...thank U for uploading this video...I approached suicide few times...and thanks God wasnt successfull in it..but now...loneliness....it kills me more than suicide...I just cannot make a peace with fact it's so hard to find good guy...all gays are only into sex, fun & open relationships...it kills my hope....sorry for my english...greetings from Poland...BuddhaLonely
Thank you for this. This is the most sincere, genuine, personal heartfelt message I have ever watched on YouTube or anywhere for that matter. The tears I have as I type this message are cause I have been where you where, and I’m so thankful I as you, did not succeed in suicide. My only wish is that every person who has suicidal thoughts could just know that there are many who can and would love the opportunity to help them. I also, as you stated, am so happy, beyond words,that I’m alive.
this was a great video and i hope that some where out there their are gay people seeing this and knowing that suicide is not the answer i respect you for doing this video and i really hope that your message goes through as many people as possible love is love no matter who u love
You said this: "I just wanted to pain to go away." Suicide is always about ending pain. And for those who have chronic suicidal thoughts, learning ways to lessen the pain - learning a skill - how to become stronger so that you don't break up: that is the best insurance for long-term survival. Suicide is an option for certain (terminally ill) people: usually, healthy people don't need to go to that place to lessen the pain. Check out Dialectical Behavioral Therapy: you can read the stuff for free
• Bagley and Tremblay (1997) reported that 5 out of 8 suicide attempters were homosexual/bisexual males (16, 17), and a previous study of the same sample had reported that 6 out of 8 suicide attempters (75%) had been sexually abused (experienced unwanted sexual acts) before the age of 17 V Bagley, C., Wood, M., and Young, L. (1994). Victim to abuser: mental health and behavioral sequels of child sexual abuse in a survey of young adult males . Child Abuse & Neglect, 18(8), 683-97.
....u have changed me Jay...i thought about doing suicide a few time but i couldnt do it....and now i wont ever think about doing it again. thank you and bless your heart and your beautiful family. :)
I don;t understand why your father was not very loving accepting person he may never have been a Catholic ! I am a Catholic teen and they tell my that my Religion loves anybody no matter what !
@MonsterLove305 I don't know what Catholic church you go to but good for them for teaching you that....The church I was raised in was Catholic and they had know idea about that kind of teaching.
i'm muslim and i cant tell my family my father abuses me and hates me as he thinks i'm wrong that i'm not a human or an animal that i'm nothing and dosnt deserve anthing of my rights as a human or animal and all of that i have to live with and i havnt told him that i'm gay and thats the ssame from all my brothers and sisters and mother.
thanks for the vid ....love you so much .......and the best of luck.. i thought of suicide...for a few weeks as an answere but know its not . the answere
i understand how you feel. i nearly did suicide on myself because coming out wasn't easy. even if my coming out is still painful up to now. i'm just thankful i have lived long enough to find love. i'm really thankful that my boyfriend came into my life and he is my world and life now. the reason why i wanna stay alive.
Jay I am so sorry for all those rude & insensitive people that do not understand. I'm really happy that your attempt to take your life didn't work because I think you and Bryan are both wonderful ppl and if ud have succeeded in your plan where would your family be now? Where would Salina and Daniel be? If you ask me it sounds like God had other plans for you. :) (oh and happy belated birthday!!!)
I am what I am. I'm my own special creation. So come take a look, give me the hook or the ovation. It's my world and I want to have pride in it. It's my world and not a place I have to hide in. Life not worth a damn until I can say hey world I am what I am.
I was a sissy when I went to school. From the first grade on nobody wanted anything to do with me. My own family didn't want anything to do with me. It's like the soul or llight inside went out. As an adult I still struggle with depression and thoughts of suicide. Of course I"m on meds. If you're different the world want to destroy you. I do feel destroyed. I don't know how to put the pices back together.
@tboar456 Start by looking in the mirror and liking what you see....Shame on those people in school and your family for not loving you for who you are. BIG HUGS
Fly far away from the negative and soar into the sky. From up there everyone looks the same but you'll always be special.
Respect the 'sissy' in you! It's a negative label they gave you so take it back and own it by making it a positive! It's hard but know others are here with you! BIG Hugs from here to you too!
wow....Thank you for making this video. I'm not gay....but I have contemplated bout being bi...not sure yet...but i've had a rough life, and im only 17...I have a suicidal history and a history and current record of self harming....this video is a good indicator that my life might possibly have some little value to it...not sure bout that either.... but thanks for the video...and im glad u have a happy life....
thank you so much for making this video. oh my gosh it made me cryy. im gled i continued on, that i faltered that night. i hesitated then couldnt continue ending it all. now i'm on my way to college, i have a beautiful girlfriend. im coming out to my catholic father next wednesday. if he doesnt take it well, i have her and her family to support, comfort, and love me through it. thank you so much. love. lauren
@Bossk333 Of course they do. Lesbians experience a considerable amount of social stigma too. A good friend of mine came out when we were in the eighth grade (first one in our grade to do so, may I say) and you should have seen the shit she went through.
@bayonetsluts how about you kill yourself but not because you are a faggot but because you are a piece of shit. Your homophobia clearly displays your closet homosexuality. You might as well put a big fuck me sign on your asshole even though the only person who would is your blue father you fucking redneck piece of shit. EVOLVE you stupid ignorant CUNT.
I tried to hang myself when i was 15. My older brother save me when i was losing consciousness. 10 years later, i'm not completely happy with myself to be gay but i try to change that. It's hard with a world full of hate and darkness, and the feeling that, you'll never find your place anywhere.
But i want to thank you Jay and Bryan to give love and light in your videos. That's heal my heart a little bit. You give me hope and this is huge, trust me.
im gay 15 and depressed i tryed to kil myself but like you failed im much better theni used to be but am still lonely and sad and bitter i have self esteem can you say anything to help i have no live and im hopelessly stuiped (realy i have a.d.h.d. Attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder ) and am bad at everything gust say something to me please help im not going to try to kill myself but i am deadfuly painfuly lonly and scared
@Trashfished I was referring to the comment u made to zdtfdfhgjk I may have jump the gun a bit but to me that statement was quite dismissive to his pain ... I apologize if that was not the way you attended it.
