I am so pleased to make your acquaintance, Rogi. The goxter sent me to you, and I'm happy he did. The best of luck to you, and thanks for inviting me into your life.
Hi Rogi. great video. I feel terrible because I've used this type of language. I've gotten to a point where I tend to dish it out far more easily than I should. A sort of defense mechanism. Similar to adopting the word 'wog' 'gay' 'queer' and 'fag' . I do it on the internet more so than in real life because it's more rampant on the net due to the anonymity 'haters' have. Because of your video I promise i'll try to refrain from using offensive words as long as u realize sometimes i will slip up.
youre a verry intelligent women => the things you went trough => that's what i call " we all have dragons in life , some are bigger than outhers " . people need to be more aware abouth outher people but moust of the time they are afraight to place themeselves in that position :-( that's why they lack respect and ignore or on the outer hand bully people => you see that a lot on you tube in the comments ( i don't mean normal critisism or differnce of oppinion) but really degrading comments
@jetunknownactor people need to have the gutts to open up and feel ( or even try to feel) it's like in that movie highlander => with that deer and he needs to feel the connection => it's a beautifull movie => people need to open up and try to sense the connection of everything :-) => think i know how my channel is going to evolve :-) => be youreself as much as you can :-) peace :-)
@jetunknownactor yes, YouTube can be a jungle and an ugly place. It helps to carve out a "nest" for oneself on one's channel, develop some solid friendships and just keep plugging away at what's really important, and let the losers lose all by themselves, with no attention from me. LOL
@Aanthanur I know. And it's really scary. The good news: I'm not so isolated anymore and I can, perhaps, contribute something useful, which is an essential component of my mental health and self esteem. The bad news: fear of doc. drops, that local people will learn what I'm doing, that some crazed stalker will attach himself to me and destroy my life, such as it is. But if I am not authentic, I'm dead, anyway. Thanks.
@rriverstone1 you have been true so many things, i dont think some crazed stalker can do you any harm. My impression is that you are a very strong person that just doesn't know it :)
@Aanthanur I know I'm strong, but my resources are limited and it certainly doesn't cause harm for me to plan for the best, but also for the worst. All of us are strong; we just don't realize how strong until challenged. Thanks for your generous support
Three videos into your channel and I've concluded that you're a very nice person. A bit overly sensitive and maybe a bit too introverted for her own good but hey, that doesn't make you a bad person.
I hope your time on youtube proves to be good therapy. Keep in mind it's the wild wild west out here. Don't take anything too personally.
@RDaneelOlivaw2 Maybe others are too UNDER sensitive. As to introverted: My former g/f said, "being with you in public is like being in a circus parade." I'm not introverted; I'm very thoughtful & take my time in my videos, as they're not, so far, scripted. As to wild west, I live in rural New Mexico; my neighbors wear guns to the grocery. I hope my time on YouTube helps improve the world, in some small way. Silence = death. thanks for stopping by.
@anotherlameaccount well, they'll hate me then. My closest friend & former partner was born intersex, raised male, castrated HERSELF @ 13yo, all alone, started living female@ 19, had SRS soon after. She's an intersex, eunuch, trans person: probably the only one on the planet right now. She's rare and precious and strong and beautiful. So, fuck your old, tired ethics, gender roles, etc. I didn't say in my vid, but I identify as gender queer. I'm thinking we need a stone Queer atheist grp. fuck em
@anotherlameaccount Yeah, but you notice, these big, tough macho men and their female groupies aren't so quick to throw around RACIAL epithets and slurs, now, are they? Gender and sexual orientation epithets are FINE! Cuz, I guess, we're "too grrly" to intimidate. Yet, notice HOW QUICKLY and ABUSIVELY they are threatened, when we DO stand up! LOL They don't numb MY mind; I know hate speech when I hear it. And the women who use those words, trying to look cool for the boys? Gimme strength.
@anotherlameaccount wait: YOU avoid people, so people avoid YOU? You're SHY! That's like dogs being scared of a bunny! Sometimes, I wonder who's really "sick" or has a "disorder." It's a toxic culture. The ones in denial are the really scary ones. I don't call it Post Traumatic Stress DISORDER, because I think it's a logical, rational coping mechanism my brain and mind worked out to try to process the horror. I don't feel disordered. In fact, I'm a lot more ordered than the so called "normals."
