My Miscarriage - Just After Finding Out (Waiting To Miscarry)

[666enolive]

I watched this when I was about 8 weeks pregnant with no idea of what was in store for me and my unborn baby.When I went for an ultrasound at 11 weeks I was soooo excited to see my little peanut but alas they-I was carrying twins unbeknownst to me-had passed away.It broke my heart.Being able to come back here and watch ur videos again was a huge help. While it doesn't take the pain away, it does help me cope. Thank u xox

[Claralaful]

I'm so sorry to hear your story, how are you doing now? Just remember your not alone. So many of us have gone thru what you did.

[amparova]

Thank you for sharing your story. Your not alone. I too had 2 miscarriages. The medical community needs to be more human. Thank u!!!

[msmary126]

oh hunny. you are not alone. a very similar thing happened to me, too. I was 12 weeks 2 days. it was horrible.

[1998shauna1998]

I'm so sorry :'(

[shivonm2]

exactly the same thing has happend to me :( the same cruel words ! im so sorry x

[xflaxen1]

Poor sweetheart! This broke my heart. I'm sorry the medical staff didn't seem caring. :(

[001hinata001]

i'm 17, and just discovered that my mother had a miscarriage after me. i found a book for recording the pregnancy. a few pages in was a short entry from my mom describing her dr's appointment and passing the unborn at home at 2 AM. she named it Turtle and buried it in an unnamed location. her narration sounded so distant and calm. even the name seemed like a "might as well" kind of formality. she never told me and has no idea that i know. it makes me wonder if she went through what you did.

[camerondancing]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[NeverGiveUp3411]

im in hospital right now as i right this. doctors r saying ive had a miscarrige:( im so sorry hun. its so hard x

[emtabby]

You a reba true inspiration sharing your story and then seeing you have successfully been able to have another baby. It's so hard to get past the loss but I o find it helps to talk about ut, and see that others go thru this too

[missmo1984]

this makes me sad, it hasn't been a month since i lost my twin boys... it hurts

[louise09090909]

someone told me when you miscarry the soul goes back in to the universe and it waits till you get pregnant again that made me smile knowing that i will still get to see my son or daughter even if its in a different body, if any of this makes sense xx

[MTD280]

My mother just had a miscarriage

[Jeannenyc57]

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Hugs, Jeanne in Manhattan

[DCUPtoejuice]

awesome post. thanks.

[sharahamshar]

This was so difficult for me to watch. I've seen everything on youtube, but never a woman saying all of the words I said and all of the emotions I had when I lost my first baby at 14 weeks 6 days along but the heartbeat stopped at 8 weeks. I required a D&C three days later and was still throwing up with morning sickness the say of the surgery. I now have a 9.5 year old daughter and I rarely think of it now that I am a mother of a child I can hold everyday, I wish the same for you my dear.

[AngelWithADirtyMouth]

this was so surreal to watch. we have just lost our baby at 13 weeks 4 days it was the most horrendous thing, especially as i went in to labour with no pain relief to expel the baby and it hurt like nothing i've ever experienced, but it was even worse going through all the pain and vomiting knowing it wasn't worth anything, we weren't going to get our baby at the end. it is so hard watching you go through the same emotions.

[MegaZaza27]

it's sad to see your journal about your pregnancy and to see you like this i feel really really sorry for your lost i hope you get better

[SailormoonPhan1]

your video helped me alot and my doctor was an ass and said my pregnancy was a failure and then he called it a thing . he had to take my gestational sac out with some clipper things because it was causing me to bleed excessively and said it wouldnt hurt and it hurt alot . i miscarried in march . i was 8 weeks it was my 4th pregnancy

[lellybb]

Im not sure if my last comment posted, i had a miscarriage in march and was told today that my second pregnancy is " no longer viable" the drs are so good with words arnt they!!! I am now waiting to miscarry naturally again, the pain you feel is normal but 100% unique and it shows the love you have for your child is strong, you will never forget but i promise it will get easier, i went through a very bad time mentally after my first miscarriage, i found myself wondering the baby isle of the sup

[jazzness1125]

this was a hard video to watch mad me tear up im so sorry that u had to go thru that i had a miscarriage with my frist pregnancy now i have a boy and twin girls some times its jus not the right time i hope things are better for u and that ur next pregnancys are very sucessful..wishing u the best

[jericakes08]

I'm so sorry.. I had my first miscarriage 5 yrs ago.. n everything u feel is what I felt.. n I still feel that way... I also had a dnc n the doctors were horrid.. anyway I'm so sorry n I understand your pain..