@zdtfdfhgjk aww sweetie ....find a help line hun.... ring them... Im in NZ I dont know where u r.... find some help sweetie.... Plz email JAY & BRYAN let them try to talk to you..... email me click my name and email me
@zdtfdfhgjk u can talk to me about anything m8 seriousely just get back to my message .dont kill ur self ive felt like that before but just think m8 ur better than them gay hating fuckos out there whci are retatrded in the head m8 ur not . get back to my message as soon as possible m8 regards mattx
Though I'm not gay and never wanted to commit suicide because of being gay...you hit the nail on the head when describing your emotional motivation for suicide. Because I was different and disliked by the vast majority of my classmates from first to eighth grade, in the middle of the whole thing, at the age of nine, I echoed the sentiment and contemplated suicide. It doesn't matter if you're gay or straight. No one should live or die like that. Thank you for choosing life <3
i can very much relate to your story...I myself felt your pain as a teenager and did attempt suicide at 16. Im south-asian (indian) and being openly gay is so stigmatized in indian society, the feeling of being marginalized is inevitable. Despite all, I came out to all 2 yrs ago, and now at 23, Ive become a stronger person. I learnt that You only get to live once, so y make your life a misery by trying to conform and please others?
@chancePurvis Do you realize that the same passage that condemns homosexuality also condemns haircuts, tattoos, shaving, and wearing clothes made of a textile blend? Have you ever cut your hair or worn polyblend? Then you have defied your God. Why conform to society's standard when you are obviously so concerned with your God's standard? If you're going to take the Bible literally, take ALL of it literally. Otherwise, it's pure hypocrisy.
That's YOUR opinion. My opinion is that the bible also said love thy neighbor as thyself. I think this man, this inspiring man, would be a great neighbor, so it's not wrong because I'm following one of the ten commandments. And please keep your bible preaching to yourself. This is not the place to discuss religion.
wow, i'm heterosexual and i don't claim to even understand what your life must have been like. you are brave, i just watch the matthew shepard movie, it was so moving, i highly recommend, it is a tear jerker. can anyone explain to me why his shoes were removed after he was raped and when he was bashed? i don't understand. peace
Jay, you have no idea how bad I want to hug you now! It's not easy to make me cry, but you sure did! I would love to meet you guys some day. I love watching your videos! Thank you for being a strong role model for young gays and lesbians. I wish I had someone like you to look up to when I was younger! :)
i JUST HAD A LITTLE WHILE AGO A FRIEND WHO COMMITTED SUICIDE. HE HAD WORKED AS A MALE PROSTITUTE DURING HIS TWENTIES. I KNEW THAT THINGS WOULD ONE DAY COME TO HAUNT HIM. HE HAD BIPOLAR DISORDER AND THAT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT. I
i think you are a cunt that should just jump and thank god that ther is people out ther like me that are so forgiveing for looking up your shit you sinner 7 hale marry's for you
Thank you so much for this video. I found myself crying when you started to choke up, cuz suicidal thoughts were with me constantly during highschool, and still is to some extent. I admire your bravery for making this video. I hope I can be as brave when I come out to people, notably my parents.
I wish I could be friends with you... Its hard to find very nice guys like you, I mean, I was suicidal at one point and I brought pills and a suicidal scheme to school and I was caught. Now I'm in a partial hospitalization program and my life is fucked. I am actually more depressed than I have ever been because of school. But I was glad you made this video. Thanks for making it.
I'm not a lesbian but I had lots of problems when I was younger. I tried to kill myself too and I know a lot of people who are really sad because of their lives. It was so great of you, that you did this video. I don't get why people don't accept gay people, they're people too. We got to love ech other, gay as straight, black as white, cause the only thing that matters is, that we are humen!!!!!
I'm Catholic, from Northern California, and am extremely happy that you made this, thank you so much, have you ever thought about doing talks at schools? I'm not gay but my sister is, lucky her she doesn't have any problems other than some of the people she tries to date, haha.
@depfox hehe I'm female also, it's ok you didn't know. we're from Stockton by the way where there's only ONE real gay bar in out city and let me tell you I can't think of a better place to be I love their doorman who checks IDs he went to school with my dad
I have been closeted for most of my teenage years. I've often contemplated of suicide and reenacted them in my head: Cutting my wrists, overdosing on pills dying slowly. It was an emotionally trying period in my life. When I got to college and came out, people started accepting me and it indeed got better.
I'm glad you are still alive and kicking. You have so many blessings in your life now, namely: Bryan and the kids. I wish you all the best.
I've never struggled with being homosexual so this doesn't touch me as much as others :/ I've always been accepted by everyone.. never been bullied never been talked down on :)
my bestfriend suffers from major depression and told me a week ago that she had attempted suicide last year but failed. she said "You know you cant do anything right when you cant even kill yourself" to which i replyed "that doesnt mean you cant dont anything right, it means your being kept on this earth for a purpose. a purpose you havnt fulfilled yet." i started thinking about it and EVERYONE has a purpose in this world. its YOUR job to fulfill it before your time on this earth runs out.
@Trashfished what?! suicide is a part of nature?! hell no!! even IF you dont think being gay is right its humanly wrong to wish that on ANYONE!! people like you started the holocaust!! congrats hitler
you have all the great features of being a gay man. you have a great voice, you're fit and you're a family man. I would cherish your life so much. I'm sure many gay guys are envious of your life so please don't be so hasty in taking it away. All this comes from a loving place.
Jay thank you so much for posting this. I know how hard it was to tell your story. I had thought about suicide a lot when I was younger. I tried once. I have only told 2 or 3 people the whole story. Many young kids are teased at school. I never had that problem. I was teased at home and beaten. I wish everyone who thinks being gay is a choice could see this video. People do not realise what they are really saying when the make hateful comments.
@On1993Polska It is for some, few, but some, not all, I'm serious. No offence intended, for some, suicide is the only answer. I don't want that, but, it is for some. :(
@Introspective91 Oh please.. There were hard moments in my life that I didn't want to live. I was being bullied. Every each day I was crying, couldn't find a pright place for myself. Someone helped me and I'm alive because of him. I'm deadly thankful to him. Maybe I didn't plan my suicide like you did. In my situation it was like choosing dark, lonely places to walk just with a hope that someone could attack me or hitting a wall with my fist. My fingers looked awfully. If I did anything stupid..
@Introspective91 .. I wouldn't be here now. I'm glad I understood that a suicide is not a way. It's just total giving up that we just CAN'T do! It's like banned. No one can be so weak that couldn't face a problem. There are a lot of ways and the most impoortant whing is to understand that THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY! Please trust my words. Even if I'm 17, I guess I know what I say.
