@Camaromandave98 oh wow, you are a nutcase. No wonder. explains everything. go to rehab druggie. or just kill yourself now and take your body out of its misery. obviously you don't respect it - fill it up with drugs and alcohol. so smart!!! I hate people like you - you deserve no pity dumbass. you are depressed because of your life choices. Oh well, you'll be rotting in hell.
@lisaKDL Go to hell you stupid cunt, ive only been on the PRESCRIPTION pills my doctors gave me for 1 years and alcohol for two, i hate people like you who love to talk shit but have never walked a half a miles in ones shoes.
Stupid fucking twat, shove you're head a little farther up you're ass and suffocate, do us all a favor.
@lisaKDL Oh and thanks btw for taking the time out of you're day to go on my profile and personally search through my comments to follow me, means a lot someones that interested in me :D.
I never have taken drugs but for the last week I have been suffering from anxiety attacks (not sure why) and after my anxiety ends I start feeling like nothing is real and everyone I know and everything that has happened all my life is all made up. Its like a dream world I can't get out of.
Today wasn't as bad but it still happened about an hour ago. Do you know what causes it?
@unreal7reality I know whT you're saying man same here can't o to school can't look at anything I can barely do gym without wanting to hit someone(I have anger issues sensory processing disorder several other things) if any of ou guys can help ne please post on NY videos (I know they suck)
would it be considered normal to have derealization once or twice in your life because you wernt getting enough sleep like could it be my brain being tired or could that alone indicate an early disorder? Everything felt like a dream or like i was stoned. it was like my mind completely went blank and empty and i forgot what i was doing i even felt like i was shrinking and everything looked really big
(Part 3) I can't even go to a restaurant anymore to enjoy myself! It CONSTANTLY feels "OFF"!!! Rare are the times I feel SEMI-normal (semi, literally, never alive in the present) It makes me coop myself up because the outside world is so surreal & weird & off. You're so not alone. & the weirder part is that at times it feels like I have an awareness the others don't, but I never asked for it & don't like the never-ending surrealism
(Part 2) Everyone else is living while I feel an overwhelming sense of an unreal reality constantly (hence, username). It sometimes make me want to slam my head against a brick wall to snap myself back together. At some point, something stopped working & I feel like I'm on some sort of surreal drug that won't let me free. Day-to-day routines like work feel surreal, nothing helps it. It consumes my being & I wish there were an Rx amongst the millions to cure this. Something ALWAYS feels "OFF"
I suffer from derealization more than depersonalization. It makes me want to crawl out of my skin to live in a world that feels like a dream I can't wake up from. Things look/feel surreal constantly. I find it impossible to be in the *moment*, and I HAVE experienced once upon a time what living in the moment was like. It's as if somewhere at some point a wire in my brain just stopped firing neurons. It began with paranoia & feeling schizophrenic, but I'm not schizophrenic, THIS is what I have
I think I might have depersonalization disorder. I don't know what anything is. I feel like my body is here but my mind isnt. I can't read very well or understand things. Like if i read something itll be very hard to tell you what i read about and it's a similar thing with watching movies. My mind is completely blank, when Im with my friends im very quite, because nothing comes up to say anything. Do you resonate with any of this, or am i still the only person that has ever gone through this
@rravi5490 its exaaaaactly what u just wrote/ i also have a blank mind and am very shy around people i dont wanna say anything stupid and nothing comes to mind.....its weird.
@BeautifulHyster1a Hello all. I passed through this for almost 7 years, with a gradually recovering and decreasing in intensity. I think it all depends on determination. I overcame it by my one. Although there are few therapist and psychiatrists familiar to this disorder i strongly encourage everyone to ask for help, especially to try different types of therapy till you find one that suits you. Retroactively i think that this would have shorten my recovering.
@rravi5490 Sounds like you are telling my story to the exact letter. I suffer from Anxiety/Panic Disorder, as well as PTSD. With medication, I had gotten this down to almost never events. Now it is back with a vengeance. It is like my meds totally quit on me overnight. Thanx! Glad to know I am not alone, but sorry that anyone else has to experience this.
dont know if i am experiencing derealization or not. Everything just seems fake, it is like a never ending dream. It's like i'm doing something and then I'm like, "Oh shit, why did I do that " Im only 14 and I don't think I deserve to be like this. I have never done drugs, but I try sips of wine when my mom lets me. It has only been 2 days but it just feels like I can't take. I have OCD, ADHD, My family has severe panic disorders , and some of my family has depression issues.
(continued) I want to live without it so bad, but I don't have any idea how to get rid of this nasty feeling. Can anyone give me some advice on how to overcome derealization?
@fluchderkaribik12 there are so many different ways that help different people cus everyone experiences different symptoms or symptoms that are alike but things that help someone might not be able to help you....you know???
I can't remember when I first felt like this. I'm only 16, but it's been (I think) more than 6 years, but I didn't know what it is until I recently found out about it, and have to say that I am so glad that I'm not alone with this. I tried to talk about it with several people, but they just won't listen.
It's very similar to what you describe in the video, but I don't have this "condition" all the time (I guess I'm a bit lucky after all...), but I do have it at least once a day.
I feel this all the time I am only 14 and i get scared all the time and i cry.. My mother thinks im going crazy and i want it to just go away I dont believe anything is real anymore i think everything is like a dream and i cant cope with life normaly anymore.. and people just dont understand me. I want to pray to god to take it away and i feel as if demons are messing with my mind.. what have i done for this to happen to me.. please help with what i should do im really frightened of myself.
@SimsFeee wow, i apologise for what your going through, i kno0w howfrightening this can be to you especially since your only 14 years old, although age has nothing to do with it but first off you need to know the root of the problem .i mean like what caused this depersonalization (im not a doctor, but to me it sounds like you have it, and severe depression), i feel like you most of the time. was it caused by some type of trauama? if so, what did u go through?
@SimsFeee (continued) if it was drugs, what kind of drug? if it was stress..when and how do u normally get stressed out? ETC..u need to know the root of this problem and once you get it it will be a bit easier to cope, and medication also helps. have u ever been on any type of medication? let me know. i really hope you feel better, i keep promising to do another video on DP wiitch i havnt had the chance, but i will do it cuz its highly requested.
@SimsFeee Dude--you gonna be all right. Everybody gets strange thoughts come to 'em sometime, they just mostly keep quite so's nobody thinks they's messed up. You gonna be all right. You're not alone. You say you wanna pray--DO that NOW! and anytime these feelings get to you. Talk to your mother and ask about counselors. Nothing wrong with that. One don't help, try another. And love yourself! Don't be putting yourself down. God loves you, gonna be there for you ALWAYS. Never give up!!!
@SimsFeee I'm going to make a wild guess that you have suffered severe trauma and/or extreme neglect. I have had this for as long as I can remember. Meds helped for awhile, then they quit on me just a few weeks ago. Guess I need to get back in to see the doc.
Ive had this nonstop for 2 years. The life before... my life before seems like another life. I was a different person. I belive this shit is caused by society... I started losing my mind in the last year of school. Socializing was the only thing that kept me sane. I had too keep going over everything in my head over and over... And it kept going on and on... Then i started too belive i was other people. I was screwed.. Then i got DP .. and 2/3 years later just starting too come out.
It's taken a year for me too come out of it. Month by month abit clearer.. But now i feel like i'd rather of died whilst being depersonalized than come back too this place. My whole perspective on everything has changed. Im such an alien where i live. But everything on the outside affects you alot more. Maybe the more restricted you are on everythingt the worst it gets. It's the anxiety..& bottleing up.. which bottled up emotions turn into energy. But yeah ... this illness has litterly killed me
I have this for about 2 months now,and I'm going crazy atleast it feels like it. I really need help,I did smoke weed before but I really dont know if that's the cause I'm so scared that it will never go away :(
@ommar460 i know how nasty this DP feels...exactly how u described feeling of going crazy, could be from weed. its mostly trauama stress and drug related.