[DiLililam]

i'm so sorry!!

[0cally]

I cant believe I am over here wishing for a miscarriage when you have suffered this way. I really dont want to have a baby though.

[sarahmakulska]

Thats the most moving vblog ive ever listened to. Thankyou for sharing.

[Krankyburgers]

I watched your video and cried. I'm so sorry for your loss. If I hadn't lost my little one I would about 20 weeks so in a lot of ways things are still really fresh for me. The whole surreal feeling etc, the whole lack of sympathy from doctors and sometimes friends and family. It takes months to get through and I guess some people expect you to feel nothing if it was so early or get over it so fast.

Anyway my point being that I really appreciate your honesty and vulnerability...

[phlebotech2011]

I wish I could just give you one huge hug! I had a misscarriage 3 months ago, and it is extremely hard.

[godschil1705]

I am soo very sorry for your loss. :( I know exactly how you feel because I found out I was pregnant and was about 12 weeks along when I noticed spotting and went to the ER and they did an internal ultrasound it was late at night and it was me an my fiance... The ultrasound tech looked at me and said that she couldnt see a heart beat but that it was still early on and it could still be faint. So I was schedualed to see a obgyn the following week and to stay in bed.

[RoseyLovesBritney1]

Its okay to cry mama. Crying makes everything feel better. I'm sorry for your loss and I hope your okay now babygirl. My prayers go out to you hun :)

[xMarniex18x]

Thank you for sharing this. I am sorry for your loss. You have helped not only women in a situation similar to your own, but myself, as a student midwife, to understand what women who have lost their babies are going through, and how I can help them. (Not telling women to be quiet! Totally inappropriate of those nurses to treat you like that!). Thanks again for sharing.

[allanamashburn]

my doctor told me being 15 that my baby was dead i should be happy. im so sorry for your loss i know you pain.

[AndriaInspired]

I know this video is a few yrs old but I just came across it. Watching this makes me sob for the both of us. I just lost a baby about 4 wks ago & I now know how devastating it is. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for sharing this...

[forevarn18]

:'( im 12 weeks pregnant and i really dont wanna feel your pain :'( ... im so sorry for your lost

[806michelle]

my mom miscarried but dont give up. i know it hurts. i cried so much.

[Jen41565]

Hi Racheous....I am a medical assistant who works in an obstetrics practice....You reminded me to treat all my patients as people and not diagnoses. It is easy to try and protect my own feelings while at work (I lost a baby too), but I don't want to become cold and calloused to the women in my practice who have gone through or are going through this. Thank you for sharing this....so glad to see you have had a healthy pregnancy after this one.

[paulacordero1991]

hi, i went for my first ultrasound on april 19 this year , i been crying a lot i really wanted this baby so bad , i don´t know how to deal with it but i wanna know will my next baby be okay. and im waiting for my baby do drop natural but i might have to get a D&C . thanks your video help to see aim not alone

[miszteeify]

i totally understand what you are going through! i myself miscarried just 3 days before xmas last year, i think the thing that hurt the most wasnt the physical pain it was the emotional pain, Getting yourself all excited about the pending new edition to the family then suddenly it all gets crushed just like that! im still trying to get over it all but it still haunts me, im to scared to try again as the pain is to unbearable i couldnt handle miscarrying again! im so sorry for your loss!. :(

[adamsp1989]

This video was posted 4 days before my first son was born. Pregnancy/birth everything went perfect and great. 2 years later, we decided to try to have another baby and as soon as I find out I'm pregnant, I'm already miscarrying. I went to the ERand I had no answers at all, no sympathy, etc. I received no answers but got a bill for $3,000 for what my insurance didn't cover. 6 months later, we decide to try for a baby again and I am now 10 weeks pregnant and I'm currently losing this one.

[mapsandviolins1]

Oh Honey, thank you for sharing your loss. It must so hard to lose a little one. I'm single, but I would love to marry and have children some day. I love it all so much that even having never experienced it, I think it would hurt so much!

I hope you have been able to keep processing your loss. Know that your baby was not a failure. God knew about him and knit him together inside of you. Thank you for loving your little one so much.