This brought tears to my eyes, people ask me why I think my teenage years are so hard, but they dont realize who I am, I am seventeen years old. I would just like to take the time and thank both of you, Bryan And jay for making these videos. They are really helpful and inspiring. Hopefully soon I can start making videos to try and help other people. - Bub
Its too pointless to think that God cares...as a gay person I can never have faith in anything other than what you thought when u wanted to commit suicide...but unlike u im a coward....I cant do it.., but I so want to...its the only choice..its the best choice to find the truth..God doesnt care that i am sure of
I've attempted suicide 4 times over the last year because I cannot depart for the barrage of homophobia that has been shown to me and feeling unclean and hellbound for my sexuality.There are people all around who say it gets better but promises offer little solace when in the depths of the storm.I've been reared by ideologies which deem unfit for society and years of this rhetoric has scarred my psyche.
@pm222444 I'm so sorry that you have experienced so much hate. I'm straight, but my best friend in a lesbian, and trying to keep her from self-harming (mentally and physically) depressed from all the hate is awful. I wouldn't wish her experiences on anyone (except for the homophobes out there). I'm begging you to stay strong until you can get the hell out of there. And don't worry- judging by your comment you're a kind & intelligent person, & you WILL find a happiness, just as this man did :)
I try to kill myself when I was Sixteen because i was gay, I am 39 and looking back i glad it didn't work , then my father shot himself in front of me and my mom, i was 20 years old at the time and i seen how suicide affects the people that left behind so thks jay for sharing ur story my father was very abuse to me and mom when i was growing up
@CadlliacDeville96 Nothing but lies. Your father shot himself over a series of drug deals with unscrupulous ruffians so that you could get the insurance. By the way, can I borrow a few dollars?
@PurpleGumsMcGee why would u comment like that and no there was any insurance money my god what wrong with u, i sure there a special place in hell waiting for people like u
I am SOOO GLADD that the queers have finally starting to see what MUTANTS they are, and just start killing THEMSELVES. It just saves the decent members the problem of having to deal with them.Hitler had the RIGHT IDEA to just put the queers and mentally retarded to SLEEP. That was VERY HUMANE!
I'm so glad you failed at your suicide attempts. It looks like you live a beautiful life now. I'm so so sooo happy for you. You are an inspiration man. Truly you are. ♥
Fortunately in my case i only tryied to kill myself because of depression, but that was previous to when i knew i was gay. And i developed faster self confidence since then. That helped me fight against everythign i heard from my father, mother and sisters, since i came out my home never felt like home. I had the chance to get support from my close friends, that probably save me. Thank you for this video. And never be afraid of remenbering it. We need to remember so we can grow better.
I too was about your age when I was staring at a gun. I didn't do anything but eventually told a freind. We had a chat. Later I found out a respected news anchor I liked his brother killed himself. He sent me a letter I kept for years.
Oddly when i eventually moved away and began to communicate with other gay men around the world they had the same feelings I did and they didn't live in my area nor experience my life.
Burn in Hell faggot! The Klan wishes you all dead! Disgusting filthy sub-human scum! We personally would like to attend with Movie Theatre Popcorn a faggot commit suicide. Good work of comedy, and mellow drama.
You scum want equality!? You'll receive it in Hell, where your surely headed. You claim faggotness is a disease, hilariously incorrect. EVERYONE on God's green earth has a choice in whom and what they partake in.
@depfox Jay, Thank you for making this video. I am so pleased to see you are among us. It both shocks and revolts me that this still occures today. When I was a teenager in the early 80's, I met, dated and had a relationship with Bobby Griffith(Prayers for Bobby). But look at you, blessed with such a beautiful family. I'll cruise into your videos, just to be emboldened by the new faces of the American experience! May G-D bless you and your family! Blaine
Jay as you know, life is full of difficult times, some worst then others, some seem to have no way out. Being gay is not a no win situation. As much as suicide seems to be the answer to solve all unbearable probems and an out of control life, it isn't...it just ends life. The problems are left behind for those still living wondering why you left them. I want to believe that we are here for a purpose, a reason and by cutting life short we'll never know whose life we could have effected. LIVE
watching through your videos where you are with the kids and with your husband i never would have suspected you were once so miserable and in so much pain; you seem so happy now, no scars are showing; im very happy for you and wish you all the best; you are both an inspiration for me; your videos give me hope for a better life someday
Thank goodness you lived that day!! I find your videos inspirational! I am sure you have helped many people who felt the way you did see a light at the end of the tunnel. It cuts my heart to hear about those young people who took their lives because of the fear and pain other people inflicted upon them for being gay. They were beautiful young people with so much to give and receive in life.
It is very uplifting to see what you have made of your life in spite of other peoples negativity and hate
I think about killing myself so many time and in so many way, but being a catholic i was teach that if you kill yourself it a ticket straight to hell. It probably the only reason I haven't kill myself yet. It just that I cannot seem to find the reason to go on, not even for myself or my family. Sometime at night I cry and ask God why. Why was i brought here? I didn't ask to be gay. I ask him please just take this life of mine. I still don't know the answer to my question yet.
@hvu6 Why are you here? Because you're here. Why are you gay? Because you're gay. The questions you're asking have no absolute answers. One thing I do know is you're not here to end your life, think of all the things you'll miss like, love and falling in love. Also think of those who will miss you ,not just the people you know but the people you will know.
Jay, I am so grateful you made this video. I'm 24, in graduate school studying counseling, and I've been in the closet all my life. A few months ago I tried to take my life for many of the same reasons you did. My family found out after the attempt that I'm bisexual. I don't know if I should continue studying counseling either b/c life at home is crazy and after the attempt I feel in a way unfit to study counseling if that makes sense. I feel lost in many ways...I don't know what to do...
I just cried seeing this video. It was sincere and honest. It needs courage to talk about that and you have it. During the hard times it is difficult to realize that it can get better, but it indeed gets better. But you survived and now have a happy fulfilling life... Suicide is never the answer... You guys are amazing... thanks for sharing this.
I too have tried to kill myself a few times, I am not gay (but i do identify as somewhere grey on the scale of sexuality), I do however suffer from chronic depression, was abused as a child, was kicked out at 16...I could continue but there is no point, i have learnt form it, survived it and am stronger for it.
Thankyou for makng this video and Bryan did an awesome job in supporting you and no doubt supplying plenty of hugs and comfort post filming. thankyoiu.
