Part 5 of 5: First IV Treatment

[ichooselife00]

I love when I hear other people talking about there eating disorder, because that's how I feel! Iv always felt so alone and like I'm the only one...but I'm not! :) it is just so great to know that the are others out there who know how I feel and that I'm not alone! Thank you johny!

But I'm sorry ur not feeling well :( feel better!

[xWillowTheBlueFairyx]

Aaw! Damn it is upsetting to see you feeling so sick. You are right though even though you purge when you get sickness that is beyond your control boy its so bad. You really deserve so much more than a dinosaur plaster hun. I know you won't let this put you off and I am glad you had your avocado to help you too. I am beginning to love those again and they seem to love me back :) Hugs x

[ct11002000]

I'm glad your getting the help that you need. My heart breaks for you because you seem too lovely of a soul to have a body so frail. God bless your journey.

[edsurreal]

your a true inspiration! I want you to know, that I love watching your videos, you give me hope in my dim times. stay strong, stand ferm in God, and his word. :D

love you

lulu

[Lovesenduringpromise]

Love your positive attitude even though you are feeling ill, it IS all worth it!

[sublimelmf]

I know what you mean about the differences with being sick vs being bulimic. Some of it is the fact that with bulimia, you're the one controlling it. If you want to throw up, you do, if you don't, then you don't. And of course you don't really get the horrible nausea. I remember I got real sick, like throwing up, and a friend of mine was at my house who knew about my ed and I said "I can't believe I've done this on purpose!" haha But yea, it's a different feeling

[misstiggykins]

Well done for getting through this Johnny. I found the process interesting to watch, - simply because of my own experience of working in labs with human participants.

My own blood pressure was down at 70/50 about 5 yrs ago when my weight was very low and I felt awful... It's now about 95/65 - and wow, I feel so much better. You will feel better soon too! You're doing the right thing!

God bless

Cathy

xxx

[MyOwnStickFigure]

God bless you! I love all your healing stories. My BP at the end of treatment went all the way up to 90/70 something or slightly around there - major improvement for that moment. I have chronic hypotension so it was nice to see a rise in numbers! Low BP RIPS energy. Eventually you seriously get sick of being sick and make changes for improvement - what I'm doing now. So glad you've been on this path as well dear.

[Ativabrand]

So proud of you for wanting to get healthy and working so hard at it. Let your light continue to shine. Have a restful day.

[xxTheWhatxx]

I've watched your for awhile and prayed for you to have good feeling and positive days. I feel dumb saying I can relate, I'm 400 pounds, and I feel like I will die if I don't do something soon, I know I will. It's so hard, in that aspect I can relate, food rules my life. I'm scared. I'm proud of you and will continue to pray for you. Good luck. :)

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Do not feel dumb, anyone dealing with food issues can relate - regardless of weight... severity... etc. We must support one another as a community. You are in my prayers. it sounds like your soul is in crisis and knows you can't go on like this - as is mine. Listen to that voice, it's where we get our logic. Do you have God in your life? just curious, not trying to push religion!

[xxTheWhatxx]

Thank you for the kind words. Yes, God is very much a part of my life without HIm I feel I wouldn't be able to go on each day, He's my hope, my light in the dark. I've honestly never truly tried, ever, 20 years I've been like this, I know I won't make another 20 at this rate. You inspire me to start my own vlog, maybe it will be easier with it, kind of like if everyones watching me I'll be more inspired, maybe? Do you feel that way?

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Amen! I never know how to properly approach the God questions. i am so delighted to hear He is your backbone. it sounds like we have both experienced the extreme adn by the grace of God we are both STILL standing. Amen to that. We must fight while we are still here. It's not our time to go so why encourage it by continuing to do whatever we are doing that's harming us. it's like rebelling against a beautiful plan of life! this is how I see it now. I don't know your story but encourage u to share

[MyOwnStickFigure]

and get the support you deserve. PLEASE tell me if you start a blog here so I can stop by from time to time. I think you should do it. Get out that cam and sit down and just start introducing yourself. Videos will get easier as you make them. If you are sensitive or emotionally fragile then protect your channel. There are many wolves out there with unessecary energy. God bless you!

[viannafin]

The nutrient bag looked huuuuge - I was afraid it was going to make you too sick to continue but you made it! Congrats. :) Keep up the good work.

[SessanTunsberg]

dinosaurs:D Well 400 is a good beginning. The body will get used to it step by step!

And yeah... Feeling nauses and throwing up is diffrent from throing up from Bulemia!