[DecembersRuin]

I found out I had a missed miscarriage November 24, 2010...my baby was suppose to be about 6 or 7 weeks but had only grew to be 3 weeks...i allowed it to pass naturally...things havent been the same since I lost her (i say her because i wanted a girl)...i miss her so much

[kpscorpio]

So u dnt kno how ur miscarriage happend?

[bombette7]

I am so sorry for your loss. I cried when I say your video cause I know how you feel. Two weeks ago I lost my baby boy at 20 wks. I was having pains and my water broke. I had lost too much fluid and he was too small to survive and I was induced. He looked just like his father. It really is painful. I hope you and all of us go on to have as many healthy beautiful babies as we want.

[mommymisty416]

I am so sorry. I lost my twins at 15.5 weeks i delivered them at home in my bathroom ..Got pregnant again 1month later and lost that baby at 9weeks...I am now pregnant now around 6weeks and i am sooo scared

[claireoink]

Brave lady ! best wishes for your future

[taraladyvirtues]

Hi, well I found out on Jan 5th 2011 that my baby girl who was suppose to be 22 weeks the following Sat. had no heartbeat. My husband and I were devastated, we received 3 more ultrasounds at different doctor's offices and they were all the same, so on Jan 11, we opted to have a labor and delivery, which was our safer option, and we believe that God will bless us with a beautiful pregnancy and a living baby that we will love to see grow up to be a successful adult and age!

[martinamoylan]

Im so sorry for you loss xxx

[NiveditaVidula]

thank you so much for sharing your story....I had a miscarriage a while ago that I never allowed myself the opportunity to grieve for, and the whole thing seems to get worse around the holidays... I'm contemplating making my own videos about the healing process. You give me hope.

[horseynet]

Your great, such an inspiration to everyone who has gone through something similar, not many people would be brave enough to put this on youtube. I am so sorry too hear about your loss and I hope you get everything you want out of life x

[SSCUltimateWoman]

I am 8 1/2 weeks and bleeding, went to the doctor yesterday for it and I have my first ultrasound today at 1pm. I haven't slept all night because of cramps...I'm afraid mine will be a miscarriage :(

[martinamoylan]

im so sorry for your loss xxxx

[channybelly]

i love your videos your so inspiring and real. I myself am 24 and have been married for 8 months and last week just went through my second miscarriage. my first ended at 6 weekc. I got pregnant again 3 months later and went in for my 12 week scan and baby had no heartbeat and had stropped growing at 8 weeks. I know exactly how hard it is to go through it truly is a pain that no one can understand unless they have been through it aye. But happy days are here for you congratulations! love chany

[millerfamily03]

I just went through this EXACT same thing it June, and even though I have one healthy Son (he will be 4 on Xmas Eve) I have to say this is the hardest thing I've gone through.I found out on Fathers Day after I began spotting.I went to the ER only to find out that my baby didn't have a heartbeat.The doc sent me home for me to pass it on my own, which I did not. 2 days later I had to go to the ER to have a D&C. It was so hard and still hard.I'm just now getting were I can talk about it.Iwas 11wks

[shorty05jr]

I am so sorry for your loss I just went thru the same thing a couple of days ago i was 6 weeks along and i had just found out about my pregnacy and was so trillled about it now I am just devestated and well have my 5 yr old son to look forward to for strenght to continue life once agin I am sorry

[mumof3j]

Thanks for sharing this vid,it's good to know that what I'm feeling is normal. 3 days ago I went for my 1st scan, I was 12wks 5days pregnant. As I watched the screen I knew my baby was too still and too small! Then those words,'I'm sorry there is no longer a heartbeat' hit me hard! My baby made it to 10wks 2days.I had no idea as I had no bleeding and had all pregnancy symptoms. I had a d&c the following day which was horrid. I'm really struggling to come to terms with this, it's haunting me!x

[erubio070707]

I already did the pre op for my D&C on 8/ 27/2010 and Im so afraid to do it that way i I wish mt baby would come before tomorrow so that it can come naturally . I found out at 9 weeks that the baby hasn't grown for 3 weeks it still the size of a 6 weeks I wounder if there anything i can do for it to come at home ? I was thanking of maybe walking . I am scared to do that at home cause i have two kids and when i had tham i over bleed with both not enough to need blood . He if you can with advice

[EllenBabesOx]

Okay, i'm fifteen. I know what you all think when you hear that i'm fifteen and pregnant. But i don't regret it at all. I had a miscarriage at nine weeks; and it's nearly killed me. This video expresses everything i'm feeling and i've decided to do the same thing as you by letting my own body do whats right by allowing me to birth my baby myself. The doctors were so judgemental of our situation and you could see that my respect went out the window. Your video is amazing, and it's helped me.