...thank U for uploading this video...I approached suicide few times...and thanks God wasnt successfull in it..but now...loneliness....it kills me more than suicide...I just cannot make a peace with fact it's so hard to find good guy...all gays are only into sex, fun & open relationships...it kills my hope....sorry for my english...greetings from Poland...BuddhaLonely
BuddhaLonely 6 days ago
you look so sad in this video, it breaks my heart. Glad you are so happy now x
rob26bingley 3 weeks ago
ignore the other people mate im gay too and im glad i like other men big whoop.
mspuppylover65 1 month ago
Thank you Jay for telling your story, God Bless you
Thatdude692011 1 month ago
Wait is your birthday september 1st?
AkuziSuper12 3 months ago
Your family portrait makes me feel happy!
armeniausa 3 months ago 2
Thank you for this. This is the most sincere, genuine, personal heartfelt message I have ever watched on YouTube or anywhere for that matter. The tears I have as I type this message are cause I have been where you where, and I’m so thankful I as you, did not succeed in suicide. My only wish is that every person who has suicidal thoughts could just know that there are many who can and would love the opportunity to help them. I also, as you stated, am so happy, beyond words,that I’m alive.
~Russ
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this was a great video and i hope that some where out there their are gay people seeing this and knowing that suicide is not the answer i respect you for doing this video and i really hope that your message goes through as many people as possible love is love no matter who u love
MsAlante809 3 months ago
Wow. As a gay journalist I thank you.
globewriter 4 months ago
You said this: "I just wanted to pain to go away." Suicide is always about ending pain. And for those who have chronic suicidal thoughts, learning ways to lessen the pain - learning a skill - how to become stronger so that you don't break up: that is the best insurance for long-term survival. Suicide is an option for certain (terminally ill) people: usually, healthy people don't need to go to that place to lessen the pain. Check out Dialectical Behavioral Therapy: you can read the stuff for free
gayforlife2020 4 months ago
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• Bagley and Tremblay (1997) reported that 5 out of 8 suicide attempters were homosexual/bisexual males (16, 17), and a previous study of the same sample had reported that 6 out of 8 suicide attempters (75%) had been sexually abused (experienced unwanted sexual acts) before the age of 17 V Bagley, C., Wood, M., and Young, L. (1994). Victim to abuser: mental health and behavioral sequels of child sexual abuse in a survey of young adult males . Child Abuse & Neglect, 18(8), 683-97.
fruitycunt 5 months ago
Also JAY CAN I GIVE YOU A BIG CYBER HUG!!!!!!!! (when people cry my heart melts ^-^)
Vinnynixon33 5 months ago
1:46 something flashes on the screen, rather scared now :(
Vinnynixon33 5 months ago
....u have changed me Jay...i thought about doing suicide a few time but i couldnt do it....and now i wont ever think about doing it again. thank you and bless your heart and your beautiful family. :)
puppydogism 5 months ago
God saved you. God is good. I am a Christian, and finally realized that all people, cultures, sexualities is of value. Much Love:)
Mymoonlightray 5 months ago 3
that was a very heartbreaking video....enough so that i couldn't finish it. on a side note: ur birthday is close to mine! sept 8th here.
GarudaNitro 5 months ago
why do you make me cry every time I see this video jay?
I wanted to do the same for a long time, thank god I couldnt.
love you jay.
depfoxlatino 5 months ago
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCKING FAGGOTS KILLING THEMSELVES LIKE THEY SHOULD
Billiammorrison 5 months ago
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Billiammorrison 5 months ago
Fuck family!
julesario 5 months ago
I don;t understand why your father was not very loving accepting person he may never have been a Catholic ! I am a Catholic teen and they tell my that my Religion loves anybody no matter what !
MonsterLove305 5 months ago
@MonsterLove305 I don't know what Catholic church you go to but good for them for teaching you that....The church I was raised in was Catholic and they had know idea about that kind of teaching.
depfox 5 months ago
@depfox Times change and I am happy that the church I am being raised in is very accepting (: Are you still a Catholic ?
MonsterLove305 5 months ago
Suicide seems alot easier..
blakestewart1210 5 months ago
omg this made me cry ;;
sasurealian 5 months ago
i'm muslim and i cant tell my family my father abuses me and hates me as he thinks i'm wrong that i'm not a human or an animal that i'm nothing and dosnt deserve anthing of my rights as a human or animal and all of that i have to live with and i havnt told him that i'm gay and thats the ssame from all my brothers and sisters and mother.
thanks for the vid ....love you so much .......and the best of luck.. i thought of suicide...for a few weeks as an answere but know its not . the answere
sunjinn 5 months ago
Who on EARTH could dislike this video? I LOVE YOU :) and i dont even know you! XXXXX
emmajlz363 6 months ago
i understand how you feel. i nearly did suicide on myself because coming out wasn't easy. even if my coming out is still painful up to now. i'm just thankful i have lived long enough to find love. i'm really thankful that my boyfriend came into my life and he is my world and life now. the reason why i wanna stay alive.
kimzapanta91 6 months ago
Well done. I am sure you have saved some lives because of this video. The first and foremost person to love is yourself.
VinnieSutra 6 months ago
Jay I am so sorry for all those rude & insensitive people that do not understand. I'm really happy that your attempt to take your life didn't work because I think you and Bryan are both wonderful ppl and if ud have succeeded in your plan where would your family be now? Where would Salina and Daniel be? If you ask me it sounds like God had other plans for you. :) (oh and happy belated birthday!!!)
TeachersPet42 6 months ago
Thank you depfox <3
blueicechi 6 months ago
i happen to have no prob with gay people my bestie was but now hes bi but i would love to talk wth people who r having problums
MissCullanLover 7 months ago
I am what I am. I'm my own special creation. So come take a look, give me the hook or the ovation. It's my world and I want to have pride in it. It's my world and not a place I have to hide in. Life not worth a damn until I can say hey world I am what I am.
tboar456 7 months ago
I was a sissy when I went to school. From the first grade on nobody wanted anything to do with me. My own family didn't want anything to do with me. It's like the soul or llight inside went out. As an adult I still struggle with depression and thoughts of suicide. Of course I"m on meds. If you're different the world want to destroy you. I do feel destroyed. I don't know how to put the pices back together.
tboar456 7 months ago
@tboar456 Start by looking in the mirror and liking what you see....Shame on those people in school and your family for not loving you for who you are. BIG HUGS
depfox 7 months ago 4
@tboar456
Fly far away from the negative and soar into the sky. From up there everyone looks the same but you'll always be special.