Your absolutely right..Language perpetuates stereotypes. It creates an emotional or intellectual nuance. The use of words like faggot, retard etc contribute to the cycle of fear, hatred & isolation. You make some excellent points & I really enjoy & respect yr honesty. ...regards Rene
@777ren Thanks, hun. It's scary, speaking my truth. There are some privileged folk who have no idea what it's like to live under a constant threat of terrorism. They seem to think the problem is ours, that we should just "suck it up" and "be a man about it." I am convinced that "sucking it up" is a major component in why our societies are so toxic: trauma denied, not addressed, with no solutions or cures analyzed or implemented. We can't pretend our way out of sickness.
@rriverstone1 ..I'd have to agree with you about trauma. I work in Mental Health (mostly forensics) Its a very complex dynamic. I do feel there is way too much emphasis on diagnosis. Diagnosis is handy for an overview, however there are so many contributing factors..We run the risk of not seeing another human being as an individual, instead there is a risk of rigid stereotypes surrounding pathologies..
@777ren Are you familiar with MindFreedom point org or TheIcarusProject or Mad Pride? I'm afraid to ask what mental health forensics might be, but I will.
@rriverstone1 MindFreedom is an important advocate for people who have become victimized within the Mental Health system. In Australia we have the MindFreedom Academic Alliance. Ive read a little about this group. & to answer your inquiry re: forensics? Essentially its working with people who have a history of mental health issues & continue to present in Prisons & or Forensic Hospitals. Specifically, i work with people (men mostly) who are released under certain criteria.
@777ren I watch a LOT of Asian horror movies, which probably colored my interpretation. I was thinking it was your job to uncover motives in suicides, homicides and other, violent crimes, to diagnose mental health conditions. I thought: what a yucky job. I'll look up the MF Academic Alliance. My criticism of Mad Pride is folks who appear, to me, to indulge their symptoms too much to be effective organizationally. It's very frustrating. We are encouraged to indulge our passivity too much.
@rriverstone1 ..The word Forensics (within context of mental health services) pertains, mostly to mental health related crimes..In my case its providing support after release. Its difficult because most of the men i work with are products of years of incarceration & little support for Menatl Health..This as changed over the last decade, however most of the guys i work with have been presenting in Institutions for 20 yrs or more. I love the work. It can be a little dangerous at times..
@777ren We speak often in Mad Pride circles of "jail therapy," the fact that there are so few, honestly supportive, places for stabilization and recovery. I admire your dedication. With privatized prisons, there's incentive to lock up ppl. with behavioral health challenges, rather than support them in recovery. I also worry about over diagnosing, in order to irresponsibly medicate. Have u seen the Sidney Poitier film, "Pressure Point?" I find it fascinating
You seem to be dwelling on "Bad words" & i think you are taking them personally. when people who say those thing don't do it to hurt you. How could they when they don't even know you? People who insult you personally whatever words they use are worthless just like the "Words" they are using, I have found that ignoring or ridicule often works.
@bismarket stigmatization, prejudice, hatred of people with disabilities, people of color, women, Queers, discrimination, hate crimes, discrimination in housing, employment, social networking, etc. It's not personal; it's societal. Hate speech is just an excuse to force some people into second class status, where they're exploited and abused.
It's a shame that people have to live in a trailer in such a rich first world country like the US. Where I live, you'd get all kinds of social services in your situation, you could even manage to get a disability pension for the brain injuries. ( In fact my mother lives from a disability pension due to diseases she has. And her medication costs serveral hundret bucks / month, paid by health insurance. I doubt that she'd still be alive in the US ).Nobody would hate you for what you believe here.
@SeltsamerAttraktor I think it's time that the people in the US realize how poor their country really is and that it's better not to spend all that money on wars and the military, but on helping your fellow humans and on science instead.
@SeltsamerAttraktor I receive Social Security Disability Insurance. I paid into it for decades, when I could work. 'course, to balance the budget (aka fund welfare to corporations & fuel the military industrial complex), they want to cut my insurance payments now. I use no medications except aspirin, occasionally, cuz it's very cheap. If I needed Rxs, I'd be dead by now; I'd have 2 b homeless to afford them & can't survive on the streets. Thanks for your support!
I'm a lifetime long atheist who never experienced any persecution for it and I have a tough time oftentimes identifying with those who feel so boxed in. But this really helped me. Everything you said is gold-it's true, it's wise!
The internet seems to be able to link people who think like you and me in ways I don't appreciate as much as I should-because, like I said, I have never experienced the isolation.
Unfortunately-the knife cuts both ways. The internet also invites TROUBLE.