[youngmumqld]

firstly i wana say tht u r very brave 2 b able 2 make a video & share ur experience so soon afta all this, im realy sory 4 ur loss, my first miscarriage happened april 2008 @ 16 weeks, i had 2 hav a dnc as my body didnt do wat it was spose to do, then my second was @ 5 week in october 09 the due date is coming up & its going 2 b really hard, evn more so that the due date is also my sons 6th bday

[youngmumqld]

afta that pregnancy i had another where i didnt know i was pregnant & didnt know i was having a miscarriage, i fell pregnant again after that & evrything was going well & baby had a nice strong heartbeat at 7 week, then 2 weeks wen i was spose 2 be 9 week we went in 4 another ultrasound only 2 find tht bub was only measuring 8 week, so i shuld also b 14 week aswell as 38 week & plus the 1 i was unaware about.

[youngmumqld]

i hav 2 great kids but tht dont mke it ne easier. it has been vry rough on my fiance aswell it wuld b his first child as my 2 arnt his, i also thnk it is harsh how they handle the medical side of things, with the last one i opted for the dnc & it was all over in a matter of 2 hours, i just didnt want to go through it again at home. thankyou for sharing your story, u r a brave women.

[miss21477701]

Im so sorry... it doesnt mean anything but I am. I went through this. It was hell. I went through labour. I came into the emergency department cramping and in so much pain. After my body expelled my baby all I could do while he had these massive cotton tip things in me 'cleaning me out' was laugh. I was so scared. I cried for days, I blamed my partner. I regret it. Now I am pregnant. One week from today our baby girl is due.... Im still scared something might happen.. Best of luck. melXOXO

[rosaliamartinez89]

i know the same thing happened to me the ultrasound tech wouldnt say anything. she said that she didnt see the baby. we were like what do you mean?!?!?! she was like im not the doctor i cant tell you that. then we went back to our emergency room. and he said that i have no good news your baby has no heartbeat. there is nothing i can do. i lost it after that. i dont even know what he said. im so lost i dont know what to do my husband is at work and im so alone now i feel so lost.

[newmommy2010]

omg i lost my baby in june 09 and listening to you i havent cried like this since i found out how have you been able to cope with your loss im still having a hard time.

[Krysti719]

I know how you feel I found out i lost mine at 12 weeks but the baby was only 8 wks and 6 days along. I know the feeling it is something you do not ever want to have to go through!!

[tisha2323]

im SOO sorry that happened to you

[ItHiNkIdEsErVeIt]

When i found out that i was pregnant my WHOLE family tried to get me to have an abortion but I couldnt go through w;that. I lost my baby at 12weeks on April 18... I came on here looking for ppl who had gone through what me and my BF just went through. Its so hard... I feel sooo alone most of the times, I dont know how to deal w:this and neither does he. Its been almost 2weeks now...I just want to thank you for your video because now i know its okay to cry and be angry. THANKS ALOT

-Nickey

[mama2b10]

i am very sorry for your loss and i will pray for you and your husband and hope everything works out for you....hope you will get what you want in life "trust in the lord with all your heart and he will lead your path".

[1raychel4]

That's soooooo sad!

[nettyc35]

Oh honey. I know the feeling. I lost my first at 20 weeks and I just reacently lost my fourth. It does get easier but the pain never goes away. It changes your life.

[TheSnotrag2009]

i feel so sad about the whole situation. i just want to be alone. i need to be alone,its the only way i can heal. it must be devasting for you having to go through a miscarriage and i hope u have healed. i havent been through one but feeling the way i do tonight, i hope to god i wont have to.

[TheSnotrag2009]

although it wasnt me who miscarriaged, being there in hospital with my brother and his wife while she bled and discharged, i think it was a clot, it really affected me. I wasnt just crying for my brother but also his wife and the baby.

