@LivvyN13 It's a form of mental abuse where a person tells you false information so you doubt your own memory. It's a form of control and it's called gaslighting because of the play/film Gas Light.
@Crowebabyy ah thankyou. sorry to hear that you went through that. and sorry to hear jess went through it too! hope it's all okay now, keep strong. & thanks for the reply. <3
I hate to hear about your year :( I hope 2012 will treat you better and I'm glad your alive. You have a reason to be here! I believe in spirits as well and used to be able to see them... If you'd like to talk about them feel free to message me on my channel!
I don't know why . . . but hearing you talk about it, I feel like you should believe him. I know it's not much coming from a stranger, but either way, I wish you the best!
You're such an amazingly strong, awesomely legendary person, you're like an inspiration for many of people, i love your videos and how much you make me think every day will get better, i hope everything getts better for you xx
that terrible loneliness, the feeling of having just utter despair fill your heart, when it seems that nothing in the world is worth living for. I think it hit me particularly hard since the last couple of years before this were just so damn happy. And then this tottaly sadness just filled my heart and i felt like i was gonna sunk. Its been 7 months since i´m back and i´m still a bit on the down side, but as we say in Portugal, after the storm comes the bliss :) I hope 2012 brings us HAPPINESS
Hey Jess, it was very touching to hear you open up to complete strangers like that. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I went on erasmus till august last year, and when i returned not only had i left the people that had been my "family" in spain for over and year behind, but most of my friends in Portugal had vanished. My boyfriend and also best friend for like 6 years left me a couple of days after i arrived and i was devastated. I don't think i ever felt like that before,
I'm so sorry you've had such a bad year and I hope 2012 treats you better. I think you are such an amazingly inspiration person and are one of the people who have inspired my YouTube channel and my fashion. Good Luck with 2012, Jess xx
i have to say jess, i googled gas lighting. man alive. i'm so happy that you got out of that! you have shared some incredible experiences with us. and i think i can speak for most of your subscribers and say we are here for you. Manchester isnt that far away.......(i live just outside north london) but i want you to know that i would drive up to help you out in any situation.
Hi Jess, you are a strong and brave person for putting this up on YouTube, but I think it would have been therapeutic to be able to do this. You are an amazing person Jess, don't let anyone tell you anything different. Your subbies love you. I hope 2012 is kinder to you.
also i am a singer and people alwayssay i am so good but i am so hard on myself becuase i dont think i am very good i havealways wanted to go to a mediam but my mum went once and couldnt say anything about me he refused so its either reakky bad or realy good :/
i have been in that situation and had only rescently get out of a relationship because i was cheated on and yea allot happened and i changed in the relationship to but now IM BAKC TO MY PHSYCO self hahah and its great i am always happy to peeople but going home and feeling like crap:/ i feel for you completely
Well I for one am happy that the attempt fail...I know how it is to be in that very sad dark lonely place and I am very happy you were able to get out of it (or at least mostly) With the medium I agree to take most of his stuff in stride (except the important things) but it mostly sounds like he is trying to tell you that when a opportunity comes to do something do it ^_^ I hope all the best for you this year...and if you're every in Boise Idaho I would love to do a shoot with you.
You are SUCH an amazing person! There aren't very many people who are willing to talk to a camera and just spill their personal lives for others to watch. But for you to do so is just so awesome and you never know who you could help. I could listen to you for hours, thanks for being such an inspiration :)
It is hard to trust when it trust has been broken. My last boyfriend was abusive. I has taken a long time to feel good about my self. You are a beautiful person. The world needs you to be part of it.
U r so brave to share your feelings and ur secrets. It makes me sad to hear u went thru such a bad yr. u r stronger now. Do not let this guy break u down. U r beautiful so love ur self. The guy didn't deserve u. Make this a positive yr. surround ur self with people that love and respect u. Love watching u. U r soooo fun and have a great personality. U have my support!
you're the only person i can listen to talk for that long. your such an amazing person especially how you put your private life out there it takes alot to do that. i dont think i would have the guts to do it. Truthfully im so glad you made a YouTube channel and started making video's you inspire me so much and every time you post a video it makes my day because your so funny and full of joy, i hope you continue to keep making videos for awhile!<3
You are probably the only person that I can watch for an entire half an hour and think it's only been a couple minutes! I really think you've already started to become stronger again, just by me being a creeper on facebook, whenever you post stuff. I think this year will be really good for you! Just kick the assholes out and keep the loving ones close! :)
You are such a beautiful and amazing person. Your so honest and i feel like i know you and we are friends (I dont mean that in a creepy way). I hope 2012 brings the best for you
I also respect you for being able to share parts of your self that others on youtube would never do. You have such amazing personallity.
