Devastating Aftermath of Suicide on Family & Friends Video

[revokdaryl1]

I myself am starting to feel more and more suicidal as each day goes by. I feel abandoned by my family, and I really don't think I'd be hurting that many people by taking my own life. My existence is becoming more absurd by the day. I believe that life is a tremendous struggle for everyone, and I mean EVERYONE. Yes, some may have it easier than others, let's say... in financial terms. I believe everyone has the right to kill themselves if they wish to do so, it's their life after all.

[sexyroxy1oo]

I am suicidal everyday n hav bipolar plus a lot of personal things has happend I feel as if I will never come out of this evil brain desease my thought

R wit u xXx

[rosaryfilms]

@sexyroxy1oo - please seek some professional help. There is a physical dimension to the brain chemistry that can be corrected back to normal -- but it does take some time. Please do not give up. Regards...

[BDavis166]

@sexyroxy1oo Please seek help,I know this is 5 months old but please. Suicide is never the answer. Don't give up. My best friend did and it's not the right chose you hurt so many people and cause people pain. Please get help.

[ggundam99]

i hate to speak about this but i tried once before i took 100 pills trying to die in my sleep i didn't work because i still had the will to live if someone with one leg or has half of a face or is mentally disabled or physically disabled or born with one arm suffered an accident which left them scarred for life and never looking the same still wish to survive no matter the circumstances i feel pretty pathetic and weak minded i want to find what keeps them moving so i will survive no matter what

[bobbygeorgiela]

It's almost been a week since my Dad took his own life. He may have ended his pain, but created a world of torment for me. I miss you Dad. <3

[b22munky]

Imagin how he felt? He had feelings just as much as all of you. Im sure, whatever your veleifs are, hes in a better place watching you all. Hed want you to be happy. Again im not trying to sound like a dick. My heart goes out to you, and im deeply sorry for your loss

[b22munky]

Im sorry I dont mean to sound like a bad person, but what a bitch.. Quit thinking about yourself for alittle and concider how robert felt. Thats what he wanted. To leave and leave hus troubles. Im not saying suicide is posative in any way, but regardless of how a person leaved this earth, let them leave with respect. I do beleive you love and miss him more than I can understand, but your tone and some things you say are a bit much. You make him sound weak. Like all he did was hurt you, but

[annamelia765]

My boyfriend just killed himself less than a month ago. I found his body. I am angry and tormented. My life is hell now.

[rosaryfilms]

@annamelia765 - I am very sorry to hear about your loss.

[Vrachine]

@rosaryfilms

Dear wonderful people, I am here to talk to you.. You can tell me anything and you can write me everyday and I will always respond, please remember that your life is so important to this world..who cares of those 4 people or 6 people who will not listen.. I have been through so much and I more than anyone can tell you that I know there is light at the end of the tunnel. God may be with you!

[SerenityFair]

You guys are angry and that is part of grief.....I lost my ex husband to suicide but I can't be angry with him because I know what it is like to not want to live.....it is nice that you don't want other familes to go through this but guilt tripping someone who is suicidal won't help. I have taken every known anti-depressant,I am in the 1% that are non responsive....when I have intrusive thoughts,I check into the hospital,for my kids,especially my daughter who lost her dad this way.

[dominusclan]

pauloots: im truely sorry for what you have gone through. coming from someone who has attempted suicide, the pain you go through and truest me it will always haunt me forever. may you be able to find peace to all of those who have suicidal thoughts looking at this video. send me a message. people who want to kill themselves, message me. someone who is willing to listen is often what some need ( it is what i needed)

God bless to you all

[paulloots]

My girlfriend of 10 years hung herself 3 weeks ago. I came home from work and found her. It hurts so much I can't sleep can't eat everyone says it will get better. It just gets worse when I do sleep I have nightmares and wake up alone. I'm supposed to go back to work in a couple days but I just don't care about anything. I was told I needed to get mad at her to feel better why? I'm not mad at her and don.t want to be . She was only 29 and had so much to live for. She seemed fine

[SerenityFair]

@paulloots You have post traumatic stress and there are several stages of grief ...shock , bargaining ,depression ,anger and acceptance...there WILL be days that you will sob and beg her to come back to you even though you know she cannot,don't think that you are going crazy,this is normal...the stages of grief come in different order depending on the person. See a counselor for your PTSD.