[TheSnotrag2009]

im so sorry for your loss. my brother's wife just had a miscarriage tonight. first time in 15yrs i have seen my bro cry tonight. im crying right now. longest night of my life waiting in the hospital with him and his wife. i really cant say i know how you feel but what i experienced tonight it must be a million times worse for you. i hope are feeling better now and is managing to move on with your life. i wish you all the love and best wishes for the future :) x

[mrskelty42409]

sept 9 2008 i was 7.5 weeks& had began spotting so i went to the ER& they told me the baby was seeping out and my cervix was open,so i went thru a sergery to stitch up my cervix....i was to stay off my feet for 48hrs,i went to the docter on the 13th and everything ws fine,baby was moving just fine,doctor said its a healthy small baby.1 week later i had got more than a pads worth of blood& i was told the baby not only not had an heartbeat but it had stopped growin at 7weeks! i was almost 10

[mrskelty42409]

i had two choses just like you! d&c or natrual. i chose emergancy d&c sept 20th 2008 at 5am in the morning,so i went home slept and woke up and went to the clinic and the worst thing happened.a protester yelled "ur a murder"....thats all i needed!! i went thru with the oporation but now me and my husband have been trying for 2 years and we have had no luck.

[DADECOUNTY19]

OMG... Im so sry for your lost. I miscarried almost two yrs ago n trust me with time it gets better to cope and understand the miscarriage. Im ttc again after miscarriage but still unsuccessful. I wish the best for you n ur family... Keep ur head up n pray everyday

[MitziBranch93]

I'm supporting you ur husband n baby. I'm 16, I had all the pregnancy symptoms but it was to early to tell, I stared cramping a bleeding weird and I think it was a miscarriage. And my parents don't know and it hurts me.

[AMANDAlovesJUNIOR]

im so sorry i recently had a miscarriage and its the worse feeling. Im gonna pray for u and ur baby.

[apotata]

Thank you for sharing your story

[grrr199]

im sorry for you loss..the docters letter is bull shit..thats really rude for them to say it like taht.. i will pray for you and your husband:)

[neferteri05]

I just went to the doctor cause I was spotting and cramping. He did bloodwork and wrote down on the paper work that I am having a "complete miscarriage". The two most awful words in the world. And I got to come home to finish my miscarriage. They did a sonogram (I was 8 weeks) and there was not heartbeat. It's awful, it's sucks and I can't stop crying. Thanks for posting your video. It's helping me to get through this.

[tessajcs]

I just miscarried 9 days ago. And i feel like i'm alone i feel like no one understands. I went into the emergency due to bleeding and didn't see anyone for 5 1/2 hours they told me nothing was wrong and that the bleeding would stop and they sent me home :( i feel so helpless i want my baby back I'm glad to know I'm not the only one thank you guys and God bless

[goodkitty8]

I feel for you honey, I don't want to say I know how you feel... I had one They wanted me to let them do a DC on me. I refused. I miscarraged naturally I was 7 weeks. I can't believe he sent you a letter, what a bull shit thing to do.. Sorry if i up set you What I can't believe is that most OBGYN,s don't usually watch a womens progesterone levels , I am seeing a specialist now. His name is Dr. Werlin he's on the web. You seem to be a young woman. I'll keep you in my prayers.

[Rachiann]

I am so sorry for you loss, and I do agree that doctors letters can be hurtful. My thoughts and prayers are with you

[emmalee169]

the same thing happened to me one week ago, nobody told me it was called a missed misscariage so thank you for that. the experiance a the hospital was bad to, after they told me the baby had no heartbeat they let me get dressed and explained that it was not my fault handed me a leaflet and then sent me out into the waiting room which was filled with other pregnate women all looking at me and whispering.

[FORSAKEN602]

in the past 2 wks and like u i also have the small veins and the brusing from the iv that is just barely going away, 3 wks later. My hCG count hasnt gone up or anything after 2 wks and she had ordered me to go to the er again and get an ultrasound. It was confirmed, a day before my birthday, no heartbeat, no fetus, yolk sack, embryo, nothing. I would have been 9 wks on Thursday. They said i had a "molar" pregnancy or an incomplet miscarage. Not how i wanted to spend my 26th birthday *continued*

[FORSAKEN602]

I had a dream on Dec 6 2009 that i had taken 2 pregnancy tests, first was positive, the 2nd was negative. I decided to take a pregnancy test when i woke because i had the breast tenderness and my period hadnt come that wk it was supposed to, and it was positive. Confirmed by a dr and started Medical treatment. I had the bleeding and was seen at a er cause i passed something that wasnt a blood clot. From then on out i have done 6 hCG tests, ***continued***

