3. Is Bipolar Mania Spiritual Enlightenment? 2 of 2 (Upgraded for 2010)

[TopShelfRippin]

Great stuff with the videos. I do have a very important question. Well, its more out of strong curiousity. Can I person heal without going through psychosis? I've meditated in recent times and ive basically just observed my weird thoughts, tormenting inner voice(inner critic), dellusions and basically just watched them fade away. I would then ground myself and something interesting happened after one session. I got up and hugged my mom and said I love you. I hated her before that.

[ErkkiEno]

In my first psychosis I thought I was enlightened. Nowadays when I'm in a psychosis I feel like I'm starting the joyrney to enlightenment. I had fear only in my first episode, and the others have been purely spiritual. Last time I acted aggressively when I ended up in a mental hospital and that's why I had to be there for 4 months. I thought that those nurses didn't have an idea what I was going through and they should let me keep progressing towards enlightenment. I felt very frustrated.

[arepasheat]

Can you talk a little bit more about the shadow side? Is this side revealed when one comes back down from the mania? And is this the piece that needs to be integrated with the expansive mystical experience?

[emeraldcityblues87]

just wanted to say that i experienced a "bipolar manic episode" in may and was hospitalized for a week and a half...even after snapping back to reality i look at it as the most sacred experienced of my life that served as a wake up call. My experience was basically everything you described here (luckily i never stripped naked) but it really cant be described in earthly terms..it was a gift and i feel blessed to live in the state of awareness i am now in. so much respect to you :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@emeraldcityblues87 Glad you are getting a lot out of the videos. Why don't you join us at Wake the Planet! I think you would like having some online support. For details, see my website at bipolarORwakingUPdotcom.

[edge18]

@emeraldcityblues87  i experienced one in march of 2010, hospitalized for 2 weeks, i am creative already poems lyrics, but i was more creative then, i just remember racing thoughts fast, i never hurt myself or others n i never thought about it

[duttywine64]

This is so true!!I have been in hospital twice now for manic episodes and experienced everything on this very and have been put on lithium,olanzapine,clonazepam,­epilim and was very upset because it took what I now know was a manic me away and I wanted it back because I went from feeling so awesome to a blank canvas and no feelings on the medication I also put on so much weight and now I still crave the mania and sometimes wish I could trigger it but the lows are also very real is it worth it????

[dahman511]

so whats's your take on this. is it that god is sending cheasebuger's from 1888 and telling you to eat it as a test of freshness or is it just some people are just plan crazy?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@dahman511 Honestly. I think God is crazy, at least from our perspective. His genius is so incompehensible to us that we just can't make sense of what we are going through.

[jmecrg]

im 35 i was diagnosed at 17 to be "bipolar" they have given me meds that im not even try to spell correctly from depakote to zyprexa lithium kolanapin (my fav lol) ...i dont do good on meds i feel like i`ve lost my edge yall know what im saying ...IMO bipolar is what they call someone who is much more in touch w/ the 11th and 12th strand of DNA or junk DNA as they call it ...this world has deseptive evil in it and we know this and it disrupts "bipolar" people ......focus focus focus ..meditate

[1xThreeDaysGrace1x]

3:40 is hilarious. you never think he is going to cuz but he does haha

[lamrimeater]

i believe that i have been supressing a manic episode for a few years now. bits of it peaks for a short period of time. i feel like my subconscious is leaking out and helping me realize this. then bam i see this i'm so gracious, its like the mania wants to come out and hug me and for the first time i want to hug it back! nurture it! this is fascinating... i feel like things are starting to make since. my vision of the Buddha, converting to Buddhism, my guilt over my denial. supression. wow!

[MusicalRambo]

Sean could you please invite my friend request? I kinda need your advice. So please let me send you a message.

[mrkflora291]

I know EXACTLY what this video is talking about, it's never been explained to me so well.

[TheLonelyGamer24]

im not bipolar but i kinda think the same way :P but not feel or see

[TheLonelyGamer24]

great friggin video!!!

[Liginha85]

Do you have an e-mail?

Because your video has explained a lot to me. I have a very close friend who is bipolar and I'm trying to understand his reactions.

Thank you!

