You feel so alone.

[horsesgonewild32]

omg I loveeeeee this!! So many people have used this audio and this is by far my favourite one! :D

Subbed, maybe sub back? :)

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@horsesgonewild32 thankyou xx

[oxBalladOfHopexo]

i had panic attacks daily from when i was about 9 to about 12, i know how it feels 110% always here if you want a chat:)<3

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@oxBalladOfHopexo I'm sorry, it's horrid. Thanks so much, and vice versa x

[deadendshortcut]

this is amazing, i feel like i can connect to you, i also suffer from an anxiety and panic disorder and have to see mental health doctors twice a week to help me cope. like you, i feel most at peace when with horses and so they became my life. i really respect you for posting this, and i think your incredibly brave. what you have done and achived, what i can see through your videos is amazing and you should be very proud. xxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@deadendshortcut Thank you so much for your comment. I can totally relate to what you're going through, horses really to seem to bring the calm within the storm. xx

[horsemaniac123]

Omg! Amazin Vid Becks xx I Was Literally Touched! xx

[arn93xx]

also what is the name of the music in the background, it is beautiful x

[arn93xx]

FAVOURITED - i suffered from aniexty for 2 years, luckily i don't get it as much now as ive been going through worse, ha! but it still creeps in from time to time. just remember you have your horse :) that really helps, just the little things like cuddles with them, makes you feel a little less alone. i hope it all gets better for you soon, i wouldn't wish it on anybody! i can relate to this video so much i so many different ways, for so many different things. i love it xxx

[EventingsSecond96]

Wow, this is just beautiful! I had no idea what happened with panic attacks, so thank you for explaining hehe:') They just sound dreadful, I'm so glad JD is what makes you happy and that he is in your life, I hope they get better:')x

[RunLikeSheeka]

I have a panic disorder/ anxiety (theyre very similar if not the same thing) and also depression and abit of bi polar :/ so i know how it feels, all too well...its horrible, i wouldnt wish it upon anyone!

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@RunLikeSheeka I'm sorry to hear that. xx

[candykkhorsesngp925]

you are an inspiration to a lot of people , and no disorder is easy to live with . beautiful video xxx

[TheEdgyVeggie]

I was diagnosed with an anxiety distorter as well and knowing that someone as amazing as you has gotten through it and jumps like you do is truly inspirational :)

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@TheEdgyVeggie thank you so much for your comment, I really wish you the best with everything xx

[EMZNELLZ]

A stunning video - a credit to both your talent and your bravery xx

[jhrider13]

I am so sorry for what you are going through. This is so inspiring towards me and I was so inspired when I read the description! this is truly beautiful and You've totally inspired me and other people. <33

[kayylleeiigghx]

this is absolutely breath taking! you've shown incredible strength putting this up and opening up to everyone about your panic disorder. this really speaks so clear and it just incredible. i really dont know what else to say but wow!xxxx

[BriWhoLuvsHorses]

Love this quote... And the video -3

[GraceandLolly]

stunning, touching, inspiring, wow! this is incredible, hope your doing okay right now <3

[Horsesyou2me]

<3

[HannarrBoo]

This is beautiful and its beautiful because you can feel what your going threw.

i would of never knew you suffered from a panic disorder... you always seem so confident and happy in your riding, but thats why we ride i guess.

I know we dont speak but if you ever want a random chat, just message :) xx

[peacebeauty101]

I have it to, it's hard to hide from friends....I admire you, thanks for speaking for all of us out in the world with this disorder :') I wish you the best <3

[WhisperedLitany92]

Wow, this video is amazing....It honestly made me cry. I suffer from severe anxiety which isn't quite the same thing, but its somewhat close... and I also make videos that are based on how i feel at that given time... this video explains my anxiety perfectly. I love the way you put this together.