@geodgereturns I am very aware that I am risking my life by producing videos like this. That's not dramatic, hysterical nor calculated to solicit pity; it is fact. I've been on the nets since WebTV, 1990. I've taken precautions, since I first brought the Little Black Box home from Big Lots, to protect myself. I need community; I need people to know I'm alive and thinking. NOT producing videos, radio, writing, being honest THAT is death. I need to be fully alive, while I still can. thanks SO much
You're right! Not allowing yourself to be who you are is death. Sadly, too often ppl come to feel that to be who they are requires they deny somebody else their selfhood. That's why we bang heads so much. "My-somebodyhood-is-shaped-by-emphasizing-I'm-so-anti-you". What stupidity IS that?
Not to add to the melodrama, but I think the biggest risks of putting oneself out on the internet is that is *infested* with the toxic type searchers. Who're even less contrained than irl.
@TalladegaTom According to what I've read, if the info is correct, and if we both underwent the Stanford Bennett IQ test, I had, as a girl, the same IQ as Einstein as an adult (160/200). 'course, I've used mine for basic survival, instead of physics. Righ t now, or 2 years ago, anyway, I function at 135. Memory, panic, rages, fugue states, disassociation, black outs, etc. have plagued me my entire life, gotten me fired and over drawn and in sporadic trouble with "authorities." Thanks, Tom.
I am so pleased to make your acquaintance, Rogi. The goxter sent me to you, and I'm happy he did. The best of luck to you, and thanks for inviting me into your life.
rollofnickles 1 month ago
@rollofnickles thanks and welcome!
rriverstone1 1 month ago
Hi Rogi. great video. I feel terrible because I've used this type of language. I've gotten to a point where I tend to dish it out far more easily than I should. A sort of defense mechanism. Similar to adopting the word 'wog' 'gay' 'queer' and 'fag' . I do it on the internet more so than in real life because it's more rampant on the net due to the anonymity 'haters' have. Because of your video I promise i'll try to refrain from using offensive words as long as u realize sometimes i will slip up.
TheALGAYDA 1 month ago
@TheALGAYDA well, don't hurt yourself, trying to change and thanks! LOL
rriverstone1 1 month ago
youre a verry intelligent women => the things you went trough => that's what i call " we all have dragons in life , some are bigger than outhers " . people need to be more aware abouth outher people but moust of the time they are afraight to place themeselves in that position :-( that's why they lack respect and ignore or on the outer hand bully people => you see that a lot on you tube in the comments ( i don't mean normal critisism or differnce of oppinion) but really degrading comments
jetunknownactor 1 month ago
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@jetunknownactor people need to have the gutts to open up and feel ( or even try to feel) it's like in that movie highlander => with that deer and he needs to feel the connection => it's a beautifull movie => people need to open up and try to sense the connection of everything :-) => think i know how my channel is going to evolve :-) => be youreself as much as you can :-) peace :-)
jetunknownactor 1 month ago
@jetunknownactor yes, YouTube can be a jungle and an ugly place. It helps to carve out a "nest" for oneself on one's channel, develop some solid friendships and just keep plugging away at what's really important, and let the losers lose all by themselves, with no attention from me. LOL
rriverstone1 1 month ago
very good video.
but hey, you are not alone, you just talked to people from around the globe :)
Aanthanur 3 months ago
@Aanthanur I know. And it's really scary. The good news: I'm not so isolated anymore and I can, perhaps, contribute something useful, which is an essential component of my mental health and self esteem. The bad news: fear of doc. drops, that local people will learn what I'm doing, that some crazed stalker will attach himself to me and destroy my life, such as it is. But if I am not authentic, I'm dead, anyway. Thanks.
rriverstone1 3 months ago
@rriverstone1 you have been true so many things, i dont think some crazed stalker can do you any harm. My impression is that you are a very strong person that just doesn't know it :)
Aanthanur 3 months ago
@Aanthanur I know I'm strong, but my resources are limited and it certainly doesn't cause harm for me to plan for the best, but also for the worst. All of us are strong; we just don't realize how strong until challenged. Thanks for your generous support
rriverstone1 3 months ago
Three videos into your channel and I've concluded that you're a very nice person. A bit overly sensitive and maybe a bit too introverted for her own good but hey, that doesn't make you a bad person.
I hope your time on youtube proves to be good therapy. Keep in mind it's the wild wild west out here. Don't take anything too personally.