Respect the 'sissy' in you! It's a negative label they gave you so take it back and own it by making it a positive! It's hard but know others are here with you! BIG Hugs from here to you too!
samud30 7 months ago
@tboar456 Learning to spell would be a start
Billiammorrison 5 months ago
@Billiammorrison "pieces" Is that Better?
tboar456 5 months ago
wow....Thank you for making this video. I'm not gay....but I have contemplated bout being bi...not sure yet...but i've had a rough life, and im only 17...I have a suicidal history and a history and current record of self harming....this video is a good indicator that my life might possibly have some little value to it...not sure bout that either.... but thanks for the video...and im glad u have a happy life....
Simone818 8 months ago
@Simone818 your life will ALWAYS have value.
creamsodaistasty 7 months ago
@creamsodaistasty thanks...but im not sure....but thanks :)
Simone818 7 months ago
thank you so much for making this video. oh my gosh it made me cryy. im gled i continued on, that i faltered that night. i hesitated then couldnt continue ending it all. now i'm on my way to college, i have a beautiful girlfriend. im coming out to my catholic father next wednesday. if he doesnt take it well, i have her and her family to support, comfort, and love me through it. thank you so much. love. lauren
hulagurl93 8 months ago
Thanks alot guys your video really helps
ElterribleMrKevins 8 months ago
I didn't know that lesbians commit suicide. That sucks. Who doesn't like lesbians? That's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. What's not to like? Wow.
Any suicidal gay people out there should just move to Columbus, Ohio. Here, you are discriminated against if you're NOT gay.
Bossk333 8 months ago
@Bossk333 Of course they do. Lesbians experience a considerable amount of social stigma too. A good friend of mine came out when we were in the eighth grade (first one in our grade to do so, may I say) and you should have seen the shit she went through.
bookcreator 7 months ago
Thank god people being gay is becoming less and less of a deal and soon nobody will care
motherdadder 8 months ago
i think faggot suicide is a great idea.. keep up the good work faggots.. lets rid the world from ass divers one at a time!!!
bayonetsluts 8 months ago
@bayonetsluts hahahahah YES thats what this world needs more gey suicides if only justin bieber wuld do it
MegaKlaxons 8 months ago
@bayonetsluts Coming from someone who idols Hitler...LMFAO.You have a lot to learn, little man.
creamsodaistasty 7 months ago
@bayonetsluts how about you kill yourself but not because you are a faggot but because you are a piece of shit. Your homophobia clearly displays your closet homosexuality. You might as well put a big fuck me sign on your asshole even though the only person who would is your blue father you fucking redneck piece of shit. EVOLVE you stupid ignorant CUNT.
motherdadder 7 months ago
"I am a very happy man" Doesn't look very happy to me! LOL! Just the expression I mean!
DeathRulezzz 9 months ago
@DeathRulezzz The description explains why his attitude seems a bit melancholy.
creamsodaistasty 7 months ago
please please dont kill ur self ur a really nice person x
MrSwifty2 9 months ago
I tried to hang myself when i was 15. My older brother save me when i was losing consciousness. 10 years later, i'm not completely happy with myself to be gay but i try to change that. It's hard with a world full of hate and darkness, and the feeling that, you'll never find your place anywhere.
But i want to thank you Jay and Bryan to give love and light in your videos. That's heal my heart a little bit. You give me hope and this is huge, trust me.
With love, from France.
Hellfinky 9 months ago
@Hellfinky pussy
neglected2010 7 months ago
im gay 15 and depressed i tryed to kil myself but like you failed im much better theni used to be but am still lonely and sad and bitter i have self esteem can you say anything to help i have no live and im hopelessly stuiped (realy i have a.d.h.d. Attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder ) and am bad at everything gust say something to me please help im not going to try to kill myself but i am deadfuly painfuly lonly and scared
zdtfdfhgjk 9 months ago
@zdtfdfhgjk Get a girlfriend and straighten out your life pal.
Trashfished 9 months ago
@Trashfished dont be a asshole man
Bellalee40 9 months ago
@Bellalee40 Uh, what?
Trashfished 9 months ago
@Trashfished I was referring to the comment u made to zdtfdfhgjk I may have jump the gun a bit but to me that statement was quite dismissive to his pain ... I apologize if that was not the way you attended it.
Bellalee40 9 months ago
@Trashfished shut up who are u to judge him fucko
MrSwifty2 9 months ago
@MrSwifty2 LMFAO!
Trashfished 9 months ago
@zdtfdfhgjk aww sweetie ....find a help line hun.... ring them... Im in NZ I dont know where u r.... find some help sweetie.... Plz email JAY & BRYAN let them try to talk to you..... email me click my name and email me
Bellalee40 9 months ago
@zdtfdfhgjk u can talk to me about anything m8 seriousely just get back to my message .dont kill ur self ive felt like that before but just think m8 ur better than them gay hating fuckos out there whci are retatrded in the head m8 ur not . get back to my message as soon as possible m8 regards mattx
MrSwifty2 9 months ago
@MrSwifty2 Wow m8, you are definitely retarded
Billiammorrison 5 months ago
Though I'm not gay and never wanted to commit suicide because of being gay...you hit the nail on the head when describing your emotional motivation for suicide. Because I was different and disliked by the vast majority of my classmates from first to eighth grade, in the middle of the whole thing, at the age of nine, I echoed the sentiment and contemplated suicide. It doesn't matter if you're gay or straight. No one should live or die like that. Thank you for choosing life <3
librarising 9 months ago
@librarising i totally agree with u m8 i use to be sucidle but got over it u only have 1 life and i live mine to the full
MrSwifty2 9 months ago
@MrSwifty2 what would it take to push you over the edge?
bayonetsluts 8 months ago
There should be a LOVE button;
you are a rodemodel; You shuld consider reaching out to schools, and speak to teenagers !
yessyx0x 9 months ago
i can very much relate to your story...I myself felt your pain as a teenager and did attempt suicide at 16. Im south-asian (indian) and being openly gay is so stigmatized in indian society, the feeling of being marginalized is inevitable. Despite all, I came out to all 2 yrs ago, and now at 23, Ive become a stronger person. I learnt that You only get to live once, so y make your life a misery by trying to conform and please others?
crebillonfils 9 months ago
being gay is wrong, it says in the bible You shall not lay with another man as you would a woman.
chancePurvis 9 months ago
@chancePurvis Do you realize that the same passage that condemns homosexuality also condemns haircuts, tattoos, shaving, and wearing clothes made of a textile blend? Have you ever cut your hair or worn polyblend? Then you have defied your God. Why conform to society's standard when you are obviously so concerned with your God's standard? If you're going to take the Bible literally, take ALL of it literally. Otherwise, it's pure hypocrisy.