[xHannahxLovesxHorses]

honestly Rebecca this is the most inspiring video i have seen in a long time. i never would have known you suffered with panics, its easy what a little smile can hide huh?

i can relate to you, i have panic disorder and i completely agree with you, no one knows what its like unless you have it!

you are such an inspiring and incredible young girl:)

i wish you all the best with it, and if you ever need someone to talk to or rant to, you know where i am <3 xxxxxxxxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@xHannahxLovesxHorses thanks Hannah. I would never have known you did either, I hope everything is ok with you on that front. I'm also here for you if you need a chat, just drop me a message on fb anytime :) hope all is well xx

[TammyRocks4eva]

This is so touching and beautiful and raw and just simply amazing <3 xx

[AnnaaLouisa]

This is absolutely stunning :) I can relate to this so much, I literally sat and cried! Thank you for putting it up, it's reassuring in a strange way. I hope you're all right, wish you all the best. xxxx

[WatretX]

this video is honestly spine-chilling, such a beautiful video x

i wish you all the best<3!

[PMRrox]

this is absolutely stunning, i think people underestimate how lonely and down you feel. hope everything is okaaay :')xxx

[LouiseGeorgex]

This is absolutely amazing, so much meaning to this, its just beautiful!

You're so pretty and I really hope things get. You seem like such a lovely person and you (& JD) are one of the best horsey youtubers out there! :) xxx

[izzigoater]

This is amazing! Horses always make us feel better, they wont think we are weak, they will love us for who we are, hold onto that. Your a really lovely rider xx

[AimeeC57]

I can completely relate to this, it's the worst thing ever:/ but ur amazing and such an inspiration :) chin up-3

[CarinoGrace]

thankyou for making this. i suffer the same, and you are very brave doing this! i admire you <3

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@CarinoGrace wish you the best :) x

[HevahhOx]

You are such a truly incredible person. In your worst times, hold onto how you make the rest of the world that watch you and JD feel. Remember that you're not alone, or useless or pathetic. But you are strong, and powerful and an incredibly talented person. Trust me - half of the world of Youtube will agree. xx

[KeturahSJ]

this video is amazing! I think at some point in life everyone feels this way, im glad you have people to help and support you! thank god for horses! riding is the one moment where you can forget everything(me at least). I dont know what some of us would do without them <3 stay strong :) x

[Flutterbug1121]

May I ask and if you don't want to anwser you don't have to be what is a Panic Disorder??? and like I said if you don't want to answer just say sorry I don't want to answer that cause if you don't feel like then thats ok but, just thought I'd goo ahead and ask!!!! anyway your such an inspiration nto me and I can't wait till I become a rider like you... your my INSPIRATION!!!!!!

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@Flutterbug1121 Panic Disorder is one in which you experience constant or continual panic attacks, and the panic attacks are the horrid part of it all. I can't ever really explain it very well and it's different for everyone, but for me a panic attack causes my heart to race at a scary rate, it pounds against my chest, my breathing stops, I get faint and the only thought I have is that I'm going to die. It's apparently very similar to what would happen if you were to have a heart attack. x

[AmySilverBullet]

becs your such an inspiration, it must be so hard for you to post something like this thats so personal to you, but youve done it for the good of others to offer support and confidence to others who may be suffering from similar experiances. i admire your bravery and with such a bright and positive outlook on things you will pull through difficult times and come out stronger.. keep strong xxxxxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@AmySilverBullet thank you so much amy :) made me smile x

[horsejumpgal]

I used to have panic attacks and GAD (which is much better). panic attacks were the worst thing, i felt as if i was going to die.... i now take lexapro which is amazing, i highly recommend it! stay strong!

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@XxSinging4lyfxX I truly sympathise with you, it really is awful. I can only say I admire you for hashing on and hope things light up soon. Like you, mines has worsened in the past 4 months xx

[xScrapster]

this is truely beautiful, I understand exactly what you're going through as i've had the same problems for the past 5 years getting steadily better and that's what you've got to remember, it WILL get better even when you think it never will and everything is over. I've also never been one to broadcast it but I'd be more than happy to chat to you - sometimes talking to someone who understands is what you need. Keep strong, keep smiling xxxxxxx

[Jojo8200]

