my head won't stop thinking

[SuperRyu1989]

yh it sounds like anxiety and depression its not nice at all i have got it you just have to relax and try to go out even if its by yourslef i do it takes your mind of shit do things more even if you dont fill like it thats the only why you will get better trust me and its hard but thats why you have to fight it i wish you luck relly do i no how you feel

[Ktxah]

i feel like you are just like me, and im constantly trying to figure out whats wrong with me (im very anti-social so i believe its social anxiety) but any insight you have would be nice!

[justagurl23]

@Ktxah i don't think anything is 'wrong' with anyone who has anxiety. it's just something we have to deal with. when i tell myself something is WRONG with me, it makes me feel worse. i still do that...but i try to be gentle with myself because it just isn't helpful. i realize i live on a different level than people. it helps if people can understand when i'm anxious and help me through it, but it isn't always the case. other than that, it's just what i have to deal with...and it SUCKS.

[xosammyj09]

you will be happy again, i know this. know that you're not alone and you CAN feel happy and positive again :)

[MyDadWorksAtMarcs]

quit smoking drugs

[justagurl23]

@MyDadWorksAtMarcs people like you on here seriously need to grow up. your stupid comments trying to be an ass or funny are just so old.

[MyDadWorksAtMarcs]

@MyDadWorksAtMarcs i'm sorry but this is usually the cause of drug use, or past drug usage. Start meditating it will clear you mind.

[bosqii]

ok i tottaly agree with you let's find a solution toghthere i have the same problem

[hotandspicy666]

Hey what's up...you seem like a nice person...go out on a date or something? You're good-looking, and smart...just go for it. Don't think about it...as NIKE says "Just Do IT" and don't worry about what others think (unless they say positive things to you - which is good). All the best.

[b152349]

Your mind is obviously exhausted from thinking in words and articulating things you'll never say. I know what that is, and I wouldn't even attempt to publicize such a video. I have a harder time than you seem to articulating on the fly. I need time to write things down and I hate to express myself inaccurately. I'm working on a lot of the same stuff, minus the meaning thing... after enough years I've just accepted it as a dead end train of thought. Maybe there's a higher meaning, maybe not.

[b152349]

Your attractive. Even though you won't do it now, just know that if you do go out and try to get a few people in your life that you can be yourself around without making them feel awkward, you will..as long as you can deal with the rest of the "rejections". Stop drinking coffee, your describing anxiety among other things. If your taking a benzo like xanax or klonazapam, do your best to come off of it gradually but don't take that shit regularly. You'll get worse.

[adean2]

I've only watched a few of your videos, but I was wondering if your sad emotions are a product of negative thoughts or the other way around? Cuz, for me, I feel depressed emotionally for no outward reason and then I start to think negatively because it's hard for me to ignore the emotions. The emotions aren't usually based on anything in real life though.

[justagurl23]

@adean2 sometimes it is both and sometimes it's caused by life things...sometimes caused by nothing..

[b152349]

@justagurl23 a lot of times when it seems like your depressed for no reason, there is a more fundamental problem in your perception of things. By fundamental I don't mean simple. I mean deeper and harder for you to detect, with more of yourself piled on top of that bad foundation. I understand the power of chemicals and the difficulty of breaking the cycle adean's talking about. I'm still inclined to believe that most or all of those cycles can be broken by altering the way you perceive things.

[CoffeeShopification]

Also, if I may add, you seem very afflicted by something.. I know it seems very strange coming from someone with a probably bad guess but here goes: if you've been raped, sexually assaulted, or compromised by someone in any way, you have to tell people. No fucking question about it, tell people, if you don't you're only suppressing the elephant in your head. Don't EVER let a predator control you, he's the scared fucking mouse and you're the cat, remember that.

[justagurl23]

@CoffeeShopification hm. yeah. i will say some of that has happened, yes. people know...and this video is three years old, in case you didn't know. i spent my 12 or 13 years already in various types of therapy, on various meds, etc., i'm trying the avoiding approach now that i'm doing somewhat better. works for the most part..looking back, i think therapy kept me too focused on it, yet not at the same time since it focused on how i felt during those years in therapy. dunno.

[justagurl23]

@CoffeeShopification also, one person who hurt me, def. has not acted like a mouse. soon i will have that person out of my life though. i hope..

[CoffeeShopification]

@justagurl23 Well they put on the guise of toughness through threats and otherwise. They take control through fear because they themselves are scared of the outcome.

[CoffeeShopification]

I also was unpleasantly surprised to find out this isn't really about anxiety. As a sufferer of intense anxiety attacks, the best advice I can give is, no matter what afflicts, you aren;t alone. Millions currently and billions in the past have been through anything you experience, so try to take some solace in that fact. But much more importantly, realize that you have total control of your end of a situation and little to none of the other side.

[dmagdaleno]

The Lizard Brain says "Hello Sunshine!"

[CardBoardBrains]

justagurl.... heres a tip for you, I've been dealing with anxiety for over 25 years there are a zillion things you can do to try and relieve anxiety and I've tried many. But here is one that can really help... when you feel your anxiety coming on, stop and reason with urself and most importantly... Breathe , Breathe and Breathe... long slow deep breath's. It really helps in slowing down and dissapating the attack!

[rchris710]

I'm a psychology student and I found your vids searching for some mental disorders.

I don't know what to say as I'm experiencing some mental awkwardness myself right now but you are describing your issues well and you are cute so make the best out of the puzzling thing called Life.

[mtnmands]

OMG girl you think your that specail that were going to watch you OMG I thought this was about anxiety disorder. get over yourself we dont really care about you.