[annamelia765]

@paulloots Me too. Same situation.

[paulloots]

@annamelia765 I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My heart goes out to you.

[CatieRose92]

.. I mean if youre contemplating suicide think about the pain youre going through and imagine your loved ones feeling twice that pain. they feel your pain and there own for not bein able to help you i advise you to spk to someone bcoz the results of your death your family will never EVER get over. sumbdy once said "to save a mans life against his will is the same as killin him" this may be the case with sum but wat is the harm in tryin to help. bcoz at the end of the day you cud save there life.

[losan2]

thank you catie i was thinking of ending my life

[CatieRose92]

I know what its like to lose someone through suicide. I lost my eldest sister nearly a year ago, she hung herself after giving in to her continuous battle with heroin. some people may say that she deserved to die because she abused her life but sometimnes people go down a route because they feel its the only way. Its Not. She was 19 and had her whole life ahead of her, she left behind her now beautiful 3 year old daughter. And the grief is overwhelming you try not to think about it but u cant.

[seithkein2]

you can tell that this girl is pretty pissed. the bottom line is suicide ruins family and the ones you leave behind.

[soulfish100]

man. being suicidal is the worse feeling. Pain is relative. I also have family which i would destroy and have attempted and this video really hit hard. I know its selfish, life is hard. There is always worse, he died two years younger than what i am now. Man...

RIP

peace to the family

life isnt easy, when you think your in a trapped corner

[Evray4000]

I feel like I need to talk to someone but this is the best that I got sence no one really ever listens to me I've felt like taking my life for some time now idk what to do anymore I'm in pain everyday and I can't talk to my family about it cause they won't listen so I was hoping maybe I could get some advise to help maybe a little atleast

[rosaryfilms]

Evray4000, cymbalta is recommended for the physical side of depression -- and praying the rosary is recommended for the spiritual side of depression. Please do not give up. There are also good books to ready at the Tan Books web site. Please weather the storm. Things will get better...regards...

[lilysasaki]

His last words for me is "Let's just end it all now, I am going to end my life." I said, "do you want to break up with me?" Then I can hear him killing himself. He can never understand what kind of pain he puts me through.

[lilysasaki]

My name is also Lily. and My boyfriend committed suicide four months ago. I miss him everyday and at the same time, I am so mad. I cannot believe he did this to me (he called me that day, and he killed himself while I was still on the phone with him.) He also left behind a 5 year old little girl (his daughter)

[neetudolly]

Well atleast you know what he means to you if you were the last person he choose to be/talk to. I did something similar to my boyfriend. And after he told me how he felt it broke my heart i do feel for you and i hope your daughter and yourself are fine.

[browneyedgirlie1989]

wow..powerful video! i totally can relate to feeling suicidal but have never attempted. i have also lost a friend to suicide. i now take antidepressants for depression and my heart goes out to everyone who has lost a friend or loved one to suicide <3

[AlbinoRhino107]

i would never ever kill myself each and every day another person is blessed with life and should take as a gift just like i do if your not already dead than there is a perpose for you on earth no madder how much you disagree expecsaily for those of you who are still young evan when you think things are the worst just believe that no matter what there is someone that loves you god is beautiful person and knows what he is doing take this as a chance to renew your self and start a new chapter

[greenguy007]

It is they're fault because they didn't help him... They sound so selfish. They don't understand the amount of pain that u have to be in to take you own life....

[allietheenigma]

@greenguy007 Are you serious?! You've obviously never lost anyone to suicide....I lost my uncle weeks ago and we've tried for years to help. When someone has their mind to take their own life, there isn't anything you can do to stop them if they are serious about it. It's comments like that that leave families and friends traumatized, wondering what they could have done. I fully understand that he wasn't in the right state of mind. But, you know what's more selfish? Leaving his wife and daughter

[SerenityFair]

@greenguy007 You're correct!!!!!