I think it took a lot of balls (for lack of a better word) to put your private life out there for anyone and everyone to know of, my respects for that. I think I've told you this on tumblr and twitter before, but any time you need someone to talk to I'm here. I know we're just online friends, but I know how it is to not be able to really talk to those around you, when you're dealing w/a situation that you don't want to be known. So I'm here. Anytime, okay :)
im glad you failed because you are a beautiful person don't anyone ever let anyone tell you different you are an insiration and a hero to evreyone. your beautiful and you make me happy when im sad. i always look forward to your videos and you teach me alot about people and how i should react you make me a better person :) i love you jess <3
I am so glad that the pills that you took didn't take you. Just know that you are a beautiful person and that I am blessed to know on YouTube. I do know and understand what you feel. I've been there... I only got stronger with these experiences. God bless you Sweetie. Please know that those people aren't worth your life. You are better than them and are above it. OXOX
ive watched only like the first 9 minutes of this video..and if u hear that cracking noise..thats my heart..im so sorry for the year jess..this videos going to make me cry.. :,(... <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love u s much ur so down to earth and ur gorgoes sorry bout the terrible spelling , ur very strong i just love u !! (and ur hair , obviously who wouldent.)!i love u xxxxx jess xx
You are a strong person. Just talking and opening up to everyone here on Youtube takes a lot of courage, and strength. Like I have said before you are AMAZING!!
There is so much to say. I'll save it for another time. In short, your honesty, kindness, and smile help more people than you will ever know!!! And, I the Psychic was right about one thing ... My birthday is May 26 and I live in Texas (Dallas). Enough said. See you soon! HA!
Sweetie, I know how you felt too a tee. I have been where you are and where many others have been but the good thing is, your still here with us today. There's a reason for that, there is reasons for everything I do believe. I wish you the best of luck this New Year and hope everything works out for you. Please take a few minutes and come watch " My Story, My Rant, My Feelings in my channel. And I would love love love if u would subscribe to my channel if u haven't already. Please & Thanks
Yep I side once I love you videos, and I am working on myself so who knows I might be doing more videos. you amazing. person. Really you something, I use to have best friend for almost five years and i found out that she base our friendship fakes and it still hurts because she was my best friend its not the same thing you want though but it still hurtfull because my dad has cancer and we are not only fighting for his life but for my moms to. its hurts .
Also, I think the reason he doesn't want you to get the tattoo is maybe you're modeling is going to "skyrocket" this year. So he wants you to wait on the ink just in case, considering I believe you said that he did mention it wouldn't help you in your career. :P
I'd rather not bring up bad memories as they are memories and those mean nothing because these are done nothing can change your actions. I'm glad that you are here in life, doing what you love and looking toward the future with nothing but hope.
Do what is good for you and do what makes you feel good. I can't wait for you to find your soulmate, because you deserve something amazing in your life after so much bad.
I will look forward to your videos to see your pretty smile :D
Cheers to 2012; hoping that THIS year will give you much happiness and healing for 2011. You're a strong willed person and we all love you for who you are. Never change for anyone. As the inspiring Ms. Monroe said, "if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't DESERVE me at my best." You're a beautiful young lady, inside and out, and I wish you the best of luck this year.
Hey umm well I'm soo sorry for all that's happened to u last year but just put that in the past and whenever u are feeling sad and like no one loves you or noone cares about u just think of your family your subscribers and all of your friends cause they are here in your life to help you and since there here they care about you and they love you. I am a big fan of your videos and I'm subscribed to you cause I luv you and your videos but not in a stalker way like in a friend way so yeah bye
It's odd that our worst years were the same ones. When I watch your videos I feel a lot better.. It sounds lame but I don't feel as alone and my anxiety isn't as bad. Thank you for making videos.
@zeebeeboo Hey, There are some psycics that take requests if you dont want to know anything really bad they wont tell you. My mum reads tarot cards and she does that, she asks before the session starts how much you would like to know =] x
@Jingleheartart Hell yeah its does!! p.s Keep your chin up your an inspiration to many people including myself. Your creativeness has encouraged me to start painting again which I haven't done in 6 years! =D x
@iMurderMuffins I know deep down, that. However, without sounding 'emo' I don't think ANYONE deserves some of the shit I've had to endure. I see it as, if someone had to go through it all, I'd rather it be me than someone else.
@xoSlackerbitch Trust me, you have nothing to be jealous of. You haven't seen the really tough times I've been through that make me feel opportunity-less and like all of them are so far out of reach that I will never reach them.
The same happened to me in 2011. My great grandma had dementia, and I had gone to visit her in the summer of 2010 (because I live in the Middle East, so I don't go to America often). I remember having a really good relationship with her when I was little, but since it had been so long since I'd seen her, she'd forgotten who I was. The worst part is, she thought my 6 year old cousin was me. It broke my heart, and in 2011 I found out she'd died. I was really sad for a while but yeah. :)
No matter how they know I think its worth it rather than spending the money on a reading if you have the cash opposed to a bunch of pints and a taxi, I was so skeptical but mine got me thinking especially because he knew about my mother not being well, my housing situation and that it got better, he told me I was VERY fetile LOL D: haaa *breath* and I would change my career which I was very pissed off about but it make sense my career has forked into to ends of Art and care work.
