[vocaloid] Don't look at me in that way (English subs)

[Tameka312]

you guys know is about drug addiction and sucide right

[iKawaiiNinja]

i'm thinking of abortion myself, I think the song is being sung by the parent's GUILT rather then the child itself. when it talks about toys, music boxes, and bikes, i think i's kinda like the life he could have had. i think the song if being sung during the abortion, because at first he is still alive, and later he disappears. such a bitter-sweet song...

[iPaperShredder]

The parents must've left the child alone, thinking that she could take care of herself, but it seems she decided to (Or rather, by accident) set the house on fire. The toys melting together make me think that, and seeing as she didn't mind dying, saying it felt good to die, maybe she wanted to. The memories of her toys, the wooden soldiers and the music boxes, show in the first verse, and the second one kinda seems like she's running away from something. (cont)

[iPaperShredder]

@iPaperShredder Just because the bike didn't exist, doesn't mean it didn't exist /when she was alive/. This could be an old woman dying and remembering her childhood, or a teenager who's doing the same.

[DollDrawings]

I'm also thinking this was about miscarriage, rather than abortion. Or well, maybe the mother was sick because of the child, one of those situations where either the mother or the child lives.

[iishamsharma]

Maybe is was a miscarriage? O.o I dunno. THis song is really beautiful, but sad. D:

[Loveshine2371]

i don't know why people are saying its a abortion when the parents had toys for the unborn child because it doen't makes since to have a abortion when you already bought stuff for the kid.

[34CYGNI]

@Loveshine2371 I think it's because "with my bicycle that never existed", "but I no longer exist/vanish into the world of dreams/the toys disappear with me", so sort of like all of this is what could have been. If he had lived, his mom would have bought him those things etc, but because he doesn't exist now that he's aborted, those things fade into nonexistence with him.

[Loveshine2371]

@34CYGNI Oh ok now i understand. I was thinking baby died and they had to pull him out.

[34CYGNI]

@Loveshine2371 It could be that too! There are a lot of ways to interpret the song, but I think those reasons were mostly why some interpret it as abortion instead of miscarriage.

[ChibiChanSan242]

i thought it was about a little kid that was killed when the kid was still little, because it said she got toys from her mom and dad

[miyalana]

If you remove the line about the mom throwing the kid away, this could practically be about the kid commiting suicide and how its better than his living life. Just in my opinion I guess..

[icatheshadowkiller]

wow, i was under the impression that he was killed AFTER he was born... now i sad... T^T

[0ILoveJapanese0]

From reading the comments, I understand the song now. Really sad : (

[meow123nya]

I cried so hard. T__T

[Chipp150]

Hey guys, what if this about a dog that had to be put to sleep and not about a kid at all? But then again there's the bike part......uh...

[Iseabeau]

Scratch that..I BAWLED.

[Iseabeau]

This made me cry...How can people think or abortions?? Your taking away someone's life, never allowing them to speak with their own voice...

How can these people live with themselves after this??

I could never look in the mirror the same way ever again. :*( Once again, Miku makes me cry with the reality with her songs.

[Sandkastenrockerin01]

@Iseabeau yes, but you have to see that some people cant afford a child, or aren't ready, or just aren't in the social state to have a baby. Would you rather not give a possible life before it really started to exist, or would you have a baby growing up in poverty or similar things? it is a hard choice wether to have an abortion, but you can't say it's completely wrong. it's sad, and it's hard for the possible parents, but there are always good reasons.

[Misakichan644]

@Sandkastenrockerin01 cant you put it in an orphanage?

[Sandkastenrockerin01]

@Misakichan644 have you ever looked into an orphanage? *shudder* I don't wish this kind of a life for any kid. Also,think further. I know this is very hypocritical, but most orphanage-kids have it easier later to get drugs and alcohol. They always will be in a lower place in society - not every kid is getting adopted, after all. Some women also can't afford or handle the birth itself. There are so many reasons.

[Misakichan644]

@Sandkastenrockerin01 well yeah I dont blame if they cant help it (like a miscarrage)

[Honekoneko123]

This is sad but the music sounds happy...I'm so confused T_T

[Sonjhh]

*slap*

Goddamnit!! ;A;

Happy song! Please!!

Oh my... this is once again very good song, but so unbelievably sad... horribly good, could say ;u;

[AtariSilver]

I don't understand the music box metaphor. Why would it feel so good to die?

[DarkettoGotico999]

omg, he's dad looks like Japan (from Hetalia)!!

