I'm so glad your healthy now :) (And I know this has nothing to do with this but Demi Lovato checked into Timberline Knolls.) Anyway, stay strong forever and always! <3
I am going into treatment tuesday for my Bulimia. Hope you are doing okay currently! PS I am doing this song for my color guard routine--just thought it was ironic
i have a little bit of anorexia, when i ate i cried. i was over weight i weighted 235 pounds and im 5'5 and im 14 years old ive been starveing myself for about 6 months i eat a little but people still make fun of me right now i weigh 145 pounds and i still think im fat is that a bad weight for my age i dont know but im gonna end up starving my self again im paranoid every day i go to school im afraid some one is gonna make fun of me im afraid of eating i only ate 127 calories a day
@xxashleyXXnicole please, do not starve yourself. Exercise is a great way to lose weight! you can get muscles too! If you starve yourself, you will look terrible. I mean look what happens to all of these girls? So please please please do not starve your self. Eat healthy (lots of greens, whole grain, you know) and exercise! good luck =)
@purpleflowerlover eating disorders aren't that simple . . . its not about losing weight, its about control, perfection . . . eating disorders become a coping mechanism. Its not as easy as okay I won't starve myself, lets eat super healthy and exercise. That has nothing, at all, to do with it.
oh my gosh I now recognize you! You're that girl from Seventeen magazine with the ED story thank you so much I'm hospitalized for anorexia and bulumia as well as orthorexia so thank you for sharing your story with someone who's suffering through the same thing
I am going to lose weight, not to the anorexic stage but until i'm at my final perfect amazing beautiful weight cuz now, i'm seriously ugly. 5'2 119 lbs
some comments below are really dumb. I usually don't comment on videos, yours just popped up, but I wanted to say that you are a beautiful, sensitive person. I can feel it just by looking at you. Anorex/bulem was the way you reacted to a world that can seem very overwhelming.Our society has turned this world into a fast-paced anxiety-producing machine, but no matter what anyone says you don't have to live that way. From the bottom of my heart I recommend yoga. you will find that timelss peace
so glad youre well on your way in recovery. Those were some bad pictures...be happy at least that it was only three years. I've been dealing with this crap for close to 8 now.
Wow, to see these struggles with an ED via pictures is just....heart wrenching. It really puts the disease into perspective for me. Please stay on recovery and I wish you luck.
Just seeing some of the shots of you by yourself it's clear that you were striving for attention...You're not the only one. Putting your hands on your hips, moving your knee/leg up to your chest in front of the camera. stuff like that. I've seen it time and time again...And 5'9" at 120 is NOT a healthy weight for someone of that size. Though I understand you saying it's your "pre-ED" weight. And I know there comes a point where you're bragging about how small you are (through the pictures).
Hey guys! First of all, great video! I´m so happy you made it through your anorexia. I´m a ballett dancer (17 years old) and my height is 5´6 and my weight is 105 pounds. I was at the doctors last week and he said im skinny but that´s ok. My family and friends are really worried,they say I look sick. should I see a different doctor? or are they just over-exagurating? I don´t think 105 lbs is a low weight, I think it´s totally normal for my age and my sports (2 hours a day). thanks for reading!
i feel bad for ppl with this! i guess some ppl arent lucky and have bulimia or anorexia. im skinny but im the healthy skinny,ppl with anorexia CAN get the unhealthy skinny! no one should joke about Anorexia Or Bulimia. And if you fake Anorexia or Bulimia that person will be a social huria! and this girl in the video im hapy she is recovering :)
My anerexia started when i was 10 I was at a healthy weight. then i began modeling, but i wasn't emotionally ready for it all.i was working with older models who were UNDER my weight?! I was pressured into losing weight,i was always screamed at my modeling coach for being "to fat" i stopped eating, then i became bulemic, my hair was falling out and I was eating out of a feeding tube, i almost died when i went jogging one day its been 4 years and im at my normal weight again, Its a blessing!!<333
Thanks for the update, those are so key! Specially when helping others who suffer from E.Ds and other social conform illnesses. <3 keep on living, recovery is hard, a struggle, but all of life is usually like this... sadly.
One day I woke up and acknowledged that I truly was sick, beyond that I recognized that children die from malnourishment every day all over the world, even here at home and I was...
Long hard road, but so worth being healthy for that special someone & yourself!
i'm a 14 yr old with bulimia. i'm skinny, but not in the gut. i am so sick of this stupid muffin top and belly. at my previous check up appointment i weight 135lbs. i felt so fat and ugly that i would do anything to lose weight. so a week later i tried to stop eating, but i just felt so damn hungry i totally pigged out. but i thought about how fat all that food would make me. so i purged. now i am 110lbs. but i'm seeing a councilor and hoping to get my life back on track soon.
Am happy you have recovered & are doing well.Wish i didn`t know what you are taking about.i am 5"7 & weight 145lbs,used to be 210lbs.Trying soo hard to drop another 10lbs.Eat little & exercise 3 hours a day 7 days a week.People say i am too skinny& should eat more.I can`t! I fear going back & being laughed at for being too big.I would rather die thin than live like that again.At least no one is laughing at me now.Sorry i disapoint others.Best wishes on your recovery & your happy future.Bye.