[justagurl23]

well, obviously people do watch my channel because of the amount of subscribers i have..i don't care if you don't care about me because i have plenty of more important people that do and they aren't an ass like you obviously are..so i don't need you in my life..no worries.

[agent1up]

how are you doing now?

[justagurl23]

mostly ok compared to this video from 2 years ago. still ups and downs with the usual anxiety and random other things but mostly ok with eating..for the most part.

[agent1up]

lol....i didn't see this was that old..my bad...glad you're doing a little better..

[pratinus]

If you suffer from panic attacks you should check out the website at

panic-attack(dot) powerful-solution (dot)com . It will help you get rid of them for good. No joke, I personally used it and I'm a completely new person.

btw, I'm not trying to spam, I just want to help as many people as possible because I know how horrible panic attacks and anxiety are.

[b1nphk66]

i never liked being alone when this happened =/

[shierachan]

you're very brave and nice girl. i really hope you get better. i've had anorexia myself, and i don't like the thinspirations videos either (though i have seen them once and bin affected, but that's why they're so cruel, it's insane!).

but really, hope you get better. stay strong... and hugs.

[justagurl23]

thanks. i am actually 2 years in recovery this month.

[Fusselita]

With me it´s the same. I never learned how to talk about my feelings, we have to learn it now. And I also want to find a meaning of everything and don´t know what I´m searching for. Really, the same problem.

I feel the same, the same. I´m talking sometimes, I look the same like you, and I´m thinking: "Damn! Why can´t my words reacht them?!"

[rocknrobin101]

I like your videos. They are great! I am interested in what you have to say. Glad to hear someone is honest like you.

People need to be more like you! And just know that you are an attractive person. Your voice is soothing. Have you thought os becoming a singer?

[iamabigfatbutt]

it was once said that the mind can make a heven a hell and hell a heven..i think the same gose for life and death

[r3aKt0r]

You're beautifull

[CuziGotHIGH123]

omg i have fucking axienty i dont know a thing of what ur talking about but i have anxiety and it sounds like me wow...... just call 1 800 suicide it helps :) jk ima cry for humilation now bye *crrys*

[yourtubeunderground]

zen

[HQFarm]

...that state of searching is perfectly natural, and it doesn't suggest not having something. It is hard to explain, but no matter how much we have, we keep seeking and searching for more. It is "okay" and don't let it worry you. Also, remember that often we are on the verge of a real breakthrough when we are most anxious and feeling upset. It is strange how that is, but it is true. It is especially true while we are pushing ourselves.

[casgrl21]

im glad you've made the decision to speak your mind...imtrying to do the same...its soooo difficultto get others to understand..im haveing alot of frustration with the fact that my familycantget me..i feel like an alien in my own home...its hard to dealwith

[WideGauge]

[hug]

I'll try to understand. Keep talking.

=)

[WideGauge]

[hug]

I'll try to understand. Keep talking.

=)

[WideGauge]

[hug]

I'll try to understand. Keep talking.

=)

[MomAngel7]

Ashley, my teenage daughter and I share this account together. I'm kind of a truth seeker while she just loves to laugh. Your openness is helping my daughter (and Me too) to be open ourselves and talk about what's on our hearts to each other. We care about you and are praying for you too. Blessings~

[sickoflifetoday]

I'm totally with you, I also really dont care about life either, and what people think, I am also making videos so people understand what I am going though. Anyway I always have been nice, and been internet community enabled for nearly 12 years. anyway in my opinion my conditions can be a gift not a curse, it gives me a reason to prove to people or may find me demanding or mood changes to see what it's like for some people.

[Tony63efc]

Ashley I just got back from my sister's house and this is the first of your video I've seen since Christmas so let me wish you (and everyone else here) a happy New Year. I hope your thinking soon bears fruit and you are able to see more meaning in your life.

[SongToFanFlames]

hello, i don´t want to be a strange stalker:-)

I like to watch videos of you and of course videos from other youtubers, because i really can relate to the life situations because in some ways it is the same in my life... thank you

[isawthreeships]

I hope you won't kick me out cause of my lack of videos - I mean, I don't know if that's something you're worried about, but I just don't have any video-making equipment (or anything interesting to say), hence the lack of vids. I'm not a weirdo, I promise!

[TJ1973]

LOL, this vid has the coolest title. :-) Sometimes it

is better not to look for meaning but to look for a

purpose instead. There may be no meaning to anything

but you can always find a useful purpose for your

life.

[WhenWillThisPainEnd]

its great that you speak your mind.

i admire how open you speak about your ED cos i know how hard it is, i cant do it i dont really like to talk about it. watching your videos helps me feel less alone.

thank you

take care xxx

[saltbabe]

Im so glad your so open and that you do talk about how you feel because as I keep telling you its really helped other people like me who arent so open feel like their not alone. I hope Im not one of your scary subscribers lol scariest thing I have on my you tube favourites is the youtube 12 days of christmas ! xxx

[johnb2003]

Ashley you should be free to speak your mind and if people dont like that thats there problem. you are being you and dont let people walk over you. Take care

[insidethemusicbox11]

i just subscribed to you...lol i hope i don't seem like a creepy stalker or one of those crazy pro-ed fools. i really enjoy watching your videos and hearing what you have to say, you're very insightful and real and relatable (is that a word? lol)

[bacci40]

ooops...hope my vids didnt freak you out

[zombiefruit32]

For what it's worth, I feel that you accomplish your goals quite fully. I know I'm not the only one that feels and is touched by the words that you say and is invested in your welfare. I think you have made a difference to a lot of people..

[alTviTnlH]

wow.

pondering deep questions is infectious.. lol now u've gotten me going..