RDaneelOlivaw2 3 months ago
@RDaneelOlivaw2 Maybe others are too UNDER sensitive. As to introverted: My former g/f said, "being with you in public is like being in a circus parade." I'm not introverted; I'm very thoughtful & take my time in my videos, as they're not, so far, scripted. As to wild west, I live in rural New Mexico; my neighbors wear guns to the grocery. I hope my time on YouTube helps improve the world, in some small way. Silence = death. thanks for stopping by.
rriverstone1 3 months ago
@anotherlameaccount I just started one on FaceBook "Gender Queer Atheists" I'm Rogi Equality Riverstone on Facebook. If you're there, find me.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@anotherlameaccount well, they'll hate me then. My closest friend & former partner was born intersex, raised male, castrated HERSELF @ 13yo, all alone, started living female@ 19, had SRS soon after. She's an intersex, eunuch, trans person: probably the only one on the planet right now. She's rare and precious and strong and beautiful. So, fuck your old, tired ethics, gender roles, etc. I didn't say in my vid, but I identify as gender queer. I'm thinking we need a stone Queer atheist grp. fuck em
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@anotherlameaccount Yeah, but you notice, these big, tough macho men and their female groupies aren't so quick to throw around RACIAL epithets and slurs, now, are they? Gender and sexual orientation epithets are FINE! Cuz, I guess, we're "too grrly" to intimidate. Yet, notice HOW QUICKLY and ABUSIVELY they are threatened, when we DO stand up! LOL They don't numb MY mind; I know hate speech when I hear it. And the women who use those words, trying to look cool for the boys? Gimme strength.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@anotherlameaccount wait: YOU avoid people, so people avoid YOU? You're SHY! That's like dogs being scared of a bunny! Sometimes, I wonder who's really "sick" or has a "disorder." It's a toxic culture. The ones in denial are the really scary ones. I don't call it Post Traumatic Stress DISORDER, because I think it's a logical, rational coping mechanism my brain and mind worked out to try to process the horror. I don't feel disordered. In fact, I'm a lot more ordered than the so called "normals."
rriverstone1 4 months ago
Your absolutely right..Language perpetuates stereotypes. It creates an emotional or intellectual nuance. The use of words like faggot, retard etc contribute to the cycle of fear, hatred & isolation. You make some excellent points & I really enjoy & respect yr honesty. ...regards Rene
777ren 4 months ago
@777ren Thanks, hun. It's scary, speaking my truth. There are some privileged folk who have no idea what it's like to live under a constant threat of terrorism. They seem to think the problem is ours, that we should just "suck it up" and "be a man about it." I am convinced that "sucking it up" is a major component in why our societies are so toxic: trauma denied, not addressed, with no solutions or cures analyzed or implemented. We can't pretend our way out of sickness.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@rriverstone1 ..I'd have to agree with you about trauma. I work in Mental Health (mostly forensics) Its a very complex dynamic. I do feel there is way too much emphasis on diagnosis. Diagnosis is handy for an overview, however there are so many contributing factors..We run the risk of not seeing another human being as an individual, instead there is a risk of rigid stereotypes surrounding pathologies..
777ren 4 months ago
@777ren Are you familiar with MindFreedom point org or TheIcarusProject or Mad Pride? I'm afraid to ask what mental health forensics might be, but I will.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@rriverstone1 MindFreedom is an important advocate for people who have become victimized within the Mental Health system. In Australia we have the MindFreedom Academic Alliance. Ive read a little about this group. & to answer your inquiry re: forensics? Essentially its working with people who have a history of mental health issues & continue to present in Prisons & or Forensic Hospitals. Specifically, i work with people (men mostly) who are released under certain criteria.
777ren 4 months ago
@777ren I watch a LOT of Asian horror movies, which probably colored my interpretation. I was thinking it was your job to uncover motives in suicides, homicides and other, violent crimes, to diagnose mental health conditions. I thought: what a yucky job. I'll look up the MF Academic Alliance. My criticism of Mad Pride is folks who appear, to me, to indulge their symptoms too much to be effective organizationally. It's very frustrating. We are encouraged to indulge our passivity too much.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@rriverstone1 ..The word Forensics (within context of mental health services) pertains, mostly to mental health related crimes..In my case its providing support after release. Its difficult because most of the men i work with are products of years of incarceration & little support for Menatl Health..This as changed over the last decade, however most of the guys i work with have been presenting in Institutions for 20 yrs or more. I love the work. It can be a little dangerous at times..