Having close members of my family with this condition, i've seen what it can do to a person's confidence, mentality and general health. It is awful and you have every sympathy. You have been through so much and are such a strong person. Thankyou for being so brave and sharing this. xxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@Jojo8200 Thank you Joanne, wouldn't wish it on anyone, it's horrid but I aim for myself and others to learn to just think about the positives in life xx

[amyselvis]

This really did make me tear up. I know I don't suffer with the same thing as you do, but I know how alone you can feel and you do know, if you ever need to talk, or even just chat about anything to keep your mind off of anything, I am always here. I truly can't thank you enough for what you have done for me in the past and I only feel that I need to repay the favour. This video is beautiful, and to be honest, one of the most meaningful videos I have ever seen.

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@amyselvis thanks amy, you need to repay nothing, honestly. I should help more :) definitely need some chat time again soon, it's been soo long xx

[xXx3rinx]

this is amazing :D you are my insperation, honstly you try sooo well with your horse and just make it look soo easy :) your an amazing rider <3

[GoingForVictory]

this is beautiful,x

[CaitlinBlueSterling]

who could not like this video. awesome video but 2 haters. to those haters get over it

[KateLovesJumping]

this video is, as always, completely stunning. i really hope you're okay becs. you're one of the strongest people i know and i know first hand how much this can take hold of someones life. always always here if you want to talk xx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@KateLovesJumping thank you kate xxx

[rumblerox]

You are inspirational and I think that I speak for a lot of youtube here! Stay strong in everything you do, you and JD are so great together, good luck in 2012 :) xxxxxx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@rumblerox thankyou x

[crazy1coral]

this is amazing!, keep staying strong :)!-3

[Isabellers]

incredible as always xx stay strong like we all know you are

[FinesseIt]

this is amazing i love it!!!! did u make the audio?!

[loneoakgrls]

Wow this is INCREDIBLE! :O

[XxSinging4lyfxX]

I love this ♥ I'm exactly the same, I've been suffering severe panic disorder, anxiety and GAD in the past few months especially. It's horrible :( It caused me to become depressed and it's also caused permanent damage to my balance system so I have permanent vertigo. Just moved house, trying to get a job (not easy with vertigo or lack of confidence from anxiety), moved 6 and a half hours away from my friends, dropped out of uni. My horse, Icy, really is the only thing that's kept me strong! ♥

[BeccaMollyx]

This is beautiful, I've been suffering with mental health since a young age, and it is something so hard to talk about, this is really brave of you. It's true you can't understand unless you've experienced it, that's what makes you feel so alone. You've got thousands of people rooting for you on here, but I'm here if you ever need anything x

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@BeccaMollyx thank you very much xx

[usmusicgal]

this is gorgeous.i love it so much the audio is beautiful and just so true i can't even put it into words. if you ever need anyone to talk to let me know <3

[Blankiitamazona]

this is SO inspirational.

[KaseyEquine]

This is beautiful.<33

[Kaylagirl1238]

if you ever want to talk i have depression and a paniac disorder, they've both gotten better but it still is awful, its kinda horrid how i could hide it from my 'closest' friends :| i think this is really brave for you to share this about yourself because without you making a video about it first, i'd never would

[Lyn53yM]

another lovely video by you! i read the description and i think you are doing so well. you are such an insparation in many ways to many people, this video has made you an even bigger insparation to me, i think you have been very brave sharing this,keep strong and fight the anxiety! hope you and JD have a great 2012 xxxx

[bballg123]

That was beautiful <3

[GitanoandMe]

becca... just let me tell you, that you are one of the bravest persons i know. literally... <3 you have really impressed me with showing this on public.. <3 <3 :)

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@GitanoandMe thankyou x

[horsesofcourses1]

Amazing!

[EllenMario]

Rebecca, the description along with the video really moved me. You are an incredible person, and I have gained even more respect from you after this video! Xx

[xxxbeccaxrxxx]

@EllenMario thanks ellen, means a lot x

[Suezy2k8]

This really moved me, fair play to you for sharing :) you and JD are fab x

[CuddooStar]

Wow I really love this!! Love your pony!! :)