[dannybabyable]

you are so brave to do this video.....god bless you

[mommymisty416]

i had a miscarriage 1month ago i was 14weeks i went in for some mile spotting and my babies didnt have a heartbeat i did no find out until after i miscarried that i was having twins they was conjoined and my doctor told me that mother nature did me a favor and i went off on him i really miss my babies :((

[imfinefinefine]

wanted to say thankyou for doing this.

my mc was also missed and discovered at similar gestation. I had bleeding at 12 wks & was scanned but all was well. 2 wks later a 2nd scan showed a different story. I was not offered a choice of treatment but 'misscarriage with medical intervention'. during this I wished I could just have the surgery but your story makes me think I was lucky not to have to go thru it. My bruises have just faded where all the needles went in, small veins too it seems x

[1205JEN1205]

Im sorry for your loss. I was there too my baby had no heart beat on july 10 of this year . I was devastated , Now, I feel Ive overcome some the pain, though , ofcourse, deep in my subconsuious I sometimes still feel that poignant pain of remembering. having faith is very important. I really received some consolation from the videos from "beautyisnteverything" it might help you to see her experience which she recorded with a lot of detail. she just had a baby this month. Dont lose hope

[angelarock29]

god bless you honey i feel so sorry for you.ive had a miscarriage myself i know the pain.god im sorry.never give up keep praying it will happen.please feel free to write if you need someone to talk to.ill help with anything i can.

[lunarain19]

I'm so sorry this happened..I can't imagine really going through this..You explained it so well I could imagine every moment. Made me cry..Again I'm sorry this happened. And I would have been really upset if the drs letter said this was a failed pregnancy. I remember how the emotions are after having a child.I can't imagine losing one..I'm now pregnant with my second..Again I'm sorry.

[PrincessMadi]

Im so sorry for your I too lost a baby dec 15th of last year its the worst feeling in the world... i thought my life was over... i cried with you watching this... Im happy the lord has blessed you with your baby now i wish you well.. thankfully ive been blessed as well and hopefully my angel from above will be here in February

[Phentie]

I just had a miscarriage in June, and I found your vlogs, and I really am glad I did.. thank you for all the info on your blog, I read it all. I cried w hen I watched your vlog... :'-(

[Racheous]

Thank you for reading my blogs and I'm glad they helped you in some way :( I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Phentie]

Your blogs and vlogs are wonderful. Is it normal u think that I am green with jealousy that my sister in law is pregnant :(

I appreciate you saying sorry for my loss, it still really hurts, I just find it hard to go on with my days.. thank you for responding! Best wishes with your pregnancy!! :-)

[Racheous]

I couldn't see my sister as she fell pregnant with her second the month that I lost my baby. It's so so so normal. It's so hard and it's not that you're not happy for them but you just want it so desperately for yourself.

I found that it got easier with time but it's always hard and grief can be lonely. Feel free to PM me anytime and vent your frustrations. I've been there and no how it can be *hugs*

[eastfjords]

Im so sorry for your loss... you should never give up, I've had 3 miscarriages and now have 2 healthy girls. If i had given up after the first 2 miscarriages I would'nt have had my girls .

But it's so hard to miscarriage and constantly seeing pregnant womens and little babies everywhere

Best wishes !

[edaj84]

I know this was a while ago and a lot has changed but watching it still made me cry (I have been there 3 times before, and despite having 2 healthy children, I understand that horrid feeling)

[Racheous]

I can't watch it as it makes me cry too. It's coming up to a year since the day we found out and I still find it so hard. I miss my boy.

[Racheous]

I ended up miscarrying a couple of weeks later, the day after my wedding (5th October 2008)

Thank you for all those watching. I'm so sorry if you are watching because you have gone through something similar.

This video is from quite a while ago so a lot has changed now. Please feel free to PM me, comment, rate or subscribe.

Much love xxx

[Xauby]

I'm sorry for your loss ):

[starfish917917]

hi you poor girlie i know how u feel i've have had three m/c's the last one was last week

[beautyisnteverything]

Im very sorry for your loss. I myself have been through this as well. I wish you and your husband the very best. If you ever want to chat Im here.