[AnimeFan758]

Did anyone eles notice that the papa is crying at 4:06 you can see a tear fall from his eye. This is sad

[HatsuneMiku01Otaku]

Mama and Papa look very young(?).

[Kikennissu71]

JAPAN!!! How DARE you! And you're the most reasonable of the nations!

(Huge Hetalia and Vocaloid fan...)

[Takushika230896]

This song is so sad... Why unborn children have to deal with the sins of their parents? Oh, I am crying...

[MsMaeUzumaki]

Am I the only one who thinks of Sweeny Todd?

[animegal5252]

I think maybe they wanted the baby, they prepared a room for the boy (like a lot of to-be parents do) by filling it with toys and such, but due to complications with the pregnancy they were forced to abort the baby. Like if they didn't abort the baby the mother would most likely die, so by choosing the mom over the soon-to-be baby they were being "selfish." I don't have a clue, it just makes the most sense to me.

[AnimeFan758]

@animegal5252 I agree this song may be about abbortion and what you say makes sense.It is sad.On clannad after story that nagisa still had her baby even with the chance of dying.Every parent has thier own choice.Its up to the parents to choose if they should abort their baby,still..I think abortion is wrong.This song was confusing to me when i first watched it.I thought the baby was aborted or died in a bomb while his parents were out having fun and thats why he melted away.

[Kimilouluvspie]

Yup, the lyrics of the song tells it all. The song is about abortion..."lightly pulled out my soul with tweezers and tossed it away" that is a big give away :( how sad.

[hakailer]

I was looking at the Japanese lyrics, and it sounds like he was apologizing for throwing his life away for his own pleasure (since he said dying felt good). I don't think it was about his mom, throwing him away for her pleasure. "Sorry that I threw myself away for my own pleasure, mama."

I think the boy died from an accident, because his body was scattered around with his eyeball popping like a popcorn.

[MsMaeUzumaki]

I don't think this song strictly applies to abortion... maybe he died as a baby, or a toddler.

[kankuro876]

I don't think she had an abortion, I think something happened while she was pregnant because the song says about buying toy for the baby, which implies they were planning on keeping it but she had to get an abortion

[DaisukiRamen]

I knew this sounded familiar! This song is by the same person who made 'Breaking Things Into Pieces'!

[chisanaAi]

I love songs like these cause then I get to see what everyone this it mean in the comments below XD

[Epicgraybunny98]

To be honest I think it's ok to get an abortion if u were:

1. Raped

2. Prego at 11-13

If u get prego at 15+ have the kid

But thats just me

[assassinyourendo]

That...is the most enjoyable song about a dead child if I've ever heard one.

[anonymousfredcookies]

Why... why are all of Kikuo's songs either:

1. Depressing

2. Creepy

3. Just Weird

?

[supersavvy117]

Beautiful music, sad lyrics... I love it but I hate it.

[8uttssssssss]

hi to everyone who think abortion is bad/think people who get and believe that its okay to get one

you can all go get murdered okay thank you also

IN THE LYRICS

ITS SAYS THAT THEY LIKE IT OKAY OH MY GOD

ALSO ITS NOT ONLY ABOUT ABORTION YOU IDIOTS

ITS ALSO ABOUT A WOMAN GETTING HER PERIOD AND LOSING THE BABY

SO PLEASE KINDLY SHUT UP AND JUST ENJOY THE MUSIC.

[FukosStarfishBuddy]

That's sad... You hear about teenagers getting pregnant and are embarrassed about that. So they go and get an abortion so they can go back to their normal lives. And those poor girls that don't know what happen during abortions think it's just away for the baby to disappear. They don't know that it kills the baby. Abortions in a way say that unborn babies' lives don't matter and that they aren't worth anything.

I hope that all those who believe in abortions go to hell.

Like if you agree.

[8uttssssssss]

@FukosStarfishBuddy l o fucking l man

WHAT IF I DONT KNOW

MAYBE THEY WERE

RAPED???????? GASP WOW

AND LOL OKAY YOU CAN GO TO HELL BRO GMH

[Scatterss]

@FukosStarfishBuddy Haha, are you fucking retarded? Most girls don't get abortions because they're embarrassed, they do it because they're SCARED. They know they aren't ready for a baby, and they know they wouldn't be able to properly raise one.

[FukosStarfishBuddy]

@Scatterss But why kill the baby? They should chose adoption. And I know someone who got an abortion. She was embarrassed and didn't want people to know that she was pregnant. So she decided to do the abortion. It's been the biggest regret of her life.