If I can just share I had anoerxia and bulimia so to speak many years ago, the insane diary keeping, the exercising and generally avoiding food and basically creating the worst enemy ever in food. I completely understand. I was 16 to 20 when I had all this.. I was in hospital twice and as they do, doctors telling you you're going to die if you don't start eating. I'm not going to lie to you, it took a long time. I'm now 27 and consider myself lucky to be here, recovery is was worth it for sure!
you were already so beautiful at the beginning, and now you are again. i can't say i know anyone with this disorder, but i do know that being that skinny isn't pretty on anyone! i'm so glad you made it, and that you're healthy again. gosh you really are beautiful, not just your body, but your face and your hair too! keep it that way ;)
girls why do you worry about you weight? you are all beautiful the way you are and if people say different ignore it that just had a bad life because of where they up in and situations but i hope all the recovery's are good and love yourself and don't like in the mirror thinking your fat because you not, you are a beautiful young ladies that are a good weight were god put you and want you, because your always beautiful on the inside and out:))
don't get why the hell you'd want your life to end, you seemed like you had all I don't.. but guess that just proves ED can hit anyone and that it doesn't take some tragic experience to contract it
the recovery process was slow...i had to eat small meals and use enemas. my body did not know how to function well with food. NOW, i feel grotesquely obese after having two kids but i am doing things the right way now...i can't look at a scale but i can go to a gym and do my best to eat healthy. i hate my weight BUT i know that i don't ever want to be where i was before. YOU CAN DO THIS. it can be hard but OMG, never give up on yourself.
bellezzacondolore: It is normal to feel the way you do. Many anorexics suffer from body dysmorphic disorder. I suffered for years from anorexia and in my mid-twenties after being ridiculously thin, having health problems, losing clumps of hair and etc...a light switch turned on...people tried to help but it actually took a radio talk show of other women like me crying and saying "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!". I was laying on my bed and looked down at my body...felt the bones...and cried.
at 5'9" and 120lbs it is not a healthy weight, i was hospitalized at that weight. I'm glad your in recovery. There is hope is you believe you can do it! xoxo
Everyone's body and frame is different. I'm 5'9", 110lbs and I'm healthy. I can hear the negative comments rolling in now. Also, my friend is 6ft and 120lbs and she is also healthy. Everyone is built differently...My mother is about 5'5" and she's 112lbs. Some people are just thin.
@kadejah19 Yes, some people are naturally thin. However, medically, someone at 5'9" and 120 lbs is underweight. BMI is BMI. She may look good at that weight, but it's still not medically a healthy weight.
@FSUfanatic11 according to BMI results your BMI is 18.7 which means you just fit into the healthy section. It is not about your weight, you may be a very healthy young man and naturally like that but it's the perception of anorexia that makes you unhealthy. You could have a BMI of 20 and still be diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia.
@dancerdiamond1994 They hospitalized you at 5'9" and 120lbs? Was it "physical" hospitalization as well, or just mental? Did it help?.. I only ask because I'm 5'11" and 116lbs, and my doctor promised me hospitalization won't be forced on me unless/until I'm down to 105lbs.. Hope you're doing better, lovely. <3
@JordanaAzaleaWildee that is what i thought. that is skinny but not exterme. but it also may depend on bone stature. I look like i weigh 15 lbs lighter than i weigh and i am not making that up.
@dancerdiamond1994 5'9 and 120 is very skinny but at least she is maintaining. And she probably is naturally thinner considering she is almost at her pre-ED weight. So i think she is good:)
is it bad if i am 5'2 and I'm 84 pounds ? I'm not anorexic I'm just skinny, i hate how people ask me if i am because i always try to eat stuff that will make me gain more weight. But i guess i just have a fast metabolism.
@ennie36 You should not say things like 'I do nothing to be skinny, I just am and I hate when people ask if I'm anorexic' on this kin of videos. I'm not trying to be rude. Just think, if you were trying to lose weight (or if you were, in fact, anorexic) and some girl said that she's what you want to be without even trying... wouldn't you feel worse? My sister is anorexic so I know what I'm talking about. Again, sorry if I seem rude, it isn't my intention at all.
@Cachiwachi sorry it wasn't my intention, but my self esteem has been lowered because of it, people make fun of skinny people too you know. It sucks, thats why just love yourself the way you are because theres always someone wanting to be like you.
@ennie36 That's a normal size, love. Don't let these idiots of society influence you. Height adds on weight. If you are short with a slim figure 84lbs is normal. If you get get taller your weight will go up. Americans are so used to seeing "meatier" people and so when they see someone who is actually slender, they think we have a fucking eating disorder. It's annoying. But you shouldnt eat more just to please anyone else.
you are beautiful no matter what your weight is, whether its 85 pounds or 200 pounds. it would be a shame to lose someone like you in this world, and I'm so happy you've recovered and sending this message out to girls everywhere.
Wow great video, i knew how hard it is, but you are absolutely right, life is so much better without anorexia... i sometimes struggle too, but it gets better :) after a 10 year battel i hope to be full recovered one day...
Have you ever heard of Mercy Ministries. It's free, and you deserve a second chance! I struggled with an eating disorder for 15 years, and now I am free!
i was anorexic for 3 years to . and it FUCKED ME UP. now that im recovered, i can't do everything i used to do my body will never be as healthy as a normal persons body, i gained twice as much weight because anorexia fucked up my metabloism which helps you lose weight. ; my lungs are weak, i lost ALL my muscle. and its just not good ; for any help or support i'd be glad to to help
I don't want this shit anymore. I've tried to recover so many times. I was forced into treatment in august and I've stopped purging. Yeah, I sometimes slip but usually I don't... but my starving problems just got worse. I don't eat. I can't eat... I cry when I see food... I don't want this anymore.
I'm going to treatment later this month, and you give me hope. Now I actually think I can recover.
One of my close friends has anorexia. She just started with it. she's 14, like me. i feel so bad i try to make her eat as much as possible. and at break, she has something to eat in the principal's office, cause if she doesn't, she wont have anything .-. i feel so sorry for her! her mom kinda talked to the school and all:/ She's so gorgeous. &... i have to admit, im so jealous of her skinny body..
@MariCatitaxx No you're not. You're jealous of how glamorous and attractive her skinny body SEEMS. It isn't. The reason she's thin is because her body is literally eating itself. IF she doesn't starve herself into heart failure or a stroke, her body will be damaged FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE. P.S. tell her to look forward to yellow skin, nails that peel off your fingers, and fur all over her body.
@Pr0fessorScience that fucking fur, man... makes me feel like an ape. And mari, this dude is right, we can't do much when we're this skinny, most of the time we're on a bed, and if, IF we have enough energy, someone helps us wash, get up, dress up, when we eat, we're actually more tired at first, out body goes into shock with food after so long, but when the energy kicks in, then we're sitting on chairs and only get up for a picture. Welcome to the glam of a sick mind.