Many hugs

Sasha

[reneed0929]

I am so sorry. I misscarried at 6 weeks. I cannot imagine how you feel. I am especially appaled at the lack of concern the hospital stuff gave you. I also felt that the office I went to treated it as "routine". I was like, "Um, excuse me??!! This sure as hell isn't routine for me!" Anyways, I'm praying for you. You haven't updated in a while, so I hope everything went okay.

[somebodysangel99]

I'm really sorry about what happened, the same thing happened to me as well, i was suppose to be 11 weeks along, well i went to have ultrasound on the 17th cuz i was having spotting & cramping and the doctor gave me bad news and said the baby stopped growing at 7 weeks, i was devistated!! i cryed so hard! but it got easier for me as each day went by. I believe everything happens for a reason, i'm hoping i can try again sometime and have a sucessful pregnancy next time. Ur in my thoughts.

[47239123]

Hello. Im reallly sorry mate. I am very mad at the way those doctors and nurses treated you. that was disgusting and if you were up to it, id write a letter of complaint cause that was just foul.  I am only 18 and stumbled across this post. I'm thinking of you and wish you peaceful recovery. good luck. xoxo

[cjpeezzy08]

oh my god i just want to give you a hug :(

[heathermcclay]

*hugs* I have never miscarried. My husband and I lost our first baby girl April 2 2008,she was born December 11 2007. I am pregnant again so fingers crossed.

In time,the pain will pass,not soon,but in time. I am here if you need me,even though we don't know eachother.

[Courtengel]

Hi. I am so sorry for your loss. I have been following your vlogs for the past couple of weeks, actually to help heal from my own miscarriage. I am so sorry you have to experience this. It is so painful and for me personally, it left me feeling empty and confused. Take the time you need to grieve. Healing will be a process emotionally, physically and spiritually. May your hope increase in time. I wish you many blessings in your future. Your courage is inspiring.

[BNV83]

im so sorry for your loss.. my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family

[missmonje13]

Im sorry sweety...I had the same thing happen with my first pregnancy..I was at 13 weeks but the heart stoped at 9weeks..When they did the Scan the turned the monitor away tho and didnt tell me untill 5 hours later..Its hard i know but the pain willget a little easier over time...The doctors said theres no reason it should ever happen again.If you do plan on trying again someday i wish you much luck.I was scared i waited 2 years and im due this year.Let us know how your doing.Your in my prayers.

[agipson08]

I'm soo sorry hun!

I went through the same thing, it took a week for me to miscarry! Its devistating!

I just want you to know that i'm praying for you and little baby! And just remember, everything happens for a reason!

[xxxandieapplesxxx]

Rach, you both are in my prayers as well as little Oliver. I'm so sorry for your loss and your pain hun. I too know what it's like to lose your little one love, and so, believe me when I say...you all are in my prayers and thoughts. xoxoxo

[Shellsibelle]

Rach, it hurts to read your pain, but to actually see and hear you in pain is another thing entirely :`{ I am so very sorry for your loss of Oliver. Your heartbreak is just palpable. You are in my thoughts and prayers xxx

[oahu0923]

i'm so sorry...please know that i'm praying for you

[ChocolateDiva05]

Im so sorry to hear that. Your baby will always be with you no matter wat, he's gonna be your little angel watching over you and your husband. Stay strong and pray. Your in my thoughts!!

[cta2381]

I am so sorry...my thoughts are with you.

[PortugueseChewy]

Oh girl i was in tears i feel your pain and when i miscarried i had the same thing happen to me i had it at home....

[simoncaro]

Hi there, I feel so much for you, I had exactly the same thing happen to me (at 12 weeks).. and miscarried naturally. It is a very hard thing to deal with, but I can assure you that it will get easier, and you can count this as yours (miscarraige) over and done with, and the all the next pregancies you have will all be successful! Hope for your sake that you manage to fall pregnant as soon as you are ready again. Take Care, Thinking of you.

[redheadedwolf01]

I grieve with you. I understand the pain you are going through; the same exact thing happened to me with my first pregnancy. My thoughts are with you and you are right the pain never leaves but it does become easier to bare with time. The best thing I can suggest is not to retreat from the world but surround yourself with people who love you. Love really is the best medicine. I pray that you find peace.