First ever long video where I've watched the whole thing you are beautiful and don't ever feel alone okay MOVE TO AUSTRALIA LETS BE BEST FRIENDS HAHA :3
its so depresssing to love someone and think they are a certain way and then BAM, become so evil you dont even know what to feel cause you already gave up for their "love"..by the end i lost my best friend and my father wouldnt talk to me. i gave up college, and still going through after effects of severe emotional pain. i just dont get how people can take advantage of someone with their crafty lies,,,for FUN. he told me"i never was in love with you but making you believe it was fucking fun"
@Ailensinvadethe970 Wow, what you're describing sounds a lot like my ex-boyfriend too. He would keep me up when I needed sleep, depriving me of it making out I 'should be more awake' and i'm 'boring.' He'd also make out I was sleeping with any male ever, even if I just said hi to one of them. Ugh. These type of men aren't men at all, they're childish little boys who need to be booted off the planet.
and yes i think mine was pyschopathic i think he went out of his way to become the person he knew i would fall for. but he would get violently angry. no talking to guys for me, no hanging with friends, no going to parties, no being nice to my dad, his lame sucide threats, claims to being schizo and bi polar, but in the end he made this whole thing up until he couldnt contain his need for attention and manipulation so he picked his next victim.
i didnt know what gaslighting was but i looked it up. and yes, 4 months ago i was with a very manipulative person who did this to me too, i was really in love and did everything for him, controlled me and my emotions and made me think that i was making decisions for my life when really he was convincing me that throwing it away was what i wanted to do:( i burned alot of bridges no friends no family,and in the end i prayed to get out of it. he got another girl pregnant. and left. god i am happy.
I am sorry 2011 sucked so much... we all have massive faith in you. You're positive about 2012 so don't lose track of that, it sounds like you have plenty of things to focus on and look forward to :D
Thank you for sharing this with us. I'm going through a hard time right now and it's good to know that others have gone through rough situations as well and come out of them with a better perspective. I hope this year brings you only positive things. As for me, I'm hoping that a new change will be what is best for me in order to get rid of my troubles.
I'm very sorry to hear about your horrible year but you are so strong and brave to talk about this and I admire your strength :) I hope that your 2012 is a much better year filled with positivity and great happiness
I started watching your videos because you always seemed to cheer me up because of your great personality and the interesting topics you bring up in your videos. I'm sorry you had a bad year :(
if youre modeling the tattoo could completely ruin your career as well. this man seems legit. also you know any one of your subbies would love to help you if you ever just need someone to talk to. myself included.
Aw, dear, I'll be praying for you and your emotional scars. I know what it feels like to be.. or rather, feel, alone. When I feel alone I pray to God for comfort and He comforts me.
Thank you for sharing all of this with us, even though i don't know you, you make me happier, because you've shown me, and im sure a whole bunch of other people, that you can still smile no matter what, and as long as you listen to music, you'll get by, so thank you so much!
2011sucked for me as well. My sisters husband murdered her 1/7/2011 so yeah, please stay away from hurtful men it isn't worth it you're a beautiful lady and I know many successes will beheaded your way... No I'm not psychic or a medium. Just keep your head up.
@DameDeluxe Whoa!!! I am SO sorry to here that :( :( :( *hugs* I wish there was something I could do/say to help you. I am honestly so sorry for your loss.
I've always wanted to go to a medium just to see what they have to say about me. I don't necessarily believe in all of it but it would be really interesting none the less.
Teeeeeeeeeeeexas! Gurl, I'm right there with you when you mentioned being one of the loudest voices in choir. I actually have a funny story about that. The day of the choir concert we were doing a run thru during school. I stopped singing because I had to sneeze and guess what happened?! My WHOLE SECTION stopped singing too! When rehearsal was over I was like WTF guys!!! Imma kill y'all if y'all do that during the concert tonight. Lol
This year will get better <3 just believe in yourself :) Life an be utter shit sometimes. I know exactly what you mean about music, without music I would have killed myself a really long time ago. The worst times of my life where I truly considered ending it all music was the only light in the darkness. He really seems to think you are going to visit a crap load of places lol! If you ever come to Canada I'll so try and meet up with you 8D lol
I am lucky that for the past year I have been with a man that says nothing but great things about me, before him I was in a mentally abusive relationship for 6 yrs and he convinced me I was undesirable and made me feel sick to even look at myself. I have always been strong until then and I always wanted to see the best in people even when it wasn't there... and that can cause you to be sucked into someone else's miserable views of their own life. It happens but it's what makes you stronger.
Remember, there IS always a bright end to every dark tunnel. Please please please understand this coming from someone who knows this. Everyone has a low point in their life that may make them suck themselves into believing there will never be a bright point, but there will be for you.
Yup I watched it all, You just cant be annoying or get boring its just not possible Lol. <3
PandaBerryss 1 week ago
I've been Gaslighted too, so glad you got out of that horrible situation because it can get really dangerous!
Crowebabyy 2 weeks ago
im just wondering what gaslighting is?
you're so strong, and an absolute inspiration
LivvyN13 3 weeks ago
@LivvyN13 It's a form of mental abuse where a person tells you false information so you doubt your own memory. It's a form of control and it's called gaslighting because of the play/film Gas Light.
Crowebabyy 2 weeks ago
@Crowebabyy ah thankyou. sorry to hear that you went through that. and sorry to hear jess went through it too! hope it's all okay now, keep strong. & thanks for the reply. <3
LivvyN13 2 weeks ago
@SpiritG1264 that goes for anyone!