...GOOD for you sweetie!! You be kind to yourself and stay health and happy...YOU LOOK A PICTURE OF "HEALTH"..God bless & thankyou for sharing your story, I admire you for that! :))
you look so much healthier now in recovery! your beautiful and stay strong. Recovery is sooo worth it. Without ed you can actually enjoy life stay strong and continue to give hope to girls who dont think they can achieve it. I have been in Recovery 2 years now and going strong. It's the best. I will never go back to my eating disorder. stay strong ♥
I stumbled across this video because my friend is going anorexic.
she is not happy with herself.
and Im only 13. I dont want her to get severely hurt. shes such a kind person :P I was trying to just get a way to show her this video. and i guess after a few days she decided she would watch it :) she back, shes herself, shes normal again :)
@TheMyslick66 Your body mass index is only 16.1! I'm pretty skinny myself but you are exceptionally thin. You have to gain exactly 14 and a half pounds to be considered even remotely healthy. If you just happen to be this weight and have recently realised that you are underweight then no, you are not anorexic. However, if you have struggled to achieve your current weight and fear gaining anymore weight then yeah, you are suffering from anorexia nervosa and I would advise you to seek help.. ): x
Thank you for posting. While this might be hard for some people to watch while actively falling into the anorexic trap, I found this helpful to prevent a relapse. I want to live, again, too.... Good luck, girl! XOXO
I want to recover but I feel like I am too fat to. I hate going to my therapist and getting weekly weigh ins just to see the fact that now I'm a normal weight. I feel disgusting. I want my old body back, even though I was very sick with it.
@bellezzacondolore the point is not only put on weight so u are body healty ,but u have to be brain healthy ,its happening the same to me ...its really awfull not to like ur self
@Stavria1993 It is. It really sucks. I find myself constantly relapsing all the time, it's just so hard. I'm to the point where I look at myself and just think that this is going to be my death some day. Anorexia has no freaking mercy. I can't believe how strong this girl was to over come this, I wish that I some day may be as brave as her.
@bellezzacondolore The same here! 2 years ago i had anorexia and then bulimia,when my mum said i'm gonna send you to a place in uk to do therapist i was like"omg you are gonna do this to me??"and i said to myself"you have to make it up alone"so i did it ,by the time i move to other country i was ok i also put on weight, i was proud for this,and 1 month before everything start again,now i cry almost everytime because i cannot eat anything maybe my stomach is close idk & this because of bulimia
Im 11 almost 12 I develep faster then most of the 11 year old girls out their I look about 14 15 I can pass for a 16 year old, I weigh 160, but I don't look it at all, I didn't want to be this way, Im not happy, All my friends are reallly small and skinny....I would die to be in their place...I want to stop eating...But I know its reallly bad, Im trying to find a diet...Help...please
@ThatGirlYouKnow212 Don't stop eating. I'm 12 years old and can pass as a 16 year old too. I weigh about a 15 year old's weight. I don't look like it either. It depends how tall are you, or how much muscle you have in your body. Half of your body's weight is muscle. Don't worry, be happy with your body. I hope my speech helped you :)
I am currently struggling with anorexia, and it is soooo difficult, thank you this is a vary inspiring video! seeing this video made me cry, I want to recover but it is just so hard, I hope I can be as strong as you!
Im anerexic and11 ive been in treatment since i was7
this truly inspired me.
I was in inpatient 3 times and am currently very very very close to my goal wait!!!!!! I never thought since i was 6 yrs. old that i would say this, but im really really really glad to be at a normal weight!!! I hope u keep getting better!! Stay Strong!!!!!!<3<3<3<3!!!!!! BTW U r the most beautiful girl ive ever seen!!!!!!
PLEASE tell my mom that. She is 44, has 3 children and is anorexic. It's horrible, and my little sister who is 7 years old now has a broken childhood because my mom is constantly in and out of hospital.
Please, get better and proove that anorexia is defeatable. to many girls have died and I don't want you to die as well. please stay happy and thanks for sharing this video. It can't be easy for you and that's why i realy appreciate you. good luck.
What the hell!? Girl, I have a question for you. Where the hell were your friends? D< If you were my friend and I saw you THAT skinny I would have made you eat right in front of me three times a day! Seriously, didn't your friends even try to help you? D:
@Wildsexysweety07 Hi, Im an 8th grader currently in health class, Im just wondering maybe for future references? how did your body structure feel when you got that skinny, I mean physically? Were your bones/skin more sensitive? (You don't have to answer if its too much, ^-^) Oh It's great to see you recovering by the way, your really beautiful and I know with your will power you'll be able to fight off this illness.
@belrich08 now i never said she was healthy. i just said that her bmi was slightly over the danger zone. but yes i am aware that a healthy body mass index is at least 18.5
@dhruvilshah30 how old are you? is there anybody you can talk to that can help, It's lovely that you want to help, but your not alone, other people can help you so all that pressure is not on your shoulders.
You were like-already anorexic to begin with. My sisters friend is 5'9" and her BMI is like 16.5 or something, and she is 120. you should of weighed like 130 or 140. You are such a beautiful girl, i am happy that you are better.
When the video came to a part where it said "and I got my life back" I smiled :D
You are BEAUTIFUL with your normal weight and by the way yo have one of the prettiest bodies ever with your regular wight..oh and congratulations of everything you ahieved!! Recovery can be har,but you did it..so happy you decided to live cause I would have never been able to see this video(which really touched me)....<3
I'm so glad that girls suffering from anorexia can usually get hospitalized before it gets too bad.
cigaretteskinny21 4 days ago
ew
freebird1988miss 4 days ago
@freebird1988miss shut up.
purpleflowerlover 2 days ago
u are very pretty...y would u want to do something like that 2 urself anway i hope u fully recover
AmercianGurl 5 days ago
you look so much better
mylittlecountrygiful 1 week ago
So glad you decided you wanted to live and sought help. Very proud of you!