@BeautifulHyster1a Thanks for your quick reply,and I just realized that I'm more suffering from Derealization then DP. I'm really inside a dream and everything I do is very weird my vision is very foggy and weird hard to explain the exact feeling though. But I'm 100% sure that I have this,I have been living a a stressful enviroment for a long time and my sleeping habit is very bad and I think two migraine attacks triggerd DR for me. I also have a mom with Borderline,so it could be in the genes.
I've never actually taken drugs before or anything. Yet about a week or two ago, I just started feeling like I've been living in a virtual world. The world seems like so real that it's unreal, like I'm in a videogame. I think I may have derealization.
I suffer from this. I was screaming on the floor and I wasn't here, NOTHING. U can not explain what I went through. It's not the first time. I'm suffering SO much. I don't know what to do anymore.
i feel you, i know the pain your going through, it sucks...and many of us have this and are going through this in the youtube community and ive got so much feedback on this subject. you hafta understand how u think you got DP....was it drug induced, was it trauma? was it stress/pressure? when u understand, youlle feel a bit better. i take klonopin 1 mg for it, and i havnt experienced DP for over 3-4 months now? but once im off the pills, i feel it again....
just keep talking to people with this, i got so much greatly aappreciated feedback on this subject sooooo many people have this and i feel horrible for them..but it helps to talk about it witrh others =)
pg 2 - So...If you are philosophical at all, I recommend looking at the disorder philosophically. It helped me a lot...In fact sometimes I kind of enjoy the very short lived periods now.
I used to get really anxious about this, but now I've sort of learned to appreciate it. It can be very interesting looking at it from a philosophical perspective. My major 'symptom' was a feeling that I was in the Matrix. I almost always become more introverted than usual when I begin to notice it. I even think it may have started when I was a child, I used to lye in my bed and feel REALLY small, like I was dwarfed. Sometimes the complete opposite. I also get the bed swallowing! continued pg2
YOU gimme one month of doing what I say ALONE in your room nobody needed, no money, pills, church, nothing.. gimme 30 days and you will be BETTER than normal.
HEY MAN... cool vid.. please hear me out...I HAD DR for a while man... I tried it all.. nothing worked.. then I did this... this is me, be well bro... /watch?v=lmlNbT4c9QU
Although this has happened to me only three times in my life I am still scared. One time I ran into the road after my mothers car, one time I wandered aimlessly up an down the streets and almost missed my bus home. All three times were after stressful events, twice after doctors appointments. Can someone explain why I also get shaky and feel very tired, to the point of almost not being able to stand up?
@Buffheart It usually happens in response to a traumatic event, so that's normal. Not everyone has it constantly, or forever. It's kind of like PTSD but AS the trauma is happening, not later. Your mind is detaching trying to prevent you from panicking/stressing further but it's actually making it worse (which then can cause the vicious cycle some people live with for years, but not everyone!) The best advice I can give to anyone is DISTRACTION. The days I've felt best I stopped DWELLING (:
I sufferd it for 4-5 years now. ugh... but slowely its fading away, i give it another year. this last couple of weeks, i feel reality coming back in. sometimes for just a sec, sometimes for 15 min, but its coming man. and i love it :D here i come world, i am back babyyyyyyyyyyy
@CartmanLandZ So good to hear! :) I don't know you, but I'm extremely happy for you! I love recovery stories because I imagine that to climb out from this hole must be the best feeling in the world. It makes me happy for the sufferer who has relief, and it also gives me encouragement and hope for myself. <3
Keep it up, and I wish you all the best in life :D
@ThexDoctorsxLie thank you sweety! i wish all the best for you too, and ill be doing another DP video again soon just to let everyone know what has helped me and whats made it worse etc....you will conquor this one day...dont worry i really have alot of hope for all of you!!! =) GOODLUCK
@ThexDoctorsxLie i feel alot bettter, it comes and goes but it comes for short periods of times, ill be making a video shortly telling you how and what i did to help me with it and what made it come back and what not....thank you.
I have suffered with this for 4 months now, im slowly coming out of it. Or at least feel a lot better than before. It can last for years though, some forever. But you never know. Some can experience this for 2 weeks, others months some years. I know someone who suffered with it for 15 years, he recovered a few months ago. AFTER 15 YEARS. So it usually goes. Hopefully it will for me too. If anyone wants to talk about this please add me. It is shit scary i want to talk to someone about it.
@Bulby93 hi glad you contacted me about this im willing to talk to you and give you all theadvice i can give u even tho im noy a professional or a doctor i did enough research to know about this DP disorder. how do you think it began/what do you think started it for you??? i havnty made a DP video in so long ill be making another/new one soon hopefully. but otherwise, there are tons of us here on the youtube community, its great were here to talk if u need ;] so get back please thanxxxx
@BeautifulHyster1a cheers. It started after i smoked some weed, about a month after it manifested itself slowly with brain fog dark thoughts etc. I then had a panic attack a massive one and i think that's what turned it into full blown DP/DR. After going through all stages, (thinking im psychotic etc) I got put on an ssri (citalopram) to help with extreme anxiety and depression. It helped immensely but im kind of regretting it now because i heard ssris can make DP worse in the long run?
@Bulby93 wow, i never heard ssris making DP worse...but what i do know is that benzodiazopines (xanax, klonopin, valiium) can make it worse when you take them for a long period and start weaning yourself off of them, not sure about the ssri's but i will do some research on this and make a video about it when i gather information so thanks for letting me know cus i was going to ask the psyche for an anti-depressent like prozac witch happens to be a ssri. heh
I'm a chronic sufferer of this myself. For years I was in the dark because I didn't know what was I experiencing. I've tried talking to my doctors about it and they didn't know what was I was talking about. They just looked at me like I was crazy! I finally found out what is was a couple in Aug online. I'm so sick and tired of this and I just want it to go away. I am tired of living in a "Dream World." I don't talk about it that much because gets me depressed. 7 year episode long over here! :o(
@LiLy5484 i know how difficult itis, im sorry for anyone who has to go through this, its crazy! just know your not alone and that youtube has a great great great depersonalization community here and were all here for you, ill bne makinga newdp video soon... ok hope u feel better u can messege me anytime. how old r u ???
lol i laugh cause this shit suck..I had a attack tonight and thought i was being dragged into a different world..And the constant feeling of bein ina dream fuckin sucks so bad i wouldnt wish this shit on the devil..Mine started when i stayed up watching illuminati videos for like 6 hours and omg i regret it so bad cause i havent been the same since...In the day im decent cause im around people..But at night(Ching) back to crazy world
@BeautifulHyster1a mabey shrooms made me have a little depersonalization episode...lol, it could happen problly.. if your allready predisposed to having it. shrooms could trigger a episode of it. because shrooms work on the mind
@BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
@BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
@SilentBud420 i call derealization a very mild shrooms. I get it like 2 time a week to 3 times a month. Its subtle. To me its kinda calming and might of been becasue i did shrooms. It started after i did them.
This is something I should really read more into, I've had similar experiences in my day but maybe not as extreme. Along with much more that I can't really seem to pinpoint.
...and Kudos on the Portishead in the background :-)
the best way to describe dp is to say that everything that your brain uses as a sensor to sense outside enviroment is shut off. so therefore it leaves you feeling dissconnected from everything outside of you own thoughts.
I've had derealization since 1997 but always been to control it and it never bothered me. December 2007 I had a bad derealization attack and was put on wellbutrin and it took about 5 to 6 weeks for me to feel like myself again. 3 weeks ago I had another attack and it's been ongoing constant every since. I went to the doctor tuesday and she prescribed me citalopram and metoporol. Anyone ever tried any of these medicines before? Did it work for derealizaton? Pls let me know!
Well i've been on 25 mg of naltrexone for four days now. My pdoc wants to slowly increase the dosage to 100mg. Already i can feel slight changes, things seem a little more still, exercise gives me more of an endorphin rush, and i just feel a little less dp/dr overall. The downsides for me are a little nausea, sedation, and insomnia but nothing i cant live with. If anybody's interested message me and i'll let you know how its going after another week or so.