JannaBanana552 9 months ago
@chancePurvis
That's YOUR opinion. My opinion is that the bible also said love thy neighbor as thyself. I think this man, this inspiring man, would be a great neighbor, so it's not wrong because I'm following one of the ten commandments. And please keep your bible preaching to yourself. This is not the place to discuss religion.
ThePenguinbabe 6 months ago
wow, i'm heterosexual and i don't claim to even understand what your life must have been like. you are brave, i just watch the matthew shepard movie, it was so moving, i highly recommend, it is a tear jerker. can anyone explain to me why his shoes were removed after he was raped and when he was bashed? i don't understand. peace
chrissiemoda 9 months ago
Jay, you have no idea how bad I want to hug you now! It's not easy to make me cry, but you sure did! I would love to meet you guys some day. I love watching your videos! Thank you for being a strong role model for young gays and lesbians. I wish I had someone like you to look up to when I was younger! :)
marysmom8 10 months ago
i JUST HAD A LITTLE WHILE AGO A FRIEND WHO COMMITTED SUICIDE. HE HAD WORKED AS A MALE PROSTITUTE DURING HIS TWENTIES. I KNEW THAT THINGS WOULD ONE DAY COME TO HAUNT HIM. HE HAD BIPOLAR DISORDER AND THAT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT. I
RayL1983 10 months ago
by ginsters happy munching look up lee mack it will make you laugh and stop you killing your self.
jodie1045 10 months ago
by ginsters happy munching
jodie1045 10 months ago
i wont her i see her she is what she is and what she is is a blind monkey
jodie1045 10 months ago
i think you are a cunt that should just jump and thank god that ther is people out ther like me that are so forgiveing for looking up your shit you sinner 7 hale marry's for you
jodie1045 10 months ago
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DanielBeyblade 10 months ago
@DanielBeyblade What a stupid comment,and obviously have a brain of 2 year old if you don't understand the message Jay is sending to people.
novo3939 10 months ago
twat
jodie1045 10 months ago
Thanks for the video,Good luck to you in the future,you have many happy years ahead of you.Your family is great !!!!!!!!
kentwesterly 10 months ago
Gay teens are twice as likely to commit suicide
Says the gay man to the transexual
BassBOY0GIRL 10 months ago
i love you..
mylabs85 11 months ago
Thank you so much for this video. I found myself crying when you started to choke up, cuz suicidal thoughts were with me constantly during highschool, and still is to some extent. I admire your bravery for making this video. I hope I can be as brave when I come out to people, notably my parents.
lollipopcandy1 11 months ago
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PurpleGumsMcGee 11 months ago
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PurpleGumsMcGee 11 months ago
Hi Jay :)
So very glad you gt it together!
I'm Gay and a outcast in our "community" !
I'm writting this because I'm so close to ending it !
Nothing more to live for in this hateful conservative society in West Berkshire UK !
But glad you've found something worth living for :)
Hamzalove1 11 months ago
I live really close to this bridge.
XxLuciferousxX 11 months ago
I like to watch this when ever I'm feeling low. I always feel a lil better.
SUPREMEQUEEN09 11 months ago
I wish I could be friends with you... Its hard to find very nice guys like you, I mean, I was suicidal at one point and I brought pills and a suicidal scheme to school and I was caught. Now I'm in a partial hospitalization program and my life is fucked. I am actually more depressed than I have ever been because of school. But I was glad you made this video. Thanks for making it.
HearTheFear13 11 months ago
that was so awesome, thank you for doing that!!!!
I'm not a lesbian but I had lots of problems when I was younger. I tried to kill myself too and I know a lot of people who are really sad because of their lives. It was so great of you, that you did this video. I don't get why people don't accept gay people, they're people too. We got to love ech other, gay as straight, black as white, cause the only thing that matters is, that we are humen!!!!!
PEACE!
princessproll00 11 months ago
I'm Catholic, from Northern California, and am extremely happy that you made this, thank you so much, have you ever thought about doing talks at schools? I'm not gay but my sister is, lucky her she doesn't have any problems other than some of the people she tries to date, haha.
jades209 1 year ago 3
@jades209 WOW i am glad your sister has a brother like you
depfox 1 year ago 3
@depfox hehe I'm female also, it's ok you didn't know. we're from Stockton by the way where there's only ONE real gay bar in out city and let me tell you I can't think of a better place to be I love their doorman who checks IDs he went to school with my dad
jades209 1 year ago
wow that sucks
20PAPERHOLIC10 1 year ago
I have been closeted for most of my teenage years. I've often contemplated of suicide and reenacted them in my head: Cutting my wrists, overdosing on pills dying slowly. It was an emotionally trying period in my life. When I got to college and came out, people started accepting me and it indeed got better.
I'm glad you are still alive and kicking. You have so many blessings in your life now, namely: Bryan and the kids. I wish you all the best.
MrMikomyx 1 year ago
thanks for sharing this
ChannelUmptyThree 1 year ago
Thank you for sharing a very important message.
kunamish 1 year ago
I've never struggled with being homosexual so this doesn't touch me as much as others :/ I've always been accepted by everyone.. never been bullied never been talked down on :)
teamogleal 1 year ago
my bestfriend suffers from major depression and told me a week ago that she had attempted suicide last year but failed. she said "You know you cant do anything right when you cant even kill yourself" to which i replyed "that doesnt mean you cant dont anything right, it means your being kept on this earth for a purpose. a purpose you havnt fulfilled yet." i started thinking about it and EVERYONE has a purpose in this world. its YOUR job to fulfill it before your time on this earth runs out.
bord2thebone 1 year ago
@zaynzaynzayn I cried also, from laughing my fucking ass off!!
Trashfished 1 year ago
@Trashfished what the hell is wrong with you?! your honestly laughing at this?! you honestly need some serious help!
bord2thebone 1 year ago
@bord2thebone LMFAO!!! Nature pal working its natural course.