Amybcb 1 week ago
I'm so glad your healthy now :) (And I know this has nothing to do with this but Demi Lovato checked into Timberline Knolls.) Anyway, stay strong forever and always! <3
StoriesForYa 1 week ago
I am going into treatment tuesday for my Bulimia. Hope you are doing okay currently! PS I am doing this song for my color guard routine--just thought it was ironic
best of luck
edtrapped 1 week ago
Why did you become anorexic in the first place? You never said why..
aramiaidear 1 week ago
i have a little bit of anorexia, when i ate i cried. i was over weight i weighted 235 pounds and im 5'5 and im 14 years old ive been starveing myself for about 6 months i eat a little but people still make fun of me right now i weigh 145 pounds and i still think im fat is that a bad weight for my age i dont know but im gonna end up starving my self again im paranoid every day i go to school im afraid some one is gonna make fun of me im afraid of eating i only ate 127 calories a day
xxashleyXXnicole 1 week ago
@xxashleyXXnicole please, do not starve yourself. Exercise is a great way to lose weight! you can get muscles too! If you starve yourself, you will look terrible. I mean look what happens to all of these girls? So please please please do not starve your self. Eat healthy (lots of greens, whole grain, you know) and exercise! good luck =)
purpleflowerlover 2 days ago
@purpleflowerlover eating disorders aren't that simple . . . its not about losing weight, its about control, perfection . . . eating disorders become a coping mechanism. Its not as easy as okay I won't starve myself, lets eat super healthy and exercise. That has nothing, at all, to do with it.
kellyX3ann92 1 day ago
oh my gosh I now recognize you! You're that girl from Seventeen magazine with the ED story thank you so much I'm hospitalized for anorexia and bulumia as well as orthorexia so thank you for sharing your story with someone who's suffering through the same thing
ForeverTaylorSwift11 1 week ago
wow i was actually a fattie before my ED 5'9" and 120 is skinny >.<
KeishaKittie 1 week ago
I am going to lose weight, not to the anorexic stage but until i'm at my final perfect amazing beautiful weight cuz now, i'm seriously ugly. 5'2 119 lbs
blueworldable 1 week ago
my weight is 27,6 :( i'm goin to die :'(
EmStones99 1 week ago
@EmStones99 wtf how are you alive right now
KeishaKittie 1 week ago
YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION !!!!!
GnomaVeia 2 weeks ago 7
@GnomaVeia :) she are mi inspiration too
lovehatelovehate00 1 week ago
@GnomaVeia mine, too
brooksoscarson 5 days ago
so glad that u recovered. i wish there was talking in this video.
nybsbfan18 2 weeks ago
some comments below are really dumb. I usually don't comment on videos, yours just popped up, but I wanted to say that you are a beautiful, sensitive person. I can feel it just by looking at you. Anorex/bulem was the way you reacted to a world that can seem very overwhelming.Our society has turned this world into a fast-paced anxiety-producing machine, but no matter what anyone says you don't have to live that way. From the bottom of my heart I recommend yoga. you will find that timelss peace
TheLeighMichael 2 weeks ago
@TheLeighMichael What type of yoga?
BlackLabelSlushie 2 weeks ago
so glad youre well on your way in recovery. Those were some bad pictures...be happy at least that it was only three years. I've been dealing with this crap for close to 8 now.
exohexLexaexohex 2 weeks ago
Wow, to see these struggles with an ED via pictures is just....heart wrenching. It really puts the disease into perspective for me. Please stay on recovery and I wish you luck.
Piercedpixie56 2 weeks ago
I could NEVER stop eating i LOVE food :))) but i stay skinny no matter what i eat
o0oThatOneGirlo0o 2 weeks ago
goodluck!
jolitajol 3 weeks ago
i eat normal and iam 5"2 and 100 and im 13and people joke all the time saying anorex and idk im scared
BarbieBioch 3 weeks ago
you looked so freaking scary :/ that mustve been awful to go through all that!
seekinggoal 3 weeks ago
you're so strong and I'm glad you made it through ! xxx
catfr0mjapan 3 weeks ago
Anyway, glad you're in recovery. Hope you're still on the right track for it, too!
jlt1984 3 weeks ago
Just seeing some of the shots of you by yourself it's clear that you were striving for attention...You're not the only one. Putting your hands on your hips, moving your knee/leg up to your chest in front of the camera. stuff like that. I've seen it time and time again...And 5'9" at 120 is NOT a healthy weight for someone of that size. Though I understand you saying it's your "pre-ED" weight. And I know there comes a point where you're bragging about how small you are (through the pictures).
jlt1984 3 weeks ago
Hey guys! First of all, great video! I´m so happy you made it through your anorexia. I´m a ballett dancer (17 years old) and my height is 5´6 and my weight is 105 pounds. I was at the doctors last week and he said im skinny but that´s ok. My family and friends are really worried,they say I look sick. should I see a different doctor? or are they just over-exagurating? I don´t think 105 lbs is a low weight, I think it´s totally normal for my age and my sports (2 hours a day). thanks for reading!
littlesheep11 3 weeks ago
@littlesheep11 Be careful..
Kiwaaaful 3 weeks ago
i am 5'6 and 98 pounds, and i wasn't aware there was anything wrong with that...
OhKear 3 weeks ago
i feel bad for ppl with this! i guess some ppl arent lucky and have bulimia or anorexia. im skinny but im the healthy skinny,ppl with anorexia CAN get the unhealthy skinny! no one should joke about Anorexia Or Bulimia. And if you fake Anorexia or Bulimia that person will be a social huria! and this girl in the video im hapy she is recovering :)
havikax3 3 weeks ago
I always forgot how to smile when I was at my lowest weight.
hopelesscase83 4 weeks ago
My anerexia started when i was 10 I was at a healthy weight. then i began modeling, but i wasn't emotionally ready for it all.i was working with older models who were UNDER my weight?! I was pressured into losing weight,i was always screamed at my modeling coach for being "to fat" i stopped eating, then i became bulemic, my hair was falling out and I was eating out of a feeding tube, i almost died when i went jogging one day its been 4 years and im at my normal weight again, Its a blessing!!<333
MackenzieGirl15 1 month ago
Thanks for the update, those are so key! Specially when helping others who suffer from E.Ds and other social conform illnesses. <3 keep on living, recovery is hard, a struggle, but all of life is usually like this... sadly.