@saede172 Thats great! Yes, please post your comment or even a video response after about a week on naltroxone, i think itll help everyone on here/on youtube. Unfortunatly i cannot go on naltroxone Just because i am on methedone and if i take naltroxone while on the methedone ill be sick as a dog, sicker than ive ever been before, naltroxone is actually an opiate antagonist, so those just dont mix well. but if it works for u, More power to ya, seriously its great! =)
@saede172 hey dont say that. it CAN be treated with somemedications...go see yer doc and tell him you know for a FACT u have DP. how old are you by the way???
@saede172@BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
@BeautifulHyster1a ../ofcourse but you probably have to use it to think positive about youself and your life from the inside ,learn something about yourself everyday and from people ,also know your boundaries bea happy and, maybe that will fix some of your depersonalisation issues.
i find that its all in the head, laaike theres soo much tension in the neck cause its all in your head looking down at your body if you understand?O_O
buuut soo it seems that it feeds of fear, the more you bottle it all up the worst it isO_O and i had that feeling whilst lying on ze bed, its feels laaike your falling into yourself:/ x
@BeautifulHyster1a It's like the walls expand and contract, its at night when your eyes don't have a lot of stimulus, i also get floating objects and the room turns very dark before returning bright. Got a panic attack the first time it happened, but now i can tell myself "ahhh i'm just going insane again".
Anybody got any crackpot therapies for dp/dr before i get myself some pills from the doc? I've tried the usual suspects, booze, pot, fight club, st johns wort
ive had it for 8 years.... im going to try naltrexone in a couple of weeks ill let you know how it goes. Some promising studies have show efficacy with the disorder
Thank you for this, very insightful. Must be so difficult; I wish you all the best, good luck and hopefully you'll find some form of recovery or improvement in any way.
@kdog513 yea i know, contact me on janetmazarov@yahoo.com....or if u have a facebook search my name : janet mazarov.....maybe after a bit ill give u my number k? id looove to chat
I have dp also. for me when it happens its like im just a set of eyes looking around. I am aware of my surroundings and who I am but its like everyone else is there and Im about to become invisible. I can feel myself with this blank yet panicked stare on my face, and of course no one understands what its like to be controlled by this demon.
I was reading that you said when you look in the mirror, your face looks distorted. Well.. when I was looking at my friend's face, one time when she was lying down, it didn't look right. It felt like I couldn't identify her as a human being. I began to feel disorientated.
Another time, I was in a class and we had to read aloud. When it was my turn, I was stumbling on my words, because I could hear my voice, but not recognize what I was saying.
I was reading that you said when you look in the mirror, your face looks distorted. Well.. when I was looking at my friend's face, one time when she was lying down, it didn't look right. It felt like I couldn't identify her as a human being. I began to feel disorientated.
Another time, I was in a class and we had to read aloud. When it was my turn, I was stumbling on my words, because I could hear my voice, but not recognize what I was saying.
@liverbitz91 Hmmm, its hard to say since im not a licenced professional, lol..but you can talk to your psych see what he/she says...it could be nothing, but then again it can be somthing, you never know.
Yea everything feels like a dream and my head feels like it's not attached to my body. Also it feels like I'm not in control of my own actions and my body acts without permission, but I still wouldn't do anything that I wouldn't do normally if that makes sense. I've had depersonalization for 1.5 or 2.5 years (time is really distorted and it seems to blend together a lot). It's comforting to know that there are other people out there with it and that we're not alone.
@BeautifulHyster1a Yes. Look up what you need to do for the hypoglycemia diet. I don't have enough room to type it all here. Basically, you have to limit the amount of carbs you and and make sure you get a good amount of protein with each meal. Eat small meals every two or three hours. Stable blood sugar is important with any "mental disorder". B vitamins will help balance brain neurotransmitters and ease the effects of stress. Feel free to p.m. me with questions.
I have also have patients who get DP/DR from certain prescription drugs and or Marijuanna ( This form seems to last a lot longer than those who just get it from stress )
@TheGreekMan1981 yeah, i used to get it from marijuana, but i havnt smoked marijuana in a very long time, like maybe 7 years ago, i stopped, but the DP came back after dealing with so much stress, panic attacks and anger..
DP/DR is a direct result of extreme stress. Basically what happens, is your brain can't handle all of the stress and it begins to disassociate to a point where you are running on the minimum. You get to a point where you are on auto pilot. It does go away when the stress goes away. It could take days, weeks, or months...but it usually almost always goes away. Hope this helps, Charles
VERYY informative!!! thank you soo much!! i THINK i have been dealing with dp since i was 15 and im 33 now!! for the most part it has become such a part of me that i have adapted to it but sometimes it amplifies suddenly and becomes like im starting over,,, please keep me up to date on ANY findings that have helped you!!! im at
@korrupt4 thank you, there will be alot more videos to come, just subscribe and youlle be up to date...i know ive been neglecting my channel lately, but im back and ill be making more videos soon. How are you doing????
I suffered this dp & dr for years. It seems to be an archiac tool/part of the brain that detaches us (consciously)/cuts us off from reality when we believe we are experiencing something unacceptable(trauma, anxieties, being caught & eaten). We know it as.., "doubt" (but on an extremely fundamental level). Feeling liberated from the "bad situation" (which could now simply be DP/DR), should result in allowing your reception/realization to return. Does this make sense to you? Good luck!
@missJenniferThomson hey glad u sharedc this with myself and youtube, they have a great community of people who understand us and do noy judge witch is a major issue with me. Do u know how your DP came about? whatcaused it?? let me know im noy a professional or a doctor but ill give u my opinions k? ;]
@missJenniferThomson I can relate, I don't know if I'm much help but I'd just like to let you know I'm 15 (will be 16 this year) and have had this for about a year now.. My friends try to be understanding but I know they don't get it. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anybody, but I wish I could take everyone I know, put them in a room for ten minutes and make them feel what I feel (and CAN'T feel) so maybe people will relate better. If you want to message me feel free. (same to anyone else.)
@missJenniferThomson oh wow....yeah thats difficult when its there and doesnt go away...have you tried any type of medications for it??? have you talked to a psyche????
You wonder how you can sit there and talk about it calmly and rationally when the feeling is so damned intense...NO ONE understands how INTENSE it is!!!!
@rob205rob I sgree with u on all of this! thanx for watching the video and since oits been a while i will make another DP video fr you guys and girls. =)
i just laugh when i think about it, i've had depersonalization i think maybe a year or 2 and just today i found out about depersonalization and i have been up for hours researching it, watching movies on it etc. lol
I think now that i know more about it, the worse i'm gonna get because i have more to think about now. FML.
i feel this about a month or more days. It is so so so !!!! strange fealing it is like im not me anymore.
Im trying to battle with this but it is lost couse. Now my good mum have give me xanax and coaxil pills. To cure Anxiety. Pls can somebody tell me that this will pass and i will feal better.
hey, yea i got this but im seein a psychologist and psychiatrist about it :) im hopefully bout 2 try abilify if they will let me. Its great that u r makin vids :) keep it up
there's no such thing as cannabis psychosis. there's ACCUTE cannabis psychosis, where it lasts just for the 2 or 3 hours [sometimes more] of being high. and then there's schizophrenia, which is made worse by cannabis, albeit not CAUSED by it.
there is no "cannabis psychosis.." there may be "cannabis-related-obsessive-stress-oh-why-did-i-smoke-that-joint" but that's evidently something different.
dude, you know how sometimes when you smoke weed, something will look cartoony, it's wicked noticeable. Well, I've had that, that is derealization FROM CANNABIS.
I've honestly never felt this way until I smoked weed, it really fucked me up. bad highs kinda gave me some crazy form of PTSD, and I call it depersonalization/derealization
when you say things LOOKED cartoony, do you mean that your vision was also altered.. or were they PERCEIVED as cartoony? because i've experienced things feeling kind of strange and surreal, but i found that quite pleasurable. i think the majority of people who get high experience a level of that.
so were things VISUALLY "cartoony?" i can't say i've ever received any distinctly visual effects from cannabis.
Some people know what I'm talking about. Cartoony might not be the best word to describe it, different lighting and shadows I guess.