[DopeAMeanTV]

does anyone know about the long term side effects combining lithium with marijuana?i was just hospitalized a week ago during a few hour period of drunken debauchery. I'm now back on a low dose of lithium: 300mg twice a day. i was on the same dose before and smoked 3 - 5 times a week. mostly to help me sleep (i hate klonopin & zyprexa). the only thing i noticed is slowed thinking. ive heard mary can cancel out the lithium but i am more concerned about long term brain damage. any thoughts help.

[DopeAMeanTV]

cutting the street drugs and alcohol is no issue. but i love my mary jane, thats going to be difficult for me.

[DopeAMeanTV]

i was just hospitalized again for another manic induced psychosis. unfortunately im back on lithium :/

[bipolarorwakingup]

@DopeAMeanTV Sorry to hear that. Quick advice...if you want to heal, make sure you stop using street drugs and marijuana, then work towards cutting the lithium WITH a therapist and the support of people you trust.

[MrSession11]

@bipolarorwakingup Wait a minute. one should stop using marijuana ? So I'm deluding myself thinking it is helping me to stay "calm" "stress free" etcetc ?

Btw: You chould get a radio show, because you got a very chilled out voice.

Thank you for taking time putting this out.

Peace

[TylerOvington]

Can anyone give me the source of the painting at 0:42? I would really appreciate it

[Timarman33]

U R Right Within ON . . . I AM

[kristiandwell]

these vids have helped me understand what i went through recently, thankyou.

[jshields01]

I just got diagnosed with bipolar disorder. My therapist recommended I take mood stabilizers. Im a musican, I play drums, produce and record, and write hiphop. How should I handle my mood swings?

[dkristinn]

Psychyatry the new religion of sadness and pain

[DopeAMeanTV]

Are you gay? I am. I was diagnosed last semester. Hospitalized twice in 13 days. Taken out of the hardest semester of my life by my parents. I think I feel what you are you saying. I'm now on lithium, klonopin and zyprexa. The drugs aren't making me feel better..

[bipolarorwakingup]

@DopeAMeanTV Nope, not gay, but thanks for asking! FYI gay people have a higher incidence of these type of experiences.

[DopeAMeanTV]

@bipolarorwakingup Oh okay, cool. Well thank you for the videos. Very informative and has helped me calm a manic episode without medication. I appreciate the videos!

[FairLife1]

@DopeAMeanTV I'm BIpolar and...If you ever want to talk to me, I'm here for you because I know what your going thorough; I've been there, lived that, take/have takn those drugs, the Drugs are not what heals you, they are what supresses your "soul" so that your ego can take control, right now my ego is in control, its not such a great feeling for me because I've turned into a emotional zombie, that is to say, I find myself sometimes looking for my emotions, as if I've lost them.reply to,fairlife1

[FairLife1]

@DopeAMeanTV I'm here for you if you need to talk, i'm bipolar and take meds that sorta supress all the things this guy is talking about, i cant stand it. but its what i'm forced to take, and i dont mind taking them at this point in my life.

[7shivaa]

@DopeAMeanTV orthomolecular medicine...pls do some researchin this

[guitarfreak607]

this video is great, but the still at 1:19 made me laugh. haha gotta love gollum

[MrDSharpest]

Should I die... and if there is nothing when we die.. its nothing but eternal sleep. or if i do die, can i ask the 'god/almighty' to terminate my soul/energy because i dont want life or lessons anymore...

[MrDSharpest]

My older brother died, he gave me a sign, i heard his voice and felt him prod me on my shoulder blade. I begin to think that life is treating me wrong, no matter what karma will catch up... my past hurts, my future is fading and I'm pushing people away in the present...

[armandpunsalang]

Im into silva mind control method im bipolar 1 and tried suicide before but ,this is the real deal

[MrKevstro]

o_o every video feels connected to me.

[YaliGATLIN]

I'm so excited, I sympathize with you every word ....

I went through it all, like you're talking about me ....

Thank you very much

[YaliGATLIN]

Hello dear man ....

It's unbelievable I have experienced the same thing .....

I was sure I was dead ..... even I could smell the death in everything .....

5 days without sleep, energy level crazy level ....