SpiritG1264 4 weeks ago
I hate to hear about your year :( I hope 2012 will treat you better and I'm glad your alive. You have a reason to be here! I believe in spirits as well and used to be able to see them... If you'd like to talk about them feel free to message me on my channel!
SpiritG1264 4 weeks ago
I don't know why . . . but hearing you talk about it, I feel like you should believe him. I know it's not much coming from a stranger, but either way, I wish you the best!
forbiddenfollies 1 month ago
wow I love your hair so much! and your ac/dc poster :) x
CrazyVicky3000 1 month ago
You're such an amazingly strong, awesomely legendary person, you're like an inspiration for many of people, i love your videos and how much you make me think every day will get better, i hope everything getts better for you xx
NOname97Girl 1 month ago
I know you get this a lot! But your hair is so beautiful and you are amazing. :) I love your personality it's extraordinary. :D
MsLivexLife 1 month ago
i think i'm in love...
VickieHiroshima 1 month ago
I just want to give you a cuddle now.. Your one brave amazing girl, Keep your chin up :)
Remember... D-D-D-D-Duck's the word! x
nylemc 1 month ago
you look so so nice! <3
theholyturtle 1 month ago
Even the best fall down sometimes <3 x
121bromley 1 month ago
I always feel to hug you and then go out for a long night with a few drinks :)
You're just so naturally great.
JY173 1 month ago
that terrible loneliness, the feeling of having just utter despair fill your heart, when it seems that nothing in the world is worth living for. I think it hit me particularly hard since the last couple of years before this were just so damn happy. And then this tottaly sadness just filled my heart and i felt like i was gonna sunk. Its been 7 months since i´m back and i´m still a bit on the down side, but as we say in Portugal, after the storm comes the bliss :) I hope 2012 brings us HAPPINESS
SuspyFutilidades 1 month ago
Hey Jess, it was very touching to hear you open up to complete strangers like that. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I went on erasmus till august last year, and when i returned not only had i left the people that had been my "family" in spain for over and year behind, but most of my friends in Portugal had vanished. My boyfriend and also best friend for like 6 years left me a couple of days after i arrived and i was devastated. I don't think i ever felt like that before,
SuspyFutilidades 1 month ago
I'm so sorry you've had such a bad year and I hope 2012 treats you better. I think you are such an amazingly inspiration person and are one of the people who have inspired my YouTube channel and my fashion. Good Luck with 2012, Jess xx
ThePoisonLies 1 month ago
i have to say jess, i googled gas lighting. man alive. i'm so happy that you got out of that! you have shared some incredible experiences with us. and i think i can speak for most of your subscribers and say we are here for you. Manchester isnt that far away.......(i live just outside north london) but i want you to know that i would drive up to help you out in any situation.
:)
mizzy4787 1 month ago
Hi Jess, you are a strong and brave person for putting this up on YouTube, but I think it would have been therapeutic to be able to do this. You are an amazing person Jess, don't let anyone tell you anything different. Your subbies love you. I hope 2012 is kinder to you.
AniMay 1 month ago
also i am a singer and people alwayssay i am so good but i am so hard on myself becuase i dont think i am very good i havealways wanted to go to a mediam but my mum went once and couldnt say anything about me he refused so its either reakky bad or realy good :/
22littlechicken22 1 month ago
i have been in that situation and had only rescently get out of a relationship because i was cheated on and yea allot happened and i changed in the relationship to but now IM BAKC TO MY PHSYCO self hahah and its great i am always happy to peeople but going home and feeling like crap:/ i feel for you completely
22littlechicken22 1 month ago
i have to ask.... what is gas lighted? ??
CatchThatFlyBernard 1 month ago
@CatchThatFlyBernard i googled it and found it
mizzy4787 1 month ago
| I'm so fucking glad you've moved on Jess!
I was so damn worried about you all the way through it.
Please don't ever go back!
I love you xxx
ForgetRegretArt 1 month ago
@Jingleheartart HOLY GUACAMOLE YOU REPLIED TO MY COMMENT
bowsanderos 1 month ago
Well I for one am happy that the attempt fail...I know how it is to be in that very sad dark lonely place and I am very happy you were able to get out of it (or at least mostly) With the medium I agree to take most of his stuff in stride (except the important things) but it mostly sounds like he is trying to tell you that when a opportunity comes to do something do it ^_^ I hope all the best for you this year...and if you're every in Boise Idaho I would love to do a shoot with you.
BitterSweetPhoto 1 month ago
You are SUCH an amazing person! There aren't very many people who are willing to talk to a camera and just spill their personal lives for others to watch. But for you to do so is just so awesome and you never know who you could help. I could listen to you for hours, thanks for being such an inspiration :)
GlitterInMyVeins7 1 month ago
It is hard to trust when it trust has been broken. My last boyfriend was abusive. I has taken a long time to feel good about my self. You are a beautiful person. The world needs you to be part of it.
theladyladyamy 1 month ago
U r so brave to share your feelings and ur secrets. It makes me sad to hear u went thru such a bad yr. u r stronger now. Do not let this guy break u down. U r beautiful so love ur self. The guy didn't deserve u. Make this a positive yr. surround ur self with people that love and respect u. Love watching u. U r soooo fun and have a great personality. U have my support!
