far cookoo I cried :(

The Anthony trial makes me so sad 4 Caylee if she drowned her family did not have 2 go thru all this ..Anyways let me get all reinstalled and I will try again..cause I got errands to do 2 BBL (HUGS)xox

[awesomeastrid]

@thepaintedface No its not my mic,hmm. not here, Yeah saw that message this morning, not sure I will be writing there but if ur there I might drop in 2 read U of course I dunno, somebody else might write there like Maria or Jade or Tiea but I  want paper journals and that is all I feel safer on paper , doing the manuscripts finally so try 2 get online just 4 that .YOU better write ur beautiful poetry again U R DEN Mother or Poetry,:) It will be so good 4 u again even ur book. Love and Hugs:)

[awesomeastrid]

@thepaintedface OMG Thelma your old as dirt! I know the perfect solution, a nice ride with the top down over a cliff to Paradise. I will hold your hand promise we shall land on all fours and with a umbrella in our drink in Sunshine:) Talk later aka Louise ha ha your a trip , try a new plug outlet..get back to me later if it works Love ya, Oh yeah listen stay cool its gonna be hot and please use your breathing helps okay.Drink your water to oxo

[ZenAmbient]

cont/... Cannot believe Dr Drew's commentary either - that's nuts! Shocking to hear that. Agree with your perspectives about the case and gut says similar here! Anti-death penalty here too btw. Love, Peace, Joy... speak soon!

[awesomeastrid]

@ZenAmbient Dr Drew has got on my last nerve trying to "explore " Casey's behavior and justify what is normal and not. I do like him allot but hes rolled over to celeb pop Psychiatrist as of late .keep wondering why he cannot wrap his brain around*Trigger Warning* , gee child mouth on male organ is abuse.WTF I mean really now, its so simple! Yes Shocking!I kinda love Mr Baez he is so passionate , emotional, in a' My Cousin Vinny 'kinda way determined he will fight to win!:) Love and Light J

[ZenAmbient]

Hey, Astrid! LOVE your earrings, they are wonderful! You do NOT look that age at all. Wow! Terrific, honest & informative video! Thanks! It is sooo helpful to hear this perspective. In the UK the "we" thing's easier, the Queen even refers to herself in the 3rd person plural! "We" in the UK can also mean "I", odd as that may sound, so if that slipped out here, not so "dangerous". Funny, huh? Such a shame USOT went the way it did.... sigh. Ratings is all it is. Casey Antony trial is fascinating...

[awesomeastrid]

@ZenAmbient Hiya Jade did Interview mostly with me! And Maria too,Abuse is Jades big "issue" Thanx the glasses are 1 of 3 pairs I'm waiting for TRIFOCALS it will be easier I know lots of UK facilities specializing in 1 hour to 2 hour assessments with DID Interesting. The Queen is Royal she can get away with this LOL I think with so many bad portrayals and especially whats happening USOT and with Anthony case ppl knowing a person is public understanding we" can be seen abnorma(l conti)

[awesomeastrid]

@awesomeastrid ( Conti) what I mean is once ppl know u r DID or Multiple and Public well U can become a easy target for lots of misunderstanding. And it was a issue for some bio fam to hear the "we " out here , Cripe it was a issue ME being out here and its my channel and I've known them , loved them , forever. Its all uncomfortable always scary to just be. I know it was really hard for Jade to talk at all. USOT was a train wreck last nite I suppose Maria will do the video recap Im 2 sad 2:)