Trashfished 1 year ago
@Trashfished what?! suicide is a part of nature?! hell no!! even IF you dont think being gay is right its humanly wrong to wish that on ANYONE!! people like you started the holocaust!! congrats hitler
bord2thebone 1 year ago
You are to be congratulated for your courage on making this video. I am glad to know that you have found happiness in life.
You look like a great couple with a wonderful family (and you look rather good in a uniform, too)
aussieyimon 1 year ago
you have all the great features of being a gay man. you have a great voice, you're fit and you're a family man. I would cherish your life so much. I'm sure many gay guys are envious of your life so please don't be so hasty in taking it away. All this comes from a loving place.
12GaugeNippleRings 1 year ago
Thank you for the wonderful video...you touch more lives than you will ever know....Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
brattboy33 1 year ago
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Jeannenyc57 1 year ago
@Jeannenyc57 LMFAO!!
Trashfished 1 year ago
Jay thank you so much for posting this. I know how hard it was to tell your story. I had thought about suicide a lot when I was younger. I tried once. I have only told 2 or 3 people the whole story. Many young kids are teased at school. I never had that problem. I was teased at home and beaten. I wish everyone who thinks being gay is a choice could see this video. People do not realise what they are really saying when the make hateful comments.
BlueShreveport 1 year ago
Yes, you're right. Suicide is not an answer.
On1993Polska 1 year ago
@On1993Polska It is for some, few, but some, not all, I'm serious. No offence intended, for some, suicide is the only answer. I don't want that, but, it is for some. :(
Introspective91 1 year ago
@Introspective91 Oh please.. There were hard moments in my life that I didn't want to live. I was being bullied. Every each day I was crying, couldn't find a pright place for myself. Someone helped me and I'm alive because of him. I'm deadly thankful to him. Maybe I didn't plan my suicide like you did. In my situation it was like choosing dark, lonely places to walk just with a hope that someone could attack me or hitting a wall with my fist. My fingers looked awfully. If I did anything stupid..
On1993Polska 1 year ago
@Introspective91 .. I wouldn't be here now. I'm glad I understood that a suicide is not a way. It's just total giving up that we just CAN'T do! It's like banned. No one can be so weak that couldn't face a problem. There are a lot of ways and the most impoortant whing is to understand that THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY! Please trust my words. Even if I'm 17, I guess I know what I say.
On1993Polska 1 year ago
noone should ever feel like that is the way out. Life is a gift and suicide is never the answer
scoutjess 1 year ago
This brought tears to my eyes, people ask me why I think my teenage years are so hard, but they dont realize who I am, I am seventeen years old. I would just like to take the time and thank both of you, Bryan And jay for making these videos. They are really helpful and inspiring. Hopefully soon I can start making videos to try and help other people. - Bub
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seena1801 1 year ago
I live by one rule Look out for yourself and no one can touch you!
SleazeThrobb12345 1 year ago
Its too pointless to think that God cares...as a gay person I can never have faith in anything other than what you thought when u wanted to commit suicide...but unlike u im a coward....I cant do it.., but I so want to...its the only choice..its the best choice to find the truth..God doesnt care that i am sure of
nevashiva 1 year ago
Is a "gay suicide" when someone kills them self while watching sex in the city?
motherdadder 1 year ago
@motherdadder PWNT !!!!!!!!!!!1
turtleshells118 1 year ago
@zaynzaynzayn I am glad we both made it to today.
depfox 1 year ago 4
I read in Parent's magazine that gay teens who are rejected by their parents are up to 9 times more likely than average to commit suicide. 9 TIMES!
zaynzaynzayn 1 year ago
I've attempted suicide 4 times over the last year because I cannot depart for the barrage of homophobia that has been shown to me and feeling unclean and hellbound for my sexuality.There are people all around who say it gets better but promises offer little solace when in the depths of the storm.I've been reared by ideologies which deem unfit for society and years of this rhetoric has scarred my psyche.
pm222444 1 year ago
@pm222444 I'm so sorry that you have experienced so much hate. I'm straight, but my best friend in a lesbian, and trying to keep her from self-harming (mentally and physically) depressed from all the hate is awful. I wouldn't wish her experiences on anyone (except for the homophobes out there). I'm begging you to stay strong until you can get the hell out of there. And don't worry- judging by your comment you're a kind & intelligent person, & you WILL find a happiness, just as this man did :)
JannaBanana552 9 months ago
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You couldn't even kill yourself? Man, gays are useless
MagicMarky20 1 year ago
@MagicMarky20 Fuck off.
abecrombiie4ever 1 year ago
Was i supposed to cry??
matheson1958 1 year ago
@matheson1958 your such a jerk
Billiammorrison 1 year ago
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Billiammorrison 1 year ago
@Billiammorrison What about cigarrettes? Didn't your mother ever tell you not to smoke? It's an awful habit.
JannaBanana552 9 months ago
God saved you! Gob Bless you Jay!
lyoshakz 1 year ago
I try to kill myself when I was Sixteen because i was gay, I am 39 and looking back i glad it didn't work , then my father shot himself in front of me and my mom, i was 20 years old at the time and i seen how suicide affects the people that left behind so thks jay for sharing ur story my father was very abuse to me and mom when i was growing up
CadlliacDeville96 1 year ago
@CadlliacDeville96 Nothing but lies. Your father shot himself over a series of drug deals with unscrupulous ruffians so that you could get the insurance. By the way, can I borrow a few dollars?
PurpleGumsMcGee 1 year ago
@PurpleGumsMcGee why would u comment like that and no there was any insurance money my god what wrong with u, i sure there a special place in hell waiting for people like u
CadlliacDeville96 1 year ago
@CadlliacDeville96 I'll take that as a "no" on the loan. Foiled again.
PurpleGumsMcGee 1 year ago
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I am SOOO GLADD that the queers have finally starting to see what MUTANTS they are, and just start killing THEMSELVES. It just saves the decent members the problem of having to deal with them.Hitler had the RIGHT IDEA to just put the queers and mentally retarded to SLEEP. That was VERY HUMANE!
NSA666999 1 year ago
This is truly fantastic to watch. Glad you made it through.
Matt141094 1 year ago
Damnit, so close.
We'll get the next one.