Visually, I would say so, but I could be just perceiving it to be so, I really don't know, my mind is fucked. But I would definitely get this same thing whenever I smoked weed, but now it's effecting me while sober
I've had chronic depersonalization/derealisation for 6 years now with no breaks. I can relate completely to what your saying. Thankyou for making this video. The more people that do, the quicker we will be able to raise awareness and find a cure. No-one should have to live with this...exist rather. x
Ive had it for four years and to me its more like NOT or barely existing. Like you are so far away from everything or like you only exist in your thoughts. This stuff is scary!!! any way you put it.
It's just that it becomes more severe in others than in some people. It's all about the way you think, and see things. If your constantly thinking about how you SHOULD feel about something then it will NEVER truly go away. You have to forget about it and pretend it's NOT there.
It doesn't disspear out of nowhere, if it dissapears it means you've learned to relax and stop thinking about it. The more you think about it, the more it will happen. It's not so much thinking about it, it's more stressing about it. That's all, EVERYONE experiences this.
i know time goes by either very fast OR very very slow with DP, (with me it goes slow) but wait, is yours drug-related or due to some type of trauma, stress or anxiety disorder??? what do u think..?
I would like to know why people keep posting about this then disappearing. They rarely post more than one or two videos after the first one. I have it too and it sucks.
probably part of the disorder... life is in segments, like waking from dreams... the farther you get away from the dream, the less you remember it... i think it is like having many little mini-lives that are not related to each other, we don't have a constant flow of time like 'normal' people.
i think its both because it began after i went through a few horrible expeireinces in my life and thats actually when i started using drugs i started to feel the DP a short while after that i guess. so u feel the same way about sinking into your bed!?!?! omg i thought i was the only one who felt that and my husband doesnt understand and i feel so alone..im so glad to speak to others with this!
did you get dp/dr from drug abuse and trauma? thanks for the vid response. i have generalized anxiety, panic, and depression.
how long does your dp usually last? damnit i have it 24/7. i feel the same thing about my bed! i hate it i feel like im sinking into my bed and time is going too slow.
i also have generalized anxiety with panic attacks, misdiagnosed with bi-polar, they said it was borderline personality and not bi-polar....i also have "trichatillomania" witch is a anxiety-related disorder....
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Camaromandave98 6 days ago
@Camaromandave98 oh wow, you are a nutcase. No wonder. explains everything. go to rehab druggie. or just kill yourself now and take your body out of its misery. obviously you don't respect it - fill it up with drugs and alcohol. so smart!!! I hate people like you - you deserve no pity dumbass. you are depressed because of your life choices. Oh well, you'll be rotting in hell.
lisaKDL 1 day ago
@lisaKDL Go to hell you stupid cunt, ive only been on the PRESCRIPTION pills my doctors gave me for 1 years and alcohol for two, i hate people like you who love to talk shit but have never walked a half a miles in ones shoes.
Stupid fucking twat, shove you're head a little farther up you're ass and suffocate, do us all a favor.
Camaromandave98 1 day ago
@lisaKDL Oh and thanks btw for taking the time out of you're day to go on my profile and personally search through my comments to follow me, means a lot someones that interested in me :D.
Want an autograph??
Camaromandave98 1 day ago
I have had this for 25 years.
I got it when I was 8 years old, and it has never gone away.
I wish I knew how to cure it.
aadailey 6 days ago
hey what kind of TV is that?
bumwizard1 1 month ago
I never have taken drugs but for the last week I have been suffering from anxiety attacks (not sure why) and after my anxiety ends I start feeling like nothing is real and everyone I know and everything that has happened all my life is all made up. Its like a dream world I can't get out of.
Today wasn't as bad but it still happened about an hour ago. Do you know what causes it?
JCKustom13 1 month ago
@unreal7reality I know whT you're saying man same here can't o to school can't look at anything I can barely do gym without wanting to hit someone(I have anger issues sensory processing disorder several other things) if any of ou guys can help ne please post on NY videos (I know they suck)
Sockedmonkeys 1 month ago
would it be considered normal to have derealization once or twice in your life because you wernt getting enough sleep like could it be my brain being tired or could that alone indicate an early disorder? Everything felt like a dream or like i was stoned. it was like my mind completely went blank and empty and i forgot what i was doing i even felt like i was shrinking and everything looked really big
noraa93 1 month ago
(Part 3) I can't even go to a restaurant anymore to enjoy myself! It CONSTANTLY feels "OFF"!!! Rare are the times I feel SEMI-normal (semi, literally, never alive in the present) It makes me coop myself up because the outside world is so surreal & weird & off. You're so not alone. & the weirder part is that at times it feels like I have an awareness the others don't, but I never asked for it & don't like the never-ending surrealism
Unreal7Reality 2 months ago
(Part 2) Everyone else is living while I feel an overwhelming sense of an unreal reality constantly (hence, username). It sometimes make me want to slam my head against a brick wall to snap myself back together. At some point, something stopped working & I feel like I'm on some sort of surreal drug that won't let me free. Day-to-day routines like work feel surreal, nothing helps it. It consumes my being & I wish there were an Rx amongst the millions to cure this. Something ALWAYS feels "OFF"
Unreal7Reality 2 months ago
I suffer from derealization more than depersonalization. It makes me want to crawl out of my skin to live in a world that feels like a dream I can't wake up from. Things look/feel surreal constantly. I find it impossible to be in the *moment*, and I HAVE experienced once upon a time what living in the moment was like. It's as if somewhere at some point a wire in my brain just stopped firing neurons. It began with paranoia & feeling schizophrenic, but I'm not schizophrenic, THIS is what I have
Unreal7Reality 2 months ago
how do i know your a real person not just a robot?
trijaysantos 2 months ago
I think I might have depersonalization disorder. I don't know what anything is. I feel like my body is here but my mind isnt. I can't read very well or understand things. Like if i read something itll be very hard to tell you what i read about and it's a similar thing with watching movies. My mind is completely blank, when Im with my friends im very quite, because nothing comes up to say anything. Do you resonate with any of this, or am i still the only person that has ever gone through this
rravi5490 3 months ago
@rravi5490 its exaaaaactly what u just wrote/ i also have a blank mind and am very shy around people i dont wanna say anything stupid and nothing comes to mind.....its weird.
BeautifulHyster1a 2 months ago
@BeautifulHyster1a Hello all. I passed through this for almost 7 years, with a gradually recovering and decreasing in intensity. I think it all depends on determination. I overcame it by my one. Although there are few therapist and psychiatrists familiar to this disorder i strongly encourage everyone to ask for help, especially to try different types of therapy till you find one that suits you. Retroactively i think that this would have shorten my recovering.
GoldenAgeAscension 2 months ago
@rravi5490 Sounds like you are telling my story to the exact letter. I suffer from Anxiety/Panic Disorder, as well as PTSD. With medication, I had gotten this down to almost never events. Now it is back with a vengeance. It is like my meds totally quit on me overnight. Thanx! Glad to know I am not alone, but sorry that anyone else has to experience this.
sizzled28 2 months ago
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dont know if i am experiencing derealization or not. Everything just seems fake, it is like a never ending dream. It's like i'm doing something and then I'm like, "Oh shit, why did I do that " Im only 14 and I don't think I deserve to be like this. I have never done drugs, but I try sips of wine when my mom lets me. It has only been 2 days but it just feels like I can't take. I have OCD, ADHD, My family has severe panic disorders , and some of my family has depression issues.
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devildude194712 6 months ago
(continued) I want to live without it so bad, but I don't have any idea how to get rid of this nasty feeling. Can anyone give me some advice on how to overcome derealization?
fluchderkaribik12 7 months ago
@fluchderkaribik12 there are so many different ways that help different people cus everyone experiences different symptoms or symptoms that are alike but things that help someone might not be able to help you....you know???
BeautifulHyster1a 7 months ago
I can't remember when I first felt like this. I'm only 16, but it's been (I think) more than 6 years, but I didn't know what it is until I recently found out about it, and have to say that I am so glad that I'm not alone with this. I tried to talk about it with several people, but they just won't listen.