2Beautiess 1 month ago
you're the only person i can listen to talk for that long. your such an amazing person especially how you put your private life out there it takes alot to do that. i dont think i would have the guts to do it. Truthfully im so glad you made a YouTube channel and started making video's you inspire me so much and every time you post a video it makes my day because your so funny and full of joy, i hope you continue to keep making videos for awhile!<3
livelovelife165 1 month ago
You need to watch the video that u made of the world laughting... Im the laughing babys mom. We love unhope for the best!
Elizebethis 1 month ago
You are probably the only person that I can watch for an entire half an hour and think it's only been a couple minutes! I really think you've already started to become stronger again, just by me being a creeper on facebook, whenever you post stuff. I think this year will be really good for you! Just kick the assholes out and keep the loving ones close! :)
xKatieAlvesx 1 month ago 12
You are such a beautiful and amazing person. Your so honest and i feel like i know you and we are friends (I dont mean that in a creepy way). I hope 2012 brings the best for you
I also respect you for being able to share parts of your self that others on youtube would never do. You have such amazing personallity.
Love tash xxx
Tashcindric 1 month ago
sounds like a pretty good medium, weird all the stuff he told you not to do though.. lol x
JellyBaby3579 1 month ago
I think it took a lot of balls (for lack of a better word) to put your private life out there for anyone and everyone to know of, my respects for that. I think I've told you this on tumblr and twitter before, but any time you need someone to talk to I'm here. I know we're just online friends, but I know how it is to not be able to really talk to those around you, when you're dealing w/a situation that you don't want to be known. So I'm here. Anytime, okay :)
mycosmeticaddiction8 1 month ago
im glad you failed because you are a beautiful person don't anyone ever let anyone tell you different you are an insiration and a hero to evreyone. your beautiful and you make me happy when im sad. i always look forward to your videos and you teach me alot about people and how i should react you make me a better person :) i love you jess <3
p.s i <3 your hair too :) <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
SuperJessieCakes 1 month ago
I am so glad that the pills that you took didn't take you. Just know that you are a beautiful person and that I am blessed to know on YouTube. I do know and understand what you feel. I've been there... I only got stronger with these experiences. God bless you Sweetie. Please know that those people aren't worth your life. You are better than them and are above it. OXOX
Bulgarianroses1969 1 month ago
Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.
91kikalol 1 month ago
ive watched only like the first 9 minutes of this video..and if u hear that cracking noise..thats my heart..im so sorry for the year jess..this videos going to make me cry.. :,(... <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone11901 1 month ago
omg , i watched the karl pilkington thing . :)
emsgotcurls8D 1 month ago
i really love your eye colour .
ARGH. i want your eyes .. <3!!(:
emsgotcurls8D 1 month ago
I'm actually really proud of you for speaking out about this. Thank you so much!
vanitytween 1 month ago
My birthday's in May! Maybe you'll get an invite ;)
KinkyKelsea 1 month ago
i love u s much ur so down to earth and ur gorgoes sorry bout the terrible spelling , ur very strong i just love u !! (and ur hair , obviously who wouldent.)!i love u xxxxx jess xx
pheebs741 1 month ago
whatever does Gaslighted mean?
rollingcube 1 month ago
@rollingcube look up gaslighting @ google
BloodredTinker 1 month ago
aw jess! we never knew about all of this, you are strong and stunning, and only deserve the best, stay strong! xxxxxx
chloefashionsnap 1 month ago
You are a strong person. Just talking and opening up to everyone here on Youtube takes a lot of courage, and strength. Like I have said before you are AMAZING!!
xcurlz75x 1 month ago
* And the Psychic
I couldn't be a psychic since I honestly don't know what I'm going to be doing three hours from now, much less three years.
TexasKeri 1 month ago
There is so much to say. I'll save it for another time. In short, your honesty, kindness, and smile help more people than you will ever know!!! And, I the Psychic was right about one thing ... My birthday is May 26 and I live in Texas (Dallas). Enough said. See you soon! HA!
TexasKeri 1 month ago
"Get my wonka-wonkas out, doing my lala-thing all over some guy's face" Loool! :D
0pima0 1 month ago
Sweetie, I know how you felt too a tee. I have been where you are and where many others have been but the good thing is, your still here with us today. There's a reason for that, there is reasons for everything I do believe. I wish you the best of luck this New Year and hope everything works out for you. Please take a few minutes and come watch " My Story, My Rant, My Feelings in my channel. And I would love love love if u would subscribe to my channel if u haven't already. Please & Thanks
3140babygirl 1 month ago
You should come to Scotland :) Although mabye wait til summer ^__^
mabyeabitmad 1 month ago
Yep I side once I love you videos, and I am working on myself so who knows I might be doing more videos. you amazing. person. Really you something, I use to have best friend for almost five years and i found out that she base our friendship fakes and it still hurts because she was my best friend its not the same thing you want though but it still hurtfull because my dad has cancer and we are not only fighting for his life but for my moms to. its hurts .
BeccaGrey1 1 month ago
I love ya!!!!!
