BPD Emptiness & Paranoia: How Do You Cope?

[SubConCrusher]

Yep I call it high awareness and being super sensitive to your enviroment.

[bluelvelvetotus]

Hey girl, i have BPD too and I relate to everything you talk about. The part about people dropping out of your life really struck a chord with me. Lately I've been wondering if it's like that stupid self fullfilling prophecy psychologists talk about, which states that the more you try to attain something, the further away you push it. I'm at the point where i don't really try to draw people in and i find myself slowly connecting w people again, although it's hard not to idolize and devalue them.

[specialchannel]

You Need to see the movie lost in transition its like looking into myself :O the feeling of emtyness is shown in a movie so well

[specialchannel]

BPD people like me seem to look artcy for some reason?

[bluelvelvetotus]

@specialchannel LOL

[zahradl]

You explained this perfectly. This is exactly how I feel and especially lately.

[DragonflysCompass]

@zahradl As long as you know that you're not alone in your battles, then that's all that matters. If you ever want to talk, my inbox is always open. :) Realizing there's someone out there who has traveled down the same path, somehow makes the road less frightening.

[SLJH1794]

Hi, my name is Samantha ,and i know exactly what you are talking about , I suffer also from boarderline personality disorder, i also suffer from severe depression, bipolar and traumatic distress disorder. You have helped me alot , sometimes i feel like cutting so bad and that noone seems to be there for me at all, it feels like there is noone i can talk to. I just want to thankyou. And want to congratulate you on your amazing progrress, you really are a beautiful person xx

[DragonflysCompass]

@SLJH1794 Hey Samantha...you have my name, hahaha. :) But you're quite welcome. And thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate it. It's just nice to know you were able to be helped. I know what you mean though. The urge to bruise or slice a piece of your body is so overwhelming at times, nothing else even remotely compares to taking it out on yourself. We all have slip ups, I've had slip ups. But at least we refuse to stay down, right? If you ever would like to talk, just message me.

[DragonflysCompass]

@SLJH1794 From your words, I can tell you have a gorgeous spirit too.

Stay beautiful. :)

[DragonflysCompass]

@waynelivef6 (Continued from my previous post) Not for suffering. :) *Ginormous hugs*

[DragonflysCompass]

@waynelivef6 Sometimes we need to allow ourselves to feel the darkness, feel the pain. Acknowledge it's existence. We need to recognize what it is that dampens our spirit, so we're better able to fight whatever it is that's attacking us, and gain control over our lives. Just be sure that the darkness ceases from swallowing you whole. It's alright to feel your pain. It awakens you to the simple fact that you're human, and that you are alive. But don't succumb to it completely. Live for Hope

[jedimastersmj]

Wow. I am speechless after watching this. Saying this video is beautiful is an understatement. This is a BIG step you have taken. I am so proud of you. Keep it up !

[DragonflysCompass]

@jedimastersmj Thank you, Bubby. Hahaha. You've been a fabulous friend, my leetle babushka. ^_^

[messeyehere]

Well you communicate really well Sami. Think you may be round the wrong people??. Have you ever talked to somone face to face like you do on youtube or do you clam up??

[DragonflysCompass]

@messeyehere Thank you. :) I feel I'm better at writing than I am at speaking though, for some reason. As for people, that seems to be a rather difficult question for me to answer. Each soul on this earth has a multitude of facets to their personality, so while someone may be right for you in one aspect, they may be completely wrong for you in another. It depends on how you view the situation, I suppose. But yes, I have spoken to others "in real life" about this, hahaha. :)