It's very similar to what you describe in the video, but I don't have this "condition" all the time (I guess I'm a bit lucky after all...), but I do have it at least once a day.
fluchderkaribik12 7 months ago
I feel this all the time I am only 14 and i get scared all the time and i cry.. My mother thinks im going crazy and i want it to just go away I dont believe anything is real anymore i think everything is like a dream and i cant cope with life normaly anymore.. and people just dont understand me. I want to pray to god to take it away and i feel as if demons are messing with my mind.. what have i done for this to happen to me.. please help with what i should do im really frightened of myself.
SimsFeee 7 months ago
@SimsFeee wow, i apologise for what your going through, i kno0w howfrightening this can be to you especially since your only 14 years old, although age has nothing to do with it but first off you need to know the root of the problem .i mean like what caused this depersonalization (im not a doctor, but to me it sounds like you have it, and severe depression), i feel like you most of the time. was it caused by some type of trauama? if so, what did u go through?
BeautifulHyster1a 7 months ago
@SimsFeee (continued) if it was drugs, what kind of drug? if it was stress..when and how do u normally get stressed out? ETC..u need to know the root of this problem and once you get it it will be a bit easier to cope, and medication also helps. have u ever been on any type of medication? let me know. i really hope you feel better, i keep promising to do another video on DP wiitch i havnt had the chance, but i will do it cuz its highly requested.
BeautifulHyster1a 7 months ago
@SimsFeee Dude--you gonna be all right. Everybody gets strange thoughts come to 'em sometime, they just mostly keep quite so's nobody thinks they's messed up. You gonna be all right. You're not alone. You say you wanna pray--DO that NOW! and anytime these feelings get to you. Talk to your mother and ask about counselors. Nothing wrong with that. One don't help, try another. And love yourself! Don't be putting yourself down. God loves you, gonna be there for you ALWAYS. Never give up!!!
clyde2921 6 months ago
@SimsFeee is there a cellphone tower close to your house?
YouOnlyDeleted 5 months ago
@SimsFeee I'm going to make a wild guess that you have suffered severe trauma and/or extreme neglect. I have had this for as long as I can remember. Meds helped for awhile, then they quit on me just a few weeks ago. Guess I need to get back in to see the doc.
sizzled28 2 months ago
Ive had this nonstop for 2 years. The life before... my life before seems like another life. I was a different person. I belive this shit is caused by society... I started losing my mind in the last year of school. Socializing was the only thing that kept me sane. I had too keep going over everything in my head over and over... And it kept going on and on... Then i started too belive i was other people. I was screwed.. Then i got DP .. and 2/3 years later just starting too come out.
nextinline777 7 months ago
It's taken a year for me too come out of it. Month by month abit clearer.. But now i feel like i'd rather of died whilst being depersonalized than come back too this place. My whole perspective on everything has changed. Im such an alien where i live. But everything on the outside affects you alot more. Maybe the more restricted you are on everythingt the worst it gets. It's the anxiety..& bottleing up.. which bottled up emotions turn into energy. But yeah ... this illness has litterly killed me
nextinline777 7 months ago
I have this for about 2 months now,and I'm going crazy atleast it feels like it. I really need help,I did smoke weed before but I really dont know if that's the cause I'm so scared that it will never go away :(
ommar460 7 months ago
@ommar460 i know how nasty this DP feels...exactly how u described feeling of going crazy, could be from weed. its mostly trauama stress and drug related.
BeautifulHyster1a 7 months ago
@BeautifulHyster1a Thanks for your quick reply,and I just realized that I'm more suffering from Derealization then DP. I'm really inside a dream and everything I do is very weird my vision is very foggy and weird hard to explain the exact feeling though. But I'm 100% sure that I have this,I have been living a a stressful enviroment for a long time and my sleeping habit is very bad and I think two migraine attacks triggerd DR for me. I also have a mom with Borderline,so it could be in the genes.
ommar460 7 months ago
I've never actually taken drugs before or anything. Yet about a week or two ago, I just started feeling like I've been living in a virtual world. The world seems like so real that it's unreal, like I'm in a videogame. I think I may have derealization.
AaronHubler 7 months ago
@AaronHubler you may, it seems like it....know that theres millions of us.
BeautifulHyster1a 7 months ago
I suffer from this. I was screaming on the floor and I wasn't here, NOTHING. U can not explain what I went through. It's not the first time. I'm suffering SO much. I don't know what to do anymore.
shawnme08 8 months ago
i feel you, i know the pain your going through, it sucks...and many of us have this and are going through this in the youtube community and ive got so much feedback on this subject. you hafta understand how u think you got DP....was it drug induced, was it trauma? was it stress/pressure? when u understand, youlle feel a bit better. i take klonopin 1 mg for it, and i havnt experienced DP for over 3-4 months now? but once im off the pills, i feel it again....
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
just keep talking to people with this, i got so much greatly aappreciated feedback on this subject sooooo many people have this and i feel horrible for them..but it helps to talk about it witrh others =)
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
something like that is present in Lyme Disease
maciejwrotek 8 months ago
pg 2 - So...If you are philosophical at all, I recommend looking at the disorder philosophically. It helped me a lot...In fact sometimes I kind of enjoy the very short lived periods now.
maneatingtoilets 9 months ago
I used to get really anxious about this, but now I've sort of learned to appreciate it. It can be very interesting looking at it from a philosophical perspective. My major 'symptom' was a feeling that I was in the Matrix. I almost always become more introverted than usual when I begin to notice it. I even think it may have started when I was a child, I used to lye in my bed and feel REALLY small, like I was dwarfed. Sometimes the complete opposite. I also get the bed swallowing! continued pg2
maneatingtoilets 9 months ago
Are you Jewish?
JamesTCA 9 months ago
YOU gimme one month of doing what I say ALONE in your room nobody needed, no money, pills, church, nothing.. gimme 30 days and you will be BETTER than normal.
lifeisharvest 10 months ago
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HEY MAN... cool vid.. please hear me out...I HAD DR for a while man... I tried it all.. nothing worked.. then I did this... this is me, be well bro... /watch?v=lmlNbT4c9QU
lifeisharvest 10 months ago
its a symptom of severe anxiety!!!!
getfunky79 10 months ago
Although this has happened to me only three times in my life I am still scared. One time I ran into the road after my mothers car, one time I wandered aimlessly up an down the streets and almost missed my bus home. All three times were after stressful events, twice after doctors appointments. Can someone explain why I also get shaky and feel very tired, to the point of almost not being able to stand up?
Buffheart 11 months ago
@Buffheart It usually happens in response to a traumatic event, so that's normal. Not everyone has it constantly, or forever. It's kind of like PTSD but AS the trauma is happening, not later. Your mind is detaching trying to prevent you from panicking/stressing further but it's actually making it worse (which then can cause the vicious cycle some people live with for years, but not everyone!) The best advice I can give to anyone is DISTRACTION. The days I've felt best I stopped DWELLING (:
ThexDoctorsxLie 9 months ago
@alriguez no not truebecause i didnt know waht that feeling was untill i looked it up....ive had it for a while before i knew what DP was
BeautifulHyster1a 11 months ago
I sufferd it for 4-5 years now. ugh... but slowely its fading away, i give it another year. this last couple of weeks, i feel reality coming back in. sometimes for just a sec, sometimes for 15 min, but its coming man. and i love it :D here i come world, i am back babyyyyyyyyyyy
CartmanLandZ 1 year ago
@CartmanLandZ I see you posted a couple months ago. May I ask how you're doing now? (:
ThexDoctorsxLie 9 months ago
@ThexDoctorsxLie its over finally, its over :)
Ah man I havent thought about it for a long time. Its good to see the progess I made.