One day I woke up and acknowledged that I truly was sick, beyond that I recognized that children die from malnourishment every day all over the world, even here at home and I was...
Long hard road, but so worth being healthy for that special someone & yourself!
Villainoftruth 1 month ago
i'm a 14 yr old with bulimia. i'm skinny, but not in the gut. i am so sick of this stupid muffin top and belly. at my previous check up appointment i weight 135lbs. i felt so fat and ugly that i would do anything to lose weight. so a week later i tried to stop eating, but i just felt so damn hungry i totally pigged out. but i thought about how fat all that food would make me. so i purged. now i am 110lbs. but i'm seeing a councilor and hoping to get my life back on track soon.
psychicfreak123 1 month ago
its cruel that 85 pounds is average model wieght.most of them probably r anorexic too.thats so sad.
oliverlove32 1 month ago
beautiful
oturan16 1 month ago
Am happy you have recovered & are doing well.Wish i didn`t know what you are taking about.i am 5"7 & weight 145lbs,used to be 210lbs.Trying soo hard to drop another 10lbs.Eat little & exercise 3 hours a day 7 days a week.People say i am too skinny& should eat more.I can`t! I fear going back & being laughed at for being too big.I would rather die thin than live like that again.At least no one is laughing at me now.Sorry i disapoint others.Best wishes on your recovery & your happy future.Bye.
underloved1 1 month ago
congrats!!!!!
tatyades 1 month ago
thank u for sharing hun <3
andreasblog21 1 month ago
Congratulations on your recovery! You look absolutely beautiful :)
judithk 1 month ago
christ you are so beautiful
sarahwithstars 1 month ago
life in recovery is so much better than life with an e.d.
mlwish 1 month ago
If I can just share I had anoerxia and bulimia so to speak many years ago, the insane diary keeping, the exercising and generally avoiding food and basically creating the worst enemy ever in food. I completely understand. I was 16 to 20 when I had all this.. I was in hospital twice and as they do, doctors telling you you're going to die if you don't start eating. I'm not going to lie to you, it took a long time. I'm now 27 and consider myself lucky to be here, recovery is was worth it for sure!
AlexTaxman1984 1 month ago
you were already so beautiful at the beginning, and now you are again. i can't say i know anyone with this disorder, but i do know that being that skinny isn't pretty on anyone! i'm so glad you made it, and that you're healthy again. gosh you really are beautiful, not just your body, but your face and your hair too! keep it that way ;)
KaatsMusic 1 month ago
girls why do you worry about you weight? you are all beautiful the way you are and if people say different ignore it that just had a bad life because of where they up in and situations but i hope all the recovery's are good and love yourself and don't like in the mirror thinking your fat because you not, you are a beautiful young ladies that are a good weight were god put you and want you, because your always beautiful on the inside and out:))
kaitlin1561 1 month ago
don't get why the hell you'd want your life to end, you seemed like you had all I don't.. but guess that just proves ED can hit anyone and that it doesn't take some tragic experience to contract it
Lolifoox 1 month ago
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frankobjectif 1 month ago
the recovery process was slow...i had to eat small meals and use enemas. my body did not know how to function well with food. NOW, i feel grotesquely obese after having two kids but i am doing things the right way now...i can't look at a scale but i can go to a gym and do my best to eat healthy. i hate my weight BUT i know that i don't ever want to be where i was before. YOU CAN DO THIS. it can be hard but OMG, never give up on yourself.
GorgeouslyYou 1 month ago
bellezzacondolore: It is normal to feel the way you do. Many anorexics suffer from body dysmorphic disorder. I suffered for years from anorexia and in my mid-twenties after being ridiculously thin, having health problems, losing clumps of hair and etc...a light switch turned on...people tried to help but it actually took a radio talk show of other women like me crying and saying "WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!". I was laying on my bed and looked down at my body...felt the bones...and cried.
GorgeouslyYou 1 month ago
yo are SOOOOOOOOOOOO pretty <3 love ur smile... ur eyes.. ur everything. my favorite picture is at 4:22 ! im so happy for you... congratulations !
regis2901 1 month ago
at 5'9" and 120lbs it is not a healthy weight, i was hospitalized at that weight. I'm glad your in recovery. There is hope is you believe you can do it! xoxo
dancerdiamond1994 1 month ago 15
Everyone's body and frame is different. I'm 5'9", 110lbs and I'm healthy. I can hear the negative comments rolling in now. Also, my friend is 6ft and 120lbs and she is also healthy. Everyone is built differently...My mother is about 5'5" and she's 112lbs. Some people are just thin.
kadejah19 1 month ago
@kadejah19 Yes, some people are naturally thin. However, medically, someone at 5'9" and 120 lbs is underweight. BMI is BMI. She may look good at that weight, but it's still not medically a healthy weight.
lbwhite89 1 month ago
@dancerdiamond1994 im a 17 year old guy and im 5 10 almost 130 and my doctor said i was extremely healthy. I dont get it
FSUfanatic11 3 weeks ago
@FSUfanatic11 according to BMI results your BMI is 18.7 which means you just fit into the healthy section. It is not about your weight, you may be a very healthy young man and naturally like that but it's the perception of anorexia that makes you unhealthy. You could have a BMI of 20 and still be diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia.
dancerdiamond1994 3 weeks ago
@dancerdiamond1994 im 5'11 or 6 feet and I'm 120!
superalex381 3 weeks ago
@dancerdiamond1994 They hospitalized you at 5'9" and 120lbs? Was it "physical" hospitalization as well, or just mental? Did it help?.. I only ask because I'm 5'11" and 116lbs, and my doctor promised me hospitalization won't be forced on me unless/until I'm down to 105lbs.. Hope you're doing better, lovely. <3
JordanaAzaleaWildee 1 day ago
@JordanaAzaleaWildee that is what i thought. that is skinny but not exterme. but it also may depend on bone stature. I look like i weigh 15 lbs lighter than i weigh and i am not making that up.