777ren 4 months ago
@777ren We speak often in Mad Pride circles of "jail therapy," the fact that there are so few, honestly supportive, places for stabilization and recovery. I admire your dedication. With privatized prisons, there's incentive to lock up ppl. with behavioral health challenges, rather than support them in recovery. I also worry about over diagnosing, in order to irresponsibly medicate. Have u seen the Sidney Poitier film, "Pressure Point?" I find it fascinating
rriverstone1 4 months ago
Two wonderful videos. Very glad that I found your channel. And hopefully people will find yours through mine.
There are risks. And of course the more you become known on here the bigger the risk.
I would suggest that you refrain from giving any indication of your location in any video.
Huttate1 4 months ago
@Huttate1 Well, that's a real compliment. I like your work a lot, too.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
You seem to be dwelling on "Bad words" & i think you are taking them personally. when people who say those thing don't do it to hurt you. How could they when they don't even know you? People who insult you personally whatever words they use are worthless just like the "Words" they are using, I have found that ignoring or ridicule often works.
bismarket 4 months ago
@bismarket stigmatization, prejudice, hatred of people with disabilities, people of color, women, Queers, discrimination, hate crimes, discrimination in housing, employment, social networking, etc. It's not personal; it's societal. Hate speech is just an excuse to force some people into second class status, where they're exploited and abused.
rriverstone1 4 months ago
It's a shame that people have to live in a trailer in such a rich first world country like the US. Where I live, you'd get all kinds of social services in your situation, you could even manage to get a disability pension for the brain injuries. ( In fact my mother lives from a disability pension due to diseases she has. And her medication costs serveral hundret bucks / month, paid by health insurance. I doubt that she'd still be alive in the US ).Nobody would hate you for what you believe here.
SeltsamerAttraktor 4 months ago in playlist Weitere Videos von rriverstone1
@SeltsamerAttraktor I think it's time that the people in the US realize how poor their country really is and that it's better not to spend all that money on wars and the military, but on helping your fellow humans and on science instead.
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@SeltsamerAttraktor I receive Social Security Disability Insurance. I paid into it for decades, when I could work. 'course, to balance the budget (aka fund welfare to corporations & fuel the military industrial complex), they want to cut my insurance payments now. I use no medications except aspirin, occasionally, cuz it's very cheap. If I needed Rxs, I'd be dead by now; I'd have 2 b homeless to afford them & can't survive on the streets. Thanks for your support!
rriverstone1 4 months ago
Oh my.
I'm a lifetime long atheist who never experienced any persecution for it and I have a tough time oftentimes identifying with those who feel so boxed in. But this really helped me. Everything you said is gold-it's true, it's wise!
The internet seems to be able to link people who think like you and me in ways I don't appreciate as much as I should-because, like I said, I have never experienced the isolation.
Unfortunately-the knife cuts both ways. The internet also invites TROUBLE.
geodgereturns 4 months ago
@geodgereturns I am very aware that I am risking my life by producing videos like this. That's not dramatic, hysterical nor calculated to solicit pity; it is fact. I've been on the nets since WebTV, 1990. I've taken precautions, since I first brought the Little Black Box home from Big Lots, to protect myself. I need community; I need people to know I'm alive and thinking. NOT producing videos, radio, writing, being honest THAT is death. I need to be fully alive, while I still can. thanks SO much
rriverstone1 4 months ago
@rriverstone1
You're right! Not allowing yourself to be who you are is death. Sadly, too often ppl come to feel that to be who they are requires they deny somebody else their selfhood. That's why we bang heads so much. "My-somebodyhood-is-shaped-by-emphasizing-I'm-so-anti-you". What stupidity IS that?
Not to add to the melodrama, but I think the biggest risks of putting oneself out on the internet is that is *infested* with the toxic type searchers. Who're even less contrained than irl.
geodgereturns 4 months ago
Your brain seems to be working far better than most.
So glad you have found the good stuff on the internet and hope you continue to interact with us like minded folks.
Our circle may be small, but it is growing and good ideas are worth spreading.
Take care of yourself Rogi!!!
TalladegaTom 5 months ago
@TalladegaTom According to what I've read, if the info is correct, and if we both underwent the Stanford Bennett IQ test, I had, as a girl, the same IQ as Einstein as an adult (160/200). 'course, I've used mine for basic survival, instead of physics. Righ t now, or 2 years ago, anyway, I function at 135. Memory, panic, rages, fugue states, disassociation, black outs, etc. have plagued me my entire life, gotten me fired and over drawn and in sporadic trouble with "authorities." Thanks, Tom.
rriverstone1 5 months ago
Thank you for sharing, i have listened with compassion.
goxster 5 months ago