Jesus and L-theanine helped me alot ! :)
CartmanLandZ 9 months ago 2
@CartmanLandZ So good to hear! :) I don't know you, but I'm extremely happy for you! I love recovery stories because I imagine that to climb out from this hole must be the best feeling in the world. It makes me happy for the sufferer who has relief, and it also gives me encouragement and hope for myself. <3
Keep it up, and I wish you all the best in life :D
ThexDoctorsxLie 9 months ago
@ThexDoctorsxLie thank you sweety! i wish all the best for you too, and ill be doing another DP video again soon just to let everyone know what has helped me and whats made it worse etc....you will conquor this one day...dont worry i really have alot of hope for all of you!!! =) GOODLUCK
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
@CartmanLandZ yay =) glad to hear
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
@ThexDoctorsxLie i feel alot bettter, it comes and goes but it comes for short periods of times, ill be making a video shortly telling you how and what i did to help me with it and what made it come back and what not....thank you.
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
I have suffered with this for 4 months now, im slowly coming out of it. Or at least feel a lot better than before. It can last for years though, some forever. But you never know. Some can experience this for 2 weeks, others months some years. I know someone who suffered with it for 15 years, he recovered a few months ago. AFTER 15 YEARS. So it usually goes. Hopefully it will for me too. If anyone wants to talk about this please add me. It is shit scary i want to talk to someone about it.
Bulby93 1 year ago
@Bulby93 hi glad you contacted me about this im willing to talk to you and give you all theadvice i can give u even tho im noy a professional or a doctor i did enough research to know about this DP disorder. how do you think it began/what do you think started it for you??? i havnty made a DP video in so long ill be making another/new one soon hopefully. but otherwise, there are tons of us here on the youtube community, its great were here to talk if u need ;] so get back please thanxxxx
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a cheers. It started after i smoked some weed, about a month after it manifested itself slowly with brain fog dark thoughts etc. I then had a panic attack a massive one and i think that's what turned it into full blown DP/DR. After going through all stages, (thinking im psychotic etc) I got put on an ssri (citalopram) to help with extreme anxiety and depression. It helped immensely but im kind of regretting it now because i heard ssris can make DP worse in the long run?
Bulby93 11 months ago
@Bulby93 wow, i never heard ssris making DP worse...but what i do know is that benzodiazopines (xanax, klonopin, valiium) can make it worse when you take them for a long period and start weaning yourself off of them, not sure about the ssri's but i will do some research on this and make a video about it when i gather information so thanks for letting me know cus i was going to ask the psyche for an anti-depressent like prozac witch happens to be a ssri. heh
BeautifulHyster1a 11 months ago
I am 16 and have been suffering from this for over 6 months.
It's a living nightmare.
I talk in a whisper as I feel my voice is not mine. The world presses
against my face and my face has a burning sensation. I feel as though I
am only a thought, the only thought in existence. The world exists only
in my own mind.
I wish more people knew about this...it creates such an isolating feeling"/
my heart really goes out to anyone with DP.
RahReplicaGrrrl 1 year ago
I'm a chronic sufferer of this myself. For years I was in the dark because I didn't know what was I experiencing. I've tried talking to my doctors about it and they didn't know what was I was talking about. They just looked at me like I was crazy! I finally found out what is was a couple in Aug online. I'm so sick and tired of this and I just want it to go away. I am tired of living in a "Dream World." I don't talk about it that much because gets me depressed. 7 year episode long over here! :o(
LiLy5484 1 year ago
@LiLy5484 i know how difficult itis, im sorry for anyone who has to go through this, its crazy! just know your not alone and that youtube has a great great great depersonalization community here and were all here for you, ill bne makinga newdp video soon... ok hope u feel better u can messege me anytime. how old r u ???
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
it also could be aura if you have seizures that is what I have.
sowell29 1 year ago
lol i laugh cause this shit suck..I had a attack tonight and thought i was being dragged into a different world..And the constant feeling of bein ina dream fuckin sucks so bad i wouldnt wish this shit on the devil..Mine started when i stayed up watching illuminati videos for like 6 hours and omg i regret it so bad cause i havent been the same since...In the day im decent cause im around people..But at night(Ching) back to crazy world
suicidaljay 1 year ago
do you still have it? i think i have it but im afraid to talk about it.
joeythestud 1 year ago
do you still get it once in a while? i think i have it but im afraid to talk about it.
joeythestud 1 year ago
sounds like stuff i expirenced on shrooms. that would be scary if it ust happend out of the blue!
SilentBud420 1 year ago
@SilentBud420 thats scary. but ive tried shrooms, its different.
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a mabey shrooms made me have a little depersonalization episode...lol, it could happen problly.. if your allready predisposed to having it. shrooms could trigger a episode of it. because shrooms work on the mind
SilentBud420 1 year ago
@SilentBud420 posssibly. yeah its due to drug use alot. so definatly now that i think bout it....
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
naemasufi 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
naemasufi 1 year ago
@SilentBud420 i call derealization a very mild shrooms. I get it like 2 time a week to 3 times a month. Its subtle. To me its kinda calming and might of been becasue i did shrooms. It started after i did them.
Guitarstring187 1 year ago
This is something I should really read more into, I've had similar experiences in my day but maybe not as extreme. Along with much more that I can't really seem to pinpoint.
...and Kudos on the Portishead in the background :-)
redbirdsescape 1 year ago
the best way to describe dp is to say that everything that your brain uses as a sensor to sense outside enviroment is shut off. so therefore it leaves you feeling dissconnected from everything outside of you own thoughts.
brainbug187 1 year ago
I've had derealization since 1997 but always been to control it and it never bothered me. December 2007 I had a bad derealization attack and was put on wellbutrin and it took about 5 to 6 weeks for me to feel like myself again. 3 weeks ago I had another attack and it's been ongoing constant every since. I went to the doctor tuesday and she prescribed me citalopram and metoporol. Anyone ever tried any of these medicines before? Did it work for derealizaton? Pls let me know!
blackgirl86 1 year ago
i have exactly the same thing
i 'm going to scare you and most people here...
YOU WILL FACE PARANOID PSYCHOSIS (DELUSIONS)
AND YOU WILL TRY TO COMMIT SUICIDE DUE TO CONSPIRACY THEORYS
you (like me) probably thought this matrix/unreal/movie/ghost/headspace feeling
was for life and that's true... BUT...
it's going to be worse and worse and worse...
there will be a high risk for all you to go think Nihilistic about the whole world
you'll end up staying at home as long as possible
icedrealmstv 1 year ago
Well i've been on 25 mg of naltrexone for four days now. My pdoc wants to slowly increase the dosage to 100mg. Already i can feel slight changes, things seem a little more still, exercise gives me more of an endorphin rush, and i just feel a little less dp/dr overall. The downsides for me are a little nausea, sedation, and insomnia but nothing i cant live with. If anybody's interested message me and i'll let you know how its going after another week or so.
saede172 1 year ago
@saede172 Thats great! Yes, please post your comment or even a video response after about a week on naltroxone, i think itll help everyone on here/on youtube. Unfortunatly i cannot go on naltroxone Just because i am on methedone and if i take naltroxone while on the methedone ill be sick as a dog, sicker than ive ever been before, naltroxone is actually an opiate antagonist, so those just dont mix well. but if it works for u, More power to ya, seriously its great! =)
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@saede172 hey dont say that. it CAN be treated with somemedications...go see yer doc and tell him you know for a FACT u have DP. how old are you by the way???
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@saede172 @BeautifulHyster1a The first time it happened I was 24, it felt like my arms were in the wrong place and far to long. I had a deep depression at the time, unable to eat or get up out of bed. I also feel an out of body type feeling. I recall seeing my face twisted with hate as I returned my husbands insults. I wondered with horror what I was allowing this marriage to do to me. It felt like I was on the ceiling looking down at two people behaving demoniacally destructive.
naemasufi 1 year ago
u probly never used your imagination before so u felt new to life..!
DrVJJ 1 year ago
@DrVJJ im a vert creative person, i read books, i write poetry, i draw so thats using my imagination, isnt it???
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a ../ofcourse but you probably have to use it to think positive about youself and your life from the inside ,learn something about yourself everyday and from people ,also know your boundaries bea happy and, maybe that will fix some of your depersonalisation issues.