[Scatterss]

@FukosStarfishBuddy Not all babies get adopted. I've lived in foster care and the likes before and let me tell you, it can be a shitty place to be. In fact most babies that get adopted are caucasian babies with no physical or mental disabilites.

[littlelightningwolf]

@FukosStarfishBuddy

But what if the person was raped? Is it still bad then? Or what if they were scared or were sick? What if having the baby would mean dying yourself? Then what could you do? Nothing! Its a chocie and if its so bad to have an abortion you shouldnt of had sex in the first place! So dont judge people who get abortions! You never know why!!!

[DesuKawaiiNature17]

@littlelightningwolf Even if you are raped...

You have a life inside of you, something you can be attached to.

Love it. Treasure it.

It is yours.

[BrownieMixes]

I believe that if the women who are about to have an abortion what this music video, 2 out of every 5 will decide to keep their child. Pro-life people!

[xTenshiAi]

After looking through the comments and the translation.. this song really makes me sad.. T__T

[monkey12619]

All of the feelings! ;A;

[HaruhiLuLu]

This hurts so much.

This hurts, a lot.

I love children, and I understand when people abort children. But this song just hurts, but its so good..OTL

[VocaloidSpazz]

Though the bit of  "you chose your precious self's pleasure over..." could hint the child was, in fact aborted, the fact that they had bought all the toys make it seem more like the child was a miscarriage. It could have been caused by the stress of war, or, to fit more to the

"self's pleasure", she could have done something harmful to herself that increased the risk of losing the child. I'm kind of still on the fence, though, on how I think he died, though.

[JazerPixie]

At the same time, I don't think everyone who makes that choice is selfish - only, at least partially, the parents in this particular song due to that one line about "precious self's pleasure". Of course, that line might've been due to child's lack of understanding of the situation, but I still want to believe in that line is true. The parents' expressions still look sad and regretful to me. It was obviously a hard decision for them to make, if indeed this song is about abortion as I believe.

[JazerPixie]

I like looking through the comments because other theories interest me, and all of them still apply to the lyrics as a whole.

As for my previous comment, I do realise that there are legitimate reasons for abortion. The parents' thoughts are not explicit in the lyrics, and therefore any host of motives could be applied to the parents. However, to me, the lyrics do suggest that the child was aborted with at least a small degree of selfishness from the parents appearing in this song. (cont.)

[KyaotheYandere]

And about the precious selves pleasure, I think he kind of blames his mother even though he loves her.

[KyaotheYandere]

How I see this is that the child was a miscarriage because of a mother's stress about her husband going to war, and she had doctors take out her child and cremate him.

[DrawWithLuna]

so sad DX but kawaii

[cheezit1x1]

Ahh I get it she lost the baby

[YaoiNightmares]

What if she had a still born?

[YaoiNightmares]

OMG!! So sad

I'm crying my eyes out TT 3 TT its so sad.....

[MoonshadowXV]

Is this a series of songs? >.> I'm sorry I'm sorry sounds like it goes with this somehow

[GaaraXchik]

@MoonshadowXV 'I'm Sorry I'm Sorry' and this are written by the same person.

You should listen to 'Let's Go to Heaven' and 'I Shouldn't Be Bad'.

[MoonshadowXV]

@GaaraXchik thanks :3

[MsAnnoyingComment]

Oh god, I'm crying. ;_;

[helee28]

I'm scared.

SO CATCHY <3

[EnbukyokuAline]

I don't know precisely why, but the song makes me think not about an abortion, a war or an accident, but about a cancer victim.

[Kosupure12]

WHAT'S WITH THIS ABORTION TALK!

If it was an abortion then why is the child about 7-8 years old!

I think he died from a bike accident. When he was going home on his bike so fast down the steep hill that happens to be a STREET... then when it says 'the non-existed bike' that's just because he's dead and his spirit is traveling down to wherever he went. And the houses and people started to disappear because he was getting closer and closer to death from the accident. Any questions or arguments??

[BatmanSucksMyBanana]

@Kosupure12 well in the beginning of the song the boy does say his soul was lightly pulled out by tweezers, than saying he was broken into pieces. it sounds like a miscarrage to me.why the child looks older may be just the artist way of showing what could have been. his parents probably bought all those gifts before he died, like that bike. he's enjoying all of his gifts in a surreal/heaven like world. but that's just me maybe it is a song about abortion

[Kosupure12]

@BatmanSucksMyBanana The tweezers can mean many things. I think it means that doctors tried to perform a surgery but failed. Those things can happen ya know?