MATTIDW1 1 month ago
You are one amazing woman and I am so greatful to have got to know you xxxx
Eleanorrose86 1 month ago
I kinda wish I was a guy, because I wanna show you all the love and respect you deserve. Sorry for being such a freak, but it's just the truth.
IrissEftelinggFanxD 1 month ago
whenever i feel down, im gonna think of you
your strength is amazing <3
xox
rachybakesyesh 1 month ago
29:05.. nearlly half an hour? get the kettle on! ;)
hollastifer 1 month ago
:) aw i hope this is an AMAZING year. You deserve the best!! :) xo
Shmexis 1 month ago
Also, I think the reason he doesn't want you to get the tattoo is maybe you're modeling is going to "skyrocket" this year. So he wants you to wait on the ink just in case, considering I believe you said that he did mention it wouldn't help you in your career. :P
deadkennedys63 1 month ago
I just want to say thank you for making this video. All of your videos.
You're such a beautiful soul :)
Thank you, thank you, thank you. ♥
zmimm 1 month ago
Oh and i'd seen a psychic about my cat George. He has been missing over a week :(
zeebeeboo 1 month ago
I'd rather not bring up bad memories as they are memories and those mean nothing because these are done nothing can change your actions. I'm glad that you are here in life, doing what you love and looking toward the future with nothing but hope.
Do what is good for you and do what makes you feel good. I can't wait for you to find your soulmate, because you deserve something amazing in your life after so much bad.
I will look forward to your videos to see your pretty smile :D
VcPlz 1 month ago
That was awesome! 2012 is going to be a great year for you. It will be interesting to see how things play out!
SilkMandel 1 month ago
Cheers to 2012; hoping that THIS year will give you much happiness and healing for 2011. You're a strong willed person and we all love you for who you are. Never change for anyone. As the inspiring Ms. Monroe said, "if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't DESERVE me at my best." You're a beautiful young lady, inside and out, and I wish you the best of luck this year.
deadkennedys63 1 month ago
Thank you for this video Jess, thank you thank you thank you. <3
(And you totally should come to Italy!)
JoBrosRockedMyWorld 1 month ago
@JoBrosRockedMyWorld Aww, thank you so much. <3 (Deffo!)
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Hey umm well I'm soo sorry for all that's happened to u last year but just put that in the past and whenever u are feeling sad and like no one loves you or noone cares about u just think of your family your subscribers and all of your friends cause they are here in your life to help you and since there here they care about you and they love you. I am a big fan of your videos and I'm subscribed to you cause I luv you and your videos but not in a stalker way like in a friend way so yeah bye
mscute4eva123 1 month ago
It's odd that our worst years were the same ones. When I watch your videos I feel a lot better.. It sounds lame but I don't feel as alone and my anxiety isn't as bad. Thank you for making videos.
chanelpxx12 1 month ago 2
@chanelpxx12 No problem. I am so glad that I have reached out to you. x
Jingleheartart 1 month ago 4
I would love to see a psycic but I worry they may tell me something I would rather not know... Hm!
Great vid as always. Hope 2012 is way better than 2011. And remember Jess - dont ever stop being you coz your fab!
Zee xx
zeebeeboo 1 month ago
@zeebeeboo That's the risk you take when it comes to seeing one. And thank you! :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
@zeebeeboo Hey, There are some psycics that take requests if you dont want to know anything really bad they wont tell you. My mum reads tarot cards and she does that, she asks before the session starts how much you would like to know =] x
vixyfairy1988 1 month ago
I just want to give you a hug :( Sending virtual hugs your way... *hug*
RushMetalXTC 1 month ago
@RushMetalXTC *Hugs*
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I'm totally your soul mate <3
ScarletSaintOnline 1 month ago
@ScarletSaintOnline You never know! You might actually be! ;) haha!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
how often does she change her hair color ? ><
i love it !!!
daraai 1 month ago
@daraai I used to change it every couple of months but I try to dye it too much these days. :) Thank you!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Come to Scotland !!! P-A-R-T-Y Woop Woop lol xx
vixyfairy1988 1 month ago 2
@vixyfairy1988 Sounds good! :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
@Jingleheartart Hell yeah its does!! p.s Keep your chin up your an inspiration to many people including myself. Your creativeness has encouraged me to start painting again which I haven't done in 6 years! =D x
vixyfairy1988 1 month ago
@vixyfairy1988 Wow!! That's so awesome!!!!!! :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
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vixyfairy1988 1 month ago
You don't deserve all this happening to you ;(
iMurderMuffins 1 month ago
@iMurderMuffins I know deep down, that. However, without sounding 'emo' I don't think ANYONE deserves some of the shit I've had to endure. I see it as, if someone had to go through it all, I'd rather it be me than someone else.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Come to Italy, Jess, the weird freaky psychic guy said so!;) By the way, everything about you is just so great!
iLanderful 1 month ago
@iLanderful Thank you : ) and haha!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Gosh, your life seems full of opportunities. I'm incredibly jealous right now :|
xoSlackerbitch 1 month ago
@xoSlackerbitch Trust me, you have nothing to be jealous of. You haven't seen the really tough times I've been through that make me feel opportunity-less and like all of them are so far out of reach that I will never reach them.