[KellyLCrutcher]

I lost one of the only friends I had, William Frank MacArthur Jones, to suicide back in February 2008 but I found out about it in September. Since I got the news I've cried my ass off 24-7. I've tried to find help online and EVERY support group I've joined has kicked me aside, even the Samaritans. I'm already dead inside; I just hope something happens soon to kill me physically. Screw seat belts, I'm not wearing the damn things anymore; if I get killed in a car accident it'd be a relief.

[rosaryfilms]

KellyLCrutcher, please do not give up -- and pray to God for help. Regards...

[nicky4meonly]

o my goodness, you have no idea how much i want 2 die. I now pray enery single night for God to take my life. I don't know if i'm depressed or not but i do know that being alive is torher. i have never attempted suicide but on the verge of it, i just need to come up with the best plan. But i constantly think abot my mother and sister and brothers, and how they would feel if i were 2 die. Nad so this is y i havent done it yet. but for now, life is pure hell, a curse.

[rosaryfilms]

nicky4meonly, cymbalta is recommended for the physical side of depression -- and praying the rosary is recommended for the spiritual side of depression. Please do not give up... regards...

[bafmd]

I've been on and off too many meds to care to keep track of any more. I've seen countless docs/psychs, spent so much time, energy and money. I've tried to learn, grow, argue, reason, accept and see a purpose. I'm just done is all. It's been a constant thirteen year fight and I don't look forward to another 30, 40, 50 years of it. It's not like you mention in the video, that life is "so overwhelming", it's that life is pure hell. This is my own personal hell, nobody else's. Hell. Hell.

[rosaryfilms]

bafmd, cymbalta is recommended for the physical side of depression -- and praying the rosary is recommended for the spiritual side of depression. Please do not give up... regards...

[SerenityFair]

@rosaryfilms Didn't you just see that they typed they have been on every med and they are sick of meds and you can't force religion down someones throat who probably believes God has deserted them. (Not that I believe that but I am also NOT catholic) Maybe the best route for you is to give the number to a suicide hotline....maybe you should tell them to educate themselves about their illness to better know how to treat it...direct them to Nami.org for extra support from PROFESSIONALS who know

[SerenityFair]

@rosaryfilms what they're talking about!!

[bafmd]

Because of reactions like this, I'm still here. I know that if my family weren't around to be hurt I'd end it in a heartbeat. I've tried to convince them to be happy for me when I die because death is what I want. They can't do that though. So, I go through every moment of every day wishing for some accident to take my life, just so it's not suicide. Lightning, drunk driver, bridge collapse, fire, hell I have even wished for a comet to stike me. No one should suffer this much. Sorry you do

[jtaforJesus]

im really really sorry, but u r wrong. we do think about u & everyone we will leave behind.u have no idea the tears we shed JUST FOR U!!!! im writing this bcause GOD messed up my attempts 14 times. it isn't my time, but im going to keep trying til it is. sorry but 4 some of us life is hell. why is it us that has to think different? why dont u think different & put yourself in r shoes? u have NO idea how hard i struggle EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY to stay safe & out of hospital!PLEASE WRITE 2 ME!!!

[rosaryfilms]

jtaforJesus, I am very sorry to hear about your situation -- many people are also going through what you go through. I have known people in your situation who has tried a SNRI like Cymbalta and have recovered very fast. Has anyone recommended to you before?

[kieltyl22]

You made me cry and I am still crying. My husband killed himself June 25, 2006 at age 23. He was my every thing we were together for almost 9 years, high school sweethearts. I look at pictures and say how could you do this our dreams are shattered and say who would of thought this would of been your last picture. I get angree and say things just like you, it's part of greiving. Suicide deaths are something you never get over cause there are so many unanswered questions.