[yuumeko]

@Kosupure12 It was either abortion or an accident. But I think there's too much emphasis on existence, souls, guilt and the parents for it just to be about a car accident. Besides, not sure how you can explain the line about the mother abandoning the child for selfish reasons. I mean, when you think there was a song about a car accident, you'd think it'd be more focused on just sorrow, pain and reflecting on one's life. (cont)

[yuumeko]

@Kosupure12 But in the song, the child doesn't have much to reflect on. He never describes pain or shock. Even when he mentions the toys, he doesn't mention having played with them, simply that his parents had gotten it for him. In other words, the tone is... too strange for it to merely be about a car accident.

[blurmieh]

Reminds me of "Lets go to Heaven" :D

[savegalkissy]

@blurmieh I think it's made by the same person

[PokemonFan3]

You know, for the most part? I'm completely fine listening this song and not getting too emotional about it....except for that bit about getting ground up in the music box ._. Makes me cringe EVERY time...

[anyeoung1]

Anybody else feel sick listening to this :S cheeks blew up like popcorn ugh.....

[skaviri]

i think the bike riding through the narrow lane is him going through the.... opening.

[skaviri]

@skaviri also cuz the bike "never existed"

[vidaljo]

i actually think that the child was already born but had an accident like was run over or was killed, and they buried the toys they baught for him with his body.

[neko13nya]

It's probably about a miscarriage.. Its obvious the couple wanted the child they already bought so many things and made things for him but he just didn't make it. Well what ever its about, It's sad but he seems to be happy never the less.

[HApPYsONg143]

:0 Kikuo's [the producer] other song, Let's Go To Heaven, is about double suicide. This song seems to be about a boy committing suicide as well; at least in my interpretation. The little boy appearing in the PV is how the person views himself, babied and smothered.

He couldn't handle it anymore. In this song, he is singing about how good it felt to die, and be free...? He's riding on a bicycle and talking about being dispelled by the wind, and how it feels great. So... That's just my two cents.

[VocaTAU]

Some of the comments in here are utterly stupid, some people can't afford to have children, also how would you like it if you were raising something you didn't want to? I'm sorry if I sound "cold" but the earth is overpopulated as it is, the last thing we need is more people, especially since they child isn't wanted it wouldn't even get the attention it would need. Also I'm pretty sure the song is about a miscarriage.

[pup333]

@VocaTAU I knew this song was something about a babies death so i thought it was abortion, but now that you say miscarriage it does seem like that.

[NuclearToxicPoison]

@pup333 I agree. At first, I kinda thought abortion, but the way that its saying how the mother bought all that nice stuff for him and the father made him all those things makes it sound like they were wanting the kid, but in the end they had a miscarriage and he died, hence the whole "I no longer exist" thing.

[BlackSiphonophore]

I can never understand where the abortion theory comes from.

[aimlesstantrum]

@BlackSiphonophore Me either. It's weird cause there's the lines about riding a bicycle, so like it sounds like the kid was born already.

[G0ldenButterfly]

@aimlesstantrum It's most likely a metaphor, not an actual bike ride. It's most likely representing his death, or the abortion itself. The abortion theory comes from the fact that the child says that his mother "threw him away for her own precious self's pleasures." More then likely, the parents planned to keep the child at first (the bought toys), but for whatever reason the mother backed out and had an abortion. The "white and syrupy" line also may hint to that theory, as well.

[neko13nya]

@G0ldenButterfly Probably most likely that is what happened. :'(

[BlackSiphonophore]

@G0ldenButterfly Couldn't the mother's line also mean she abandoned him after he was born? I just can't see how any part of the song indicates an abortion (or miscarriage or anything else of that nature).

[G0ldenButterfly]

@BlackSiphonophore It is possible that the child was abandoned, but that doesn't explain his death and why the father couldn't have just kept him and left the mother instead. It's possible, but I really, really doubt it. I don't know, it just really feels like a story about an abortion/miscarriage. Honestly, there is no way to confirm it or anything, as the song is too clouded in surreal/abstract lyrics, but I can only see an abortion/miscarriage as the reason for his death.