Of course it's over ..... forced hospitalization

[jraydunn]

yeah, well, read the prophecy chapters of THE GREAT CONTROVERSY by ELLEN WHITE. then imagine the type of psychos people have because of the beliefs of future events being so negative, bad, horrible, destructive and confusing. lol lol lol lol. yeSSSS. the naked thing happened to me in the hospital lol. yeah life and death, dying a virgin fears sweet jesus-very upset, yeah ritualized fake suicide, eating without talking, compulsive jacking off..... when enough people wont do it until lawfully wed

[amonrehorakhty]

Hi.

Your videos are great.

I've had two serious manic psychosis.

The first one was related to demons and ended with me doing something I regret though nothing really serious.

The second psychosis was basically identical to what you are describing in this video.

I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia however but they had a hard time diagnosing me in the beginning.

The medication has given me serious side effects but I know I cannot quit just like that.

[erna4life]

Aye, whats next ?? :D When your mania ends up, huh ? Ego, Yes ! You right :) But dont forget crazy suffering with all the fobic anxiety symptoms, thats opposite to mania and opposite to beautiful meaningful life, that it is...

[TheTeacherman77]

Thank you so much for your work...I had chills running up and down my spine as I watched the videos. I am currently writing a book on my experiences and how the disease is more of a blessing than a curse for the very reasons you describe so well. I thank God, (or the Universe if that's your cup of tea) that I have found others who also believe the same.

[TheTeacherman77]

I have been hospitalized four times for mania induced psychosis. Once I became hypomanic I exhibited extreme religiosity and I never accepted it as simply a symptom of a disease, instead I felt that there had to be something connecting psychosis and mysticism. Joseph Campbell reinforced this idea for me in the book "The Power of Myth" in which he states that the waters in which a mystic swims are the same as the ones in which a person having a psychological break is drowning.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@TheTeacherman77 Power of Myth...I loved those videos, they were a real awakening for me! Why not join us at Wake the Planet? We have a group there talking about this stuff 24 hours a day. Its a great place for protected support. See bipolarorwakingup DOT for details.

[X1sco]

i had an experince just as you explain, thanks and congratulations for all your videos¡¡ (sorry for my english, is not my mother thong)

greetings from Mexico.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@X1sco Obrigado! I'm a Canadian in Sao Paulo, Brazil.

[wheelofreal]

@bipolarorwakingup

has this heigtened sense only happened to you once?

[kerplunk288]

Do you mind explaining how suicide, taken quite literally, as I suspect the ability to form a distinction between the literal and figurative is skewed (at least during mania), is a good thing. You seem to be rehashing nothing more than a pop-culture gnosticism. You state all these things that may happen during mania, some which seem probable, seeming to think every experience is good. Any bad experiences are simply brushed aside as a necessary step towards "enlightenment".

[bipolarorwakingup]

@kerplunk288 The symbolic suicide I describe here brings about the most important act in the psychosis, the choice to abandon the material world for a higher spiritual one. This is when the Ego death takes place. With that the person will usually feel reborn afterwards, and often very confused. Integration takes time.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@kerplunk288 If you pay attention to my entire video series, you will see that I don't brush off the negative aspects of psychosis, in fact, I take them very seriously (See Videos 17-22). However, for many people, there is a trememdous opportunity for healing from these states, especially when the episodes of psychosis are experienced by people as positive, loving and spiritual. As it stands now, almost all people having these quite positive experiences are pathologized and medicated for life.

[seastorm12]

@kerplunk288 I began working through issues in Overeaters Anonymous. I was negative, in pain and afraid. As issues were addressed I became more and more euphoric, finally in an episode. I believe I was compleately existing in the right side of my brain. The opening of the left side killed the person I was. I'm happy to be the person I am today, but adjustment has been uneasy. I don't believe I became bi-polar at 43. This sort of thing happens. Some experience it more dramatically than others.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Jacobe1 Watch all the videos man...that should help, at least as a start.

[lupon18]

@xBARNES187x thats a good point and i respect that, i understand that being high all day is never a good way to live your life. but i am just simply arguing that it can be actually beneficial if you do it responsibly and in small increments; like maybe once at night or once every other day. spiritual or not, it can be helpful especially for people like me who suffer from anxiety and extreme levels of stress (common in people with bipolar)

[lupon18]

@xBARNES187x how can you say that marijuana stunts your spiritual growth, when in fact it makes you much more peaceful. not to mention the rastafarians use it as a spiritual sacrament to bring themselves "closer to god"

[7777HIDIEO]

glad to hear someone else that understands me, most everything you said was true for me also

[jaeou812]

5/5 BTW, I too have read all the materials you reference and Dali is my favorite painter of his era. (I own a signed lithograph of Lincoln in Dalivision.) Have you read Dr. Kay Redfield Jameson's works on the condition? She is a doctor at John Hopkins who not only is the foremost expert on manic depression, she also lives with it. Feel free to check out my Youtube page or my Facebook page @ John Andrew Elizondo from San Antonio, Texas. I am a mental health care proffessional.