[rosaryfilms]

kieltyl22, thank you for your comments. Sometimes there are mitigating circumstances in a person's life -- for example, a person could have a severe imbalance in brain chemistry for a variety of reasons -- which might lead to a rash decision. Trust in the Mercy of God, which is far greater than all of our weaknesses and mistakes -- time will heal these wounds. Regards...

[XxXkryingx4xuXxX]

i know u understand i just want hime back he attempted it b 4 and the first time he swollowed 8 pills and i got help from 911 rite away as soon as i found him and before i found him when he realized what he did before the stomach pain and barfing he wrote in my journal 17 times i dont want to die i miss u already and now hes dead and im still in emotinal trama and people in my school joke suicide and i just break down and they laugh

[XxXkryingx4xuXxX]

another thing i noticed u always went back to now IM hurting it ruined MY life self centered u know i understand and damn at ledst people dont walk past u in the hall way and say hey have u heared from ur bf or like honk honk oo the trains coming that sounds stupid but it makes me want to die im not gunna casue i dont wanna leve ppl tromatized but u never seemed to see his hurt im on both sides the ive tried suicide and the ive lost somone too it im running outa space gotta start a new 1

[XxXkryingx4xuXxX]

lady my bf commited suiced 3 months ago i get teased at school u know i have a 8 month old daughter and guess what i know it wasnt all is fault yes its his that hes gone but no its not his he felt that way u know u could have helped and u didnt so put some blame on u not all him its not easy to make the fuckin phone call ive attempted 7 sicides and i avnt ever scince i had savannah casue i cant let her go through hell u know but let me tell u that this is just as much ut fault as it is his

[vincent4500]

i'm sorry for your loss, but as a lifelong sufferer of severe depression approaching 37 yrs old i can tell you one thing..maybye now you feel and think and look at 'rain' is closer to the hell he went..at least he is in peace and i at the moment am suffering so much death is the Only realise..what about the anger i go thro, what about the life i never lived? have more understanding of his suicide, you'd understand if someone died of cancer..depression is like 'mental' cancer..ok

[pescador1]

watch?v=YdETJIJPfug

Hi everyone, this video link is of a very special young person.

1:10 (A Moment like this) chorus, no words can describe such a feeling, its with sadness I say this, she took her own life this year, May 11th... only 15. No one knows why.

Please show respect as friends and family still watch this video clip and surely they will read all comments.

She was Portuguese and her name was Liliana Pereira from Vila Real - Portugal

Thank you

Dedication vid > watch?v=0bPb1O3BAdc

[HerSurvivor]

you are really angry. its normal to have those thoughts. when people are to that point there is nothing you can say. when i attempted suicide i did not think of anything, but i want to die. i lost my sister when i was twelve. it is the hardest thing to go through. and you never forget, but it gets easier to remember as time goes on.

[lucinda2005]

Sorry for your loss. we lost our 27 yr. old son may 2005. Not a day goes by that I cry still. His younger sister and cousins have anger about it.Suicide is selfish. But, sometimes people snap. I pray to God that I could go back to my son's last night alive and change everything. I don't blame him, I guess I forgive him. I wish I could give him a big hug. I still talk to his spirit sometimes. we love you, Bubbie.

[ButterRivaLs]

Thank you for making/posting this. I added it to my "suicide prevention" playlist.

: ) best, Angela

[rosaryfilms]

ButterRivaLs, thank you for your comments!

[simsgirlgem]

i can't stand the thought of my friends or family comiting suicide but it could happen one day so i try not to be to cold

[RescueMich]

A truthful and powerful film. Thanks.

[rosaryfilms]

RescueMich, thank you very much for your comments!

[lexhotone718]

for most people they're already dead there just not buried 6 feet! death isnt a bad thing its part of life we all live to die someday so what can you do?

[ig88sir]

@lexhotone718 people don't realize that people who commit suicide don't want to die. the pain is so unbearable. why should people suffer endlessly? I do agree to try to get help though. Therapy and meds..