Hugs and kisses my friend! once again... Im proud of you

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Rawr dinasours, it was really purple and really cute. Smile. Hugs to you, thanks for all 5 comments. Ps the scarf isn't red but autumn orange colors, wish I could share it with you my sweet friend... 400 CC for someone of my weight/body size and all those nutrients in the cocktail really is A LOT... the entire bag would of been overkill, she is one smart cookie to monitor this and kept asking how I was feeling because she knew it would effect me this way... I was a real trooper for this one...

[knicknatpattywack]

So proud of you! I'm really glad that this treatment helped you feel a bit more alive again! Hope things continue to go well for you. You've got this! =]

[MyOwnStickFigure]

THank you so muh. I look forward to more alive feelings... and more life in general!

[angelo212]

I just hope when this expensive treatment is over you continue to do the right thing. If your body is not absorbing nutrients will it eventually be able to on its own?

[MyOwnStickFigure]

First off, it is absorbing nutrients. I don't have Chrons like malabsorption, not that severe. Next off, this expensive treatment is worth every penny if it's helping save my life. We are going to try to worth something out with insurance. Medically I am considered critical and because I am an adult my treatment is my choice and within my consent while coherent. If you watch my videos you will know I am trying to get into a treatment center and doing this while working on funding for the center

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I need to include that my raw food diet has been one of the only things that has worked for my body and I have medical validation to back this up. Absorption isn't the real problem with my GI tract, it's the digestive aspect and hydrocoloric acid concerns. I have to puree/blend or juice all my food to get it into my system. It gets in that way. Solids do not digest well and if you can't break food down properly then you can't absorb it properly. Understand? I am working with my body now...

[MyOwnStickFigure]

To answer your question - there is a big difference between getting nutrients from food and the GI tract and from doing it on a cellular level. Please educate yourself by doing research, I can't explain it all here nor am I going to attempt to, way too complicated. These nutrients are recycled in my body and stay in there - the amino acids for a matter of days... all depends on the type of nutrient given and if its water soluable or not. Anyhow this is my best bet right now and a big step.

[angelo212]

I understand that. That is common sense. I think you got defensive. Maybe my wording was wrong. I support what you are doing and I hope absolutely nothing but the best for you. I been a subscriber for a while now and watch all your videos. I didn'r mean to offend you at all and wish great things for your future.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you, it was the wording. You are right. I did get defensive and to be quite honest I do a lot here because I never know what to expect. I get comments all throughout the day on various videos and some are really caddy or really cruel. I can take responsibility for my defensiveness though and blame it on my own personal character defect, not commenters. I do, however, tend to interact with it on comments I'm not quite sure about so thank you for explaining. It's something I need to work on.

[sweetsmile1]

i got a super good idea for you....you are going to laugh so hard, but if they give these iv's to people with cancer and such it made me think that they also give breast milk to cancer patients :) i'll send you some milkies to drink :) LOL

Hugs J!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

oh dear lol let's stick to coconut milk. it's probably got more calories anyways... more bang for the buck - or shall i say more bang for the suck? lol

[sweetsmile1]

LOL, thought you would get a kick out of that! :)

[MyOwnStickFigure]

hi my love, these treatments are common for people with cancer and aids who have undergone body degenderation/wasting away due to disease. they are brilliant ideas for people with eating disorders yet not everyone is aware of them so i am glad i can help bring awareness and possibly get others to try it and help in the process to save their lives this way as well! I've had emergency (er) IVs before - too many to count - in the past but this is a complete cocktail of nutrients, very different.

[eluvzmokie]

hey johnny, i am so proud of you for taking this mega step in your recovery and i wish you the best with it! it seems like you have a great team working with you and i can't wait to keep hearing updates!

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you so much dear! I love my new doctor, she is so sensitive and experienced and sweet! total Aloha Angel!

[kyriakos]

you are so brave. thank you for sharing this with us. hope all those nutrients give you strength to recovery. god bless.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Thank you so much for this comment. It means a lot to me knowing you see the bravery to take these steps forward. Most are scared to death of IVS and would allow their eds to keep them hostage from help. I did at one point, almost died and now I'm still here and need to make the most out of life. Eds are not life, recovery is. God bless you too dear!

[AngelicaAcoustic]

Last night, probably around 1:00 am EST time, I felt the need to pray for you. So, I did for a while. <3

[MyOwnStickFigure]

wow thank you so much, big hugs::

[adrii0722]

hope u feel better !!!! =)

love always kitty

[Paramystical]

"It's worth it." Yes, you are. ♥

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Melissa, thank you so much for watching all five parts in order and following them and sending love and encouragement throughout the process. Hugs to you and Momma - will you go visit her for Thanksgiving?

[wolffenhaus]

Hey.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

what's cookin good lookn?