[MARI0LAND]

Great video!

I'm not bipolar, but I had exactly the experiences you described after eating mushrooms of the magic kind.

[YoungHorusMedia]

What if this happens to you while going through some 'rite of passage' i.e. what if the process is being manipulated/encouraged intentionally ? Is THAT safe??

[ValerieLGreen]

Wow. I am completely blown away by these 2 videos. You have managed to perfectly articulate the experience. I had my first full-blown manic episode a few months ago and it was such a meaningful and profound experience that it changed my life. Unfortunately, as you said, most people close to you can't understand it when it's happening and they do become fearful. Thank you for your work here. This is the first video of its kind I've seen and it somehow made me feel better about things.

[Caroline2101982]

I like this. Beautiful paintings, but there could be more emphasis on how only about 1% of Americans are legally defined as bi-polar, yet proportionately there are more sane people driving mass consumption & disrupting our culture. e.g. cosmetic plastic surgery is legal, yet it has the risk of death & could be an overlooked suicidal cry for help. Therefore it should be illegal rather than celebrated by shows such as, Dr. 90210.

[Caroline2101982]

I like this. Beautiful paintings, but there could be more emphasis on how only about 1% of Americans are legally defined as bi-polar, yet proportionately there are more sane people driving mass consumption & disrupting our culture. e.g. cosmetic plastic surgery is legal, yet it has the risk of death & could be an overlooked suicidal cry for help. Therefore it should be illegal rather than celebrated by allowing shows such as, Dr. 90210, to even be on the national compass.

[Caroline2101982]

I like this. Beautiful paintings, but there could be more emphasis on how only about 1% of America let's say is bi-polar, yet proportionately there are more sane people driving mass consumption & disrupting our culture. The fact that cosmetic plastic surgery is legal goes against the survival instinct, which right there is an overlooked suicidal cry for help & should be illegal. 

[SktRat4life]

I went Manic today in the shower while shaving my chest, i'm 17. I shaved it very fast and i was thinking like crazy discovering things!

[ganjaaa333]

I'm only 15 and i've undergone/ still am going through full blown 'spiritual' enlightenment. All started after i started using the herb of knowledge. I first had an ego death. I wasn't aware. But, i began to look at things from all sorts of perspectives, looked at my flaws, and became who i wanted to be, not who i wanted to try impress(ego). I had a change in valuables, just total 'ego death'. I then began researching on my own and staying sane, guess I'm 'strong. Have 'episodes' daily as well..

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ganjaaa333 Stay positive dude!

[ecaple11]

@bipolarorwakingup ive been going through a Very similar experience for almost a year, and I believe will continue until I find what Im looking for, or what Im not looking for.. possisibilities are endless. 

[jonesgerard]

@ganjaaa333 unfortunately ego cannot be killed, cut down to size yes.

And it has an extraordinary capacity to rebuild itself.

Ego is sentient, it thinks.

It uses our intelligence against us if it wants control and its the source of evil.

But God defeats ego if a person surrenders control to God..

[marinemonkey13]

I did not read the post before me, but you have truly, you are impacting me. Cosmic blessings to you, confusions adieu. Never wait until later to react to me.

I love you,

Mamma Bee

[bipolarorwakingup]

@marinemonkey13 thank you mama!

[sysarchitect]

That painting at 4:25 is really great

Who's it by?

What's called?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@sysarchitect Salvador Dali! My favorite.

[BryanEKS89]

You're videos are spot on man. I am seriously going through the process of authority right now. I don't know if it's what I really believe or just a stage but I honestly want that tension with authority figures (cops, or anyone in power) and to show that them the only thing truly in power is NATURAL law.