TheYummyPokemon 1 year ago
I'm so glad you failed at your suicide attempts. It looks like you live a beautiful life now. I'm so so sooo happy for you. You are an inspiration man. Truly you are. ♥
brandoncherrymusic 1 year ago
Fortunately in my case i only tryied to kill myself because of depression, but that was previous to when i knew i was gay. And i developed faster self confidence since then. That helped me fight against everythign i heard from my father, mother and sisters, since i came out my home never felt like home. I had the chance to get support from my close friends, that probably save me. Thank you for this video. And never be afraid of remenbering it. We need to remember so we can grow better.
patadeurso 1 year ago
how beautiful...thank you so much
sbrownie 1 year ago
Good video
jdcinsf 1 year ago
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InSalinaLand 1 year ago
thanks for this video,
anthonynewsome 1 year ago
Thanks for this.
Malcolm.
Vancouver. BC.
Canada.
mdfarren 1 year ago
husband and father? so you are married to a man??
I too was about your age when I was staring at a gun. I didn't do anything but eventually told a freind. We had a chat. Later I found out a respected news anchor I liked his brother killed himself. He sent me a letter I kept for years.
Oddly when i eventually moved away and began to communicate with other gay men around the world they had the same feelings I did and they didn't live in my area nor experience my life.
garycalgary 1 year ago
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7daytheoryful 1 year ago
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Gay fuck !!
7daytheoryful 1 year ago
Great video. Sorry I missed it, but glad you sent it to me this time. Favorited. Thumbs up.
Gimmeabreakman 1 year ago
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Burn in Hell faggot! The Klan wishes you all dead! Disgusting filthy sub-human scum! We personally would like to attend with Movie Theatre Popcorn a faggot commit suicide. Good work of comedy, and mellow drama.
You scum want equality!? You'll receive it in Hell, where your surely headed. You claim faggotness is a disease, hilariously incorrect. EVERYONE on God's green earth has a choice in whom and what they partake in.
Faggotness = blasphemy and a choice.
TheKuKluxKlan2012 1 year ago
blainebill39 1 year ago
Dear God, Thank You.
Thank You that I lived,that it did not work.As many that made it past and though that ,
WE are here everyday now ,We are all over the world, teaching the golden rule.
No one should suffer because, now you are not alone .It`s a growing up process
encourage your self. one day at a time,see the change all over the whole world .:-)
OKflaMAN 1 year ago
God loves every one!!! ;)
ImAirRunner 1 year ago
Jay as you know, life is full of difficult times, some worst then others, some seem to have no way out. Being gay is not a no win situation. As much as suicide seems to be the answer to solve all unbearable probems and an out of control life, it isn't...it just ends life. The problems are left behind for those still living wondering why you left them. I want to believe that we are here for a purpose, a reason and by cutting life short we'll never know whose life we could have effected. LIVE
BornGayTaughtToHate 1 year ago
watching through your videos where you are with the kids and with your husband i never would have suspected you were once so miserable and in so much pain; you seem so happy now, no scars are showing; im very happy for you and wish you all the best; you are both an inspiration for me; your videos give me hope for a better life someday
radubradu 1 year ago
Thank goodness you lived that day!! I find your videos inspirational! I am sure you have helped many people who felt the way you did see a light at the end of the tunnel. It cuts my heart to hear about those young people who took their lives because of the fear and pain other people inflicted upon them for being gay. They were beautiful young people with so much to give and receive in life.
It is very uplifting to see what you have made of your life in spite of other peoples negativity and hate
soundseeker63 1 year ago
I think about killing myself so many time and in so many way, but being a catholic i was teach that if you kill yourself it a ticket straight to hell. It probably the only reason I haven't kill myself yet. It just that I cannot seem to find the reason to go on, not even for myself or my family. Sometime at night I cry and ask God why. Why was i brought here? I didn't ask to be gay. I ask him please just take this life of mine. I still don't know the answer to my question yet.
hvu6 1 year ago
@hvu6 Why are you here? Because you're here. Why are you gay? Because you're gay. The questions you're asking have no absolute answers. One thing I do know is you're not here to end your life, think of all the things you'll miss like, love and falling in love. Also think of those who will miss you ,not just the people you know but the people you will know.
'No hero in your tradegy
No daring in your escape
No salutes for your surrender
Nothing noble in your fate." - Rush "The Pass"
amateurrevolutionary 1 year ago
Jay, I am so grateful you made this video. I'm 24, in graduate school studying counseling, and I've been in the closet all my life. A few months ago I tried to take my life for many of the same reasons you did. My family found out after the attempt that I'm bisexual. I don't know if I should continue studying counseling either b/c life at home is crazy and after the attempt I feel in a way unfit to study counseling if that makes sense. I feel lost in many ways...I don't know what to do...
BavarianGypsy 1 year ago
Fuck god also he doesnt exist.
mate you still beleive things you thought then,i can see it.
Mate you are insparational, you seem a very nice bloke, gay/straight dont make a difference thats just what you want to fuck.
You touched me then for trying to hide your feelings, your strong and you are a good life thats worth keeping, nice one.
aidan21 1 year ago
lesbians are great :)
aidan21 1 year ago
God Bless you Jay and your beautiful family, through your strength others may be saved :0) xxxJoolsxxx
BarrysDaughter 1 year ago
Very great, everyone should see the life like you do!
wastl95 1 year ago
Broke my heart :(
runecircle 1 year ago
I just cried seeing this video. It was sincere and honest. It needs courage to talk about that and you have it. During the hard times it is difficult to realize that it can get better, but it indeed gets better. But you survived and now have a happy fulfilling life... Suicide is never the answer... You guys are amazing... thanks for sharing this.
braziliaan 1 year ago
Thank you for this video. What a wonderful human being you are. I am posting this to my facebook.
pumpkinshellz 1 year ago
The first video i've seen to prevent suicide which helps, all other suicide prevention videos just make you want to do it more x x x
Alexjohnston16 1 year ago 2
Thank YOU!
androgenousanarchist 1 year ago
Thanks for making this video brother, take care!
Dash107 1 year ago
I too have tried to kill myself a few times, I am not gay (but i do identify as somewhere grey on the scale of sexuality), I do however suffer from chronic depression, was abused as a child, was kicked out at 16...I could continue but there is no point, i have learnt form it, survived it and am stronger for it.
Thankyou for makng this video and Bryan did an awesome job in supporting you and no doubt supplying plenty of hugs and comfort post filming. thankyoiu.
edaj84 1 year ago 2
Very touching! Thank you for the speech :-)
MegaJagex 1 year ago
thank you