DrVJJ 1 year ago
u feel as if everything is real around u and ur a ghost and no one can see u
Mattyc0nn1 1 year ago
@Mattyc0nn1 yea thats true
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
i find that its all in the head, laaike theres soo much tension in the neck cause its all in your head looking down at your body if you understand?O_O
buuut soo it seems that it feeds of fear, the more you bottle it all up the worst it isO_O and i had that feeling whilst lying on ze bed, its feels laaike your falling into yourself:/ x
nextinline777 1 year ago
anyone get the breathing room sensation/other hallucinations? 6months dp now.
Gaygatsby 1 year ago
@Gaygatsby breathing room sensation? wat do u mean? can u explain that a bit please?
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a It's like the walls expand and contract, its at night when your eyes don't have a lot of stimulus, i also get floating objects and the room turns very dark before returning bright. Got a panic attack the first time it happened, but now i can tell myself "ahhh i'm just going insane again".
Anybody got any crackpot therapies for dp/dr before i get myself some pills from the doc? I've tried the usual suspects, booze, pot, fight club, st johns wort
Gaygatsby 1 year ago
its called day dreaming.
dallasgoldbug 1 year ago
ive had it for 8 years.... im going to try naltrexone in a couple of weeks ill let you know how it goes. Some promising studies have show efficacy with the disorder
saede172 1 year ago
@saede172 i read that too on wikepedia, please let us know how it goes.... i cant be on naltroxone unfortunatly because im on methedone, and benzos
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
tha'ts how i feel and its from stress family court cops cps and assholes
LetArtsLive 1 year ago
Thank you for this, very insightful. Must be so difficult; I wish you all the best, good luck and hopefully you'll find some form of recovery or improvement in any way.
Uruguruh 1 year ago
@Uruguruh thank u appreciate u viewing my video ;]
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
Beautiful id like to contact u about this also. Not enough space or adjectives to adequatly describe what this is like on here.
kdog513 1 year ago
@kdog513 yea i know, contact me on janetmazarov@yahoo.com....or if u have a facebook search my name : janet mazarov.....maybe after a bit ill give u my number k? id looove to chat
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
I have dp also. for me when it happens its like im just a set of eyes looking around. I am aware of my surroundings and who I am but its like everyone else is there and Im about to become invisible. I can feel myself with this blank yet panicked stare on my face, and of course no one understands what its like to be controlled by this demon.
kdog513 1 year ago
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I was reading that you said when you look in the mirror, your face looks distorted. Well.. when I was looking at my friend's face, one time when she was lying down, it didn't look right. It felt like I couldn't identify her as a human being. I began to feel disorientated.
Another time, I was in a class and we had to read aloud. When it was my turn, I was stumbling on my words, because I could hear my voice, but not recognize what I was saying.
So, should I talk to my doctor about this?
liverbitz91 1 year ago
I was reading that you said when you look in the mirror, your face looks distorted. Well.. when I was looking at my friend's face, one time when she was lying down, it didn't look right. It felt like I couldn't identify her as a human being. I began to feel disorientated.
Another time, I was in a class and we had to read aloud. When it was my turn, I was stumbling on my words, because I could hear my voice, but not recognize what I was saying.
So, should I talk to my doctor about this?
liverbitz91 1 year ago
@liverbitz91 Hmmm, its hard to say since im not a licenced professional, lol..but you can talk to your psych see what he/she says...it could be nothing, but then again it can be somthing, you never know.
does this ALWAYS happens to you???
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
Also if anyone wants to chat about their experiences I'm happy to talk.
cucumberzr4chumpz 1 year ago
Yea everything feels like a dream and my head feels like it's not attached to my body. Also it feels like I'm not in control of my own actions and my body acts without permission, but I still wouldn't do anything that I wouldn't do normally if that makes sense. I've had depersonalization for 1.5 or 2.5 years (time is really distorted and it seems to blend together a lot). It's comforting to know that there are other people out there with it and that we're not alone.
Thanks for posting this vid
cucumberzr4chumpz 1 year ago
@cucumberzr4chumpz your welcome! there will be more to come... =D
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
try a hypoglycemic diet and a vitamin b complex. This helps so much.
ApacheBoneknife 1 year ago
@ApacheBoneknife really? thank you, ill def try it =)
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@BeautifulHyster1a Yes. Look up what you need to do for the hypoglycemia diet. I don't have enough room to type it all here. Basically, you have to limit the amount of carbs you and and make sure you get a good amount of protein with each meal. Eat small meals every two or three hours. Stable blood sugar is important with any "mental disorder". B vitamins will help balance brain neurotransmitters and ease the effects of stress. Feel free to p.m. me with questions.
ApacheBoneknife 1 year ago
I have also have patients who get DP/DR from certain prescription drugs and or Marijuanna ( This form seems to last a lot longer than those who just get it from stress )
TheGreekMan1981 1 year ago
@TheGreekMan1981 yeah, i used to get it from marijuana, but i havnt smoked marijuana in a very long time, like maybe 7 years ago, i stopped, but the DP came back after dealing with so much stress, panic attacks and anger..
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
DP/DR is a direct result of extreme stress. Basically what happens, is your brain can't handle all of the stress and it begins to disassociate to a point where you are running on the minimum. You get to a point where you are on auto pilot. It does go away when the stress goes away. It could take days, weeks, or months...but it usually almost always goes away. Hope this helps, Charles
TheGreekMan1981 1 year ago
Ive been suffering for 2 years, and now for the past 5ish months its been slowly going awayO_O
hope it doesnt come backV_V
nextinline777 1 year ago
It happened to me once when I had a panic attack and I thought it was cool.
GTRrocker666 1 year ago
@GTRrocker666 theres nothing cool about it, its terrifying, scary as hell!
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
VERYY informative!!! thank you soo much!! i THINK i have been dealing with dp since i was 15 and im 33 now!! for the most part it has become such a part of me that i have adapted to it but sometimes it amplifies suddenly and becomes like im starting over,,, please keep me up to date on ANY findings that have helped you!!! im at
korrupt4 1 year ago
@korrupt4 thank you, there will be alot more videos to come, just subscribe and youlle be up to date...i know ive been neglecting my channel lately, but im back and ill be making more videos soon. How are you doing????
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
I just found out i have DP I want to contact you
suspect809c 1 year ago
@suspect809c u want to share your story with me? im all eyes/ears
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@suspect809c
kdog513 1 year ago
@suspect809c talk to me.
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
the drowning in my bed has happened to me but i only felt like this when i was high. does d.p only occur when your not high or when you are high?
Ilovesvs499 1 year ago
@Ilovesvs499 when your not high but under looots of stress to the point where u cannot handle it,
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
has the feeling of u drowning insidde your bed ever happened to anyone?????
BeautyFiXfrenzy 1 year ago
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bridgewells43 1 year ago
im 15, ive had this for two years now,
but i only found out there was a name for it about a month ago,
i was kinda relived to find out there was other people in the world who felt this way.
i thought i was the only one, i thought i was a crazy :/
my friends didnt understand.
mine doesnt come and go though,
i havnt had one single second without feeling like i wasnt in a dream in these whole two years.
anyone who think they can help ?
pleasee ?
x x
missJenniferThomson 2 years ago 5
I suffered this dp & dr for years. It seems to be an archiac tool/part of the brain that detaches us (consciously)/cuts us off from reality when we believe we are experiencing something unacceptable(trauma, anxieties, being caught & eaten). We know it as.., "doubt" (but on an extremely fundamental level). Feeling liberated from the "bad situation" (which could now simply be DP/DR), should result in allowing your reception/realization to return. Does this make sense to you? Good luck!
bridgewells43 1 year ago
thanks for sharing, yoour not alone but unfortunatly theres no "cure" for this. do u know what triggered your DP???