[relaxyoungone]

i'm bipolar and have had 5 manic episodes, 2 in the last 5 months. these mainc episodes were quite spiritual. All I wanted to do was help others. Nothing was unreasonable. I felt as though eventually all rational and intelligent beings would join as if it would become some trend.  My behaviors got quite psychotic... but I believe in a different perspective. See, when I carried out certain actions the underlying logic was always selfless. I believe the manic mind was saint or buddha-like..?

[bipolarorwakingup]

@relaxyoungone Its a trend alright. Give it a few more years and the world will finally start asking themselves...WTF? 100 years from now we will be a planet of buddhas.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@NostalgicBlackFrost I´ll be opening a social network soon. You´ll have lots of people to share ideas with there!

[CCSofChocolatesvill]

Iv'e had all this stuff happen and more but my favourite moments at my peak (before they locked me up) were the "hallucinations" which I could control at will by focusing on my surroundings I also had alien spirits visit me and when I slept I journeed to the most fantasical alien planets you could never imagine, it truly is an amazing experience that everyone should have like puberty or something.

[lupon18]

@CCSofChocolatesvill dude thats crazy that you explain it like that because i had the exact same feeling during my manic episode- like some other entity or alien consciousness was communicating to me through my consciosness. even sober and not manic i know it sounds completely crazy, but i still know that whatever it was it wasnt complete bullshit, there was something else there and it wasnt my mind playing tricks with me. very similar to smoking dmt

[LIANA901030]

i want to find the real mania patient movie......but i didnt find it... juz the story from the mania pt.....i really hope to find it 1...

[MustNotRead]

lol, "you may want to just piss and shit where you are". casual like, no biggie.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@MustNotRead No biggie for us.....for everyone else, a serious problem!!!

[lderijk]

yeah talking about controlling time. I could fastforward and rewind time! Sooooo cool! Bi polar is bullocks, it's all about kundalini and spiritual awakening. Medication is rubbish, it cant stop you from having a spiritual journey...

[someoneupload]

thank you very much for this video .

During my episode I was able to understand Buddhism thoroughly it started to make complete sense to me.

As before it made no sense. And I’m very thankful having gone through it even thou it was a bit painful, but it was also euphoric.

[bipolarorwakingup]

@itshoisfonky Sounds like you have been right through one just like this one!

[Calibus71]

I enjoyed this video! Not only does it bring back memories of this mystical experience - it is confirmation of the profound similarities we all have through this spiritual healing process. The part about controlling the sensation of time really hit me - it confirmed to me that I'm not the only one having these bizarre experiences. Thanks Sean for another great video!

[bipolarorwakingup]

@Calibus71 You´re welcome!

[bambikohaku]

Hurray! ;p

[ecstatica23]

but really, isn't this how we should be treating people around us, specially those who are suffering, with love and support. great video as always Sean.

[lamictalinducedpsych]

hey, i took lamictal and it gave me a manic psychosis, 3 years i have with hallucinationsi need to take meds abilify and seroquel XR, im affraid to go witouth meds, do you know what is going on with me, just watched your vid

[bipolarorwakingup]

@lamictalinducedpsych Keep watching the rest of my videos and I think you will see a lot of your exprience there.

[createrainbowz]

Indeed, spot on.....(but we all are Gods)...excellently put, thanks again. This should be sent to every shrink etc.....Im not mad im happy BALANCE...... ONE LOVE :)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@createrainbowz One love back!

[ozjthomas]

Awesome as always, I think your presentation ahs improved too. I need to go back and watch these all when I get the chance. ;)

[bipolarorwakingup]

@ozjthomas Thanks Oz, for this series, I wanted to be less critical of parents and even psychiatry, as I have come to feel that being more open and understanding of the position that they are in. Also, it is probably a more effective way to get them to listen than being critical of them.

[zezt]

@bipolarorwakingup In a way you right. Ie., that hate alienates the good ones. So just being patient whilst keeping your freedom will get through?

Sometimes its very hard not to hate, resent, and to be impatient with ignoreant people in power

[bipolarorwakingup]

@zezt I totally agree with you. I plan on making a short video about my shift in attitude. And I think some anger is completely justified. I think these videos do hold psychiatry accountable, but without tearing them a second asshole like I did the first time around! And as I've learned from the jump in views on the upgraded of video#1, a more positive approach which sees both sides is already helping to get the word out to a broader audience.