You can do anything if you put your mind to it :)
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
LOL watching Carl Pilkington really does make you want to travel less!
KayZeeDoubleYou 1 month ago
@KayZeeDoubleYou Hahahaha, I love him though! :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
The same happened to me in 2011. My great grandma had dementia, and I had gone to visit her in the summer of 2010 (because I live in the Middle East, so I don't go to America often). I remember having a really good relationship with her when I was little, but since it had been so long since I'd seen her, she'd forgotten who I was. The worst part is, she thought my 6 year old cousin was me. It broke my heart, and in 2011 I found out she'd died. I was really sad for a while but yeah. :)
urmomicous 1 month ago
@urmomicous I can totally relate to that because mine thought I was my mother :/ she didn't have a clue. :(
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
your voice reminds me of my friend who moved away , love your videos!
HeatherHiiccup 1 month ago
@HeatherHiiccup Thanks! :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Me an Dave are always trying to get you to go to Ireland!
MDWagstaff 1 month ago
@MDWagstaff BUT THERE'S SO MANY OTHER PLACES TO GO! :P hahahahaha
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Maybe you're going to go the the Venice Biennial! Cheap flights, beautiful city well worth it.
IncidentalShine 1 month ago
@IncidentalShine Perhaps! :D I'd like to!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
i would die to have a chance to talk with a medium! so lucky!!!! where didd you find this fellow?
Ailensinvadethe970 1 month ago
@Ailensinvadethe970 He knew my uncle's boyfriend so I got his number from him. :)
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
No matter how they know I think its worth it rather than spending the money on a reading if you have the cash opposed to a bunch of pints and a taxi, I was so skeptical but mine got me thinking especially because he knew about my mother not being well, my housing situation and that it got better, he told me I was VERY fetile LOL D: haaa *breath* and I would change my career which I was very pissed off about but it make sense my career has forked into to ends of Art and care work.
IncidentalShine 1 month ago
@IncidentalShine Yeah, wowwww. ^^
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
First ever long video where I've watched the whole thing you are beautiful and don't ever feel alone okay MOVE TO AUSTRALIA LETS BE BEST FRIENDS HAHA :3
p0kediamond 1 month ago
@p0kediamond Awh! Thanks! Hahaha! :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
its so depresssing to love someone and think they are a certain way and then BAM, become so evil you dont even know what to feel cause you already gave up for their "love"..by the end i lost my best friend and my father wouldnt talk to me. i gave up college, and still going through after effects of severe emotional pain. i just dont get how people can take advantage of someone with their crafty lies,,,for FUN. he told me"i never was in love with you but making you believe it was fucking fun"
Ailensinvadethe970 1 month ago
@Ailensinvadethe970 Wow, what you're describing sounds a lot like my ex-boyfriend too. He would keep me up when I needed sleep, depriving me of it making out I 'should be more awake' and i'm 'boring.' He'd also make out I was sleeping with any male ever, even if I just said hi to one of them. Ugh. These type of men aren't men at all, they're childish little boys who need to be booted off the planet.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
and yes i think mine was pyschopathic i think he went out of his way to become the person he knew i would fall for. but he would get violently angry. no talking to guys for me, no hanging with friends, no going to parties, no being nice to my dad, his lame sucide threats, claims to being schizo and bi polar, but in the end he made this whole thing up until he couldnt contain his need for attention and manipulation so he picked his next victim.
Ailensinvadethe970 1 month ago
@Ailensinvadethe970 I am so proud of you for getting him out of your life, remember that! coming from someone who knows how hard it is :/
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
i didnt know what gaslighting was but i looked it up. and yes, 4 months ago i was with a very manipulative person who did this to me too, i was really in love and did everything for him, controlled me and my emotions and made me think that i was making decisions for my life when really he was convincing me that throwing it away was what i wanted to do:( i burned alot of bridges no friends no family,and in the end i prayed to get out of it. he got another girl pregnant. and left. god i am happy.
Ailensinvadethe970 1 month ago
I am sorry 2011 sucked so much... we all have massive faith in you. You're positive about 2012 so don't lose track of that, it sounds like you have plenty of things to focus on and look forward to :D
Victoriomantic 1 month ago
@Victoriomantic Awww thank you :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing this with us. I'm going through a hard time right now and it's good to know that others have gone through rough situations as well and come out of them with a better perspective. I hope this year brings you only positive things. As for me, I'm hoping that a new change will be what is best for me in order to get rid of my troubles.
msfistfightsvsfences 1 month ago
@msfistfightsvsfences No problem :) and thank you so much. Good luck with your troubles x
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I love you. I wish I could cheer you up!
marije666 1 month ago
@marije666 This comment did :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I'm very sorry to hear about your horrible year but you are so strong and brave to talk about this and I admire your strength :) I hope that your 2012 is a much better year filled with positivity and great happiness
xbrexbrex 1 month ago
@xbrexbrex Thank you so much!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I started watching your videos because you always seemed to cheer me up because of your great personality and the interesting topics you bring up in your videos. I'm sorry you had a bad year :(
samiamiscool 1 month ago
@samiamiscool Aww, it's okay and thank you!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Love this...your awesome...I hope you have an awesome year!!!!
diddo96 1 month ago
@diddo96 Thank you! :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I really hope you have a great year this year. You deserve it.
hannahyep 1 month ago
@hannahyep Thank you so much!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
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TheZok30 1 month ago
@TheZok30 Thank you! aha
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
if youre modeling the tattoo could completely ruin your career as well. this man seems legit. also you know any one of your subbies would love to help you if you ever just need someone to talk to. myself included.
falloutmnky 1 month ago
@falloutmnky Thank you so much and yeah, he was telling me to branch out a lot and i think you're right on that.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Australia?!