TheKillerInMyHead 9 hours ago
@dancerdiamond1994 5'9 and 120 is very skinny but at least she is maintaining. And she probably is naturally thinner considering she is almost at her pre-ED weight. So i think she is good:)
TheKillerInMyHead 9 hours ago
I'm sick of being skinny :(
SoOsO90lovely 1 month ago
I love you
AnaPidrosu 1 month ago
You go girl :)
cherylg253 1 month ago
is it bad if i am 5'2 and I'm 84 pounds ? I'm not anorexic I'm just skinny, i hate how people ask me if i am because i always try to eat stuff that will make me gain more weight. But i guess i just have a fast metabolism.
ennie36 1 month ago
@ennie36 You should not say things like 'I do nothing to be skinny, I just am and I hate when people ask if I'm anorexic' on this kin of videos. I'm not trying to be rude. Just think, if you were trying to lose weight (or if you were, in fact, anorexic) and some girl said that she's what you want to be without even trying... wouldn't you feel worse? My sister is anorexic so I know what I'm talking about. Again, sorry if I seem rude, it isn't my intention at all.
Cachiwachi 1 month ago
@Cachiwachi sorry it wasn't my intention, but my self esteem has been lowered because of it, people make fun of skinny people too you know. It sucks, thats why just love yourself the way you are because theres always someone wanting to be like you.
ennie36 1 month ago
@ennie36 That's a normal size, love. Don't let these idiots of society influence you. Height adds on weight. If you are short with a slim figure 84lbs is normal. If you get get taller your weight will go up. Americans are so used to seeing "meatier" people and so when they see someone who is actually slender, they think we have a fucking eating disorder. It's annoying. But you shouldnt eat more just to please anyone else.
kadejah19 1 month ago
@kadejah19 thank you so much ! <3 i hate society :(
ennie36 1 month ago
@ennie36 me TOO!
kadejah19 1 month ago
give up the obsession with yourself and live for other people
rjamesgoebel 2 months ago
you are beautiful no matter what your weight is, whether its 85 pounds or 200 pounds. it would be a shame to lose someone like you in this world, and I'm so happy you've recovered and sending this message out to girls everywhere.
kowama12 2 months ago
I'm glad i got out of this lifestyle
come to find out.... all i had to do was stop eating processed foods to be happy
bevon17 2 months ago
Wow great video, i knew how hard it is, but you are absolutely right, life is so much better without anorexia... i sometimes struggle too, but it gets better :) after a 10 year battel i hope to be full recovered one day...
Faithful88 2 months ago
Don't give up, and have a very happy xmas <3
Browncoatt22 2 months ago
Have you ever heard of Mercy Ministries. It's free, and you deserve a second chance! I struggled with an eating disorder for 15 years, and now I am free!
prettysailorusagi 2 months ago
keep eating, baby<3
PrettyInPink4856 2 months ago
i was anorexic for 3 years to . and it FUCKED ME UP. now that im recovered, i can't do everything i used to do my body will never be as healthy as a normal persons body, i gained twice as much weight because anorexia fucked up my metabloism which helps you lose weight. ; my lungs are weak, i lost ALL my muscle. and its just not good ; for any help or support i'd be glad to to help
CatalayaMusic 2 months ago
:O ♥ great job! How much time did you it?
zabriiina 2 months ago
You are so brave !
Simple Steps has a very successful online recovery program for eating disorders so it would be great to see what you think!
simplesteps-eatingdisorders.co.uk
SimpleSteps10 2 months ago
i don't understand why i'm watching this ಠ_ಠ
KATT718 2 months ago
tu peux etre fière !!
Monie4322 2 months ago
your beautiful :)
largepinapplestripes 3 months ago
I'm anorexic myself. I'm 5'5 and 97 lbs.
I don't want this shit anymore. I've tried to recover so many times. I was forced into treatment in august and I've stopped purging. Yeah, I sometimes slip but usually I don't... but my starving problems just got worse. I don't eat. I can't eat... I cry when I see food... I don't want this anymore.
I'm going to treatment later this month, and you give me hope. Now I actually think I can recover.
Thank you.
Regnbogagormur 3 months ago 37
That guy you're with earlier in the video is very hot!
svartasky 3 months ago
One of my close friends has anorexia. She just started with it. she's 14, like me. i feel so bad i try to make her eat as much as possible. and at break, she has something to eat in the principal's office, cause if she doesn't, she wont have anything .-. i feel so sorry for her! her mom kinda talked to the school and all:/ She's so gorgeous. &... i have to admit, im so jealous of her skinny body..
MariCatitaxx 3 months ago
@MariCatitaxx No you're not. You're jealous of how glamorous and attractive her skinny body SEEMS. It isn't. The reason she's thin is because her body is literally eating itself. IF she doesn't starve herself into heart failure or a stroke, her body will be damaged FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE. P.S. tell her to look forward to yellow skin, nails that peel off your fingers, and fur all over her body.
Pr0fessorScience 2 months ago
@Pr0fessorScience that fucking fur, man... makes me feel like an ape. And mari, this dude is right, we can't do much when we're this skinny, most of the time we're on a bed, and if, IF we have enough energy, someone helps us wash, get up, dress up, when we eat, we're actually more tired at first, out body goes into shock with food after so long, but when the energy kicks in, then we're sitting on chairs and only get up for a picture. Welcome to the glam of a sick mind.
BansheeVanRaven 2 months ago
@sushi2U2 no she wasn't stupid.