[summerchic21]

you poor darling, i cried when i watch this, so sorry for u and ur fam :( It will take time to get through this, but i think ur doing the best thing for u and your body by letting it takes its course naturally, your body will know what to do when the time is right and its giving you time to grieve. doctors and nurses can be so insensitive and you shouldnt have to put up with their bullcrap. Take care & love to your family, peace to your little one xox

[twy1010]

Nothing I can say can comfort you in the amounts I know you need to be comforted. I've had 3 m/c's and I know your heartache. I am so sorry you have to go through this, you will never forget your little one, but it will get easier as time goes by. I'm praying for you, you are such a sweetie!

[ninaperez004]

Our most sincere condolences from the bottom of our hearts goes out to you and your family. It's been 2 years and 5 months since we lost our little angel at 12 weeks. I was given the same option as you were and decided to have the baby. May God bless you and your family and should you need to talk...I am here for you!

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband during this hard time in your lives.

Your baby was just too special and was needed back in heaven! Remember that

[xxxjoelpolexxx]

I'm sorry to hear of ya'lls loss. :( We've been through a miscarriage more than our fair share of times, and as we just found out we were pregnant again yesterday this is all that has been on my mind since. I think you're doing better than I do. I was so furious at the world, and so depressed. It is horrible how our professionals treat it as an infection, when at one point a baby had a heartbeat. I opted for 'letting it happen'.

[dreamflight6000]

I am so sorry. I can't imagine the feeling. You are in my prayers.

[TheGraceDiaries]

Hi Rachel,what an awful thing to go through,I have no idea what you are feeling (except what you shared in this vid). I feel very sad for you and wish there was something I could do. Please take care of yourself and grieve as much as you need. I am praying for you and your family now and will continue to do so. I am very sorry for you and Michael's loss, rest in peace Oliver.

[mrscyp]

I so sorry for your loss,I will keep you and your family in my prayers.Rest In Peace Baby Oliver..

[jamaicanmehappy]

I apologize for your loss and the pain you are experiencing. May the LORD comfort and keep you. Rest In Peace Oliver...

[MandyCandy66]

poor sweet girl. I am so sorry for your loss. Huggs to you. Your baby was lucky to have such a beautiful mum as you. You and your husband are in our prayers. God Bless you!

[ashling328]

I am so sorry for your loss,no words can make it better,take care of yourself ,you are in my thoughts and prayers .

[Medicluvstrauma]

Im so sorry for your lost of little Oliver. There are no words I can say that can bring you comfort. I hope this video has helped you in your healing process. Thank you for sharing this with us. You and your husband are in my prayers

Carina

[maria22284]

So sorry to hear about this, such a sad thing. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts.

[lovebirdmaria1989]

Htere is no word that anyone can say that can make you  feel any better but im sorry !

[lucytune80]

I'm sorry this is happening to you. It's so terrible it's beyond words.

I commend you for making this video, your a brave woman. I hope your able to heal and find peace soon. My recent pregnancy failed at 5 wks but i didn't find out untill 9wks but it was nothing compared to the pain you must be feeling. I wish there was more i could say. Thank you for this video, it was beautiful and honest. I'm so sorry!

Manda

[jannabanna]

I was shocked and devestated to see the topic of your video. I've been through it as well, and I know that pain you're feeling. I'm so very sorry Rachel. I wanted to just hug you through the computer, and across the ocean! And I know what you mean about it being clinical. My experience was what prompted me to look at natural birth, homebirth, etc. And I know exactly what you're saying, babies are not clinical. But, my prayers are with you. I pray things can go well and that you can heal quickly.

[carlmil528]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I miscarried not too long ago, you are in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless you and your husband, stay strong.

[Purrrsuasive1]

I am so sorry for your loss. I've been there. I ended up seeing a specialist for the next pregnancy so I wouldn't miscarry and my levels were monitored closly and I was given daily shots of progesterone so my body would be able to hold the pregnancy and it worked. Please find a specialist to take care of you before you try again. You are in my prayers!

[rashahamad]

I'm sorry to hear that...I had a miscarriage once and I can only imagine how terrible this feels.

Grieve all you want and take your time at that. You need to heal emotionally just as well as physically.

[neleza]

i am so sorry to hear that i know what you are going through i had a miscarriage last week friday i am still healing this shall pass too. i will be praying for you.and please dont blame yourself cause i was blaming myself its not your fault you will be both fine you and your hubby.

[Parkerfur]

I am so sorry hunny... my husband and I are trying to conceive and I can't even imagine the pain this is causing you.