Yaaaaaayyyyy.
bowsanderos 1 month ago
@bowsanderos :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Aw, dear, I'll be praying for you and your emotional scars. I know what it feels like to be.. or rather, feel, alone. When I feel alone I pray to God for comfort and He comforts me.
meadowfrance 1 month ago
@meadowfrance Thank you so much x
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
did you have to pay to see the medium?
tiara424777 1 month ago
@tiara424777 Yes, I did.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I've been gaslighted. Please be strong and get over the problems with your relationships.
clermeil 1 month ago
@clermeil I'm sorry to hear that. Thank you :)
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
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urparadise90 1 month ago
If its true or not I wish you all the success in the world you truly deserve it.
I really hope that put stop on your way to Austin is NY :D
urparadise90 1 month ago
@urparadise90 i meant first* stop...silly me
urparadise90 1 month ago
@urparadise90 Thank you!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
What do you smell like?
xEmmiexBubbles 1 month ago
@xEmmiexBubbles Right now? I smell like Amor Amor perfume by Carachel :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
2011 was also the worst year I have ever had also.
SVPScottiesVideos 1 month ago
@SVPScottiesVideos I'm sorry to hear that and I really hope this year is better for you!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Thank you for sharing all of this with us, even though i don't know you, you make me happier, because you've shown me, and im sure a whole bunch of other people, that you can still smile no matter what, and as long as you listen to music, you'll get by, so thank you so much!
RosieIsNosie56 1 month ago
@RosieIsNosie56 Awh, wow. Thank you so much.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
2011sucked for me as well. My sisters husband murdered her 1/7/2011 so yeah, please stay away from hurtful men it isn't worth it you're a beautiful lady and I know many successes will beheaded your way... No I'm not psychic or a medium. Just keep your head up.
DameDeluxe 1 month ago
@DameDeluxe Whoa!!! I am SO sorry to here that :( :( :( *hugs* I wish there was something I could do/say to help you. I am honestly so sorry for your loss.
and thank you.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I've always wanted to go to a medium just to see what they have to say about me. I don't necessarily believe in all of it but it would be really interesting none the less.
DivaKitty13 1 month ago
@DivaKitty13 Yeah, I was the same.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Teeeeeeeeeeeexas! Gurl, I'm right there with you when you mentioned being one of the loudest voices in choir. I actually have a funny story about that. The day of the choir concert we were doing a run thru during school. I stopped singing because I had to sneeze and guess what happened?! My WHOLE SECTION stopped singing too! When rehearsal was over I was like WTF guys!!! Imma kill y'all if y'all do that during the concert tonight. Lol
ThatSnazzyGoose 1 month ago
@ThatSnazzyGoose Hahahaha, Oh bless! :P Hopefully they didn't then.. :P
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
This year will get better <3 just believe in yourself :) Life an be utter shit sometimes. I know exactly what you mean about music, without music I would have killed myself a really long time ago. The worst times of my life where I truly considered ending it all music was the only light in the darkness. He really seems to think you are going to visit a crap load of places lol! If you ever come to Canada I'll so try and meet up with you 8D lol
HighxxxTension 1 month ago
@HighxxxTension Thank you so much! and sure we will!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
You're amazing.
Truetosarah 1 month ago
@Truetosarah Thank you!
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I just want to hold you in my arms and comfort you.
releaseyourfreak 1 month ago
@releaseyourfreak Consider it done, internet arms and cuggles :)
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
<3 xxxxxx
jaaalover28 1 month ago
@jaaalover28 <3 xx
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
I am lucky that for the past year I have been with a man that says nothing but great things about me, before him I was in a mentally abusive relationship for 6 yrs and he convinced me I was undesirable and made me feel sick to even look at myself. I have always been strong until then and I always wanted to see the best in people even when it wasn't there... and that can cause you to be sucked into someone else's miserable views of their own life. It happens but it's what makes you stronger.
Lolabunny0925 1 month ago
@Lolabunny0925 Wow, so glad you found yourself a decent man. It's true, what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Dear lovely,
Remember, there IS always a bright end to every dark tunnel. Please please please understand this coming from someone who knows this. Everyone has a low point in their life that may make them suck themselves into believing there will never be a bright point, but there will be for you.
I promise!
michellebennettsucks 1 month ago
@michellebennettsucks Thank you so much.
Jingleheartart 1 month ago
Love your hair
laughmaster28 1 month ago
@laughmaster28 Thanks! :D
Jingleheartart 1 month ago