KatieKurves 3 months ago
...GOOD for you sweetie!! You be kind to yourself and stay health and happy...YOU LOOK A PICTURE OF "HEALTH"..God bless & thankyou for sharing your story, I admire you for that! :))
JojoplusBo 3 months ago
I'm 5'9 and if I were 120 pounds (your start weight) I'd be over the moon. You looked fine before :(
TheOneAndOnlyMe92 3 months ago
you look so much healthier now in recovery! your beautiful and stay strong. Recovery is sooo worth it. Without ed you can actually enjoy life stay strong and continue to give hope to girls who dont think they can achieve it. I have been in Recovery 2 years now and going strong. It's the best. I will never go back to my eating disorder. stay strong ♥
VaLiNcOntRoL12 3 months ago
You look like Avril laghvine In some Pictures :O Your Gorgeous ^^
chicks130 3 months ago
I stumbled across this video because my friend is going anorexic.
she is not happy with herself.
and Im only 13. I dont want her to get severely hurt. shes such a kind person :P I was trying to just get a way to show her this video. and i guess after a few days she decided she would watch it :) she back, shes herself, shes normal again :)
angeladinochung 4 months ago
omg. you are beautiful. i am sorry for your past but im and very proud for your recovery XD i hope you are always happy about who you are.
angeladinochung 4 months ago
congrats!
grapeexmagoo 4 months ago
You are so beautiful! Don't ever forget that!:)
xxColorfulxx100 4 months ago
i havent stopped crying that is so sad :( i pray for u that ur ok now and everything goes well!!! <3
crunchygirl360 4 months ago
I;m 5'6 and 100 pounds.. am i anorexic
TheMyslick66 4 months ago
@TheMyslick66 o.O lol i weigh more than u, im 12 ... :L (don't knw why im spouting this out to u) and im 5'3 and im 110 pounds :PPP
AkiiwaJSK 4 months ago
@TheMyslick66 Your body mass index is only 16.1! I'm pretty skinny myself but you are exceptionally thin. You have to gain exactly 14 and a half pounds to be considered even remotely healthy. If you just happen to be this weight and have recently realised that you are underweight then no, you are not anorexic. However, if you have struggled to achieve your current weight and fear gaining anymore weight then yeah, you are suffering from anorexia nervosa and I would advise you to seek help.. ): x
SaffyRocks 4 months ago
Thank you for posting. While this might be hard for some people to watch while actively falling into the anorexic trap, I found this helpful to prevent a relapse. I want to live, again, too.... Good luck, girl! XOXO
runningrigert 4 months ago
girl!! you were so beautifull before you got so skinny!! please remember that!! hold on, and a lot of luck to you!!
annismaf 4 months ago
It makes me cry but be strong I am a survivor and I want to pray for you to be healthy :(
mannchesca 4 months ago
Youur so beautiful, dont ever give up hunn<3
ThatGirFreakz9 4 months ago
I want to recover but I feel like I am too fat to. I hate going to my therapist and getting weekly weigh ins just to see the fact that now I'm a normal weight. I feel disgusting. I want my old body back, even though I was very sick with it.
bellezzacondolore 4 months ago 50
@bellezzacondolore i totally understand
cantfeelbetter17 3 months ago
@bellezzacondolore the point is not only put on weight so u are body healty ,but u have to be brain healthy ,its happening the same to me ...its really awfull not to like ur self
Stavria1993 1 month ago
@Stavria1993 It is. It really sucks. I find myself constantly relapsing all the time, it's just so hard. I'm to the point where I look at myself and just think that this is going to be my death some day. Anorexia has no freaking mercy. I can't believe how strong this girl was to over come this, I wish that I some day may be as brave as her.
bellezzacondolore 3 weeks ago
@bellezzacondolore The same here! 2 years ago i had anorexia and then bulimia,when my mum said i'm gonna send you to a place in uk to do therapist i was like"omg you are gonna do this to me??"and i said to myself"you have to make it up alone"so i did it ,by the time i move to other country i was ok i also put on weight, i was proud for this,and 1 month before everything start again,now i cry almost everytime because i cannot eat anything maybe my stomach is close idk & this because of bulimia
Stavria1993 3 weeks ago
@bellezzacondolore and so I'am :(
pesjay 4 weeks ago
@WhiteGirl1405 Ok, I think i Might inbox you ..
ThatGirlYouKnow212 4 months ago
you are an inspiration for me.
21kayjayy 4 months ago
Im 11 almost 12 I develep faster then most of the 11 year old girls out their I look about 14 15 I can pass for a 16 year old, I weigh 160, but I don't look it at all, I didn't want to be this way, Im not happy, All my friends are reallly small and skinny....I would die to be in their place...I want to stop eating...But I know its reallly bad, Im trying to find a diet...Help...please
ThatGirlYouKnow212 4 months ago
@ThatGirlYouKnow212 Don't stop eating. I'm 12 years old and can pass as a 16 year old too. I weigh about a 15 year old's weight. I don't look like it either. It depends how tall are you, or how much muscle you have in your body. Half of your body's weight is muscle. Don't worry, be happy with your body. I hope my speech helped you :)
SuperNickFreak 4 months ago
I am currently struggling with anorexia, and it is soooo difficult, thank you this is a vary inspiring video! seeing this video made me cry, I want to recover but it is just so hard, I hope I can be as strong as you!
EquestrianGirl4ever 4 months ago
Before your ED you were already underweight! What exactly made you decide to go on a diet? :( Im glad youre recovering! You're already looking great!
angelchik54 5 months ago
i totally know what u went through :) PS were u in seventeen?
luvhunterjumpers 5 months ago
This made me cry. I am so glad you are in recovery/have recovered. Continue to stay strong <3
LilithSonneillon 5 months ago
I'm watching your video and I'm crying :'( Hang in there. Please keep fighting
TheDonny2014 5 months ago
i have anorexia too. I wanted to die, but now i know that life IS worth living.
TheGeenaAllen 5 months ago
i'm so happy for you babe. keep fighting lovely ♥ L
ChaosInAGlassCage 5 months ago
Im anerexic and11 ive been in treatment since i was7
this truly inspired me.