[xEmoxWolfxx]

@G0ldenButterfly If it is that, I think it's about a miscarriage, rather than an abortion. It seems to me like they wanted to have the child, talking about all the toys Mama bought and and the music boxes and soldiers that Papa made. Is also says "Don't look at me that way, ____, it makes me ashamed to have died", maybe talking about the parents looking sad? As you said before, there is no way to confirm it, since the song is very ambiguous and just about impossible to figure out.

[G0ldenButterfly]

@xEmoxWolfxx Perhaps, and while I'm not totally counting out a miscarriage, as it may very well be one, I can't help but think it was entirely unwanted since the child commented on how the mother threw him away for her own selfish desires. I think that no doubt, at least the father was looking forward to the child, perhaps even the mother, but I think either she got tired of being pregnant or there was a health risk mishap to cause them to abort the child. But yeah, it's hard to say for sure.

[BlackSiphonophore]

@G0ldenButterfly Personally, I believe both parents were forced to give up the kid after he was born. The song is sung from the kid's perspective. He doesn't know that his parents were forced, so he assumed his mother was behind his abandonment. Perhaps, the mother disciplined the kid the most, which is why he blames the mother and not the father. The kid changes his view during the song, though.

(Regardless, I agree the lyrics are unclear on what exactly happened to kid.)

[TsukariChan]

my stomach has butterflies everytime i listen to this :(

its just so heart breaking and sad some people do abortion ..

[HatsukoiNoKioku]

@TsukariChan

It sounds so upbeat and filled with innocence but once I read the lyrics my heart was engulfed in overwhelming melancholy

4ever pro life! (I actually wrote an essay about that XP)

[HatsukoiNoKioku]

@TsukariChan

At first I thought the song was so upbeat and juvenile, but when I read the lyrics my heart became engulfed in an overwhelming fit of melancholy

4ever pro life!

Ever life no matter how small deserves a chance to experience what this world has to offer....How many Michelangelos, Mozarts, and other innovators alike have we killed with this madness!?

[yuumeko]

@HatsukoiNoKioku Please don't make this political. Recognize that both pro-life and pro-choice don't actually LIKE abortion. This video is a heartbreaker, and seriously reflects on the guilt and the pain couples go through if they choose to have an abortion.

[HatsukoiNoKioku]

@TsukariChan

sorry about the strange comment > >

[TheLovelySweetGirl]

Everytime I hear this song I feel a little sad.... although this is in japanese I cannot forget the meaning of these words.... somehow I can not breathe well when I hear this.

It's kinda perturbing but I like it anyway. I think so...

[xMissxKawaiix]

The is really sad if you think about it.

Clueless,innocent kid didn't know what was happening. ; n ;

[VocaTAU]

Someone should make a cover for Yuki, that would fit the song so much more.

[BlackSiphonophore]

The impression I got was that the kid lived in a warring country. The town he lived in was evacuated before enemy troops came, but the kid missed/did not know of the evacuation. The kid then left his house on his bike and rode through the emptied town, frantically looking for his parents. After riding for a while, he assumed his parents had abandoned him for their own selfish reasons and began to ride home. Before he could make it home, enemy troops bombed the town and explosions blew him away.

[JazerPixie]

The lyrics are really dampening and yet somehow retain child-like... positivity? The parents allowed the child to develop (otherwise there would be no need for the toys) before the mother decided to abort her child for her own "precious self's pleasure". Then, metaphors about the soul's last connections to earth (music box, toy soldiers, parent's stares), and breaking apart into nothingness through surrealistic means. The surrealism must've felt nice, cos the kid enjoyed dying.

[ShotieFish77]

@JazerPixie Going along with your interpretation about the abortion, maybe the "precious self's pleasure" was because the mother wouldn't have made it through childbirth and would have died if she'd had the child? That would explain the guilt that the parents seemed to feel.

[JazerPixie]

@ShotieFish77 I actually hadn't considered the parents' point of view when I wrote the comment. What you're saying makes a lot sense. Thinking about it again, it's odd that the parents would to be all for it then change their mind without a reason such as yours. As you say, the parents do seem to be regretful.

I think I also recall someone suggesting that the child had some sort of disease, and the parents did not wish to have such a child - perhaps due to money constraints.

[shadowslas]

why.... so cute yet...

[Totalidiocy]

Thank you for translating this. This song is pretty disturbing and insane-sounding. (It kinda reminds me of Yume Nikki.)

[VocaniSisters]

@Totalidiocy You should hear I'm sorry I'm sorry.

[Totalidiocy]

@VocaniSisters I did and I love that song. Thanks for the recommendation, though.