BeautyFiXfrenzy 1 year ago
@missJenniferThomson if youd like, you can post up a video response and share your story on here if youd like =)
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@missJenniferThomson hey glad u sharedc this with myself and youtube, they have a great community of people who understand us and do noy judge witch is a major issue with me. Do u know how your DP came about? whatcaused it?? let me know im noy a professional or a doctor but ill give u my opinions k? ;]
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
@missJenniferThomson I can relate, I don't know if I'm much help but I'd just like to let you know I'm 15 (will be 16 this year) and have had this for about a year now.. My friends try to be understanding but I know they don't get it. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anybody, but I wish I could take everyone I know, put them in a room for ten minutes and make them feel what I feel (and CAN'T feel) so maybe people will relate better. If you want to message me feel free. (same to anyone else.)
ThexDoctorsxLie 9 months ago
@missJenniferThomson oh wow....yeah thats difficult when its there and doesnt go away...have you tried any type of medications for it??? have you talked to a psyche????
BeautifulHyster1a 8 months ago
"it's always over looked"
That is SOOO TRUE
rob205rob 2 years ago
You wonder how you can sit there and talk about it calmly and rationally when the feeling is so damned intense...NO ONE understands how INTENSE it is!!!!
rob205rob 2 years ago
It feels like one part of you is totally there, and another part of you is totally gone.
It feels like you are stoned without the euphoria.
It feels like you're braindead.
It feels like your feelings, your emotions, who are you is a million miles away..like there is a great divide between you and you.
rob205rob 2 years ago 19
@rob205rob I sgree with u on all of this! thanx for watching the video and since oits been a while i will make another DP video fr you guys and girls. =)
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
It feels like a near death experience that never goes away.
It feels like you're breathing happy gas at the dentist 24/7.
It feels like you're light headed all the time.
rob205rob 2 years ago
BeautifulHyster1a , Im wondering did you get DP from panic attacks or did come from somthing else.
Dalen77 2 years ago
@Dalen77 could have been the panic attacks could be everything negative ive experienced inmy life....
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
i just laugh when i think about it, i've had depersonalization i think maybe a year or 2 and just today i found out about depersonalization and i have been up for hours researching it, watching movies on it etc. lol
I think now that i know more about it, the worse i'm gonna get because i have more to think about now. FML.
TrickStatus 2 years ago
-blurry vision (kinda)
-feeling like your going insane/crazy
-feeling high like on marijuana
my simptoms .... after i have the panic shock !
i feel this about a month or more days. It is so so so !!!! strange fealing it is like im not me anymore.
Im trying to battle with this but it is lost couse. Now my good mum have give me xanax and coaxil pills. To cure Anxiety. Pls can somebody tell me that this will pass and i will feal better.
dovlex 2 years ago
@dovlex thanks for everybodys feedback it means the world to me =)
BeautifulHyster1a 1 year ago
Go into the garden, plant flowers, plant vegetables. Play in the dirt. Get your hands dirty, EVERY day.
Stay away from things that help with transcendence: Music, Movies, TV, Sleeping, Anything sedentary; these things will not help you at all.
ugiswrong 2 years ago
hey, yea i got this but im seein a psychologist and psychiatrist about it :) im hopefully bout 2 try abilify if they will let me. Its great that u r makin vids :) keep it up
cucumberzr4chumpz 2 years ago
let mer know how it goes please
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
fuck all of you why did this happen to me :( i feel like i have to fight it off but theres nothing to fight... im trapped in a prison help me please
BowToMySkill 2 years ago
your not alone, trust me...im there with ya heh
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
Lol girl, you look really dazed.
Are you stoned?
b1nphk66 2 years ago
on meds.
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
there's no such thing as cannabis psychosis. there's ACCUTE cannabis psychosis, where it lasts just for the 2 or 3 hours [sometimes more] of being high. and then there's schizophrenia, which is made worse by cannabis, albeit not CAUSED by it.
there is no "cannabis psychosis.." there may be "cannabis-related-obsessive-stress-oh-why-did-i-smoke-that-joint" but that's evidently something different.
b1nphk66 2 years ago
dude, you know how sometimes when you smoke weed, something will look cartoony, it's wicked noticeable. Well, I've had that, that is derealization FROM CANNABIS.
I've honestly never felt this way until I smoked weed, it really fucked me up. bad highs kinda gave me some crazy form of PTSD, and I call it depersonalization/derealization
joeybones4 2 years ago
that's weird..
when you say things LOOKED cartoony, do you mean that your vision was also altered.. or were they PERCEIVED as cartoony? because i've experienced things feeling kind of strange and surreal, but i found that quite pleasurable. i think the majority of people who get high experience a level of that.
so were things VISUALLY "cartoony?" i can't say i've ever received any distinctly visual effects from cannabis.
b1nphk66 2 years ago
Some people know what I'm talking about. Cartoony might not be the best word to describe it, different lighting and shadows I guess.
Visually, I would say so, but I could be just perceiving it to be so, I really don't know, my mind is fucked. But I would definitely get this same thing whenever I smoked weed, but now it's effecting me while sober
joeybones4 2 years ago
CANNABIS PSYCHOSIS, that's what it is
that's my theory on it
joeybones4 2 years ago
if you keep thinking it, then it sure as hell isn't going to get any better.
b1nphk66 2 years ago
hallo im from denmark and am like you...
louiefriis 2 years ago
Anafranil worked for me.
cchotwire 2 years ago
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Proofistic 2 years ago
I've had chronic depersonalization/derealisation for 6 years now with no breaks. I can relate completely to what your saying. Thankyou for making this video. The more people that do, the quicker we will be able to raise awareness and find a cure. No-one should have to live with this...exist rather. x
lelefairy123 2 years ago
Ive had it for four years and to me its more like NOT or barely existing. Like you are so far away from everything or like you only exist in your thoughts. This stuff is scary!!! any way you put it.
dac48 2 years ago
It's just that it becomes more severe in others than in some people. It's all about the way you think, and see things. If your constantly thinking about how you SHOULD feel about something then it will NEVER truly go away. You have to forget about it and pretend it's NOT there.
martyeclair 2 years ago
It doesn't disspear out of nowhere, if it dissapears it means you've learned to relax and stop thinking about it. The more you think about it, the more it will happen. It's not so much thinking about it, it's more stressing about it. That's all, EVERYONE experiences this.
martyeclair 2 years ago
time is going too fucking fast.
its freaks me out
a moment ago it was 12:30 and its almost 14:00 now
i have DP and DR does it partof it?
from the moment i woke up i had DP i even felt it while dreaming
BaRx0 2 years ago
i know time goes by either very fast OR very very slow with DP, (with me it goes slow) but wait, is yours drug-related or due to some type of trauma, stress or anxiety disorder??? what do u think..?
BeautifulHyster1a 2 years ago
i have really no clue ..
its not drugs, i dont do any drugs.
trauma stress or anxiety maybe but i dont know.
im seeing a social worker and a psychiatrist and hoping that i will find out.
anyway, the time was way too fast today and it freaked me out, like im running out of time or something
BaRx0 2 years ago
I would like to know why people keep posting about this then disappearing. They rarely post more than one or two videos after the first one. I have it too and it sucks.
strong1here 2 years ago
probably part of the disorder... life is in segments, like waking from dreams... the farther you get away from the dream, the less you remember it... i think it is like having many little mini-lives that are not related to each other, we don't have a constant flow of time like 'normal' people.
ragdollannie 2 years ago
thats a great way to put it actually.
BeautyFiXfrenzy 2 years ago
i think its both because it began after i went through a few horrible expeireinces in my life and thats actually when i started using drugs i started to feel the DP a short while after that i guess. so u feel the same way about sinking into your bed!?!?! omg i thought i was the only one who felt that and my husband doesnt understand and i feel so alone..im so glad to speak to others with this!
BeautifulHyster1a 2 years ago
did you get dp/dr from drug abuse and trauma? thanks for the vid response. i have generalized anxiety, panic, and depression.
how long does your dp usually last? damnit i have it 24/7. i feel the same thing about my bed! i hate it i feel like im sinking into my bed and time is going too slow.
dummyfreshdoris 2 years ago
i also have generalized anxiety with panic attacks, misdiagnosed with bi-polar, they said it was borderline personality and not bi-polar....i also have "trichatillomania" witch is a anxiety-related disorder....
BeautifulHyster1a 2 years ago