I was in inpatient 3 times and am currently very very very close to my goal wait!!!!!! I never thought since i was 6 yrs. old that i would say this, but im really really really glad to be at a normal weight!!! I hope u keep getting better!! Stay Strong!!!!!!<3<3<3<3!!!!!! BTW U r the most beautiful girl ive ever seen!!!!!!
dolphinlover2143 5 months ago
@dolphinlover2143 wow. thats truly sad. since you were 7?! wow.. keep fighting
ktotheatex3 5 months ago
U R A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN
honey73022002 5 months ago
**SNIFFLES** Truly inspirational, GOD MADE U IN HIS OWN IMAGE. So therefore he made PERFECT. LOL
honey73022002 5 months ago
PLEASE tell my mom that. She is 44, has 3 children and is anorexic. It's horrible, and my little sister who is 7 years old now has a broken childhood because my mom is constantly in and out of hospital.
LolliManley 5 months ago
This has been flagged as spam show
Please, get better and proove that anorexia is defeatable. to many girls have died and I don't want you to die as well. please stay happy and thanks for sharing this video. It can't be easy for you and that's why i realy appreciate you. good luck.
marwoes 5 months ago
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marwoes 5 months ago
You are beautiful! I thought I would let you know that.
Please take care and I hope you get better soon!
Sy0592 5 months ago
Anyway I say this may not sound how I wanted it to,
But you're utterly beautiful. You're a beautifl person, and when you were getting healthier, you were stunning. Keep going sweety :) <3
lorii198 5 months ago
What the hell!? Girl, I have a question for you. Where the hell were your friends? D< If you were my friend and I saw you THAT skinny I would have made you eat right in front of me three times a day! Seriously, didn't your friends even try to help you? D:
zanyte 5 months ago
My friend linked this for me because im anorexic too but i can't watch it because it always stops at 0:19
KyleighKy5859438618 5 months ago
@Wildsexysweety07 Hi, Im an 8th grader currently in health class, Im just wondering maybe for future references? how did your body structure feel when you got that skinny, I mean physically? Were your bones/skin more sensitive? (You don't have to answer if its too much, ^-^) Oh It's great to see you recovering by the way, your really beautiful and I know with your will power you'll be able to fight off this illness.
SpiritSnap 5 months ago
ooohhh myy. why would u wanna die, horrablee
..
drpepperrizgoodness 5 months ago
i read this in teen vogue.. and used it as a thinspo.
this video makes me feel guilty..
i'm sorry you have to deal with this.
:/
ShebaPresents 5 months ago
your bmi was 12.8 at your lowest. i believe under 15 is considered emaciation
shoponline831 6 months ago
You Were On Seventeen Right?
kccomedy12 6 months ago
You're so pretty <3
Im 13 recovering from anorexia/binge ED. All I can say is that you are GORGEOUS <3
cutiehash5 6 months ago
Did you develope Lanugo from anorexia? o:
AnarchyStartsHere 6 months ago
your before ED bmi was 17.7 - you weren't healthy already
belrich08 6 months ago
@belrich08 but that wasn't extemely low. and her bmi was actually 17.8 not .7. to be at the anorexia level it's 17.5 or under
shoponline831 6 months ago
@shoponline831
yes but to be considered a healthy person you need to be above 18.5!
believe me i know
belrich08 6 months ago
@belrich08 now i never said she was healthy. i just said that her bmi was slightly over the danger zone. but yes i am aware that a healthy body mass index is at least 18.5
shoponline831 6 months ago
Wow... your beauitful...
Nerdycookiemonster 6 months ago
i don´t even know you, but im proud of you. you did the right thing to ask for help!! you go girl!
TheSteefii 6 months ago
wasnt this story in one of the Seventeen Mag editions?? You're so pretty! I'm really glad you are doing better.
XXfallenXXroseXX 6 months ago
you are so beautiful. glad you're getting better, darling.
littlemisszette 6 months ago
u were under weight b4 the disorder :(
sushi2U2 6 months ago 63
@sushi2U2 No she wasn't..
PurpleKandyRox 4 months ago
@PurpleKandyRox check her bmi
sushi2U2 4 months ago
@sushi2U2 Oh. My bad.
PurpleKandyRox 4 months ago
#keep going .
lovemakeup2000 6 months ago
can somebody help me ...
my mom has Anorexia..
Thanks
dhruvilshah30 6 months ago
@dhruvilshah30 awe message me please
awesomegurl4eva 6 months ago
@dhruvilshah30 how old are you? is there anybody you can talk to that can help, It's lovely that you want to help, but your not alone, other people can help you so all that pressure is not on your shoulders.
peglegs83 6 months ago
You were like-already anorexic to begin with. My sisters friend is 5'9" and her BMI is like 16.5 or something, and she is 120. you should of weighed like 130 or 140. You are such a beautiful girl, i am happy that you are better.
Weloveroadkill 6 months ago
same happened to me/;
singer985x 6 months ago
120 at 5'9 is really thin to begin with! You were so pretty before too
briannaxolee 6 months ago
86 is really thin for a 5'9" person :O
RandomLaurieIs 6 months ago
why is it always beautiful girls who do this to themselves. it's so sad.
thewhiterabbitchaser 6 months ago
name of the song? thanks for your story...
taniuta1995 6 months ago
made me cry bcos the same happened to me...still recovering ....
taniuta1995 6 months ago
..Hey...wasnt this picthure int he 17 magazine?? 3:05
morgan3331238 6 months ago
oh my goodness, I'm so sorry all of that happened to you. I've seen a few other anorexia videos but non had an impact on me like yours.
hiitsLibbyRAWR 7 months ago
86lbs!! at 5"9 oh my goodness thats horrible hopefully you are now doing wayy better! =)
xokizza 7 months ago
When the video came to a part where it said "and I got my life back" I smiled :D
You are BEAUTIFUL with your normal weight and by the way yo have one of the prettiest bodies ever with your regular wight..oh and congratulations of everything you ahieved!! Recovery can be har,but you did it..so happy you decided to live cause I would have never been able to see this video(which really touched me)....<3
Sillyorangey 7 months ago