[icecreamberry]

I lost my dad to suicide years ago and I often harbored ill will toward him. I felt horrible about it, but I now understand it is part of healing...Thank you for posting this. It helps to know I'm not alone in this.

[rosaryfilms]

icecreamberry, thank you very much for sharing your experiences.

[clive1471]

If it helps, I was lucky to survive a suicide attempt, caused by an explosion of hate against myself, the power of hate and guild was so great it caused me to think I was doing the world a favour - this was caused by mental illnes caused by being abused at school. I put myself in the hands of the doctors and Im now ok.

[rosaryfilms]

clive1471, thank you very much for sharing your experience with us. That is very courageous of you and I am sure your kind comments with help others and that God will bless you for your efforts. Regards...

[clive1471]

Alas I was cut short by the 500 character limit, I can add a bit more now! I traced the problem back to pathalogical abuse and bullying in primary school, and now when I feel bad, I comfort myself like you would a troubled child, I'm much better now :-)

[rosaryfilms]

clive1471, I am glad to hear that you are doing much better now -- hang in there -- and thank you for your excellent and helpful comments...regards...

[kellymshively]

thanks for this

i've been suicidal since i was a teenager

the idea of what it would do to my family is the only thing that's stopped me, time and time again

today i was closer than ever, and this pushed me back again

[rosaryfilms]

kellymshively, thank you very much for sharing your experiences with us. May God bless you and help you with the crosses that we all must endure in life.

[expresspress]

I am truly sorry for your loss.

I have lost a family member to suicide and a family member who was murdered. There is no replacing them and I think of them everyday.

I have mixed feelings here.

Some are in so much pain that suicide is the only way to get rid of that pain. Suicide is a very selfish act but it is also the only answer for some.

[rosaryfilms]

expresspress, suicide is not the only answer for some.

[Ron793N]

Hey Julie!!  How about putting up a clip from 'Pretend'?? :)

[idroppedoutofcollege]

This is sort of a one dimensional view of suicide. Those close to the person who kills themself will indeed hurt and always miss them, but at the same time there are several stories that have emerged where the friends and family have completely understood why they did it and felt relieved that they weren't going to suffer incessantly ever again.

[idroppedoutofcollege]

And I think it is important to remember that the vast majority of suicides are the result of a long struggle with mental illness. Towards the end your mind can become so detached from your body and reality that you're basically half dead already.

[mrbig128]

I will never forget watching this. And I keep you in my prayers, that you get better. take care.

[rosaryfilms]

mrbig128, thank you very much -- your comments mean a lot to me...and your comments are very helpful to me also! Sometimes the cross that God gives us in life seems overwhelming, but, somehow the cross and traveling the straight and narrow road go together. Hang in there and thank you very much!!

[mrbig128]

this has definitely changed my entire look on suicide and it's aftermath. It's a shame this video has over 200 views and only 2 comments. This was a life-changing film for me. You never really think about the consequences of your actions, when you contemplate suicide, unless you've been thinking about it for a long time. but sometimes i feel so helpless, I think that it's the only way out, and that nobody will miss me when I'm gone. This film changed all of that.

[mrbig128]

I do not understand what it's look to lose a loved one to suicide. But I've thought about taking my own life, because of severe depression.

[mrgimp420]

Ive struggled with suicide for most of my life, Im bipolar type I, which I guess is the most severe? Sometimes life is great but it only takes one moment of weakness to undo so many lives. I always try to think of my mom and dad but its not always easy to see that through all the depression. Its very selfish. I dont know how to explain it.  But I will remember this video.

[rosaryfilms]

mrgimp420, thank you very much for your comments and also sharing your experiences with us! Everyone of us has a cross to bear in life. May God Bless you and May God help us all in our journey!

[lexhotone718]

This is a big wake up call for those who are thinking about taking their own lives. The pain you leave behind by your absence is far more worse than the Pain your in to even think about suicide as a way to escape so dont do it.

[rosaryfilms]

lexhotone718, thank you very much for your comments!

[Bollymurs]

That is a very selfish view indeed.